non-lucid

In dreamed I was with old friends walking through the old familia dream mansion in the the familia dream property and favorite (dream), geograohical location. I was me (52 year old woman) but (in dream) I imagined a little boy of 6ish, spontainiously, bust-out of my old body, run down to the beatiful blue-grean swimming pool and jump in.

Seconds later when I got to where the pool was, the pool was gone. There was a new bitumin road with just a fresh white outline where the pool once was.

Then I noticed the familia hill in front of me was changed. My memory remembers a a brightly lit rocky grey hill with a great view of a town below (on other side). Now the hill is lovely and emerald grean with lush grass and the view on the otherside is rural.

I wake disappionted and sad.

What happened to the way it was?

Later I realized it was now (here in Adelaide) Sat the last day of June. TONIGHT I start dreaming of 1213.

Wow! I might have missed that.

Tonight I incubate as I drop-off the sleep:

"Now (tonight) I dream about the 1st day of 2013."

Almost close to 99 summoning on Runescape, just have to keep catching Implings for cash since it's the quickest method I can think of that isn't stationary and boring (at least until I start going crazy...)..

06.29.2012

Anger (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I took a nap that was intended to end at 6:30 PM starting from 5PM, but I wake up around 8:20PM.

I'm in middle school again, and I believe I was doing random things in the the gym, or just conforming to what the group of students were doing. When it was time to head to the lockers, I quickly head to the one that I remember using last time when I was in middle school.

It seemed I had set of gym shoes and a set of walking shoes, probably to make sure that the walking shoes didn't skid on the gym floor. I'm peacefully taking these gym shoes off and switching to the walking shoes, and I believe I already had my clothes on already.

There's another guy near me who looks like James in waking life that I knew in a High School. Let's call him James D.

James D informs me that some guy named Jon is in a bad mood, and he does look like the Jon that used to be on the tennis team in one High School I attended.

I wondered why James D would tell me that, because I never had any problems with the guy in this dreaming state or waking life state, because James D in waking life told me Jon was afraid of me when I hanged out with James D and a few others because......

Because I was black...LOL. He was afraid of me because he thought I would do something to him, but clearly, I wasn't the aggressive type in High School, because I hanged around all races, I didn't care who you were, how you looked like, I treated you with common respect.

Anyway....

I look at Jon, and it doesn't seem like he's in a pissed off mood, and he's talking with two guys about something, but all I hear is mumbling. James D continues professing how Jon's "bad" mood is still augmenting.

I still get confused because Jon looks perfectly normal to me, what is James D really trying to do? Instigate? Pretend? Lie? But why?

I done tying the shoes by now, and then Jon suddenly comes near us, making fun of James D by calling him "Snotty" and nicknaked some other guy around us with a random nickname that I can't remember.

Then he starts insulting me with something with the word "Black" in it. It must've been really offensive because I usually don't get angry like that in waking life....but dreaming life is a different story. =/


I tried holding in my rage, I get closer to him, and then told him in my trailer dude voice...(LOL I actually did it fluently in this dream for once)....the perfect voice to use in rage, and I basically gave Jon a piece of my mind. After I talked to him in a normal tone, I increased my alone and told him to not piss me off again.

To portray to him that I earnestly mean that, I grab him by his collar, turned him upside down, and slammed in onto the ground.

I didn't look back, I just walked away in a pissed off mood.

I wonder if James D was telling that I was going to be a bad mood, and not Jon, but used the wrong name?

Eh..

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06.29.2012

Scanning (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Apparently, I'm walking down the hallway of some kind of airport-esque environment. The flooring and walls were mostly light and medium shades of blue, and there was the section where they used those black metal scanners.

For some reason, I was worried that I would have something in me, since I clearly didn't know how I got here in the first place. I'm also walking with my mother....loooool, anyway, I finally pass through with ease, nothing in me.

My mother hugs me from behind and says,

"We did it!"

I tried to get her off me, and told her that this isn't really a big deal at all, and I felt embarrassed because there were a bunch of people in front of us that seemed to be going on some kind of tour. I quickly glance away from them and proceeded to the exit with my mother.

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06.29.2012

Horrible Cropping (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Apparently I'm trying to crop a decent image of Itsuki from Yu Yu Hakusho, and it seems I lightened the image too much.

Ugh.

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I was in dillons old house and we walked down the hall to the room next to his it had two couches and a lamp in the room was a dog that he did not have the dog was black and left a large amount of fleas where ever it was laying and then his dog cubby walked by the door the his brother walks in the room and starts to talk but I wasn’t paying attention his dad tells us to keep the dog in there but it got out twice then I woke up.

I was in a red boat with Dillon and we decide to dive with no scuba gear then a barracuda like fish swims next to us and we try to get away it left us alone after a while so we try to get to shore but then Dillon yells “O SHIT WATER-BEAR” I turn to see a small black bear swimming underwater next to me we get to a dock and in a tank is the barracuda like fish the water bear and a pink shark he asked me if I was going to let them out I said no then I woke up.

I can remember being back at my old classroom in Math class. I was seating as the teacher was organizing the stuff and everyone else was preparing to get ready to graduate from the school. I am seating there watching my teacher packing up some books while she talks to another teacher. Being here again made me feel so happy. I thought of Abby during this part. I think it was because I just got braces the day before. The teacher then dismissed us and now we were able to leave the class and leave the school. As soon as I left the classroom, I noticed how bright the sun was again and I saw so many people walking out of their classrooms. It was a ghetto city, so I was cautious of what or who was able to attack me. I followed the long crowd through the hallway right next to the classroom I just left. I followed until I saw an empty open space and walked in to it. I decided to help a few teachers help pack their things.But as soon as I entered one classroom, they were already receiving help. So, I decided to go home now. On my way home, I seemed to have super natural powers. I had the power to move as fast as I could. I was moving so fast I felt like Wesker from Resident Evil 5. As soon as I finally reached the school parking lot, I moved extra fast. Most people didn't even pay attention to how fast I was though. After a couple of minutes of running, the scenario changed and now, I was a different character of this dream. I was now a girl living up to her dreams of being successful in her life. I watched as her life slowly started to change from a bad one to a really good one. At the end of her success, I was in a jungle just watching as she took a high jump off a high ledge and landed on another one below her.

This is the second dream I've had where I can't find my clothes.

One of my best friends in the world was there, which I should have found weird considering she lives in another state. She's an adorable mexican chick, only 5 feet tall, and the sweetest person I've ever met. She's also beautiful. We've made out and stuff in real life, but that doesn't really have anything to do with my dream, lol.

Well, she was with me the whole time in the dream. We were hanging out just like we used too, but there was one weird thing: I couldn't find my clothes. The only clothes I had were the ones I was wearing.

I had one shoe on, and went up to some guy and asked him for one of his shoes. He said "Yeah, sure", like it wasn't wierd or anything. Now that I think about it, the shoe that he gave me was one of my shoes IRL. I was wearing another one of my shoes from IRL (but they weren't matches).

Strange dream.

At some points during this dream, I was the main character. Other times, I was not. The first part I remember was being on a Battlefield with a whole army of friendlies and a small army of enemies. Me and the enemy agreed to give each other a chance to pick our tactics and reload our weapons. This happened in a deserted city somewhere in a video game, it seemed like it. As an entrance, we all had to get in to a small vehicle of some sort and make our way back to the headquarters inside a warehouse. As everyone on my time was busy finding their vehicles, I tried to find mine on a small table of helicopters and artillery. At first, I picked an artillery but, I couldn't get in it. So the second time, I entered a plane that flew me to the headquarters. When me and my whole team finally got there, we saw so many tables of guns and ammo. Not real guns but pellet and bb guns. I walked around to see which one I like and when I finally did, I started loading bb's in to it. I did this as fast as I could, so that the enemy doesn't reach us before we could attack. There was a pellet gun that I really liked. It looked kind of like mine in real life. I picked it up and without loading and pellets in to it, I aimed in towards the entrance in front of me and was ready to attack. The enemy finally calls out to us and my whole team shouted in excitement and started firing at the enemy in front of the garage door. I aimed the gun and started shooting down enemies one by one. I finally killed so many that an enemy soldier saw me and started to tell some of his soldiers to shoot me. I dodged all the attacks I could and shot as many pellets as I could. I was never hit. At some point, I did manage to shoot the soldier in the forehead, but he still didn't seem fazed by the pellet. The dream ended.

Just a couple fragments today... I'm probably adjusting to my new mattress or something.

The first fragment involved me in this jumbled-up area... I remember being outside as part of the fragment I remember, perhaps in a baseball field? I dunno, except that it felt like it was near a school, and I find some really past-due paperwork in the grass, or something. What the paperwork is for, I'm not sure. That's literally all I have for this fragment.

The second fragment, on the other hand, doesn't feel like I'm involved at all... just observing. It feels more like I'm watching someone else's dream. And it almost seems like THEY might be lucid, but of course I'M not lucid. Heh... Anyways, there's a guy there that I believe strongly resembles the knight motif, and he has two companions. One seems to be... incorporeal or something, and the other is hurt. So this heroic knight volunteers to go into this cave, or building, or whatever, alone. And then most of the stuff here is forgotten, unfortunately. But it seems he was valiantly successful, and I see him curing his hurt friend with some magic he found, or something. Again, very, very blurry. I hope my normal recall comes back in a couple days.

The Other Day

Dream Fragment - R and I were just standing around in the middle of nowhere, and I was vaguely aware that we were both supposedly watching some kind of sex tape, though we could only hear it and not see it. There were people making lots of "-uh" sounds like, "fuh", "wuh", and "buh", and as I was hearing them, I could see, in a separate but equally full field of perception, an empty black space where these words would suddenly appear in large, white Times New Roman font (and all with their first letters capitalized, too), and then they would just slide off to the side and disappear.

Yesterday

Dream Fragment - A friend of mine, I want to say M but I'm not totally sure, and my old acid dealer, S, were working as cocktail waitresses in a casino in Las Vegas, and all I really remember is that S's outfit was oh-so-flattering, omochikaeri!~

Today

All night I kept having these half-awake/half-asleep thoughts about the 5-HT2A receptor, but I can't remember what any of them were now. The other night it happened to me about D1 and D2, also. Strange... but anyway....

#1 - Hanging Out With Family [Non-Lucid]

My cousin P and I were at my aunt and uncles' house for most of this dream, and we may have ported here from a card shop or something but I'm not entirely sure.... I just remember that for a good deal of time the dream was dealing with Yu-Gi-Oh! cards. At one point I got really excited because I found a normal monster card with (I think) 10 stars and stats that read ATK/42 DEF/1000000. (In fact, at at least a couple different points in the dream I'm pretty sure it had gone up to 1000000000. Though, I think the (incredibly odd, for Yu-Gi-Oh!) 42 had also dropped down to 0. ) I couldn't stop thinking about how easily I could screw someone over by placing it in face-down defense position and having it get attacked. X) At some point P and I had ordered a pizza that looked like it was just cheese, but I recall taking a slice that had pepperoni and roma tomatoes on it somehow. I was really confused because I realized that I didn't know where I had put that card down, and I was pretty sure... pretty sure that it had now become a part of the pizza. ._. I was actively searching the pizza for signs of its ATK/DEF stat, but to no avail. I was saddened and walked off, and (still not having eaten it), raised my slice of pizza to my mouth but the toppings fell off. I reached down to the floor and picked them up, grease and all, and wiped them off on my clothes and put them back on the pizza and ate them. WTF, me! It did taste good, though. After that I walked down the hallway and briefly talked to my cousin AB, though I can't remember about what, and then when I went down the NEXT hallway I ran into her husband PB. He asked me something about the way that I was acting, and I pointed out to him that I wasn't really super drunk but I had been earlier, so I was still feeling pretty buzzed. After that he left and my cousin AD (P's mom) came in to the hallway and walked into the room through the doorway I was standing by, and started saying something about the lighting, but then I woke up.

#2 - Shady Diner [DILD]

Unfortunately I don't really remember much of this one because I'm pretty sure I never fully woke up after it and before the next dream. :T I was at some kind of a food restaurant, it looked like one of those tiny roadside diner places, and I remember that everyone was giving me weird looks. I don't recall much else aside from having either a tiny purse or a brown paper bag (or possibly both on different glances) and becoming lucid and realizing that there was food in front of me. I want to say it was a brownie or something...? Well, whatever it was, I ate it and it was delicious, but that was the end of the dream. >w<

#3 - Taking A Vacation [Non-Lucid]

I was on vacation, I want to say with M and ND (though I only saw them at different times, I believe). ND and I were walking around trying to find some guy and his girlfriend who I think was ND's friend who lived in the place where we were visiting, so they were going to show us around a bit. I remember that when we found them we started walking through these long halls of what seemed like tiny, tiny living rooms that people were living in like apartments, and we were waltzing right on through. I only really remember the last two, with the first being filled with people playing Wii Sports bowling, and a girl sort of half-heartedly saying "Let's play!", and the second being a room with just a guy sitting in what looked like a comfy sofa chair and clearly holding in smoke as to not seem suspicious. After we got out of there ND and I broke into laughter, and I told him that if we stayed there long enough I might try to find some weed myself since it seems like it'd be pretty easy. He says we might not be, but I say I might try to find some anyway. Somehow it suddenly started raining really hard outside and magically we all had hoodies or jackets on, so we ducked into this big building right next to where we were standing, which was I think by some kind of mini train tracks or something. Inside the building there were lots of those kids rides where it's the horse/rocket/tiny car/whatever (these were all various tiny cars) that you get in and it rocks back and forth as if you were actually riding it/in it. We were just inspecting them for a minute, and then I woke up.

06.29.2012

She's Yelling (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember sitting next to a girl that looked like Ashley who attends my University as well I believe. She gets annoyed at me for something I'm doing.

I wonder why she's annoyed, but I didn't say anything to her, she puts me on the spot.

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06.29.2012

Jason Statham's Lecture On Talent (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I swear I had this dream before a loooong time ago, like years ago, except with a different character lecturing me.....ugh.....or maybe not....

I'm walking down the hall somewhere and Jason Statham is showing me what real talent is. He turns around after both of us walk some distance from the entrance we came into.

He gets his gun and aims it at some random person who basically serves as a dummy to be shot at. He said something about that if you shoot a person in the head, chest, and some other place I forgot, it doesn't mean you're talented.


Ummmm okay, thanks for giving me a Morals and Ethics on Killing 101 crash course.

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The dream is very foggy now, but it was quite long. I remember starting out in a dark room, there were lots of green, dimly glowing xbox controllers laying around, and I went down a roller coaster in a seat next to some girl who was in a cheer leading outfit. She didn't look familiar, and her face is hard to remember, it just looked like a very generic face. She had brown hair I think, and her cheer leading colors were light blue and white (Nothing like my school's). Then I remember showing up at a school party. That's not even half the dream, but I can't remember the rest.

Reading My Dad's Book

My father never actually wrote a book, but he wrote a lot, and talked about writing a screenplay IWL.

I was reading a book my dad wrote. It had just come back from the printer.

I was able to make out the words very well, though I only read one sentence. I was busy editing in my mind. Much of the book had been printed the way my dad used to print--all caps. I began noticing letters were transposed, and then I noticed that not all of the sentences were all caps. I wanted to 'tell my dad that he should have let me edit his work before sending it to the printer.

I tried to not be the editor for my dads big day, so I started to just read. I read a sentence that ended up making sense, but deserved a rewrite. It was something like, "He didn't put 'He didn't do it on purpose..."

As I read it, I worked out the logic that it actually made sense. It wasn't dream-logic.

The End

The Preacher and his Wife Divorce

The news was covering the death of a preacher's wife. I was viewing the coverage on-site. The camera panned all around a yard that was flooded on 3 sides. The camera didn't show the fourth side of the house. The water was muddy red.

Then preacher had passed. She was alone and dealing with the estate. The newscaster asked the woman what she was wearing. The preacher's wife said, "A necklace." She wanted another one because her husband rarely got her anything...or something like that.

Dream skip

I'm in the same house, but now there is a girl and a vampire. The girl had just been bitten that day. She was starting to feel weird and was freaking out. She was getting upset. The man wasn't mad at her for being upset because he knew she was now a vampire because of him. He tried to comfort her.

They were lying down on a marble floor to go to sleep. They had no bed, sheets, pillows, or anything. He kept getting closer to her to comfort her. It seems that scene played out twice.

Dream skip

The girl is just a girl. She had short blond hair. She was kind of cute. Apparently she had been dancing the night before, but I missed it. I think I'd been drunk and fell asleep. I told her that I would like to see her dance (naked was not the implication). I told her I thought she was really pretty and I didn't get to see her dance the night before.

She asked if I really wanted to see her dance. I said I would love to, so she got up and shook her hips right there in preparation to get up where she was going to go to dance.

When she walked to where she was going to dance, she disappeared. Two guys then came out of an adjacent room. I was waiting for the girl to come out.

One of the guys then stood making himself look really funny. He bowed his legs and separated them really far. This made his legs really thin and long, and made his body short and high up off the ground. I laughed out loud in my dream.

Eventually the girl came back out, but she looked like a female version of one of the guys...and too much like a guy. I completely lost interest and my dream ended.

Date: 28/06/2012
Place: My own bed
Time of getting into bed: 1.30am

Bad recall last night. I was too tired, and even though I woke after each dream, I didn't write them all down.
Dream 1 - non lucid

We are at N's aunt's house. Although the house bears resemblance to the RL house, it is a little different. It is N's Uncle's birthday, and there are lots of elaborate decorations around. My younger brother is sleeping over, as are a few other people. Most of them are already asleep in their sleeping bags. I am being sent to fetch some orange juice, as the house is so big it takes me some time. When I finally get back, they now want wine, and this goes on for most of the dream. N's uncle is rather drunk, but friendly. I'm trying to show N how big the house is by taking him round, we pass parrots in cages. We also pass a girl, crying to another girl in a room about how she 'shouldn't love him' but she can't help it. Eventually we settle down to sleep, and I notice a tiny little robin (the bird) made out of paper origami. It flitters and flutters around, and I am amazed at it, but everyone else seems not to care.
Dream 2 - non lucid

Went to a house, I believe to have my teeth checked out as it was my dentist's house. We were a little late, and my dentist (a good looking young polish women) tuts at us but still lets us in. She finishes making her dinner (mashed potato and something else) and sits at the table to eat. We join her but don't eat. She offered us tickets to see a band that I really like, but she wants £200 for 2 tickets, which is ridiculous! So I pass. Then a man comes in with his baby, and throws his baby around the room. The baby hits it's legs on the table and starts crying, but the man wasn't trying to hurt the baby, just make it happy. He continues to throw it around, but as it keeps crying he sits down and tries to stop it crying by cooing and kissing it.


***NOTEWORTHY***
I visited N's aunt's house once, to celebrate a birthday
I recently went to the dentist
I recently saw the band who the tickets were for

This one is written down on my lil note book that I keep under my pillow to write this stuff down. This was last night.

There was a toy store that I went to with mom and my brother jonathan. I know that I have seen this place numerous times in previous dreams before. Jonathan was off trying to get something in the back. Meanwhile I was looking at a few toys that brought back a bit of nostalgia. We purchased what we came there for and left. But mom and Jonathan went in a different car. I drove in another car and followed them. until a certain point when I lost track of them some how and was following another car. After a while the car pulled over after the driver became clearly aware that I was following her (I thought she was mom sue me ). A lady came out of the car. She was clearly frustrated that I was following her. I looked out into the dirt lot area that we pulled over in and I then realized that I was lost.

The dream switches and I'm back in another store. I'm a little...how should I put this?... I was a little "gitty", a tiny bit hyper. But it was enough of it to make me want to do something stupid and out of character. I saw a fish tank with a bunch of little see through fish and a few gold fish in it. It was just standing there on the far side of the super market, in an appliance area it looked like. Then after a bit of staring I break the fish tank thinking it's funny (I freakin love fish, why would I do that?). But then the owner comes out and becomes frustrated.

The dream switches, but I get the weird feeling that I left to an apartment where a girl is at. and she talks to me about voices and personalities inside me that compelled me to break the glass. But then a visitor that was related to the fish tank incident arrives I'm in a panic and I hide because I know that they want money to pay for that tank. After the first encounter, they leave, but a person later comes back with a gun and winds up shooting me. But as the dreamer, I didn't want to die so I changed the outcome a bit, (the alternative outcomes came all at once though). I was also able to look at other alternatives. So instead of him just shooting me dead right there, I changed the outcome so he shot me in the gut instead, thus letting me live. But the other alternatives to that was that I went down wrong after being shot, so it wasn't convincing, or that I was breathing, and he caught me. Either way, those alternatives would've ended with him coming up to me while I was on the floor and shooting me repeatedly.

Now as I sit here and type this, you, the reader, are probably wondering to yourself, "why would this guy get shot over a fish tank?" Well here is why; apparently the owner had ties with some kind of mafia, or he was dealing in some kind of crime gang. How I knew it I don't exactly know, I just got a feeling. But as the dreamer, I realized something... the mother frackers just shot me again. But hopefully that wont matter in a couple months because if I can stay true to it this time then They will diiiieeeee HAHAHAHAHAHAA!!

Before it took me a total of 3 weeks to become lucid. But I've been crazy busy as of recently, and I finally got through the worst part of my life. So now I'm hoping that things with my eye can return back to normal. I've also been dealing with college and I've found a pattern that I may be able to work off of. So I'm hoping that I can get it this time with in the two month time limit that I set for myself. I also have a better personal reason for coming back...again, Shadow man has not returned, nor has any kind of indication or hint. This is good because it was around the same time that my eye surgeries finally ended (give or take a couple years). I read Sun God's post on my forum and the patterns do line up (again; give or take a couple years). I want to find out why shadow man was there for all of those years, nothing more. The frackers that keep shooting me can be dealt with later, and the disturbing dreams I had before can be tossed away now. All I want to know is what Shadow Man was, or is. And if he represents any problems in my body that are under the radar, then can he come back? And I hope I can pull it off this time. If I had any other reason other than obsessing over him then it'd be because I think lucid dreaming would be a fun thing to do.

I don't remember much from last night's dream.

In my dream, I was in my grandma's house, in a room, sleeping on the floor. I was sleeping in my dream. I didn't know I was dreaming at the time, so I thought I was just sleeping. Then, someone came in my room, and tried to wake me up. I was partially awake (in my dream), so I was like "No, Vanessa, go away."

That's weird, because I don't know any Vanessa's. I know a ton of people, but no Vanessa's, and the person in my dream looked similar to someone that I know, but with different colored hair, and eyes.

Just weird.