non-lucid

I am in a car with amma and appa driving. We are in traffic. We see many stranded cars including people with old looking cars that got burned. As we keep going we eventually see a bunch of people riding thier bikes in the opposite direction with out thier car insight. In the back we are blazing. Some kid approaches and I ask where they are coming from and how far thier car is. The kid tells us they have no destination. This is frustrating so I ask the kid a number of times. The kid is black btw (the whole family is) and is standing dangerouslu in the way of traffic. I tell the kid to move. He tries to opening our car door but is it's locked. He baits out the marijuana and we scable to hide the blunt roach. His dad comes over and says something about heaven, let him in. I unlock the door for a second and then lock it again and manage to keep them out. They say they had no destination and just packed up and started biking. It comes to my mind that they have been escaping something or have been struggling. I never find out.

I dont remember anything else. I wake up shortly after.

03.30.2012

Oneironaut Zero or Blade Home Invasion?? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Oneironaut zero or Blade Home Invasion?

The person looked a lot like O, but it could've just been my mind associating something related to him, Blade, or even Morpheus.

Before this dream, I was listening to the Cowboy Bebop Ending Song. It's been so long since I've listened to it, it really makes me depressed, but the music (especially the full version) is so enticing to me. I guess seeing the images pan over after the other makes me think a lot about how fragile your life can really be, but that's just me, it's hard to explain.

Just the music and the pictures really makes you feel like you're trapped doing all of these things in life, the basic things, the things that make you vulnerable....

I don't want to think too much about why I met Spike for a few seconds in a dream I had last night, but the fact that there could be symbolism like a fading star representing someone's death, which is what was apparent at the last episode before showing a picture of Spike at the end of the series, the choir, etc., things that made it look like he was going to die.

And the quote he says before going to the Red Dragon's lair (an organization) to kill Vicious

"I'm not going there to die. I'm going to find out if I'm really alive."

And when the Wikia talked about how he lives like he's in a "dream-state"

Spike's attitude of living in a "dream-like" existence is displayed by his careless behavior and his nonchalant attitude towards dangerous or outright fatal situations....

He also is shown to enjoy sleeping, and that may tie into his mantra of 'living a dream.'

I wonder why Spike appeared in my dream, and then flashed away, like a fading star dying....


I'm talking to my father about something, and then he tells me that he thinks that I'm annoying for some reason. Something along with how I'm some kind of distraction.

After a while, I could tell he was just in rage over something else, and was just saying that to me because he was in the heat of the moment, but after he calmed down a bit, he tried to apologize to me indirectly again by trying to be nice to me.

He asked me,

"Can I play this game called Runescape?"

I respond, "No."

Then he wants to play The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess, and at first I wanted to say "No" to that as well, but I just didn't really care what he did at this point, seeing as he's making himself pathetic trying to apologize to me without using direct words.

He disappears, which doesn't bother me at all, the dream was set for afternoon, maybe around 4-5PM where it's still bright outside.

I go near the entertainment center of the house (the cabinet center is what I'm talking about), and I see that there's some weird looking Nintendo console in front of me.

I fiddle around with other things surrounding it, like seeing Zelda collectables. I was pondering if my father was buying this for me to try and suck up to me for being mad at me, but I let the possibility fade away really quick.

Surprisingly, the vividness of this dream was amazing, seeing how I slept around 3-3.5 hours. I did not do a reality check inside the house unfortunately, perfect chance for me to be lucid, since I'm at my apartment in waking like.

I open the container that looked like some part of a DVD player eject out a Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess Wii Disc. It was exactly like the CD (almost), with the gold-ish tint, and the picture of Link holding a sword to where he has it angled towards the ground instead of upwards.

(Just imagine the image of link on the right being on the CD with a gold-ish color)

I put back the CD to get something to eat, and it seems I take a quick bite out of something that was probably Fish Cakes.

It tasted like red salmon, and then I realize I didn't heat it up, because it tasted weird when it was cold. Then I forget to do that altogether since I look outside because the backyard door is opened.

At first, I see some random DCs, I'm presuming are neighbors, walking their way to their homes as well. For some odd reason, I imagined things like,

"What if a tiger randomly popped in from the backyard?" (that was probably and association where I was watching the AVG tiger toothpick commercial on YouTube....check it out )

I let the thought fade away, and then for some reason, I immediately drop to the floor on purpose to land prone on the right side of my body extended out.

I get my right hand out, and aim for outside, and shadowed the form of a gun with it, and then said, "Bang!" as I imitated the recoil of shooting a gun.

(I know that motion I did just had to be my association with interpreting why Spike from Cowboy Bebop was in my dream yesterday).

I had a little fun pretending I'm shooting a gun for a while, almost feeling like a kid for a few seconds aiming my fingers and random points outside.

Eventually, seeing how I was alone in the house, I felt that I might as well close the door, since I didn't really feel like going outside.

I get back up, quickly dash to the side of the door that was opened and extended to the right.

For those few seconds, just those few seconds of the quick dash, I see someone trying to come into the house through the SAME door.

I barely saw their visage to the right of the door window, and saw that they were wearing shades. The person had a dark skin tone, he was Black.

He wore a gray, white, or silver vest, and it seems they were sleeveless because they were ripped out. The guy had muscular arms from what I saw in the few seconds of looking at him. He wore short pants, maybe blue or Khaki, not too sure on that.

I almost had the feeling where I'm questioning if this person is Oneironaut Zero, or Blade, but the feelings started to fade because my main mood was to wonder what the heck am I going to do to defend myself.

I also think I was in denial in it possibly being O or Blade because of how they tried to enter the house by crouching down instead of just coming in casually.

To describe this mood of mine, imagine having no guns, and knowing that the person trying to come in could be armed, so now you feel so weak because of this, so you try to find anything sharp, and hope that wherever you hide wouldn't be the obvious choice for the invader to investigate.

Basically, just making anything that's metal and sharp into a potential murder weapon.

The person couldn't see me because there is a small transparent gray cloth I believe hanging over the window of the door.

I slammed the door immediately, locked the two silver locks, take one more quick glance at who was outside the backyard.

The person looks pretty serious, and I assume it's just someone trying invade the house silently, and I still think he thought the door just slammed shut because of the wind or something.

He tries to fiddle around with the lock from the outside, and I take this time to turn around immediately, and since I'm in the kitchen, I immediately gear my attention to the knives.

They were conveniently placed 1-2 feet away from me.

(Another reality check I could've done because I knew in waking life, those knives where set a little bit further from the backyard door, but I guess I wasn't serious about awareness of the environment I'm in, despite me looking around seeing weird things happening).

I quickly grabbed one knife out of fear, and then decided to get another. With one knife in each hand, I felt a little safer. I started to think about how I would kill the DC that was trying to lock-pick the door and invade the house.

I decided that I should hide behind the pantry, but that would be stupid, because I was worried that the person would check that first because it was the first thing you could see on your left if you come through the door leading to the backyard.

I believe I even thought of what would happened if I hid behind the pantry door as well, but at the same time, I felt I was already in the pantry door.

I was so afraid, despite having two weapons in my hands, and I think I hear the door slightly open.

I wake up, but my eyes did not open, I could've went into a DEILD and tried to see what happened, but in all honestly, I was afraid because I swore that person looked like Oneironaut Zero or Blade.

And I opened my eyes, but they wanted to close back, so I opened it again.

Did that just really happen? I do a RC to make sure it wasn't a FA when I woke up from it.

And I could've used that fear to try out the Flying Thunder God Technique if I was lucid and was actually trying to be strategic....seeing as this would be a situation where close quarters combat is almost inevitable.

And if I mastered the technique out of fear, the moment the person blinked their eyes to see I'm hidden in the pantry or whatever, it would already be too late because I would be right behind them.

Too bad I didn't use my brain for once....

EDIT

Dream 2: Okay Father....

I don't want to recall the details here, but basically, I was in a car I believe with my father and mother, that's weird.....still didn't do a reality check for that...

I was listening to their ignorance, and it really made me pissed, I insulted my mother, and then my father tells me to apologize to her and calm down.

"Okay father....." in my attempt to be chilled, still wanting to release rage to the both of them.


Dream 3: Ping pong balls..

I can't remember much about this one, except that I was playing tennis with ping pongs that eradicated when you slammed them hard enough. They burst like water balloons.

Dream 4: Adult stuff...

Nothing special, just looking at some adult scenes that I never seen before on my Zune HD.

The dream starts off on the outside of a store front. I was with my best friend Andrew Carder and he was trying to convince me to go into the smoke shop. I was being reluctant because I am not eighteen and I thought I saw my football coach in front of the store. Next thing I know I am in the shop, I don't even remember walking in. I was walking in the back of the store looking around and I see a section divided from the rest of the smoke shop by a wall. I look behind the wall and there are pipes made of hallowed out balls of glass. I turn around and face the last isle of that side of the store. There seems to be a good amount fog coming from that Isle. The next thing I remember is that I am walking in the front of the store and I see an isle that sells school supplies like computer ink and composition paper and stuff like that. I run into a group of dads with their sons and one of them asks me where the printer ink is. The other father sarcastically says "like he knows where it is". I pointed the first father to the ink isle and I told the sarcastic father "I guess I do know where the ink section is asshole. I then woke up.(That night I got 10 to 11 hours of sleep. I went to bed with a full stomach.)

I was playing a PC game where you play as a gargoyle type thing. You have to fly around (or swim?) killing things (can't remember what they were). I think it was an MMO because I was looking for my cousin.

Man, my recall is sucking lately.

So, okay, first DJ entry here, not sure how often I'll start using this.

[COLOR="#2e8b57"]lucids[/COLOR], [COLOR="#483d8b"]non-lucids[/COLOR]

It's a non-lucid, which could've turned into a ld so easily, but nah.

This morning I missed the bus, so I sent a text to my teacher saying I missed the bus and will come later. I had 3 hours til the next bus, I decided to sleep.

[COLOR="#483d8b"]I was sitting on my bed and I had just sent that text. I got a weird reply from my teacher's number, when suddenly someone called me (from the teacher's phone). They were already talking at a high speed while I am just sitting there wondering who is this. I'm like f this and I end the call (it was 13 seconds long). Then suddenly the same number starts sending me some weird app-kind of stuff (on my ipod O_o). I tried to remove whatever they were (slide my finger on it and a remove button should show up) and a red button came. I thought it was a "remove" button but..it was a red "like" button. I had already pushed it when I realised that. I pushed it again to unlike but nothing happened. I jammed the button a bit. There was this counter that said I had pushed it 8 times. Then I logged on fb to remove the like. I had logged in and then thought "What if they hacked my ipod? They might have my password, I use it at quite a few places" (the pw in the dream WAS my real pw :D). Then they tried to call me again, but I didn't answer. I turned on the computer to start changing passwords. At startup, there were suddenly colorful texts among the white. It was turning into an irc chatroom :'D (my kvirc has that black theme irl). There were several people talking to me about "what she did" and "we're gonna find you". I had no idea what they were talking about, but I was scared.[/COLOR]

I can't remember atm, was there anything else before I woke or not.

First

I'm at a house in a forest. There is some kind of a game going on, where people enter the house one by one to do a task. I don't remember much about the task itself. During it I think someone is implicated of a crime. After I come out I wander around the house on a path. There are some monsters that try to attack me. I think I'm with someone at this point. I have some first person shooter type weapons but they are not very effective. I'm able to keep them at bay, though, mostly kicking and throwing them. At some point the weapons turn into animals.

Second

I'm with a bunch of people at another house next to the woods. I think my family is there, but there are others as well. We're going to check out the other cabin. I'm walking faster that the others, singing. I ask someone for the lyrics when I forget.

When we get there, there is a lake. Apparently the water has come down a lot and people are worried for the ecological balance of the area. The trees around the lake are almost dead and break easily. We go somewhere to investigate this.

Third

A man, who has implicated of some crime in the first dream, is a reporter and he is ordered to go to some totalitarian country. He should be able to get in even though he now has a criminal record, but there is some doubt. A guard is fiddling with the system, trying to help him, but he doesn't get in. The guard calls for security and a large officer comes. The officer apparently knows the reporter and they were supposed to meet, so all is going according to plan.

Just outside the border control area there is a sport field. I'm in the audience looking at some people from the authoritarian country preparing for a running contest against a group of Tibetan buddhist monks.

DJ Log: March 28 2012 – 8:00PM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

I am standing in the kitchen of an unfamiliar house, trying to remember why I am there. I remember laying down to take a nap, but cannot recall why I am standing in the kitchen. Suddenly, I realize that I must be dreaming and become lucid. I look at the window and my first thought is that I want to jump out of the window and fly around. I run toward the window, then stop and decide to do a quick RC before I make a complete ass out of myself by slamming face first into the glass. I pinch my nose and I can still breathe with my nose pinched and my mouth shut.

I reach out and tap on the glass with my finger. The glass is quite solid and rattles a bit in the frame. I press my fingertips against the glass and it starts to give. The glass becomes stretchy and my fingers partially press through the glass, much like pressing fingers into a stretchy plastic bag. I can feel that it is cold on the other side of the window. I slightly release pressure on the window and the glass pushes my fingers out and returns to its normal shape. I take a few steps back and jump into the window. When I hit the glass, I bounce off and nearly fall on the floor.

Being determined to escape through the window, I slide the window open and try to climb out. The cords are broken on the sash weights so the window closes itself before I can climb out. Once again, I push the window up and try to climb out. Once I am hanging halfway out the window, I see a guy standing on the sidewalk, staring at me intently. I sit on the window sill and look up at the window. The paint is peeling off of the wood frame. I reach up and peel off a large piece of paint, then look back to see if that guy is still staring at me. He looks at me for a moment, then walks off. I jump out of the window and land on the ground outside. Suddenly, I wake up.

I at my house and my mom has friends over who are going to do a hiking trail up a mountain called the bump and grind. She tells me she is going to do it naked though. She offered me to go with her, but I don't know if I reject or I get uninvited. Either way, I went out side for some reason and i looked to the trail and saw them running naked. I quickly look away because I dont want anyone to think I am gross and perverted. She was only with a couple friends. I felt really gross though.

I'm under house arrest in a dormitory room. The lights are all off and I'm just sitting there. There is some kindof courtyard outside and a very large pool where other students are hanging out and swimming. Aaron from school is sitting on a couch near the door and I ask him if he wants any bologna. I am holding like a pound of balogna. He insults me and I apoligize, and say he didn't have to bitch me out. He says I deserved to get bitched out for offering him balogna like that. The owner of the dorm/house comes by for a visit. He is texan and wears a cowboy hat, and built the place himself. He pulls a gun on us, and I think that we are going to die. We eventually got into an elevator together and fought for the gun. It turns out that it was just a big prank, and I say "fcuk you!" very loudly a lot to the camera that I am somehow holding. I am outside now on a street that is sloping downwards with a large store to my left. I am wearing a top hat and some victorian era clothing like an old english gentleman. I start to skip along, and somebody behind me starts swearing at me and calls me some names. I'm afraid they'll jump me but I wake up.
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I tried to MILD but only remember a fragment of a dream where I was watching a terrying movie in my room alone in the dark.

Normal Dream
Lucid Dream

Night 20

Kind of a rough night, woke up a lot, so the dreams are not that long.

I. I was in my parents room again, just like in my previous LD, I did an RC and became lucid. I was looking at my hands again at how clear everything looks. I walk out into the hall where noticed the vividness was going away and I tried to make my dream more vivid, but then I woke up. I was disappointed, I thought I was going to have another good LD .

II. I had a dream about school where I was in gym class, but it was the gym from my elementary school. We were all doing laps when the bell rang and class was out, I remember I was with my friend J and we were walking down the hall talking. He ran into the restroom while I proceeded on. I went around the corner and looked down a long hall, I did not recognize this hall and I almost became lucid because of it, but I walked down it and it was a shortcut to the cafeteria. I walk in the cafeteria and I remember there were so many tables that it felt like a maze. That's all I remember.

III. I had another short dream where I was with my mom and we went over to J's house, his mom answered the door and we asked to speak with J and she said he was in his room. Dream fades.

What I lacked last night in lucids, I made up for in real life with some home-made soft goat cheese (I'll post pics in the food thread).


Anyhow, some fragments:

1. I heard a kitten cry and it was raining outside. It was a roughly 4 month old black kitten, with a collar and a tag, but the tag said "UPC" or "CBS" or some nonsense. I decided to keep him until I could find the owners. He was really sweet and cuddly to me, but an ornery little shit to everyone else.

2. Some folks went on a trek in the jungle to study bears. Everyone got to leave with their own baby black bear. I told the jungle trek leader that I felt this was a really bad idea. He said don't worry, about the time folks couldn't handle their bear, a helicopter would be sent for each one. I didn't think that was very funny at all.

3. A girl was being held captive by the French woman from LOST near that same jungle. Oh yeah, there was the same river in both dreams. Anyway, the girl had a key to her handcuffs hidden inside a half an avocado she was eating. She made it to the river and saw the french woman. It seems like the dream looped back to the one with the bears, but I'm not sure.


GREEN is supposed to be a new reality check for me, hence all the green bold words. Just FYI.

The bell went we had science first, I told poppy we had to go to miss hunters for science i told her this as we were going down the stairs even though she isnt even in my set. Then i teleported myself to miss hunters class-room and nobody was there so then i teleported to my real class-room and nobody was there either and then i teleported to my mate liam who was in the same set as me and he was in miss hunters and everybody was there then i asked him what he was doing there and he said he got moved up.

My mom has packed up her bags and she's putting them into an old, sleek pewter station wagon. I watch her back out of the driveway and I wave awkwardly, a signal she might have took to mean hold on, but she didn't stop. Then she is back in the house with me and I'm ask her where and why she's going. She said she won a trip to Cancun from Kal on the radio. I quickly look up Kal and the Cancun prize on the web and couldn't find anything.

Then the whole house turns into a large electronic palace with giant domed screens for walls. My computer becomes my control pad and I pick the scene for the house to bring alive. There's a scene with people breaking a bunch of ceramic dishes, there's a whirlpool scene. My mom has to run through all these tests which try to capture her but she always breaks free.

She tries explaining that she just needs to escape and she holds up a small, useless objects. She says I need to get away from shit like this - I think it's a plastic crawfish in her hand. I don't believe her excuse and say that's it's the responsibility she's running away from.

03.29.2012

Kaomea in White Dress? Short Pink Dress...Alyzarin? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Kaomea or Lady in White Dress?

I can't remember much about this dream other than the fact that I think I met Kaomea in a white dress (I'm not too sure if it was her or someone else, never saw her in a white dress in a dream, mostly red or some outfit with a red color). I was trying to fuse with her, and when we did, we would teleport somewhere I believe.

After this, there was this weird inter-dimension (like a medium to be between that had a really dark pink space time of background to it. There was this random floating surface that was light pink, and it was gridded, but I don't know the exact number of squares.

The whole perspective in this shift was me spectating and see things in third person perspective.

There were small little dream characters, and I believe I was on the square as well, and I was trying to avoid them because everyone can phase and fuse into each other if they stood on the same square, which would apparently let them have a shared dream.

I think I managed to avoid them, barely escaping other DCs. They didn't move as fast, but it was like playing a game of chess, one move I made, would initiate someone to move somewhere else to get closer to me or someone else.

I think somewhere in another dream shift, I met Spike from Cowboy Bebop as well.

(I think this was because I was playing Chess on the computer because I couldn't connect to the Internet late last night).

Dream 2: Short Pink Dress....Alyzarin?

I was sitting down near a table with a few people. I know there was at least one female, and maybe a friend of hers who was also a girl.

The first girl I mentioned, she was wearing one of these two variations:

1. A really short pink (slightly dark pink) skirt dress that had the length of going all the way down where it barely covered her private parts. She was probably wearing panties, but the skirt was so short that if one was going under her, they could see whatever it is there.

2. A really short skirt, with a pink blouse with thin straps for her arms to go through.

She was also wearing a long black rain jacket (the one with that velvet kind of feel to it).

She had black hair (with some shine to it, but that was probably the light bouncing off), it was short, maybe going all the way down to her chin or at least the bottom ends of her ears.

Her skin tone, she had a peach color or apricot color to it, but it was a little dark, just slightly.

She was talking to me about something, and things are first-person perspective for me when I'm listening to her talk.

Eventually, I stood up moved a little closer to her, and spread my arms out.

At first she's wondering what I'm doing, she's still sitting down, but she answers her own question and said something along the lines of,

"Oh, because I stopped doing.......(something)"

And she gets up and hugs me as well.

I think the only people I would think about hugging naturally like that would be Alyzarin, Kaomea, or even Melanieb (but I already know how Melanieb looks, and Kaomea as well, and they didn't fit the description of the girl I met).

Maybe it could've been Melanieb, since she does have black hair, but I doubt she has it short in waking life.

And it definitely couldn't have been Kaomea...maybe I met the blonde DC Alyzarin met that had black hair instead.

For a Reason I don’t remember I did a reality check, and noticed I could easily breathe through my pinched nose so I immediately became lucid. I did some short stuff in my house (secondary) and I was trying my voice out, it was strange and it did feel more like I was only thinking but after a short moment I already managed to be confident in my voice. I went outside and this time I really prepared for the WWS, it was night and I could see the stars. I focused and took my stance, slammed my palms together and screamed out: “World Severing Seal”, some 2 seconds nothing happened and then I saw something above the clouds and a huge mass of pillars started impacting the ground counterclockwise around me, and the ritual itself indeed made my mental state which was already pretty clear completely clear. They were I guess taller than 100m and mostly orange with a lot of complexions varying with each pillar, they must’ve been around 30.
Then I decided to call for my DG again, so I simply screamed: “DREAM GUIDE!” out into the night in a heaven’s piercing voice, and something happened immediately. What I actually just noticed afterwards is that the sky suddenly turned day bright and the scenery changed as well. What I noticed within the dream is that the earth was trembling for a moment and the one thing I was looking at was this yellow bunch of energy particles starting to accumulate, sounding and looking somewhat similar to the Ultima spell in FF8, I was really excited and a bit cautious about whatever I was looking at, but even through the excitement the lucidity remained perfectly intact. But as I got closer I noticed there were 2 spheres (the other was behind) and they seemed to be out of sync, not allowing whatever was going on to progress. I thought something of how the Rotation of the spheres was a problem and suddenly was emerged in fixing the problem, and I was watching something with a bunch of people, at first it had to do with the spheres and the rotation. From this point on I got distracted and my lucidity started to fade ever so slowly over time. The dream did progress like that for quite a few minutes, and then I was emerged in a really odd game were I had to flip this sensor probe in strange ways and I started to question the reason of that. Then the dream started to fade and the lingering spark of lucidity immediately catches up to it but too late, and that’s how I wake up. Still the moment I type this down I feel really great.

This dream was somewhat long enough to make me forget the first part before doing the RC and there’s a small gap and a few inconsistencies after the RC, like how I know I said something specific, but not what. I’m pretty sure I did the RC for a specific reason as well, unlike in most of my other dreams where I become lucid through an RC.

After over 25 lucid dreams I was questioning how long it would take to finally have my first lucid with a completely free mind and here it was, I even managed to stabilize enough to get excited without impacting my lucidity at all. Though I got distracted again in the end (which was what weakened my stabilization).





On a side note I also had a pretty lascivious dream right before falling back to sleep for the lucid one above.

Spoiler for Random Close Encounter(Strong Sexual Content):

The dream directly started with me having sex with this girl, she had somewhat darker skin but not going in the direction of brown but rather really slightly darker skin, going in the direction of black with a taint of green. The feeling was pretty intense and I actually came which made me wake up. But the way these dreams work neither my bed nor my paints had to suffer from stickiness.