non-lucid

8-10-2013 (Dream from last night. I got up to write this down at 2:30 a.m.)

I woke up after having only been asleep for a couple of hours and remembered my dream. I had to really fight to remember it, but I was able to.

So it was just barely dark outside. We were in some area where there were bleachers, so it may have been a sports arena type place. I’m not exactly sure, but that’s what it looked like. My husband had a bag of weed and a pipe. He asked me to load the bowl and give everybody on the bleachers a hit. They all started cheering and clapping. Whooping and hollering. They were all pot smokers and were happy. So I loaded the bowl and walked over to the bleachers across from us. There were guys and girls there, and I handed the pipe to the guy on the end. He handed it back to me and said here, you take the first hit girl. My hands were full, so he took the stuff I was holding, and I took a really big hit. I remember thinking…I don’t really want to get stoned. I don’t like how it feels anymore. But I took the hit anyway. Then I gave it back to him and he took a hit as well. He passed it on to the person next to him.

Across from where we were standing, there was another set of bleachers. My husband went over there and sat down to talk to the people there and smoke some weed with them. I think there was a girl he was chatting up too. I remember feeling really uncomfortable talking to the people on my side, but I sat down next to one of the girls. She handed me the pipe and I was going to reload it for her. She said, I was pointing the pipe at your head, for you to smoke; not reload. Anyway so I get ready to leave and go to grab what’s left of the weed. But instead, the bag that I see is full of crack and it’s just lying there on the bleachers. I grab it and comment that this is certainly not weed and that it doesn’t belong to me. I give it to the girl, commenting that it must be hers.

Next thing I know, husband and I are standing away from the bleachers. There are three security guards standing next to us. Its winter, snow is on the ground and it’s icy out. All of the sudden husband takes off running. I can’t keep up with him and it’s hard to see because it’s dark outside. I run behind him and on the left hand side of the street there’s a shed that he went into and locked the door. I can’t get in so I jump up on the side of it. There’s a little opening like a little slit where I put my fingers in to pull myself up. Instead of pulling myself up, though, most of the wall comes crashing down around me.

8-10-2013 (Dream at nap time):

Today I experienced whooshing sound that only lasted a few seconds each time. Then I would notice it and wake myself up too much for it to continue. I need to set my intention to not do that; to relax through it.

This dream was either really fragmented or that’s just how I remember it. Dad and I were sitting on the side of a hill that was covered in dirt. I was a little bit higher up then he was, and I had the perfect spot. It was an indented area that fit around me like a comfortable chair. As dad and I were talking, I was pushing dirt down the hill with my feet, making a landslide of sorts. The hill wasn’t really all that big or high up, and at the bottom was my house. The big hole in front of the living room had a bunch of muddy water inside it. I get the feeling that dad and I were taking a rest from doing some work around the property. Mom and my brother were in the dream as well.

So dad starts talking to me about how when we were kids we cost him a lot of money. He said that I had changed, but my brother was still costing him money to this day, because he owed him thousands of dollars and would not pay him back. I was very uncomfortable with the conversation so tried to change it to something else. Mom heard what he said from the bottom of the hill and was visibly upset. Dad said to me, look at mom. She’s mad at me now, and he put his head on my shoulders as if he were really sad. I pet his head like a mother would a child and told him that it would be okay.

Mom was working around the property and said that she was feeling a little bad; that she needed to get her blood sugar up because she hadn’t eaten anything. I tried to get her to eat something but she refused. We walked into the house and through the kitchen. There was a half-eaten cake on the table, and I said, Hey! This is perfect and it’ll raise your blood sugar. Won’t you have a slice of cake before you do anymore work? I don’t remember if she at the cake or not.

While mom and I were on our way outside, dad was on his way inside. We met up on the front porch and my brother was there too. He started to sing a garth brooks song. Dad made fun of him, teasing him by telling him not to quit his day job. I asked my brother if he still liked Garth brooks and he said he liked some of his music still and listed a few of his favorite songs. As my brother was walking away, I was following him when I saw a kangaroo with a baby across the yard. I decided to get a little closer to get a better look. The mom kangaroo got mad and chased me all the way to our green car. I ran for my life and jumped inside, hiding from her so she wouldn’t stomp or punch me. Shortly thereafter I remember hearing my brother tell mom and dad that I was in the car hiding from a kangaroo. Dad told me that it was safe to come out; she was gone. I didn’t dare come out though, because I didn’t believe that she was really gone.

Later on dad and I were back up on the side of the hill. He asked me, “Did you see what’s inside that hole down there?” I said no so he pointed to the hole and told me to look. I did and I noticed the muddy water was bubbling like it was boiling. He told me to keep watching, so I did. Soon a toy (looked like a giant remote control) car appeared in the hole. It was a black and white Volkswagen and was working the mud. As it was doing this, the mud was slowly disappearing from the hole. I thought that was pretty cool and dad seemed impressed as well.

August 9, 2013 (Dream at Bedtime)

I was in the car driving to some remote location with my brother. I didn’t know where we were going, but once we got there I was shocked to discover that my brother owned a resort that he had not told me about. It was a huge, beautiful place. Once inside we had a bottle of campaign and he asked me if I would mind making a card for his x-wife to show her where he was and invite her to join him there. I said that I would and ended up making this really unique card with a map on the front.

The other thing I remember about my dream involves a person I haven’t seen or heard from in over 15 years. He was in pain and was looking under the medicine cabinet for some pills that he kept under there. He told me that they had been under there for years because he really doesn’t like the way they make him feel. He said he has to be desperate to ever take any and this was only the second time that he had done so. That’s was it, he took a couple of his pills and I woke up.

False awakening:

In my dream I woke up to tell my son about the dream I was having. I walked into our kitchen and he was sitting at the table. I began to explain my dream when it dawned on me that it was nighttime. I thought to myself: “Wow, its night and my son is actually in bed asleep. Come to think of it, so I am. I must be dreaming!” I got so excited that I woke up as soon as I realized I was dreaming.

August 7, 2013
(Dream I had after going to bed last night—I wrote this down and 3:33 in the morning in my dream journal).

I’m sitting on a bus with other people. Standing sorta to the side of mom, I’m holding her hair back to look at her eyebrows. They’re really odd shaped and bushy. While I’m looking at her, it dawns on me that she looks like Jon BonJovi. Just as I’m thinking that, a girl from across the aisle on the bus says to us, wow your mother looks a lot like BonJovi. We laugh a little bit (mom is laughing too). I don’t have the sense that we’re making fun of her or that she is upset at all. She really does look like him.

After that Michael Jackson walks over to me and takes my hand in his. He asks me if I would come with him. I’m thinking to myself, I knew you were alive! I let him lead me to the front of the bus where he starts singing to me. I don’t remember the lyrics of the song, but I remember thinking how beautiful it was. I do remember the beat and the music though. So he’s singing this song to me and I’m totally star-struck and amazed. I look up at him and behind him I see this hugs screen and realize that we’re on it. I worry that everybody will now realize that he’s alive!

Now I’m on the farm at mom and dad’s house. Only it doesn’t look the same as their real house and farm. But it’s their place in my dream. So it’s raining really hard. I mean it’s pouring down rain outside. We’re all inside (mom, me, my son, and Dad). All of a sudden the ceiling starts leaking water in one corner. The small leak becomes a major leak and a stream of water is pouring into the corner of the house. I’m sitting on the couch, not aware of anybody else in the room. Seems I was alone at that moment. Next thing I know, that one leak turns into probably hundreds. All over the place water is streaming in. I don’t recall feeling or getting wet though. Anyway, dad comes into the living room with a canister with a pump on it. He starts spraying around the lights on the ceiling in the living room. I assume he’s spraying to protect the electric stuff since so much water is pouring in. I don’t question him I just observe him doing it. All of a sudden these three very large spider looking bugs drop from the ceiling onto the couch. You know what, actually I saw them come out from the ceiling where my dad was spraying and crawl across the ceiling before falling onto the couch next to me. I jump up and scream at the same time. I run to the center of the living room and when I look down at the floor there’s a bunch of those same bugs, all headed my way. I scream and run to the bedroom. I think it’s my son’s room. When I get in there, there’s a long line of bugs walking towards an Oreo bag. I Scream and run to the bathroom. My son comes in and hugs me, telling me that everything will be okay. When I look at him, I notice our reflection in the mirror behind him. I’m still really freaked out!

Next thing I know, I’m outside and it’s really sunny and pretty out. Mom and dad are at a picnic table or maybe just a bench. I’m not sure. I walk over to them and say wow; I guess the bugs were just trying to stay out of the rain. Mom gets really irritated (with dad). She looks at him and says no, that’s not what it is; because I’ve lived in other homes where that didn’t happen when it rains. Then she asks dad if he would go to the store now and get the supplies to fix the leaks in the ceiling. She is clearly angry at him for not fixing the leaks sooner. He leaves to go to the store.

Now I’m in the house again, with mom and dad...and I think my son. We’re eating dinner and for some reason I was calling mom Steve Tyler. She asks why I keep calling her that and I explain that he’s the lead singer of Aerosmith. There was some kind of joke going on about that, because mom and everybody (including me) laugh. We’re having a great time joking around.

Now this is a strange thing that happened: The only reason I woke up is because I heard (very clearly) my name being called. It was only one time and it seemed as though it was coming from the doorway to the bedroom. This didn’t seem like part of my dream, but maybe it was. I thought it seemed very strange though and it woke me up!

August 7, 2013
(Dream I remember from last night—after waking at 3:20 a.m. to write down earlier dream and returning to sleep until 8:00).

My son is little; maybe two or three years old. He cries and cries grabbing his ear so I assume he has an ear infection. I take him to the doctor several times. Every time the doctor tells me that nothing is wrong with him. There’s no infection. I’m frustrated and I start to get angry. I tell the doctor that SOMETHING is wrong or he wouldn’t be crying and grabbing his ear all the time. What am I supposed to do? He’s in pain. I get home and my son is on the floor. A friend comes over and sees that he’s in pain. I tell her what has been going on and what the doctor says. She says to me, hang on a second, watch this. She walks over to him and uses a flashlight and some instrument to look into his ear. She pulls out this very long, skinny, odd-shaped branch from his ear! After that he stops crying and he’s no longer in any kind of pain.

Very fragmented recall of a lengthy dream.

There was some story about some factions that were fighting over territory, for survival. There were some discussions going on at various points, there were some bases, fortresses, ruins and some tall building with an elevator. Then some factions were sending spies to mess up things for other factions. And there also was some other faction that was actually trying to prevent battles. And then there was something going on in some snowy city ruins. Then some prince arrived and was talking to somebody.
Later story continued about a group of anthro drakes, who were talking at the edge of some forest about evolution, their leader went to search for something and found a rainbow pool that gave some superior abilities, which included ability to shapeshift. He shapeshifted into one of magical beings that were near the pool and talked them into helping his group.

I'm in the backyard of my childhood house, I for some reason decide to hop the fence so I do, I land into a backyard that is between my backyard and the people who live behind us's backyard. It's pretty small, there is nothing but dead grass and a jacuzzi in the right corner. I try to get back over the fence but I can't for some reason, so I decide to get into the jacuzzi, it feels nice, but I get the urge to look to my left and there I see some dude looking through a window at me, he quickly retracts his head and I see his curtains fly back in place because he was caught I look back straight, then I look back to the window and he's looking again and he tries to hide again but is not fast enough, so this time I just stare at the window, then he gets a chair and sits down on it with a cup of something that he's is drinking and acts like he's not looking over at the jacuzzi. So I get annoyed with that fucker so I get out of the jacuzzi and look for a way to get back over the fence, I'm sure my sister is looking for me by now, which she is I can hear her. Then I see this gigantic huge fucking tarantula climb up over the fence where I had, and I expect it to crawl down the side of the fence but it doesn't, it walks out into the air, I change my angle, and then I see it, a huge giant web canopied over this little backyard, I'm shocked that I don't get caught in the web when I jumped over. Then I realize there is another tarantula asleep on the web that I didn't see before, then the awake one walk off over another fence. I look around for something, anything that could help me and I see this flame thrower leaned up against the fence behind the jacuzzi so I run and get it and I blow the web and the sleeping spider to flames and the the fire quickly goes out. I want to get out quick before the other spider comes back and see's what i have done, then I see my sister climbing over the fence, I yell "no!" as she does this but its too late, she's over the fence, so we chill in the jacuzzi for a bit as we decide how we get over the fence and I tell her about the spiders and the web and how I somehow avoided the web.

I'm in this big line, and theres lines next to our line, I'm in this line with some of my family like my sister, my grandma and grandpa, the line next to us has some of the stuck up people from the other side of our family who think they're rich or some shit. They're looking at pictures of when we were infants while waiting in line I guess to see who was cuter their or ours or some superficial shit like that. Then I wonder backwards out of line and walk all the way back, at the end of the lines are these strange velvet benches. I see this guy sitting on one of them and I think nothing of it. I hear him talking to the guy beside him that someone stole his hair and I realize it's true the guy is now bald but he had hair just a few moments ago. Then i here him whispering to the other guy about me, he thinks I was the one who stole his hair, when I hear this I panic and run out into the mail walkway and it's like that of a casino, I run across and go into this fancy gambling/restaurant area, I'm aware of the cameras and security so I try to hide from that guy without looking like I'm suspicious to the casino. The the guy spots me I was behind a structure that had plants on it, so I drop to the floor and speed crawl through seated people and I hurry to not be seen by this security lady that is walking down the ramp towards the gambling area. The I see the guy again, he keeps spotting me so I run around back to where I cam out and I go back into the line that I was with family in thinking her wouldn't mess with me if I was with family, and it worked because he left me be in fact I think I lost him then we got onto the car things I thought we were in line for a ride but it must be just a car tram thing that will take us to something.

I kept flying into the conscious of different DC's and they're modeling shit for some stuck up bitch, when I get to the woman each time she's not impressed so she says to look more whatever and I do it and each time it impresses her, Then we all run into a line, I thought it was the line to receive our critiques or something of that nature but as the line moved up, we were in a food line, at the buffet there is lunch breakfast and dinner food. I walk past the plates and try to go back to grab one but the girls are to crowded up behind me, but I see a girl get a plate from a stack in front of me and I'm relieved to grab one. Then I pass all the lunch and dinner stuff, and go up to the pancakes, I grab like 10 pancakes and stack them, their are other types of pancakes like mini ones but i wanted these ones. Then the line moves up and I want to put the berry syrup with chunks of fruit, and the food lady is talking to me about how she's a condiment person too, because I'm getting a shit ton of the berry stuff out, she tells me it's yogurt with berry's, but even though I keep piling it on, hardly anything is on my pancakes, as I keep doing this, the beginning of the front of the line has made it to the other side of this and are coming the opposite way towards us, (I see the girl I'm in love with irl), some little boy is rushing me so I choose to ignore his dumb ass, then he starts calling me names , so after I'm done instead of giving the ladle to him I give it to the girl behind me, then he talks more shit and I smile at him and give him the bird, and he gets pissed and calls me more names and I still stand there not blinking and smiling while giving him the bird, then I see my grandma standing there so I stop even though she didn't see me, then I get out of line because that's all I wanted, I go to the booths and try to find a place, most of the booths are filthy or don't even have a table, I see this girl thinking it's someone I know, when she turns to looks at me its someone else so I walk on to the back, the lights are dim here, I see a girl I know sitting by herself so I walk up to her and ask her if I can sit with her and she says yes. When I sit down I tell her I want to tell her something, I want to say sorry for something to her.

3rd person. Kimahri's become a leader of his people, but he's having trouble. There's someone who's not considered very trustworthy, and he gave this guy a chance to prove himself, letting him broker a deal with an outsider for a very important supply. But there have been delays, and the people are beginning to worry that this guy isn't going to come through for them. They're having something like an informal town meeting, arguing about it, and the guy who brokered the deal is insisting that things will work out if they just wait.

1st person, I've struck a deal with someone whose face I never saw, only heard his voice. He sends me to sow something he designed in the cracks of the border between two countries. Greenery grows from the cracks and spreads into the neighboring countries, and it looks beautiful, peaceful, so no one will recognize it as a threat until it's too late. I see the landscape as if on a map, watching the borders shift in a chain reaction, watching control of land flip from one country to another, sending ripples through the ground under my feet, and I can hear that guy who designed all this, now telling me to watch, to learn how this works and to use it myself, but I already know how it works and all I want is to get as far away from the shifting borders as I can. When I get far enough from the conflict to get a clear look around, I can see the country I sabotaged is now completely surrounded, about to be destroyed. I head north, as far as I can get.

3rd person. Sansa Stark's come back to the north, as far north as it's possible to go before the Wall, and she's sneaking into a hidden tunnel leading to a tomb. She pays her respects and then leaves the tomb to wait in the tunnels, and one by one her brothers arrive - first Rob, then Jon Snow, then Bran (who is walking, and was never crippled in the first place). They're all glad to see each other of course, but Bran's the one they've been waiting for, the one who made a deal with the demon Cassux on behalf of their family. (Cassux - when I wrote this down it struck me that's probably a contraction of Castor and Pollux.)

Scene changes to a flashback: the recently orphaned Stark children 'captured' Tyrion (he probably could have left at any time if he'd cared to make the effort) and 'interrogated' him (nothing unpleasant, more of a casual conversation really). He's wearing a lion-fur cloak, and he's saying, "not such a bad thing, the Old Ways, not having to work so hard for everything." During a time of desperation for the Lannisters, he'd discovered the demon Cassux in his books and made a deal on his family's behalf, and because of that, everything in Westeros has changed.

I wish I had been lucid for this one

I was visiting a friend in amarillo tx her dog whom had been dead for years was alive still I loved seeing him my friends and I went back to atx and the grocery store where i was supossed to do the grocery shopping for a lot of people. I made it tot the aisle with beer and there he was recurring character who apearently drank all the guinesss but one for me. I reached over him trying to give him space saw only one beer had beer in it and put it back with a little sigh I wanted to share with my friends he said something and I said i dont drink often but I wanted a guiness float oh well . Then he says something along the lines of I said hi and took the time to talk to you I gave him a hug ( i have been really sick due to the african dust storms in texas in real life) the mans clothes where covered in tape to hold holes together. I said you know i could sew those for you for free . he said i like that price and handed me a business card. I read the name the title and even figure out the symbol at the time . he said I will be calling around 4 or 5 . I said normally i would just teach you to sew but it seems you have a busy life so i will just help you out this time . I walked away back to the grocery carts and told my hubby I would be sewing for a friend later he thought this was a great idea and took off witht he groceries (maybe because my hubby hates shopping in any form he was nice about it in my dreams lol ) I had three phones and when the time on the phones said 5 I tried to call I could read the time just fine but the numbers on the card looked like some crazy crap it did not sink in I couldnt call


. I woke up it took me a few to even register this dream had happened . although if I had been lucid i would have been able to say more than I will sew that for you. This character only comes by a few times a year and i have so much I want to talk to him about but i never get what I want to say out. Oh well maybe next time

Date: 11.08.13
Type: Non-Lucid
Sleep: 2:30-11:30

Dream one was something to do with being late for school then I bought an ice cream which said it was £41 but it was actually 41p or something. I met my brother at the top of the hill entrance to my old school and then we couldn't go in because of the ice cream and we were already late so I had to eat the ice cream really fast then I woke up.

Woke up at 6:30 or something I can't remember but it was 6 something then attempted DEILD but I realised it's too early so tried a WILD but failed because the room was too light. I put a shirt over my eyes to block the light and fell asleep

2nd dream was that I was in a hotel or something and drawing with black marker pen on a drawing pad. I made a brilliant car illustration with the black markers and showed it to dad. Then someone from another place seemed to portal or teleport to where I was and a glue stick with a drawing on appeared on my book. It was a young boy about my age or a bit older who teleported. He asked for the car drawing and in return about 6 giant boxes of sweets that looked like pixels. I accepted the offer then he said its actually £1 for a sweet!! So I said no way and went back to my hotel room. I remember another boy portalling to me and his mum wanted us to go out with each other. He was alright but I wouldn't go out with him. His mum seemed to be obsessed with me!!? I was friends with him though. I gave him a crunchy granola bar and he loved it.
I can't really remember what happened next but I think I went to a restaurant with my dad.
Next I remember being in my hotel room and putting on the dinosaur shirt I'm wearing today. It was my last day at the hotel and I put a crunchy granola bar in a sock then something else in another sock as gifts to the boy then locked it up and hid the key in some stairs made of rock.
He found the key and when he touched it it started flying and spinning then snapped in half and the chest magically unlocked LOL. The boy liked his gift and then it was time to go. I was going to hug him but then he turned into my friend James so I thought it was weird and just left. Can't remember what happened next, I think that was the end then I woke up.

Dream recall from today's nap. Starting to try out some random idea to fix up my dream control issues and change dream world overall by adding rules.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing Spiral Knights game.

Dream 2(fragments):

Some talk on skype.

Dream 3:

I wake up in my bed and i am very dizzy, i get up but can barely stand, i notice that some objects missing but it kinda fades out.
I wake up again and still dreaming, i try to get up but some force stops me and holds me in air, i have some really weird sensations and then dream fades out.

Living in skyrim.
Out on some expedition on a ship. Ship gets lost, and the compass is broken. It keeps going on by itself. My watch tells me that every 10 days or so it passes near the shores of skyrim. We are out there for about 2 months. Then, Amalia suggests that ship is stuck on back of a giant frog that roams the ocean. I dive in, and take a look, and it was true. I free the ship, and we return to Skyrim.
Then, I quit being a sailor and open a parkour acadamy. There were 3 sections: Conditioning, obstacle course and freerunning. I dream about training there for a while.

There were also a bunch of other things, but I can't remember. I must do more RC and other things during the day.

I saw my high school classmates. We were in my hometown. Writing materials. There was a bus. We were going somewhere. To college?

I went back quickly to get something from our 'house' (used to be a convenience store near our house IRL, but now an empty warehouse). I saw a thief breaking in. I was able to drive him away. He looked like a lanky teenager, brown-skinned (topless?) with curly hair. The room was dark, but the light from the sun outside gave me those details. I wasn't able to see his face, which was mostly indoors.

I approached the police officers across the street and told them what happened, even though the whole thing was visible. They said something along the lines that, yeah, those things happen. I was no longer sure if I wanted to join the others in the trip.

NOTE: Wrote this around 12 hours after the dream, from squiggles.

This is my first dream journal published on this website. I picked some interesting ones (or at least the ones I found most interesting) from my old-fashioned DJ. Please excuse me for any grammar/spelling mistakes.

1-12-2012 (NON-LUCID) A Playstation game box

I found a box from a game for the Playstation 1 (called Grand Prix?). The box stated the game was made in 1999 or 2002. I looked in that box, and I also found a magazine in it. As I was reading the magazine (which looked gibberish for most part), I found an article about the iPad. I said: "Huh, how could the iPad be in this magazine?". As I was reading a little bit more, it said something about 2006 (which seemed to be the date of the magazine), but even then, the iPad wasn't there.

2-12-2012 (NON-LUCID) The message

I was standing next to a very big swimming pool. I saw a person which looked like someone from Kassa (a Dutch television program). She was asking another person what's going on, and I walked to a corner, because I saw a weird text floating in the air:

"Bing is not available in Mexico."

When I looked back at the swimming pool, it has become dirty.

11-12-2012 (NON-LUCID) The Tram Track

I was standing on the tram track. As the tram came in sight, I tried to jump on the platform, but it felt like my legs didn't work. When the tram hit me, I was still alive!

15-12-2012 (MIXED) The Wall Driver

I was driving a scooter. I seemed to gain speed rather quickly. Then I decided to fly, but I thought I couldn't. But as I approached the wall, I started going higher and higher.

(LUCID) The Lucid Fail

I was sitting in the tram. After some time I was thinking more and more about being lucid, but when I became lucid, I was so excited that I woke up.

?-7-2013 (NON-LUCID) A creepy forest

I was walking in a forest, together with my friends. This forest has a very long path, together with some pretty weird trees. It seemed like we had a constant feeling of being followed. A pretty good excuse to leave this creepy place.
Without looking back, we followed the path in hope that it will lead us to the exit.

The path finally led us to a U-turn. At the end of the U-turn, I saw a bath of green and dirty slime interrupting our path. I warned my friends just in time.
As I was trying to walk around the slime, the trees blocked my path.

I was in a military office complex. I was a spy who had entered there to steal some of their secrets.

The problem is, getting out seemed to be harder then getting in...

I was hiding in a office with big windows to the corridor, and when I peered though them I could see guards patrolling there. There was some kind of voice trying to give me successions on how to sneak past them. I tried but somehow I alerted the guards. But that proved to be a good thing, since they entered the office I was hiding in one by one, meaning I could shoot them as soon as they entered. This is a tactic I have used in many computer games :p At one point they were standing in line, kind of waiting to enter and be shot.

With all the guards dead I was free to just walk out of there.

It all felt like a computer game to be honest...