non-lucid

A boy(I felt like a child/teenager in my dream) I liked was going to take me to a special place. He showed me a lake with an island in the middle. The way to get there was by a wooden boat. I remember becoming slightly lucid. I wanted to cross the lake but the water was dirty and I didn't trust the boat enough. I tried to make the water clean but it didn't work.

A man told us there were other boats on the other side. Suddenly I was at a swimming pool with two of my cousins. The youngest one was way younger than he is now. Nobody was flirting with me and I thought that was strange. (sounds so arrogant now I'm awake) I felt ugly and was wondering how I must look like today. I also felt very white and thought I must have had break outs all over my face. We wanted to rent jet ski's to go to the island but it turned out to be fake ones for children. I became a little bit lucid and wanted to turn my plush monkey into a real one. -I have no idea why I had a plush monkey with me at a swimming pool-
It didn't work.

I was sitting next to a woman in the pool and she took my legs over her lap and the man next to her start massaging my feet. I wanted to leave but they told me I didn't have to worry. I looked stressed and I was their 'sister'. I asked them if they were going to convince me to become religious.

The swimming pool was closing and I wanted to finally see how I looked. When I was walking to the mirror I became lucid and did reality checks. -While awake the first reality check I always do is pinch my nose. I never done this in my dream.- My hand looked very weird. I couldn't stop myself of looking in the mirror and I saw myself with a big forehead and the vision(?) was hazy.
It was hard to control my dream. I tried really hard to change things but It didn't work too well.
I tried to stay lucid by spinning around and rubbing my hands together. The thing I did manage to do after that was to make a car appear and drive with my friends. After that I woke up.

I do remember it starting completely no where on this deserted land. There was no signs of stores or utilities anywhere. All I was able to see was a few people, people who lived in the city. There was something interesting about this city. This city, although not having the appropriate places like stores, rest rooms, homes, it was a city just originating. It was kind of western was still felt like we were the first city the world.

There was this desert I was walking on. The hills to my right were pretty high. My left side had a river streaming all the way in to the ocean. The river looked cleaned and so did the river. There was something that scared me about it. I saw the river and it looked a little too deep. I often saw people jump in to it but nothing bad really happened to them. I was probably exaggerating.

After a few minutes of walking or so, we finally reached a stop. The place we stopped at was a luxurious home. That was my curiosity. What was a beautiful home doing in a place like this? It never occurred to me to be a dream.

This home, it had people in it, a lot of them. I looked at most of them as upper class only because there was security at the front glass doors. I walked in to the place and found things to chance differently. There were these people who were talking about dreams, or how scary it would be if one of us entered a deep sleep while paralyzed. I talked about my recent experiences in this place, not real ones but fake ones. I told one of the people my dream about Amnesia. I was stuck in a castle haunted my ghosts/demons. Falling asleep was the worst part only because I knew what I was going in to.

We talked about that for a while and often times I would see images of dark areas of the castle in Amnesia. After that, I walked upstairs of this nice home and found nothing for me upstairs. All I really saw after dream talking was people having a good time being at this place. There was nothing left for me here.

I walked back outside of this home and saw a person, a girl. She looked to be around her twenties but then again you'll never sure because a lot of teens now in days look like they're in their twenties. This woman wanted to talk to me but as she tried to, I was flying on the other side of the river and back using a tool like the one I use in Just Cause 2. Often times I would fall in the river and there was in fact one time when I encountered a sea creature in it. I accidentelly fell to the river floor and hurried my way back to shore. A few seconds after I reached the shore, I saw a white shark coming after me. It was a relief to have survived this possible attack.

After making my way back shore, I decided to ride a horse, or something like it. I was riding this horse up to the first area where the dream first started. There was something behind us. There was a pit bull, it didn't look to happy. As I was riding, the pit bull was attacking my horse. He killed it but I never collapsed to the ground. The pit bull then attacked me with its mouth. I felt its bites but they never really hurt me. I petted the dog and it seemed to have calmed down.

I made my way and got off the so called horse and walked with a few other groups of people. We walked to an area where something new had just happened. For some strange reason, we had just discovered something I already knew about. I forgot what it was. Everyone else felt excited about this new discovery. I did too. I felt really grateful that the discovery was able to help us living in a time when everything was harder to work with.

There was something about this group of people that caught my attention. This group of people, most of them were another race. Most of the people I hear from, they called them white. In this dream, it felt as if the white people thought they were better than everyone else. There was only one black person there, and me, not black but Hispanic. I always think of this. Especially when I go on a server that's filled with people who have the money to be able to buy donation features or have the time to play the game. But while I was in this area, no one seemed to had shown any form of hatred towards me.

After this experience, I walked back over to where I first seen a white shark and appeared in a huge area. This area was a bit strange, hard to describe but I remember watching my father go out with another woman, not his wife. I had no anger towards him and I even saw the woman doing stuff to him. I felt a little disgusted after I saw my father lying on that couch with no shirt on. I never saw them perform any sexual activity but it bothered me a little.

I'm realizing that I don't remember my dreams as well as I used to, so I'm going to have to start at the beginning again on this site.

Somewhere in the middle of the night I had a dream that me and some cousins were walking around a large mall. It looked pretty high class somehow. As we were walking past some windows for a shop I saw my two aunts, another lady that I recognized at the time (but can't remember now) and my Mom sitting in some salon chairs getting the gray died out of their hair. I walked in and they were so happy to see us! It's almost comical how happy they were to see us. I can't remember now what was said, but we didn't stay long. I think my cousin Sara was asking about the technique that they died their hair because it was covering the gray so well and she wanted to try it for her hair (she's younger than me and has no gray so this makes no sense). I woke up after some point and remembered more than this, but this is all I remember now.
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This morning I woke up remembering part of a dream where I was at work (not really my work). I was driving around a grocery store suppose to be picking up packages at the registers (I guess I was suppose to be dock attendant, but at a grocery store?). All the registers were clean though, so there was nothing to pick up. I started cleaning up garbage instead; old cups half full of water/pop that I had to dump out, half eaten bags of chips/cookies, ect. I found a few bags of chips and a packaged donut that weren't opened yet, so I kept those for a snack some other time.

I also remember at some point in this dream watching a girl with blonde hair talk to a man that she had a crush on. He was intentionally being mean to her telling her that the girl he was seeing was better than her; that the girl he was talking to was stupid and fat and so on. I knew he only said these things because he liked her and was trying to talk himself out of liking her. That girl wasn't phased by it though, she knew he was just being a jerk. She had gone to school and worked in medicine, she wasn't overweight, and she spoke several different languages, so she was pretty confident in who she was. That's all I remember about that though.
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This morning I had several glimpses of images/dreams as I woke up and drifted off again. I remembered them when I woke up and tried to hang on to them to write them down, but it seems I've lost them now.

Sleep - 11:05pm
Wake Ups - 1:15am
Finial Wake Up - 9:00am
WBTB - N/A

Dream Fragment

- Me and my brother were planning To take pictures of a massive house that was nearby. We were getting the cameras ready.

No recall.

So this is my first nightmare I had. My bf and I were down in the basement in my dads den watching tv. Now as a normal teenage girl, if somebody rubs my arm I WILL fall asleep in a matter of 2 minutes. And I did and he eventually fell asleep too. Now this is where things get weird..


It was a dim lit hallway. It had no ending so it seemed. I looked around me and saw nothing but the walls and some light. I saw him, standing there. I was happy because I wasnt alone and I knew he would protect me. I ran to him but slowed and slowly approached him. I looked down to see both his wrists were cut, and bleeding. He looked at me with sorry eyes, and a tear fell from his blue eyes and whispered to me, "I'm sorry..." and turned and walked away. I started to cry and ran after him but he just kept walking. It seemed like a glass wall or an invisible wall seperated us. I tried escaping it but no use. He continued to walk down the no end hallway and soon faded off. I pounded on the wall and screamed and cried but nothing changed. He never came back. I soon heard a loud bang and a scream. I stopped wailing and soon saw a face come up close to the glass wall and awoke in fear. I jumped so high that i scared him too. I asked how i was and he said that my breathing was unsteady and that my chest went out very far that thats when he knew something was wrong but he didnt want to wake me. I started crying and layed my head on his chest, curled into a ball and wrapped my arms tight around him never wanting to let go because i felt safe, knowing he was actually there. Untouched and not hurt. This soon became a re-occuring dream for the both of us. Twas a true terror I would never want to experience or witness ever again.

Torture

A naked man is strapped to a chair. They're torturing him. In the course of three brief scenes, they basically cut a tunnel through his abdomen. It's nauseating.

Some Salsa Dancing (5:53)

I'm messing with the wiring in my car so I can do a power cycle on it and fix something. Then I realize I've been doing a lot of extra work. [My dream journal says that around now I "park and check car" and "Mom strikes," but I don't know what this means.] Later, I'm with my sister and we're trying some salsa dancing. We manage some really cool flips and barrel rolls. I feel like I'm inventing an all-new kind of dance.

Basement

I find myself in a crawlspace with periodic rectangular holes in the floor, leading to staircases that descend into darkness. I'm trying to find a lighted staircase so that I can escape from here. Eventually I find one, but there are other problems. I become lucid somehow, and risk looking into the darkness. The dream fades palpably, and in desperation I try to turn it into a sex dream. I suppose it works, after a fashion (no visuals), but I wake up soon afterwards.

Takeover

A villainous man takes the whole building hostage. Most of us are penned up alone in small rooms, separated from each other, but we can see what's going on in the building by looking at the various TV screens on the walls. Against orders, a naked woman in one room talks to the man. Smirking, he pushes a button that blows up the room she was in. I'm scared that there will be gore all over the room when the smoke clears, but fortunately, there is not. Then there are some explosions along the outside walls of the compound, and I know that the outside resistance movement is trying to break in and depose the villain. I wish they wouldn't try--they have no realistic chance of winning. But I leave the room to try and help them somehow.

I meet up with someone on my team and we run into a problem. There are no nearby enemies, so we try to solve it in a few different ways. After the last attempt, I say, "It's no use, we tried this last year." (This enemy takeover is a yearly occurrence, one we are cursed with until we find a way to escape it.) Suddenly, a door opens above us and an enemy comes out. When we get a clear look at his face, we see that it's "The Law" (from Rocket Jump's VGHS). He smiles nastily.

Saturday, October 8, 2011
Strength: Neutral
Type: Creepy-Solid
Lucidity: No

I know it's been a while, but I feel like this dream is worth writing down. I'll try to get back into the schedule.

I'm waiting for a ship at it's port. I don't specifically recall what my destination was, but I need to get on it. It finally arrives, and I get on. It starts out as a peaceful voyage, but as time goes on, the sea begins to get rough. Soon, we find ourselves steering away from waves and trying desperately to stay on board and keep the ship afloat. Sadly, we don't succeed. As a mighty wave crashes against the ship, our boat capsizes, sending us all overboard. I find myself swimming through the rough tides, searching for others. I finally find a few of my friends and we begin to swim to shore. After a while of swimming, we come across an odd, carnivalesque island.

We're greeted by an odd looking man, who's tending to the entrance of a roller-coaster. He welcomes us and informs us that the only way to reach the center of the island is through the roller-coaster. As I get on it, I can't help but feel that I've been on the ride. The ride is horror-themed, and pretty basic, providing weak scares and basic horror elements, up until the end. We round a corner and see a bloodied woman, whispering to herself in the dark, when she sees us, she lets out a blood-curling scream. Our trail then turns away and goes down a drop before ending. While I'm exiting the ride, I awake.

Monday, August 22, 2011
Strength: Neutral
Type: Positive-Obscure
Lucidity: No

I'm still having these incredibly vague dreams, but they're becoming easier to recall. Maybe my practice is working.

In my dream, I'm on a ship. I can't remember our exact destination, but I do remember it being very cold and foggy. As our trip continues, the sea begins to grow rougher. Finally, a large gust of wind and a large wave crash our boat and we wash up ashore an island. On this shore, here is a large cave acting as a tunnel leading to higher ground. We are all reluctant to enter it, but finally I do. Once we get to higher ground, I notice that it's cold and snowy. Before me is a tundra, encircling a collection of small, but stable looking huts. The styling of the small town is industrial, and weak lights illuminate the short passageways acting as roads. Suddenly, the wind picks up and the people of the town begin to panic. I follow one into a house and find safety. Just as I ask him about the town, I awake.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Strength: Faint
Type: Scary-Solid
Lucidity: No

Haven't had notable dreams lately. When I do, they aren't as vivid as they usually are. Go figure. I start a dream diary and I stop having dreams. I'm almost hoping for nightmares.

Anyway, as fain as this one was, I'll try to give it the best description possible. I was somewhere in the mountains, strapped to a table with some kind of force preventing my escape. I don't recall if I managed to escape or if I was tortured there, but I remember a strong sense of terror. I also had the faint idea that I had been there a long time, perhaps my entire life.

I might start trying lucid dreaming to see if I can trigger a more vivid dream, but I see that as a last resort. I will turn to it if these weak dreams persist, though.

It starts out a pretty good dream. I am with my friend, Levi, and we are in a cabin of some sort at a campground somewhere. The cabin is actually really nice set with a flat screen and couches and what not. We are both sitting on the couch hitting his rasta bong I had mentioned in another dream. I walk outside and set the bong right in the entrance way on a small sidewalk. I walk into the second cabin right next to our other one. I turn around before I walk in and see my mom and john leaving our campsite and walking down the dirt road. I am worried they might see the bong but I don't seem to move it from its position. I am in the cabin with my brothers and Levi talking about something, not sure what.

Dream skip

I am going though a line that has two electric fences on both sides. It is a line for some type of campground police enforcement. It starts to become to narrow as I reach the little building where they give me the results of whatever I am here for. I get stuck and complain the fence is shocking the shit out of my legs. The officers tell me to go back a bit and jump over the side of the fence. I step down with my foot and it bends. I make my way over. They notify me I am now on probation.

Dream skip

I see myself in third person (as a memory) and I am walking with my friends when I slip and smack the back of my head on the ground. I wake up in a field to hear Levi's cellphone blaring right in my ear on full blast. I look over to my left and see him holding the phone now up to my face. I am still in a daze. It pisses me off being awaken from being knocked out so I act like it hurts the shit out of my head and scream in pain. Eventually the cellphone is still there but he is gone. I then see in a third person point of view Levi, Tyler, and a third guy unknown carrying grocery bags round and packed full of personal items and illegal things as well. I remember Levi staring at my third person view and saying something about if I wanted this I would get up (because I have actually wanted some bud lately). It switches back to me and of course I'm up. I see them come around the hill I was laying on and greet me. I tell Levi about his stupid ass phone blowing out my eardrum and me screaming in pain, because I thought now that it was just his phone and not him (even though I saw him). We eventually start walking towards the recreational grounds still carrying the bags. I tell them I'm on probation because there are campground officers patrolling the grounds. We walk on to the side of this hill with a bunch of people all grouped up down the hill, sort of in a line. We are towards the back and set the bags down on the ground. I see they have some of my clothes IRL packed in them, like my Sipknot shirt and others. I don't want the officers to confiscate my things, but I also would rather not be caught with illegal herbs while on probation. We are sneaking away and I look back to see some people we know standing in a group around our bags so the officers don't check them. We get out to the field again. I now see and recognize the third person in the dream and IRL. it is Frank the father in Everybody Loves Raymond dressed in a t-shirt and jeans like a younger person. Levi says that he is hungry, I say I'm fucking starving, so we all agree to head out to eat. We make it to a basketball court which has no hoops or anything, just a concrete slab pretty much. It is filled with bunches of people just standing around like on the hill. The officers make every one leave the court and go into these prison cells to the left of it. This is all outside, like just square cells and with no roof, just opened. I go into one with my brother Miles. I wake up after that.

I then close my eyes because I am still in a sleepy state and try to go back into the dream. The DEILD works. I wake up in the grass laying in the exact same sleeping position. I get up and am fully lucid. I am at a part of the dream I didn't mention before because I barely remember it. I am following a small group in a line. There is a hot chick that was in the line just like I had previously seen, but this time she catches my attention. She travels off the trail from the group to the right by herself, which she had done also previously. I swear my brain set me at this part in the dream to trick me into following her because I am trying not to induce sex in my lucid dreams lately because that is want I want to do 80% of the time when I am lucid. Sex excites me which wakes me up most of the time. I walk with her and walk out in front of her and ask her if she will follow me. I start walking towards the tree behind her and it immediately becomes super blurry. I completely forgot to stabilize and I wake up. I swear that girl was put there for me to fuck it up. I learned my lesson.

I was in a car with a girl. I was on the driver's side, but I was a passenger. The girl said, "I once dated one of you" referring to having dated a Jew. I slap/pushed her leg for saying that, but she didn't mean anything bad by it, and neither did I.

Having pushed her leg, I "touched" her, which opened up the field for us to get more personal. We were then in a restaurant and she sat closer to me.

Someone I know H came over and started acting like a mad man asking "WHAT IS GOING ON" and waving his hands around, then went off into the restaurant kitchen, as he was staff.

Alone, the girl and I kissed, though that wasn't vivid, and it was only one kiss, though a long one.

The dream faded from there.

I was in a creepy house, it seemed like I was in some kind of point and click game. I went through a couple rooms no problem, picking up random junk as I went along, including a giant loaf of bread. I met up with a guy with blue-ish black hair. We walked down a hallway when something happened (can't remember), so I reappeared in the first room. This time the guy was already there with me. I figured I did something wrong and decided this time not to take any items. It must have worked because the second room was quite different from last time (looked closer to the first room than a brand new room). But then The dream ended.

I remembered the next one pretty well when I woke up, but now it's pretty fuzzy. I'll update it later if I remember more. I was standing by this small castle thing, it looked like a sand castle but was pure white and stuck together like cement, almost. There was a little slide or ramp on the side, with a ball that rolled down, but it was tied to a string. I rolled it down and the ball went through this hole and made a click noise. I woke up, then went back to sleep and there was a sort of continuation, where I was back the same spot, only I rolled the ball down again and it didn't reach. I knew something was wrong, like that this ball and string meant something more or was a representation of the world or something, and that something bad would happen. Unfortunately I did not get to find out what because the dream ended here. I do remember something about an amusement park in this dream.

Next dream, pretty simple, I was looking at the english gumi site to see if the image was revealed yet. I listened to the demo song again.

Sleep – 11:00pm
Wake ups – 1:56am
Finial Wake up – 9:00am
WBTB - 5:00am-5:35am

First Dream

I was sat in my mum’s car while my mum was driving and my sister and her friend were talking in the back. Then we passed this creepy looking house and my mum, sister and her friend all made comments on how it’s meant to be haunted.
Next I remember looking at myself in a mirror. I was in a room I don’t recognise. It was filled with Victorian furniture and wallpaper. The lights went out and there was no light in the room but I could still see myself in the mirror. I didn’t even notice this in the dream. About 5 seconds later the mirror cracked and the face of a dead woman was right behind me. She had been brutally beaten up and blood covered her face. As soon as I looked at her face she let out the loudest high pitch blood wrenching scream and everything went black.
The dream faded back in and the mirror wasn’t cracked anymore. However now I was looking through the eyes of my dad. He was in the same room I was just in and next to him was my mum. The room went dark again and neither of them noticed. All they could see was themselves in the mirror.
The mirror cracked but nothing happened this time. About 10 seconds later the mirror cracked again and behind them about 10 feet was the same women as before. My mum and dad both turned around and both of them screamed. The dead women looked like she was wearing a nurse uniform but it was hard to tell because it was ripped in places and covered in blood. She then let out her scream again and then everything went black again. This woke me up at 1:56am.

Next Dream

I was around my friend Brady’s house. He had found an old puzzle game. You had to put all the pieces together and it would make a pyramid shape. Then you had to make another pyramid shape but this time it was hollow. Then these two fitted together. I was trying to do it when Brady’s mum walked in and started talking to him.
I finished the puzzle and it started to glow. For some reason this made Brady’s mum extremely angry and without think I threw the puzzle across the room at the wall.



Dream Fragments

- Brady and I were drinking coffee at a coffee shop. He pulled out a clock from his bag. It had a picture of a lion in the centre of it. As time went by the picture started to change and the lion got more and more angry. (This may have been part of the same dream as above but I’m not sure.)

- I walked into my bathroom and it was full of Christmas presents. They were only about 1cm3 big and there was at least a thousand of them all stack against the far wall. I picked a few up and they were all addressed to someone named “E” and they were all from my brother.

- I found about 15 darts. At the end of the dart, instead of there being stabilizer fins there was a round picture frame. In each one there was a different picture of people I know from school.

- My family and I were sitting at a table in a restaurant. Next to us was another family praying before they ate their food. A guy a few tables away was throwing stuff at them and shouting offensive things at them.