lucid

I become lucid. I am walking down a path, attempting to remember the TOTM. I remember the advanced task(spin and teleport somewhere random). I decide not to because I am attempting to walk somewhere.
I remember my goal to summon my Patronus. I yell Expecto Patronum! several times, but give up after a DC starts complaining about the noise. I decide to attempt it silently, and wisp by wisp, a 'thing' appears.

Spoiler for patronus:

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It appears just like the painting.
Suddenly, as I am still building it up, the dream go's grey. I panic, but quickly stabilise myself. I visualize the scene back, and soon I am back into the lucid dream. Phew! I however decide to not continue the patronus.

I had two lucids this night in that I attempted bonus totm. I write them down just fast and shortly because this tablet is shitty and my recall is not the best.

- I am in a street running around approaching a building getting lucid. I fly up on a balcony and enter the room. I taste some salat (DTR). I remember the totm and concentrate on my goal to fast foreword time. I write with my hand on the wall something like "100 years in the future" I strengthen my intention by repeating it in my head for several times. I move back out on the balcony and jump/fall down from it and the dream is pretty unstable. I rub my hands and the visuals come back. In the first moment it looks like nothing changed but I try to keep my thoughts positive and keep looking around. I see a police car that looks unusual.I go around the corner and see more and more untypical stuff. There are two police motorbikes that look bulgy in the front.( reminded me of a whale of some kind) I see no people or atleast they don't seem striking. I keep moving the street and notice a building that seem to be a hospital but it has huge similarity to a church because it has a green glowing cross as a sign. A garage door opens and a small car sized spaceship flys out and in the sky. Shortly after I think I wake up.
All in all this future was more dirty and let's call it poor like in a dystopia. Maybe comperable to battlestar Galactica where its not this typical sci fi overload.

-i get lucid again with low awareness. I try to make a car explode by holding my hand at the fuel opening and make it hot. It don't work. I take a big chocolate house in my hands and it melts down with no problem. I try throwing some fireballs on the car but with no success. I keep moving and after I walk into a house and then into the next one.there is a friend of mine and I go into the kitchen and take a chocolate bar and wonder that it is not so sweet like I expected. I tell him I want to fast forward time and ask him if he has a watch for me. He puts a wristwatch on the table and I put my finger over the seconds hand an start spinning. I don't see that the watch moves faster but I keep doing it. Then I phase out of the house and look around. This time nothing seems to have changed. We walk around and up a street. There are sime people but not to many. I think about that If I want to see more people I should go in a bigger city. A truck approaches us and I make him stop and then throw him on its back. I need two attempts for this. We keep going and I see a girl and with her I visit her friends in a house. From here I tart caveman but am not to successful and wake up because its very late in the morning and my sleep seem to be very light and the dream quality pretty bad.

Ritual: WTB 2am, woke up after a couple hours and strapped on the Motivaider, timed for 30m intervals. I woke up again after what I thought must be at least an hour and hadn't felt any vibrations. I decided that my awareness was not sufficient tonight to continue, removed the device, and went back to sleep. But apparently this process created an anchor for the idea of lucidity, because in my next sleep interval I became aware of lying in that intermediate state between sleeping and waking and went through the motions of getting up into a WILD. However, in retrospect it is clear that I was already dreaming at the start of this experience, so it was not a genuine WILD but a dreamed WILD (hence DWILD). It was 5:45am when I woke from the dream.

DWILD, "Another rainbow": I am lying on the flat surface of a wooden table as though it were a bed in a large, strange room with a distant, domed ceiling. I feel groggily half-asleep, but notice the distinctive sensations in my body that make me wonder if I'm close to the dream state. I start playing with it as I would when inducing a WILD, attempting to roll and rotate my body while avoiding real physical movement. When I find myself face down and succeed in getting up on my hands and knees, I'm sure that I'm sufficiently integrated with my dream body to get off the table and explore the dream—and given that in retrospect I know was dreaming all along, it is apparent that the sense of difficulty that I experience as I carefully maneuver myself into a standing position, similar to what I experience in real WILDs, must be wholly a mental fabrication.

My awareness is still low and initially lacking in agency, so I go along with the dream narrative for a while. The space in which I find myself is strange and hard to describe. There's a kind of reflective dome above me that rotates and shifts to reflect different parts of an upper floor or balcony. The dome moves until it is showing a distorted reflection of what looks like an early twentieth-century radio, one of the elegant ones in a large wooden cabinet. I am aware that seated up by the radio there is an older man who owns this place, and I am his guest. After this is a scene in which someone tells my brother that if he wants to get along with this man then he should take up shortwave radio as a hobby.

Then a bunch of us are seated at a long table for a dinner party. [Source: Order of the Phoenix was on TV last night, and it has a number of scenes with people seated at long tables.] Plates are served and they all contain huge sandwiches. The older man that I saw in the balcony earlier is picking disinterestedly at his sandwich and asks where the other food is, the stuff that had been simmering in the crockpot. My brother, who had put together the food, says that it will be coming up as the next course. I'm seated directly across from the older man, who I think of as our "host," and can tell from his expression he doesn't want to eat the sandwich. I decide to be helpful and comment loudly: "That's a huge sandwich! I couldn't eat all that even for one meal." Although this is true, my intention in speaking was to save face for the other man by legitimizing the option of leaving the sandwich uneaten while waiting for the next course.

After the sandwich course, we take a break from the meal and everyone who was at the table, about a dozen people in all, are standing in another room. The host is there, and a bunch of vague random people I don't recognize, as well as DC versions of my brother, mom, and dad. For some reason, maybe because of the lull in the narrative, I finally remember my intended task, the leprechaun TOTY, as well as how I had planned to accomplish it. My chief difficulty in previous attempts had been that once I managed to create the necessary rainbow, I got thwarted in my attempts to seek the end of it. As I had earlier been pondering this difficulty, a straightforward solution, perfectly obvious in retrospect, finally occurred to me: why not create the rainbow such that it ends right in front of where I'm standing?

"Okay everyone, we're going to play a game, kind of like a party game." I smile at the host and add, "It'll give you time to digest before the next course." I reach out and pat his belly, an oddly familiar gesture given that the DC did not scan as anyone I know in WL. [Possible source: yesterday I was doing research related to Budai, the so-called "Laughing Buddha," and rubbing his belly is a recognized ritual gesture. But the DC did not in any other respect remind me of Budai.] I complete my announcement by telling the group: "We're going to make a rainbow!"

The room we are in is walled entirely with glass on two sides, like a skyscraper, and I recognize that this clear view of the sky will be helpful for the task. I'm slightly more concerned about the fact that we're three or four storeys up, which means that if the rainbow ends here and I start digging through the floor, I won't actually be digging in solid ground. I remind myself that it is silly to maintain these kind waking life assumptions in the dream state. It can be solid ground if it wants to be, or maybe I can find the leprechaun in the room below us. Dream is nothing but malleable, so I really don't need to be this finicky.

I continue with my instructions to the group: "What we need to do is hold hands and create the end of the rainbow right here." I gesture to indicate the patch of floor in middle of our circle of people. "Then we'll go through, fight the leprechaun, and take his gold." I look around to gauge the response and decide the DCs need a little more incentive. "We can split the money," I add, and am pleased to see that this perks up their interest.

We join hands around a large circle. I feel that my shirt cuffs are too long and and getting in the way, so I have to break off and fold them up in order to get proper skin contact with the people around me. Once again I wonder if I'm being too finicky. Probably. Even the hand-holding seems like overkill, but I thought it might help us join our focus on the same goal.

My assumption had been that the assistance of the DCs would help my own confidence and focus on the task. This idea was probably based on my last rainbow-making dream, when I really did feel like I benefited from the help volunteered by the little girl. But this group of DCs is not helping at all. Like typical adults in a social setting, they are only marginally interested in my unusual party game. While I'm trying to concentrate on making a rainbow, the others are getting distracted and starting to chit-chat among themselves. This is distracting me in turn.

"Quiet!" I rebuke them sharply. "No talking, please. I need you to concentrate. Focus your intention." I figure they could use a reminder of the goal of our task: "We're going to create a rainbow"

Periodically I've been glancing out the windows to see if a rainbow is visible in the sky yet. This time I notice that the weather has changed. The sky is grey and a steady rain is now pouring down. Rain, well, that's halfway to a rainbow, isn't it? I let myself be encouraged that the environment is showing some response.

I continue attempting to focus, and the DCs continue to stand around without helping much. They're quieter after my reprimand but still distracted, and I have the impression that they don't seem to know how to focus their intentions properly. This is exasperating. What good are dream characters who don't even know how to interact with a dream? My mom starts speaking and I almost raise my hand to swat at her, irritated by yet another interruption, until I realize that what she's saying might actually be helpful. She is commenting on the light, how it needs to filter through the water particles a certain way to create a rainbow.

I had never intended to create a rainbow with meteorological accuracy, but hey, since it's already raining outside, we might as well give it a shot. If we can just get the right sort of light, it might encourage our expectations in a way that will make this easier. You know how when it rains and then you see the light break through the clouds, and you wonder if you will see a rainbow? That's the expeirence I was now trying to recreate. I look out the window and sure enough, in one direction bright sunlight is now alternating with the dark clouds. Very well, the rainbow can come from that direction.

Once again I concentrate, reminding myself that rainbows consist of light broken into the spectrum of colors. I think I almost see them in front of me, faint and translucent, but I can't tell if I'm only imagining them until the DCs all break out into "oohs" and "ahs," and saying things like "amazing!" I smile triumphantly, amused that everyone is acting so impressed after their earlier disengagement.

(While it seems odd to make the above distinction between something that "happens" in a dream and something I'm "only imagining," given the many times I have attempted to complete some task by imagining the outcome and it has not tangibly manifested in the dream, some such distinction seems warranted, if much less clear and stark than the difference between imagining and experiencing in waking life.)

It is a bit odd to try to look at a rainbow head on, from immediate proximity, but I do see a faint shimmering band extending from the lit quarter of the clouds to the floor right in front of my feet. I remind everyone that creating the rainbow was only the first step. "Now we have to dig through the floor." I start scrabbling at the smooth wooden boards, trying to imagine that the floor is soft and that my hands can scoop it up like clay. I feel everyone watching (no one else is trying to help) and their expressions are dubious. If merely creating a rainbow surprised them, imagine the skepticism they must feel watching me try to break through solid floor with my hands! I wonder if I can better align the expectations of the onlookers if I use some sort of tool to dig with, but I can't think of what might be handy.

This time it is my dad who speaks up with some advice: "The location of the floor isn't localized on the floor." I don't understand what he's trying to tell me, and I don't have long to think about it because I feel myself waking. I lose the dream and lay still for a few minutes, feeling to see if I can DEILD, but no, my body is fully awake now.

i had just a tiny window of weak lucidity this morning, but it was interesting anyway

[non-lucid] i was with two people and was holding a black box.. more tablet-like than cubical. i'm not sure but i think the two DCs were trying to tell me i was dreaming, and then the box spoke to me and said, "you are not the master of your own universe." (after waking i found this funny because it's super cheesey and not a way that i'd ever articulate myself, but my subconscious did.)

[semi-lucid] i think when the box said that, i got the hint that i was dreaming and became weakly lucid. i didn't "physically" perform my RC (nose pinch) in the dream but i kind of thought about it.. it felt like did it in another dimension i was partly connected to, like i felt the sensation of a sharp inhale through my nose, but i didn't do the RC in that original setting. it's hard to explain. and then it also felt like i opened my WL eyes for a split second and closed them again.

^that kind of thing happened the first time i LD'd. last time, though, i really thought my WL hands were in front of my face in tandem with my dream hands when they were stabilizing. when i awoke though, they were in a position that would have made it completely improbable that my WL hands had even moved an inch. i think my brain and body (both waking and dreaming) are kind of getting confused because when i'm weakly lucid my waking and dreaming brains are overlapping.. or becoming one. or something. i don't know! .. i am not the master of my own universe.

24.12.2016

(DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Cayo de Agua is the residential complex I used to live in back in Venezuela, before I moved to Canada 10 years ago (when I was 14). I woke up 5 hours into my sleep and stayed up about 50 minutes. I went back to sleep and kept repeating "I will realize I'm dreaming".
I was waking up from a dream and held still. I felt SP and HIs.

I stood up from bed and did a RC. I was dreaming. The room was different, I was in my Cayo de Agua bedroom. I stepped outside and descended the spiral staircase. It was dark. I went outside, it was gloomy, about to rain. I realized I hadn't stabilized. I sat on the ground and felt the floor. It felt so real. It started raining and I was getting cold. I decided to yell "STOP RAINING", my voice was deep and loud, like Gandalf's. It was accompanied by thunders and an explosion follored by a fire in a house, but it worked. I decided to start singing, making up the song as I went. My voice was once again deep and loud, but I had a great singing voice (unlike waking life).

I had a FA/Woke up and held still. I thought I had lost it but did a RC.

I was still dreaming. I repeated the steps, stabilized before exiting, and was greeted by a strange DC outside. He was in a blue subaru and was telling me about his upcoming camping trip with his gf.

I kept having FAs (probably about 10 total). They all started in my Cayo de Agua bedroom. Not sure in which order, but the following were the key events

I met my gf downstairs and we had sexy time.

I didn't have sight in one of the dreams, but I was able to just feel my way around the dream. I kept thinking back to physio and how this would improve my proprioception as I was challenging it.

I was standing outside at night time with my GF. I held her hand and leaped yowards the sky. We went into space and watched the stars, nebulae, and nearby galaxies. It was a beautiful mix of purple, blue, white, and black. She was dumbfounded by how beautiful it was.

I was helping my dad BBQing.

There was a national anchor of a debate between Capriles and Maduro.

Notes: I really wanted to do the half year missions and sensei's dare so I'm glad I was able to do it. But I also dislike how I was worried I wouldn't be able to do them. Next time I'll remember to stay calm and to not feel rushed by tasks.

The sky was sort of cloudy and it seemed like the afternoon. I passed by a bus stop where people stood and headed towards a fast food restaurant. But as I was walking it felt like I was getting farther from my destination. Seeing a booth in the distance where people crowded around, I got the idea to ask a receptionist how to get to the place i wanted to go to. However, by the time I got there no one was around.

Afterwards I had a false awakening and appeared on a bed in what seemed like my new room. My eyes felt closed but I could still see the blanket that covered my head and the super bright light that shown from the window. I hesitated to move because I could feel someone holding onto my feet.I became lucid than thought about how it reminded me of OBE dreams and something where I read entities leach on people by grabbing their foot or something like that. Anyways...I didn't believe it was an entity so I just moved my feet around slowly. I could feel the grip it made as I moved my feet around but it didn't seem like a hostile dc so I got up and looked at what was holding my feet. It let go and walked to the side of the bed where I focused on its appearance.

It was just a tall slim man with a mustache who was apparently looking for me to tell me something. I was willing to listen but the dream felt like it was fading. Next thing I remember I was in a dim wooden room looking at a old black television thinking that I was playing Zelda with my brothers. But as I kept listening to the music I felt my awareness pushing through in the dream until I was lucid.I reminded myself that it was a dream after that and remembered that I was set on doing my mission and the dare Sensei gave me. But even though I was ready to do it I felt like I was going to be pressed for time.

"First thing to do. Summon Sensei"I told myself after walking out the room.What appeared was a guy with short black hair wearing purple armor with yellow badges on his chest. I don't think Sensei has black hair but I decided to just roll with it. "Follow me!" I said as I leaped out a window and flew above a brightly colored lake in what seemed like a fantasy rpg setting. The sky was clear of any dragons but I kept focusing on it waiting for the dragon to come. A red dragon with orange highlights formed just as I wanted.Anticipating the first hit I flew straight at it and hit it with my feet pushing it down. Sensei did the same thing afterwards and I followed with a punch.

The dragon flew in another direction but we flew at it again and tag teamed the dragon with punches and kicks. I wasn't up for using weapons for the tasks so I just fought like it was a brawl battle We ended up making the dragon vanish after hitting it many times but I still wasn't satisfied. Flying away from Sensei I contemplated going into outer space."Should I go?"I thought thinking about what if I ended up astral projecting. I shook that thought from my mind and looked around to see the dream was building walls around me. Jumping out and flying into the sky I decided to do the next boss mission alone since I would have to put more focus and had no time to waste.

I zoomed through the clouds until I saw myself leaving the earth. A burst of blue, white,orange, red and light colors mixed around me as I exited making it seem mystical. Reaching outer space though I went back to first perspective and flew towards a purple planet that glowed.However, I passed the planet and ended up close to a smaller purple planet. I couldn't enter the planet though so I waited for an opponent to show up. A small fireball creature bounced off the planet so I went straight at it with a kick and punches. To my surprise though Garnet showed up out of no where and ended up doing a combo on the creature too. I just watched as she finished it off than noticed a dc flying towards me. "What do you want?"I asked. The dc showed me a drawing where I was in chibi form and asked me why I would flirt with him but always end up leaving him without a kiss or anything else. I told him not to worry about it and looked back to Garnet but than I woke up.

21-Dec-2016 - ND - Warriors

ND: I fight two guys wearing nice clothes, one is wielding a big axe

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22-Dec-2016 - No written record

Several short ND and LD - Didn't write anything down so forgot them

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23-Dec-2016 - 1 ND + WILD - The Shadow world

WILD:
Many elements look influenced by Skyrim - environment, town, houses, Necromancer, skeletons
6:30AM, ~30-40 mins

HI, several short scenes, then stabilize LD in my tower, touching walls' stones and looking at objects
In the tower, on a shelf, I find an open matrioska, several pieces, the smallest is tiny, like a hair
I compose it, then look a it, take it with me and step into the portal

I am in a tundra, at night; see several bare trees, little snow, no grass. I choose a direction and walk
After a bit I find a small village, made up of some wooden houses. I also see couple of horses in a stable, very few people around.
I enter a house, meet a girl inside. We exchange few words, then I ask if I can help with anything
She mentions that lately, at night, some villagers have noticed dark creatures. They don't know what they are and have no clue where they come from
I tell her I could take care. Is she available to provide any reward for it ? She answers yes

I am clueless where to start looking for the dark creatures, hope for some guidance, and see a glimpse of a light path pointing NNW
I take a compass, walk following that direction, reach the woods again
The environment is very similar to where I ended up out of the portal

However, near some trees I notice some "bubbles" of darkness floating mid-air
I understand those are portals out of which the dark creatures are coming
The dark portal closest to me grows in size, and a shade comes out of it
It's looking very similar to some videogame monster I cannot identify during the LD, but which I recognize as Guild Wars 2 shades at wake-up LINK

I shoot a fireball to it, but it just passes through the shadow. Hmmm, no way the sword can do anything to it either.
I give up the chances of fighting with just DHL selected powers, and I invoke some sort of "light" power. A white light fills the blade of my sword, which now shines in the darkness. With this light-infused blade, I cut through the shade, which drops to the ground cut in half. Good !
I notice it's kinda solid inside.

I think this should already count as DHL mission, but I also feel there is more work to do. The portals are still there, threatening villagers.
I need to close them, understand the root cause so they won't open again.

I approach the portal, put my right arm through it, I get no harm from it. The arm is looking like immersed in a pool of dark, liquid smoke
I also put my left arm through it. Then I use both hands to enlarge it enough that I can pass through it with my entire body.

Then I cross the portal and reach a place I've never seen, dreamed or read before:

The Shadow world

It's a dark world, but its darkness is hard to describe
It has trees, made out of shadow, like a thick, solid black smoke shaped as a tree
I look up to the dark grey sky and see a totally black sun "shining" darkness
A thick fog is shielding my far sight

I start walking, then look back to see the portal I came through, shining bright light
Inside of it, I can see the forest I left before
I think it will make for a good reference point

After some walking I see a structure gradually emerging from the fog
It's a high, flat wall. I walk toward my right and see its side is open.
Approaching it, I notice it's built of the same substance of the trees, a thick shadow, although it looks more solid
I also see it's shaped as a tunnel, it has the two long walls, a roof, while the two short sides are open
I enter it and see the interior is covered in "stone" slabs, each engraved in characters I only partly know
It looks like a burial chamber. I exit it and walk some more

I approach a tree, and stop thinking that my mind has built all of this
I take some time to be appropriately amazed at this impressive fact
Then, the tree grabs me with its branches. I take some time to look down at the ground
Then think I had enough sightseeing, so I take my light-infused sword and swing it a couple of times
A diagonal cut to the tree trunk makes the top slide down, allowing me to touch the ground again
Then I examine the tree roots and branches, but after some interaction, it dissolves to a thick, shape-less black fog

I understand I again need some direction. I raise my sword, which shoots a straight ray of light towards a certain direction, ending up between some rocks
I walk that way, pass a river made out of flowing black water, thanks to a black wooden bridge
After some more walking, I reach a wooden house. It looks like solid wood, although very dark, definitely man-made

I enter the house. Ground floor looks empty and uninteresting. Looking better I notice a staircase going to the upper floor
I climb it and explore the first floor. The last rooms contains a bed, a man with a dark robe is sleeping in it
I point my sword to him, he quickly gets up
I ask him who he is, he answers he's the Necromancer Antonius
I also question him if he's responsible for the shades invasion, he says of course, shows me an amulet he's wearing, which allows him controlling the shades

I would like to avoid killing him, if possible
He attacks me summoning two shades, which hold me by my arms, I cut them with my sword
I prepare a fireball in my left hand, feel the fuzziness / warmth in that hand, then launch it towards the Necromancer
The fireball hits him, he goes up in flames, suffers a short time, but then summons at sort of shower, which extuingishes the flames

At this point, recall is kinda messy

He orders his helper, which I had not seen before, to do something that would hurt me (what?)
She's a girl, walking at a table, after his order she looks at me
She's dressed with drab clothes, an old ankle long gown
I ask her not to hurt me because I want to help her, she seem not to hear me
I telepathically ask her if she's deaf, she answers yes
I ask her name, she answers "Autière"
I tell her if she's captive here against her will, I will save her, she accepts my offer

I summon a skeleton behind me, he's got a greatsword in his hands
Don't know why I think about this, but I take some time for fun, exploring the space among his bones
I put my finger among his ribs, then my arm inside its rib cage
I put a hand inside its mouth, it bites it, I feel a mild sting in my hand

After that, it's time to be serious again; I summon a second skeleton and focus Necromancer Antonius again
I quickly approach him with my sword drawn, and point it to his chest
I tell him not to move otherwise I will not hesitate to kill him
I take the amulet from his neck
It looks like a bronze clock, opens as a shell
When I open it, dark shades flows out like a fog
I close it back and store it

I tell Antonius I will abandon him here without his amulet, guarded by my skeletons, he will never have the chance to come back to Earth
He protests, I tell him the only other option is dying right now by the sword
Then I take Autière with me, we walk down the stairs and exit the house

While walking to the portal I ask her if Autière is her real name, she tells me no
I provide her paper and a chalk, she starts writing some letters, I clearly read "VELE", then I understand my mind is making up the rest
I try to let my mind go of the control in some way
I ask her to write while I give her my back, but I still feel I'm making it up
Anyhow I read a name, I memorize it, will look it up in the morning

We reach the portal, then the town. I go to girl's house I was before, we enter it.
I tell the girl I managed to take care about the shades, they will never be a problem anymore
Then I ask her for the reward, which she dutifully provides - no details
I summon my tower again and store the amulet there

Then I return to my body, gradually move it and wake up

Last night bed at 10 pm.

1am - 2x300 mgs Alpha GPC
3am - WBTB
3:17am - 2x4 mgs Galantamine and sofa
5am? waking up from lucids (forgot to note the exact time)

Started out on my back with my cat across my legs. Noticed some stomach ache and I realized I didn't eat any bread with choline or galantamine as I used to.

Turned to my left side and got lucid almost immediately after.

Non-lucids remembered at 3 am:

DR1:
Me and Ophelia are coworkers. We are together in some town that's not hers or mine. She needs to drive back and it's getting late, so I offer her to sleep over.

As we are walking, she mentions that she got a new job, teaching in Canada. I'm shocked. She says she starts ( I expect to hear "next year"), but she says "next week". I'm so surprised and hurt, I can't even say anything. I suggest that we could both get jobs babysitting in US instead.

DR2:
Still Ophelia, this time at my house. Same scenario, she is leaving, I offer her to stay...

LUCIDS:
1. - Dildo market
I'm walking through some indoor market place. I stop at a stall that displays dildos. Beautiful, dark wood, shiny, glass... All kinds, shapes and sizes. I say I want one, and gorgeous young black dudes lounging near start to giggle. I keep browsing but I don't see what I like. I ask them to show me more. One young, blond beauty says ok, walks to the back with me and starts to undo his pants. I say I would like to test drive some and the black dudes keep giggling. When I'm sitll not seeing what I would like, the offer to make me one and start bringing all kinds of materials. I ask what for and they say "for a display case". Black dudes are now roaring when I reply "NO, I only want the THING".

2. - I'm flying through some futuristic city, high among the sky scrapers. It's at night and cloudy. I see a huge billboard with some scary, cloudy skies. I decide I want to go there and see if i can find some intense place. As I come closer, it changes into an image of some huge factory hall. I decide I don't want to go there and I pull myself out of the image.

3. - Same city, over some highways and freeways partially suspended in the air. I'm watching cars pass by when I remember the TOTM - lift a car and carry it somewhere.

I stop a yellow car with my hand up and I pick it up with my hands. It turns into a radio, so I put it on my shoulder and listen to the music while I go and pick up some more cars. I lift one up and put it on a tractor trailer that's near by, so it still goes somewhere after I stopped it, haha. The driver looking at me is Tom Cruise.
I pick up few more cars, same way by standing in front of them and lifting them with my hands. They are weightless. I move them around a bit and put them down. Just as I practiced during day, haha.

4. I look at the dark stormy cloudy skies and decide to fly there for some action. I am noticing that I'm looking for some intense and normally scary things to do in this lucid.

5. I think this was a first one. I look up at the skies and see something. I don't remember what it was but I straighten up and take of flying there. It is something blue with red.

Oh, before the lucids, I had lots of sex. No happy ending though.

EDIT:
Non lucid.
I'm at work, doing markdowns. A man and a woman come up, showing me a list of floral deliver and they want me to sign for it. Dude swears it's all in there. I tell him we are not allowed to sign, they need to find some kind of a manager. Almost identical to what happened just day before. Amazing.

Recognized I was dreaming but I forgot to stabilize so I lost lucidity but still dreamed.

After having low recall for a while from a lucid hiatus, you forget how random dreams can get.Also I wanted to do the dare Sensei gave me but I'm going to have to build up my recall and lucidity. Im getting closer to achieving it I feel so hopefully it won't take long.

The non lucid dream was already halfway when I remember entering a electronics store. There a girl was trying to show off her electronic asylum pen to a guy she didn't know.The guy getting annoyed tried taking it away from her aggresively as others quickly walked out of the store.

"That girl knew who i was. That's why she walked away. Cause she knew not to mess with me". Is what the guy said after he took the pen away. He than exited the store. I stopped watching and left after he did. While walking on the sidewalk a lady tried asking me for directions to the A or C train. I sort of ignored her at first until I quickly found that to be rude and told her I would show her where it was. As we walked to the station she let me hold her little nephew's hand. It felt like I was going to have to babysit him later but as we were walking a huge stone platform rose up and he bumped into it so hard his body deformed like in the classic cartoons when they get squished.

I was surprised and pulled him away so I could carry him to his caretaker. She was holding what seemed like a 1 year old now but checked to see if the child that got hurt was okay. Feeling like it was my fault I told her not to worry and waved my hand above the child's head. At this point I was semi lucid and decided to heal the boys head since I noticed a small hole on it where I could see his bloody brain. It didn't work but it was no point to make a fuss about since I knew it was a dream scenario.

Afterwards I ended up at my old house.I had a false awakening in my old room where some dark figure got my attention. The next thing I recall is worrying that someone was going to collapse because they had gotten too sick to walk.I don't remember what happened after that exactly so I'll skip to the part I recall.

I was with a group of characters and about to go defeat a monster with them but they seemed scared to try. Than all of a sudden wreck it Ralph came and gave enough confidence to everyone so we could fight it in the ring.We threw a few punches at it but than I ended up back at my old house where I was playing tag with the Muppets, an entity, my brother and cousins. It was fun running around but when I ran down the stairs with the Muppets my brother made a joke. I quickly ran back up and sat down to find glasses of milkshakes in a white box. After drinking some while sitting near the steps, I got up and bumped my head. I felt like placing the blame on someone so I got up and mentioned how I bumped my head.

Thats when the entity came and told me that they had an apnea board and if I wanted to try it. This reminded me of the quiji board so I said no and walked up to my brother who suggested we go to the library.This surprised me so I made a joke about it.Woke up after that.

*I also remember that somewhere earlier in the dream I was laying on the desk as my old middle school teacher showed me my portfolio and assignments. I than laughed while apologizing for putting joke answers that seemed clever on the assignments.

So, I've not been on DV recently, as I was going through some important family stuff. However, I'm back with a story about my first full, and intentional lucid experience. It felt about 3 hours long, but, as I didn't have my DJ nor Internet, and it happened 3 days ago, I'm only able to remember some bits.

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I don't remember the first portion of it, but I spontaneously plug my nose to do a reality check. I can breathe. What a strange feeling, breathing through a plugged nose. I realize I'm dreaming and attain mild lucidity. First and foremost, I try to fly, naturally. I fall flat on my face. I'm standing up again, and remember reading somewhere that a good way to fly in a dream was to hop, expecting your jumps to get higher and higher as you go. I try it, but my jumping size doesn't increase.

'No matter,' I think to myself. I decide to explore. I don't remember anything else up until seeing the glass building a while later. I imagine that it's a dungeon and rush inside, and I am greeted with none other than the pits of hell. There's a save point, and I recognize that I'm dreaming again, 'catching' my falling lucidity by doing the same reality check, and admiring the hell-room.

The dream restarts, and I do the exact same things, except without lucidity. It restarts again, and I am lucid once again. I head down to the same place, except wanting to go past it this time. However, to my surprise, a rich guy is standing on some boxes with a megaphone, advertising the dungeon. I was angered, and woke up.

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So yeah, that was fun. I'm glad I didn't wake up instantly, though I wish I had taken more time to check out the surroundings. It was also interesting that it restarted not once, but twice.

Ritual: I often wake up briefly during the night, but at one point last night I noticed that my husband was awake too, so we ended up having a conversation, probably around 3 or 4am. After that it was hard to get back to sleep, and I tossed and turned for a while. Eventually I realized that I was tossing and turning with the distinctive sensations that suggested I might already be asleep. I played with it a bit, rolling until I was sure that I was not moving in a physical way, and when I felt certain that I was in the dream state, I "got up."

WILD, "Julbock": I realized that it was my first WILD since moving to my new house, but as is typical, I failed to recognize the ways that the dream environment was different from WL. In fact, it bore very little resemblance to the place I currently live.

I remembered my intention to work on the last two TOTYs I haven't completed, but after my difficulties making rainbows the other day, the idea felt stressful. Maybe I could just relax and explore the dream world? But I knew that abandoning my intentions was a recipe for losing lucidity fast. I decided on a sort of compromise: I would work on the Basilisk—why do I keep thinking of it as Basilisk? This is a mistake I keep making in waking life, not in dream—I would work on the Chimera task, but rather than go through the motions and try to force things to happen, I would let my subconscious take care of it.

I was actually surprised how well this worked. Normally, if I needed a goat (as the task specifies) I would deliberately try to summon one, but this time I just held the idea casually in the back of my mind as I walked through the my darkened apartment. Moments later, what should catch my eye, but a stuffed toy goat! It actually resembled an object that I possess in waking life, a little Beanie Baby goat that I have for many years brought out around Christmas time and designated the "Julbock." I have not yet brought it out this year, but it crossed my mind to do so a few times recently.



"Would a stuffed goat work?" I wondered as I picked up the small toy. I tried to remember the wording of the task. Surely it just specified "goat," not "live goat" or "real goat," as if those terms could even be meaningful in dream, so I figured that this goat would be adequate for my purposes, and carried it with me.

Since the task required the chimera to act violently against DCs, I didn't want to create it in my own apartment, what with the dream version of my husband asleep in the other room, so I left and went out into the hall. (It is worth specifying at this point that I don't live in an apartment, and have not for many years, nor have I ever lived in any apartment that resembled the one in this dream, which is what I mean when I say that this dream environment was very different from WL.)

Across the hallway was an open door leading into another bedroom, apparently empty. Should I summon the chimera there? But I didn't know whose bedroom it was, so I decided to keep moving. To my right was a solid wall, the end of the hallway, so I turned left and walked down the corridor. The hallway was narrow to start with, and the walking space was further restricted by the many chests of drawers that were pushed up against the wall on the left hand side.

I sidled along with barely room enough to pass through the corridor for about twenty feet, until I emerged into a slightly wider but still relatively cramped lobby area. To my left, a chest-high counter bordered a desk and work area where two women were seated, clearly employees of this apartment complex. Attached to the wall behind them was a row of large gingerbread men, a festive decoration for the holiday season—but also just what I had been looking for. I was impressed how well my subconscious was pulling through for me. You see, in my earlier WL attempts to plan how how I might complete the chimera task without harming any human-like DCs, the inspiration occurred to me: have it fight gingerbread men! I wouldn't feel the least bit bad about crushing some animated DC cookies, since I happily bite the heads off gingerbread men in WL. And now, even without any elaborate summoning rituals or focused intent, my subconscious had handily provided me with everything I needed to complete the task: I had my goat, and I had some gingerbread men that could serve as victims. All I needed now was to transform the goat into a proper chimera and cause some cookie mayhem.

"Could I borrow those gingerbread men?" I asked the women politely.

"Sure," one of them replied nonchalantly.

"Okay," I said, preparing myself for the complicated part. "I'm going to try to keep this under control. Hopefully no one will get hurt."

Though I intended my words as a subtle warning, it was apparently so vague that the women took no notice whatsoever. One of them asked the other, "Could you get me a Coke?"

"Sure," the other replied.

"Half," added the woman who had made the request. This puzzled me. I had assumed that the request was for a can of Coke from a vending machine. How would one bring back half? But I didn't put too much thought into it, because I was preparing to transform the stuffed goat into a chimera... everthing was in place...

...And I woke up, once again, just before I could get to the heart of the task. When I was at my best, early this year before my long recent dry spell, I could often keep from fully waking and DEILD-chain my lucids in order to finish complex tasks like this, but now I seem to be out of practice.

I see a guy showing off a bright yellow sports car and impressing everyone. I get hot and jealous, and somehow, lucid. I seize the nearest car and transform it iinto sports car after lifting it. I hold my foot on the accelerator and race against the yellow car driver. I win, and soon my car tranforms into a bizarre bycicle and with car goes my lucidity.

I have fallen back asleep and find myself inside a brown classic room. I thought it be cool to see super man and he appeared. I observe the poorly design super man but thought it was still cool that the dream spawn him right away. I told myself I knew this wasn't a high level lucid dream as it kept getting blurrly and my awareness was feeling faint. I wanted to next spawn wonder woman but decided I'd rather just wake up as I knew I needed to wake up early today to get food.

Bed @ 2230
Woke @ 0520

High-rise hotel
I'm in a high-rise hotel room, wearing my bath robe, moving around quietly so I don't wake my wife. Something strikes me as "off" and I realize I'm dreaming. I look around, marveling at how good everything looks. I remember I'd intended to rub my hands together to stabilize, but I decide to just run my hand along the wall instead. I remind myself that this is a dream and that everything I see and touch is a creation of my own mind (but it doesn't really affect me). My wife gets up, and I worry that means that my real-world wife is going to wake me up. I try to about how to use the dream, but my wife is telling me about some problems she's had with our email lists, and I don't want to ignore her in case I'm wrong about this being a dream. I half-heartedly answer her while trying to think how I can prove to myself whether this is a dream or not (doing a nose-pinch never even crosses my mind). Eventually, I decide that, yes, this really is a dream, and I need to get to it.

As I'm trying to decide how to use the dream, I remember that the current task of the month is to find a buffet. I picture a table full of food in a hallway, open the door, and go out. I do end up in a hallway, but there's no food. The hallway dead-ends to my right at another picture window, so I follow it around a corner to my left. I see an open doorway to my left and a stairwell (going down) to my right. I marvel that this place looks exactly like it does in real life (which it doesn't - this place doesn't exist). I look through the doorway and find only a small room. Turning around, I see that there's now a plastic card table (white) set up between a new doorway and the stair railing. Some of my kids are arranging bags of candy on it. It's not quite the buffet I'd been planning on, but it's still a table full of food, so I think it's close enough. I remember I'd had an additional goal of eating something, so I walk over to see what's there. I see some large bags of peanut butter M&Ms, but they're not open yet, and I don't want to open them myself. To their left is a large bag of small assorted candies, and it's already open. I reach in and pull out what I believe to be a small Snickers. My eldest daughter laughs at me for my choice and makes a comment. I rip it open and am surprised that it has a small heart covered in red foil. I'm amused - even though it's Christmas time, the table is full of Halloween candy, and now I have a Valentines chocolate? Somehow I know it's dark chocolate, so I don't mind the weirdness. As I'm unwrapping it, I wake up (for real).

Points: 27