non-lucid

1. First, I dreamed I was with a friend of mine. We were walking down the street, somewhere in Florida (I think), trying to find a park, and for some reason there were like sculptures that turned into other things, or they came alive and followed us... I can't remember...

2. Then I dreamed I was in some sort of mansion with lots of halls and rooms. It was dark, gothic, and maze-like. There was some sort of party going on. I was with a friend of mine, who was some sort of monster/vampire/demon (but he was friendly... at least to me). He was actually a much younger looking variant of the Warlock character who shows up from time to time, but he wasn't (as) self-aware. We both looked and acted like teenagers.
I was looking for a different costume to wear, he helped me sneak into a room but told me to be very quiet. The reason was because there were demons behind some curtains, and noise would wake them up. I was scared and very cautious about moving around the room. The room was full of all sorts of costumes and garments, and I picked out some crazy stuff. Think goth-on-acid. Then, we left the room. We went back to the main party room, which was like huge theater, and there were sculptures covered in gold on the ceiling. We went to another room, which turned out to actually be outside, and there was a whole field of lilies in the clearing of a forest. We wandered around in the forest, and there were different clearings with different flowers, including some lilacs with kind of a yellow-gold hue. My friend made a joke about me liking lilacs (I don't remember what it was).

3. The dream shifted (definitely a different dream) and I was in a farmhouse. I had several sisters, older and younger, the youngest was about 8. There was an "evil" sister, whose skin was all white, and she had huge circles under her eyes, and ratty blonde hair... we'd thrown her out of the house, and she was even supposed to be dead.
I send the youngest sister out to go bury the seedling for a tree. I don't remember why. It was daylight, but by night she hadn't returned, and at night the 'evil' sister was trying to get into the house. For some reason, if we could keep her out until midnight, she would go away forever. We had nailed chicken wire over the windows, so if she broke them, she still couldn't get in. I also ran around closing all the doors and locking them, including one that she almost made it to. She was sort of zombielike but I was worried she'd still be smart enough to find and use a wire-cutter. I spent some time rattling the windows with a stick to scare her away, but it would just draw her attention. The youngest sister I sent out never came back, and I was worried that my older sisters would be angry with me for sending her out. I was also worried she WOULD come back, and we'd have to open the door for her, and risk letting the other one in.
I don't know if we ever won or what happened to the youngest sister. The dream faded.

4. I dreamed I was underwater. I could breathe just fine. There was some sort of short blond kid I didn't recognize. I got an octopus stuck in my ear and it was really gross. That's all I remember of the last dream.

at a restaurant, or at a political meeting that had a restaurant's menu. i was looking at the menu, with my mom. i was trying to decide what to get. there was a pork thing that looked ok, kind of like pork fajitas. but something about it wasn't perfect. the pork looked really plain and boring. there was a sandwich on a huge loaf of bread, it looked gross cause it had too much bread. and it came with this weird rice patty that didnt look good...plus that would be too much starchy in one meal. i asked my mom if there were more choices on the other isle.

i found old pictures, and was going thru. they took a couple seconds of movement. it was some fancy film my mom had gotten me once. i decided i really liked it, and since technologty could handle it these days, i'd get it more often. there were pictures of old guys i used to date. or jessica did. 3 guys, all 3 pretty decent cute. i went into the memory, and got the 2 cutest so we could hook up or kiss or something. they seemed to be remembering me, a little playing uninterested, but they came with me.

at this political thing with my mom and other people. a lady gets a bouquet. she asks where she should put it, should it be displayed in a certain way for the event's benefit? no, the flowers are just for her own personal use in whatever way she would like, the event has enough
bouquets of its own. so she is happy, and tries to find a vase to keep them in. i look with her. there are two vases. one looks much to big and wide. so i pick the other one. she wants to keep the flowers private for herself. wheni put them in the vase, part of the boquet gets smushed in the sides because the side flowers are too short and go too deep into the vase so the glass covers them. i'm disappointed, and know she must not be satisfied with that. i think maybe the wide one would be better, even if it is too big, at least the wideness wouldnt smush the flowers. but i think the boquet might already be somewhat damaged, so it wont even be as pretty as it was. the side flowers were pretty delicate




notes:
just got home from moms, back at my house. barely got any sleep. stayed up all night reading about dreams and lucid dreaming, wanting to do that.

dreamt about my mom, political event and food because my mom is really invovled in politics right now and always going to events for it, and food because i am on a new diet with my brother that is low carb/starch/sugar. the flowers were like when i volunteer at the farmer's market and bill gives us a boquet of flowers as a thank you to take home with us.
i dont know why i dreamt of the boys or photos. maybe because i was looking at photos on my computer last night, and i wouldnt mind some male companionship. amanda did just send an email saying how she thinks i really do want sex and a man, just am not focusing on it right now.

what this dream could mean: i want to fulfill my desires, i want to make the right choices, but sometimes the choice doesn't even seem to be 'on the menu' or available, so i just have to settle for something that won't be too bad. i'm learning what i want and what things i like and starting to make decisions about how i want my life to be and how i want to spend my time. (like recording my dreams again and doing dream work and trying to lucid dream etc) i have a desire to help people and i think i am recieving a good thing, nice insights, great talent, opportunities etc, but i dont have the right "container" for them, to support the life i desire, maybe not living in the right place, dont have the right community, or enough energy, etc....need to find the right container because i feel like the delicate beauty in my life is being spoiled and not seen.

Still recovering my sleeping schedule from that spicy food encounter, my dream recall is getting back on track. I set an alarm for 4:15 am and could not get back to bed til around 7 am no matter what I tried, I put on white noise and put a pillow inbetween my legs, read my calculus textbook and "relieved" myself, all things that make me sleepy but to no effect. My dream recall may take a dip because I plan on sleeping for a full 8 hours so that once my body gets used to it I can go back to waking up at 4 and going back to sleep no problem.

Anyways here are my dreams from last night, or this morning rather:

7 am
Dream 1: I am in some house in a rural area. It looks like a vacation home and I feel as if my whole family is there but they all went out to go somewhere and I stayed home. I had to replace the batteries in this one device, it had 4 energizer batteries and the one that I had to replace said "16 weeks" and no charge when I did the little test on the battery. So I replaced it with the other smart living batteries. Im amazed how realistic the batteries were when I put them in. I get the batteries in the device and put the dead battery in the smaller device that works with only 1 working battery and its some sort of laser/flashlight. I lock myself in this small room and feel like I left my phone outside but see it on the table. At this point I suddenly become aware someone else is in the house. I am in the small dark room and I hear their footsteps outside. I try to keep my hands on the doorknob in case the person knows how to unlock the door and he tries to rattle it as hard as he can but I hold on until I wake up.

8:30 am (false awakening)
Dream 2: I feel like I wake up and am doing something in the basement when I see a white widow spider on tv, this guy is on a nature show and talking about the spider in its natural habitat. The spider is this giant spider thats legs span about 8 inches and has a white marking on the spiders abdomen. There is some gap in memory of the dream here, then I see a white widow spider right next to me so I go upstairs. My mom made this beef stew thing so I start eating it. I start telling her I need to eat whole grains while I eat this meal. The meal Im eating has beef, tomatoes, a crapload of jalapenos, and some green leaf or vegetable. (sounds kind of disgusting irl). At this point I tell her theres a white widow spider downstairs and we go down. Then I show her where it is and it starts running across a strand of string it has and right on to my dog shadows face. Im about to try to kill the spider before it bites my dog then I wake up.

Whats strange is the second dream felt so real as opposed to my other dreams I had no idea it was a dream. Other dreams I somehow know they are a dream but don't have the full conciousness to realize im dreaming yet.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

Something was going on at home and then i was watching some fraxy replay, there was some boss that spawned walls of bullets from the bottom of screen while firing pattern fro the top.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was at home and there was some loud radio and an hot air baloon flying outside, then i noticed part of wall gone AWOL and everything faded. I wake up and hear weird sound, and feel that i am dreaming, i briefly see miniature shadowy terraria-like slime jumping on the table but it shortly disappears. Then i go for balcony but dream fades and i wake up.

Side-note Third-person Dreamsign

The shark
I'm in a small boat with two other guys. A larger boat is nearby. A shadow in the water is circling us, nudging us away from the big boat, I don't see a fin, but I know it's a shark.

Research station
I'm at a tropical research station. It's a picturesque place, with trees all around, a river to my left, and a row of low off-white buildings. Due to the government shutdown, many of the experiments running here have been ruined and will take months or years to redo. They can't even afford their normal buildings, so they're renting out a motel to have space for the few of them who are left to work in.

Now, I'm driving, making a tight corner near the research base and driving up a mountain road.

Messed up clocks
I finally give up on my WILD attempt and try to check the time. First, I look at my phone, but it's showing something crazy. It looks like a clock, but the characters are thin and purple and show an impossible time. I'm concerned that something's crashed or gone haywire, but then I realize I was in the media player and this is showing the play time.

I look at the clock on my nightstand and see that it's just short of eight o'clock, and I'm horrified: I overslept by nearly 2 hours, and I'm late for work by one hour. I check the alarm settings on my phone to see what happened. As far as I can tell, I set the alarm properly, but it never went off. This is the second time this has happened; I'm seriously concerned about the reliability of this phone now.

I really had been trying to WILD; I must have fallen asleep during the attempt.

City transit
I'm in a city, driving, pulling out of a parking lot. A shuttle bus gives me room to pull out of the parking lot I'm in, which I'm grateful for - traffic is heavy. I get in the right-most lane, then move over another lane. This is a big road with at least 4 lanes in each direction.

Now I turn onto a road, then realize it's the wrong one. It's fairly narrow and has no markings. Up ahead, I see a spot that looks like a good turnaround; when I get to it, it turns out to be a small parking lot with slots on either side of the road, so it's perfect. I swing right, then all the way around to the left. As I start to head back down the road, I see giant white arrows painted on it pointing the direction I was originally heading, against how I'm traveling now. Whoops: it's a one-way street. I'm not too far from the entrance, and no cars are coming, so I go ahead and drive back down it anyway.

Now I'm on the sidewalk with my bike, walking beside it. I think about getting on it properly, but then I see another guy also walking with his bike - running, in fact, to get to a* traffic light and across the crossing before it changes. I follow his example.

Now that I'm across the street, I think again about mounting the bike, but I can't figure out how. The handlebars are a kind of oval shape, so I try sitting on it, but that doesn't work at all. I'm coming up on a really crowded part of the sidewalk, so I fold up my bike a little, but not very well. Troy's road bike folds much more easily, and I consider again whether it was a mistake to get a mountain bike.

Now the sidewalk across the street in front of me is completely blocked - it looks like people are getting ready to view a parade. I'm forced to turn right; I'm going to have to figure out how to get back where I need to be.

Now I'm in hallways underground. Near the stairs out, I come across a troubled youth. He's black, with short frizzy hair, and he's mumbling something I can't really make out. My first reaction is just to avoid him and keep moving, but then I have compassion on him. I realize he probably doesn't get much love, and I determine to show him some. I rest my hands on his head, and he seems to calm down some. He's still mumbling something - I think it's about nuns or the Roman Catholic church - and I try to think how to tell him about the saving work of Christ. I happen to look down and realize that his right foot is about the size of my young daughter's, though his left foot is normal. A male teacher walks by and makes a brief comment about him.

Attack animals
Someone has engineered a bunch of little animals designed to take down a huge animal. I see them swarming the huge animal's feet, generally getting crushed underfoot. They're calling strategy to each other.

Stuck
Underground, I see a huge door. It's been damaged at the bottom, and there's a chipmunk boy scout stuck under it (he's wearing a red-and-green uniform). A nearby adult mole (also in uniform) is trying to figure out how to free the scout. Suddenly, flame erupts from the top of the door right above the scout and starts to drip down. The mole panics and flees, ashamed that he couldn't save the scout; but the flames actually end up burning away the part of the door trapping the scout, freeing him.

I was at some sort of giant water slide park with my friend Auston and my sister Karen. We kept calling it Six Flags, but all that was there was water slides and, for some reason, bars and pawn-shop like things. We kept going down the slides on this circular 4-man raft and hitting the ramp at the bottom. At one point they sent me down by myself and I fell off. I got mad and went to the bar where I saw a lot of hot girls, who just ignored me. Then for some reason, I recall a pawn shop worker saying "...all the girls I get..." I got jealous, went back to the slides and woke up.

A man got arrested, and he thought it was because he was successful in business so his enemies put together false charges.

I remembered more upon waking up, but I lost it.

I'm at Big W, and I see Drew D(childhood friend). I tell him about when we stole an ice cream from the shopping center when we were younger. He laughs and knows what I'm talking about. I tell him about the crunchie ice cream I stole.

I hear an announcement over the speaker. It's about everyone having to leave the store, as they're closing up. I also hear something about a couple of groups still in the store. I think I may have been one of them?

As I'm leaving the store, I see someone who looks very familiar and know of them somehow (I don't know who). He tells me that I have been chosen for something. I definitely didn't expect this, which makes me excited. I soon realize it's about me being in a movie. I see a piece of paper with what was happening on it. My screen name is printed on it, but it's different. It says something like DEILD-CHiLLEN or DEILD-DEAN (I don't think the DEILD was spelt correctly though). I seem to have a big part in this movie where I have been chosen to record 11 dreams. I tell the guy, I could record 11 dreams within the week. It crosses my mind, If I couldn't remember 11 dreams, I could always use dreams that I've previously had logged in my dream journal, or make some up to make myself sound as If I had some awesome dreams. I see a $800 above my category where my name was printed. It seems to get the most amount of money, compared to the rest of the categories.

I'm outside the shop, and I'm talking to the same guy. I tell him that he's a good guy and an honest one.

16.08.13

Its a long times since i had this dream, and to be honest it has fallen completely to my unconsciousness. What i mean about that is that i have no recall of this dream, what so ever, and it just makes it even more random to read.

The dream fragment:
I was dreaming that i took a shower, and when i exited the dream i saw a huge spider walking around. It was so big that it almost didn't fit in a jar, but when i caught it and put it in there, it died.
Clearly a symbolic thing, i see now, that i dream of spiders quite a lot.
Anyways, that was not the only thing. I actually had a some kind of tiger or leopard, a big cat, that i used to shower with, and i was showing it of to everyone i knew (of course not when i was in the shower.)

02.08.13

The dream fragment, and thoughts:
I was on some kind of class trip (i don't go to school anymore), out in a fjord somewhere.
In the nights, i was sleepwalking and supposedly did all sort of strange stuff. Like tearing up milk-packs and putting them inside of each other.
I was very scared of what i did when i was sleeping, because i did all these advanced activities, that made no sense at all. Afraid that i would do, or had done something bad.

01.08.13
The scenario:
In the dream, some sort of alien species has attacked earth and wiped out most of the human civilization. Those who are still alive, are living in small groups. Some just trying to survive and stay out of sight, others beliving that there is still a chance of defeating the opposing alien threat. This dream is about the "Alien Resistance Force".
The dream takes place in some sort of forest, hard to say where, quite dense vegetation, but not quite as tropical as a jungle. High trees and a canopy that is so thick that almost no sunlight shine trough.

I don't quite remember the appearance of the aliens, but they where about one and a half time as big as a normal human, and was blackish in their skin.

The fragments of the dream that i can remember:
In the dream i am either an observer, or a little child. (maybe both).
The last resistance camp (not sure if in just this area, or in the whole world) had been exposed, and the aliens was moving in to attack. During this time, most of the camp was out patrolling and scouting.
While i was watching one of the scout groups, the aliens moved in on the camp and slaughtered everyone, and everything. I remember seeing the camp in the aftermath, when a group returned. All that was left alive, was a badly injured cow, which was almost cut in half and sprayed blood out of its lungs every time it tried to breathe. It was a horrible sight.
The scouting group was in an old ruin at the time the aliens caught up with them. The group thought that the aliens was not aware of their presence, so they tried to hide. It did not work, and the battle was futile, all but one little boy and his wolf was killed, with almost no alien casualties.

The boy managed to escape, and made his way with the wolf pup up trough the forest and to the mountains. Where he would try to survive and train the wolf to help him.

I'm sitting outside my home town shopping center square, a popular spot for people to hang out. I'm with people I know, including family.

I'm now at my old house in blacks land. I walk over to the sink and see my cousin Grace, eating something that looked similar to a LeSnack (cream cheese and biscuits). I tell her that it can be better, instead of a LeSnack. She agrees with me as I leave to go back to the kitchen table where the rest of the family is. My auntie L begins to laugh at me, and says that I try to use my charming skills on family members. I deny what she is saying and tell her that I'm just friendly and may just come off that way. I joke around and say that the ladies fall in love with me, or as I should put it, like me. My auntie responds with that they fall in love with me, with their head, not their heart.

I'm back at the center square and girls from my high school keep coming up to me. They want to be in a relationship with me. I politely decline each one of them. I now see more girls walking in a line, all holding a piece of paper up with my name. I once again, shake my head and wave my hands for them to carry on walking (lol Casanova, eat your heart out!). I don't have that physical attraction towards any of them. Another girl walks up to me and I decline, ONCE AGAIN, but this time she reacts by trying to slap me, but I see it coming. I stand up in disgust, and explain that how she could slap someone for not wanting to be in a relationship, while doing nothing wrong what so ever. I put her back in her place and she is speechless. I see her Mother behind her, and she pulls her daughter away so that they could leave. I hear someone say that the girl who tried to slap me was in fact Nick's sister(Attended my school), and that he wouldn't be too happy with me. I see Nick come towards me, but walks straight passed me. It's as if he doesn't see me. I wake up.

These first two dreams are from yesterday, as the internet was out and I couldn't log them on DV...

#1. I was running down the middle of the road, and out of no where this fighter jet descended and landed on the road. Then it took a sharp left onto the wrong way of a one way and took back off. Then it landed again in a parking lot and I got to go over and take a look at it and go inside the cockpit.

#2. I was in my room and had this piano. I was with one my my English teachers and we apparently had written the Thrill of the Feel album, which is actually by Crush 40. Apparently since we were this awesome band we needed some more music as that is what we were trying to come up with.

#3. I was at school in robotics engineering. It was weird though because we had another entire team there. (apparently the class had grown in size)

#4. I was in Lit class, which also happened to be at my grandmother's house. Then I kind of felt like I was a bird and started flying away, as I was apparently running away from somebody. I then flew over the house and glided down into this marshy area to hide under some tall grass.

#5. I was at school with my CAP squadron and we were doing some sort of 9/11 ceremony. I was bummed because I had missed the email about it or something though and didn't get to participate.

#6. I was a soldier in WWII and my squad and I ran into some enemies. We were dug down in a trench and then an onslaught of Germans started pouring over. I had these weird grenade things though that reminded me of cigarettes. I would grab a handful, crumple them up, and then throw them at a group of enemies for spectacular results.

#7. Personal dream

#8. I was in electrical engineering working on a project of mine. It was weird though because there was a kid in class who was going bald! We were then discussing one of our old senior design projects and computer science. Mumble grumble I can't understand anything else I said...

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some video game and there was something about castle and some caves.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing creeper world 3, some level where i had to use alot of relays.

I was in my high school, but it was almost completely empty. These girls I know, Jada and Emma are walking around the school. I was walking behind them with my friend Nicholas. I thought I heard the girl Jada singing songs from a band called Pepper(one of my favorite bands). The exact lyrics she sung were "The sun is melting that ego, you better find a new place to hide it..." At this point she skipped way into the song to the following: "Go purchase your friends at the mall, their going on sale soon. Meet me at the checkout line, so we can all laugh at you." I got excited because I have a crush on her (In WL) and have never been able to find any common ground, so I saw this as the perfect ice breaker. But, right as I went to talk to her, they began walking away very quickly. I couldn't catch up. At one point they turned into a classroom, but when I entered, it was just a few teachers and for some reason there was some sort of caution tape blocking the doorway. So, after a while, I gave up and went home. Once I arrived, I messaged her on Facebook: "Hey, I heard you singing Pepper earlier, I really love that band." Well, I typed it, I couldn't bring myself to send it. Then I woke up.

Dream Meaning (IMO):
I am always too scared to talk to girls. Even ones whom I have a reason to talk to. I think this is my subconscious brain's way of telling me not to be scared. And so, I won't from now on.