non-lucid

Its amazing what a few days of willfully ignoring your dreams can do for long term recall.
I've been going through the buffy series again and all I really remember from the bulk of the dreams last night was that they were about buffy and the characters on the show. As
I was waking up I had a few more snippets, but a week ago that same state of sleep/wake would have pulled a few paragraphs - vivid remembrances. In any case, from my paper DJ:

Buffy. coffee shop closed. world covered with snow, most dreamscape and not characters ((was trying to say that in the dream i was making note especially of the world around me, and that there was little if any focus on people walking around)) spike trying to skate with buffy and angel (he had no shirt/pants, but I couldn't see below the waist anyway). My mind was very busy creating the last 30 min or so. most still faded before i got to the notebook. ((entered later))There were cigarettes smoked at some point.

Two fragments.

Dream 1 (fragment): False awakening. I woke up and glanced around my room. It was a bright, sunny day outside. I did not leave my bed, and fell back asleep.

Dream 2 (fragment): I was driving past some stores. One of them was a jewelry store - with no front wall. It was also a bright, sunny day.

Note - Today is rather cloudy.

EDIT: I remembered one more thing after posting this, but only got the chance to edit this entry now.

Dream 3 (fragment): I was in an elevator. There were two people with me - I seemed to recognize one, but the other I did not. I exited the elevator, heard something about artists being untrustworthy, and entered what resembled my grandmother's condo. I was wearing some kind of cross between a trenchcoat and a raincoat - and it was blue.

Dream recall from today's naps. Short WILD and short DILD, still a good result after yesterday.

Nap #1:

I am in my bed and i have feeling that something's different. I open eyes and room is indeed different, i take off headphones and can still hear binaural beats, confirming that i am dreaming. I notice mom doing something on the table to the left, which is table that is not in my room IWL. I get up and rub hands, dream stabilizes, but as i walk towards the balcony i accidentally make an error, i think about the waking body in the bed... and i wake up.

Nap #2(fragment):

I was in my room, i was recording some game, but i was controlling it from the distance and apparently my PC was not really there? I recall there was some part of the level with falling platforms. While recording i noticed that there's alot of circular sawblades on my bed(Sawblades looked like ones from Half-Life 2), i was a bit annoyed and kicked them off the bed onto the floor. Their physics glitched out(Again, like it happens in HL2) and two of them were stuck floating in the air horizontally. I sat onto one of them while recording, and then was thinking that i finally recorded something while sitting on the sawblade and how awesome it is( ).
Ad i finished with recording i went to do an WILD attempt, as i was falling asleep i felt something different, like that i am dreaming, but for some reason i can't open eyes. I start rubbing hands and after a few seconds i can open eyes, though not fully. In a few seconds the pillow starts shaking and there's loud noise that gets louder and louder, it gets ridiculously loud and then changes into a snore as i wake up properly.
Dunno if it was an actual snore or HH...

Three Nights Ago

#1 - Guilt-Free Food!! [DILD]

I was with high school friends and random people in a large mansion watching tray after tray of food be prepared. A large dish was placed in front of me with an assortment of snacks on it. As I was staring at it I suddenly became lucid and came to an important realization: guilt-free food!! I reached out and started grabbing everything that I could and shoving it into my mouth. First I remember tortilla chips and guacamole, then chicken strips and ketchup, followed by cupcakes with icing and sprinkles, and something else too but it's hard to remember now. The flavors of all of these foods seemed correct, but there was a significant drawback to it all. I had the flavor, but not the physical sensation of actually eating. It made the experience seem less realistic or satisfying, and I decided that I should try to focus on that whole process next time.

As this was all going on I had the feeling that the dream was starting to lose stability. All of the other people in the room began to chant "the burning bridge in Bethlehem", oddly enough, and I started repeating this along with them to keep the plot going. However, it only worked for so long and the environment ended up falling apart.

#2 - Summoning Practice, Again [DILD]

I was wandering through a high school, not necessarily one of the ones I went to, looking for my next class or something of the sort. I spontaneously became lucid and started talking to people in the hallways and opening doors to practice my summoning. The first person who came to mind was this girl who I met in my physical education class in senior year and always found attractive, and I would expect her to be behind each door or actually say out loud that she would be but it didn't quite work. However, there was a girl behind every one and with each try it seemed to resemble her a little more and I would feel them up a bit before moving on, getting particularly distracted with the last one's rather plump posterior.

After that I gave up on her and decided to call out for an old friend instead, and the door I took looking for her led me into a large and empty office. At that point I lost what I sometimes call the dream "chatter", this sort of ambient non-sound that tells me that the dream hallucinations are still running in full force. Without it the scene lacks realism and begins to collapse in on itself, and that's exactly what happened despite my best efforts from that point on.

Last Night

#1 - Meeting The In-Laws [Non-Lucid]

There was a family party going on and my family had somehow joined with a new "step-family" and this absolutely horrible woman was my new grandma. I was eating my dinner around a table with her and some other people and she picked up a bag of fucking dog turds and put some in my food. She had a really nasty attitude too, but I can't remember what made me think that now. Eventually I walked away and started talking to my cousins about how awful she is and they agreed, and then I met into a new step-cousin, another one of the woman's grandchildren, and she said that they always have to put up with her crap. She starts telling me something about her and her brother run some company that owns the building we were partying in and she had vouched for him for something at one point but he used her support to snatch part of the company out from under her.... I don't know, it was confusing, but she was showing me these computers she uses to remote control salad bars and other things with high-tech interfaces. That's about all I remember about that, though. And at one I definitely walked back to the new grandma's food when she stepped away from the table and spit in her rice. Hehe.

#2 - Flexible Walls [DILD]

I was at a party with some high school friends that I've still kept in touch with, and one of them gets me and few other girls to sneak out the front door with him and tells me that he's going to make a dash to his car and take off. I follow him down to the parking lot, and apparently the party is taking place in this large apartment building with some kind of event going on on the ground floor. There are celebrities in fancy suits and dresses all over the place. I follow him to his car and the other girls get in with him and I start to joke with him about something, but I can't remember what exactly. He laughs and rolls his eyes at me as he pulls out of the lot with me still hanging on the window and threaten to say that he has speed in his car with all these cops and celebrities around, very loudly. He freaks out but I was just messing with him anyway, I knew he didn't have any and I just wanted to pay him back for brushing me off and I know how paranoid he can get, but he's pretty much straight-edge. He stopped and started begging me not too, but I just laughed and said no one would care in the middle of all this commotion anyway and he drives off.

I walked back to my own car, which was not my car at all and is very pink, but there were some creepers following me. For some reason I went to the back right passenger door and unlocked it manually, and I could tell that they were waiting for me to auto-unlock all the doors because they were standing over by the driver door. They all panicked since it wasn't going according to plan and I started trying to close all the doors and windows in time but one of them got in the door I unlocked and grabbed a few things, but aside from that I was able to shake them loose after a little bit of a struggle. I decided to re-park my car somewhere more in the middle of everything and go back to the party. As I was walking back I saw some celebrity in a dress looking at me from a distance and I had a momentary feeling that she was Hayden Panettiere, who oddly seems to be something of a dream sign for me and who I've become in both lucids and non-lucids, but I got distracted easily and didn't pursue it. The last thing I remember doing outside is looking at my phone and seeing that it was, I believe, 5:27 PM. I thought to myself that my friend was acting oddly for having left so early.

Next thing I know I'm back in the building and I'm either walking into or already in the elevator back up. There are metal walls on all sides and this is where I become lucid. The first thing I did was sort of make my hand stiff so that my thumb and all my fingers are pointing out in the same direction. I firmly pressed them up against a wall to see if I could push it back at all, but I wasn't expecting to be able to. I used to do this to try to phase through walls before I figured out a much better way to do it, but I did remember that back then after enough pushing the walls would start to bend back some. I backed up and had both of my hands in the same position now and pulled them back to put my all into this, and then I lunged them forward at the wall. There was a loud banging noise and the whole thing bent back pretty far and stopped, then bounced back and forth until it balanced itself out again and became a solid wall. I laughed at this and started doing it over and over again to all of the walls and the ceiling. However, I realized that I was getting too into this rather than continuing the plot of the dream, and I phased through the elevator doors to try to get out of them and into some hallway, but all it did was cause the dream to fade to black and I was unable to retrieve it successfully.

1: I saw Saturn speed by in the sky south of the house I live in, in Pennsylvania. I was standing outside and the planet was close enough to see its rings. From where I stood it looked comparably the size of the house across the street without taking proportions of distance into size. *Edit: Saturn was white like the moon and I think it was daytime when I saw it.

2: I was in my grandfather's house and he had two shower stalls (I don't think he feels very good IRL.)

3: I was near an interior well or saw one that a king was near with some other people. He may have wanted to fall in it and the Flipron song "The Stupidest Face In Town" was playing. (Link to the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2hb73WCXeXE)

4: I was playing The Sims or a game like it and created a "DEVO" Family like the band. I don't like the band; I bought their first 4 albums and couldn't get into them so I sold them. I killed most of them but not all quite on purpose. At one point I thought they were all dead but one popped up suddenly and I decided to keep him alive so I bought him a refrigerator and it appeared that he sat on an invisible chair near it. In the end, after he went into a valley, he caught on fire and I thought he was done for but then he wasn't on fire anymore and then a clown (Like the "Sunny the Tragic Clown" character from the first Sims expansion pack) appeared and it was either revealed at this point that the Sim had some mental illness causing him to hallucinate to see the clown or I just didn't write this with good grammar when I posted it years ago.

5: I saw someone in an old boxy style red/burgundy family van (Like the 93 Plymouth Voyager) doing 360s in our nearby post office parking lot despite the fact the van had front wheel drive; It's like the van was rear wheel drive. The driver turned very sharply and didn't move far from the point of turning once he did turn.

6: I found myself in the back end of a white pickup truck that was made in the last 12 years. The bed seemed small; I didn't move around in it much and I was on my back. I kicked a rear window that may have already been broken. Later, the driver stopped in a wooded area like that of Rt. 66/Rt. 28 between "Distant" and Mahoning Creek in Pennsylvania and I was in the woods before he pointed a shotgun at me. I was talking, saying "Why are you doing that, That's not a good thing" and things like it before he shot me. The driver was balding, Was in his 40s or 50s and had glasses and was certainly heavier-set than I am; surely he was over 190 pounds. I saw his face so perhaps I've seen him in real life, If only passing by?

EDIT, Update July 21st 2013: Saturn looked like this tone of white, No joke. I found this as forum user GrannyPigms' avatar:

I recall some metallic building and also some different building that was built on the water.

I was thinkig about being an astronaut, then I asked a guy "How does a rocket land"? He didn't answer because I didn't know. (I forgot) Then all of a sudden, I appeared in a rocket. Before I can do anything, the rocket launched. It went so fast, I looked up, everything I saw was red. When I woke up, my head hurt..

I was walking down a stone built floor, then all of a sudden some person with dirty blond hair asks me: "Are you stupid"? I replied "586" and ran off... I ran into my schools gym but I stopped cause there were parents swarming everywhere, sonI ran into some other part of my school and I saw my mom just standing there.

I was standing in the school yard with some girl I for some reason didn't recognize her face, she grabbed my hand and just flipped me. I was lying on the floor, I looked up at her and she was just smiling at me.

I started some new medication last night that I was a bit worried about... I'd been on similar medication in the past, and it caused me to stop dreaming entirely.

This was not the case with the new medication, though. I dreamed plenty

I wasn't lucid, but I think in the back of my mind, I had some idea I was dreaming, because the whole time I was thinking, "This is the nerdiest thing ever":

I dreamed I was in some sort of... mountainous, forested region. There was a train running through there. Anyway, Goku from DragonBallZ showed up and we were fighting the forces of evil together... there was a team of "good guys" who were all women and their names were themed on colors of the rainbow (and matched their hair). Color coded for your convenience. There was also a team of villains who were named after seasons.

hello all.
i just dream about a new house.
in which i .m shifting in 2 month in real life.
i saw, I'm sitting in a bed and talking to my family in new house.
i think is 5/6 o clock morning.
then i came down from the step with my fellow. of flat, and saw a one of the new man.
i think he is the owner of the labor of house.
then i talk to him something but i don't remember.
i came out from new house , and saw a road. it is a highway.
then i saw my old house.
it is @ 10 am and i have to go school, but enable to go.
i don't know the region
then i saw my wife standing on kitchen she is doing something..
the time is 12:24 PM
then i woke up

I've been working on the reopening of the DreamWorld Academy section of the forum and I guess it has influenced me. :)

I'm standing on a balcony overlooking a moderately wide castle room below me where my friends stand in front of a large fireplace. The walls and floor of the room and the balcony I'm standing on are all made of large blocks of worn, gray stone. The room is warmly lit by candles and some other unseen source but no fire burns in the empty fireplace.
The walls are sparsely decorated with a few key paintings and tapestries. The room has a couple small tables near the walls and one larger table in the middle of the room, complete with an oil lamp and some nondescript items on the table. Above the fireplace is an engraving noting the lineage of the DreamWorld Academy but the few words are not written in English.
As is common in my dreams I have a mixture of celebrities and animated characters as my acquaintances. Tom Cruise is dressed like some kind of ranger, Barry (the fat kid on American Dad) is looking smarter than usual, and an Asian schoolgirl with dark hair and the typical short skirt stands off to the side looking meek but capable. Tom Cruise is holding a long, wooden staff at his side.
Without warning the floor around the fireplace begins to rotate on a pivot, revealing a new chamber behind the fireplace. Barry and the Asian girl step off the rotating floor but Tom Cruise quickly examines the situation and drops his staff to prevent the panel from completely rotating and cutting off the group's entry.
A distant light-source is visible from the next chamber and the light appears as though it does not come from a source of warmth. The light appears cold and bright, almost ethereal but not wavering. Just as everyone turns to look in that direction to see the interior of the room...the dream ends.

It's a good first visit. I plan to try and incubate future visits.

pre-rambles: I feel that my dreams are trying to kill me more often than not.

I slowly start to stir into consciousness, or what I believe is, it's a warm day out I can feel the sun beating down on my skin. I feel grass beneath my palms, then open my eyes.

I'm in a field, There's a lone tree and I'm at the edge of a forest, littered with massive(redwood?) trees. There's a squirrel, cute and little, almost like Fu's flying squirrel. :B

The squirrel telepathically talks to me. He tells me I'm dreaming and can do whatever I want. I stand up and do a couple backflips to test out what he was thinking. Then realized I'm talking to a squirrel.

The squirrel suggests that we fly. It climbs up the lone tree in the middle of the field, and soars off, into the densely populated forest. I start the climb and realize I'm up much further than anticipated.

Step to the edge.

Splat.

I fall to my death and only then do I consider myself flying. I'm watching myself on the ground, blood seeping into the dirt.

Damn squirrel.

Tuesday, 4/23/13

Last night, bed at 12:45am - 6:50am

DR: Long and detailed

I'm with group of fighters. We are attacking or escaping from a glass, lit up corporate building. Running through corridors, at one point I go around to top of some rocks to see if the velaciraptor is waiting for us behind the corner.

As we come to the end, standing in a big hallway, next to glass exit doors, a guy in distant control room tells us, that someone needs to shut the blast doors somewhere halfway from start to finish. I have a feeling that my characted will volunteer and I kinda watch her from outside make decision. But then the guy said that he did it remotely.

So we are walking away, safe, no need to run. Walking by some glass display cases on left. In one of them is something that looks like 3 pieces of pink flower. Like the ones in Avatar, when you touch them, they detract themselfs. But they are not flowers, but a 3-piece comet hurtling through space. It was a live image of it.

NAP: 8;15 - 11:20am

- My dad is into foot fetish and I worry for the teenagers having a party in neighbors apartment, while he is out of town.
- I get upset at my mom and storm away from backyard carrying something.
- I'm leaving my hotel room. I'm not happy with the door in saloon style, because it gives no privacy. I'm locking it with lock and chain.

I'm attempting to land inside the dreamlet to be lucid. As I'm flying over some pleasant rolling hills, I see a house on the hill, which gets more sinister the closer I get to it. I say "I am there" but I know I don't mean it, so i don't transfer into LD. I change direction and land next to the tennis field. I ask some boys if they want me to throw their tennis balls over back to them.

Wow, it's been a long time since I made one of these, here goes:

Shoot the Putin:
I was in building that was so big I couldn't even see the walls or the ceiling, there were lots of pillars (one every 10m or so in all directions) and a bunch of people (one of them looked horribly similar to Putin). I somehow got into an argument with them and then they started chasing and shooting at me. We were circling around one of the pillars and I had my own gun and started firing back, the projectiles were tiny black balls which moved in a straight line but rather slow so it was possible to avoid them, they never hit me but I hit everyone of them at least once. The projectiles actually pierced into their flesh and even through bones but somehow the wounds still weren't really bad and not even bleeding. Specifically I remember shooting at Putin 3 times, the last bullet hitting, before the dream ended.

Black Fox:
I was in my old home in M. again, maybe this dream even was somehow related to the lucid I had today. I was in the cellar and the 3 rooms that were in line there somehow instead were connected into one room now. I was standing in front of that room and there was a door to this room that had a complex shape, somewhat like a distorted grid. Behind that was a black fox, he looked really tame and friendly but I still was careful how he would react to me, as he was behind that door he couldn't reach me though, not sure what he was dooing there anyway but it was his decision to be there as the other doors to the room were actually non-existent. He came close to the grid-like door and put his paws on the metal shape, and I carefully touched them, the fox apparently being friendly indeed and content with being touched. Some time later I was walking around and wondered where he went after seeing the cat eating his food. Maybe there was some other scene with that fox but I don't remember.

Metal Gear Solid [The girl and the brothers]:
This dream was entirely about 2 games playing in the MGS universe, one of them having a girl as the protagonist which had a blade mounted to her right arm. The other was about 2 brothers, one of them with a gun mounted to his left arm, the other with a gun mounted to his right arm, I saw them running and jumping through a few scenes, most notably one where the brothers were walking alongside so that their guns were pointing outwards, they also were using them a few times in that scene though I didn't see what they were shooting at.

I was in a school, not necessarily mine, but a school nonetheless. I'm assuming it was mine because of the people, but rather than it being an L shape like my real school it was more of a square shape. I was in a drama club meeting, just sitting down on one of the benches in the drama room while we talked about things which escape my memory. We were probably talking about the work needed on the theater. Then, one of the girls sat next to me and started holding my hand. At the time, being non-lucid and all, I simply thought "oh, cool, I have a chance with this chick." The rest of the meeting was rather uneventful. I decided to go outside for a bit, maybe to the store or something, and on my way down the stairs I was distracted by some random misses, either having a midlife crisis or whining about some bullshit high school drama. I couldn't tell. Maybe both. Forgetting what I originally went to do, I went back to the drama room. Not much happened. Then off to class. Cool. It must've been the start of a new year or something, 'cause I didn't know anyone in the class. Except for the drama club peoples, all of which would've graduated by now if it was a new year. I decided to sit with them. While the teacher was doing attendance, we just chatted, as one normally would during a class. Then I noticed a crowd of people going out to a bus or something. I dunno. I knew one or two of them, so, being lazy, I climbed out the window of the room that previously was on the second floor and apparently now is on the first, and had a bit of a chat. After that I remember being in a very nondescript thing up to my waist. It was at this time I realized I was dreaming, but I probably got excited and forgot I was dreaming, or didn't know what to do and just let things run their course. No matter, as the dream didn't last very much longer.

[Not sure to call this a lucid or non lucid, so I'm gonna tag this DJ as both.]

Last night I recall the following:

I had to go to town to buy books. I travelled to a smaller town that I remember from my childhood, but it is not the same. I need to get a bus from here to town before the shops shut - it is already 4pm and Sunday. the shopping centre where I am closes, I get asked to leave - but am sent a back way so I am late for the bus I need. I see it drive away, but I am not too bothered nor do I make any effort to catch up with it or stop it.

I wake - and suspect (for some reason) that this dream is to do with my career and work life ....?