non-lucid

Last night Friday, 4/5/13

Bed 1:20am - 7:55am

Long, very vivid and detailed dreams

1. I'm in some community. Outdoors dormitory. Rows of beds. Mostly young kids and teenagers. I'm sitting on my cot. A huge guy, looking like a cross between mummy and a gorilla, 6.5 feet toll, face black and very wrinkly. Huge muscles. Some kind of weapon in his hand. He came to fight me. I don't want to, but it's my turn. It's some kind of a turnament and these kids have been fighting in a long time. I fight him, but not with a weapon. I don't know how, (I think with my mind) but I win in just a few seconds. I receive a ribbon for my victory. It's made out of 4-5 shiny ribbons, metalic, deep blue, deep orange, about 1 1/2 feet long. I feel bad for winning the utlimate, final prize, because this was my only fight. I see a ribbon hanging from every cot, so I know they have been after this top ribbon for a while.

2. I'm walking around this room filled with hospital beds. Everybody there is either getting treatment or recuperating. I see all kinds of things being done to them. But I have a feeling not everybody is a nurse, some of the people helping patients are their family members.

I'm there for a treatment, surgery on my right hand. I'm lead by a nurse and told to sit on one bed. Someone comes over and checks me out. I'm shown some pictures of what they need to do and how.

Next thing I know I'm waking up after surgery. I realize, I don't remember being anestetized, or being under. A doctor is there checking on my hand. He says I need second surgery to make my fingers longer. I ask him for a pencil and paper. I wish he would ask why and he asks. I don't wanna say, but then I ask him about the anestezia and if you can have dreams while under. He sais it's a new type of drugs, but doesn't say about dreaming. I finally tell him that I had a dream and I want to write it down. (at that moment, I did remember that dream, but I don't now)

3. I hear from someone, that 450 000 accidents happend at the same time, all over the world. Something about drivers being distracted by news. I get a mental image of small TVs on drivers consols.

I see a young motorcicle cop peeling off from the police station, and another one already on the street making a U-turn, going to the accidents.

4. Something about friend of mine M.

Good feeling from all of them.

Dream 1 (fragment): I was in a school with a truly bizarre layout - can't fully remember, but there was a gargantuan theatre, and another school (I think) across the street with a huge swimming pool on the roof.

Dream 2: Who here knows Surgeon Simulator 2013? Because this one apparently started as that, except it was brain surgery. And it wasn't a "game" and we were cutting the poor guy's head open, but we were still talking about it as if it were. His head was about as large as I was tall, and I had one assistant.

So, we remove some skin and then start cutting open the skull, and a large piece (a hexagonal piece)...falls down. We remove it, and we're confronted with what I remember to be is a barrier composed of spheres. I remove it, and two others like it.

It should be noted that there was nothing resembling blood.

So, we get to the brain, and at this point, everything's getting larger. There's a platform on top of the "brain" which only vaguely resembles it if it were using Surgeon Simulator 2013's graphics and was a top-down view, and it was pulsing. We apparently had to remove debris of some description, things like large rocks. The patients' head also became a rock? So, we pick up this large, car-sized roughly-cubical rock with telekinesis, and just fly out, straight up, as if it were Minecraft. A cubical portal appears, the four sides and the bottom made of the same rock, the top being the "portal" which was blue and swirly. We drop the rock, go down, and grab five more (though we were outright told in the dream "remove the four rocks"), dispose of them in the portal, which is now roughly 3x wider, and more irregular on the sides. There's also a large skull made of rock that resembles a T-Rex skull. We remove that, too.

I also notice we're in a forest, and the rocky head thing is less "rocky head" and more "giant rock formation as large as one of these trees" (with a tree being about...not sure, 5-8 meters tall, assuming my height remained the same?), and the interior was much larger. The hole on the top is also circular.

At this point, a creature falls from the sky. It is blue, and resembles Chaos from the Sonic Adventure series if he had much better graphics. Kind of. It also appears as large as I do at this point. It conjures up an odd-looking tornado (it was blue), and I rip off its' arm and hit it with it, but it gets sucked back into it, then the creature gets sucked under the leg of a dresser. So, I apparently remember that the objective of this was to delay some alien invasion.

I cannot recall anything else if it happened, so at that point I'll assume it ended.

So I've wanted to experience a lucid dream for quiet some time and read a wiki how about ways to improve your chances of becoming lucid in your dreams, and one of the steps said to look at your hands and say "this is not a dream". I've been doing that often enough, but last night I kind of became aware I was dreaming. I was running away from a collapsing building and I suddenly saw my hands and thought "this is not a dream" and I found myself in my living room? I realised that I could control my dream and a great sense of power came over me, I tried to move things without touching them and this worked with small items but nothing large like the sofa, so I tried to materialise things and that didn't work either. I then went out into my kitchen where my brother and his friend were and I tried to show them why I could do but it took ages for me to move anything and when I did it was only a coin, them they left and two of my friends showed up, and then lots of other people and I forgot about the lucid dream? It's hard to explain really, I know I wasn't lucid, but can someone explain what happened? And if you have any tips on how to become lucid easier or more effective than the hand thing, I would appreciate them!

i am with two imaginary friends. the dream begins in the park across the street from my school; it is winter and thick snow covers the ground. we are going to go to finland so one of my friends can get a scholarship for music. we have to walk lightly so the police won't be able to track our footprints.

we reach finland in a couple of minutes and enter into a large building with beige stone walls, great windows, and domed ceilings: the university. my one friend goes into the music room, leaving us free to explore other areas. i go into another room and find a shelf that contains papers on the history of finland & what i believe to be the earliest documents written in finnish. next i enter another room whose walls are covered in racks of clothing. i understand that these clothes are being given away for free, so i take some, although it is difficult to find clothes in my size.

later, outside the university, i meet my boyfriend. he jacks off and ejaculates on my thigh. there are no emotions or sexual sensations associated with this.

then i am working at a "record store" - a large, disorganized shop that seems to sell everything except records. nicki minaj comes in and asks for some vodka. i cannot serve her because i don't have a license: i feel awkward and incompetent. however a man who works at the store ends up serving her for me.

finally my two friends and i decide to visit thailand. thailand, evidently, is a large country home owned by an old lady. we are hungry, but the food here is strange. after several unappetizing choices the lady offers me a dish of fruit pieces and flowers in clear jelly, which i gladly consume: it has a delicate, sweet and light taste.

i enter into a bedroom in the house. it has blue walls and the layout is similar to my bedroom in real life. there is a sunflower on a yellow vase in my dresser. i have several vials of chemicals. i want to use a chemical that causes genetic mutations on the sunflower so that i can grow different varieties. i have to be very careful while handling this chemical because if it makes contact with my skin i will get cancer. i empty the vial into the sunflower pot but then i look at the label and realize i have just poured a great amount of acetic acid into the soil. i do not want to kill the plant so i use a vial of ammonium chloride to 'neutralize' the acid (dream self is not good at chemistry). however i quickly realize that this reaction produces chlorine gas (again... terrible chemistry...). i freak out. i get short of breath, light-headed and my vision begins to fade.

i wake up.

So the earliest I can remember besides small fragments is trying to get donuts at a donut shop for the second basic monthly dream goal. I wanted to take the donuts to some characters from a TV show (Supernatural) that I was planning on hanging out with so we could all have donuts together. I told the guy behind the counter that I wanted "Four of everything" and he laughed and wouldn't give me any donuts, because that was way too much. Then he left and I had to put the donuts into the box myself, and left without paying. Then, I tried to teleport to the people I was planning on meeting, but just as I was getting halfway into their room, it was like some force drove me away, and I ended up a floor above them in a hallway (they were staying at a two-story motel). I wasn't really sure how to get back to them so I release this ball of light from my hands and tell it to lead me to them. It goes pretty fast, though, and as I try to follow it, I lose it or the dream changes or something. All I remember is that I never make it to the people I was supposed to meet and I never got to taste my donuts.

At some point I'm Bilbo Baggins and the dwarves and I have just defeated Smaug, so in celebration we slide down this big hill/small mountain thing and splash into the small pond below it, like a medieval water slide. I don't remember Gandalf being around. At some point I stop being bilbo and become a dwarf, but I don't remember who. Bored, I go west and explore some of the mountains, while suddenly the dream becomes 16-bit and third-person. I find this entrance to a cave that is blocked off, like in pokemon. I think I need a pokemon with Strength or Rock Smash or something like that to get through it, but when i walk up to it, for some reason I'm able to enter anyway. There I find a pokemon standing in a room. It's little sprite looked a bit like Giratina or Groudon. When I went up to it and talked to it, I find it's called The King, and is level 127 (or 177, I can't remember - although I'm pretty sure it was the former). It's bigger, more detailed sprite shows a a groudon-like body that is slimmer than groudon, with a regular lizard tail and lizard head, with those three yellow rib-things that Giratina has. In it's left hand, it's holding a smaller grey lizard. I think he's the king - of lizards. None of my pokemon were very high level, and I couldn't capture it. Even when I took away a good half of it's health, when it seemed to regain health by defeating my pokemon. Once I was defeated, I ran back to the little pond and told bilbo about it, because since I was him earlier, he has all the powerful pokemon that I do in real life, and he could capture The King.

At some point my parents are in this small room with me lecturing me about something, but that was when I had just recently become lucid, so instead of paying attention to them, I'm looking around me and trying to make the dream as clear as possible. All I remember is that the walls were a light brown and I was looking at something metal and black.

There was also something about someone or something that lived in a swamp and it was going through a rough time, so my friend was there to try and help it. I came because I was bored. I don't really remember what happened, but there were rotten fruit lying around as floating, 2-dimensional objects like you see in minecraft.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some game, there was some kind of cave area and then i stopped playing and went to do some other things. Later i was visiting some forum with simple visual design, there was one user that was suspicious, i talked to him but he somehow got me under some kind of control, making me walk around the room. I was trying to break out and shortly realized that i am dreaming, but then dream faded out and i wake up.
I was actually attempting to do DEILD from there, but i failed and dropped into non-lucid.
Dream 2:

I was back on my PC, and i was still visiting that one forum, that user was talking about some licensing stuff and something named 'PoDDD'. Suddenly i get sucked into the wall and i realize that i am dreaming, some robotic voice says 'PoDDD?'. I try to do move and teleport but then some other voice says 'Capitalone' and i wake up.

11/13/12

1. I am running with my family to escape a lethal virus that causes the skin to melt. We are hiding in our house. Somehow, my parents die. My brother and I run to my friend's house to hide. We find our family in there, alive and well. I seem to be the only one perplexed at how they were dead in our house and alive here. I conclude that they just followed us, and weren't actually dead. We realize that my neighbor is infected, and we find a piece of viral skin on my father. It is airborne, so we run out of the house to avoid contact. I grab my sister, leaving my neighbor and my dad to die. My mother runs somewhere. My brother takes my sister's hand. I run over to my dad who is calling me from across the block. I am confused because we left him in the neighbor's house. I find it strange that he was able to get there so fast. He hands me a red tie and says to give it to my sister. I begin to run to where my brother took her, but I find her right in front of me. I begin to think that something seriously strange is happening. I am about to give it to her when a child's voice calls my name. I look, and to my terror it is my sister from behind me. I turn in front and she is there. I look at both of the duplicates with unreal fear. My family didn't die originally; they were replaced. Who is the real girl? Both of their faces begin to peel off.

10/?/12

1. I am in my backyard. A sadist killer has terrorized my school, murdering lots of people. I hear a gun shot and fear I am intended to be next. It is night. I run inside, realizing that I was shot. A fiery pain encompasses a portion of my abdomen. I feel blood on my hands, and I run upstairs to tell my dad, but he does nothing.

"Call 9-1-1!" I say as I fall to the floor. The colors in my vision simplify, and my senses numb.

He just stares at me ominously and repeats over and over, "Get ready for soccer practice. Get your fucking soccer clothes on, you little shit!" I look away from him, and my vision closes in as my thoughts slow. I bleed out on the kitchen floor.

Friday, 4/5/13 Bed 12-8am

Nap 11:20am - 2:15pm

It took me a while to get any sensations other than feeling comfy. After almost an hour, turned to my left and noticed something going on behind my closed eyelids. But it was more that 3 hours after I woke up in the mornig, so didn't have much hope for a WILD.

I fell asleep and had a really long non-lucid. I'm in some town, duing bunch of stuff, visiting deceased relatives and other usual stuff. I'm going to the bus station, looking at signs, which bus goes from K to NZ. I finally ask 3 bus drivers chatting in front of one of the buses. he point to one behind him. I get on and looking for money. I'm pretty sure I don't have any and I'm sure they don't take plastic.

I look in my ID folder for some cash, then in my valet. Finally I find some bills, folded into tiny squares. I unwrap them and marvel at them. (I do collect money IWL, but coins, not bills). In my dreams, I often find coins in the dirt. When I see bills, they are usually with rare design, like a collectors edition and I always have hard time finding one I'm willing to part with and pay for whatever I need.)

So these bills are no different. The are all 'pretty' and I don't want to pay with them. I finally find a 1000 bill and give it to the driver. before he can complain, I tell him it's not a huge bill, he can give me just 4x 200 back and some change. So he does that.

Here is where my mantra (I see something I get up) kicks in and I get lucid. I think to myslef "hrm, I see something, this could be a dream".I tell the driver, but he doesn't care. I wake up.

Nothing interesting. Dreamed I was working at a restaurant/pizza place waiting tables... or I was supposed to be, anyway. Instead, I was messing around with my laptop and webcam and trying not to get caught goofing off. I came up with a recipe for Spaghetti Carbonera which became the house special, and I had very specific instructions for cooking it that I passed on to the rest of the cooks.

10/4/12

1. My school orders us all to make beautiful and elaborate designs for the new architecture of each classroom.

2. I am either an FBI agent or a friend of one. Me or my friend is talking to a convict who broke his parole. A birthday party is going on in the park. I un-cuff him and say something that angers him. He takes a knife and slices the large, elaborate bouncy house. The exit zipped up. Instead of going after the criminal, I jump, unzip the bouncy house, and enter to save the kids. I get all of them, and forensics checks it. They deflate it totally to ensure the absence of bodies. But then, when it is used again in its inflated form, the bloated body of a pregnant woman slides out.

Some improvement since last recall i guess, still not much of detail.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was inside some wooden structure.

Dream 2:

I was on my PC but in some different kind of place, there was a war and discussing it with someone. Then i was visiting dreamviews and i apparently became a dream guide, there was two more people who became dream guides too: JoannaB and some dude with anime avatar and weird name which had 'demon' in it. We were posting around and there were some posting problems, then i was distracted from PC by dude that i had discussion with earlier. We went to fight some enemies outside and then assaulted a building which was apparently and enemy base. I think enemies were German and one of the enemies was actually helping us. When we finally captured the building there was an weird L-shaped pie, and the ex-enemy that joined us was saying about that it's tradition, then we started eating that pie, it was yummy even though looked weird. Then we were discussing something else and then dream shortly ended.

I remember fighting someone, and having issues with my teeth. I rubbed my tongue along them and realized they felt different. Like they were more concave than usual.

During day: (RCs + DS)x10

Total Sleep Time: 7 hrs

Dream recall method: D1-D4 – keywords in notepad; tried to recall D3-D4 somewhat when going back to bed; D5 –straight to tablet after final wake

Dream1: I am back to our first home and live with my parents again. It is late night and I just came back from somewhere. A former classmate has organized a meeting at 12:10 (evening), so I want to go there. I tell my mom that I am going out, although I know she won’t let me. She doesn’t say anything and I take this opportunity to leave as fast as possible. But instead of that, I start preparing to go out and it takes me a very long time, I go to the restroom two times, and it’s 12:50 already. I finally leave and hope that my friends are still there. They are meeting in some kind of a bar where they serve sea food. I head in the direction of the place and try to call the organizer of the event.

Dream2: I am in our first home again, this time in my room. It is dark outside, a few lights are on. I am in the bed with Cal Lightman. He looks terrific, there is not a single wrinkle on his face, a perfect radiant complexion. I feel attracted to him. Since the light is on, the neighbours can actually see me, so I go to the window to block the view of whatever may take place in my room. I can see that there is someone in the nearby building that may actually be watching, so I try to adjust the curtains. That’s not easy at all because the curtain is constantly changing and does not cover the entire window. Once I am satisfied with the result I go back to the bed to Cal, but he is not there anymore. I see an inflatable boat on the floor. It starts to self-inflate and I try to hold it back from expanding in the whole room.



Fragment3: I am in some kind of disco bar most likely with my boyfriend and some unknown DC friends. I start mixing the drinks. I order twice an “amaretto” drink which is more like an alcoholic chocolate mousse. I pay in banknotes that I lay on the table: 20, 10, 10. I have left 2x10 for me, which should be enough to cover another round.

Dream4: In some house with my bf. My mom is there as well. The agreement was that I can sleep over in my bf’s place, but instead I change my mind and decide to spend the night at my parents’ place. My bf is somewhat disappointed but I tell him I will come by in the next few days.

I am in a large building that has been made to accommodate a museum. I am wondering which floor to go to. I see a large painting on the wall and the signature of the artist or some kind of title. I read it out loud. My mom corrects me and pronounces it with two different accents “Exhibition of the composiccion”??? [end]

The alarm wakes me up, 1 hour before my final desired wake time. I visit the restroom, note key words, and have an average desire to lucid. I go back to bed, trying to review the last dream but I fall asleep.

Dream5 [DILD, ToTM]: I am in my old place and am looking through the window. I see some guys carrying a strangely shaped case, I am almost sure that there is some kind of weapon in there. I look back to inside of the room and suddenly become lucid. My bf is sitting on the bed behind me, but I pay no attention to him. I feel a bit as if everything is submerged in invisible water. I look to what is in front of me and a small dog appears in the room. It looks like pug breed type and it moves around really fast. I find it hard to follow it with my gaze. It transforms and is now another kind of puppy with brownish fur. I remember I should try to interact with the dream, grab something, so I grab the puppy and caress it a bit. Then I remember that I have to eat something for ToTM. [IRL I thought it would be easier to lick something, but completely forgot it in the dream] I look at the puppy, which is quickly transformed into some strange kind of meat left-over, and I wonder if I should eat the puppy? No way I eat that puppy, or whatever it is now! I get slightly distracted as next to the ex-puppy leftover is some wool thread and I have a strong desire to thought-lift and make it twirl around. I focus my eyes on it and try to move it, but I feel some resistance. I manage to move it a bit but not the way I wanted, I give up.

Still with the eating ToTM in mind, I look frantically around, I need to find something to eat and think of going in the kitchen to look for something. At that point I turn around and I see my bf eating bread. I think, bread ? Too plain, but whatever! He holds the very last piece in his hand. I tell him not to eat it. He mouth-feeds me the piece of soft white bread and I chew it slowly. It tastes like bread. I become very suspicious because of the intensity of the flavour and start thinking that while I am dreaming, my real boyfriend could really be feeding me with some bread and laughing at me. I ask my dream boyfriend if that is the case, but he denies.



Since I am still not awake I decide to do the only other thing I remember – try chanting Om. I go into another room, this is a completely different place now. I am by myself here, there is something wooden and green maybe the window frames, 2 lamps hang as low as my chest. I try to chant omm, but some shriek-like sound comes instead. I feel like this is not going to work. I hear another sound and then see the door to the apartment moving by itself and banging as if moved by the wind. Perhaps I should close it? But then my expectations start to build and I know something or someone is behind the door. Some DC quickly enters through the door, initially the shape of my bf, but it is not him. I don’t want to have another chase ruin the LD, so I try not to pay too much attention to him. At that moment 5-6 DCs enter, behaving a bit menacing they are walking towards me. I try to change my expectations and their reactions. They kind of slow down a bit and are somewhat more manageable so I am pretty happy with that.

I walk out of the apartment, through the door and find myself into something like mall or maybe inside a big store. I see a section where they sell semi-precious stones, some one-piece bracelets made of stone, like jade. I really like what I am seeing. I am starting to lose control over my own actions, perhaps being too happy with the dream. The DCs are following me now as I make a few steps while staring at the precious stones section. My subconscious turns on the music and I start singing a song cabaret style “Lucidity, the dream is fixed, lucidity” and joyfully march a few more steps. [end]

The dream collapses and I find myself in darkness, closed eyelids. I remain still and try to DEILD but can’t reconnect. I begin to feel sleepy so I decide to wake up before I forget everything. The dream memory feels more evasive that usual and I barely manage to hold on to it.

Final notes:I am confirming the best time for my DILDs so far is the last hour before final wake (with 7-8hrs sleep). Today I allowed myself an hour sleep to possibly LD instead of my somewhat successful snooze DILD experiments.

Another thing I find important to note is stabilization. My DILDs last long enough and there is really no need for me to rush like a crazy monkey, compromising dream stability and later recall. Next time: take it slow!

This dream took place in school again. Except this time it actually was my school. A few changes on the layout of classrooms, but it was more or less an accurate depiction of the place. It started in math class, not really learning anything, as per usual, because my teacher is incompetent. Just sitting there, talking to one of my friends in that class, and my eyes begin to hurt, and my vision ever so slightly worsens. Then I went to chemistry. Talk to my two friends in that class, and look in a mirror for some reason. My eyes are bleeding. Not like, blood pouring from my eyes like tears or something, more so the veins were leaking. What the actual fuck. I need to do something about it, tell the teacher so I can get the fuck to a hospital or something, but she doesn't care. I'm freaking out by this point, I'm not sure what the hell is going on or if I'm okay, or if it's even that big a deal. Either way it's terrifying, and between classes I freak out to my friends. Then back to math class. Accepting the fact that I'm not going to be excused from classes to go find out what the hell is wrong with me and do something to fix it, I put my head down on my desk and sigh. Then, for whatever reason I didn't want to fall asleep on my desk like a normal person, I decided to fall asleep on the desk behind me, so I leaned back, got into an awkward position, and woke up in the same position. It was a rather scary ordeal, but I wouldn't necessarily classify it as a nightmare. Or maybe I would, who knows? Also, another dream with no appearance of either tulpæ.