non-lucid

So this was disturbing. It was a nightmare not in a fearful sense, but the contents of the dream caused me great discomfort, even upon waking.

I had a dream that for reasons unknown to me, I was supposed to move a dog and 2 cats from a cage they were in, to a blanket outside on the grass. It was horrific because they were sliced in half, yet still ALIVE AND BREATHING, their two halves only hanging on by their spine, which was not cut. So as I'm holding the cats i feel their two halves in various weights shifting up and down in my grasp but they're light so I kept them pretty steady. At one point when I returned for the dog, one of the cats got up and was trying to walk and his guts were slowly drooping out. The dog, being heavier was insanely disturbing and depressing to move because I couldn't seem to find a balance in his two halves, they just kept shifting up and down between my arms and his wiggling was not helping.

I wanted nothing more than to kill them to put them out of their misery, but I just couldn't sum up the ability to do it. I woke up feeling nauseous and with a greater sense and urge for living with a vegetarian or vegan diet. The dogs whimpers still haunt me.

Last night's dream was so weird. I remember I went to a meeting where I was being honored for something. Girls were screaming my name saying nice things to me about how they have always liked me and how I have always been the cutest boy and such. Later, girls began to hold up cards or something still giving me compliments.. don't remember too much of this dream and don't understand what is was about.
Anyways, non lucid

In this dream, I live in a small uphill village. It reminds me of some strange merge of a Swiss and Czech village. Swiss for the surrounding nature and Czech for the structure of the village and the type of architecture. There is a curvy road running up the village and old houses scattered around.
I know that there is some sort of voting taking place. I am not sure what for. I remember getting an information (I think on TV) said by a man, that "there are two parties competing for our votes - Christmas and Easter". I am laughing at this in my mind! :-D thinking 'what a nonsense' (strangely don't realise it is a dream!).
I am walking up the street, when I notice a girl and a guy. He is wearing green shirt and a green some other green top over that. I see them running across the street, running into a house and then out on the other side. I am standing dumbstruck there, trying to make some sense of it (yet no dreaming realization). I carry on walking up the hill. I get to a village train station. There are several lines. One train passes by fairly quickly.

Then I am still in the village. There is Dustin, the dog we used to have. Small, sand-like colour, really cute dog. I remember that he always runs away as soon as he is off the dog-lead. We are taking him for castration. I think it has something to do with it. We are coming from the vet-hospital. I am looking at the wound. It looks just like a small white spot.

January 31, 2011
NON-LD
Dream I; I am a secret agent and we are on a mission to save animals from the forest. There are Mankeys (Pokémon), trying to steal away some animals, so I go out and be brave. I hide the animals behind a tree stump and stand in front of it, looking at the Mankeys. “Hey there. What are you looking for?” I ask them, trying to get on their good side. “An animal about this big and this wide, it’s blue and small.” They reply. I shake my head and make a small, “Tsk tsk” noise. “I think they just got taken away to a zoo.” “Oh, okay. Thanks for your help.” They reply and walk back to their van.
Dream II; I smile and walk back to where I came from, looking at a street. The agent bus was there, so I got on it and looked at my friends. “I warded them off, I’ll try to catch up to them later.” I say, sitting on a small seat. A few minutes later, we can see a small town. “Hey, I think I see them!” I shouted. “Go get them!” Everybody cheered. I smiled and hopped off the bus, going toward the bus that had the Mankeys on it. The bus stopped and I climbed aboard, holding a small burr I picked up from the ground. “Hey! I think you dropped this a while ago.” I smile. They chatter in confusion. “You know, when you were looking for that animal? It’s a weapon that can be thrown and it sticks to the enemy.” They all nod and smile. “Thanks!” They respond. I get off the bus and walk back to my own bus.
We arrive at the town and I get off. All the kids from my school are there! I smile and look at all the buildings, looking around. I saw this guy named Richard; he was sitting on the roofs of people’s houses. I approached my friend and asked, “Why does that guy always sit on the roofs?” She responded, “I don’t know, he just does.” I shrugged and entered a building. I don’t know how I got up there, but I appeared sitting on the window sill outside. I stayed there and looked up at the sky. Richard appeared sitting next to me and he smiled. “You know, I was thinking about getting you two a birthday and Christmas present.” I didn’t say anything and stared into the sky. “I was going to get you fdklfjdhglkdjsair and pehgislfjbeng.”
[That’s what I heard him say, all gibberish to me. I woke up in the middle of the sentence, how rude am I? :-)]

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Did a few mantra's before I fell asleep last night. "I will lucid dream" and I actually managed to get one! LD's during the weekdays are very rare for me, and even though it was extremely short I'm still glad I had one.

22.20: Sleep

02.00: Fragment
*I'm watching two people having sex. The girl's ontop.

04.00: Cancerhospital MILD
I'm with my mom and my sister and we're walking through different doorways in a huge place. We're going to some hospital and after some time walking around we arrive at a ramp. At the top is the main entrance and we walk up to it. I remember meeting an old lady a while ago, some kind of relative. A couple of very old women greet my mom at the door. They smile at us and I can tell they've all got cancer. They're pale as ghosts and thin, with dark circles under their eyes.

Suddenly I get dizzy and head down the ramp again. "What's wrong Matteh?" my mom asks me, following. "I don't feel like being near death when your cat died just two days ago" I tell her. I can see clearly again and my mom heads back up. Suddenly my cellphone starts ringing and I pick up. It's my dad and he tells me I have to enter the hospital. I don't care what he says, and I give him a long "Nooooooooooo" in a calm tone until he hangs up. I check my phone and pocket it. I decide to do a RC to make sure I'm not dreaming.

My hands are very dark and I count six fingers. "Oh cool I'm dreaming" I think as I watch my hands for a while. My thumb goes completely black. I realise my vision isn't the best and that I need to increase the light. "Light! Light!" I yell and the whole world lits up. I'm glad it worked like a charm, but suddenly the whole world starts to crumble.

05.10: Fragment
*I'm sitting on a toilet and doing my business. I try to flush while sitting on it and suddenly water comes rushing through my legs. It's clogged and I desperately try to scoop the water up and funnel it into the drain on the floor with my feet while still on the toilet with my pants down.

05.10: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 7 hours

Supplements before bed: 2 x Omega-3

That's it! I'm hoping for another LD tonight, will ingest some B6 so I'll atleast have some long and vivid dreams.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

- Real life and comments.
- Non-Lucid Dreams
- Lucid Dreams
* Special feelings and other things *

Crazy method for go to the disco

I don't know why, but in the most of my dreams, all the people are friends, or people of the RL ( Real Life).

I was in a room with a lot of friends, and all we were going to the disco, then, I didn't know why, but people went to a rural house and we were in a muddy courtyard ( te rear part of the house ), queuing in front of a bodyguard for buy the tickets.
Suddenly, I appeared in an other queue, with all my friends, outside of a very modern local. A handsome girl of my high school put her arm around my neck and said me with a seductive voice:

- You've got girl for the disco - she winked smiling.

In this moment, I was feeling so good, in love.

Then I remember myself inside the disco. It was a modern site, with neocontemporary architecture (this style: Arquitectura neocontemporanea ) with a big pool in the center, and sexy gogos dancing with very little clothing (hell yeah!).

In this moment, I wake up and i did the semi-WBTB ( because i continue with the dream, but whitout being LD ).

I started to search my sweet girl, but I don't remember anything more...

Showing the town of my grandparents to a friend (frag)

*This dream was before the disco dream*


I was with a friend showing the town, it was night, and some beautiful girls greeted us. (yup, i feel pro º,..,º ).
Suddenly, i was in the house of my grandparents with some oncles and aunts, showed me their new pet. They said that it was a dog, but i saw a mouses, and then , the whole floor was full of mouses. But everyone thank that they were dogs! LOL

I am on a bus heading down a street. Everyone on the bus has the magical power to turn into sharks. We do this by diving into the street and become shark shaped shadows that can swim along the pavement. We are heading to face off against the evil sharks. We see a bunch of them heading towards us. We jump out the windows to go battle the enemy sharks. I didnt jump out the window because I was afraid to. After the fighting ended I jumped out and joined my comrades. We start walking down the street and we see some more enemies walking towards us. We dive into shark mode and battle. I go along with them and fight some sharks. Our side wins and we keep waking. We come to a Culdesac of sorts with parks on both sides. There is a swarm of enemies hanging around the Culdesac so we dive into shark mode and go to battle. I am about to jump up and attack one of them when I realize it is my sister. I swim around horrified as I realized they are all girls I know. I cannot kill them! I swim into their camp and I see one running towards our camp. I bite her neck and kill her. I feel absolutly horrified with myself. The dream fades out.

2-1-11: I was walking and I saw a giant hill of couch cushions for some reason so I decided to climb them, and when I got closer to the top it got narrower and narrower, like a pyramid, then one tier from the top a couple of cushions started to fall and I almost fell with them, but kept my grip and I got to the top and became lucid. I remembered what I wanted to do, (Destroy a city) but I wanted to try something out on a smaller scale. I looked at a cushion and used telekinesis on it and it started to levitate, satisfied I glided off and headed for a building. I found one and walked inside. There was a corridor and a man standing at the end and he was apparently teaching a class. The corridor was about 15-20 feet wide and the man was in another room, the doors were glass. Lining the hallway were computers and people were sitting at them and typing. I walked past and opened the doors.
“What are you doing here?” The man asked
I chuckled evilly. “I want to destroy a city and you’ll be the first person I kill!”
He laughed and a blast of air hit me and I flew back into the doors and they shattered. I stood up and glared at him. A staff appeared in my hand and I pointed the tip at him and shot a fireball out of it. He flew back and hit the wall and slumped to the floor and he didn’t get back up. I made my staff disappear and I tried to create fire in the palm of my hand. Nothing happened and I decided to put some energy into it. I did, but I didn’t get the desired effect, instead flames came from my fingertips, like a miniature flamethrower. I thought it was pretty cool and lost lucidity. The rest is a blur from there. I remember pieces and parts, like going across a rusty bridge and shopping at a hardware store.

I am in a building that is laid out pretty much the same as my high school music wing.
According to the dream however, it was Millersville. It was an indoor practice and we had
just gotten a break so we left the room we were practicing in which was for some reason
the choir / orchestra room of my high school. I'm doing something with my friend Sarah,
from college, but I don't remember. I see another one of my friends in the hallway outside
my high school's band room, still supposedly Millersville University, and he shows me these
playstation controllers and we play a game where we have to use something on the controller
to pick the buttons out of the opponent's controller and the person who loses all his buttons
first loses... It was strange but then we started playing and at closer look the L and R buttons
turned out to be razor heads. I said "This probably isn't a very good idea." but kept playing
anyway. I was winning by far, I guess I was good at it. Each time I beat him, I would take the
controller he had and throw it into a pile and he would grab another. Eventually I had exhausted
all of the controllers and won by far. I then went to the window on the door of the band room
and see the orchestra practicing. I wonder why they are rehearsing in the band room and walk
away from the door and the dream ends.

01/31/2011
Dream One (a)
"Extinction-Level Event"

(This was the most horrifying, emotional set of dreams I have had in a while...)

The Earth had been invaded.
High above what could have been every major city in the world, as far as I knew, massive alien spacecrafts hovered. They had come on the scene and looked down upon us, over the span of about 3 days. We never once got to see what these aliens looked like. Instead, they communicated with us telepathically, without ever having to leave their vessels. At first, they didn't say much. I really don't remember if they said anything at all, the first few days. They just kind of loomed over our heads, apparently observing us. Their intentions, at this point, were completely unclear.

Life somewhat continued, even with the presence of our 'visitors,' looming overhead. One day, I had made a few rounds to see some old friends. I know I saw quite a few of my people, but the only ones that really stood out were my baby's mom (who I'll call "G"), and an old "friend with benefits." There was another ex who I believe I might have seen as well, but I'm not exactly sure. Anyway, at one point, G and girl #2 sort of merged and became one person, with different attributes from both (and, of course, I didn't find this strange enough to become lucid ). We went to a fast-food restaurant and either the person on the drive-thru headset couldn't hear me, or there was some other reason why the girl(s) ended up having to go inside through a back door, while I pulled the car around front. Later that night, we were back at an apartment that we were apparently sharing, except I had my own room, and she had one. Despite the knowledge that there were enormous, city-sized space-ships hovering high over our heads, it seemed like a pretty normal night. She ended up going to sleep early, and it wasn't until well into the night that I remembered she had the bag of food with her, and it was now locked away in her room. I didn't feel like waking her up to get it, though, and just shrugged it off. The next morning, she was simply back to G's normal self. All resemblance of the other girl had vanished. It was on the third day (I believe) of their occupation, that the aliens finally decided to give us some insight. Not bothering to pay us any door-to-door visits, the beings simply beamed their thoughts into our heads. We were informed, rather matter-of-factly, that our entire species was about to be exterminated, and that, since they had took up positions that would allow their weapons to sweep over the entire planet, any attempts of escape were completely unnecessary. Armageddon was upon us, and there was nothing we could do about it.

Panic. It barely even had enough time to set in, before the bombing began. Thunderous booms shook our apartment, each one seeming as if were right outside our window. I was absolutely terrified - not so much of death, itself, but the thought of suffering until death. G was, surprisingly, not very affected by the situation. She seemed 100% sure that we were not going to suffer; that it would be quick, painless and peaceful. The chorus of explosions - stomping around the area outside - didn't instill the same sort of confidence within me. With my eyes wide with fear, and my voice the epitome of hysteria, I screamed at her the possibility of our building collapsing, and the two of us being caught in the rubble for God knows how long, our bodies broken, buried, and left to die, waiting for hope that would never come. Amazingly, she responded with a scoff. "Pfft. That only happens in movies," she said. I was floored, immediately switching from frightened to furious that she would just dismiss such a likely scenario. I said "what are you talking about?! Being get trapped in collapsed buildings all the time!! Don't you watch the news?!" My tirade was cut short by a few more deafening blasts, even closer than the previous ones. The entire building shook, and I was actually thrown off of my feet. This one apparently rattled G as well, because we both grabbed each other and huddled together on the bed - our heads ducking in unison; hearts jumping out of our chests with each successive bang from outside.

I was a complete wreck. I don't know that I've ever been so scared. Unable to control my fear, I burst into tears, absolutely terrified of the horrible death that would soon be coming for us. But, once again, G remained rather stoic. She held me close, cradling my head to her, and actually began singing to me to console me! (It was just the most incredible situation, seeing as how I'm usually the one with my head screwed on during stressful times.) Suddenly, there was one final BOOM, right on top of us, and everything went black. (The whole thing reminded me of the final scene in Cloverfield.)

In the 3 or 4 seconds of darkness, I received a message. I can't recall if I saw it in my field of vision, or if it was just telepathic. The message was just kind of 'there.' The message was "You and your daughter..." and that was it. I have absolutely no idea what it was supposed to mean, or where it came from. (Oddly enough, my daughter never made an appearance in the dream.)


Dream One (b) (FA)
I suddenly 'awoke' on the same bed, eyes full of tears. I looked around the room, which seemed completely undisturbed, and found G sitting on the floor. There were pizza boxes stacked on some of the furniture, and G looked as if we'd just been lounging around the house, shooting the shit all day. Sitting up with a start, I frantically asked her about the aliens, and why the bombing would have just suddenly stopped. She looked at me like she didn't have any clue what the fuck I was talking about. My mind raced. I was thinking that there was just no way I could have imagined all of that. With an extreme sense of urgency, I asked her to tell me what the date was. She didn't know it, so I asked her what day of the week it was, and she said Tuesday. Tuesday, I remembered, was the day that the aliens had actually showed up. I had been transported back to Tuesday...but there were no aliens this time! The only thing I could keep asking myself was 'How is this possible??'

G looked over at the window, a bright light flooding into the room. Passively, she said "that's really pretty," and I was immediately alarmed. I looked out the window, myself, expecting to seeing the bright, swelling light of a nuclear explosion, ready to brace for yet another inevitable shock wave. However, there was no explosion. It was just the sun, rising into the sky, at the beginning of this new day. There really were no aliens, this time. I wasn't able to believe - for one minute - that what I had experienced was a dream. Instead, I figured that I was somehow given another chance at life. I had somehow been transported back to that Tuesday, but without the threat of attack. The human race was no longer in danger of being exterminated. Relief doesn't even begin to describe how I felt. I was practically shaking. The emotions flooded back into me, and I began to cry softly. My eyes remind dry, but if the tears had come, they would have been tears of joy for simply being alive.

(When I woke up from this dream, I felt like I had a hole in my chest. I was completely emotionally drained, and I just sat and stared at the floor for a good five minutes. There is really nothing like honestly believing you are about to die, and then suddenly waking up, safe and sound in your bed. I was numb for a good portion of the day, after coming back from this insane trip.)

Another one of those nights, apparently. I dreamed about everything from the Dukes of Hazzard to Star Trek to being chased by lions. Much of it seems to be jumbled up in trying to remember it though.

Big City Dukes

We are watching the Dukes of Hazzard. The Duke boys are in a big city somewhere, out in front of a high rise hotel. I explain to the people watching it with me "this must be an episode where they go to the big city."

Roscoe appears high up on a balcony watching them. He is about to arrest them for something or other. But Luke has the great idea of convincing him that there is a criminal in the swimming pool. He writes the name of the criminal on the edge of the pool. It starts with a "W" but the rest of it is a bit hard to read. Roscoe leans over to read it, and of course falls into the swimming pool. Bo and Luke take off running.

Meanwhile, Roscoe is clinging to the edge of the pool. "I can't swim!" he gasps, trying to keep his grip. Still, he inches his way along the edge trying to read the name that Luke wrote. Fortunately for him, somebody shows up in time to help him out of the pool to safety...

...We are walking in the big city (the whole Dukes thing seems to be over). We come to a castle. Or rather, it used to be a castle, but is now just integrated into the city. There is a row of shops in what used to be the keep, and the area surrounded by the moat is now sort of a downtown area. In order to get to this part, we have to climb down into a ramp that goes beneath the level of the rest of the town. It is a steep slope and I have a difficulty getting down in.

Lions

(Maybe this is still part of the dream above. I don't know.) I need to get somewhere. In order to get there I have to cross a plain, much like a veldt in Africa. I see a large animal in the bushes near me that looks like a lion. I think to myself that it can't be a lion, since this is the US. It must be a large dog.

The lion gets up from behind the bush, and starts to walk towards me. Yep, it's a lion allright. I walk quickly towards a steep ridge of some kind. I dash up the hill, and jump down the other side, safe from the lion. But there's another lion on this side! It starts towards me, and then runs into a clear plastic wall. I now see that the lions are kept in these plastic compounds. They look like they are running free, but they really aren't.

Star Trek Dream

(I seem to be unable to remember the first part of this dream at the moment.) I go downstairs to follow him [Picard, maybe? I don't quite remember.] He jumps through a portal at the bottom of the steps. I try to follow, but can't get the portal to work. It's the shape I don't understand. It appears to be made of a metal of some kind, that you have to bend into an opening and set in the right spot for it to work. Because he was a shapeshifter [?] I can't see it quite right. I bend it into what it looked like to me, which was twisted metal of some kind.

He shows up again, and explains the trick. I look at the twisted metal in my hand and laugh. Then he takes it, presses a button or a switch in the chimney, and a hole opens up. He bends the metal to match the hole and jumps through.

I am standing in the room, having just seem "him" vanish again. I get a wand of some sort. With this I can make lights go out. I have a bunch of stuff that I have collected. It is sort of like a computer game. I click on things that I have that have light. The lights dim. But they keep coming back before I can extinguish all of the light. I wonder what will happen when I do?

Deanna Troi is watching me, and Tasha Yar is sitting on the couch behind me. I sit down next to her and put my arm around her. She seems to be unhappy, and I try to make her feel better. We both have something in common apparently. "We both know what it's like to be tortured," I say.

I leave the building, because my parents are there to pick me up. At the same time, we are returning because I forgot something or they wanted me to check and make sure the doors are locked (or something). I go back in, and want to go back to the living room where Tasha is. I don't know if she is still there or not.

School work/restaraunt

I am sitting in class. It is a class I am taking for fun, so the school work doesn't matter so much to me. Still, when it comes time to copy weird phrases (like "Take Oyster Sea" and a picture of a buoy) I am a little concerned because I didn't copy it into my notebook. Instead, when the passed the sheet around with the phrases, I simply wrote another phrase after the one at the top. I thought this is what you were supposed to do, but I was wrong. When the sheet comes back to me I hurry to copy the phrases into my notebook. While I am doing this, a pretty girl in front of me starts complaining about her throat.

"It's so dry, and I feel pretty bad," she says. "I have this cough, too."

"That's what you said last week," the teacher says disapprovingly.

"I know," she says. "It seems to happen whenever I am in this class."

"Maybe you hate being here," the teacher says, getting angry now. "If you don't like this class, then stop pretending to be sick and drop it. I'm tired of you coming in here acting so sick every single day!"

All this time I have been trying to concentrate on copying the weird phrases (which I can't read). Now I lift my head up.

"It could be allergies," I say, "especially if you get it every time you are in this classroom."

I contemplate buying out the other shares and owning the restaurant myself. (What, did I miss something? How did we get here? I don't know) I ask my boss what he would sell the business for. I know he wants to "get out from under it". He says he'll sell it for $500,000. I wonder if it would be a good investment. People buy semi-trucks as an investment. I think about that while I root around under the kitchen sink. "I'm paying for a truck driving education" says a future trucker, "it's an investment."

01/29/2011
"Reptiloid"

I remember that there was a lot that went on, early in this dream, but the first thing I actually recall is being at a park with some friends. There was a small pond nearby, and a friend and I were playing some kind of ball game near it. We had some awareness that there were gators in the water but, before then, we hadn't really paid any heed to it. Then, we noticed some small animal - a duck or something - making is way toward the shore. Before it could make it, though, a couple of gators splashed into view and violently attacked the animal, tearing it to shreds. Then, they turned toward us...exposed snouts slowly floating in our direction. Not quite sure what to do, we waited for a moment, seeing the gators crawl up onto the embankment, stalking our way. We then took off, running back toward our group. Knowing full well that alligators aren't the fastest creatures on land, we never could have been prepared for what happened next. The gators actually extended their - once short and stubby - legs, sprinting after us like greyhounds, on thick, muscular, canine-esque legs.

There was no way we were going to out-run them, and things looked even worse, when another two gators shot out from behind a jungle gym, far off to one side of us. They were closing in just as fast, and we were running out of places to go. We'd made it to the picnic table where the rest of our friends were sitting. Seeing us approach, with these mutated reptiles on our heels, the group immediately stood up. I took running leap and jumped up on top of the table, everyone else doing the same. We were now surrounded, these beasts trying ferociously to climb up onto the table, snapping their razor-sharp jaws at us, only to be kicked or beaten back with anything we could use as weapons. What's even more strange about these creatures were that they were coated with what, at first, looked like slime. But, after the gators were out of the water for a certain length of time, they actually began to melt, sizzling down to steaming piles of this sort of seaweed green goo. The creature were coated in some sort of organic corrosive liquid, like acid. I screamed out to everyone not to touch them, and that all we had to do with hold them off until they all either retreated or melted under their own secretions.

I don't remember whether or not we all got away, though.



01/30/2011
Fragment
(I completely forgot a lucid, last night. I hate when that happens. )
The only thing I remember is something about having to run through a deadly network of traps, like in the new Predators movie. Later, I had become lucid. I remember showing off a couple of lucid tricks, such as walking across a pool of water, and sinking my arm into a wall. When I walked across the water, I found it kind of hard to keep myself levitating, and one of my feet actually dunked completely under, leaving my shoe feeling soggy and wet.

That's right people, I can finally remember my dream again! Sorry if I sound overexcited, it's just that my recall was on a low a few days. But here it is, it's only some fragments, but it's something:

I had a spider, as a pet, but not just a spider, a spider the size of a small cat. I remember that I let it sit on my shoulder sometimes. At some point in the dream the spider caught a mouse/little bird (not sure). I remember some fear at that point and someone telling me that the way the spider caught the bird/mouse was unusual. I also remember it running away into some sort of a lawn at some point. Also something with a house where I was going to live, it really was a small house (kinda like a bungalow I once went... really the bungalow of YOUR NIGHTMARES! <forget that, I'm strange) and that I was afraid there were spider in it (how ironic). And something like a class I was late for.

At morning, sorta weird semi-lucid moment (I always seem to have lucid/semi-lucid moments in the morning):
I was picking clothes for school, though 'this COULD be a dream and woke up (mom banging on door, I'm a serious night-owl), then woke up in the waking world (that was a False Awakening)

Dream Signs: A spider the size of a small cat, I was a couple years older probably (not sure)

01/23/2011
"Financial Aid"

I was friends with LS, and back in my old neighborhood. Her little brother was there. Apparently, they were getting money from a sick family member or something, and there was another character who was stealing the money right from under them. I don't exactly remember the details, but I somehow ended up helping this person double-cross them. (The Matrix movie was looping, while I slept. After this dream, I woke up right at Cypher's double-cross. Seeing as how screwing LS over like that is something I never would have done in waking life, I'm wondering if being so in-tuned with the movie is what created this scenario, in the dream.) I was with the main villain as he was talking to the liaison, trying to get the money. I actually wasn't supposed to be there, but the liaison had shown up unexpectedly. I couldn't get out of sight fast enough to go unnoticed, so I pretended to just be a friend of the family, who was simply visiting; feigning sleep while the two talked. LS came home, just as the deliverer was leaving, and saw me laying there. Before she was able to ask too many questions, the crook, apparently someone she trusted to handle things, ushered her out.

The next day came. LS and her brother were really sad. Not having really thought about my actions as being "all that bad," I listened to her tell me about how her and her brother were really struggling - that there was no one to help them out, and the money she was supposed to be getting for support had been stolen. It was only then that it actually hit me. What had I done? This girl was my friend, and obviously in trouble, and I had just helped someone steal from her. The realization hit me in the chest, as if I'd been completely oblivious to what was going on, before that moment. Above all else, I knew I had to come clean, and confess to what I had done. I brought LS and her brother outside my house, and they took a seat in the grass. Reluctantly, I laid it all out for them, letting them know of my involvement, and about how I had no idea how bad they were hurting for money. Having to verbalize my actions, I was just as surprised with myself as I knew she had to be, and I wanted nothing more than for her to forgive me. She didn't. In fact, she hated me for it. She got up and screamed at me, telling me about how much they'd lost - not just from the money that was skimmed, but because of how much more they were going to lose, because of bills that wouldn't get paid and whatnot. She thought that I was just using the money to blow, but that wasn't the case. I had been struggling myself, and was skimming money to help pay for my essentials. Had I have known what I was doing to them, there is no way I would have gone through with it. She wasn't hearing it, though. I could only watch as she stormed off, refusing to talk to me. Her little brother slowly got up, staring at me as he followed her, muttering a sarcastic "thanks a lot," under his breath.

I pleaded with LS to hear me out, and told her that I didn't really understand the gravity of what I was doing. I tried to rationalize to her, why I had needed the money, as if it were any excuse. They completely ignored me, though, and simply walked away.

As if on cue, I woke up...feeling like the scum of the Earth...

Blue=Lucid Red=Non-lucid Black=Awake

Dream log day 3:

So yeah, apparently melatonin and vitamin b6 aren't necessarily a great combo for achieving lucidity, or sleep. Once again, I only slept for about 2 hours last night, but this is mostly because I think I have a sleeping disorder, I'm getting checked about it soon.

Anyways, my dreams were actually quite boring last night and didn't last to long, I never left my apartment in my dream! I can't remember exactly where it started and the whole thing is kind of in fragments but I'll put them in what I think is a chronological order (I wont be doing any dream topography since the whole dream occurred in my apartment),

I'm in my room, and my computer that I usually have on my table is mounted on the door of my closet (which faces me). I seem to be able to access the computer telepathically since I never seem to use a mouse or keyboard.

I'm looking through iTunes for some reason (I have a mac) and I find a section where it shows me all of my videos in my youtube subscription box(which I find a bit odd at first but take at face value).

When I try to access a video I find myself outside of my room where the dining table and second computer are.

The same interface that I was on on the computer in my room is on the computer outside too. I start a video (made by sxephil) and she first thing I see is Phillip de Franco saying:

"Hey look a hot chick(a picture of a hot chick appears on screen)"

He goes on about the hot chick for a while and then moves on to the "science" segment. I can't remember exactly what he said, only that science had once again confirmed something that people already knew (like for instance, "Blow jobs may lead to sex!"). At the end of the video Phil goes to bed and faps to the picture of the girl in the beginning of the video, while so in the background you can hear on the radio:

"In other news, scientists are saying that cancer indeed still a "thing"."

I find this fragment funny because this is what my subconscious sees as every single sxephil video ever made.

Afterward I go to the kitchen, on my way there I look into the living room (where we keep the tv) and see that the same interface on the two computers is there too. But once again, I didn't seem to be phased by it.

In the kitchen for some strange reason I wanted to strain a glass of milk before I drank it, but the second glass I poured the milk into through the stainer had holes in it, so the milk just spilled all over the place.

I quickly cleaned it up with a paper towel. After that I decided to strain a glass of juice for me instead (it had pulp in it) and I just drank it down.

I went back to the computer outside and looked at another one of phials videos, this one being a bit odd. When the video starts it takes up my whole vision as if I'm there and I become "immersed" in the story.

At the beginning phil accidentally kill his roommate by throwing a dodge ball at his face (just roll with it) and instead of saying what really happened in the 911 call he instead claims that he died of a heart attack (just roll with it).

"Okay." She says.

And then just hangs up the phone. Afterwards she says to the camera,

"Yeah, I'm gonna call the police."

Afterwards instead of sending the police over she meets up with Phil in a city. When they first meet Phill doesn't seem to pleased.

"I know you're a mole for the police," He says. "and that's not cool."

"I know that your a liar!" She hisses back at him.

For a while the exchange the word bullshit pretty angrily.

"Oh yeah?" She yells. "Well you're not even human!"

Suddenly, sxephil is a lizard and there both standing in the dessert. What. The. Fuck.

"Did that really just happen?" I think to myself. Suddenly I'm de-immersed from the story and find myself back in my room, even though when the video started I was at the computer in the dining area. No only that, now my computer is back on the table and not on the closet door, and now I'm using the keyboard and mouse again (which by the way is really hard to use in a dream).

My dad walks in and I immediately minimize the window with DV and youtube on it(I was supposed to be doing work on my essay),

"What window is that?" He asks me, even though I minimized it before he walked in.

My DC (yes I'll be using this term now) dad acts much more like my real dad in this dream. Instead of being understanding, interested, and supportive of me and my new found agenda he strikes it down with an iron fist.

I quickly reopen and close the window I minimized and erase my history of DV and youtube.

My DC dad may just be a figment of my imagination but he's not an idiot. He immediately realizes what I did and tells me he's going to cut off my internet.

Shortly after my alarm clock goes off and I wake up. I wake up at exactly 5:30 a.m., 1st of February.

Well once again this was a complete failure, lucidity wise and overall dream wise, but then again I first tried obtaining lucidity 2 days ago, I don't expect instant results. I almost lost my dream recall too. I'll be trying a different reality check this time, one I do every time I walk through a door, the "Still being able to breathe while you pinch your nose" one, and really begin to question my reality and weather I'm dreaming or not.

Edit: I think I woke up with a bloody nose today. When I woke up there was definitely something coming out of my nose but at the time I thought it was just mucus. Later in the day, I found what looked like blood encrusted on my finger nail. I wonder if that means anything. Anyway, no more melatonin+b6 for me anymore.

Well wish me luck.

P.s. There are probably spelling errors in this cause I wrote it at six in the morning, but whatever.