lucid

I actually had this dream on Christmas morning, but I've been busy and haven't bothered to write it down until now. In fact I didn't even plan on attempting lucid dares until a much later date seeing as I need to completely rebuild myself in terms of lucid dreaming. (I actually have started doing recall excersises.)

However my subconscious completed this dare for me, so I figured it best to post on it.

The dream started with me false awakening and going on an early morning run up to the Library (on Christmas morning) and going to check out a book. When I got there the sky was clear and I could see stars and the sun was just starting to come up. As I arrived I attained some level of lucidity, first questioning why I had decided to come here early on Christmas, when the library was undoubtedly closed, and thinking that I should return home so that we can open presents, and later my lucidity ascended to semi lucidity of the dream environment thinking about completing a lucid dare.

The thing that I remember becoming interesting was from the outside the front wall of the library was gone. You could walk right in and turn around, and then the wall would be visible, but it was still intangible, and you could walk back out to the outside. I did some experimentation with this by walking sideways and observing that the wall was a strange two-dimensional plane, like a bugged polygon in a video game engine that you can only see from one one side.

I then thought about the dare cafe and had given me and decided to look for a journal, with the expectation that one would be on one of the bookshelves. I found a small leather book under a shelf that looked like a journal but I couldn't get it open because it had a lock on it.

Marcus then appeared and said that he wanted to help me complete the dare but that he didn't normally keep a journal so he would have to make one up on the spot. He walked over to the large format printer and plugged a micro-USB cable into the side of the frame of his glasses and the other end into the printer and started printing out a very large sheet of light gray paper with blue writing on it.

The top half read "The four houses of hogwarts are "Nightngale, Grifflepuff, Snakehead and Sandwich" and showed a hogwarts coat of arms in full color. (The rest was written in sloppy blue handwriting that looked not unlike my own handwriting.) The bottom half was some nonsensical math equations using the variables C,W,X,Y,Z, and maybe a few others. They ended an equals sign and a drawing of a sandwich.

Spoiler for What the journal page looked like:

I think he was about to print more pages but I lost the dream and woke up.

I did this semi lucid and my subcon did most of the work, so, DawnEye (still tempted to call you 'Cafe'), let me know if you want me to try again.

Last night I thought about being connected in the dream with Eye to give me enough motivation to lucid dream. I also thought about the upper hand I would have after having my first dream for the night.Before I knew it I was already inside the dream in my old house, surrounded by a few dream characters and Eye.I became aware it was a dream but all I recall doing with this lucidity is exiting the house and observing my surroundings while talking to Eye. I ended up becoming non lucid again though and thought to myself how I ended up walking on a wooden platform.It was then that my memory came back to me, making me feel like I had the upper hand again.

I thought about my lucid goal than and decided to follow whatever characters I saw for now. After following them I felt Dawn was nearby and decided to walk with him. We ended up in a room where most people felt lost and didn't know where to go next. I remember telling Dawn something at the time when suddenly I saw a blonde anime girl running away in the distance and the ocean's water started forming in the room. Afterwards I splashed in the water happily as Dawn walked in it as if he was searching for something. I let him know I was appreciating the moment I had to swim as the water rose higher and higher until it became too much. The water ended up pushing us around and somebody ended up out the window. Can't remember who. It stopped after a bit though and was decreasing in size.

To my surprise a group of creatures rose up out of the water, along side a just above life size Luigi."Dawn look! Those look like a bunch of creatures I could fight for the Dhl mission"I said focusing on their faces. The one that caught my attention the most though was one with a giant chicken head and the luigi guy. Dawn acknowledged that I should take the opportunity so I leaped towards them and kicked all their faces as they stood in a row and threw a few punches at them while thinking I could use my wind power. But I stopped after seeing them walk away nonchalantly like not much happened after they felt the hit. They also seemed like poor dream villains so I let it go than followed Dawn somewhere else.

We ended up inside a Mall where Eye appeared. I followed them wondering where they would go but lost sight of them eventually. I stopped near huge escalators that went down and up. It being a dream I could just jump over it but I wanted to try using it. I walked onto it going down but than it suddenly broke and I fell onto a step.I wondered if Dawn and Eye would help out if they found me but it wasn't like I needed help. I got back up and leaped onto the floor level ready to find them again. We ended up crossing paths again but I lost lucidity.Dawn and I entered a Library where the receptionist asked for our cards. I gave him a small one on my key chain and decided to check out a few comics while I was there. However, as I was looking I found an interesting looking pocket lotion on the book shelf labeled Aloe Vera. It seemed to have small prizes inside its case so I wanted to buy it. But than an old friend came up to me and started complimenting me on the new coat I got. I was proud of the material used on the coat and thanked her. She than asked for lotion so I gave her it than walked away to look for a book. However, I got distracted when my coat and shirt came off and I saw some people laughing. I know I also became semi lucid when I saw a kid that resembled Eye sitting at a table. But I woke up after walking away.

Notes: I forgot that I mainly wanted to interact with Eye in the dream when I saw Dawn. But ah well...Maybe another time.

17.11

LD 84 - Animal Abuse and Ladies The title is extremely literal, read at your own discretion.

I'm in a large store that sells pretty much everything you can think of. There is a room with a lot of whiteboards and transparent boards.
A couple of DCs and I use permanent markers to draw on them, only realizing our mistake after drawing. Our red drawings will be on them for a while.
I wander off.

In a small room I hear kittens wrapped in blankets. I uncover the kittens and see that one of them is dirty and starving.
I'm furious. The kitten is very vocal, begging for food I assume. I pick her up. I'm ready to adopt her and the other kitten to save them.

Dream skips. Two of the store's staff are outside, behind the store, trying to kill the kittens and doing a poor job.
I see one hind leg of the kitten separated and a bloody mess of a kitten crawling away. I AM BEYOND FURIOUS!
A magnum revolver appears in my hand. I point at them, but calm down and instead end the kitten's misery with one bullet straight through the head.
I put the safety on and holster my gun.

I walk away. I appear to be at the elementary school I went to. The yard is literally full of Asian women. They are equidistant from each other, just standing there.
Maybe 300 women or something. This is unnatural, I must be dreaming. I approach one of the Asian girls who's wearing a violet top.
She doesn't seem to like my approach, so I mind control all of them to like me. And it works, you can guess the rest. I end up waking up in the middle of things.

12.12

LD 85 - Void Again
My brother drinks whisky and we talk for a long while. He is actively trying to make me realize I'm in a dream.
Finally I do. I apologize for taking so long. I ask him where he would like to go. "Spain." he responds. Spain it is.
I lock my hands in with his and fall backwards. I believe there to be a portal on the floor behind me. Indeed there is. I fall into the void.
Everything disappears. I do not sense myself or my brother. I try to form a scene, but end up waking up before anything appears.

23.12

LD 86 - A Little DEILDy
I'm in a hospital. A dark haired nurse is reading a comic and I read over her shoulder. I'm actually leaning against her.
I'm a patient. The comic is about the Duck universe. I notice that I'm a bit too close to her and I back off.
She starts ranting about me hitting on her being wrong. I honestly just wanted to read the comic.
I try to grab the comic from her but she doesn't let me have it. I'm mad. I roll away with my wheelchair.
Another nurse enters the room. She has blonde hair and absurdly small nose. I like her though, she's kind.

Dream dissolves. In the darkness I feel my real body. I'm pretty much awake. But the darkness still feels... malleable.
"Hospital. Corridor." A scene appears in front of me. I grab the wall. "I'm dreaming. This is a lucid dream."
I continue to hold on an focus on more details. I am holding on to a door. The handle is black. The hospital's floor is dark blue.
I don't feel that connected to my dreaming body, but visuals and hearing are crystal clear. Like I tend to, I hear music without source.
A woman is softly singing. I begin to explore the hospital. I go to the second floor, rush past a lot of DCs going about their business and glide down a staircase.
I was ready to phase through people, but they all dodged me.

I enter another corridor full of people. In the middle of them I see a woman singing the song I've been hearing all this time.
She's slightly shorter than me and has medium length blond hair that has been dyed orange a while ago. She has a loose white shirt and smiles as she sings.
Dream dissolves again when I touch her.

25-Dec-2016 - ND Railroad crossing -> DILD - Stop the train, Fly transform prank

ND: I'm on a trip to somewhere, I'm on foot and have to take a train. I am in an area with several close railroad crossings. Many trains come and go on the tracks.
I cross the first with a jump, a train passes very close after my jump.
I lay on the ground, in some bushes between that rail and the next crossing. Trains keep coming and going and I want to stay safe until the next spot for crossing next group of two tracks.
Everything is very vivid, environment is very stable.

When I find a good moment, I am about to jump but a train appears as out of nowhere on the 2nd track, it brakes and triggers a siren.
I stop and run back. I find this very strange.
I look at my cellphone, I see a map of the place, perfectly reproducing the roads and railway tracks around me.
The only strange behavior it's got is the auto-rotation feature, does not properly work and it stays rotated or totally flipped.
Then I notice it's my wife's cellphone, not mine.
I realize this is a dream without any doubt and without need for an RC

DILD: I a still kinda afraid of the trains around me. But double thinking about it I say I have no reason for it.
I stop on the tracks, embrace for impact with my arms and shoulder, and I brake a train there. This boosts my confidence.

I reach some stores, enter it. There are people lining at cash desk. I hit a guy in the back and decide I will prank him.
I go to the bathroom, I try phasing in the wall, but it doesn't work, it's solid. I grab the wall, remove it and hide myself behind it, in the dark.
Then I morph into a fly. I feel some strange sensations, especially on my face.

I fly around the bathroom, then I see the guy enter the nearby bathroom; he washes his hands and looks at himself in the mirror. As a fly, I pester him, he chases me away.
I feel the transformation is disappearing. I go wait for him outside. Dream fades.

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26-Dec-2016 - ND#1 Restaurant, WILD Stop theft of the Queen's ring, ND#2 Office/bathroom, ND#3 Lost jacket

ND#1 - Restaurant: I walk around a city with a colleague. We stop for lunch in a small restaurant. The toilets are on the corridor (!!!) I remove my pants and undies, and use toilet (!!!)
We sit at a table. Without any order, a waiter brings a plate with 6 sandwiches. We open them, they look quite bad (!)
My son appears to the side of our table (!)

WILD Stop theft of the Queen's ring: Starting from previous dream, I continue inside the restaurant, make a surprise sandwich to a blonde sitting at a corner table.
Then when I exit the restaurant, I find myself in SF. I walk around some areas I know, then I reach Chinatown
It's quite crowded, I see small shops, lots of people around, cars and small trucks.
At a point I enter a small alley, it's a bit dark

I ask to some people about "Joe", a guy I know from previous investigation is preparing for a theft
I get direction to a nearby alley, a corner door
I go inside a house, make up myself in front of a mirror. I move my eyebrows, mouth around until I get a Chinese-ish appearance
I admire the result in the mirror, looks cool, totally different from my face
Then I go to the designated house

I introduce myself to Joe, a Chinese guy, as "Jackie Chan" (!), a friend of his. He's not suspicious.
I tell him I've made my preparations, and I am ready, but I ask him to remind me what we are going to steal, he says "The ring of the Queen", I get a mental image of the object, it's got a big diamond on top. I reply "Oh sure, how could I have forgot !". We move on.
We walk in the dark to a big stone palace; we enter through some small gate
During the path I see some guard, I wink to them, meaning I am taking care of it, they do not interfere

We find a grand staircase leading to the two thrones. To the left there is a small room, inside it only a display case with the ring.
I ask Joe "Are you still sure you want to steal the ring ?", he's kinda surprised and answers "Yes of course !"
I tell him I am sorry about it, I let the guards turn on the light
He looks at me astonished, then I remove my new face as it was a rubber mask

After that, I fly out of the windows behind the thrones
I feel the dream is still stable enough to do something else
I reach the DHL Head Quarters
It's a modern building on top of a low grassy hill, I land in front of the entrance
The door has the DreamViews logo and the DHL three-stars on it
I am kinda surprised about how stable this is

To the right of the door, there is a lock, I put my hand on it
It turns on, a white light glows and my hand gets trapped inside, while the door opens
I ask the lock to open again and return me my own hand. It does

I enter; there is a lobby, after that I reach a room with some people, most of them wearing colored suits
To the right, near a window, there is an L-shaped sofa, three people are sitting on it. A black guy, a white girl, a white guy
I understand they are like apprentice. They seem happy to see and meet me. We exchange some words I cannot recall
Then I want to visit the training room. I reach it, it's a big square room with white walls, with some training dummies.
I think I am strong enough that this feels like a waste of time.
I aim at a training dummy close to a hay stack, charge a two-hands fireball, incinerate it, scarring the wall behind it.

I transport to my personal tower. I am thinking about fighting the dragon; I see a scene of a dragon flying low between some mountain ranges, but dream is kinda weak at this point, I move to my side and fall asleep.

ND#2 - Office/bathroom: I reach my office, which looks different (!!!) I am in delay (!!) I greet and listen some colleagues discussing and complaining about some new law.
I need to pee, and look for the bathroom (!!!) When I reach it, some female colleagues are in there (!!!) Some are washing their hands in the orinals (!!!)
I exit and say to MM, a colleague, that this things usually happen in my dreams (!!!) However this is evidently not a dream
I say this couple of times, still not realize...

ND#3 - Lost jacket: I am with wife and children, we are walking fast-pacedly. I realize I don't have my jacket under my arm anymore; it must have fallen earlier.
I backtrack looking for it. My son comes with me
I follow a dirt path, curved than straight. We enter a church and exit on the other side, still no sign of the jacket
On the track there is a black BMW car. I ask the guy close to it if he's seen any jacket nearby. He answers no, and I think he's telling the truth. I move on.

I reach two guys and immediately realize they have taken my jacket from the ground.
I ask one of them to show my his cellphone, and see it's mine !
The cover and model are the same. When they turn it on, I can clearly read my name on its screen (!!)
I accuse them of having taken it from the ground, and even see and take my jacket from behind their backs.
I give the stuff to my son, while we come to our hands.

Finally after a month-long dry spell I had my 500th lucid. Woo! Feels like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. The lucid was a short one, but I'm happy and excited again.

I'm sitting on a chair and as I look down I notice my legs are that of a woman. I have a short false awakening right after noticing my legs and in the false awakening I'm writing down the incident to my notebook. Another dream begins in which I'm with a friend of mine, Tony. We're standing on an open balcony just right above the surface of a lake. Tony tells me that he could throw his cellphone into the water to make it bounce like some rocks do. I try to shake the idea out of his head, but being the guy who does all kinds of weird and funny things, he tosses it anyway. The phone swings back like a boomerang, hits the roof and then suddenly starts bouncing above the water like a flat rock. Tony is so exhilarated by the weird thing that just happened that he straight up jumps into the water as well after his phone. I can't believe this is happening. I can't wait to tell others what I just witnessed. As he gets back I notice a dim light shining under the surface. I wonder what it could be. The light moves near to where I'm standing and I can see a dangler-fish. Tony must have awakened it and now it's searching for a possible prey. Suddenly the dangler fish jumps against the window - I'm suddenly behind a window - from which I'm looking at it. It falls to the balcony and stops moving. Holy! Now I see another similar creature moving near the balcony under the water. It seems more than three meters long so I quickly "nope" away from the window. I say : "Man eater" to my grandparents who are sitting on a living room, referring to the scary fish outside. I leave the house.

I find myself on a parking lot on a completely different scenery. This is where my other grandparents live. But wait, it's summer. It's as summer as it gets. I turn around, I'm dreaming. I'm dreaming. I try to see if the creature would follow me to the current dream scenery from behind the apartment building, but I find it unlikely. It wouldn't fit to the plot of this dream. 500. 5.0.0 I look down to my hands and they both have the right amount of fingers. Only a slight difference to my real ones. I feel a strong urge to take off to the sky for some reason. As if the sky wanted me there as I look up. I resist the urge and I think that the dream itself might make fly even if I didn't put conscious effort into it. I look up to a nearby tall tree. I want to climb it. No. I look down to my hands again and remind myself with the three-step technique. One - Stop. I don't even consider doing the second or third part, it feels like the stop part is enough for now. I walk to a nearby road and chant quietly to myself :" A door... door.. door." I would use it to teleport. 500. I want to reach Varion. Suddenly I remember Sensei's dare. Oh right, I could destroy the moon quickly before leaving. I try to spot it in the sky, but it's nowhere to be found. I know I could see it, even though it's midday. There's not even a single cloud on the sky though, so I bet there's no moon either. Then I simply start feeling hot. Wow, how can dream heat feel this real. It's summer inside my own mind, how? I stop to feel the sensation. I start taking off my socks because my feet are sweating.

ceiling

24th December 2016

WBTB MILD

quick recap:

I see a taller blonde lady and I feel boldness and realize I'm dreaming.

Spoiler for sexual content:

She takes some convincing but we have sex. I see another more attractive girl and I approach her and have her give me a blowjob. It was very good!

I then think of my goals and remember the room 100 year bonus task. I see a door and open it and as I step in and close the door there is not much space but no matter. I say time stands still for me while time advances 100 years outside of this room. When I open the door = windy dusty barren land with "bones" of an old structure are all that remains. The bones come together in a wigwam shape. I wake. I tried not to expect anything but a few times when thinking about the task I imagined seeing a technologically futuristic scene but I got a dystopian wasteland instead.

...We go to a spot in the airport overlooking a ballroom and I see myself on stage (there's 2 of me - me on a balcony watching me on stage). I am very curvy and I am surprised how beautiful I look. My dress looks nice even though it’s inside out. It's a peachy orange color, long, with a satin texture. My hair has been curled and is thick, smooth, and shiny. I’m trying to dance but my face keeps cringing. Why? There’s not much of an audience. As I look out on the ballroom I realize I’m dreaming, for no specific reason. It’s just a tiny thought that crept on me that I could have ignored, but it grew bigger and bigger until I remembered my intention to lucid dream. I suddenly have a microphone and make an announcement. “Excuse me everyone, I’d like to announce that I am dreaming!” Everyone clapped. I remembered to stablize so I spin, it does feel like I’m spinning but I don’t like that it requires me to close my eyes and see blackness. I get concerned the dream will end, but it doesn’t. Then I got the idea to announce, “I’d like to take this opportunity to ask my subconscious if there are any issues it would like to bring up or address.” But I couldn’t finish and get all the words out, partly because the microphone kept switching backwards in my hand, cutting off my announcement. Also because a large white and black house cat tried to attack me. I attempted to make the announcement multiple times but the same things kept happenening. Finally I give up. Now I'm in the audience and more people are flooding in and dancing. I decide to get on stage and dance. I try to jump up using lucid super skills and barely make it, but I still have to crawl a bit. However, I get distracted because to my left is the inside of a walmart. A woman is pulling her children out of a sale bin. They ate chocolate and pooped in there. I’m disgusted. Another woman is telling on her, she’s like the secret walmart police society. I decide that after I dance I’m going to burn walmart down as the December TOTM, I don’t like walmart. Then it ends.

My goal for 2017 is to have 12 lucid dreams (at least once per month). I'm counting this as #1 because I made my resolutions on winter solstice, which I also celebrate as a symbolic new year. I have no idea why I became lucid, but Merry Christmas to me!
In the future, I will try other grounding and stabilizing techniques because I didn't love the spinning. I will also be sure to have more clear goals before I go to sleep.

25.12.2016

(MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up 5 hours into my sleep and stayed up for 30 minutes, went back to sleep. Kept repeating "I will realize I'm dreaming".

At some point I notice I'm sitting in bed. I decide to do a RC. I'm dreaming. I get out of bed and walk downstairs. I go outside and stabilize by sitting on the ground and touching the grass. It is night time. There's a weird, skinny, white cat in my front yard. I decide I want to see Tonka. I look away and look back to where the cat was, and Tonka is lying there. I lie down with him and hug him. He kisses me. His fur and smell are so real. I tell him we miss him and he just wags his tail at me. There's an acoustic guitar playing in the background, it's really soothing.

I have a FA, I do a RC and stabilize. I go outside and start walking around. It's night time still. I think of making it day time using the Ocarina but decide not to afraid it might de-stabilize the dream. I grab a car and start driving somewhere, my mom is in the car and she's scared we just stole a car. I tell her it is all happening in my mind, it's ok.

The dream takes place in an apartment with some old Mount Carmel people like Jippy, Lauren M., Melissa M., etc. Additionally grandma Phelps is randomly there sitting on the same couch as me. She asks me a question but I kind of ignore it and feel really uncomfortable in general at this party. I don't really know anyone there well but decide to wait a little while to leave. One cool thing that happens is that they have a TV that revolves in the wall around with a hidden side for storing jewelry. Eventually I don't want to be there anymore and so I look for a way out. I see an elevator in the apartment and it is made out of glass. There are about 6 Chinese people in the elevator and they are all masturbating which makes me think this is a lucid dream. I perform a finger into hand reality check but it doesn't seem to work. Despite this, I know that I am lucid. I just cannot seem to gain full lucidity. I decide to take the elevator a floor up and explore around. I walk into an office of people where I don't belong and make the whole office not react by using my expectations. I walk around and then leave feeling annoyed that I know I'm lucid but cannot get the reality check to work.

I was somewhere very hot, seems like Greece, the sun was scorching, possibly noon outside.
In a hospital ward, with sick children laying in bed. One child has long straight blonde hair and a dark plain dress.
I recognise her and i'm lucid. I try using my powers to heal her. We go along the intensely bright road in the sweltering heat.
We travel in an old dark brown ford along the scrubby, tree lined road. Reaching her mothers house, who strangely enough is the same person just older but with same blonde her, but with a neat office suit on. I make out with the mother.

Spoiler for may contain nudity but not enough really:

She lays in bed on her front, with the cover off, exposing her bare legs and shapely ass (or is that other way round lol) I take her from behind

I become lucid. I am walking down a path, attempting to remember the TOTM. I remember the advanced task(spin and teleport somewhere random). I decide not to because I am attempting to walk somewhere.
I remember my goal to summon my Patronus. I yell Expecto Patronum! several times, but give up after a DC starts complaining about the noise. I decide to attempt it silently, and wisp by wisp, a 'thing' appears.

Spoiler for patronus:

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It appears just like the painting.
Suddenly, as I am still building it up, the dream go's grey. I panic, but quickly stabilise myself. I visualize the scene back, and soon I am back into the lucid dream. Phew! I however decide to not continue the patronus.

I had two lucids this night in that I attempted bonus totm. I write them down just fast and shortly because this tablet is shitty and my recall is not the best.

- I am in a street running around approaching a building getting lucid. I fly up on a balcony and enter the room. I taste some salat (DTR). I remember the totm and concentrate on my goal to fast foreword time. I write with my hand on the wall something like "100 years in the future" I strengthen my intention by repeating it in my head for several times. I move back out on the balcony and jump/fall down from it and the dream is pretty unstable. I rub my hands and the visuals come back. In the first moment it looks like nothing changed but I try to keep my thoughts positive and keep looking around. I see a police car that looks unusual.I go around the corner and see more and more untypical stuff. There are two police motorbikes that look bulgy in the front.( reminded me of a whale of some kind) I see no people or atleast they don't seem striking. I keep moving the street and notice a building that seem to be a hospital but it has huge similarity to a church because it has a green glowing cross as a sign. A garage door opens and a small car sized spaceship flys out and in the sky. Shortly after I think I wake up.
All in all this future was more dirty and let's call it poor like in a dystopia. Maybe comperable to battlestar Galactica where its not this typical sci fi overload.

-i get lucid again with low awareness. I try to make a car explode by holding my hand at the fuel opening and make it hot. It don't work. I take a big chocolate house in my hands and it melts down with no problem. I try throwing some fireballs on the car but with no success. I keep moving and after I walk into a house and then into the next one.there is a friend of mine and I go into the kitchen and take a chocolate bar and wonder that it is not so sweet like I expected. I tell him I want to fast forward time and ask him if he has a watch for me. He puts a wristwatch on the table and I put my finger over the seconds hand an start spinning. I don't see that the watch moves faster but I keep doing it. Then I phase out of the house and look around. This time nothing seems to have changed. We walk around and up a street. There are sime people but not to many. I think about that If I want to see more people I should go in a bigger city. A truck approaches us and I make him stop and then throw him on its back. I need two attempts for this. We keep going and I see a girl and with her I visit her friends in a house. From here I tart caveman but am not to successful and wake up because its very late in the morning and my sleep seem to be very light and the dream quality pretty bad.

Ritual: WTB 2am, woke up after a couple hours and strapped on the Motivaider, timed for 30m intervals. I woke up again after what I thought must be at least an hour and hadn't felt any vibrations. I decided that my awareness was not sufficient tonight to continue, removed the device, and went back to sleep. But apparently this process created an anchor for the idea of lucidity, because in my next sleep interval I became aware of lying in that intermediate state between sleeping and waking and went through the motions of getting up into a WILD. However, in retrospect it is clear that I was already dreaming at the start of this experience, so it was not a genuine WILD but a dreamed WILD (hence DWILD). It was 5:45am when I woke from the dream.

DWILD, "Another rainbow": I am lying on the flat surface of a wooden table as though it were a bed in a large, strange room with a distant, domed ceiling. I feel groggily half-asleep, but notice the distinctive sensations in my body that make me wonder if I'm close to the dream state. I start playing with it as I would when inducing a WILD, attempting to roll and rotate my body while avoiding real physical movement. When I find myself face down and succeed in getting up on my hands and knees, I'm sure that I'm sufficiently integrated with my dream body to get off the table and explore the dream—and given that in retrospect I know was dreaming all along, it is apparent that the sense of difficulty that I experience as I carefully maneuver myself into a standing position, similar to what I experience in real WILDs, must be wholly a mental fabrication.

My awareness is still low and initially lacking in agency, so I go along with the dream narrative for a while. The space in which I find myself is strange and hard to describe. There's a kind of reflective dome above me that rotates and shifts to reflect different parts of an upper floor or balcony. The dome moves until it is showing a distorted reflection of what looks like an early twentieth-century radio, one of the elegant ones in a large wooden cabinet. I am aware that seated up by the radio there is an older man who owns this place, and I am his guest. After this is a scene in which someone tells my brother that if he wants to get along with this man then he should take up shortwave radio as a hobby.

Then a bunch of us are seated at a long table for a dinner party. [Source: Order of the Phoenix was on TV last night, and it has a number of scenes with people seated at long tables.] Plates are served and they all contain huge sandwiches. The older man that I saw in the balcony earlier is picking disinterestedly at his sandwich and asks where the other food is, the stuff that had been simmering in the crockpot. My brother, who had put together the food, says that it will be coming up as the next course. I'm seated directly across from the older man, who I think of as our "host," and can tell from his expression he doesn't want to eat the sandwich. I decide to be helpful and comment loudly: "That's a huge sandwich! I couldn't eat all that even for one meal." Although this is true, my intention in speaking was to save face for the other man by legitimizing the option of leaving the sandwich uneaten while waiting for the next course.

After the sandwich course, we take a break from the meal and everyone who was at the table, about a dozen people in all, are standing in another room. The host is there, and a bunch of vague random people I don't recognize, as well as DC versions of my brother, mom, and dad. For some reason, maybe because of the lull in the narrative, I finally remember my intended task, the leprechaun TOTY, as well as how I had planned to accomplish it. My chief difficulty in previous attempts had been that once I managed to create the necessary rainbow, I got thwarted in my attempts to seek the end of it. As I had earlier been pondering this difficulty, a straightforward solution, perfectly obvious in retrospect, finally occurred to me: why not create the rainbow such that it ends right in front of where I'm standing?

"Okay everyone, we're going to play a game, kind of like a party game." I smile at the host and add, "It'll give you time to digest before the next course." I reach out and pat his belly, an oddly familiar gesture given that the DC did not scan as anyone I know in WL. [Possible source: yesterday I was doing research related to Budai, the so-called "Laughing Buddha," and rubbing his belly is a recognized ritual gesture. But the DC did not in any other respect remind me of Budai.] I complete my announcement by telling the group: "We're going to make a rainbow!"

The room we are in is walled entirely with glass on two sides, like a skyscraper, and I recognize that this clear view of the sky will be helpful for the task. I'm slightly more concerned about the fact that we're three or four storeys up, which means that if the rainbow ends here and I start digging through the floor, I won't actually be digging in solid ground. I remind myself that it is silly to maintain these kind waking life assumptions in the dream state. It can be solid ground if it wants to be, or maybe I can find the leprechaun in the room below us. Dream is nothing but malleable, so I really don't need to be this finicky.

I continue with my instructions to the group: "What we need to do is hold hands and create the end of the rainbow right here." I gesture to indicate the patch of floor in middle of our circle of people. "Then we'll go through, fight the leprechaun, and take his gold." I look around to gauge the response and decide the DCs need a little more incentive. "We can split the money," I add, and am pleased to see that this perks up their interest.

We join hands around a large circle. I feel that my shirt cuffs are too long and and getting in the way, so I have to break off and fold them up in order to get proper skin contact with the people around me. Once again I wonder if I'm being too finicky. Probably. Even the hand-holding seems like overkill, but I thought it might help us join our focus on the same goal.

My assumption had been that the assistance of the DCs would help my own confidence and focus on the task. This idea was probably based on my last rainbow-making dream, when I really did feel like I benefited from the help volunteered by the little girl. But this group of DCs is not helping at all. Like typical adults in a social setting, they are only marginally interested in my unusual party game. While I'm trying to concentrate on making a rainbow, the others are getting distracted and starting to chit-chat among themselves. This is distracting me in turn.

"Quiet!" I rebuke them sharply. "No talking, please. I need you to concentrate. Focus your intention." I figure they could use a reminder of the goal of our task: "We're going to create a rainbow"

Periodically I've been glancing out the windows to see if a rainbow is visible in the sky yet. This time I notice that the weather has changed. The sky is grey and a steady rain is now pouring down. Rain, well, that's halfway to a rainbow, isn't it? I let myself be encouraged that the environment is showing some response.

I continue attempting to focus, and the DCs continue to stand around without helping much. They're quieter after my reprimand but still distracted, and I have the impression that they don't seem to know how to focus their intentions properly. This is exasperating. What good are dream characters who don't even know how to interact with a dream? My mom starts speaking and I almost raise my hand to swat at her, irritated by yet another interruption, until I realize that what she's saying might actually be helpful. She is commenting on the light, how it needs to filter through the water particles a certain way to create a rainbow.

I had never intended to create a rainbow with meteorological accuracy, but hey, since it's already raining outside, we might as well give it a shot. If we can just get the right sort of light, it might encourage our expectations in a way that will make this easier. You know how when it rains and then you see the light break through the clouds, and you wonder if you will see a rainbow? That's the expeirence I was now trying to recreate. I look out the window and sure enough, in one direction bright sunlight is now alternating with the dark clouds. Very well, the rainbow can come from that direction.

Once again I concentrate, reminding myself that rainbows consist of light broken into the spectrum of colors. I think I almost see them in front of me, faint and translucent, but I can't tell if I'm only imagining them until the DCs all break out into "oohs" and "ahs," and saying things like "amazing!" I smile triumphantly, amused that everyone is acting so impressed after their earlier disengagement.

(While it seems odd to make the above distinction between something that "happens" in a dream and something I'm "only imagining," given the many times I have attempted to complete some task by imagining the outcome and it has not tangibly manifested in the dream, some such distinction seems warranted, if much less clear and stark than the difference between imagining and experiencing in waking life.)

It is a bit odd to try to look at a rainbow head on, from immediate proximity, but I do see a faint shimmering band extending from the lit quarter of the clouds to the floor right in front of my feet. I remind everyone that creating the rainbow was only the first step. "Now we have to dig through the floor." I start scrabbling at the smooth wooden boards, trying to imagine that the floor is soft and that my hands can scoop it up like clay. I feel everyone watching (no one else is trying to help) and their expressions are dubious. If merely creating a rainbow surprised them, imagine the skepticism they must feel watching me try to break through solid floor with my hands! I wonder if I can better align the expectations of the onlookers if I use some sort of tool to dig with, but I can't think of what might be handy.

This time it is my dad who speaks up with some advice: "The location of the floor isn't localized on the floor." I don't understand what he's trying to tell me, and I don't have long to think about it because I feel myself waking. I lose the dream and lay still for a few minutes, feeling to see if I can DEILD, but no, my body is fully awake now.

i had just a tiny window of weak lucidity this morning, but it was interesting anyway

[non-lucid] i was with two people and was holding a black box.. more tablet-like than cubical. i'm not sure but i think the two DCs were trying to tell me i was dreaming, and then the box spoke to me and said, "you are not the master of your own universe." (after waking i found this funny because it's super cheesey and not a way that i'd ever articulate myself, but my subconscious did.)

[semi-lucid] i think when the box said that, i got the hint that i was dreaming and became weakly lucid. i didn't "physically" perform my RC (nose pinch) in the dream but i kind of thought about it.. it felt like did it in another dimension i was partly connected to, like i felt the sensation of a sharp inhale through my nose, but i didn't do the RC in that original setting. it's hard to explain. and then it also felt like i opened my WL eyes for a split second and closed them again.

^that kind of thing happened the first time i LD'd. last time, though, i really thought my WL hands were in front of my face in tandem with my dream hands when they were stabilizing. when i awoke though, they were in a position that would have made it completely improbable that my WL hands had even moved an inch. i think my brain and body (both waking and dreaming) are kind of getting confused because when i'm weakly lucid my waking and dreaming brains are overlapping.. or becoming one. or something. i don't know! .. i am not the master of my own universe.

24.12.2016

(DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Cayo de Agua is the residential complex I used to live in back in Venezuela, before I moved to Canada 10 years ago (when I was 14). I woke up 5 hours into my sleep and stayed up about 50 minutes. I went back to sleep and kept repeating "I will realize I'm dreaming".
I was waking up from a dream and held still. I felt SP and HIs.

I stood up from bed and did a RC. I was dreaming. The room was different, I was in my Cayo de Agua bedroom. I stepped outside and descended the spiral staircase. It was dark. I went outside, it was gloomy, about to rain. I realized I hadn't stabilized. I sat on the ground and felt the floor. It felt so real. It started raining and I was getting cold. I decided to yell "STOP RAINING", my voice was deep and loud, like Gandalf's. It was accompanied by thunders and an explosion follored by a fire in a house, but it worked. I decided to start singing, making up the song as I went. My voice was once again deep and loud, but I had a great singing voice (unlike waking life).

I had a FA/Woke up and held still. I thought I had lost it but did a RC.

I was still dreaming. I repeated the steps, stabilized before exiting, and was greeted by a strange DC outside. He was in a blue subaru and was telling me about his upcoming camping trip with his gf.

I kept having FAs (probably about 10 total). They all started in my Cayo de Agua bedroom. Not sure in which order, but the following were the key events

I met my gf downstairs and we had sexy time.

I didn't have sight in one of the dreams, but I was able to just feel my way around the dream. I kept thinking back to physio and how this would improve my proprioception as I was challenging it.

I was standing outside at night time with my GF. I held her hand and leaped yowards the sky. We went into space and watched the stars, nebulae, and nearby galaxies. It was a beautiful mix of purple, blue, white, and black. She was dumbfounded by how beautiful it was.

I was helping my dad BBQing.

There was a national anchor of a debate between Capriles and Maduro.