non-lucid

12/22/11

NON-LUCID

Dream 1:

This dream was a bit weird, it was me in an office, it was pretty dark. And I think I’m with one of the characters named Hiei from Yu Yu Hakusho. I can’t recall much of what I did in this dream other than annoying Hiei a little bit, but he wasn’t pissed (thank god he wasn’t) at the things I did to him.




I opened a door and was wondering how I could balance a sign. Some DC that I can’t remember told me I can just level it against the wall, and I was like “Ah okay!” with a tone of relief, because it was really annoying trying to align the sign to make it stay steady.

I can’t remember anything else from that dream.


Dream 2:

I believe I’m in a school gym, and I’m near the exit that is a double door. I believe I’m in Thornton Middle School’s big gym or maybe I was in Morton Ranch High School’s gym (but the gym was on the right side in waking life instead of the left side in the dream).



Some guy was talking about how 158 copies of what looked like a racing car game (probably for the PS3 or XBOX 360 since he was opening an empty case of it I think) was stolen last night in a store.




Someone asked him why, and he said “The Patriots.” Then I realized he had to be talking about Metal Gear Solid 4 (because I was watching a few “Let’s Play MGS4” walkthroughs about a few hours before I slept).




The same guy who was talking about the stolen videogames had a PSP in his hands and was playing some random game while sitting down in the altering gym. A teacher was going to come in, so I wanted to tell him that they’re near and he should turn it off, but he didn’t mind and even turned up the volume a little bit.



I think also in this dream before it turned into a classroom, I see two familiar DCs that look like a guy I knew in my English Pre-AP class I had as a freshmen in Cypress Springs High School. Let’s call him Carlos. The other DC was a girl I had for my US History Dual Credit Course, and her name was Andrea I believe. I was talking to them about the incident, and I said that a guy named Carlos told me about it, and the guy who IS Carlos was like “Yeah.” (I didn’t realize I was talking to Carlos when I was mentioning Carlos knew about it at the time).

Then the gym turns into a classroom, and there ceramic looking desks with a shine to them and had seats attached. I see two familiar DCs. The desks were set up by having 4 people together, it they would basically form a square.



The first DC I noticed was my friend named Alyssa in waking life. She was sitting down on what appeared to be two seats stacked together. So I figured I should ask her if she could get up so I can give her the other chair on top, and she said “Sure!” with a smile on her face.

Then I realized there was already a chair for her, so before I sat on it, I saw some papers on the floor. I picked them up and one had the name of “Elsie” on top. Then I realized the DC that was diagonal to the right of me in the 4-people seating style of the classroom, and I give the paper to her.



She looks at it as if she’s surprised, but then she sees her name and she’s like “Oh, okay thank you” in a rushed tone, as if she was too shy to make eye contact with me.

(In waking life, she looked as if she was afraid to look at me directly…I would catch her looking at me at times, and she would quickly look the other way. I didn’t find that weird, it’s just something I see with a lot of girls, but I never really took it as a compliment for me being “eye-candy” to them).

(She didn't have her hand over her face like in the pic below, it's just that she turned quickly as if she was shy...which she was in waking life)


Then I give a random paper to Alyssa to the right of me and she said “Thank you!” I believe, and I gave the other paper in my hand to the last DC sitting in front of me (she was diagonal to the left of Alyssa).

She said “Thank You” as well. Then the whole class had to get up to go somewhere, and when we got out, I was bit conscious on whether or not my pants would be wet “down there.”

(I sweat a lot near my crotch, so I get a bit worried when I get up sometimes because I don’t want people seeing a small wet patch on my pants when I get up. But then again, you really have to look to see it, so I guess only people who have nothing to do but stare “earnestly” at my behind could see it).

We were walking in a line, and it seemed that before we left the door, we left the gym. So basically the classroom changes back to the gym whenever we got out. I’m walking sideways because I’m worried about the wet crotch on pants thing, then I gave up and just walked like normal.



Then it turns into a race where I’m running pretty fast with a few DCs ahead of me. I dash forward to pass one DC and three were remaining. I dash past the other one and two more remaining.

I thought I was going to be in the lead, until I realize the two DCs were running up the stairs and then headed straight. So I assumed I had to go up the stairs, but I felt I could just run straight.




This is what slowed me down, but I was still skipping many steps at once so it wasn’t a big deal. Then when I go straight, I see another set of stairs, and I hold on to the railing on the side, and take a HUGE LEAP down.
Nothing bad happened to me, and then I see a row of random DCs, so I assume it was the bell ringing for students to go to class.



I quickly dodge them before they went up the stairs and I see an old man sleeping in a dark gray sofa chair (the ones where you can pull the bottom front and you can rest your feet on it).



After a while, my clarity starts to get fuzzy, so I think I’m done with the race for now. I talk to the two random DCs who were in the lead what are we going to do next.

One DC said that we have to go to “Floor 7” to meet someone. I was wondering who, but he said females. I turn back to talk to the other DC, but he looked like some kind of mini-yeti. Kind of like the one from Twilight Princess, but it did had a combination that looked like it had the head of the huge mammal named Appa I think from Avatar that Aang used to ride.





I wasn’t spooked out by this and simply looked at it as another person and it said we’re going to meet someone. I didn’t know who they meant.

I woke up, and then I realized that these DCs where probably going to help me get to my dream guide.

Dream ends

I awoke in my old house I haven't seen in 15 or so years. My parents received a fluffy creature. It looked like a mouse but much cuter and it had a personality much different than a normal mouse. I felt a bond to this creature and I was set out to protect it.

We played together and I watched him run around enjoying his life to the fullest. Then suddenly he flips over and starts shaking uncontrollably. I feel sad and helpless as I know I can't help him.

He then flips back over and seems like he's normal again. I then realize there are random pills all over the floor, under the couches, tables, and small places where the mouse could go and I couldn't. I knew the mouse would again encounter another pill and perhaps die if he eats it again. This also worried me and I tried to tell my parents the concern but they didn't seem to care as much as I did.

I then followed the mouse to the back laundry room. I encountered 2 massive badgers. At this point they were just crawling around very close to the mouse. I hit one of the badgers with a broom so he would pay attention to me and not the mouse.

The mouse than ran into the living room away from the badgers and I too ran away. The door was left open and the badgers came closer to us. I told my family we have badgers and they look angry.

The closer they got to us the more they turned into larger/walking badgers. Once they got next to use they were human sized and could talk. I remember feeling vulnerable and having to act like I wasn't scared so they wouldn't eat me.

There was more after that but I don't recall the rest.

Dream:

I was a passanger in a car driving down the freeway. I suddenly saw two little girls (ages about 5 and 4) in the road walking right to where out car would be passing in seconds. They were so close when we passed I couldn't tell if we hit them or not. We pulled over. I looked back and saw a man standing over two little bodies at the side of the road. I ran back. I was horrified.

But when I got to them the little girls were sitting up and appeared to be alright. They had been knocked down, but not directly hit. I suddenly recognized the girls. I said" I know you. I taught you in preschool last year.....or was that two years ago? Remember me?" Neither girl seemed to remember. But then I realized that they were so young. Of course they wouldn't remember something that happened two years ago.

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was going somewhere, possibly on a long trip somewhere where I wouldn't be able to get anything new to read. So I either had to take one book with me or read one book really quickly before I left.

I was in a living room which was filled with natural light. I was looking at a shelf-like niche that ran across a white wall. The wall served as a bookshelf, and the bookshelf was mostly full.

I felt an urge to look to the left end of the bookshelf, almost as if a voice were calling me to do so. The voice may have been speaking about psychic phenomena. I think the voice was low and a bit gravelly, but gentle and intelligent sounding.

I saw a book that was much bigger than all the other books. All the other books were small and black, almost like binder-shaped date books. This book was tall, hardcover, with a red, cloth cover. There was gold lettering along the spine, giving the book's title, which probably had the work "Psychic" in it.

I opened the book. The man's voice was, I think, now talking about either the Book of Revelations or the end times. I thought that the book I opened must have been the Bible, and that I must have been reading a passage from the Book of Revelations.

But when I looked closer at the words, I realized I was actually reading the text from a Christian book called Renewing Your Mind, by a pastor named Marilyn Hickey. (IWL this was an important book for my family when I was a young boy.)

Dream #2

Possibly down in the canyon of a United States National Park. Probably in the parking lot for the visitor's center at the park.

I stood outside my mom's car. My mom was dropping me off here. I was going to be here for a long time. I was possibly going to work and live here.

I saw all this as if from outside my body and up in the air, at least three meters up in the air, and at varying lengths from my body -- between three meters away and fifty meters away, at the other end of the parking lot.

I remember being at some some mall type area with a bunch of girls. We were deciding between going bowling and something else. We all went into the bowling area, and everyone stood around...just looking like they were indecisive. I didn't care, and eventually all the seats there were taken. The majority of the group broke of, and I headed to the parking lot.

I ended up inside some flooded dam with some dude talking to me about some special weed that grows near a river. He was smoking a blunt and paddling in the water.

Then that girl and I were pushing these desk/chairs around through grass

I'm standing in the bathroom, looking into the mirror. I think I've just finished brushing my teeth, I notice a weird sensation coming from my teeth and when i check in the mirror i see a giant whole in one of my canines. This freaks me out a lot and upon closer inspection i see one of my teeth is MUCH bigger than the rest, its huge. This is weird, really weird.

Of course! Im dreaming! I think about doing a couple of RC's but I'm so sure its just not necessary. So i think to myself "what the hell, im dreaming...." i poke at the giant tooth and it seems pretty loose, so i grab it and gently pull it out. I giggle to myself.

I walk down the stairs and out into my garden and begin to shout for Misslucy. I keep shouting and a girl appears, i run over to introduce myself. This girl says she is misslucy so i ask her about the pm she sent me but she had no clue about it. "your not misslucy are you..." i say. She answers "nope."
Im confused as thats never happened to me before. I think to myself "i wonder if matte could help me out..... THATS IT, ill summon him"

"MATTE!...... MATTE87!?" i shout, i turn around and see matte bounding towards me with a grin on his face "cool, you summoned me man, thats awesome!" I make a joke about how tall he is and keep repeating something like "omg this is so cool, feels too real" and he just agrees with me. "Remember to stabilise man" Matte tells me so i begin rubbing my hands together and smelling the air.
I finally calm down and ask him to start helping me summon misslucy, so we both begin to walk around my garden shouting for her. After about 2 or 3 minutes i finally get an answer "um.... Yes?"
Matte shouts and points "over there man!" - we both run over to her and talk to her for a few mins, although i cant remember what about, but she seems really shy and like she wants to get away. So i tell her ill find her again next time i LD, she smiles at me and turns to leave.

I walk up towards the house and start chatting with matte again, i hear a shout and someone is stood on the roof of my house looking angry at me, he throws some sort of grenade type object at me so i put my hand up in front of me and stop it mid-air using TK, i throw the grenade to one side and send lightning right at his face, he screams and keels over, hands clutching his head.
I hear shouts from behind me, matte is in front of me and grinning at what i just did, he sees the bad guys but jumps and disappears into the sky. For a second i panic, thinking hes left me on my own. I turn around to see where the shouting came from and as i turn i see a blur shoot down from the sky and crash into all 4 of the people standing there, there is a lot of smoke and i cant see, i wait a few seconds for it to pass and it reveals matte, standing there laughing inside a pretty big crater....
"quit laughing man you ruined my garden!" i shout at him, he just laughs harder.


I wake up into a FA pretty suddenly.... I'm on a sofa and Keirnan and Darvz are with me (these are my RL friends that i usually talk about LDing with) "whoa i just woke up from a REALLY long lucid dream"
they both laugh at me and tell me i was out for a while, but they want to hear about it, so i tell them.
Darvz tells me how cool that sounds but they gotta go so i wave them off. I'm about to try to sleep again so i can have round 2 but there is a knock on the door so i answer it.
Its soph with some guy named kyle. She wants to hang out, i say fine so we are sat on the sofa talking for a while then kyle says he has to go to the shop for something so he'll see us in an hour.

I wake up for real.

Fragment
I was reading Bionicle Comics. It may have been hypnagogic but I just remember sitting there watching the pages go by.

Dream 1
I was with my friend,I'm guessing we were in the future as the school we were in was weird looking. It's hard to explain but there were stairs leading to the roof where me and my mate fought as a joke. One of the teachers saw us fighting and sent us to detention.

We walked down the stairs and to a small room that we had to sign in to.

I remember orange lights being all around the building and roof, I also remember one of my old teachers being there.

Dream 2
I was in my bedroom, yet it looked like a garage filled with instruments I picked up a bass guitar and started playing. There was also a laptop with iTunes on it, I browsed the library of music.

A girl from my college was there too. I went to bed but realised that she couldn't sleep anywhere because there were no rooms left. I thought to myself "Usually she's in there"(my sister's room) I should've noticed this was a dream.

21/12/11
Cannot recall anything, 1 WBTB attempt (1 point)

22/12/11

1 WBTB attempt (1 point)

I was in what appeared to be the turret of a castle, climing the spiral staircase higher and higher until I reached one of the arrow slits with a small area to stand below it. I stopped here and looked out, I can't remember what I saw but then somebody shouted up the stairs and came after me. I tried to run but my legs froze up and I couldn't move. This woman who looked to be in her 40's emerged at the top of the staircase where I was. "We can't have you telling people about this" she sneered. Then the woman grabbed me by the arm and forced me up the rest of the stairs, we arrived in a small circular room. There were chains everywhere and what appeared to be blood stains on some of the walls. I could see what was coming, anybody who walked in here could easily tell that it was a torture chamber. I had to get out, I had to find a way! The woman left no loopholes or gaps where I could run away and she chained me up so that I was suspended by my hands, dangling in the air. She turned around and I could hear her opening a box of some kind, when she turned back around the woman was holding small black box about the size of your average box of matches. It had two metal prongs on the end of it making the object instantly recognisable as a taser or electricution device of some sort. She looked at me grinning like some drugged scientist before sticking the two prongs under my shirt and into my stomach. The pain was intense as the high voltage electricity pulsed through my body. I was squirming and thrashing about madly, trying to lose contact between the prongs and me. I was seeing this in 3rd person view and as the view zoomed out back through the door I could see her electricuting me again and again. Even though in third person I could still feel the pain, I'm surprised it didnt wake me up.
Then I appeared in a corridor with white walls and a disgusting brown carpet. Up ahead the was a 90 degree corner to the left, I turned it to find myself in a room with one long table in the middle. Behind one side of the table was a glass wall, and behind that; nothingness. I looked but there was just a grey smokey mist. Around the table were all my old friends from school having lunch so I went and sat next to one of my closest friends E.G and she asked where I'd been. I was about to say but then I remembered the torture I went through just minutes ago, so I said I was busy. Then everybody finished lunch, got up and started to move around. In all the confusion I bumped into someone (A.W another person from my school) He took it the wrong way and started having a go at me. It looked like he was going to lash out at me but then my friends appeared at my side telling him to back off.
The dream ended here. (Full dream- 1 point)

The torture was terrible, it was so intense it even shows up in my sleep graph

Oh well I'm not going to give up!

1) I am still in school, panicking about a 3D model I had due and hadn't done yet. Go to a math class and forget the homework. Luckily, I realize that I am currently on break from school, but I don't make the step to lucidity... Sad.

2) I am in my sister's room, and people are attacking my house. I somehow know that they are in the walls, and am semi-lucid. I (somehow) use telekinesis as some sort of x-ray, highlighting people's silhouette with a light green color. Controlling the vision with my left hand, I use my right to fire a blast of small beads of energy, blasting holes in the wall like a shotgun.

3) My roommate and I are in our dorm room, back from christmas break. I ask him how his holidays were, and we chat for a bit.

4) This image. I saw this in waking life on a cardboard box today, and it triggered a vague memory of me seeing it earlier, in my dreams. Deja vu...


5) I was LUCID, and in an office setting. And that's all I remember at this point. Maybe writing dreams more than 12 hours after you wake up is a bad idea...

6) I remember having my fedora, and being LUCID. Trying to program it with thoughts so it would function as I want it to, as an infinite storage space. It was like teaching a dog a trick. I put something in it but it didn't go off to the pocket dimension, so I tried again till it worked.

7) Burn Notice like dream. I was the spy, replaying (I had a feeling I was retracing what had happened before, or that this was a story that had been told before) a certain scene. It was in the ocean, myself being on a small boat. Unfortunately, this boat was heading down an intake into a water purification plant, that frothed as the machine sucked it in. I abandoned ship before I was pulled into it, only to end up in a similar predicament. I had to take a leap of faith and swim down into a submerged tunnel and trust I didn't drown before getting to air... Nope! Not doing that. I went up onto the land the tunnel burrowed into, and made my way onto a massive, floating, metallic structure. Maybe a fort or base? Not entirely sure. I jumped off the structure, only to realize how tall it was... Hundreds of feet above the water, I maneuvered myself in the air to avoid hitting a large fishing boat.

Well, I'd like to say that my dreams are usually really elaborate, vivid, and random... so this dream is fairly ordinary compared.
I've already started a dream journal about a month ago, but I figured I should just start with last night's:
I dreamt that I was a drug dealer. My friends Amanda and her friend, Nikki and I were snorting these pills on my kitchen counter. We were suddenly also passing around a joint. My old teacher Mrs. Hinkle appeared and was sniffing the air, telling us that she could smell it and she was about to search us. Nikki was holding it and suddenly shoves it into my pocket. I ended up hiding it... But I was infuriated!
Amanda, Nikki and I were suddenly in a grocery store walking around the isles. I ended up telling Nikki off (which I dont exactly like the girl in real life which was empowering)
Also: in another dream, I found all of this long lost kandi (bracelets that I trade a raves) and this kid stole it and lost all of it! I ended up beating the hell out of him (which btw, I've never gotten into a fight.)
...I tend to fight people in dreams however. And it's amazing! Ever since I've learned about Lucid dreaming, had 2, and found out that in order to stop nightmares, all you have to do is confront the dream charactor... my dreams have become incredibly empowering. I've began actually defeating all my foes. It's awesome
anywho, I shall have more interesting reads as time goes on I promise

Monday, Dec.19, 2011

DR at 7am.
I'm talking to two girls, we are in US. One of them is going home, but wants to return here. So I start explaining to her in detail, how to get visa and how to proceed (the info I gave her is exactly right IWL).
- Someone has a store. I'm in it, but I have nothing to do with the store. In walks some kind of a law enforcement person. The other person in the store tells me to identify myself to the officer. I get really mad and I tell her, that we are not in some police state (and I name couple of countries), where people are afraid of police, like in the country I grew up in. I proceed to say, that if the officer want's me show some ID, she can ask me herself.

Tuesday, Dec.20, 2011
I'm somewhere with someone in building with windows on the left side (looks like building of a bank in NZ).
I did remember more, but didn't right it down in time.

I bought a new indigo Gamecube as a gift for someone, and put it in a plastic bag. When I gave it to her in my living room (I think it was that girl Lexi off twitter I've never spoken to again) she was obviously disappointed, and I was trying to tell her why it was a good gift. Later, my friend K was playing Majora's Mask. I've never played it, but I've watched a couple short videos of it, and it was nothing like it's really like. Everything was very beige and dirty and the main character was some guy, the style reminded me of Amnesia. I was watching her play through it and it terrified me, I had to cover my eyes a lot, it was really unnecessarily violent and scary. Then someone said I had to play through it again from the beginning. I really didn't want to play it, but I had to for some reason. In one of the first scenes, there was a witch or something on this kinda platform with stairs and possibly a cauldron. You had to talk to her, and she would tell you to do something, but you weren't able to do it, so she would blast you. In a textbox at the bottom it said, "Your knees have been destroyed!" and there were big bloody holes where the main character's knees had been, which really disturbed me. Then they were healed by someone else, and you had to make some kind of choice, but that's as far as I got.

This was an odd little dream I had last night. First let me tell you some of the "cast", if you will. All of the DCs in this dream are people I know in real life. Mr.C was my math teacher last year and Vic is my best friend.
We were all in Mr.C's room. I can't remember a lot of it, but I do know this one little excerpt of a conversation. Vic` was wearing headphones and he is the first one I remember speaking.

"Sometimes, I listen to two scary songs at once to find hidden things in them." he said

Mr.C replied "I've never done that, but," he continued while raising a worksheet, "I do like to find hidden things in puzzles."

And from there, all I draw is a blank.

Um...I blame this dream on reading Oneironaut's dream journal before bed...

There were some DV members in this dream, but I am just going to leave it vague.

It was the next semester at college, and I decided to be proactive this semester and join a club. The club was stationed in our dormitory, and it met nearly everyday in a dark office room.

Everything was fine at first. The club was just a meeting place for people with similar interests.

Over time, the club began to centralize its power until it developed, basically, into a cult.

The cult was headed by a man, who was often influenced by another woman in the club.

She reminded me of Bellatrix.

The cult took a dark turn for the worse when the woman announced that it had always been her fantasy to kill a person, and then dissect them.

Thus, the cult rapidly evolved into a murder-cult.

Everyday, the ring leader would order the members, who were lower in power, to find a victim. They would lure the victim into our dark, stone room, where the ringleader would then usually slit his or her throat.

After killing the victim, they would set his or her body on the table and cut apart the innards.

When they were finished, they ordered their members to dispose of the corpse in the abandoned highschool down the street.

A few of us realized that this is NOT the club that we had signed up for!

One of the girls decided to stand up against the members who were abusing their power. She told them off and said that she was not only leaving this group, but calling the cops.

The next day, when we came to the club/cult meeting, we found her corpse on the table. It had been made known to us that if anyone dare leave this cult or step out of line, this would be the result.

The situation kept getting darker and darker. The ringleader had suspicions that people were on to us. They would give us strange looks.

One gloomy evening, when the ring leader and several of his followers were in engaging in the mutilation of their most recent victim, I was finding myself barely able to take this anymore. I knew that there had been a silent resistance forming, but all of us seemed powerless against them.

I knew that any minute, I was about to stand up and scream at the top of my lungs. There was a fire growing inside me.

I was merely seconds from telling them off when a student walked in the door, which the ringleaders had forgotten to lock.

"Oh, wrong classroom," he muttered at first. But when his eyes caught sight of the mutilated corpse on the table he took a few steps back and ran out of the room.

"Make it look like nothing happened here!" The ringleader ordered, suddenly. But everyone was too paralyzed to do anything about the situation. The members who had little power, but were involved in the group enough to struggle for more power, were the only ones who had decided to actually follow the orders of the ringleader. They disposed of the body and cleaned up the crime scene before the cops arrived.

I decided, from that day on, that I was done with clubs. Never again.

I went back to my dorm, realizing that I would probably need therapy for the rest of my life to get over that. Rumors were already spreading all over the school about a cult that would kill and mutilate people.

My room mate caught wind that I had been involved in this cult and pushed me down the stairs while yelling about how wrong it is to kill twenty-two people. I wanted to tell her that I had nothing to do with the slaying of these people, but I knew that that statement was false. If I could have worked up the courage to alert the authorities even after the first slaying, twenty-one people could still be alive.

I was already hearing about the arrests of the ringleader and his closest followers, and I knew that they were coming for me too.

I looked out my dorm window, and wished that a blue-purple feather would fall down from the sky, and I wished that I could sprout beautiful blue-purple wings and just fly away...

12/21/11

Afternoon Nap

NON-LUCID

Dream 1:

I think I was inside a ship, like in Titanic. The ship was close to destruction, there was water gushing out in small holes on the ship. I couldn’t get good clarity of this, but for some reason, I needed to set something on fire to escape the ship.



There were people that were one floor above me, and everyone is rushing and panicking.

Then it hit me. As soon as I set the lit match, or whatever it was in my hand, There was this small line of fire manifesting itself from bottom to the top level of the bridge.

I saw people dying, I saw their pains turn into nothingness, I could see their innocence degrade as the flames continued to augment. Then I saw a familiar face.



Out of all the DCs, I paid attention to her the most. She was stuck, she was burning too. All I could do was watch. I loved this girl in waking life, and all I could do is watch her burn!

I turned around and had to escape, because I would join the rest of them quickly if I didn’t. While the water washed away people who had bonds, families, friends, etc., I was worried about how I reacted towards this girl.

It felt as if I had an obsession with her. I felt sad but mad at the same time. I felt so selfish, and realized that this girl is just someone I wanted to like, someone I was too quick to love in waking life.

When I boarded onto a safe area, which was a pretty weird installment inside of a bridge, it basically was some kind of missile that did an auto-launch so that if the operator wasn’t there, it could still save whoever was inside of it.

That’s all I remember in the first dream. I realized this same girl I was worried about being burned to death was still alive in the next dream.

Dream 2:

It’s as if I’m watching a film over the same girl I liked in waking life. Let’s call her “IH.”

“IH” was in a bikini outfit. She looked cute in it, no, she was beautiful. The environment was a small beach, kind of like the section from Super Mario Sunshine in Delfino Plaza, but it wasn’t a cartoon theme, it was like a real life replica of it in a way.



She was running inside the water, and she was fairly tall. After running around, she gets back on land and starts skating I think. There is a light blue sign that she turned to and jumped back to the water to start surfing.

I was wondering how she could surf when there were no waves, but I didn’t care. I saw her full body, and it was so natural. I focused more on her than on the actual environment after I saw she did the same thing over and over again.


I woke up, and I felt horrible. I almost cried. Maybe my subconscious is teaching me how to love someone again. Not sexual love, just loving someone for the internal beating of their heart.

My legs are still shaking from this.