non-lucid

Date: 12-17-13
Time: 8:54 P.M. - 2:16 A.M.
Technique(s) Used: Binatural Beats
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I was on a raft, gently floating towards a large island.

The raft hit the dock, and I jumped off. I was not human - my arms were much too long. Nonetheless, I began to explore the island.

I climbed up what looked like oddly-colored bamboo shoots with speed and ease. I climbed and climbed, not caring to stop.

Eventually, as the dream willed it, I did stop, and was near a dark cave. The ocean was to the left, for waves were splashing up near the entrance. I was human now - my arms were as they looked in the waking world. There were more shoots around, which were prompting me to climb and see what else there was. However, something else had caught my eye, and apparently a DCs as well.

Just below the entrance, inside a small crevice, was a tiny, golden egg. I lift it up, only to feel a powerful hand shove me away. There were two other DCs there - both tall, strong men. They wanted the egg.

The egg flew out of my hands towards the ocean when I was shoved. My arm suddenly flew out and hit one of the men smack in the head. He staggered backwards, and I guess I hit him pretty hard - he didn't know what he was doing here. I told him that he was checking out something else on the other side of the island. He seemed to have a revelation then - he made his way there, the other following suit.

I grab the egg before it can be washed out to see, and in that moment, it hatched. Inside was a small, dark blue bird (Now that I think about it, it looked like a very small version of the flut-flut from Jak and Daxter). I held it close, gently stroking it - I didn't want it to fall back into the ocean.

As I held the creature, loud bangs echoed from the other side of the island. Handing the bird to a DC that was close by, I went to investigate. While I walked, I noticed a few other caves, some holdin old remains, one even holding an archaic-looking chest.

I made it to where the other two DCs had gone, and sure enough, they were digging a pathway through the island. They were just about finished - I could see the other side.

On the other side lay a cul-de-sac.

I woke up soon after entering.
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From 2:20 - 5:51 A.M., there were only a few fragments, of which I cannot remember.

Date: 12/17/2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (Fail )
Total Sleep Time: 8 (ish) hours

Welp...I tried to duplicate my success from yesterday by planning all day with intent to WILD and doing my WBTB for at least 45 minutes. So would someone please tell me why the hell my job called telling me they needed something emailed to them within the hour (and the job would take me 2 hours to do) ???!!! By the time I got finish with the work there was no way in hell that I was able to go back to sleep. Oh well, there is always tomorrow...

Dream 1

I was surrounded by alligators and I decided that I would eat them so I started skinning their hide and removing their guts to make a soup. There were all sizes and shapes of alligators, but I wasn't afraid. I told myself the more the merrier for my alligator soup .

Dream 2

I saw a baby in a woman's uterus and I was able to see this with my naked eye. It was so vivid...his facial features were so clear to me. I saw that the baby was holding a miniature sword in his hand and smiling...like he was going to be a knight. Even though this was a very short dream I must admit, I believe this one was one of my favorites because the baby looked so confident and brave .

I decided last night that I would write down every dream I had right as I wake up (as inspired by the fryingman). When I got up, I had 5 different dreams written down, but I only remembered writing 2

fragment 1:
I was on someone's driveway and I belonged to a family of people that I have never met in my life. I was their daughter that had died not too long ago, I was also a very powerful witch, coincidentally. They had just resurrected me and I told them that they had to kill me because this would come back to them all, before it was too late. So I took out a wand and gave it to them to plunge through my heart, they refused. Then one guy tried and I smacked the wand away, laughed like a villain at him and said, "MUAhahahaaha!! I'm not really your daughter, I'm her evil grandmother and now I'm going to murder you all ". Then the daughter's mother (my now daughter, since I was evil grandmother) came up and stabbed me in the back with the wand and I melted. At this point, I was confused as to how I wasn't dead since I saw a pile of goo in front of me. I realized I was dreaming, became lucid. I immediately ran down the street and took off flying like a jet plane. I could hear the sounds a jet plane makes and feel the wind blowing past me at extreme speeds. I sped off faster and faster until I was in space, looking down on the Earth. I tried to make it turn into a million little earths so I could eat one and find out what it tasted like, but I woke up instead.

dream 1:
I finally fell asleep again after tossing and turning for awhile, I had woken up to arm numbness and then that killer pain (anything that comes back to life is gonna hurt). So I remember I was studying for a final, and my sister was there bothering me. She wouldn't leave me alone, she kept putting some pasty goo on my textbook. I went into a room and tried to barricade the door but all the stuff turned into...I guess I would describe it as being a bandoneon, it all compressed but it was still the barricade and not a musical instrument. I don't know. But yea it all compressed when my sister tried to open the door. At this point, I knew I was dreaming again. I shoved my DC sister aside and walked through a glass windowpane to get outside. I tried to turn the sun into a million little suns so that I could eat one or have them fall down on the earth and run away in horror. One of the two. Wouldn't work. So I said to the dream, "Okay, I'm ready to meet you now Mr. God". I looked around for a little bit until I saw two figures standing on a lawn. One was my grandpa and one was this nice looking guy that was wearing jeans, one of those puffy vests that have feathers in them, and a trucker hat. I walked up to my grandpa and asked him, "Are you Mr. God?" He told me, "No, but I'm going to be with you as you meet him". I thought that sounded nice. I gave him a big hug because he died almost 10 years ago. We were walking over to Mr. God and I had the single thought, what if this dream falls apart right now. Instantly, the dream starts to fall apart and I tried to stabilize, but the deed had already been done. I woke up. *sigh* doubt sucks

I was in a medium sized shack in a forest, my girlfriend also was there I remember though she didn't play any part in anything whatsoever. The shack was made of old, somewhat rotten looking wood with many smaller holes, letting the daylight in. There wasn't much in there, just a few uninteresting tools. There was some kind of nest there which apparently was harboring some kind of dangerous flying ticks (thank god our nature didn't really have this stupid idea. The ticks (all looking very different) swarmed out and I wanted to get away from these things (no panic though) so I opened the door and started running uphill for about 100m or so.
It was a forest during a beautiful day, fresh air and pleasant light. The trees were relatively normal and the ways were only small trails. I remember something or something saying to get away from these things fast before they eat me, and that I should go downhill, not uphill. On this trail I then turned left and there it went downhill, some 500m or something and it was designed like a cliff where trees still grow out of the sides. I jumped and grabbed onto some vines and branches here and there, swinging myself down there at suicidal breakneck speeds, it was quite a lot of fun. Due to me being always invincible in dreams neither the ticks nor the fall were any actual danger to me though.
Down there was the entrance of a small city or village and a big street which was mainly blue, also think there was a big water stream there, probably artificially created, maybe I even jumped in there for a moment, I'm not sure.
It was also somewhere here that I became lucid, I just realized that I was dreaming (most likely because I was listening to music while sleeping and my lucidity track turned on, after I woke up I checked the playlist and there it was so I had a EILD here).
Somehow I knew how the dream was supposed to continue so out of some mood I decided to stick with it and see how the effect on my stability is, I walked over to the village and into what's supposed to be a super market, to be precise it had the logo of PLUS (orange-blue). Somehow I remember 2 possibilities for how it looked inside, I think one of them is a fragment from another dream though.
The inside (which I think belongs here alone) was actually very small and only very few products were there, I was talking with the shop lady about something but I don't remember about what and then the dream ended. In conclusion I can say that going with the plot made the dream last a felt 2-3 minutes longer, but probably wasn't worth it.

After 8 h WBTB - maybe 10 min. SSILD-activities - these made me tired and want to roll over.


First dream:
What resulted was a very vivid dream - started nicely with being hiking in the summer with a group of friends - we made a pause at a cottage to eat and drink something. But first I was missing my cigarettes - then also mobile phone and purse.

We suspected a woman, who had behaved weirdly and turned her eyes away when looked at.
So a friend of mine helped me nail her down - like managed against her will to look into her bag - and there the cigarettes were.
And I saw something, which looked like another purse of mine than the one, I was looking for.

I left it be - but later, considering the cell-phone - I wanted to catch up with her, to look again.
I knew at that point, that she lived in the same house where I lived - just one story below.
There was only her kid - telling me, his parents would be at the gynaecologist.

So I went there - confronted her - and against even physical hassling from her husband - I got my phone and purse back, and left the practice.
This was all in front of the other patients/their partners.

On returning home - the story had seemingly gone on without me - and the janitor of the house had called the police about it.
This husband would have been violent again and was shot dead - lying on a stretcher - with a law medical examiner - who by the way had made an x-ray (in our flat - wtf??) - he showed it to me - and again there was a fixateure interne in his spine (like in mine some dreams back).
This whole thing somehow lead to a general police alert all over the city - and throngs of police were holding a meeting in a big railway-station hall - really huge.

Second dream:
Like so often I was in search for a flat - and was with several other interested people looking at a weird longish flat with glass roof.
It looked like some train-department with 70s-style rounded windows rimmed in red etc.
But then the real-estate-guy took a remote control - and the roof folded away - so you could make the whole flat open to the sky.

Later I was test- sitting on a high-bench maybe 50 cm deep but around 4-5 meters up.
Now comes the mad part - I got lucid from the fact, that I was afraid of that height.
Even sitting there safe and all - I had such a visceral fear - and I couldn´t overcome it - looking at the side of that bench, and considering climbing down made me almost sick.

Now in real life - I have almost no fear of any heights - going rock-climbing in the mountains sometimes.

So - I went for nose-plug - questioning this reaction - yepp - I was able to breathe.
But like once before - I had the feeling, I might subconsciously be cheating - like not really holding the nose completely closed or whatever.

So I took my hands up to look - and again - they looked all right at first - just a bit blurry - but that didn´t convince me - when I started counting fingers, though - it seemed my hand was sprouting fingers as I went - they even bifurcated.
But somehow, I wasn´t as lucid as I used to be two weeks back with easy fearless flying.
I climbed down that thing..

Unfortunately - I didn´t first change something or somebody - but did basic summoning then.
My comp tasks are first object/DC change - and then summoning.
I was sitting on the ground - and expecting somebody coming round the corner.
Instantly something dark moved about there - but I willed a guy to come around because I was in a certain mood ..ähämmm.
He did come around the corner - was naked and inspiring - but we didn´t touch.
Mixing stuff up - I stupidly first asked for a present - and got a cat-reaction (when I asked a cat last month, what she was thankful for - she looked disdainfully and stalked off).
He shook his head and went back around that corner.

I woke up shortly - and right back into a lucid dream - so DEILD.

Third dream:
I was standing outside at the border of a meadow with many trees.
And I had to RC several times again - not high lucidity, but high realism.
After that - I had nicely stabilized by hand rubbing and inspecting things closely.

So I thought - meanwhile pretty clearly - lets make that snowman.
I saw a birch or otherwise white-branched tree - and convinced myself of that being snow - and it snowing back there.
I think, I get the hang of that firmly expecting stuff.
Instantly it started snowing everywhere and strongly, and there was snow on the ground, which didn´t first have to pile up like last time.
This second time around was so much faster and better.
I am really surprised how much practice seems to really help with specific things.
So I knelt down - felt the snow very realistic again - and made a small ball - maybe 20 cm diameter only.
It didn´t really easily want to stick together, by the way.
And then the damnated real life doorbell rang!!

Now I get angry at this quite a bit - but I took it unusually mellow and didn´t rip anybody´s head off, when it happened.


Fragment one:
There was a physics experiment with a complicated installation and it was about, if my emotional state could influence the flow of electricity - and there was something, to make the flow visible.
And I could change that - what it read/showed.
But later it was found out, that I didn´t really change the flow - only what we all saw as a read-out.


Fragment two:
I was listening with a group to somebody recommending vacations, and what you could do there and there.
Strangely - it was also about lying in the sun - and the recommendation was to do sunbathing at a lake - but when at the sea - he said, one could then at least sun-bath in the forests close to the sea..??

Dream 1 : [COLOR="#800080"]I was in Korea with a girl named Martina and a guy named Simon and another guy but I don't remember who. We kept playing around doing all kind of stuff(won't get into detail). I suddenly got tired and fainted then woke up and laugh. I went to sit on a fountain with a classmate of mine and a toddler came and started to curse my classmate. I told her to stop cursing. She didn't stop cursing but she dropped a black and red thread in the water and then she said : I can't leave, I need to find her. [/COLOR]
Dream 2 (fragment) : [COLOR="#800080"]I was in my apartment. I told mom that I wanted to go swimming and she said that she also wants to go to the swimming pool. I searched for my swimsuit and I talked with mom about something I don't remember. [/COLOR]

Went to bed close to 11pm
Woke up before 5am and failed to fall back asleep

Dream 1: Shirt-Pants to Church and Polish

My older son felt like wearing a shirt on his legs instead of pants to go to church, and I let him! Hoped that it was not too obvious. The shirt seemed to be more of a girl's blouse with puffy sleeves, which he had put his legs through. Even though we were in an English speaking country, in my dream my sons spoke only Polish, and they were older than they are now. As one of them was heading into church on his own, a man addressed him in English, my son responded in Polish, the man switched to Polish, and he asked my son something, and my son responded, and I was proud to find out he responded correctly. (In waking life my sons do not speak Polish, or rather just a few words.)

Dream 2: Wild Boar (Rhino) Attack in the Garden

I was going to grow vegetables and fruit in a garden to sell to make additional money, and another woman was teaching me how to plant them. Suddenly a wild boar ran out of the bushes and charged me (the other woman was not in sight at this moment). The boar had a horn more like a rhino though, a boar sized rhino? I managed to hold it in a way so that I was pushing it away with all my strength, but it did gorge my belly somewhat and bit me there too. As I was being gorged, I cried out for help "Mama!" And then I woke up!

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

Like in a RPG game, I was at the beginning of a game, with a "team" and we were being introduced to the set and the rules. We were going to be dropped at a high tower of a gigantic building in a ghost town. This building was so massive, it occupied almost half of the town space. It rose up like a skyscraper but at different levels it ramified into individual towers with further ramifications. And we were being shown in 3D the whole complex and the exact tower where we would be dropped. It looked so degraded and abandoned. I wondered about stability of the structure. But no other dangers ocurred to me.
We were going on a recon mission, but no details were given to us.
So we're inside and the place is creepy and incredible in its architecture, but nothing goes on. Curtains fly over broken glass windows.
Then we reach this plateau, or attic and we have a creepy feeling. Someone reports movement. We start being attacked by unindentified entities and we run down the stairs. But not everybody made it. There's 1 or 2 missing. I turn back to look for them, but they appear zombie-like and start attacking me to. I tell everybody else to just run down the stairs and I run faster than anyone else, cause I'm supposed to be in the front leading them out. But one by one they start being touched by some invisible hand that leaves them like zombies who turn back to stay in the building. Only I and 2 others manage to safely get out of that tower without being caught by this force.
I become lucid, not so worried anymore, decide to fly away carelessly. I have a zen moment flyin over the ocean. I see half a dozen very small dots in the water. It's people. I go down to watch them closely and end up being dragged into the water with them. It's not a fun moment. We just had sand below our feet and out of nowhere the waves grew bigger and are dragging us away from the beach. We're fighting the current. I see one getting to the shore but I'm starting to feel hopeless, I'm surely going to die! I wake up, shaking that feeling of desperation away. I review the dream I just had and decide to forget this last part and focus on that building and its story. I fall asleep and get back there. But now it's a different time. There's people still living on it. I'm a girl lying in bed in that attic. There's nothing else, just this bed. And I have a white cat, but he is no ordinary cat, he is a ghost cat. He fell or was thrown down the tower, but he keeps visiting me all the time. He is now looking at me from the ceiling above my head, his head lurking through the concrete, as if there was a hole in it. Sometimes I look out the window and his is roaming around the lower level plateau veranda. He keeps me company. My father keeps me locked up in here. It's very early morning and he might appear at any moment. So he does, bringing a tray with something different from the usual breakfast. Something white, that he tells me it's to celebrate my birthday. It's green jello with whip cream on top. Better than nothing. I wonder what am I (this girl) doing here. Is she held in captivity? Is that why she is so alone? Did she die here? Is she the ghost capturing people to keep her company?
Alarm clock goes of...

I've been getting a very healthy amount of sleep the last few nights. Perhaps too much. So, I have a few fragments from last night's dreams including one in which V was incorporated. We had rekindled something, but she obviously had a different vision for how things were going to play out. As I return to the bed to cuddle with her, she guides my face in a mild rejection. I feel deflated and realize that she's entirely in control of the situation. I was, myself, going through some strange emotions since I kept remembering how recently I had been dealing with feelings towards A. This is an on-going issue in my waking life, so I can hopefully use it as one of my major dream signs to look out for.

Current dream signs:
1. A
2. Birds, in pursuit of
3. Costa Rica, revisiting and perhaps living there
4. Derek, regaining communication and potential conversations

This dream came to me pretty fragmented. This is what I get for trying to WILD when it has become pretty clear to me that I have no idea how to wild.

I wasn't successful in being lucid, but I was successful in inducing my dream location, a beach. Specifically it was the dream sign beach resort, the one my family visits every spring around this time.
I think I may have been mildly lucid when the dream began.

Something was going on having to do with food.

I was giving someone a tour of the resort. Come to think of it, it might have been Lia. I can remember one of the three buildings had a weird extension made from these brownish cobblestones. They were cemented together, and the extension had these huge panoramic glass windows. It looked very modern in fact.
The DC who I assumed was Lia was curious about the extension. I told her that I wasn't familiar with the extension and it must have only been added after the last time I visited.

Okay, I need to go and cry now that my two best dream signs just sailed right over my head.

The resort began to distort, and it felt like we were in more of a bay type area. The bay that seemed to be closing in had these really tall trees on the shore that felt like the giant jungle trees from Minecraft, save for they were realistic and not made of blocks.
There were alot of rough waves in the water. I spotted a whole palm tree that was floating on the water and being pushed toward the shore. I then spotted a second palm tree, followed by a couple of very large pine logs that were sawed off on each end.
One of the pine logs washed up on shore right in front of me. Lia was still with me and explained that it was weird that the logs were washing up on shore because they were cut by a logging company in California.

Why that information was important, I don't know.

I was in a set of maybe two or three rooms. It felt like these rooms were underneath the beach that I had been on in the first part of the dream.
The rooms were arranged in a triangle formation, with one door connecting to each room. The rooms were covered, wall, floor and ceiling by a rich brown wood. (Maybe it was the pine wood from earlier.) One of the rooms was larger than the other, and there were about half a dozen dream characters chatting and talking. Apparently this three rooms setup was part of some strange social experiment.
I tried to go into the room with the other dream characters, and I wanted to chat with them, but there was a tall thin boy who disallowed me from coming into the room. I tried to go in twice and each time he pushed me out.
The third time I tried to go in, I told him not to push me and to just hear me out. I felt like somebody was next to my right leg, and I looked down. There was a girl, maybe two years younger than me trying to put her clothes back on. Realizing she didn't want attention, I quickly looked away out of respect and realized she was the only girl here. When I looked around the room, and saw the faces of the other boys, I got the feeling that the other boys were abusing her. (I guess this was part of the social experiment we were in.)
I kept on talking with the tall boy, who started to become more friendly as we chatted. I think I was eventually able to make amends with everyone.

Grayson's come across Mina and Harker in some danger and got them out of it by offering them a ride home in his carriage. Now they're discussing a message he's sent someone to deliver, and Mina's objecting to sending this messenger into danger on their behalf. Grayson asks what danger she's referring to. Why, the war, of course. They're not far from the battlefield; that's part of why they were so grateful for his rescue. Throughout this conversation, Harker has become increasingly uncomfortable and is beginning to regret accepting the ride. Mina, sitting across from the other two, is noting that Grayson's in shadows so dark he can't be seen.

Lucy in a different carriage, with Lady Jayne riding outside. Jayne says to her, "Don't you think you had better go?" "No. My choice is to stay." "Atta girl."

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

A species of small creatures which, as they grow up, take on masters and will instinctively fight the servants of other masters if left alone together - which often results in fighting their own siblings, sometimes to the death. Later, when they grow into masters themselves, they see the other side of that, with the responsibility and grief of killing. (The dream logic was inconsistent about who was actually the one doing the killing, the servant or the master. The main point was violence without thought of consequences in the young, servant version, contrasted with the grief, guilt, and sense of responsibility in the older, master version, and a sense of circular time or mythic time, coming back around to the same event but from a different perspective.)

I'm breaking into the ruins of an old and isolated church, with a cat, carrying a candle; I climb up the stone wall and up onto the second floor, which is mostly open to the sky. However, just as I get there, I see the property owner returning home across the fields in the distance, in a dogsled. I extinguish the candle I was carrying, but it's too late, he's already spotted the light and is turning this way. I climb back down the wall and run for it. However, I'm on foot and he's got dogs; my odds of outrunning him aren't good.

We cross a river, and the scene changes to 3rd person; now it's a group of children who are running from him, and they dive beneath the water and stay there. As a 3rd person observer, I'm thinking about legends of creatures that can't cross running water, and about the way the scene changed when I hit the water, the river acting as an event boundary.

A party where I've been looking for a woman, a dressmaker, known for a dress that resembles the sea. I find her, an elderly woman, and I ask her about that dress, which pleases her, but which isn't the subject I really want to talk to her about. We're interrupted by another woman, someone I know, and the two of them go off to talk in another room, behind a closed door. I eavesdrop from just outside. I hear them mention a Joanna - a dead woman who I keep hearing about, someone who left a widower behind, someone powerful. I'm caught listening, and so go away without hearing the rest of the conversation.

Rumpelstiltskin. I have some guests, people here to do business, but I've just turned away from them and am talking to Belle, showing her the potion I'm preparing and saying "It's designed to attract." The scene switches to 3rd person, and I note that Rumpelstiltskin loses the showman routine he uses with the others when he talks to Belle; I'm thinking something abut the length of time Belle's been around and how they interact, which is something that Rumpelstiltskin is feeling a little bewildered about. He heads up to the tower to get in touch with someone through some magical means. "Don't go listening," he says to Belle. She's indignant - of course she wouldn't!

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

Based on Carmen - she's dancing, I'm sitting in a chair watching her and thinking about the past, about killing for her, feeling sober. (This felt like it was a variation on the servant creatures from before - as if there was something I was trying to work out but wasn't quite getting, so the dream was rephrasing.)

fragment 1:

The earliest part I remember is sitting in a classroom, very similar to the one from last night despite never having been in it before. I was supposed to read this paper with my group that talked about everything coming in pairs. The teacher wanted us to explain why reality was like that, why did everything come in pairs of 2. I thought she was talking about everything having its opposite but she told me that it wasn't opposites, but the pairs were all very nearly the same. They only seemed different to me. So I was reading through this paper, and I turned one page and there was a music video on the paper. One guy with a mullet was standing in some industrial yard on a metallic structure, spraying water in the air. The water started to fall on my buddies at the table and I apologized, because they weren't ready for it. Half the classroom faded into the industrial yard with this guy. Red Rain, by Peter Gabriel, started playing as this guy was spraying us all with the water coming out of this hose. I thought it was nice. Then I woke up.

fragment 2:

This one is a little blurrier. My sister and I were driving on some road trip with the 2 kitties when she wanted to stop at a gas station. The gas station was filled with over the counter drugs, but they were in powder form, weird. That's all they sold there too, so I was sad. Then when I was leaving the gas station I noticed that the kitties had escaped. My sister caught the girl cat pretty easily, but the boy had some kind of inhuman strength. He kept running from me and he ran into the arms of some old lady. She handed him to me and then he started to run away. He was dragging me along the ground as I held onto him. All I could think at this point was, Yes! Our daily trainings have finally started to pay off! Then we drove to some place where there was a person with frosting for hair - I tasted it and it tasted just like raspberries, delicious.

dream 1:

At this point, it was very close to my wake-up time. I had about 30 minutes left and I was getting very frustrated that I hadn't had a lucid yet, so I decided to go all in and try an old-style WILD like I used to do. I focused on the auditory hallucinations and controlled them so that it became part of a dream, then I paired them with the pictures in my head until it became more and more vivid. Eventually I opened my dream eyes and I was confused because I was still in my room, so I checked to make sure it was a dream and it was! I got out of bed and started to transform myself into a dragon on the floor. I did it fully, sort of, I was more like a baby dragon. I guess I didn't want to destroy my room with too large of a dragon transformation. I started to flap my little baby dragon wings and fly around the room. I was extremely excited at this point and I woke up with a burst of adrenaline, no more dream-time left for me.

Side-note | Lucid

[LUCID] Grocery store task
Before bed, I was running over my known dreamsigns, telling myself that "If I see X, I'll know I'm dreaming" I don't remember how this one started, but I think there's a good chance it was the "huge room" dreamsign. After waking up, I couldn't remember anything for a few moments. Just as I thought all was lost, I got a flash of this one. I'm sure I forgot parts (like how I got lucid in the first place).

I'm in a grocery store. Some kind of event is going on at one end. I'm at the other end, getting snacks. Lots of junk food is hanging in front of me; nothing is too my back. A friend is with me, but I knew that as a DC he can't be as fast as me, because he's bound by the rules of the dream. I'm still waiting for him at the snacks, and I know that once he arrives and gets his own snacks it'll still take him a while to get back to the event. I start thinking about how I can help him. I decide that adding moving walkways to the store would be a good start, but I don't actually try it.

Now, I'm looking at the store's safe. I pick up something that would let me open it (maybe the key? I don't know), but then I decide, that I'm in a dream, so I should use my mind! I stare at the door, trying to picture the gears inside it spinning, unlocking, and opening the door. Nothing happens.

Now I'm with my family in a kind of hallway next to the windows. It's wide enough for a line of cafe tables and enough room to walk. We're sitting on the floor, looking out the window. A couple of bulky men are standing outside the window. Beyond them is the parking lot and road, and beyond the road is a steep embankment going up. My wife and I are sitting right next to each other, my right arm pressed against her left. I remember the task to close my eyes for ten seconds. I get an odd feeling of excitement, that I'll be doing something I know I shouldn't be doing, but I KNOW it'll go well. I close my eyes and start counting. I focus on the feeling of my wife against my side and on the memory of what I saw. I almost see a kind of "after image". The men's shirts particularly stand out as blobs of color. I reach 10 and open my eyes. As far as I can tell, nothing has changed. I consider trying it again, except visualizing a different scene with my eyes closed; but I don't do it.

Now I'm looking at the embankment. People are climbing up ladders to the top, but something is going wrong. They're complaining loudly about it, even though it's their own fault. (I don't know how I know they're complaining; they're across the street where I can't hear them). Eventually, some other activity has to stop because their complaining is just too much of a pain.

Now I'm walking with my third daughter on the road, just like everyone else. We're still following the rules of the road and get into the left turn lane behind a line of people.


New directions
I'm walking through a grassy field (some kind of park, I think) sending a text message to Jakkarth, telling him that I've moved to a new place. I try to give a thumbnail sketch of where it is, but I'm still not familiar with the area and I can't provide real directions. I tell him that I'll send proper directions once I get back to the house. Now I've just come down from being on a play fort. I realize that my phone isn't in my pocket and look around for it. I see it on the ground under the fort, and I realize that it fell out of my pocket somehow as I was coming down.


Lost ties
I'm walking around outside church Side-note(which looks nothing like the real one)[/COLOR] when I see JB, one of our deacons, holding a wad of ties in one hand and his cell phone in the other. He's using the cell phone to talk through the PA system, announcing that he's found some ties and that they'll be going in the trash unless they're claimed soon. He shows them to me and asks if they're mine; I take a quick look and tell him they aren't. He gives one final warning over the PA, then starts to throw them away, but I stop him. I tell him that it always annoys me that the policy is always "Claim your stuff or it goes to Good Will." I wish there were a short period during which the stuff stayed on display but where anyone who wanted it could take it. He thinks about it, then agrees with me and hands me the ties to look through again, to see if I want to keep any of them. He warns me that there's trash in the middle of the wad of ties. I see that he's been going around the property, picking up trash and wadding it all together. On closer inspection, I really don't like any of the ties and start looking for a place to throw them away.


Parking deck excitement
I'm in the passenger seat of a van driven by people I'm staying with. I don't know them very well. The father Side-note(who looks like Iron Man 3's Killian - something had reminded me of Extremis the night before)[/COLOR] is driving, and his kids are in the back. We're in a parking deck, trying to get out. The main exit is backed up, so he decides to take a "short cut". He drives over a curb, knocking over some glass jars that had been placed along it. Following this path around the deck, we reach what should have been an exit, except that it's been mostly walled off. There are still gaps around and under it where we can catch glimpses of the outside. I see tires under it and hope it's not a police car, and that if it is they won't realize what we've done. He backs up back over the curb. I see that the unblocked exit is right next to this one, and that it's currently clear. I don't think he should take it yet - if it really was a police car out side, we don't want to tip its occupants off that we were the ones who jumped the curb - but he just takes the exit. Sure enough, it was a police car, and they start following us, though their lights aren't yet on. The father starts slowly accelerating. I ask incredulously if he's planning on getting into a chase with the police, but he denies it. By this time, he's going recklessly fast around the parking lot, trying to lose the police before they actually turn their lights on. I consider bailing out of the car, but decide that would be just as dangerous as staying in.


Fragments
It's night. I see something about a ghostly apparition - some kind of advanced technology - that jumped on / through a helicopter and brought it down. An investigation is ongoing into what it was. I see a pool of some kind in front of me. An artificial animal - a cow? - is helping fill it. Suddenly, I realize that the plot to bring down the helicopter was from the artificial animals, and that it lets them fill these pools over and over, becoming rich and taking all the power as they do so.

Something in a house.

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00:00 Monday 2013-12-16 comp #16 night #4

00:30 ?? bedtime

01:47 had dreams but no recall

02:16 some a$$hats outside making a lot of noise, they left soon made it into a WBTB

04:27

F1) in a sports club lifting weights

06:09

1) there are two guys they're preparing to murder an evil criminal another man they are lawmen, but the guy they've caught murdered one of their friends so they're planning to work outside the law to construct a killing device for this guy, it's a tall pole with a huge heavy metal ball combined with a giant metal hook. The device works by immobilizing the intended victim, place the pole over them so that the ball/hook will hit their head around the top, the ball/hook falls near their head, the hook rotates out and stabs into the brain, kiling the victim. They're setting up this device, and the victim is now a teen girl not a man. She is lying down inside a box. She can't see the thing. The ball/hook comes down, the hook comes out, and kills her, but instantly her ghost/soul rises up out of her body and comes to me and I start interacting with her. She has splotchy/zombie-ish skin on her face and body, I realize this is the way her ghost will appear for the rest of eternity. I'm comforting/hugging/kissing her. She's agitated, I'm trying to convince her that she has possibilities and opportunities, for her eternal zombie career. She says she'll never be a personal trainer. I'm trying to convince her to become an actress. She was a low-class girl.

2) Very bizarre scene, there is a human-ish being "egg man" (gives me shivers just to think of it) whose mid-lower body is entirely contained within a large egg-shaped container. This being's eyes are bright red shining slits. There is a bright red shining horizontal slit centered on its forehead. Its entire purpose in life is to live within this egg chamber and to take one thing into its mouth from a bowl in front of its face, chew it, and extract a seed or something from within, and to spit out this seed into another bowl, these seeds are valuable and he sells them. He keeps chewing and spitting these seeds over and over.

F2) I'm looking for something on a large series of shelves. People are watching, things are falling down, I'm trying to pick something up, there's a trailer home afterwards.

3) I'm speaking with a famous woman (former porn star?) beautiful middle-aged woman I'm trying to convince her that she has possibilities and that she should be an actress. She should focus on "stepping up her game" to promote herself.
There's a guy with a foreign girl whom he just met, he's trying to impress her, they're talking with another guy and the first guy is trying to get the speaker to slow down so the girl will understand because she was recording the first time, so that she could appreciate the funny part of the story. He's trying to get him to tell the story again slowly and clearly.

F3) Bewitched episode. I'm the husband on the old TV show Bewitched, my wife is the pretty witch. I tell the housekeeper that our house is full of witches. so she comes prepared to work in our house with anti-witch charms. My wife is upset that I told the housekeeper ahead of time.

4) street rat. On a street at night going up and down the street (which seems to have been groomed to be resurfaced, I see grooves in the ground) on some machine with some guy, I see on one pass an old, slow black greasy rat walking down the middle of the street.
I'm trying to get my coat back from the coat-check, there are hundreds of people trying to get their coats back from the coat-check, I should have picked up my coat earlier before the crowds arrived, I move past the place where people are picking up their coats to another place and think I should return to the place I just passed.

08:28

F4) lying on bed in my younger son's room. He comes home from school, he wants me to enter the security code in some program on his computer.

5) I'm in a gathering (job fair?), I go to the edge of the room, there are packs of food there I think they're free party favors, but you have to pay it turns out, at least $10 each so I decide to pass, the packages are pretty heavy, I see then that there are also packages containing costumes like halloween costumes, they look like burlap sacks some of them, star wars based they seem to be, I think of calling my kids to see which costumes they want. To the right beyond the costumes is the cashier, there are lots of light-covered baubles there also for sale. My friend JoTy and another DC guy are there telling me to try out the toy double-sided lightsaber. The packaging looks really enticing, depicting a bright flourescent green beam, I hold the device with has a thick central handle and two touch-switches underneath some black foam, and the toy turns on, the "blades" are flickery green, not very bright, rather disappointing. I wave it around and it does not make any light saber sounds. I "bop" each of JoTy pretending slicing and the other guy with the ends of the toy. I turned it on and off twice. I thought I could use this to incubate a dream about having a light-saber (!!!!).

6) floating on a raft with college friends, I see CrLe right in front of me. I smack him on the knee playfully and say enthusiastically, "How're ya doing!?" I say "it's amazing we're already halfway through the 3rd year, it's like it just started, it's my favorite thing to do I love being in college". I say I've saved the regular non-scientific-major classes until the last semester of school, taking history and english and all those "uninteresting" classes.

7) a fast food burger stand has opened up. There are a bunch of young people working behind the counter. One of the young people there is talking to me in English promoting the food place. I'm puzzled why he's talking to me in very good English. I go up to the stand and look at the menu, burgers and deserts. I'd like to get something but I know that if I do I'll be too full.

8) on the back steps of my parents house down to the lawn, I see signs that there have been animals tramping around in the garden. On the fence to the L's house, I see what looks like deer hoof tracks in recently dug-up dirt straddling the fence between our gardens. I look up to the street (HC) and I see there a baby black bear walking around. I feel I must run into the house right away to call animal control because the mother bear may be around and that's very dangerous.

10:47

9) some sort of work marketing-promotion event is beind held outside. The marketing gals are setting up booths with lots of objects/paraphenalia in them, they collapse once and they pick everything up, I think that would suck if everything fell down again because the shelves are filled with lots of small things. There is a very desireable object there as well, the point of this whole promotion is to give these away as the big prizes, I'm thinking are these booths going to be left unguarded overnight? Maybe I can come back and steal some.

inside a restaurant, gathering food and snacks with a woman (HR woman from the above event?), I like her, we're sitting down to eat, I'm offering her the things I have: 1) a small opened plastic pack of BBQ potato chips, the chips are small and orange colored from the flavoring, it's a bad unappealing little greasy bag of chips, and 2) a larger pack of unopened white puff balls/crackers of some sort. I think I need to get a bowl to put these snacks in so they look more appealing, I go off to look for a bowl.

F5) flying high in the air, there will be an attack

10) sitting in car with wife who is on phone (I'm in passenger seat) talking about the real estate deal involving a property we share with her brother and his wife, we're selling it. From what I hear of the conversation I gather that all of our portion of the sale proceeds have been given to her sister-in-law. I exclaim, "Wait, WHAT!?" when I hear this. My wife hangs up she's annoyed with me she didn't want the person she's talking to to hear my reaction. She's on the phone describing what happened, my voice would disturb the other person. She calls the person back, I'm trying to get my wife to answer me, I repeatedly ask, "where's our money?", wife says "they gave it all to sister-in-law in compensation for the hard life she's had."

Then I'm driving in a different car with wife's sister-in-law (I'm still in passenger seat), my wife is driving in a different car. I say "where are we going?" To somewhere having to do with this real estate deal. We turn left on to a street, and we're sailing through the stop signs. I think this is a terrible idea, first of all it's dangerous, second we could get stopped and not everybody has valid driver's licenses, it'll be a problem. I think about calling wife on phone and telling her to stop at all the stop signs.

We approach a car head-on (it's parked), we swerve to avoid it, as we pass by the car a small brown/red animal (dog? fox?) emerges from underneath the parked car heading into the street, and pulls it's leg and it's tail out from under the wheel of the parked car. In a cartoon fashion, the leg/tail gets stretched long and thin while the animal keeps pullilng and pulling, then suddenly the leg/tail snaps free like a rubber band back into position on the body. Happens twice (once leg, once tail). I see a small spot on the body like blood.

We're coming up on a big gourmet food store (like a Whole Foods) where my wife wants to stop and get some cheesecake. I want to drive now. I think we could pull in to the parking lof of this store and we could switch places so I could drive. We end up not going into the parking lot, we go straight a short bit and stop. We have parked inside the middle of an indoor office. I'm thinking "oooh, sorry about that" to the office workers, we get out of the car, and I want to move it out of the way (it's right in between some desks). The car has become a child's toy push car that they can ride in. I start pushing the car around to get it out of the way, it's still really heavy like a real car. I'm rolling it around, maneuvering it around a corner to get it out, I start saying "I love small cars, they're so easy to maneuver, my first car out of college was a FF, it was a really small car, but it was great because it's so tall inside. " The office women I'm talking to say "mmm hmmm yeah OK." I keep going on "it was like a volkswagen golf/jetta but smaller, very small very easy for me to sit in."

One of the office women says to me "boy you have some chapped lips, don't you?!". I think about my lips and smack them a few times, they do feel puffy. I look at myself in a mirror and see my lips, they look like two pairs of the sponges inside womens' hair-rollers, two sponges joined for the upper lip, and two joined for the lower lip. I smack my lips and say "man those things really are chapped, aren't they?"

Very late in bed and stone-tired - not motivated to WBTB or properly journal with my micro.
But what is nice, is that some parts and pieces show up in my mind on their own - will later try to squeeze out some more from my brain.

One dream:
Again (ffs!) I am at this house, I am never wanted at - of the parents of my first boyfriend.
But again - we were much older.
In this dream - there was a snippet, where I wanted to use the toilet, and it wasn´t locked - I even looked, if it showed red (it was such a door). It wasn´t - I opened the door a bit - and got it slammed back closed by the irate mother - assuming, I did that on purpose - and giving me a piece of her mind, so to speak.
These dreams are full of silly crap..
There never is much interaction with him - it is mainly conflicts with his parents - esp. the mother.
And in each dream of the five I have on here now - every time, I "did something wrong" - and got expelled more or less nicely - actually every time it is something new I did wrong.
This time - again winter, again x-mas time - I was there for visit - but when then the big family walk after food was being walked - I asked my ex, what would be the problem - why she would be so hostile.
And he said, it is because she disapproves of me having an affair with him, while he also has a girlfriend.
This was true then - even when I am pretty sure, it wasn´t before we went out - just "a friend" back then I believe.

A fragment:
I took a walk through a forest with very dark trees - without leaves - but many branches being a bit meandering - even contorted. I was walking on a high pass - I could look down a rather steep decline to the right through the trees - and next to that decline started agricultural fields with some sort of grain being grown there.
But maybe 4 meters broad stretch with trees between me and that decline.
It was dark from all the branches in that place I was in - and below it was "daylight".