non-lucid

DJ Log: February 2, 2012 – 11:15PM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

I am clicking around the 'net and almost fall asleep in my chair. I decide that I should hop in bed and take a quick nap. The time is ~9:45pm. I lay down and fall asleep very quickly.

I awaken from a minimalistic dream, standing in darkness. I realize that I had just awakened, but I must still have my eyes closed because I cannot see anything at all. Knowing this, I decide to make an attempt at DEILD. I concentrate on keeping my eyes closed and then I try to remember where I was just a moment ago. I remember that I was laying in my bed, trying to remember what the dream was about. I cannot recall even the smallest detail, other than I was just dreaming.

Suddenly, I make the realization that I am not laying in my bed, but I am standing. Before I can gather myself together and stabilize, I wake up.

I try hard to immediately settle down, but my eyes are wide open and I am too alert and excited to re-enter the dream state, much less return to sleep right away.

I am lying on the couch in the outside room, reading, when I hear my dad say something along the lines of "come eat, little rabbit." I become angry, as my pet dwarf rabbit passed away a few weeks ago and I assume my dad to be purposely trying to upset me. As I get up though, I see through the glass door a rabbit that resembles my deceased pet. I walk outside and see there are at least six tiny dwarf rabbits scurrying about the backyard. Half of them are white with brown spots, while the others have the grey fur that my pet had. I am overcome with joy as I realise that she must have bred with another rabbit and given birth before she died. I look around to see the rabbits nibbling on the grass, one is trying to dig a hole in the soil, and another one comes up to me. This one is a lot furrier than the rest, and I think to myself that it looks as though it has a fluffy hair-do.

I am not a lucid dreamer. Just a regular dreamer.

Last night I dreamt that something had given me the capacity to experience everything as perfect. So if I saw a book, the next time I opened it, every paragraph would be 100% perfect. Every moment could either be what it was, or perfect, which apparently wasn't that different to what it was before. However, there could only be one perfect. Only one way in which things could manifest as perfection. The passage of time meant that things still changed continuously, in a relative sense, in response to my curiosity. At first I was quite satisfied with this perfect version, finding it in every way superior to the old. After a while though, I sensed that perfection took ''me'' right out of the equation. It was perfect, but impersonal, and in that sense limiting. I woke up with the weird understanding that perfection somehow impeded creativity. It couldn't be both. It couldn't be both creative, and perfect.

There was a lot more to it, but I can't remember.

these too are also not very clear (one of them because i didn't want to think about it too much) and i forgot one entirely. was really bad at keeping track of the times in which these happened.

?am: my boyfriend and i go to some bar (i can't stand bars in real life). its small, quiet and dimly-lit, and not busy. one of the rooms here is special, it has a large couch, and there is a camera mounted to the ceiling to give a good view of the room. this is a room where people can go to have sleazy sex on camera because i suppose that kind of thing is thrilling. my boyfriend and i are in the main area talking to some people, and are seated next to a small b&w TV displaying the camera feed. two people we know go in, and as they begin to do it, we get kind of disgusted (they aren't very attractive and we don't really like them that much), so i turn a dial on the TV until the scene dissolves into indecipherable static, and we do something else for a while.

the girl, who is the sister of a friend of mine, comes out alone to join us. she is acting strangely, and my boyfriend asks her if everything is ok. she says that it isn't, and starts crying, and tells us that the guy she was with somehow threatened her and scared her into handing over a song that she had written, so that his band could play it and take credit for it. Phoenix was angry and went into the room to confront the guy and his band, which consisted of two other girls. but, due to Dream Logic, there wasn't anything he could do.

i realize that this isn't very nightmarish, but at the time when i woke up i was feeling very uncomfortable. looking back on it now though, it sounds silly.

?am: i'm walking along a heavily wooded path at night. its well-lit, but i can't tell from what. its fairly uneventful, until i hit a patch of complete blackness. for some reason this doesn't unnerve me and i keep going like its nothing. eventually i come into a lit clearing, the edges of which are pixelated. i realize now that i'm looking at a session of Furcadia when i see the dream portals uploaded by other users.

There was a cutscene with an elf getting a phone call about some stone that a monster found. He was to go fight him for it. I followed and watched their epic battle. *It was long and the elf turned out to be a wizard as well. Eventually the wizard died And I had to fight the monster.**I wasn't very powerful and kept running away from his attacks. Eventually I cast a killing curse that was considered cheating. It went to some weird cutscene where there was someone telling me I could do better. The battle reset.*

dreams were not as clear as the previous day's. also what is it with cartoon characters in my dreams??

6:50am: something to do with My Little Pony. the planet that the ponies lives on is shaped like a donut?? Twilight Sparkle travels to the hole in the world and jumps through in order to explore the other side of the planet. Princess Celestia flies after her in an attempt to stop her.

?am: i appeared at the very top floor of a skyscraper, which housed a high-end restaurant/bar. i was almost paralyzed with fear from the extreme height. Æon Flux (cartoon version) rode the elevator to meet me because i guess we were going on a date or something? she was wearing normal clothes and seemed to have planned this date to be here knowing that it would make me uncomfortable. i was getting dizzy from looking out the massive windows, which took up almost the entire wall, so i asked Æon to switch seats with me. after this i ordered absinthe and proceeded to get so drunk i fell asleep mid-date. when i awoke and remembered that i needed to pay, i realized that my wallet wasn't in my purse. Æon ended up paying for my drink before we left.

#1 - Fan Mail?

I don't really remember much about this dream, I just have what I wrote down. Unfortunately, I can remember the exact things that made me write this down, but nothing else about them. :T Oh well. What I wrote: "Taking a picture or video with a camera decides its fate. With K, Futurama game, we have fan mail?"

#2 - Jealous And Horny

My cousin A comes over and starts acting like she's a teen or at least around my age (she's at least like ten years older than me, don't remember the exact age) and looks like it too, and she starts complaining about some problem she's having to my parents. She starts talking like she's super close to them, which makes me kind of jealous for some reason. She even jumps on to the couch where they are and curls up in a ball next to them (in an overly comical way). They end up trying to talk her through it, and at this point my memory of the dream gets kind of hazy.... It picks up again later with my other cousins P and G and some guy who I can't remember now but I recall thinking I knew him at the time all leaving through the back door, with rain pouring really hard outside. At this point I just remember walking around my house feeling really horny.

Then the dream switched to a third-person perspective of watching Marshall and Lily (again from How I Met Your Mother, and this isn't even the first time I've had this third-person thing with the two of them, I watch this show too much lol) and they're about to have sex for the first time. (Good old horny subconscious. ) It doesn't actually match their first time from the show, though. They're in a truck doing it and just after they've started it switched to a view from outside the truck with a guy sitting not too far from it. The truck starts to move and then quickly starts bouncing extremely violently. Basically, imagine if the force behind it was like a gigantic fist repeatedly came out of the sky and smashed into in the ground. The guy that was sitting near the truck is startled and looks like he's afraid it's not going to hold. Marshall and Lily sound pretty happy inside, the whole world is practically shaking along with them.



I also had a false awakening that almost prevented me from remembering any of this, luckily I managed to get it back after focusing for a few minutes when I actually woke up.

#3 - Strange Crossover

All I remember about this one is that I was playing a game that was some kind of crossover between Mario and Pacman. Like, you were in some kind of tunnel with the dots and ghosts but also Mario enemies walking around, and you could actually switch between being Mario or Pacman at any given time. It was bizarre, but I remember it being fun. I kind of wish I actually had that game now.

I remember being in a class with twins that i knew really well, but I've never had a class with them. Our teacher was my old English teacher from Jr. high school, and he was explaining dreams to us. We were also building/fixing/repairing bowling balls. The class room looked like an old supermarket I went to with my mom back in my childhood. I remember the teacher was saying that "inception" was just a bunch of garbage. I started ignoring him because I had that "I already know this stuff" feeling about whatever he was prepared to say.

Also...I want to say I had a really intense dream before this....but I don't remember anything from it.

02.02.2012

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Supermarket

I was with a DC that looks like my mother, there is some kind of service at a Supermarket (probably Walmart) where if you ask the employee what you wanted, they would have it prepared for in a cart, and even take it outside for you all packed and ready instead of you actually searching for things inside the store.



An employee DC I believe said our groceries and other things we needed to buy were ready. We get out of the store, and the cart is on the right, but my mother is trying to look for it. She's acting like she has no brain, and I'm telling her to look over to my direction to see it.

I gave up on her because she just was standing there like an idiot. Then my father comes in a vehicle for us to put the groceries and other things and that's all I remember for that one.

Dream 2: Men take revenge on female DC by having sex

Some lady, who I could only see the back of her body, was allowing herself to have sex two times. I forgot what one DC wanted to have sex with her for, but I know the other one wanted to have sex for revenge.

I knew she was wearing a red bra, and I could only see the back of her hair.

Hey, everyone. No lucid dreams, but the show must go on!

First, I was at a party with my girlfriend. It looked like an apartment and it was crowded. There was a girl who wanted to kiss me and I was like "if I kiss her, it's fair, but you can't kiss anybody!", but my girlfriend seemed to want to kiss some people too, which really pissed me off (my girlfriend and I have broken up twice in real life, one time lasted about two or three days and the other one, a week. Both times, she's kissed many people - she even had sex with one - so I guess dream me wanted to get even? ). I think my cousin was there or I was talking to him on the phone/texting him. I definitely remember his presence somehow.

Since she was trying to kiss a guy, I left really upset. When I was outside, there was something weird going on, but I can't remember what it was. There might have been Transformers coming out of streets, but I don't know.

After that, I was at my cousin's, not the one from the party. I should probably mention that it's not the first time I've dreamt about that house, but it isn't real. Anyway, we were just hanging out, she was like "we can lock the gate later!", but... then some men entered the house, so we had to hide. Her room was an attic, but not just any attic. It was hidden and super extra secret. The problem was that we'd have to stay there for a very long time. The "bad men" had slaves or something and they decided to stay there, since the house was so big.

I left the attic on a food mission, there were two little boys inside the house and they might've seen me, but it was okay. Then, I was outside and the bad men were forcing their slaves to do something, I don't know what. I think they were just having fun messing with the poor guys. They noticed there could be someone there, and that's when I realised I was wearing an invisibility cloak (thanks, Harry Potter! ), so I was careful, cause I couldn't make any noise.

I think I've dreamt about something else, but I forgot now.

EDIT: I remembered what it was!!! I was talking to a friend of mine, he's Jewish, and he was telling me about some Jewish foods.

I was at what looked like a party. Up stairs was normal but down stairs wasn't. it was almost like my basement in real life but only half was. The other half had this portal that lead to this scary place that had this black purple person flying around. When I left the portal my sister was holding this black crystal. She said when she dropped it the monster would appear. She dropped it and the same black thing appeared but it was just standing there. I went up stairs and the dream almost shifted into a video game thing but i don't really remember. It did go back to the party and when it did I had what looked like a squirt gun. I told my sister(who was now with her friend Keri) to come back down stairs and i can summon a monster. We all went down stairs. I remember looking at my jigsaw mask that was stuck under a door int the basement. I then told them if I squirted the ground then sprayed what I squirted with water it would appear. I squirted what looked like clear syrup onto the ground. I then pulled out another gun and tried spraying water but fire came out. I stopped and my sister said the chips and dip are good. I ate a chip with dip and then tried another but through it at the wall. the last thing i remember is hearing my sister say " Oh you can eat dip".

All I can remember from my dream last night is going into a pet shop and buying two new pets. They weren't very friendly, in fact they were the complete polar opposites of our pets now..! (Really vicious at one another, and anyone else!!) The store owner gave them to me together in a giant tank. One was a rodent, the other was a bird..!

It was very odd.. I think I should be relieved I don't remember what else happened in this one..!

Grandma came over with my uncle and grandpa. Grandma hated me. I kept trying to talk to her but she wouldn't even look at me. I left to go to luke to get some acid. He was angry for some reason but we ended up trading shrooms for acid. We stapled them to prices of paper. I went home around dark and decided to pop one in to test the power. It had a metallic test and I knew I was in for a ride. I went outside with Kara and we swung on a tree. I went so high in the air that I scared myself but I was confident. I circled the air expertly around the tree. A jogger ran by and was amazed at my skill and so was I. I thought it was the acid that allowed me to do this. Kara tried too and couldnt replicate it. I *told her I took acid and she understood why. It was dark out and we planned on walking to a park. I was visualizing heavily. I knew my family was on a walk so we tried to avoid them. During the walk Kara had to poop so we stopped and waited. She was talking loud about drugs and I sushed her so my family wouldn't hear. My aunt was reminiscing about her old life and we tried to avoid her. Finally my family found us because Kara was too loud and we gave up. I was messed up and kinda showed it. My grandma was still ignoring me and I ignored her and made fun of her. She burst laughing.y uncle gave me a whip and we explored a jungle house. Sometimes animals would jump at me and I had to whip them away. I was good at the whip and swatted a monkey attacker and a few others. I was having a blast.*

My mom was thinking about moving to new York. She was going to stay at my grandmas place there and see if she liked it. If she did she would pack up and go. Kara too Had to go for some reason. I joking asked if she was gonna meet someone and she said that if it happened it happened. I was surprised by did not want to tell her not to because I thought she would do what she wanted anyway. I felt hurt though and didn't know what to say. I accepted and let it go. I was swimming with the always sunny hand in water full of cigaret buds. For Some reason they all liked it and swam. Kara got back and admitted to sleeping with someone. I lied and said I did too. The waitress covered for me as it it was her I slept with. Kara got jealous

Nightmare. I was eating with Kara at some messed up Chinese place. The walls were all white like a hospital and it was filled with Chinese people. I left to go to the bathroom. It was like a maze. There was blood splatters on the wall and I knew people were getting experimented on. I went the wrong way which led to an exit. The guy told me to leave but I wanted to get Kara. I ended up getting lost and running from different doctors who were trying to experiment on me. I kept walking in on mutated people who would grab at me and touch me. One of them got to me and started drilling me head. I got away and finally made it out. I was scared of everyone. My thumbs and a couple fingers were broken. I had a knife and killed a few of them on my way out. Some guy tried to help me but I told him to leave. I went to the ambulence and they were gonna take me to the hospital. It turned out to be the same place. I screamed and ran. It skipped to a scene where I was at a hospital and they had to fix my head. They took half my head and threw it into a firebug where steaming hot logs were running over my head. It was immensely painful and the first time didn't fix it. I had to do it again. I sen in again and just laid there accepting instead of screaming

I was in a store that was filled with random things. There was so much stuff that the shelves were overflowing. I was in a section of the store that had a bunch of glass/ceramic plates and bowls. I met up with my aunt and little cousin. My cousin got a nintendogs game, and she was excited to go home and play it. Then the dream skips and I'm at a volcano. It was more like a hot spring, though. The top of the volcano wasn't pointed, but it was flat and dipped inward creating a pool. My aunt and cousin were there as well as my mom and step dad. I had to dive under water and collect these red things that looked like those candies called red-hots. The color on the outside melted off when you touched it. When I was above the water again I realized that my cousin and aunt were gone, and only my mom and stepdad were still there. We went for a swim for a little, but the dream ended and I woke up.*

I was sitting on a couch with my mom. We were flipping through the TV channels to see if there was anything on that was worth watching. She put on Madoka Magica and was starting to watch it, but I told her to change it (I haven't seen it yet and didn't want to watch the dubbed version, and also I wasn't sure if it had any ecchi parts that my mom would find inappropriate). She tried to change the channel but there was a speaker on the floor that caught the signal and changed the sound to a new channel, but the video stayed the same.

Then I checked DV and saw that I had a PM. It was from someone I didn't recognize. I opened it up and it said "No gay testers."