non-lucid

Key: Notes/Comments Nonlucid Dream
Lucid Dream
I was going to try a WILD, but it was way too loud, so I instead did a MILD with a mantra of "I will realize I am dreaming." I had some REM rebound from lack of sleep from the night before.

Dream 1, Nonlucid Dream

I was in a city like San Francisco, except it was cleaner. This asian guy had this big staff with colorful bubbles in it. I acquired the staff somehow. I realized that the staff had magical powers. I pointed it toward a car and a white light flew from the end of the staff to the car: the car grew in size. Eventually some guys came up to me, they were like "Give me that staff of yours" and so I shrunk them. Later this girl came up to me and said, "The staff of gods! You can grow things, resurrect people, and kill people!" I walked around 'San Francisco' and I dropped my staff at one point. It rolled under a car. I went under the car and noticed that the colorful bubbles, which looked like bubbles, had spilled out. I used the staff to suck them up somehow. Someone called my name, though, and I forgot the staff. The dream sort of 'skipped' at this point and I was in a car driving with my mom. I think she was driving to work. I realized that I had left my staff at the city, under the car. I said,
"Oh no! I left my staff under the car! It has magical powers." My mom gave me an annoyed look.
"Staffs in real life don't have magical powers," she said.
"It must have been a dream then," I said.

Dream 2, Lucid Dream

I was at my school. Two boys were following me around. They said, "I can't believe she doesn't realize that this is a dream."Then, of course, I became lucid. I'm dreaming!I thought, shouting it in my mind. I forgot to stabilize, but I DID remember the TotM. I took off running, and found the nearest person I saw. His name is Nate Yu. I barely know him in waking life, but he goes to my school. I ran up to him. I was confident he would give me a lump of coal when I asked.
"Hey, I need you to give me that lump of coal you're carrying around." I got this idea from CanisLucidis' dream journal post. He nods, and pulls out of his pocket what my dream thinks to be a lump of coal. It's got some black, like coal, but it's connected to some sparkly, rough, silver rock that's more pliable, like clay. "Thanks," I say. I squeeze the rock in my hands, but instead of getting a diamond, I got a boring rock. I ran off, still squeezing the rock, but eventually I gave up and threw the rock on the ground. I thought of making coal materialize at this point, but I decided I'd try asking a few more people first. I went to where there was most people: the lockerrooms. I ran over screaming, "HEY, IF ANYONE HAS A LUMP OF COAL CAN THEY GIVE IT TO ME PLEASE?" Everyone just looked at me oddly and continued what they were doing in the lockerroom. I noticed that the boys were also entering the girls' lockerroom along with the other girls. Eventually I gave up and ran off to these 3 boys. I was also thinking of some of my dream goals I also had. I asked them, "Hey, can I have that coal you're carrying around? I can turn it into a diamond." They looked at eachother, considering it, and the middle boy nodded and handed me a lump of the silvery rock instead of coal. For some reason it seemed like the 'coal' was used like a drug in this dream. I squeezed it into a diamond shape, but no actual diamond. They started to look angry. "It's okay, it's okay. I can make it into a diamond like they have in minecraft." I tried again. No diamond. The boys looked even more angry, but instead of beating me up, like I thought they would, they ran off. I turned around. I could hear my 5-year-old stepbrother Gabriel screaming in waking life. He's going to wake me up!I thought. I could hear my brother trying to quiet him down. The dream was blurry and extremely unstable now. I ran my hand across the nearest wall, and it felt real as one would in real life. Then, thinking of a post on dreamviews about 'making out' with the dream, I dropped to my knees. I felt super disconnected from the dream by now when I said, "The ground is going to taste like strawberries instead of the ground." I licked the ground. It felt rough, like the ground would normally, and it tasted like a juicy strawberry. Then his screaming started again. I decided that he would inevitably wake me up anyway, so I decided that I'd try my first DEILD. I exited the dream, and then I kept my eyes closed when I woke up. Almost immediately I heard the 'vibrations' (which, to me, sounded alot more like blood rushing through my ears.) I freaked out because this is my first time hearing them and started flailing my leg around in an effort to wake myself up. I kicked myself in the morning for not tolerating the vibrations

went to sleep a little on the drunk side. finnally getting back to where i notice my wakings during the night. the dreams are still very murky - probably a 4/10, but at least i'm pulling a little more back again.
sleep 130am
wake 440am
wake 730am
wake 1030am

Locked up in a movie theater because someone was heard threatening to blow the place up. I had been trying to get back to the party with my mate. went through a door that was supposed to lead back to the party, but just opened into another theater room. when we tried to go back to keep looking we weren't allowed out. I was having claustrophobia/extreme issues with the restriction. (was crying/panicking and hiding in my mates shoulder)

We all got on this mass transportation thing - me and a friend or two and just random people. It was really really fast cart that traveled through the air like a tram but really really high up (impossibly). one person that seemed squeamish about getting on the tram launched herself out the side - she was dangling from ropes and very much enjoying herself. maybe she was just claustrophobic or something. I dangled a little as well, but it was unintentional - I slipped or something. I was fine - i used her ropes and she supported me a little. i was also enjoying the rush.

There were cats and kittens in a different dream - cant quite seem to place them though. was positive. I keep seeing their adorable little faces.

Two fragments.

Dream 1 (fragment): There was some open area, with a raised area next to it. This area apparently had Phazon from the Metroid series in the ground. There was some kind of water pump, and phazon would pool right in front of it, and we had to clear it out with a shovel (?).

Some girl tried to get water without cleaning it up, and got corrupted, but without altering her appearance.

[Note - Phazon does "corrupt" things in Metroid, for those who don't know].

Dream 2 (fragment): I was in my grandparents' bathroom. It was much larger than normal. The door was locked, but the actual locking mechanism wasn't actually there - and was simply empty space. I could also see through the crack in the door. Despite this, it closed and locked perfectly fine.

Total sleep time: 7 hrs, still tired

Dinner: 2 Eggs plus other stuff
Prebed: 1 1/2 Glass of soy milk

Fragment1: I am some kind of adventurer, like Indiana Jones, a man as well. I am about to enter a bunker, when the doors begin to close. I don't want to be stuck inside so I roll on the floor and escape through the exit door just before it closes sliding from above.

Dream2 short DILD: I am in a familiar yard and there are loads of mattresses all stacked together, a pile as high as the third floor perhaps. I am initially sitting on top and trying to balance. I then get down and on the ground there is some red liquid which is toxic and contagious? A Rottweiler is under the influence of this red liquid, he is ranging mad behind a glass window, people are watching him, he is deadly dangerous. I try to quickly move away, pass by it, and find myself on the street. I go in the wrong direction, the street looks slightly familiar in the dream, I have no idea where I am, but confidently go in the direction which I assume is the right one. I begin to speed move on the street and become lucid. I continue speed moving, trying not to hit some people and two German shepherds in front of me. Memory gap...perhaps I woke up?

Dream3: In a store and have the feeling I have been here before. I want to pick up something I have ordered, but it looks like they couldn't deliver because they don't have my address. The old lady behind the counter takes out a piece of paper and shows me that the address is missing. As I am trying to fill out the address, it begins to change, but I am filling out a non-existent address anyways and that does not seem odd at all. I then see that they are selling a special tea to make you lucid. I am so happy they are finally selling those things and want to buy a pack. I also want to get a fancy facial lotion but become distracted, so I forget about it.

Fragment4: Another store, this time I am looking at coffee mugs, wondering whether to buy one. There is also a beautiful teapot and a guy is trying to pour water in the tea cup, but it doesn't quite work. One of us is actually biting the teapot, can't remember who it was.

Dream5: In something like a museum, similar to a place I have been before in another dream. It also resembles a bookstore and they are selling drawing materials, I wanted to buy these so that I can begin painting with color. Further ahead there are two guys wrestling. They are playing a strange game, as if they are anime characters, and one pretends to hurt the other and the other pretends he gets kicked in the butt. I think of how good they are at doing this whole thing, this requires a lot of skill.

A semi-familiar girl comes to me and wants me to be her partner in this strange game, but I can't do it, so I turn her down. She then takes out a napkin with something written on it. I just see the first few lines: DEILD and SxxEILD. So she is into lucid dreaming? I ask her what her nickname is, I am assuming she has a DV profile. She looks kind of offended and as if I have crossed some privacy line. She takes back the napkin and walks away.

Dream6 DILD, TOTM: I am with my friends and boyfriend and it looks like we are doing some laundry. We are inside some place maybe public laundry, maybe store, it is rather empty, just us there. We go out on the street and hail starts to fall. I also see some lightning. I then look at the sky and see some indescribable lights there. They take the form of many invisible airplanes. There is also some thunder-like sound. I tell my friends, " And you didn't believe about the end of the world, well here it is!". I look in the sky again, something like a small sun, looking menacing to me.

Strange things in the sky, I may be dreaming. I become aware. I still feel threatened, what if this is real? No, it's a dream! I tell myself. Ok, it's a dream, but this thing is in the sky, let me get out of there. I turn around the corner, and continue on my way but the dream begins to fade. I continue walking and start rubbing my hands, but I don't feel them so much and that worries me. They actually feel kind of numb (but not paralyzed). I see a DC woman and desperately try to cling with my mind to her, I ask her to help me, I try to engage her, but whatever she answers I can barely hear.

I think I may have quickly DEILDed at some point, but it was more like a mild dream fade and then back to the dream, no time in the void. I turn back and see that the thing in the sky is taking a lot of space now and it reminds me of the war of worlds machine. I turn my back and think that if I go far away from it, it may not notice me or just disappear. I continue on my way, it is of course a dead end street. I even stumble on some steps of this dead end street, shortly wondering how did I manage to do that? I begin climbing a fence and cross to where there are some houses. I enter one and find myself in the kitchen. I notice something interesting there, can't remember what. I go in the other room, and concentrate on a DC that is watching TV. " Tell me about the situation, what is going on with this thing outside?" I then remember that I don't need to stay here and want to change the scene.

There are now three DCs in the room. " I need to change the scene, will you help me?", I ask them. A very helpful and enthusiastic DC takes the initiative " Sure, I will help you, guide you, where do you want to be?" happily replies the man. I initially think "Angel Falls" but then I remember I wanted to finish TOTM first. So I glance at the floor and start looking for coal. I see a large black object and take a piece of it, but it turns into a backpack and the piece in my hand is useless. I turn to the DC woman on my left. " Quickly, give me a piece of coal" , she hands me a brown black pointy piece of a coal. I place it between my fingers and it feels like rubber. I begin pressing it and try to shape it into a diamond. I shortly close my eyes and the dream begins to fade. I am annoyed. " Turn to diamond, turn to diamond", I have to have positive expectations, I remind myself. I look into my hands and finally a diamond shaped crystal is there. The way it is faceted reminds me of a crystal glass my grandma had. Still holding the diamond in my hands I start thinking that I have everything I need to do the four-in-one task in this room with the DCs. Then the dream fades and so does my overall ability to concentrate.I wake up and head for the journal.



Comments: Wow! Finally got that diamond, not quite as I expected or planned the whole thing, but still... and with April almost over, I think it's time for me to relax and call it a month!

Edit: Wrote down this entry, everybody left and I decided to go back to bed because I felt tired. As usual I was taking my time relaxing in bed when bf decided to give me a call. I told him that I am tired of being woken up, and decided to get up since our guests will soon be back from their walk.

Lol! This whole situation is getting ridiculous, but then I have to ask myself "Perhaps this lack of sleep and constant disruption is keeping me on the edge while at the same allowing for some REM rebound to occur?" The truth is I have had 7 LDs since our guests arrived, so I probably should turn my coal complaining into a diamond gratefulness? Whatever the reason, thanks for the great month!

I was in some sort of Auction House without a lot of game type characters bidding for items up the top of the room, where Gandalf from LOTR was selling them off. The whole floor was covered in fragments of gold that looked slightly like sweet-corn, and smaller fragments around those, I was picking them up with my teeth, And the more gold I ate the more I had to spend. There was some sort of God/entity's. One was "The perfect one", who was like genius and could calculate impossible geometry in his mind. There was another, I can't recall it's name, but I remember being angry towards it because it was so greedy, I want to say it's name was Greed but I'm not sure if it was. There was this amazing staff of something or other that Gandalf was selling at one point and I was trying to scrape up enough Gold from the ground of the Auction area to buy it, one man bidded 900 gold, which wasn't much at all, and I remember being angry because I couldn't beat his stupidly low bid. That's all I could recall.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1:

I was browsing dreamviews.

Nap #2:

I was watching second season of some kind of anime about mechas, then i was trying to WILD but was distracted, mom was there and then everything went kind of distorted.

This dream is really old, I don't even know how old (5-8 years I guess). I just found my notes I made on paper back then, so now I will put it up here.

I was in some kind of subway-station and I was intercepting an invasion armada of some kind, and I also know that in that subway I got the first kill that's been made in that conflict. Everything was really dark and dirty and there seemed to be a little fog around. I've been fighting normal humans, even though my dream told me they were Diclonii (which was definitely wrong).

The special thing about this dream was what I felt, it was some absolutely insane bloodthirst. It wasn't unreasonable bloodthirst, so I was able to distinguish what to attack and what not, but apart from that the feeling was so intense it made out most of the dream actually. I never felt anything as intense in waking life, compared to that dream waking life emotions just seem really flat alltogether.

nothing again from last night, but i took a 2 hour nap around 11 and managed to pull back a decent bit. not going to record them here because all three of them were just me trying to get off - apparently i was really horny when i went to sleep >_< in any case, at least i pulled some back - even if i was only because i took a nap.

Barely any recall today for some reason.

I recall some game and some cutscene in which some characters were talking.

Had a number of vivid dreams but was lazy writing them down. It seems longer sleep time or WBTB is almost impossible during weekends with so many people around.

Total sleep time: 6.30hrs

Fragment1: I was in my hometown, in one of the parks. I was a healer girl, whatever that means. In front of me is Antonio Banderas, I am thinking about his eyes.

Fragment2: Classmates are looking for my high school teacher but can't find her

Fragment3: Back to my hometown, talking with my mom. She is expecting me to go out and meet my wild friend. I express some concerns about that. ( I meet him often in my dreams)

Fragment4: Some game-like list with 5 scenarios

Dream5: I am in our current place. My old landlord has left some note about a girl coming. This girl is now in our apartment and is using my hair dryer. It begins to smoke and I worry about that. She then intentionally breaks a wire and the hair dryer does not work any more. I become mad and begin beating her. My hands bounce back from her, I can't hurt her, she continues to irritate me so I continue pounding on her...

Woken up. We had a noisy breakfast. Guests went out for a walk. I tried to take advantage of the situation and went back to bed. I was drifting off when they came back. Put the headphones on, tried again. I was getting nicely numb and relaxed, watching a dreamlet about dreaming and recall, when one of them decided to knock on the door. Because my drifting away has been interrupted so many times, I feel super tired now.

Just a few more days....Then I will be meeting my parents in another town for a spontaneous get together *RC* We will be sharing the same room *RC*? My father snores like a tiger. I can't believe this isn't a dream, maybe it is. *RC*

In this dream I was some sort of Sherlock Holmes like character, male student, affiliated with a university. This university would be closing, and with it the crimes investigation department, and I was calling and asking about to see who would be interested in accepting the past crimes archives and the network of informants who would allow one to continue to benefit in solving future crimes.

The local police department was not interested because they thought they already have all that. Ignorant fools!

A local newspaper could not handle this.

A rich millionaire was very interested, and I almost passed this to him, but then I realized in the last moment that he was a criminal mastermind.

I remember thinking that no one could be worthy of accepting this of course (I was pretty stuck up brilliant but full of myself), but I knew that it was better to find someone rather than for all this to go to waste and not be used by anyone.

I think I asked a few others in this dream, but don't remember. By the time I woke up, the search was still ongoing.

[SIZE=5][COLOR="#EE82EE"][/COLOR][/SIZE]Primul Vis: Eram intr-o sala de dans si faceam ceva dansuri romantice(erau mai multi dansatori pe acolo) iar eu dansam cu un baiat foarte dragut avea parul cu plete,cret(semana cu harry din 1 direction) iar apoi el creca a inceput sa ma placa pentru ca si eu il placeam foarte mult...Apoi am fost in fata calculatoruloui(cand eram in casa imi tot spuneam mie ca trebuie sa ma epilez pentru piscina) si am incercat sa zbor ma gandeam ca eu chiar o sa simt cum zbor dar defapt doar un character de al meu de pe joc zburase foarte rapid de la un loc la altul(la piscina) iar ecranul de la calculator cu mapul ala era foarte galben si verde cu culori deschise si charul meu avea parul blond si scurt.Apoi am visat ca am fost eu la piscina (sufla vantul,era innorat) si totul acolo era foarte vechi pe un fel de leagan doar ca se rotea(exact ca ala din parcul lui diana doar ca erau scaune ca la leagane(erau rosii si vechi)) si erau mai multi copii acolo care ma tot intrebau daca vreau sa ma dau cu ei(Una din copii aia era lorena de la mine din clasa daca imi amintesc corect)Apoi am fost cu costul meu de baie roz si vroiam sa innot dar apoi mi-am amintit: Am uitat sa ma epilez,si sunt pe rosu..Apoi suparata(foarte suparata) m-am dus undeva unde era ceva ridicatura cu scari(ceva de genul unde era magazinul chinez pe bulevard doar ca mult mai mica si era si veche) apoi am urcat pe ala si m-am uitat in jos iar acolo era baiatul pe care l-am visat ca dansam cu el era legat de un scaun cu niste scoci alb peste tot era prins si el zambea la mine(pe jos acolo erau niste rumegus parca ars) iar cand cobori scarile acolo mai jos era o usa pe unde puteai sa ajungi la acel baiat(eu eram ingrijorata pentru el) asa ca m-am dus sa il dezleg(langa usa aceea era un om care parea malefic dar nu facea nimic impotriva mea ca sa il dezleg) M-am dus l-am dezlegat si apoi am stat undeva (eu , el , diana) iar el se tot uita la mine in timp ce vorbeam si in gandul meu era(wow baiatul asta chiar ma place si nu o place pe diana!) Acum imi amintesc ca era si ceva nunta sau ceva de genul(in care eu ma casatoream cu el) iar acum imi amintesc si ca eram cu diana inainte sa vorbesc cu ea (pe afara)
[COLOR="#0000CD"][/COLOR][SIZE=5][/SIZE]Fragmente din al 2-lea vis: Am visat ca eram cu niste oameni(2 baieti si inca cineva) iar noi ne luptam nu stiu pentru ce(prima data eram langa un frigider de inghetata) apoi mi-a spus rapid : INTRATI IN MASINA! iar eu am intrat(iar cel din stanga i-a spus celui din dreapta : Hey dar cine conduce? Si el a zis:Nu te teme conduc eu!) si el a inceput sa conduca super tare iar cel din stanga i-a spus:Hey lui ....(Un nume cu r,creca ryan) nu ii place cum conduci iar celalalt a raspuns: Nu imi pasa.
[SIZE=5][FONT=Arial][COLOR="#0000CD"][/COLOR][/FONT][/SIZE] The lucid one!:Am fost undeva(creca la mine in casa) cand dintrodata imi amintesc sa fac un RC(n-aveam nicio banuiala ca visez pentru ca era prea vivid visul) asa ca am facut unul iar apoi am inceput sa ating toate lucruri(in bucatarie am atins frigiderul,mobila,etc.) iar apoi m-am dus intr-un magazin(in timp ce mergeam la magazin ma gandeam sa fiu vampir si am devenit! m-am uitat in oglinda(de la perie) si aveam colti)(drumul de la casa pana la magazinul acela era exact ca drumul de la mine de la bloc pana in blocul galben) si in mijlocul magazinului era un fel de sertar doar ca avea doar o usita iar eu m-am gandit ca acolo sa apara tot mai multe lucuri care imi plac cu gandul ca o sa le mananc iar in timpul acesta ii tot spuneam unei persoane:Uite vezi!(zambind) apoi imi mai amintesc doar ca mi-am frecat mainile de mai multe ori si m-am invartit ca sa nu dispara visul iar atunci cand chiar a disparut m-am trezit instantaneu.

Dream recall from today's nap.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was in my bed and i was outside and i was looking at some random pigeon.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was in my room and i was having some problem with cables and speakers, location of everything on the table was messed up, like one of the speakers was hanging on the lamp somehow(i don't even use speakers IWL), but i thought it was normal. After a while there was weird sound coming out of somewhere. I checked the speakers but sound was getting weaker. I decided to check the lamp, and sound apparently was there. I suddenly remember that this sound is very familiar, and sounds like binaural beats, but i don't have headphones on, which means i am dreaming. Dream fades out though before i can do much and i wake up.

Dream 1:

I was on some island in the middle of the swamp, and there was an base. I was with the team, we called ourselves 'ESP' and we all had special abilities of some kind. We worked as mercenaries, but only with people who had 'correct beliefs' about our abilities. Some people contacted us and we went on some missions on different island which was in the middle of the ocean and there was also some kind missile silo there.
After the mission we were back on our island-base and we had a long discussion about abilities and missions. Some other people decided to contact us but they were acting like they didn't had 'correct beliefs' and we started throwing random stuff into their boat. Shortly we had nothing to throw, so i went to grab more stuff and for some reason one of the things i grabbed was shower, which was on as well.
On my way i had weird sensation and i spontaneously realize that i am dreaming, suddenly i am back at my room, but i still have shower in my hand. The water felt... really nice and was kinda fascinated by that sensation. I looked around and decided to try to summon something. Was not very successful, but i managed to randomly turn a random shadow into an physical shadowy hand. Then i looked at my own shadow and apparently it didn't had a head( )/ Shortly dream faded out and i woke up.

Dream 2:

I was playing some platforming game, which was happening in some dark place and i was controlling a bunch of characters through it. At times it was switching from 2D to 3D and back and there was also weird zooming going on. There was an section with some weird platforms that looked like combination of skeletal parts and stone, and they only appeared after an special condition was met, which opened the way to the secret exit too. Also there was an section where characters were traveling on some kind of railway platform/transport through cave.
The game was getting harder and at some points it was getting almost IWBTG hard with enemies suddenly and quickly appearing out of the walls and almost no space to dodge them. The levels as well were getting more organic, i especially recall passage where there were some big insectoid things with tentacles moving in and out of walls.
Later on, there was an final chamber, the game went into 3D and the final boss walked in. It looked like some arachnid thing and it had a face. We defeated it and the place started crumbling apart and then dream faded out.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was browsing dreamviews and was discussing lucid dreaming and shared dreaming with someone. Then we decided to go for an attempt.
The dream switched to some game that looked like AI War, but we had lots of overpowered units.
Then i woke up, and for some reason i was sure that i was lucid that dream(I never realized that i was dreaming at any point, also forgot to RC again ) and i went to discuss it with person i was discussing shared dreaming with before(can't recall who though).

The idea is that I'm at either my house or a neighbor's house with my friends. It's me, moo, kolby, and mason. We are idealy on the outside of the house on this huge deck that overlooks a forest on the right and an open field to the center and left. Moo and Kolby are on the right side of the deck that wraps around the house and it's in front of the forest. In the dream there isn't really much perception of being outside and inside the house, it's mostly switching from them both. Moo and Kolby are packing a mini bong and they plan on smoking it. Mason and I are on the center part of the deck about to jump off into the field. Out of nowhere comes this girl named Kerstin and she starts talking to us. Mason disregards her and continues to run off the deck. The way of floating into the field safely is by tying arm bands onto your phone sort of like a mini parachute. He jumps off but realizes he only has one band so he falls pretty quickly but lands safely. I take my two bands and jump off and float into this huge field and I'm having a really fun time.

Suddenly, I'm back on the deck and I turn inside to see Moo and Kolby running from a room in the house coughing smoke. They are laughing saying that my mom and neighbors are outside on the right side of the deck and they walk in. I teleport to outside of the house that's now my old house that I lived in IRL. My dad's dogs are in my front lawn (my parents are divorced but live 1 mile away) so I decide to take them home and also get a blanket from my dad's house to use as a parachute. I start to run but then realize this will take too long so I see my car behind me and jump in. The dogs and I get to the house and I start to look through baskets in his garage for a blanket. All of them are way too long so I go inside to look. I end up in a room that isn't usually a bathroom, but is for the dream. There's a huge shower and some guy is on the top of it yelling things. Also, one of my neighbors that's really young is crying and the guy is telling him to shut up.