lucid

I’m in my house, it's night, I watch by the window and I see three men who enter the garden and try to break in the house, I get scare and I realize it’s a just dream and wake up lying on a bed in another room, I push my bed back and start running in the house and shout by asking a question but the dream starts to fade and I start running in the dark but I still can feel the wall. I re-appear lying on the bed in the other room, my laptop is infront of me and turn on. My webcam is turn on but not facing me and I can see the room on the screen but I get scare that a face will pop up on the screen. Then a big cat appears and starts to meow. At the end I start feeling my real body on the bed
and I woke up.

06-Nov-2016 - 2 ND + 2 LD - Various, not much interesting stuff

ND#1 - I need a password to animate some small robots
ND#2 - A girl in a bathtub is texting her female friend some light insults through her smartphone (inspired by an installation seen yesterday at AIoC)

LD#1 - Fly out of Phyllis tower (WILD)

I am at SkyDeck, the glass below me opens, and I fall down. I try picturing this like it is not a dream, try feeling what would be like happening for real. While falling I wonder if this could be a dream and just start flying far away from the tower, above Chicago.

LD#2 - The crawling girl (WILD)

I am at the first room I visited at AIoC. The glass door opens and I see a face close to the floor, it's a mildly ugly girl with short black hair. She crawls in using her thing arms. I also see her body is snake-like, twisted and contorted. I cannot give a follow-up to this dream.

05-Nov-2016 - A forgotten ND + WILD - Phoenix

6:30AM WILD, ~40min
I start at a customer meeting room I was yesterday, explaining our products, at once I stop and let a train of naked girls enter the room. It's nice seeing all engineers look at them. I am close to making group love, but thinking better about it, I don't really feel like sharing all that... So I make myself selectively much bigger, and focus on the girls for some time. <SNIP>

Time to focus on dv TotY Phoenix task now. I need few attempts to conjure a stable and suitable scenario; one is a cheese fondue, then a small fire close to a bench. The good one is a round bonfire with black stones all around, which I feed with wood sticks / branches.
As soon as fire and scenario are stable enough, I drop some stuff in it.

A cat eye first, then a bird beak, then a chicken leg. It's a bit disgusting, I don't know why I picked this stuff, but I feel it's kinda necessary. The fire consumes all those items.
I wait for the fire to diminish until I can see is embers and ashes contained within the stones.

Then I do something with my hands above it - can't recall what - say some stuff and look at the circle.

A fiery beak appears in the middle of the circle, pointing up and rising upwards, until it becomes a full head.
Then from two opposite edges, two flames rise up diagonally, big and fierce.
I feel my body shiver as this happens.
Then the body rises up, the legs, and a very long tail, that keeps coming out of it and twisting on itself, until all the phoenix is visible in front of me, made up entirely of orange flames.

I shiver strongly at its sight.

I would like to focus on some more tasks, but the focus on my body has made my sleep light. I get up, it's 7:30

04-Nov-2016 - 1 ND - Travel with colleagues on the windy shuttle bus + WILD - The dragon and the turtle

ND - Travel with colleagues on the windy shuttle bus
I am traveling with some colleagues on a shuttle bus, I am sitting at the last row. There is a small table in the middle and on top a sort of notepad with plastic-wrapped pages. On the opposite side there is J, a M colleague. It's windy outside, and wind partially enters the bus, lifting the pages. I pick up the notepad and store it somewhere.
We are talking about how gliders fare with this strong wind, and I make a gesture with my hands imitating the path of a glider hit by a sudden burst of wind, quickly raising my hand up on a vertical path.

The bus takes a uphill left turn, then a round right one. On the outer side, we notice two people climbed on a high metallic ladder, working on an electric line wire; one more worker adjusts the ladder with the people on it (!!) - all of them share the same black outfit.
We comment on how dangerous that move was.

The bus reaches a parking beyond a gate, I see DA, a F colleague, with an amazing six-pack (!!)

LD - The dragon and the turtle
WILD 5:30AM, ~30min
I start on a passage connecting two black skyscrapers at a high level, walking on top of it. I feel myself transforming into a dragon, and I start flying on the landscape. I am looking for a small village to perform dv-TotY.

I find one, between a meandering river and a forest. First I descend and breathe fire on a windmill, which goes up in flames. Then I spit a fireball to a person walking alone nearby. Then I see some small houses with thatch; I breathe fire on two of them, and they go up in flames too.

Then I question what I am doing, I don't like at all the feeling I am getting from this. I feel a strong wave of regret and I want to repair it.

I perceive myself becoming a blue dragon, and start spitting water on the poor people and houses. The flames are extinguished, but all I get are black charred remains. That's not enough.

I change again, and become a white dragon with long fur (akin to Neverending story dragon); I also perceive some kind of yellow-ish star-shaped aura around me - hard to express it. Anyway, I know I can now resurrect people.

However, the village is not in sight anymore.
I fly over the land, looking for it, but only see more trees and strange store-like apparitions. I feel myself as having human form again.

I find a large tree covering my field of view. Its leaves are bright green, small and pointy. I decide behind it there is going to be the village.

It does not happen. I find the ocean instead. It has a dark-blue/gray color, it's not calm but not too rough either.

I see three very small people - tall like 8cm - floating on its surface. It's a man, a young one (girl?boy?) and a woman. They seem unconscious. I pick up the woman in my left hand and look at her in my palm.
She's got long blonde hair, dark trousers and a white shirt.
I gently close my hand around her.

I look down, and see a fairly large, levigated stone. I climb on it with both my bare feet.
The stone animates and become a turtle; its shell dark and shiny like the wet rock it was before; I can clearly see its head and legs; I perceive it like an old and wise entity.
The turtle turn to its back, pointing towards the open sea.

It moves slowly, but I fear the wave would tilt me off its shell, but when the first ones come, I hardly notice their impact on me; I am firmly attached to it, it seems.
After a couple of waves, I open my hand to look at the woman, she's still there, unconscious.

We hit more waves, I see the white crests, the rise and drops of the sea, it's all very vivid.
Then I notice some form in a rising wave; I look better, it's a human face, which I ultimately recognize as my own !
I am seeing the reflection of my face in the waves, in an impossible way, only marginally affected by the wave shape, it's difficult to put in words. I do a sort of grin, to see the result in the reflection, and I can see my teeth look kinda strange.

I now focus my gaze somewhere else on the waves, and recognize more facial features, an eye here, a pointy-teethed mouth there; they are not connected, somewhat creepy, but I am not scared.
I have an ominous feeling here, like i am witnessing something incredible, linked to divine. Again, very hard describing it.

Finally the turtle reaches a landing point. It's a small pier, leading to a gently rising stairway; on both sides, high green hedges with some bouganvillea. I perceive this place like some mythical land inhabited by ancient gods.

The woman is not in my hand anymore. I walk a bit more in this town, which now seem more like a normal place to me.
Unfortunately dream recall fades here.

A small indian boy shows me a old dusty book. He opens it and presses his thumb strongly on my forehead. Light peels from my forehead and I am a grey void. I realise I am dreaming. I feel a warm sensation all over my body. Soon a dream forms. I am at the end of my bed. I look out the window and see what looks like the milky way, but inverted! I fly out the window, and swim through these clouds of gas. It is wonderful. I eventually 'wake' and thank the indian boy. Suddenly I panic that this book could be put to bad purposes and I tell the boy to make sure no one with bad intentions gets it. I spend the rest of the dream running away from the french gangster who wants the book.

A few days back, there were two nights in a row where I was having dreams like Inception or something. Essentially, I knew that I was dreaming, but then I would have false awakenings inside of the dream. So I would think that I was awake, but I was actually still sleeping.

In one particularly memorable dream, I was part of a laboratory experiment on sleeping. The idea was a bit absurd, now that I have my waking brain to analyze it: If I drank water during a dream, when I was thirsty, would I still be thirsty upon waking? I fell asleep inside of the dream, and took a nice long draught of water. I woke up inside the laboratory dream and found that no, I wasn't thirsty anymore! The scientists were all excited, and so was I. Then I woke up for real, and realized how cool that was. Unfortunately, I was still thirsty, so I took a drink of water for real.

Experiment result: If you are thirsty during a dream, you should just fall asleep inside of the dream, and drink water within that dream. xD Or just wake up and drink water for real.

In another dream, I think I knew I was dreaming and so I flew, but I wasn't conscious enough to think of anything more than that. -_-

Last night is a bit more hazy, and I have an insane amount of homework to do today so this will be a quick summary:

- A little girl who was left behind on a haunted island (with spirits and such) finally got found, rescued, and reunited with her loved ones. I think that I helped her somehow, but I honestly don't remember. I had a degree of lucidity in that one.
- Another dream happened where I became lucid while driving a car through some mountains. Decent amount of city around me. I was singing and thought it would be a brilliant idea to practice my singing voice in my dream, where nobody could hear me. However my logic wasn't working too well and for some reason I thought I was actually singing out loud and was going to wake up my roommates. This caused me to wake up and realize I wasn't. -_-
- I was in some sort of theater, and asked everyone in the room something like, "Hey! Who here knows they're dreaming right now?" My brother was there, too. I was hoping that someone else would remember, or maybe there'd be a shared dream or something, but I honestly can't remember what anyone said...
- I was watching some sort of advertisement, and there was this girl in a swimsuit who was sort of attractive except she had one of those gross spray-on tans.
- I have a vague memory of some sort of romantic/sexual dream, but I sadly can't remember it. Maybe I'll have a continuation of that theme tonight? :O We will see. That would be awesome!

You know why this night was so successful, though? Affirmations plus sufficient sleep! The night before, I told myself I WILL lucid dream tonight, and I guess that determination worked its way into my subconscious. Plus Daylight Savings Time helped a TON. Woo!

Before 8.30
Medium LD
After a brief interruption I chain back into a dream, but not lucidly. This time I am sitting on the bed, reading a paperback. My parents show up and start asking about what books I have read previously. Blank memory. Damn. I cannot recall anything. "Something about vampires?" I say, then admitting my inability to recall and blaming it on Aphantasia. -Since my memory is conceptual/verbal rather than visual, I can happily re-read books and re-watch films multiple times.

They change the subject and ask how my push-up challenge is going. I hop off the bed and start doing some push ups. They are completely effortless, as if my body has no weight. Ah. This must be a dream. I continue doing press ups and show off by getting a DC to sit on my back.
"How many can you do?"
"Like this? Infinite."
I get bored of doing push ups and tell them to gather their things. "We're going on an adventure!" I tell them. Figuring it would be nice to include my parents in a lucid dream for a change. (Might keep my mind out of the gutter as well. )

Outside the bedroom is a wide hallway with toilet signs, so I ask if anyone needs to go before we leave. They don't, so I head outside with everyone following me. There is a tornado in the distance and the winds are very strong. I demonstrate my super strength by climbing up the building and then holding on - the winds are strong enough to drag my body out horizontally from the wall.

We continue as a group and find an Indian looking bazaar. One of the shop/stall keepers is my friend ST, and a girl that introduces herself as Helen. I greet them before we continue to where the stalls are clustered around a valley of a dried up river bed. There is a sort of exhibit/display at one end of it, like a small ornamental water feature.

Then we arrive at the entrance to a museum of sorts. Mum wants to look around, so we walk around the various advertisement boards and go inside. The room contains large marble statues. They are around 25ft tall, so I levitate everyone in the group up to get a closer look. Then I sky-swim up and around the room as well.

Down on a table are a collection of orange plastic bags. The text on them reads Civil War. I go open one of the bags and find a special edition notepad and pen inside.

I was in a cabin of sorts. I was with friends. I baked/cooked a cake for another friend whose birthday won't be on till after a few months. I thought of putting it in the fridge. For some reason, they had some reasons not to put it in some fridge located somewhere. One was in that cabin but for some reason, we had to move. Something about disturbing the spirits. We also thought of putting in the house fridge but won't the person find it easily?

We "went out" of the place using a special key and a special door. We traveled through the spirit realm (why?). And we walked and avoided and escaped the malevolent spirits of the realm. There were two particular spirits we avoided: one was a male shadowy figure that follows us and one white ragged woman who screams and chases us. I remember hiding behind some crates and avoiding her. There were also some "puppy spirits." At least they looked like puppies. They were used by a teacher and some children to practice escaping from. There "attack" in swarms. I was going through a door when a swarm rained in. I led them out the door with difficulty but without any negative emotions whatsoever.

Somehow, I was caught and I felt my physical body turn to the left. I was told in the dream it's wrong and somehow spirits can enter that way.

This part happened somewhere in between. There's no linearity in the dream (like in some dreams). I was with a family flying through space. We went through zero space, and we've "heard" about some delays in such a travel but thought they were rare occurrences and don't have any serious repercussions. There was a boy (third-person) in this family who seems to have such a delay and asked where the others were and what took them so long. For the rest, it was an almost instant flight. I was that boy (first person).

We were being chased by other space fighters (I don't know the name of the small space ships used to harass bigger ships without causing a lot of damage due to the energy shielding). I had a hard time with the controls. I turn too fast so instead of arcing back, I end up facing the enemy almost face-to-face with our ship. The rest were away. I was eventually able to control it enough so I see... stars and space and space stuff instead of a poorly modeled image of the fighter or the nearby planets and moons. I felt elated.

My ship was destroyed. I was possessed.

I was in a familiar place. I think it's the place in the "first" part of the story. I was kept in a room, and I felt different. I felt like I was glowing and there's a tingle throughout my "skin." I overheard that a woman (a friend?) was partially possessed. I went out/through the walls and doors and approached her in a room. I "absorbed" whatever was possessing her and I left. I felt stronger.

I think this is a separate story but somehow still connected to the possession dream. I was at home. It was evening and very dark. We went home and closed the gate, but somehow, someone forgot to close one of the two gates. There's like another perimeter around the house, and there are two boys/guys just outside the inner perimeter, which means the outer one was open. A child was talking but I could barely understand. Mom was saying something too complaining about the other gate not being locked.

I was outside the house. It was morning, or at least daytime. Someone was teaching me how to fly properly. I was able to "jump" on the first level with his help and then jumped the next two after. I looked up and saw the clouds. I was elated. I wanted to fly about the clouds and stay there. I was partially lucid and happy to be able to experience that.

Everything was falling apart. Buildings were crumbling down. Alien attack? It was like a game in 3D. I used my possession skills to hold back falling buildings and debris. I felt powerful.

I woke up feeling powerful and in control.

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Notes:

- I went to sleep feeling down. After a few days of anxiety due to an overwhelming addition to my required subjects to take to finish school, I had my previous dream that really brought me down. I could barely do anything so I went to sleep. That was around 7:30 pm. I woke up around 10:00 pm. I thought the dream was so long I could swear I woke up around 3 or 4 am.
- I felt powerless these several months, from failing to finish some courses I need to proceed with my long-term plan to being unable to complete Inktober or start NaNoWrimo (again). I think I was trying to regain control by putting an enforced structure (school).
- There were a lot of mental chats that had no image. I was talking to myself about the meaning of the dream within the dream. A short while after(?) waking up but still lying down, I thought about how I reclaimed a part of myself (through possession and self-destruction) and it made me (feel?) stronger.

Questions: How do I know this feeling of control is not as illusory as the feeling of lack of control? Both have real-life repercussions if wrong, and even if right, how do I distinguish what's within and without my control? How do I know I'm making the right decisions if my senses and mind betray me?

For now, back to basics: simplify.

i stay infront of a mirror in a bathroom. i see that i have no beard and short hear. hm this is not right. i do a nosepinch and am lucid. i rub my hands look out of the window and think what to do. okay candyland here i come.
i look to the wall and even tho there is no mirror i see a reflection of me. i see myself smiling and tell myself "behind that door is candyland" i open the door but just a floor. the setting is like an very old hospital. i move to the next door and open it and again just a random room. i continue thru several doors until i land in a room with a guy and a girl. both seem to be personal. i see two doors next to each other and i want to ask the guy which one is the door to candyland but before i can ask he opens one and enters. again just a bathroom. i go to the girl and ask her same question. she tells me "none of those but this one" and points on a bookshelf with a small wooden door. she approaches it and puts in a tissue to open the lock. while shes making around i summon a fire in my hand again. its working but with a little more willpower than the two days before. i think i´ve found a reproducible and easy way to summon a nice fireball in my hand. i am happy about it.
she opens the wooden door and i see a purplish portal behind it. without hesitation i jump inside and find myself in the void. pure blackness. i move some body parts to ground myself and not to wake up. i say again and again "candyland" and try to imagine it. this time it feels long to be in the void. after some time i start to see small circles that start to get bigger. suddenly i am in my room. for the split of a second i seem to see some candy outside but i am back in my room standing there. just to be sure i do a nosepinch and phase outside. i feel like in a different reality. the plants i have on my window board are half a meter outside in mid air. i float next to them and look and them. the colors are special. very green and strong but not loud or shiny. kind of different... i float up and see that alle the buildings are different then they should be. there are some constructs made of wire that seem to be a parking lot on some roofs. i try to make a fireball in midair but i seem to concentrate to much because i have problems with the fireball and sinking at the same time. i stop it and decide to fly up into the sky. i fly to a bulding and kick myself of it to the next one like a pinball. i jump strongly and up in the air. its night and the sky is over and over with stars. i see galaxys/milky way and some falling stars but they dont fall straight but in shape of snakes. i accelerate more and more and the stars start to blur and i find myself around stars and wake up...


i go somewhere with my roommate. he has a bicycle. he has a big TV on it. and it seems that i want him to do something for me. transport something? he agrees and i ask him if its really okay and he nods and starts moving slowly. i look down at me and notice that i have nothing on my except a t-shirt. so i need to go back home and get my stuff. i have a pink old bike and i start riding. i see my roommate and ride past him. in a curve the right handle of the bike falls down. i stop pick it up, but it back on and continue riding. i am now in my hometown. the handle falls down again and after picking it up again i do a nosepinch and can breath thru like a king. i am confused and to back this up i look at my hand. yup seven fingers.
i phase into a car and push out a granny again (dont know why i have a high affinity to cars that much at the moment and why there are always grannys inside...) i say out loud: "navigation on, bring me to candyland." and immediately a blueish arrow shows the direction. i start driving the car and hear music in the background. i accelerate and decide to drive to a place i know and get out there. but because i think about something else i land in a different location and i get out and everything is game-like. i want to communicate with DC´s that are next to the car but i have to type it so it appears as a speech bubble infront of me. i notice something is off and normally i dont have problems communicating with DC. why do i dont just speak? i die?! or reload?!
however i am back in the car in same position before i started driving. i ask out loud "turn on some music. Sigil plz" and music is starting. i think i even got something similar to what i wished. i get out of the car and approach a girl. since i found the last "show me a dance" not so convincing i ask her to the same. without a word she moves around the car and in the moment she wants to start another girl approaches her looking worried. she wants to whisper her something and i put my hand behind my ear deciding to have super hearing and i hear her loud and clear saying something about to think twice to just like that show a dance and to think about it. shortly after i get woke up by a temporary roommate smashing a damn door...

the first lucid i only remember the end. i think it was an early night lucid:
i am in a hurry because i want to get somewhere? i see a car run to it and phase from behind into it. on the seats are two granny´s. i tell them to get out because i need the car. after a short moment they agree and get out. i start riding and waking up. i try to stabilize but no chance.

later the night after a wbtb:
i drive a car and touch my chin and notice i have a 1 or 2 day beard. it makes this feeling and sound when you wipe over it with your hand. i start wondering: i have a beard for some years now and in past 3 or 4 month i have a pretty long one. i do a nosepinch and get lucid. after some seconds i decide to get out and just stop moving so that the car continues driving and i phase out thru the back of the car. i move around the corner looking for something? and wake up. i lay still and DEILD back in using tactile sense. i lay in my bed and feel that i am dreaming again. i stop the tactile movement and do a nosepinch its working. i still have my sleeping mask on and i am a little scared if i just can put it off. but it works and i see perfectly (probably because i gave the dream enough time with tactile movement and a long nosepinch). i dont loose time and phase thru the window.
i fly down in a clumsy way and see a guy. i land/stumble next to him. i ask him to show me a dance. i notice that he looks like a kickboxer or something. big, strong and athletic. he starts his "dance" that looks more like kicks in the air (maybe a little like capoera but really not that dancefull) i tell him "yea but i want to see a dance" and he nods telling me THIS IS a dance. okay i think and for some reason i decide to answer this with a fireball the way i learned it yesterday. and yes it works pretty straight forward without to much problems. but i have a problem throw it on him but nah who cares. he "danced" for me and now i want to put my head into some nice concrete
i look for a good place in the ground. i notice that everywhere are bigger and smaller manhole covers. i dont want to make it too easy so i look for a place where there is solid ground. i find a nice place and dive free of fear on the ground head first. i stick my head face first into the ground and i feel that the ground gets flexible pretty fast and i sink in. darkness. i want my head to go deeper so i do a hand/headstand and push this little ball of a head deeper into the ground. but i just cant see anything. its pure black darkness. i wait some moments and notice to start see some schemas like HH or looking into the sun and see little bits and balls but nothing with real structure. i decide that its time to get "my head out of sand", spit some dirt out of my mouth and continue with next totm.
i look around and see several people. i want to do advanced II. i go to a group, turn my back to them and my hand behind my back asking for FryingMan. some random dude takes my hand i turn around ask him "are you FM?" he shakes his head. i let him go and move some meters to the next group and repeat it. again someone takes my hand and again its not FM. i ask/tell him to bring me to FM. we start walking (hand in hand?!) and i see some tables i want to move thru but because he holds my hand i move against them... i let go of his hand and think about some way to make easy points on my way. "i could smash the wall with my bare hand!" i approach a wall and start to punch it strongly. but i cant destroy the wall. just some sand is dropping. on the other hand my hand get no harm neither. " i really am not a fighter guy" i think and keep moving. i decide i could jump super high and try this with no aim. i cant jump significantly higher than normal. i aim for a rooftop and this time jump up and with ease i make several meters. in mid air i start floating and decide to come back to the ground.
but i have some problems going down again and i feel how the dream destabilizes. i start rubbing my hands and use some tactile movement. next thing i know i am infront of the house i was jumping and i enter it. there is a guy and his dad. they are eating something with eggplant and a dip made of tomatoes and cream. i for some reason feel that they do it "wrong" and the dip is not right. i move into the floor but then i decide i want to taste the eggplants. i go into the kitchen but the boy already cleared away the food. i ask them "where is the food?" he answers "in the freezer" i look around and ask "where is the freezer?" they just stare at me and dont answer. fuck it i think and pick up the bottle of juice on the table. i drink it and its grapefruitjuice. i phase out of the building but put my head in again and call the dad an asshole and phase out again. i look thru the window and see how he gets angry and want to get out. i want to throw him the juice against his head but the bottle dont phase thru the window and just smash against it and falls down. the dad comes out and wants to beat me up but before he can smash me i but both my hands on my temples and use mindcontrol. i say: "you dont remember any of that. you have a headache and want to lay down" the surrounding changes from outside to inside the livingroom. he come around and shakes his head saying "uh i have a headache i need to lay down." i stand up and point to the couch tell him to lay down there and meanwhile i leave him alone so he can rest.
i leave the building and in front of the house is a girl and another person? we talk shortly about something and then she wants to go somewhere and i accompany her. she tells me where to go but i stop her and say i first need to do something. i put my hand behind my back and this time feel super confident. immediately i feel a hand and ask "are you fryingman?" no answer i ask a second time and again no answer. i turn around and see a thin guy with short blond hair and light skin wearing blueish cloths standing there. i ask him directly "you are FM?" and he nods. i tell him that he wanted to show me how to get invisible last time but it didnt work out and if he can do it now. he starts to get worried like something is not right mumble something around. he seems to be torn between yes and no and i start waking up. i try to stabilize again but this time feel that´s over and i should journal to not forget it.

I don't recall much except that I became lucid in a dream. I don't know much about what happened prior to that, just that all DCs ceased motion once I tried to stabilize my dream, and that there was a big fat man next to me. I woke up.

D1 - headteacher is round my house and is using my account to buy things on ebay Oo I wonder where they will be delivered.

D2 - On holiday in spain I am running a creche for kids and there are loads. Alfie runs away and I am looking everywhere for him but while im out others escape LMAO. Sean comes to help me.

D3 - In a store I am wearing a green jumper and a purple one over the top, this fashion faux par means the assistant zooms in on me, thinking she can sell me loads of crappy stuff. Of course i am not interested and try to escape her clutches.

D4 - My daughter is in the house and I am trying to turn off the water. This is a phobia of mine that has returned in my dreams.

WBTB (success) due to my partner thinking it was a work day and getting up panicking

D5 - I am standing at the road side and immediately realise im dreaming. I make a car appear, it is an old ford original and black. It feels way to large inside without any seats, so I shrink it down.
It drives itself for a while then I get out and decide to jog. It feels great just to be free in the dream and I jog along a stretch of pedestrianised space on the sea front. Its quite busy with other joggers.
I see one woman jogging from the back, she has long dark hair, tied up and a red top with lycra jogging bottoms, little stripy socks and trainers. I like the look of her and decide to try something.
Previously I have used mind control but the people would just become mindless zombies and it was no fun at all. So this time I tried something different. I produced a note telling her that I was her boyfriend and put it into her hand. She read it and understood. We jogged along to her apartment. When she got out the keys she explained that she did not live alone but with her mother. When went up the stairs and when entering the spacious twenties style apartment. I saw her mother with grey hair and glasses and I was a bit apprehensive so I made her grow younger, to about the age of the other woman making them more like sisters. After that I got a bit distracted by sex and then thinking what I was going to do, as a result I woke up.

[comment]
I have realised the phobia I have is not specifically to do with fear of death but of fear of becoming overcome by my emotions. Hence the water.
When I was a child my parents ignored me when I had nightmares or was upset. I just used to get told off or ignored, so I learnt to hide my feelings.

4.10- 5.05
Short LD "Smash the Sky"
I am using a computer. The screen is mostly blue, like there is plastic over it. There are forums showing. I am trying to edit something and end up deleting the entire post. It occurs to me that this is a dream, and a nose pinch RC confirms it.

The room is small and has a couple of windows looking out of the second story towards a street and other buildings. I try to fly through the closed window, phasing through it completely. I am now outside but the sky is a ceiling still. There is a patch of blue sky down the street, but wherever I fly to the ceiling just keeps reappearing.

Finally I lose my temper and hulk out, letting out a roar of frustration and smashing head first into the solid ceiling. It shatters from the impact, lumps of masonry falling everywhere. Then it vanishes. I keep flying up into the sky until everything goes black. Then stars start to appear. The stars seem to gather together as I fly towards them, forming a galaxy. It fades before I can reach it.

Short LD "Triss" WILD
After waiting in the darkness for ages there are sudden screeching noises. Then violent vibrations start. Feels like an earthquake. I remind myself to stay calm. When everything goes quiet again, I do a nose pinch RC then stand up on the bed. Well, the task of the month requires a DC to show you a new method of dream control. So I stare at the door and imagine someone walking in.

A red haired woman walks in. She is tall, slim, oh and distractingly pretty. It could be Triss Merigold from the Witcher games. Damn. Maybe I should have created some trousers first. I stand up as she walks to the bed but without me saying a thing she gets down on her knees... * the rest is censored *

Probable false awakening. TR talking to a guy holding a D&D book.

5.20- 6.40am
Medium LD "Hollow Man"
A bad guy is picking on children and painting their toys black. I try to stop him and we end up fighting. During the struggle I get hold of two of his fingers and bend them back. They should break, but he is apparently double jointed and this doesn't do anything to him. Nothing seems to hurt him. Eventually we call a truce. The main thing is, he isn't upsetting the kids any more.

Later on there is a man sitting at a kitchen table eating half an apple pie with custard and ice cream. Mmmm one of my favourite desserts! I take the other half of the pie and put a big spoonful of custard on it. After the food is gone we switch off various fans and lights around the room.

I head upstairs and find a bedroom. While I'm getting undressed several people enter the room and talk about pouring dettol on me "until it foams." Uhm. Really rather you didn't. I become lucid.

I ask the DCs to show me a new method for dream control. They tell me to take a pen and draw a red cross on a tea-bag. Then put it on the floor, lie down and stare at the cross. Well this is all typically dumb, but I do it. While lying on the floor staring at the tea-bag with the cross on it, I suddenly fly backwards out of my body and become an astral projection.

Or at least that's what I thought happened. It seems more like invisibility though, as my body has vanished. Two of the DCs start arguing about how they didn't follow the instructions right and now the transformation is irreversible. You what? I shove one of the guys and he goes flying into a glass set of shelves. It breaks. Glass flies everywhere but doesn't hurt me. He takes a shard of glass and uses it like a dagger, but he is unable to see me and flails wildly.

Everyone else decides to leave. They run outside and get into a car. Still invisible, I jump into the back seat. Lost lucidity at some point, rest is best described as a false/semi lucid-dream. The road is blocked with parked cars and a van tries to run us off the road. The street is very narrow and when we reach the junction at the end, a digger the size of a house with a snow-plow shovel like thing on the front tries to shunt us out of the way.

The road is now blocked with scrap - abandoned cars, metal poles. A bunch of DCs are starting to move things out of the street. The others from the car start to assist. I try to help, and get spotted by a girl with a camera. Hey, what happened to the invisibility?

It turns out that digital cameras can pick up a faint trace of me, and she is using it to see where I am. We move into a house and a guy starts moving shelves around. I help him, while invisible, which freaks him out. He tells me to stop doing that.

I walk into the next room and find it is filled with people from work. One of them looks at a payslip then leaves it lying on the side. I am tempted to look at it. Before I get the chance, someone attacks me. They are using cameras to track me. At first I just try to stay out of the way, but eventually lose my patience and start throwing the people across the room and smashing the place up.... and then wake.

1st DILD- I woke up in my house. Everything was black, and I felt the dream slipping. I managed to stabilize it somehow. Everything was bright and sunny. I had become lucid at the tail end of the dream so I knew it wasn't going to last much longer. I found a window and jumped out, smashing into the concrete ground, through surprisingly bouncing up.

2nd DILD- I was studying when I realised that this was a dream. There was a woman talking to me about her job. I talked with her for a little bit before I decided I wanted to fly. I phased through the walls and flew into the sky. It was a gorgeous day, but everything wasn't as clear as WILD (It's why I don't like DILDs). I saw the moon in the sky and decided to fly into space, anxious to get more points for the Wolves. I wasn't quite able to do it and instead everything turned black and the moon disappeared. I stopped trying and everything returned to normal. I carried on flying passing over people and (strangely horses). I saw in the distance a big building and I decided to fly into it at high speed to see what would happen. I smacked straight into it but just bounced off.

3:44 - About 4 hours of sleep.

I dreamt with a very vivid storm happening in house of María Olguín, the house i currently slept in. My older sister was there, i had some arguments about her smoking in the house and then she put music, which i tend not to like (it was night, so i disagreed even more). I was in the bedroom, and i saw that rain was coming down from the window and soon it would fill the entire room and beds would float, although there was a drain in the middle of the room. In order to prevent that i went outside to clear the gutters from leaves. I go outside to climb the stairs to the terrace, and i find myself stuck in the middle of the stairs because i saw winds coming from the east. Also i saw a tornado like a block away, north, and about 15 meters to my left, so i thought it might destroy our house or it might just pass by, any of those choices could happen. Since it was a huge storm coming from the east, and a lot of wind i thought to go back inside, there was no way i could clear the gutters. I wanted to go back, but the wind was so strong that i couldn't walk too much, or else i would fly away. I saw paper flying away, and hitting me. I knew i was about going to die. I actually thought about it when my sister went outside to smoke because of my complaints, she said that a huge storm was coming. A huge storm only meant a "cosmical storm" (dream sign, like a storm where the universe ends, something like a big crunch). So i knew i was just a couple of minutes of dying. I wasn't agitated, but ... i was aware that not only i would loose my house, the whole city would be destroyed, but my sister would die, and i would loose my body and of course all the memories and "knowledge" gathered in this lifetime. I thought at that moment of remaining conscious, alert, mindful. I heard a classmate from highschool, apparently he lived next door in the building, that he already started flying. The tornado approached and was going to hit the house, not passing by. It was big, bigger than i thought it was. Even if it was small, if i went in there i wouldn't come out alive (unless i realized it was a dream and could fly away). The papers flied towards the earthy tornado and the winds and rains from the east merged with it. Finally the water from the east arrived home, and destroyed everything, including me. It was like a tsunami, although it came out of the rain. I remained in the same position, wasn't carried away by the water, but the house was immersed by the water. I had the eyes closed so i didn't know if i was dead or alive. But i could sense that apart from water the whole house was debris and it mixed with the water, which gave it a brown tone. I thought "is this dying?", and i didn't know if i was dead yet. But even still, if i wasn't dead i would be because i would drown. So i took a breath in on purpose, because i thought it would be better to do it and remain mindful of the process, instead of running out of oxygen and then desperating because i can't breathe. I didn't breathe in water... so i don't know... but i thought that it was already over, and also that i could go anywhere with my mind. Having no interest to explore i woke up.

I checked the time, saw my cat sleeping on the couch next to me, that tranquilized me a bit. Then i wrote the dream on my cellphone. Then i got up, went to bathroom, looked for water, and got back to bed thinking perhaps about wilding.

At 7:20 i woke up again having had a lucid dream.

I was in my bedroom. I don't remember very well how it happened, but i questioned if it could be a lucid dream. I took some time to do a reality check, like i would take while waking, and i looked at my hand while pressing the left middle finger through the palm of the right hand. I saw my hand with something like a white glow, but actually imperceptible. Then i saw the finger pushing through and making a black hole in the palm of the hand. I said to myself, oh wow, yes it is a dream! I just did the reality check just as routine, convinced that the dream was reality, and when i found out it was a dream still i was lucid but still the dream didn't feel like it was a dream (but i wouldn't be fooled). Anyways i did the reality check before the dream collapsed, and after i got lucid the dream collapsed and i woke up. But even when i woke up i thought that it could not be so, because it could be a false awakening. So i checked my surroundings. I had woken up where i was lying, and everything was the same, the lights were a bit brigth enough to see but dark to know it's still night. Damn i thought, i truly awake. I think the sign that made me think i was awake was that i felt the body heavy. But... it actually was a false awakening, and i didn't do a reality check, even though i could have. Then when i really awoke i found out.

Then at 9:30 i dreamt had another dream, which wasn't short.

I dreamt about being in a kiosk. It was night, and i was dressed as hippie, like coming out of my apartment with whatever clothes just to but something and go back. I wanted to buy a chocolate, but the young lady said she didn't have. Then i asked for an alfajor, "Grandote, triple". I think she didn't have that either. There were other 2 people buying but i didn't pay attention to them. They were going to clubs probably. Then the lady told me that i should stay there, that i violated some things because of the chocolate (i wasn't supposed to eat chocolate or something like that). I didn't resist, nor tried to escape like i could have done, i remained calm and let the situation unfold. I knew i had power over myself. The man grabbed some handcuffs and he put them in my hands and in my anckles, and they were linked by a chain. Then he entered me in the kiosk, and guided me to the back, where he and she had a laboratory (a pharmaceutical laboratory). Then he opens the high security door and i get in. Inside there was like a pit and many ... characters there who were there to fight, but weren't agressive. Like gladiators. Although i don't like to kill, and i would refrain from doing it, at first i just didn't control myself, and just defended myself being the first and fastest attacker. Then when there were like 5 left, some of the toughest ones i thought that what i was doing wasn't right, so i stopped. (I was using like energy out of my hands, and that made the DC dissapear). The remaining characters weren't agressive, they knew that i still was powerful and could defend myself, but also knew i wouldn't, but even so they didn't attacked me because they were also kind of surprised, and they did more or less the same. I decided that it was time to go out, and i went out.
I got out to the streets and it was dawning. I was in Cordoba, in street caceres de allende, or actually the following street (which i don't know), and reaching Bv San Juan. In a shop there were some matrix agents. I was aware of them, but wasn't bothered by them, they were just some other dream characters. I sensed that in Bv San Juan there was going some kidnapping going on, so i went there, and tried to save the girl/girls being kidnapped. Then i woke up.