non-lucid

None of my dreams last night were particularly interesting.

In one, I kept running away from some type of organisation. I had a former classmate with me (I despise most people from my high school and she's not an exception) and I had to keep helping her... we were underground, like a huge, tunnel city. Two mobs coming from both ways, running away from... stuff (who knows what?) and the girl would just be standing there, crying and being generally useless. I had to carry her around, lie for her whenever someone stopped us and drag her all the time. What a pain in the ass.

In another dream, I was on this avenue that shows up somewhat regularly in my dreams. Not too often, but once a month or so. I was thinking that I could take classes somewhere and still have time to go to the uni where I do study. I was doing all the math ("if I leave at 9:40, I can definitely be there by 10AM") and then I was waiting for the bus. Then I was looking for my car so that I could drive to the bus. Cause that makes sense, yes.

As I said... nothing interesting.

non lucid
*I was hanging out with amy kim telling her about how I got offered to be on a japanese television show. She showed no interested at all and walked off. I found my self trying to impress them for some reason. She was also doing home work and I thought she is doing that in front of us to feel important.

*I was at studio movie grill. I notice a friend from my old job walking in with his girlfriend.

Thursday 8/8/13

Last night bed 12am - 7:30am

As I was falling asleep, I thought I'll try to have a DILD that night. So I was looking at back of my eyelids while saying "I'm dreaming".
I thought I got lucid 2 times last night in a DILD. But there was no excitement and I'm leaning towards these being false lucids.

DR 1 - I'm on a street car/trolley, going up slight hill. I sit on the driver's side, by the window. I'm marveling at the architecture of tall buildings with red tile roofs in typical Korean/Japanese style. I'm thinking how cool it would be if it was North Korea, but I know it could also be South Korea. That's when I realize I forgot my camera again (this is becoming a recurring issue for 20 years now).

I hear the tram's bell ringing and we switch to going backwards. I'm not worried, thinking trains do that sometimes. But then I see the guy in front of me looking back with worry and lady on my right is kinda screaming.

I look back and as we are rolling backwards, a truck that's all silver chrome is coming up the hill. It is just a few feet away and I cradle my head to brace for impact. I'm trying to think how else to protect myself and I move my leg a little to different position. At the same time I know we are gonna hit, but we will be ok.

We end up not colliding after all. But we start rolling again, I look back, and there is an elefant coming up tha hill, just a few feet from the back of the trolley. Some light purple liguid is squirting from his feet to the ground, as a street sweeper truck. Again, people scream, I brace, but we don't crash.

DR 2 - I'm sitting at the table with two man. Son and father. They are dressed in black. I'm still in North Korea. They cooked a feast for me and I feel so bad, because I know they have very little and don't want them to give it to me. There is a boiled/grilled chicken quarterd up on a tray, and something that looks unapetizing, like soft brains or something. One of the man lifts from the chair and in broken english tells me that that dish or recipe is from his grandfater. I'm telling him not to give me a lot, but he says "eh, no, here is another scoop" and puts another spoonful of goop on my plate. I start eating the chicken but I know I have to eat the other thing too as not to offend them.

One of the man walks by with an IV bag for his son.

That's when I say "hey, you guys, this is a dream, I'm in a lucid dream. That's when you realize in your dream that you are dreaming". With these words I'm already standing at the window, one leg out the window and a smile on my face. I fly off.

I cross the street and enter a buildng. I'm fying through some corridors and large rooms of what looks like an underground warehouse. I'm still in North Korea and I thing police is after me now. I'm flying between and over some large stacks of pallets, looking for a corner for me to hide in.

But nobody is rushing after me so I decide to get out of there. I'm stopping at crossroads and looking around, then turning to direction where the most light is coming from.

I'm out of the warehouse, flying up some short stairs, ending up in a large marbled hallway with deli shops. I thinking if this is still North Korea and I feel bad for all people there who are not privileged enough to shop and eat there.

I'm sitting someplace when I say "oh, this is still a dream". not sure what I did after. I feel like I was fighting to retain lucidity.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was doing some stuff at home and then i decided to nap and i had dream where i was on sofa floating in space and there were lots of pokemons around playing some game with a ball, most of them were not from actual series though, including two huge red and blue dragon-like ones. Then some dude appears near as well, watching too. Then i wake up and there's some problem with cactuses and something gets stuck in my finger.
Then i wake up again and look at hands, they are kinda weird, so i am dreaming. I get up and rub hands, balcony door is apparently blocked by bed and some garbage so i jump through window. I go through glass just fine but i get stuck in curtains, dream destabilizes. I wake up and have very vivid HH where i look through window and buildings are moving and transforming that lasts a good half of minute.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was switching between playing and discussing some zombie games with someone, which looked like oldschool Resident Evil games. Then there was something about the nest of some queen, which made weird organic pod things, which hypnotized people that looked at them and turned them into zombies on touch. Then i was continuing with zombie games and i was thinking about choice that affected the ending.

Dream 3:

I was playing some shmup and i was on some stage where i was going through some kind of abstract place, with various shapes and abstract enemies as well. The weapon of my ship was somewhat similar to Fossil Maiden from Hellsinker, at least, frontal and sword attack were the same, but different directions activated some different firing modes, backwards activated double homing missiles. At the end of the stage there was some forest and some metal plates were falling from the top of the screen like in Solid State Survivor right before boss.
Then boss battle started and background switched to some tech complex. Boss looked like some mecha-bee thing, probably inspired by Hachi from Dodonpachi, it had various attack patterns that were synced to the music, can"t recall most of them sadly, but i remembered that i fought it before(It was not fake memory i am sure, but maybe actually different dream that i forgot), and i remembered most of his attacks, so i knew good spots where to dodge them and where to safespot, i was doing really well considering attacks were really hard and was not getting hit and was thinking that i should record it, then i remembered that there's replay feature and stopped worrying. Boss started using lots of blue lasers and fight started becoming more 3D, then i was actually in the game. Boss activated pattern where he was sweeping lots of blue lasers across the arena along with lots of projectiles all around, i went for really dangerous semi-safespot behind the boss and barely managed to not get hit. Then boss activated pattern with homing missiles and i realized that i don't know how to deal with this pattern using this playership. But then i switched to my own homing missiles and they started intercepting boss's homing missiles on the way. Boss was on very low hp and i was going to do perfect run through all attacks, so i tried to use missiles as little as possible to not do too much damage. Then as boss reached 0 HP, dream ended.

Very very rough pic of the boss that i made after waking up: http://i.imgur.com/bI8ymqP.png

The dream starts off I'm in summer school(Thank God I'm not IRL!). I'm sitting in the library on one of the computers, though I can't recall what I was doing on it. The nice school librarian(she is really nice IRL) comes over and sits next to me. We begin talking about summer and whatnot, just relaxing and being friendly. It is now time to leave and so I exit the school, and the librarian offers me a ride. So I accept and I walk down the sidewalk past a bunch of fifth graders who insult my weight. Not even offended nor surprised, I turn and shout "GAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY" at them. I realize it was a horrible comeback, and just continue walking. I'm waiting by her car now for her to get here. I look at a speed limit sign which reads "Speed Limit 45." I'm actually quite curious as to why the speed limit is 45 when this is a residential area. Someone could get easily killed like that. The librarian shows up now with three girls. Well this is going to be an awkward ride home. One guy and four girls, two who're really stuck up too. So after a long fiasco of trying to get us arranged, one of the girls ends up walking home, and then we finally drive off. I realize it's Halloween because everyone but me is wearing costumes today. I finally get home and then end up going over to my friend Zaine's house. There we watch a movie on Netflix about sex addict couple trying to become religious. It's supposed to be a comedy, but most of the scenes make it look like more of a porno to me. After the movie, Zaine and I go looking around his garage for something. I'm asked to move something, so I get in a car and back up so there's space. I then realize the neighbors have been sharing this garage and I've stolen their car on accident. I now exit the car and go about my business until suddenly, someone is there. I turn and see Jesus standing before me. He asks me how I'm doing, but I nervously answer with an "okay."
"So you're back, Jesus?" I ask. "I guess that means it's the--"
"Second coming!!!" my friend Rachel exclaims bursting in the door. She seems extremely excited at first, but then very serious. She asks Jesus to just let the world stay a little longer.
"Look I'm just stopping by," Jesus says. "But this is the last time I visit this generation!" Jesus seems quite annoyed with the generation of people obviously. He now exits the garage, and Rachel and I go after him. As we walk outside I realize how biblically incorrect this is and I become lucid. I look up now and see that Jesus is gone. Knowing that it was only an image of Him and not the real one now I simply do not intend to pursue Him, because I'd be talking to an image of my subconscious, not real Jesus. So I start flying now, and Rachel is baffled. So she begins to fly with me, making me baffled. I try to use energy to fly faster, which results in me smashing into someone's house like an idiot. I now look down and see my friend Paul. I decide to have a friendly fight, which Rachel joins in on, and shit actually gets pretty intense. I now try to use the closed eye method to do something, but I have a false awakening. And not too long after I awake for real.

Fuck my new format I'm lazy. I'll just make it easy on myself.

Red-NLD
Blue-LD
Black-Awake

I find myself amongst many classmates in someone's living room. The living room turns out to be my English teacher's house from this past year(I've never actually been to it or in it IRL). He is teaching us very angrily about something no one could give a damn about. He finally gives up and just makes us watch a movie. After class is over, everyone rushes to leave the creepy rundown home and get to our own homes. I leave through the garage as the door opens and the teacher's wife pulls into the garage after me. I go outside to see a very urban city setting(I live in a suburb IRL). I see many of people out and about as I begin to make my way home. But then, I do ADA and I become lucid! I turn around and a woman with half a face walks past me. Kinda creeped out now, I continue walking and contemplating what I should do. I now decide to do the hug a DC TOTM. I realize when I wake up it will be August, so there's no point really, but I still would like to try it. So I now walk over to the nearest DC and give her a big hug. She now begins to squirm and struggle to break free. I try hold the hug, when suddenly we are now both naked.

Anyone can guess what might've happened next, but I was doomed to soon awake.

In the uni, working. There is a bomb last. The police check around. There are a couple of guys that I find suspecious. The first one seemes to be the boss, second one seems to be a henchman. They plan to do another one. It's my job to help them, because they have my family hostage. The second guy comes in, I told him to run because police were coming for him, we run through the hallways, what seemed like the H wing and go upstairs. They find out about us, and told me to stop. I told them they had my family and I had to do whatever they said. Can't remember the rest.
This has been going quite poorly. I'm not putting much effort in.

In this fragment I and my sister in law and some others were preparing food for people. Among other things we soaked croutons in soup and sent them to some people who for health reasons could not eat other stuff, but perhaps could eat soaked croutons.

1. [non-lucid]
This guy and his workers built a huge flying disk, He turned it on and it started rising and it ended up really high in the sky.
I am now on the disk and I break it somehow for whatever reason, now we are plummeting to the ground at great speed, we hit the ground (turns out this is a minecraft world) and slide about everywhere destroying the landscape and buildings as if it was being pushed along.

Non-Lucid Lucid

I was at a sort of bench with a couple of my friends just drinking slushies. It looked like it was out near the fields and there was the sea right next to us. Once more of my friends arrived for some reason I ended up in an airplane hanger with my friend 'R'. We both had blue slushies, he came up with the idea of stealing one of these really small planes, two seaters. We boarded one with him flying and me being a passenger. We were stopped by some hangar guards but he managed to take off just over their heads. We seemed to be flying to some type of carnival before two Jets told us to land the aircraft. At this point the dream sort of fast foward itself to the ground and us being handcuffed. I'm not sure were we were but the officer told us that we're not under arrest but he left the handcuffs on us anyway and left. We went upstairs to a sort of cafe where this family worked, one teenage kid, mother and father. They made us a bacon sandwich and that's where the dream ended.

I'm not actively practicing lucid dreaming techniques but I'm still hoping to accomplish my goal of reliving an old dream.

I was standing in an open field, which I think was an air field but not sure. It was a bright day and there was some kind of building nearby with a bunch of people in it. I look up and see this passenger plane fly up and down above me, losing control. Then, BAM! It crashed right in front of me as I held my head for cover. Then, a few seconds later, another BAM! The airplane exploded into flames and sent debris everywhere. I was lucky to have survived without a scratch. I ran in the building to call 911 but a bunch of other people had already called. I called anyway because I figured they would want to talk to me since I was a witness. I told them exactly what happened and that I was right there when it crashed.

Last night, i didn't get much sleep because of school. Also, i won't log much for this log because last night, some confusing things happened. It was about 5 hours after falling asleep, i had already had maybe 2-3 dreams, and as i had a wbtb, i was laying there trying to remember my dreams. I kept getting some scenes from last nights dream , at first i didn't think much about them. After a couple of minutes, i rolled over and immediately had the sensation that i had a similar dream to last nights. However, since i realized it so late, i couldn't remember it.

Here's some fragments from what i do remember:

Boxing:
Me, and some friends are in a building, getting ready to go boxing ( strange, i don't box xD ). We head outside and my friends start talking to some other person in the parking lot. As they do, i figure out i can order people to move objects. I then accidentally order a person to move a car. As i watch to see what happens, a big guy then picks up a car and throws it into the parking lot. Then a bird flies by the guys head and he spits fire out of his mouth and that bird goes down. Then my friends look over with a weird look on their face, like " what in the heck?". All i could do was laugh.

Room camping:
I'm in a room with at least 6 other people, it's dark and we're trying to sleep, but it's hard because there's not really enough space for all of us.

Insulting person:
I'm on my farm, the whole band was supposed to meet me here, but they're gone. I had just came back from somewhere so i have no idea where they went. I wander off walking. Eventually, i hear some guy shouting insults at me from a distance. I soon get tired of it and go yell at the guy.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some video game about dragons.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was on dreamviews forum/chat and was talking with Lucidis about some kind of video game-like difficulty option, but for dreams, then we were deciding which option will be best to be by default.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing some warcraft 3 custom map where i was controlling a group of various large insectoid creatures, and was defending the dark area surrounded by trees, from enemy units.

Dream 4(fragments):

I was talking to somebody and looking at the map of some complex, which then turned out to be 'alive' and started to be like video game. Some parts of it, like ventilation system, were rather full of big spiders and rats. And i was controlling player character progress while being noclipped outside of the level.

Dream 5(fragments):

I've found some really old games and was going to run them on some really old hardware, which ended up being tons of problems with stuff not working properly. One of those video games was dragon-related and another one was some horizontal shmup which looked rather decent graphics-wise and one of bosses was some dark-red spaceship. Then i took a break and started reading some magazines, and found out a book from same author as magazines.

Dream 6(fragments):

There was some story about some lab doing experiments on people, which in result lead to those people eyes turning into blue glowing swirly things and them getting some psionic abilities. Then there was a good chance of them dying when exposed to outdoors or something like that.

Me and my family are at my childhood home, and the new owners must be on vacation or something, I beg our my mom to let us move back here, we're walking throughout the house, and we have the garage door open, just walking around and reminiscing. Then suddenly I get a weird feeling, so I walk out of the garage a little ways and around to were we used to roll the trash cans and I see many thin white slivers in the sky, soooo many, I begin to panic, my family asks me what are those, I tell them they're heat seeking missiles and that it looks as though they are being sent somewhere far, but then I swallow my words when I see all the missiles that are moving slow and shark like begin to stop and turn slowly back and forth as though they are searching out heated targets on the homeland, I see one way from above has spotted me and my family and it goes into great speed at us but we run out of the way just in time and we went into our house and they all huddled together, I told them urgently to separate to different parts of the house because that would make one big ball of heat, then I ran to the refrigerator and opened the freezer hoping to find ice and ice packs so we can cool our body temperature but everything in the freezer was melted, then next thing I know there's a missile slowly scanning through the house, so I lead it the the left side of the house where non of my family is, and i see the missile scanning and finding me then I'd quickly run to another place,, and the missile would scan and find me again, then finally it flew at me and I jumped out of the window, and it exploded and caught fire. I jumped up and ran to go back into the house to check on my family, but somehow I accidentally went into my neighbors house, their house is huge three or four stories, I see the family hugging and I run up to them and apologize for coming in the house but a missile exploded in mine, they say it's fine and hope my family well, but then a boy walks up to me and asks me what is going on outside, I tell him they're sent the missiles on their own people and as I'm telling the boy this his father enters with many body guards, he knows who i am somehow, he calls the boy over to ask him what I've told him, then I run up the stairs and suddenly a friend is with me, we keep running up but now it turns the opposite way but still up but it's an escalator and we;re going up the down one and not the up one but we make it a floor up anyways. We feel we are being pursued by that man but we know we are safe from the missiles as he would not blow up his own house surely. Finally we go up to the last floor, there's book in the middle on shelf's, we feel he's on our tail, so we see what looks like more stair cases to the side of the wall ans jump through the hand-bars only to land on tracks and we realize it's some sort of train and we want to catch it so we climb back up and a train passes by without stopping at top speed, then we see that you have to pay quarters through this machine, then we see the next one stop and that man is on it, so we run around the room and see doorways that you cant see into because of the white paper streamer like things hanging down, they are fluttering as if it cold in there so we enter, their blue plastic paper stapled to the walls and it's a restroom, there's this woman washing her hands, then there's this big cold water fountain thing and my friend grabs a cup and collects water and drinks it, i put my hands in and cup water and splash my face wet, then when we look up all the people are pissed at us so we go through the bathroom more to another door way back into the floor, through this doorway there are three booths for radio station people and at one of them are little girls chanting something and I think wow that must get annoying and i look at the radio guy and he looks frustrated. We continue through and get to this souvenir shop with crappy toys, a girl is there and tells the worker girl that she doesn't have enough money, then the worker says its fine and to take it, then my friend picks up stuff, a mask and glasses, and says she doesn't have money and the worker says that its fine and just to take it, I then ask the worker why she is giving away everything wont she get in trouble, the the worker says she lost the money from before anyways, so I tell her I will buy stuff and I will pay for it, I spend a long time picking out the best tech-deck and wheels and carry case for it all and my friend shows up to rush me so I hurry up and pay the girl for my, my friends, that first girl and the money she lost and then we run down all the stairs and escalators, but the nice people down stairs are gone and it is much more empty than I recall and i am worried about that.

I am unsure of where the dream began but I find myself in a grass field of some sort and I am already lucid (though how I achieved lucidity is beyond me). I decide to walk around for awhile, just to soak in the dream, being cautious not to do anything that might wake me up prematurely. I explored for a few minutes until I was confident my dream was stable enough for me to do some more extreme stunts without jeopardizing the dream's integrity. I wanted to fly, as I hadn't done it in awhile and it's a experience that never disappoints. Having decided what I was going to do, I jumped into the air and, using my hands and my feet as thrusters, I rocketed into the air like Iron Man would and began flying around. I could feel the pressure of the thrusters on my hands and feet and sometimes the thrust on my hands was so powerful, I could barely keep my arms straight.

After while, I spotted a group of DC's chatting amongst one another and decide I should show off my abilities. I quickly flew down to my new found audience and, by manipulating the thrusters on my hands and feet, I bobbed and weaved through the crowd. So impressed was my entourage, that I overheard one of them ever state that my abilities were "godlike". Amused over the irony (and truth) of the DC's statement and my ego's appetite satisfied, I stopped showing off and continued exploring the dream world on foot.

I soon stumbled upon a small house/shack just a few yards away from the crowd of people I had amazed. However, before being given the chance to actually investigate further, I realized that the dream was fading. I began rubbing my hands together but to no avail. Quickly I began touching and feeling the wooden fence surrounding the shack, hoping the sensation of touch would stabilize the dream. This plan worked very effectively and now the dream was much clearer and more vivid than ever before. However, I knew it wouldn't last forever and that the dream would soon come to a natural end.

Realizing I didn't have much time left, I decided to conduct an experiment with the dream world. I wanted to test and see if dream memory was superior/inferior to our memory in reality. To do so, I was going to try and remember every detail I could about abandoned shack and it's surrounding environment. After a few minutes of observation, the dream ended.

(I would put down what I remember, but I am too lazy at the moment. Needless to say, I am quite surprised of all the details I seem o have remembered. It's not superhuman by any means, but I don't think I would have remembered so much in reality.)