non-lucid

1) Sitting in a car in a street, waiting for something. Then walked through a door it was some sort of exhibit of a miltary nature, there was a large picture on the wall, there was someone miltary watching. I stood back to loom at the picture, he was not happy and shouted that I had to do it again properly. I tried again making sure that I marched in, did an about turn and saluted the picture. He still wasn't happy and insisted that I improved my drill. He had me bend my legs and checked the angle then left me squatting there.

2) In Hampstead with an old friend we were looking for a pub for a drink. We walked into a pub, and ordered 2 apple juices. My friend ordered a pancake but he was told they had just run out of batter, the people next to us were just getting theirs. A man walked back in with a small amount of batter in a jug and poured it onto a surface to cook, I looked really closely and it wasn't cooking, he turned in some of the edges but it just went into a mess, I stood even closer and watched.
Then we were in a cave under the pub, I was reading something, someone said look it's the Beatles and there they were walking towards us. Suddenly it became a scene from Help (the Bealtes film) but they were battling some sort of green monsters. Then I was outseide and it was dark and I was worried that we hadn't paid for our drinks, so I went back to the pub but it was shut.

3) I was in an operating theatre. The surgeon was explaining to me how to correct a hypospadias and laughing about it. I was scrubbing up to help and pushed a button to get soap instead a jet of water sprayed out across the operating theatre, I apologised becasue I was sure I had pressed the right button. A nurse said it was OK.

4) In a building next to one of the twin towers. Climbing up the stairs, they were very narrow, I was thinking how would hundred of people get back down these if there was an emergency. I got to the top and could see a twin tower rising above us. The building was swaying in the wind, although there wasn't much wind. It was moving hundreds of metres at a time backwards and forwards which I was told was normal.

I'm in one room together with my mom and Len, a Dutch friend. My mom is seated on a chair close to a wall. My friend is also seated on a chair. I'm either seated or standing up. I remember there being a window, showing daylight. My mom is talking on the phone in Dutch. I'm talking to my friend. I don't recall how, but we've come to the topic of politics. He asks me for my opinion on a specific aspect of the democratic system. I don't remember the exact question. I explain that I think that direct democracy was probably the best system in the days of the old Greeks, but that right now it can't work. I'm also not satisfied with the current system though. We end up discussing 18th - 19th century philosophers. My mom gets off the phone for a few seconds to say something. Mid sentence I say something like "yes mother, go ahead". I remember being satisfied with my ability to transition that smoothly. I don't remember if I was satisfied switching topics/attention so smoothly or switching languages. My mom says something like that she hopes I won't be discussing this all the time with her. I tell her that I will be on Flores, so not to worry. I focus on my friend again. I tell him that I've never been good at remembering what each philosopher was about. He tells me it's easy for him to remember.

I have vertigo as a result of the last 3 days swimming. I was able to write things down but I'm too dizzy to log it. I'll have to do it tomorrow. Sigh.

I'm in some kind of school,a high school I think. I'm walking down a hall and reach an intersection and get stopped by 3 or 4 girls. They demand 75 cents to pass. They claim that's the rules. I'm a bit disoriented not remembering how I got in this school, I'm thinking this sounds a lot like a shake down but until I'm sure I just figure I'll pay them. I give them a dollar and ask for a quarter back. She sort of laughs and says “thanks for your sacrifice” and ignores me. It's clear to me now that it really was a shake down. So I pick her up and turn her upside-down and shake her so coins fall out of her pockets while saying “I'm reversing this shake down”. I put her down and pick up upwards of $1.25 in change. One of the girls says “hey you can't do that!”. I say to this group of scrawny little girls “well then do something about it.” I'm sure I can take the whole group of them fairly easily. I walk away and hear them getting a security guard. Not wanting to deal with them playing the victim I go outside, but realize I'm not going to get anywhere fast enough from out here, so I wait for the group and security guard to show up so I can at least explain outside of the commotion of the halls. A heavy set girl who seems older then the other girls comes out and grabs me. I push her off easily and say “relax I'm not going anywhere anyway”. I end up in some student/teach court type of thing. I'm forgetting a lot of details at this point but I make my case, get some laughs with some jokes I make and win. After words, outside of the room the court was being held in a teacher approaches me and says something like “you're not the type to just follow the rules quietly huh?” and I say “it depends on if they are fair or not. Our conversation ends at some point and I hear her on the phone, what ever I hear sounds like some kind of conspiracy. I pretend not to be listening as I look out a window.


I find myself in another dream, in a different setting. I'm escorting a girl outside of a hospital. She points to a building and says “that's where we're going it says -i forget what she said the sign read- “ but at I look at the building the sign is only halfway up and doesn't say anything close to what she said she was reading. I assume she can't read well and just memorized what it has said before. We end up looking at a map of the buildings. I remember some very rude woman not letting us look at any of the maps on the walls while she was pacing back and forth using them. There is an evacuation at some point,a fire alarm or something, I'm not sure. Everyone head away from the building. I go the other way hearing crying. I look under a table and there is a little Hispanic girl crying with her umbrella turned inside out. I know I help her, but I can't remember anymore after this.

First Lucid

I was in a school auditorium filled with kids. I than left because I got bored of the event taking place.I was now in a temple like area that reminded me of Ocarina of time and became lucid. I had the sword in my hand and put it in the stone that takes you back in time. This was kind of unsettling because I remembered that there was zombies that appeared out at night. Only...I forgot it was when you were older that the zombies come out and I think it's at night. Anyways I left the temple hearing some zombie noises. I decided to change the scene to the neighborhood I use to live at when I was a little girl. I floated up a bit looking at the sky and house thinking how it was a good copy of the original.

After looking for a bit though the scene changed and I was now looking at a site that looked like dream views. There I saw a lot of writing and a picture of Elainey's avatar and my avatar.A voice of a guy than came up making me think of Nebulus. As he was talking the writing grew bigger and he said he was writing to show how he was grateful for the kindness the people at dream views shown to him. Oh and a picture of my literature teacher popped up as well which was kind of funny. However,the scene changed and I was now in my room with an invisible figure. I thought it was Eye and wondered how long I could stay in the dream without doing much. It lasted for what seemed like a few minutes than I woke up.

Second Lucid

I don't recall where it started but I was in my room when I became lucid.I called Eye and he came but than I got the feeling to call Dawn. I called for him than went to the room he use to appear in a lot. He was there laying down on a bed than got up when he looked at me.After that I went with him to my room but than Eye ended up doing something annoying. I can't remember what it was though. I decided to focus on Dawn after Eye did the annoying thing and looked at Dawn thinking about his appearance. He than picked me up and I was now above his shoulder. I pointed out how tall he was than after a few seconds he put me down.He wasn't very talkative in this dream.

I didn't see Eye around anymore so I decided to look upstairs for him.I lost my lucidity after seeing different birds inside my parakeet's cage. A little boy mentioned how they put them in there because they got lose. Worried I tried to take the bigger birds out and put them in the bigger cage that was now next to them. I only managed to put one inside before I woke up.

Monday morning's dream was a pretty teeny tiny fragment, involving a super smart yet annoying guy barging his way into my house and demanding me to solve his riddles.
This morning, however, was a bit more fruitful! Especially due to the re-appearance of a dream sign of mine.
But first, middle-of-the-night-wake-up-fragments.
I was on a huge ship in the middle of an ocean being ravaged by a raging storm. Alongside the storm was, of course, a sea monster, and the whole crew (me included) had to square off against it in an RPG-styled battle. And thennnn!
I was homeless, and wandering the cold, dark streets of a city I didn't really recognize. I was trying to find shelter in whatever place I could, till eventually I met this family who decided to take me in for the night.
Now for the non-lucid.
I was in the house I used to live in, and sitting on the couch nearby was my ex and her boyfriend. All three of us were getting ready to watch a movie, but I was feeling pretty glum and sour about the situation, so I moped my way over to the kitchen area and pet my ex's dog for a little while. Eventually, I decided I'd just leave, and this was no small undertaking as I knew it'd be a long 6 hour drive back home. I relayed my plans to the two of them, and my ex pleaded that I stay and enjoy the movie. I, however, was resolute. I headed out. The in-between here is a blur but I do remember driving my way home on dark roads.
Too bad I didn't do an RC. I've been training myself IRL to reality check whenever my ex sends me any messages, or if I catch a stray thought about her. However, she hasn't appeared in my dreams much lately; this was the first time in a little while now.

Bed around 8 am - 3:47am

DR at 11:57pm
I'm walking outdoors with lots of people. Feels like when we went on these kinds of walks with "civil defence class". I follow one guy who is really fast. We are climbing up a smallish hill. Grass is all stomped on and lots of dirt is showing from all the feel that went there before us. I try to grab on something and find places for my feet to get myself up the hill.

I come up to some old, concrete semi-circle platform hanging over some water. Looks like dam building over lake. I follow a narrow trail with my eyes and I find the place where I need to go. It looks like there is a shortcut, but it's a dangerous narrow path over the water. I look into water. Lots of leafs on the surface and mud and leafs on the bottom. Not too deep, maybe 4-5 feet. There is some wide pipe running on the bottom of it.

I don't want to fall into water and hit the pipe, so I decide not to take the shortcut. But the normal route is also dangerous. Looks like something from Indiana Jones. The panels of the road are wobbly and I feel like they are gonna fall while I walk on it, like a trap. So I figure I need to run across. Or go on this narrow concrete side, that looks stable.

I walk into a tiny circular booth standing in the middle of the platform. The walls are made of glass windows that cover the whole length of the room. I push them open so I can get out if I need to. I find some items that I feel will help me complete this task. Military badges, police badge, some money, other items.

A real mish-mash of dreams last night.

1) Walking down a wide open road which I had to cross. Quite a vivid dream, I was looking back up the road waiting for a chance to cross, I waited for a motorbike to come past, then crossed to the midle of the road before a large lorry came past. I was on the other side and I think I was with my daughter. We entered an office and talked about looking something up on a very old computer system but decided against because we were trespassing and left, I closed the door behind me (good detail). Carried on walking and past a restaurant, it was the Paul Daniels restaurant (?!), looked at the menu only two things were on it both pasta. At the counter we could see that the food was sitting in a chiller and it was being put in the microwave to be served. We said it was a bit odd but looked nice and we might come back for lunch.

2) Walking along peeling an orange with my family. There was some sort of ride ahead with lots of water, not really a fun ride it seemed to have some purpose. I watched some people on it.

3) In a house with Derick Trotter. He has to go and visit another daughter of his, his wife seemed quite happy about it. Not sure how I fitted into the family. Then someone came to visit him, I beckened him across throught the window, Del told me to let him in. The doorway was more of just a window with a latch on it he climbed in through it.

4) I think I was flying and became semi-lucid but had absolutely no idea what to do and tried to fly towards something - very low level lucidity. I woke up into another dream:

5) In a bed in a bed showroom, pulled the covers up. The bed was very comfortable and I fell asleep in it again.

6) Fragment. I was going somewhere leaving a large playing field. I heard a scream over on the other side and rushed across to help. Nothing was really happening. A boy was making a lot of noise but he semed fine and I ignored him.

7) Taking the children to school. A muddled dream. I looked at the queue for one school but then realised it was too early, and my other daughter is going to a new school so wouldn't be there. Then I was driving. there was a very small gap to get through with cars parked on either side. Someone was blocking it up totally and other people were shouting at the car.

I'm in the lobby of a fancy building. I'm together with a woman and her 7 year old son. All I remember is that her son has an Arabic name. Not much later the son is gone and it's just us and some other people. There's a turnstile to enter a certain area of the building and there's an entry fee to be paid.. or actually more like an exit fee. Just like when parking your car. We're here to pick something up or to talk to someone, so I feel like it's unnecessary for both of us to go in and pay the fee. Eventually I go in. There were 2 guys at the turnstiles, one of them some kind of enabler / smooth talker.

I walk into the 'restricted' area, which is a big Chinese themed establishment, mostly coloured red. I walk around a bit with the smooth talker with me. The woman I was with is nowhere to be seen. The guy thinks I'm here to buy drugs, which I'm not. I forgot my real purpose, but I do tell the guy that I'm not here for drugs. The guy finds it implausible. Eventually I bring my face close to the guy's face to let him know that I'm not looking for drugs, but if he's got stuff, I'm interested to know what he's got. Hopefully he doesn't think I'm a cop. I remember at this point that I had one ring on each hand, two different ones. I walk and see a group of guys and 1 girl from my elementary / high school. I'm quite surprised. Here, in China? These are the people whom you'd expect to amount to nothing, so it's surprising to meet them on the other side of the world. The smooth talker greets them, I kinda awkwardly wave from a distance.

I continue walking around. I remember the left front tooth on the bottom being slightly loose. I push it back in, but do so a bit too far, pushing it further down than the other. I eventually manage to get them on the same level. I came here for nothing and now my tooth is messed up as well, because I came here. There are some seats which look like airplane seats. I'm holding a blanket which I intent to throw on the seats, but instead just drop on the ground. In the mean time the smooth talker is telling me about how impressive this place is and that it's all a facade for illegitimate business established by his boss, whose name I've forgotten. Even my 'friends' are part of the 'make it look legit'. I walk over to a table and sit down. Meanwhile a man picks up the blanket I've thrown down. I take out my laptop. My background image has the same checkered grey pattern as one of my boxershorts, including the buttons. I ask the man where my girlfriend is. The woman is not actually my girlfriend, but I feel it's easier to state it that way. A sliding door opens, showing a hidden room. The boss, who is some slick dude, is in the room with the woman (who has now changed appearances) and another girl. They're on a bed. Nothing is happening yet, but the woman I was with does look sorta busted. I know the other girl is someone's girlfriend. The guy is holding a big, black smartphone and it seems to be opened on a Whatsapp conversation. He gives "my" girl his phone, I suppose for her to insert her number. They end up making out. Throughout the whole ordeal she looks at my once or twice with a look that tells me she feels sorry for me / guilty, but hey, irresistible rich guy. I keep a straight face throughout.

Had a couple of of non-lucids but I had to get up early for the last day of the pool. I just didn't have time to write them down but they weren't really memorable hence I wasn't pressed to write them down. However, if I had had a really great one I would've had to make time.

Today was really fun on our last day of swimming & they are always laxed on the last day so I did a cool trick off of the wide slide. I kept my legs wide apart & went into the water head forward into a hand stand in the water & a flip. I did it a whole bunch. Plus we got quite a lot of time w/ the basketball in the water & I scored 25 in a row but in the last 20 minutes Mike finally outdid me. He got 72 in a row! Damn him, lol!!!

I was in some dark building with a dude in heavy tactical armor. It was really dark, I felt great sense of danger. There were demons, skeletons and zombies wandering around hallways. The dude moved onward, shooting all monsters with a shotgun - one shot and only a bloody explosion was left after them. I followed him, but more monsters came and from time to time some grabbed me. I tried to fight them, but they were much stronger than me. Suddenly a grim reaper appeared - it had black coat with chainmai. Everything was black and white, the dude met with reaper and offered him a great assortment of scythes.

Trouble sleeping night before back to work, woke 1.15am tried to recall dreams but unable to recall anything.
Then not only could I not remember dreams but I couldn't remember who I was or anything. Was real weird.
I had a thought that it was like reincarnation, my mind was a blank slate and I felt like I was floating, observing. Anyway was revelation time for me.
Had a horrible sore throat and cough which brought me back to reality.

D1 - In a rocky bay surrounded by cliffs, it was dark and the water was dark. In the middle of the bay high, high up above me was a gigantic knarled dead tree (as big as a skyscraper), its branches touching the sky. It was suspended above a frozen cascade of water, which touched the sea.
[After dream I felt this represented the Archetype of the tower from the tarot]

D2 - I am engaged with some others in anti-government operations and am inside the house of parliament.
We are leaving but first must take a video tape with us. It is white with a stip around it.
Needing to get away we take it hurriedly only to see that the 3 editors are looking gleeful, showing their teeth. When I enquire why, I find it is because unless they finish the procedure the tape will be wiped and useless within an hour. So we wait pensively for 4 mins and 19 seconds, then leave hurriedly.
Outside it is night, and we can see all the lights of the city.
I got a lift from hagrid (out of harry potter) on his motorbike up into the night sky. He was able to protect me from lightning.
[lightning is link to tower again]

D3 - Anne is asking at a dinner party whether to like a drama series as the ending is not the sort she would usually like.
I say that if she likes it it is because a part of her likes it, either he adult or child self and she should give it attention.
I ask her tentatively if she like the Highlander historical fantasy series.

A young woman's walking quickly through the woods just before dawn - the trees are sparse and thin, lots of fallen leaves from past seasons covering the ground; she's wearing simple dark clothing and a white cap, from maybe around the 1500s. She's very nervous. I follow her as she steals a black hen - she's thinking about some dog as she does it - and makes her way to a well.

But just as she reaches the well, an older woman grabs her and shouts, "Witch! Possessed!" This woman's familiar to me. Painfully thin, red hair so short and strangely cut that I suspect it's growing out after being shaved off completely, wearing a nightdress as if she'd just seen my witch and jumped out of bed to stop her, but I don't believe it's a coincidence that she's here; I believe hunting witches is something she's done before.

The scene changes. Three men - two middle-aged, one older, all still looking like it's the 1500s - are discussing the woman who'd been caught as a witch, and her mother. Her mother had been the same, accused of "magical transformations," but she'd died years and years ago, and the daughter had been raised by another since she was a child, changed her family name. The last these men had heard of her, she was to be married to some knight. They frame this marriage as a very good thing, that she had a good life that she's thrown away; but I hear them say this and I think indeed she was married to him, and that had gone very badly for her, and that's why she summoned me.

Later. Different scene entirely, my IRL home, a pair of men attempted to break in and I turned them into cats. Cat burglars. They made for very angry cats but I was pleased with myself for the joke, and my sister had been wanting a white cat anyway.

Morning of September 5, 2016. Monday.



I find myself in an unusual balanced composite (more integrated than usual) of my Cubitis family home and the Barolin Street house (to where the Barolin Street house’s porch is integrated with my Cubitis bedroom in atypically smooth orientation). I have a large hardcover book which seems to be meant to be a notebook yet has the look of a novel.

I am aware that Godzilla is approaching from the west (Cubitis orientation) and will reach the house within a short time. I am clearly focused and write in the book how Godzilla will not damage the house and will pass by without destruction.

As I write with a pencil, more like making annotations above my previous writing at some points, I hear Godzilla approaching. Soon, he is somehow in the house but only about as tall as the ceiling. He does not bother me and instead, ducks down and goes through the doorway. He turns to the left and shuffles through another doorway after hunching down. No damage is done. I find this interesting but I also realize that he may come back in his full size and with a more monstrous presence depending on how I write the events in the book I have.

I get the sense of there being an island in the distance (northeasterly), which Godzilla will mostly destroy all the buildings on, yet I am not focused on the idea of a body of water separating it from the region where the house is. I write about how Godzilla will march in a rectangular path so that he will eventually come back from the same direction, but supposedly not near the house. I walk to an area that is like an underground cavern but still seems part of the house (and “actually” above ground). In Cubitis orientation, this cavern would open to the north and is probably analogous to the hallway of that house with a vague bilocation. An unknown dark-haired female approaches me from the mouth of the cave while holding a pillow horizontally (obvious dream sign) with a black gemstone with an emerald cut sitting horizontally on it. It is about six inches long. This character seems like an odd composite of Xena and Kira from “The Dark Crystal”. (There is an association with my wife Zsuzsanna here. Her middle name is Gabrielle, which is also Xena’s friend’s name. Kira is also the name of a “Star Trek: Deep Space Nine” character and “Star Trek” featured in another dream of today.)

She seems very concerned about the supposedly inevitable approach of Godzilla and yet is also wondering if the crystal should ever be used to control such creatures, as it is implied to be of great power and may fall into the wrong hands. She talks about hiding it instead, so that no one would ever be able to use it for anything.

“It doesn’t matter at all,” I say. “I can control everything in the universe with this book. In fact, I made everything in the universe.”

The girl eyes me curiously while seemingly dismissing that the crystal has any consequential aspect at all but seems puzzled and somewhat wary about being an entity I had created or she may be uncertain how I may shape events concerning Godzilla’s approach towards her people or alternate world. I wake before writing any more.

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This was interesting in that I had total control by what I wrote in the book yet was not even slightly lucid at any point. A book represents the nature of consciousness (or the transmuted conscious mind within the dream state) and the critical thinking skills on the conscious identity side of liminal space.

A pillow is an obvious dream sign, not at all a symbol, that is, a residual memory of having fallen asleep (as is a bed and being undressed in public). The crystal seems to symbolize focused lucidity here (as it is dark and sits on the pillow and thus is analogous to the sleeping mind), yet full dream control is still present without lucidity or even a greater perceptual clarity. As Kira has wings and is a muppet, this is an atypical form of the otherwise very common “return flight” waking metaphor which also reflects the artificial nature of the dream state (and a puppet or muppet obviously represents potential dream control).

The cave represents the dreaming side of liminal space (or the depths of the unconscious while sleeping) and thus on the primary level the emergence of the female character symbolizes my wife Zsuzsanna waking up next to me. Godzilla was the base coalescence metaphor (dream-swallower for the return to whole consciousness yet also represents heartburn in this case which I had to a small degree after waking, especially as Godzilla hunches down with his left paw on his stomach at one point), yet something within my dream self focus was able to shape my dream differently without being lucid.

1) Riding a bike along a road. I had to hurry because there was a big bike race just about to start along the same route. The bike turned into a motorbike. Can't remember much more.

2) I was doing some work for someone, I felt like I was a school work expereince student. Someone was havign an arguament and showing a large very old fashioned computer disk to someone else and saying that I had to be given a full disk of space in order to use Microsoft Word.

3) A room full of older school children. A teacher walked in and a very complex song was being sung with him in the middle as if he was something very important.