dream fragment

After some non-lucid sequences in my hotel room, I found myself in the kitchen of my house. I knew I was out of town on a trip, so I felt like I was just checking in. However things were a mess, even I knew the catsitter had been coming. There were lots of bowls of food out but they looked old and uncleaned, and the water was dirty. I went over to the sink to start washing them and I noticed that the sink was already full of dirty dishes. However, I distinctly remembered that I had done all the dishes before leaving on my trip. "Does this mean I'm lucid?" I thought to myself, and decided, "Of course, certainly," and felt that I had been aware that I had been dreaming all along even though I evidently had not been until I noticed the discontinuity. (In one of the earlier sequences I had been confusing about whether I was awake or dreaming to the point where I felt convinced that dream events were impinging in impossible ways on waking life.) I wondered if there were other discontinuities and looked around. I noticed that the catsitter had not taken the check I left for her, and that seemed odd. Wouldn't she have taken it on the first visit? However, I realized that this wasn't necessarily a discontinuity, because there might have been plausible reasons for her to have left it until later.

I started washing a dirty bowl at the sink, one that the cats could use, but then I reflected, "If I'm lucid, maybe I should go do something else. I know! I'm in my kitchen, it would be a great opportunity to go outside and leave a trail of breadcrumbs to try to do the Hansel and Gretel task. But first I'll just wash this bowl and leave some fresh food and water for the kitties." So I stayed at the sink and continued washing the bowl, and also washed and refilled a water bowl.

Even though the dream felt very stable to start, I was a bit paranoid that it wouldn't last long enough to let me get to my more interesting task, and I felt like this anxiety about waking was pushing me closer to actually doing so, and tried to put it out of mind. However, I soon felt my senses disengage and half-woke. But I didn't lose the mental image, and after a moment felt my senses re-engage and knew I was back in the dream. So I rushed to get a can of catfood and put it in the bowl I had now cleaned. A dream version of one cat came out and didn't seem interested in the food I had selected, though I figured, maybe this is a good thing, because if the catsitter feeds her food she likes better, the cat (who is very skittish) might feel more friendly to her. Just as I had finished this and was ready to start on my new task, I woke up again, and though I held very still, the dream state was too disrupted to re-enter.

I was a bit annoyed with myself for wasting a lucid opportunity, but I understood my rationale. Even though I knew I was dreaming, I was not comfortable with the idea of leaving my dream-cats ill-tended, so that took priority over any other task. However, the error I made was in tending to them using the tedious methods of waking life: actually standing at the sink and washing bowls, actually going to another room to get the food and walking back with it, opening the can and using a spoon to empty the food into the bowl. I guess I did it this way out of habit, as it certainly felt like I was going through very familiar motions. I should have just manifested some clean food and water and then gotten to my task much more quickly.

Dream - Lucid

I was reliving my past, though it was an alternate version. Honestly, I'm not sure where I was, I just know I was inside somewhere. I was watching the guy that I first kissed, Nick, taking these girls into the bathroom with him. I was jealous because I really liked him. I think at one point I went in there with him, but we didn't make out or anything. He was showing me something in there.

This alternate past went on for quite awhile, mostly it was me watching Nick, wishing he would be with me. There was a brief point of lucidity, though it was hard to grasp. It was like I was having trouble letting go of the dream plot. I finally grasped the idea that I was dreaming, and started trying to do other things, when I woke up.

~

I was in Nick's house, though it was a weird house; it was like a mixture between a house and another location. I saw that Nick was in his room, though I did not go in there. I was in a dark, basement-like part of the building, but I could clearly see the entrance to Nick's room, and I could see the kitchen. We were older now. I had been in this building with him for quite awhile, it seems like years, and he had been in his room for mostly the whole time. I did not see him come out. I didn't want him to see me.

I then had to go in there to give him something. I was afraid he wouldn't talk to me. I believe we did talk, but I can't remember for sure.

I then was "remembering" a part of my alternate past again, though it was when we were older and in college. We were talking and having a great time. We weren't together as a couple, but we were quite close with one another, closer than we ever were IWL. We were sitting on some stairs, just talking and having a great time. I looked into his eyes, and saw him for who he was; his light brown eyes were quite happy.

I then was "remembering" us writing letters to each other. At some point during this, I started to "remember" the past more as it really happened IWL, though not to a T; I wrote him a letter that upset him, and he never spoke to me again. I was now back in the present moment. I then had another "memory" of me in a dark room that was lit with starlights, and it was full of small models of the orbiting planets. There was also a picture on the wall of all the planets that apparently I had made. It looked very realistic, as if it were a computer rendered image or a very realistic painting. It wasn't accurate as far as their orbits went, and I had more on on there than the ones we know, but still, it was really good. It was really quite beautiful. I tried to telekinetically take control of Neptune, which looked like a grey rock with an indentation in the middle. I was not doing a great job at it. As this was happening with the planets, I was thinking about Nick and how close we had been and how upset he was at me.

Then, I was back in the present moment, considering whether or not I should write him more letters, though I was receiving no response. I wanted to write poetry to him, but I then thought about how inappropriate that would be since I'm married.

Dream skip, though the Nick thing was still relevant somehow. I was working at a grocery store, the same one I work at now, though I was not in the bakery, but I was doing something else. I was in a different section. It looked like produce, but was not all produce; there were other things besides fruits and veggies, like rice and such. I was working on setting up a display, when a woman approached me, an older, Asian woman with glasses. She asked me about a bag of rice that she had that was slightly opened. I told her I'd get her another one. I took the one from her and gave her another one. She examined it very carefully to make sure it wasn't opened. The bag was VERY slightly torn, and she noticed. I told her it was fine, it wasn't opened like the other one was. She still needed another one, however. Before I left, she told me she needed a 1-pound bag because the one she had was 3 pounds, and she wanted 4 pounds of rice. She was holding up two bags and showing me how one said one pound and the other said three pound. I took them from her to look, one at a time. For bags of rice, they were extremely lightweight. I gave them back to her. As I was leaving to go get one from the back, she shouted after me
"One pound!" as if I didn't hear her the first time.

I went and found one, I think asking someone about it on the way. I made sure that it said 1 pound on the bag. I went to bring it to her, and she swore it said 3 pounds. -_-'

She then directed my attention to another woman, a customer, who looked like she had chain smoked all her life, who was standing at a microphone at a podium to make an announcement. Only associates were supposed to use those. I saw some smoke trickle from between her lips. She was announcing something. The customer then asked me
"What's your joystick policy?" she asked as if she was quizzing me; she knew the answer, but wanted to see if I knew.
"I don't know," I responded. I had never heard of a "joystick policy" before.
She then directed my attention to an associate, a girl wearing the uniform we have to wear, who was standing behind a different podium with a microphone, but she was standing a bit further a way. The customer asked her to tell me what it was. She started to speak into the microphone, but her voice was no clear at all and I could not understand a word she said. I told the lady I couldn't understand what she was saying.

~

On average, I dream about Nick 1-3 times a year. It's usually something vivid too.

August 9th, 2014

I went to bed earlier this time and hade better luck with dreams. I had a few though i forget what order they happened in. Im super tired this morning and dont feel like writing down all the details.

+ I was at our neighborhood with by brother outside at night. We were in my front yard not doing much, and i was messing around with a multitool. My yard looked almost the same as it does now, it was a pretty accurate display. While i was messing around with the multitool an car was trying to pull into out driveway. I got out of the way and it pulled in. It had treads on the front tires. Later we took a roadtrip to another house and a lot of people were there. We were busy listening to a conversation for a while. Then we were told to leave and before we good i woke up.

+ one dream i was playing a zombie game on xbox at my friend jakes house and i got down in the game and had to go across the street to see that friend in a white house to tell him to revive my character. The other house was small and had clutter everywhere. I talked to them for a while.

+another time i was at a racetrack and tried gaining entry to a race so i walked down a entry road to the track to ask the track manager but he wouldn't talk to me, i saw the cars start and take off and one car stalled. I cant remember what cars exactly were there.

Date: 08 Aug

Pre bed: 1/2 cup soy milk, 350 mg arginine (combo)

Wbtb: 1/2 latte, felt discomfort due heat which made it harder to concentrate. I tried doing 1-2 ssild cycles to relax, but mostly gave up due discomfort.

WILD: First was a transitional stage of me in bed and my body rotating, as I was trying to figure out which hands I'm moving. Kind of blurry memory here.

This later switches to another scene in parents' old bedroom where I appear feeling rather floaty and unstablish. In front of me are wooden shelves, so I run my hands on the surfaces multiple times to anchor myself. At the same time a glass case catches my attention, where I can see my reflection - averagely normal with something weird lurking behind. As I turn around to see what it is I am faced by my own doppelgänger and she is somewhat aggressive. She throws herself on the ground initially in some sort of a unexplainable act. Then approaches menacingly but I put her on hold - at an arm's distance with my mind.

As I manage my own reactions she calms down and now I decide to look at her more closely and make some manipulations. What if I were taller and she is now much taller. I examine her with curiousity but still have a bit of an after feel of aggression so decide to make sure she is harmless. I give the overly tall DC a hug around the waist and watch as she changes features to a different DC.

Then, I see the door behind her and feel like doing some tking. I look at it in order to will it open but the dream slips away. Back to my body and still for a DEILD

DEILD: I appear on the balcony, the one that looks over to neighbors. Quite excited about being here as this brings memories of past non-lds. There is a guy that pushes me ahead (as to move further, him being quite active) as I examine the neighbors' balcony. The dream is rather unstable at this point but I'm glad to have a companion and cross over to the other balcony where there is some sort of mattress, thinking both of us can sit here for a bit and plan the dream.

Forgot the exact words now, but told him something like "let's talk about adventures" or so and was waiting for him to sit. He disappears in the kitchen (neighbors) but then is back again, wearing the same red t-shirt as I make a mental note (resembles somewhat Michael Cassidy).

My voice is barely coming out as I say the adventure sentence and I wonder if it would count if I ask him about the basic task telepathically. But how is he going to answer? Too complicated and I decide to go with normal speech, struggle to speak but finally ask him.

His reply is "Woof" which sounds as if he is barking.

Me: "Woof?", are you sure?

He: Uhum. (as in yes)

Me: Ok, then. So what does that mean?

He: Hoof.

I ask for confirmation and he gives me another uhum. Oh well. The dream soon falls apart. I'm not feeling quite in shape to deild so let it go at this point and after a brief ld review go to sleep.

Non-memorable dreams, something vivid that forgot and then.

LD: I am near this familiar building. Something clicks and I recognize this as place of older dreams. There was a false memory or thought about the place too. I get inside and decide to experiment with door summons to see where they lead. I open a door - there are two DCs coming out of something that looks like a sparsely furnished bathroom. I don't quite like it, so close the door and wait a bit till it changes to try again.

In the meantime, more DCs appear around me and one of them makes aggressive moves towards me. After an initial super strength outburst, which comes out like some sort of a force push, I decide to chill out and try to calm them down while taking a moment to examine my inner state. I'm still slightly apprehensive of them, so try to control my own reactions and feel more at ease. From the tense situation I work on my indifference, relaxing more and at some point I start walking around freely and making funny zen moves (but not the Xanous move alas!). Don't remember when but at some point the dream ends.


Lucid FA: I wake up at home, the room looking very realistic and bf is walking around. I decide to play a bit stupid and ask him if I'm dreaming couple of times as if I've lost my mind and can't tell that this is reality. He reacts almost normally but I am still unconvinced. There's something in his reaction that is a bit off. "Hey, am I dreaming?", I continue shouting as he vanishes behind the corner. A female DC with a dark red cardigan comes in and then there is no more doubt. I feel a bit euphoric about being able to catch this fa as it felt like quite the thing I would have missed.

Contrary to other times when I have entered the other room, it now turns to a different place altogether. At first I don't catch the clues, but after more examination of the classical wooden furniture, it clicks how this place can indeed be the interior of Howl's castle.

Without any intention from my side, I notice that there is a fireplace to the side and the fire is as real as it gets. It dawns on me after seeing it that it is calficer. I approach the dream fire with astonishment for it is one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen. It's not just a regular fire - there is so much light in it, it shines like a little star, while at the same time being surrounded by flames. I feel almost mesmerized by the sight of it and am so happy to have it in the dream.

Spontaneously, I place my hands around the fire and try to absorb some of its heat and energy. As my hands get closer to the little fire, there is slight tension as in heat related sensation but insignificant to dwell on. In the meantime, the fire gets smaller and smaller as if this process is really draining it. I don't want to do away with it altogether so stop whatever it is I'm doing. The thought crosses my mind that I have spent way too long playing around and risk not completing the task because of that.

I face the room and see that the girl is here again. Now she has a pony tail, blue top and and slightly disturbing facial hair. As I approach her, her face clears a bit and I ask her couple of times if she is Sophie, to which she replies yes.
Perfect, now all I need is a door.

There's a small door on the wall that I open, but it turns more into a small window, plus I need to turn the color dial wheel first. I face the other wall where there is a white door and look to see if there is a dial next to it - there isn't. I recall couple of techniques I thought of using in such case, but instinctively pick another one. Bf's DC is just nearby so I ask him to hand me a dial wheel to put next to the door.

He gives me a round knob-like white object that I place next to the door, cover with my hands and start spinning, until the second layer of it starts to reveal multiple colors. Initially it stops on blue, then it moves to orange. I feel like I want to pick a particular color but am not quite sure which one. I rotate it to yellow, remarking to myself this is taking way too much time. Curious whether the outside will be the same as what can be seen through the nearby window (garden), I think it's high time to stop messing with the wheel dial and open the door.

But it's too late - the dream abruptly ends and I find myself in bed, moving my hand and feels like I've lost the opportunity to go back and complete the task.

I was in a big enclosed public space like a mall and needed to use the restroom. I found the ladies' room, which was a relatively large one with around nine stalls in a single row. I found a stall that was clean and was about to go inside when another woman barged right ahead of me. The next stall I checked had an unflushed toilet, as well as the one after that, and the third one was clean but had no toilet seat. I decided to use it anyway. I stepped into the stall and then remembered, "Wait... aren't dirty public restrooms one of my dream signs? This one isn't particularly dirty but still, I'd better RC." I counted my fingers and saw nothing unusual, then focused on the sensation of gravity and it also felt completely normal.

I remembered the time that I had failed an RC under similar circumstances and decided I'd better make extra sure. So I focused on levitating, really putting a lot of effort into it, but my feet remained firmly stuck to the ground and even the sensation of gravity or my bodily awareness did not alter or feel any more dream-like. So that was how I knew I was awake... until some time later, when I actually woke up, and wondered how the RC could have failed so completely. The gravity RC is usually very reliable, and even on the rare occasions that I don't levitate promptly, I'll notice that gravity or my body don't "feel" right. On this occasion the illusion was perfect!

1.
I was in a big airport which mainly had a color scheme of white. I was sitting down at a table, and had gotten on my laptop. I went to DreamViews and then went to IRC chat. Ophelia was on, and she had pinged me. We started talking about how I was a gamer(im really not) and how I was trying to raise 999$ for my gamer fund. Ophelia told me she was going to give me 10 dollars for this fund, but didn't tell me how I was going to get it.
I logged off of IRC and DreamViews and got off of my laptop entirely. Im not sure what happened to my laptop after this- it didn't show up again. I got out of my seat at the table I was sitting at and looked around. "How is Ophelia going to give me 10$?" Just then, a girl came from behind me and handed me 10 dollars. "This is from Ophelia", she said. This girl was beautiful, and she had light blonde hair and blue eyes. She was about my height and I could tell she was not from here. "Thanks", I said, "Who are you?". She told me her name and we started talking.
After 5 minutes of talking, and getting to see her personality, I fell in love. The feelings were mutual for her. I got to learn more about her and where she was from. She said she was from some country that I had never heard of before, yet she had no accent at all and looked american. She told me about how she had 3 twin sisters(didn't realize this was going to be a problem later on).
Im not sure how, but I remember asking her out. She accepted. We held hands and started walking around the airport, just talking. As we walked, I told her, "You look so beautiful today." She told me, "Thanks, but I only look good today because of my make up." "I'm sure you still look amazing without make up, even on your worst days." I said. I thought to myself, If she looks flawless with make up on, I know she's still pretty underneath it all. Out of the blue, a black guy walked past us and told me that I had a beautiful girl, I told him, "Thanks, I know man."
We continued walking slowly around the place. Soon, the airport around us turned into a mall. I noticed that we were now walking across a long open hallway, and some other dudes my age were following us. I looked behind us, and decided not to worry about them. However, these guys became a problem. They started hitting on my girl and I was about to beat the shit out of all of them, but Raven(Im going to call her that because its the closest to what I can remember, its not her actual name though) kept me cool and acted friendly towards the other guys.
There were 5 guys next to us, and 3 of them were douche-bags. The other 2 were a little younger than the rest, but they were chill. I told Raven I was going to deal with the cock-sucking trio, and she said she was going to go talk to the 2 chill guys while I did so. She left to go talk to them, and now I was alone with the trio.
"You got a pretty girlfriend man, I just might have to take her." said the white dude. "You even touch her, and Im going to beat all of your asses", I said. Then there was silence out of the 3 guys, no reply. I looked over to see what Raven doing, and she was giving a kiss to each one of the chill guys, but it was a friendly-greeting kiss, like the type french people do, so I wasn't worried about it. After Raven told the 2 chill guys, "bye", we continued on our walk. The other 3 dudes that were douche-bags, kind of just left on their own.
We walked to the other side of the hallway across from us and Raven saw a store she wanted to look in. It was some kind of girl clothing store of course. I waited outside, but I didn't stand at the entrance the entire time, I walked around. After about 10-15 minutes of walking around the mall, I bumped into my mom. I asked her if she had seen Raven, and she said she was still in the same store, but now all of her sisters had come inside too.
I wanted to see what her sisters looked like, so started making my way back to the store. When I finally made it, I looked inside and saw 4 girls that looked pretty much identical. The only way I could tell which one was Raven, was by the clothes she was wearing, and I'm assuming her personality as well. All of her 3 sisters looked alike. Each one had a few different facial features, and maybe a little more weight, but thats about it.
Raven told me to meet her at her house later. I had her number so it was all good. I left the mall and started walking home(lol i have no idea why I started walking, its a REALLY far walk, and plus I have a car so wtf). It was still sunny outside as I started my journey, and I knew now it would be a long walk. I started walking along the side of a long road, which was more black than most roads so it must have been newer. As I was walking, I noticed a car coming towards me. As it got closer to me it started slowing down. I could tell whoever was in it wanted to talk to me or something.
As the car stopped in front of me I went to the window of the passenger seat. The window rolled down and in the passenger seat, I saw the black guy that had told me that Raven was beautiful and that I had a good girl. He talked to me about her and told me about how he was going to get her(why does everyone want Raven?!?). I responded back to him negatively, something along the lines of, "No you're not". He got angry and called me some names, some of which I had never heard before. His mom was driving the car and he had some siblings in the back. His mom didn't care a single bit about what was going on. What a nice parent.
The black dude rolled up his window and his mom drove off. His family seemed rather zombie-like because they didn't say anything or do anything. They just sat there looking around. I continued walking to Raven's house and after a long time I finally made it. Her entire neighborhood looked like some town out of Italy. It had Italian architecture and everything. Somehow I knew where her house was and knocked on the door. Her mom answered and let me in. The house was about average size. I walked into the living room where Raven and all of her sisters were, and I also saw a friend of mine, Codi, a girl I knew. I stood in the living room and talked to Raven's family and stuff for a while.
This is were I forgot alot of things. The next thing I remember was being in the mall parkinglot again with my dad, but it was the same dream. My dad told me to go down into an alley and look for someone, I forgot who. I had to walk along the shoulder of a highway exit ramp to get to this alley. Oddly enough, there were no cars driving on the highway, it was all dead. As I walked down into the alley, I thought to myself, "Am I dreaming? Nah this is all too vivid." (wow, the 4th time this has happened, really gotta learn to look around when I ask myself that." I continued down in the alley and came across a really small concrete room, made out of complete concrete. The door was the only thing that wasn't concrete. I decided I would go inside of it to see if the person I was looking for was in there.
I tried opening the door, but it was locked. Fortunately, there was a big enough hole in the wall next to the door that I could fit into so I could climb inside. It was like a huge chunk of the wall had fallen off. I started crawling inside, but I barely fit into this hole. I looked inside and saw no one there, but yet I kept on crawling to get inside(lol). Once I finally made it in, I just stood there and looked around. "Wow this is a really small place." It was just an empty room. I started climbing back out, and almost got stuck in the very middle of the hole. I made it out, and noticed that there was a small kitten on the ground, trying to get into this concrete room.
I picked up the kitten and unlocked the door to the same room(wow why couldn't I have done that earlier). The door know was jammed a little but I eventually got it open. I put the kitten inside, but left the door open so it could come out whenever it wanted. After this I went back up to where my dad was. He brought me back into the mall again, and told me that grandma and grandpa wanted to take me to the mall and spend time with me(wow thats great!). He dropped me off along with my sister and we went inside. Once we saw our grandparents we went up to them. We ended up just walking around the mall, and it was getting close to night time now.
After a while of looking around, the mall started to close. Store lights and mall lights started shutting down. I remember walking past some huge hallway where the lights had just turned off, and it interested me for some reason. We walked back to where we had came in from and waited for my dad to come and pick me and my sister up. I sat down in a seat next to a wall and texted Raven. I asked her what she was doing, but she didn't reply(This dream was so vivid, that I thought to myself, "wow, this is the first girlfriend I've had in a while." and it actually has been a while lol). I sat there waiting for my parents still.
Out of no where, an asian dude from a previous dream showed up. He told me that I was rude on "the van ride"(once again, an earlier dream) and told me how I should act, but in a chill way. I started laughing really hard over his imitation of what I had said on the van ride. He then went on his way and as he did, I noticed my mom and dad sitting right next to me. We had been sitting down for 5 minutes, and I wondered why we were waiting on nothing. I asked my parents, "What are we waiting on? Everyone's here so we can leave." With that we all got up and walked out of the mall.
Sure enough, outside it was nighttime now. We walked into the parking lot and starting looking for my dad's truck. As I walked into the parking lot I heard a loud plane flying over us, most likely a commercial airliner. I looked up into the sky and saw the dark clouds above us. The sky was really dark but there was still a faint deep blue hue visible in it. At this point, my awareness came to me, and I thought to myself, "Is this a dream right now? Nah, its too vivid to be one."(5th time that has happened). I looked back down and started looking for my dad's truck. It wasn't here, his truck was gone. "Dad where is your truck?", I asked. He said something about how he didn't trust leaving it in the parking lot and so he got a rental truck for now.
The rental truck was ALOT smaller and older. I think it was a Ford. It was pretty old, and the paint job was faded and chipping off. It was also a little rusted around the body. I remember an old lady appearing with us, and we had picked her up to come with us. She also got in the truck with us as well. I fought with my sister about who was going to sit in the middle seat, and my mom told us to stop arguing and to just get in. I got inside the truck and my dad started driving. The dream then ended.

2. I was near some gas station next to a building. Alot of students had gotten inside of this van as well, and the van had a red orange paint job. It was almost full inside too, and the driver didn't want anyone getting out of the van until we got to where we were supposed to go. Just then, my friend Darius got out of the van, he told the driver to wait on him while he went to go get something.
The driver pulled out of his parking space, and started driving away. Darius ran after the van but it didn't matter because he couldn't get inside because the door was locked. I sat tight and just watched because I was squeezed in the middle between a few other people.
There was alot more to this dream, but not having recorded it earlier, I forgot most of it.

3. I was on the outside of some police station, talking to a police officer. He was teaching me something about safety or something and was demonstrating it to me. Later, I had went inside with a friend of mine, and we turned into these small little creatures. I do not know what type of creature or animal we were, just that we were small, naked, and hairless. It was weird.
Something had went wrong inside of the building and me and my friend decided to leave by jumping into these small portals, just fit for us. I ran and jumped inside of a brown portal. As I got in, I noticed it looked like a chocolate malt shake being mixed around. My friend told me it looked like someone had just dropped an entire load of diarrhea and was flushing the toilet. With that idea now in my head, I held my nose just in case what my friend said was true, even though it was just the inside of a portal.
My friend also had told me that the portal I had went into was around 1,000 years old. We were both in portals, but yet still able to talk to each other. I don't remember where the portal led to.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a grocery store with many other people. Two people had been let in that wanted to murder us, an older guy and a younger girl. One person had already gotten pretty much killed; his head was being held on only by this full body cast. I knew that once that was gone, his head would fall off. I "remembered" it as if it had happened before. I was being pursued by the girl, probably of about 18-20 or so. She was skinny and had her blonde hair pulled up into a ponytail. I was on the ground in one of the aisles, and she was trying to stab me with this sharp, yellow crystal. I kept avoiding it and was trying to fight her off. I think I may have gotten hit a couple of times, but I can't remember for sure. I was yelling for help quite a bit, hoping someone would hear me.

Eventually, I fought her off. I got the crystal from her hands, so now, she had no means to kill me with. We were both standing up now, facing one another. I remember looking at her face and she just had this evil smile. I also noticed she was wearing some sort of uniform; I remember dark red being one of the colors in it. We somehow got her and the guy out of there. I remember speaking with the guy whose head was beheaded and being kept alive.

Later, we locked the front glass doors. We were standing by them, and I saw the two murderers standing outside, trying to get in. I was talking to someone, telling them NOT to let those people in no matter what. They would try to coerce their way in. They'd try to play on their pity. But they were NOT good people and would kill us. I knew the girl would come back after me. I thought about her getting another crystal. I believe the guy fought with a crystal as well.

I remember at one point seeing the guy who got beheaded without his body cast. His head slid off his body, or almost did.

I then was in a garage somewhere. I saw Dallas in the doorway, and realized, out of the blue, that I was dreaming. I said
"Dallas! This is a dream!"
He had started to speak to me during my exclamation. I wasn't sure if he had heard me. He then said something about it being a dream, so I knew he had.
I went up to him, and felt the dream was going to end soon; it felt a bit unstable. I examined my hands, focusing on their detail, and it worked for a little bit. I was standing with him and started to remove my clothes, when everything around me gained a faint white aura.

I then woke up.

~

I was at the skating rink I used to frequent in my youth. The rink was much smaller than I remember; they had re-done it so it now it was much more cramped, and you could barely skate on it if there were too many people. There were many people there, mostly kids. I looked at the rink from the side area and thought about how cramped it looked, and that it wouldn't be nearly as much fun now that it was like this. I'm pretty sure I had skates on. I remember seeing some of the employees that patrolled the rink, skating around on the crowded rink with the kids, guiding them over hurdles and such. There were just too many people. I wanted to skate freely, not cramped up with a zillion little kids. I also had a point where I wondered if I was too old to be there. I felt kind of weird being one of the oldest people there.

I was there at some point before the rink opened. I wondered if I could skate even though it was closed. There was no one there at least, so I'd have it all to myself.

~

I was dreaming something this morning when my husband was about to leave for work. He was stroking my shoulder IWL, and I kept falling in and out of sleep. I finally woke up so he could tell me goodbye and that he'd see me later.

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I know I dreamed way more than this last night, and I told myself I'd remember, but alas.

Though I am happy for the lucidity I've been having lately, even if it's just brief. I have been lucid WAY more lately than I have in a very long time, dare I saw ever. Usually I'm lucid on average once per week when I'm focused on it. I've been lucid every other night just about. It's been a huge change of pace. I'm happy for it. Hoping it continues. I guess I just need to keep doing what I'm doing, meditate more regularly, and use more intention.

Two dreams: I remember a porn star "Lexi Belle" caressing my fingers and then sucking on them. It felt quite good. Can't remember much of the area (a school maybe).

The second dream was last night. It was a "wasteland". I was traveling with a group of people but can't really understand the reason for traveling. We come across a building and lo and behold there is a hurricane/twister in front of us. For some strange reason, I'm not afraid. One DC claimed that we're passing through the eye and just then there was a huge gust of wind visible twirling like a dust storm.

I just wanted to add this really quick, it's not much but it counts. I had this dream when I fell asleep in mid-afternoon while watching anime with a friend (who also fell asleep).

When my memory kicks in I was already lucid, and the dream was a little hazy. In my previous lucid I had successfully increased the vividness by repeatedly taking off my glasses without ever putting them back in, so I decided to try that again. It worked several times in a row, but I'm not really sure if the change stuck around for long as that's the last thing that I can recall.

I feel like there was more to that dream and I probably did some totally badass things just to make me feel about forgetting out now, as usual. Maybe more will come back over time but we'll see....

August 07, 2014

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Recreating the World

I remember that I was supposed to recreate the world in such a way that some specific organism would thruve. The thing is, they had gone extinct, and only then did humanity find that our existence is tied to theirs. And so I was given the mission of somehow going back in time and recreating a world in which those organisms would live instead of dying off. I can't remember exactly what kind of organism they were, but they were microscopic things. I also vaguely remember shrinking myself down to a tiny size to observe one.





Buying a House

I was touring some houses that were for sale Up North. I was going to buy one, but hadn't decided on which one to buy.

August 06, 2014

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I vaguely remembered something about being a teacher in a classroom, and the kids were playing Dead Fish and they were all actually dead fish until they moved. then they would pop and become young humans again.

1. I had just walked into some sort of house, and I was with a group of people I knew and we were about to play hide and seek. This house was only one story but still probably covered around 5,000 square feet. The game started and I started walking to the back of the house. I walked through 4 or 5 huge rooms before I got to the room I wanted, and it was really dark. No one else had gone this far back, I was the only one. I looked around and became a little uneasy.
I thought to myself, "What if this is a dream? Nah its too real to be one." With that I looked around for a hiding spot. I decided to hide next to the bed that was in the room, but under a pile of clothes, which, I hope were clean. I sat down on the far side of the bed so no one was able to see me unless the walked passed the bed. I then sat down and grabbed a pile of clothes and put them on top of me. Somehow I ended up also putting a trash bag on top of myself.
The game had started and the seeker was looking for everyone who was hiding. I waited a long time, but no one came back to where I was. It was a little creepy back here, but other than that it wasn't that bad. I got up out of my hiding spot and made my way back to the front of the house and left.However, I had forgotten my green snap back inside the house somewhere. I went back inside the house to find it As I walked through the rooms I had walked through before, I came across a dude. He had blonde hair, a red t-shirt on, and some basketball shorts. I asked him what he was looking for and he told me he was looking for his toy action figures. This guy was probably about my age, but was a little mentally slower(not making fun of him though). I walked around with him to look for his action figures. Also, I didn't mention, but I found my snap back right as I found this guy. It was on the floor in the same room I found him and he picked it up and handed it to me.
We looked everywhere it seemed and still didn't find them. Finally we walked to the back of this house where I hid to play hide and seek. We looked in the closet in this room, and by the way it was still really dark. He opened up the closet while I looked around. I remember coming across a mirror and thinking about how real this was and that it couldn't be a dream. The blonde dude told me he had found something. I came over to the closet he was looking in a saw some transparent action figures. They were star wars action figures but almost all of them wear clear like glass. Each one of these star wars guys was riding a bluish futuristic motorcycle. I asked the guy if these action figures were his, but he said no.
We left the closet and decided to go back into the house a little further, into the very last room. In this room, it was almost completely dark, and there were no lights. We walked to the back of this room where we saw a door. I walked up to the door and opened it slowly, it was the back stage of the house, like the entire house was set up for a play or something. But the house was complete, it wasn't cut in half like most theater type environments. Anywho, I listened for a moment. I heard a "worker" in the back stage. I saw some blue lights around but other than that everything was black on the surface. I told the guy next to me we should close the door and not go back there.
After I closed the door back up, I walked back to the front of the house. I told the blonde guy that I had to go, and with that I walked out. I walked across an area of cement pavement where alot of other people were. There was a guy behind me, he was mexican, and he was in a hurry and kind of told me to get out of the way in an indirect way. Luckily for him, I was just about to go inside. I made my way into this mall that was infront of me. As I went inside I noticed it was very nice, with white buffed tiles, and white walls too. There were many stores every lined along each side of the walls.
I went to my left down the left hallway and walked around. I looked at the stores. I passed one store that was named, "mall" and I felt the urge to go inside of it. I don't know why it was called mall, because I thought this was the mall. Anyways, I didn't turn around to quickly go back in, it occurred to me that I would look awkward and out of place to do so(lol). So I walked up past the store a little more and as I turned around to walk back I noticed a group of girls I knew. Somehow, I had the feeling that they were going to follow me. Lindsey, a beautiful blonde was in the group as well with her other friends. I didn't feel like talking to them right now, so I just walked past them and ignored them. Right as we passed each other, a tall wooden sign go in our way so we could't even see each other anyways.
As I passed Lindsey and her friends, I noticed a large girl store directly to the left of me. The store had no walls though, it was as if it were out in the open. I remember reading a sign that said something along the lines of, "Girls, you need to make your man happy, and here's how to do it!" I thought" wow, I never knew girls thought this way." There were signs all around reinforcing how girls needed to do this, and how to do it. I don't have ANY idea why, but when I read one of these signs, I broke out into a mini, solo dance off. I danced in all these weird girl moves, but again I have NO idea why.
As I walked past this girl section, I looked back and saw Lindsey way back there. I continued on my way to the "mall" store, but the dream ended.

2. I was in my neighborhood, and I had gotten a huge gash on the bottom of one of my feet. I looked at it and could see inside of my foot, it was nasty and it really hurt. I came up to a parking lot where my friend's sister's Corvette was parked. It was really nice and had a red paint job. I told my sister to get in and drive because this was an emergency(my foot) and I needed to get to the hospital now. She got in, pulled out of the parking spot and started to drive. She was a pro! She had never driven before this, but still was really good at driving. She drove onto the main road of our neighborhood and started driving to the hospital.
However, at this point I realized how bad it was to be stealing my friend's sister's Corvette just to go to the hospital for something that I could handle with a while longer. As we came back to the parking lot, cops were already there, sirens blazing and everything. I looked at the driver of the car and my sister was no longer there. Instead, my good friend Patrick was driving now. I said, "dude this is bad, look at all of these cops." He laughed and said, "I know", but didn't seem at all nervous or upset. We honked our horn to let the cops know where we were and parked behind a building not far from them. We got out only to meet Emily, and when she saw that it was us who had stolen her car she laughed and was relieved. I think I told her where we were going, but I don't remember. At this point, I said goodbye to the two and started walking home with my cut-open foot. I walked on the sidewalk back on my way to my house.
Somehow, I ended up taking a detour and walking down another street and continuing from there back to my house. I remember why now, there was a big accident and I wanted to avoid it and the area around it, so I did. As I walked up this street to avoid the scene of the accident, I could here police sirens as loud as ever. There were 3 or 4 police cars on the right side of the main road where the accident was. Two cars had crashed and one the cars was black, which a lady was driving. As I continued walking down the street I heard the woman from the car screaming. I looked over to the accident, which was in clear view from where I was.
I couldn't see the woman, but only her partly smashed car. I was afraid of looking for too long because I didn't want to see anyone come out of the car disfigured or anything. Once again, I continued walking. I started noticing around 10 people start running past me. I wondered why they were running. At this point I thought to myself, "What if this is a dream, with all this weird stuff going on? Nah its way too vivid to be a dream." (Dang it, every time!) I kept walking and looked more closely at the people that were running past me. One of them was a tall blonde with her hair back in a ponytail.

3. I was in some sort of nice office and had gotten on my laptop. I had started a webcam conversation with a doctor about my foot and its huge gash about 2 inches wide. I asked the doctor if I would need any kind of surgery to fix my foot. He said, "Yeah, we're going to have to cut a part of your pectoral muscles out, so it will tighten that area." (Wow, sounds like it will really work) I thought to myself, "Crap, this means I won't be able to do my Pec workouts for a while." And in the dream, the procedure made sense and it didn't seem odd or anything-Cutting into your pectoral muscle to fix your foot- why didn't I think of that.
I continued talking to the doctor on the webcam and he was wearing an all-white coat and had black hair. He looked like a guy I've seen on t.v., but I don't remember who. All of a sudden, the doctor started ignoring my questions about my health and started stripping down naked(what in the hell is going on). He got fully naked on camera and just kind of sat there talking to other people. I found out that I was in some sort of chat room with a lot of people. These other people- these other dudes, didn't mind the doctor being naked at all. In fact, its what they wanted.
I was a little weirded out about this, because I wasn't gay, and I never will be(no offense to those who are). However, I tried continuing the conversation about my foot. The doctor kept ignoring my questions as if I wasn't even there. Minutes later he proceeded in telling everyone that he was getting off of his cam for the night. He then turned off his cam.
"Wow", I thought, "How am I going to get this surgery done"(Now that I think about it, I dont know if I would've wanted this procedure, knowing that the doctor likes getting naked on cam in front of random dudes).

4. This was a really long dream, and I dont remember all of it. But heres what I do remember:
I was outside next to a tall stone pillar at night, talking to a nicely figured brunette. I barely knew her, but somehow, we were sexually attracted to each other. I remember starting up foreplay out in public. I put my hands up her shirt and started kissing her. She wanted to hold off until we weren't in public, which I knew was understandable. I told her I wanted to eat her out, and that really aroused her.
Later, we were in a library talking(seems private enough lol). We started getting sexual again with each other, but then, a group of my friends showed up. Great, 12 friends from school showed up. I told the girl I would be right back and went to talk to them real quick to get them to stop cock blocking me. Once I got over to my friends, I first tried talking to Neal, who, for some reason, tried convincing me that he wasn't Neal, he was Neal's brother(wtf). Neal doesn't have a twin brother, but somehow it clicked in my brain, "Oh yea, your Neal's brother Travis", "Yea bruu you got it right" said Neal.
I handed him a handful of what looked like chucky cheese coins, no idea why, and continued back to my girl( I assume it was some sort of payment so everyone would stay away). When I got back to her we went to the back of the library and I started up foreplay again. I told her what I was going to do to her. She told me in an enticing way, "You better be nice to me." I told her I would, but again, I didnt get any farther than 2nd base, but I do think I managed to get my hand down her pants before the dream ended due to my excitement.

5. I was inside of a room with Rihanna and some other beautiful girl. Rihanna had long hair and was dressed in lingerie.
The lingerie was purple, yellow, and blue I believe. She was standing next to the bed stand leaning on a wooden pole.

6. I was in a cafeteria in some school. Some big event was going on onstage(stages are in the cafeteria in my schools). I had just sat down at a table. Whoever was in charge told me I could take off my jacket. All attention shifted towards me as I stood up and took of my heavy duty jacket. Underneath I was wearing a long sleeve red shirt, almost crimson in color. The collar on this shirt was really tall and I felt like it was too big.
As I sat back down in my seat, I looked over to the table at my left and saw the girl I had a crush on. She was a gorgeous redhead with the most beautiful eyes ever. Her hair was in a pony tail. We looked at each other for a second, but then I looked away so things wouldn't seem awkward. Later I remember looking at myself in the mirror and my hair had gotten really poofy and frizzy and was even combed back.

So I was in my kitchen. There is some strange man there trying to convince me to eat a cold eggo waffle with chocolate chips and cheddar cheese on it. I tell him this is the single most disgusting thing that I have ever seen and that I refuse to eat it.

I was in some kind of zombie apocalypse, driving in a Jeep-like vehicle with another man. He ends up driving into a wall, crashing and dying. I get out of the car and see a zombie horde coming down the hill. The world we are in looks like fallout.
I start running back the other way we are driving. I have a large machine-gun like weapon that fires some special type of ammunition. However it seems as though I can only harm the zombies when they are within say, 50 feet of me.
I retreat under a highway overpass, where I end up getting cornered. My machine gun runs out of ammo and I switch to my secondary. A small handgun that fires some kind of special bullets. Supposedly it was supposed to be used by the president for defense during the zombie apocalypse, but the president had died and I had found the weapon.
There were only a couple of zombies left by this point, so I figured I could finish them off then hopefully find some more ammo. I started shooting but realized that the pistol was completely ineffective. The zombies pushed me onto the ground. One of them started talking, saying that it was going to take a lot more than that to kill them. He has one of the special bullets stuck in his head. The special bullet has these radiator fins on the side.
Then the zombies came down on me and just as they were about to rip me apart and eat me, I lost the dream.

First journal, I was able to recall 3 dreams, all after I woke up at my scheduled WBTB time. Recall isn't great, but better than I usually have:

1. I was speaking with one of my friends, who I believe took the form of one of my students (I was a sculpting teacher for a time) he's an older guy, and he was criticizing my lifestyle and how he felt I spent too much of my time slacking off. I then blew him off and we had a bit of a falling out. He seemed to become quite a bit younger at that point and went of with a few other people, there seemed to be a dispute and the othe people he was with starting beating him up. I went to his aid and pulled the other guys off him. It was then later in the night and one of my roommates was there, she was having dinner with a man named Mario but then had to go off to a party, my brother was there and ot a call that the party didn't go well and then it ended.

2. I was in a school of sorts, not quite a high school or a college, the students seemed to be about high school age but it was far larger than my high school. There was also the idea that we were living there full time in a sort of dormitory situation, but there was a large sink in the corner of the main classroom we were supposed to use for bathing, not sure how that was supposed to work. I remember there being a number of clubs including a 3D animation club and I had a rather large tear in my pants I seemed to do a decent job of covering up.

3. I was in some sort of bar or cantina in the middle east somewhere. The dream seemed to center around me trying to get a drink that I enjoyed, but I couldn't find anything at the soda fountain I wanted. I seemed to be getting inexplicably drunk and I tried to stumble to what I assume was my home. A man noticed me in my state and offered to take me back to his place to make me some pancakes. I woke up before I got to enjoy the pancakes.

Dream
8.00am

Im on an island which looks like Thailand. Im at the shops and I see Daryl and some other guy (OG). Og has a shopping trolley with fruit and veggies with him. Og takes his stuff over to what looks like a fridge. I ask him why he's doing that and he says that when he bought them the lady dipped them in boiling water to give them a clean. A Thai lady figures out that he didn't pay for them and alerts someone to question him. Og doesn't want a bar of it and makes a run for it. Im following Og as he's trying to get away from who ever is chasing him. I ask Og on how they figured out he stole the produce. He says that he ask the Thai lady a question which either should have already been done or needed to be done to his produce. The man chasing gets his man and takes Og away somewhere.

It's only myself and Daryl and we're outside walking. We both decide we need a piss and try and find a good spot. The area looks to have a bit of an Australian outback look and feel to it. With the sandy ground and bushes. We find a spot to piss near what looks like a animal hole. I ask Daryl what it is. I have a closer look and see that if looks like some kind of art work from a tribe which has a face and a small hole at the bottom where the mouth is. Once Daryl finishes I take his spot and have a piss. I start to sink in the sand as I pee and put my hand down on the ground. I end up putting my hand in what looks like either Daryl's pee or my pee. I turn around and see Daryl walking away in the distance. As I finish I catch up to Daryl.

We reach a house but unsure on what we're doing.

Dream Fragments:

1. I'm watching someone audition for X Factor.

2. Looking at protein powders. Pea protein is $100 a kilo.

3. Afl super coach. Jed adcock scores under 40p for me. Where as my opponent gets 100p with a North Melbourne player.

Side Notes:

Tried no sleeping mask tonight with little success. I feel as if the pressure of the eye mask on my face keeps myself aware as I awaken, whereas without it I'm pretty groggy and confused. Didn't hear my alarms. Recall sucked.