non-lucid

DJ Log: September 12, 2011 – 7:45AM (USA Eastern)
· NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I'm standing in a large luxurious house, talking to with a guy and his wife about what they want to do with their yacht. He's telling me about how they're tired of owning it and don't want to pay the docking fees anymore. The lady asks me if I want it. I say, "Yes." She hands me the keys and title, then offers to take me to Baltimore to see it. I hop in the car with them.

On the ride, I'm digging through the package of information and paperwork for it. There are a couple of small DIY electronic project kits in the box of paperwork. In an envelope, I find the title for the yacht. As I am riding, the woman says, "Keep the furniture and everything that's in it. We don't want any of it." ...I wake up...

DJ Log: September 12, 2011 – 5:00AM (USA Eastern)
· NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I am walking around at a gay pride event. Sometimes, I'm gliding along the ground instead of walking. I'm following a secondary line of people through a building, parallel to the main crowd, then out onto the street. Once outside, I stop and talk to a couple of people who are hanging out near a dumpster.

We were walking around a place that I knew from my memories. My 8th grade retreat. Of course, nothing looked the same, but I still seemed to remember it all. She gave me a yearbook that she had just whisked up out of thin air. I looked through it and remembered all the great times I never really had. We went to go sit down on a hillside that was basically just dirt. As we sat there, admiring the view, we talked about our memories and eventually got to the topic of how much we missed each other. I got close to her, wrapped my arms around her waist while she laid back on my chest...when suddenly two women passed by. They screamed her name, “R____!” with a hint of anger in their voice. We turned our heads towards them. She whispered the words “oh shit.”. She sat up straight and asked what they wanted. They told her to come down and they needed to ask her something...as soon as she was close to them, one of them looked at me and mouthed the words, “stay away from her” in a way of trying to give me advice. But something struck me...stay away? How could I stay away? ….stay away from someone so close to me? Stay away from someone who means the world to me? Stay away from someone who understands me the most? From someone whom I would like to stay with for the rest of my life?...stay away from someone that I love so much, its indescribable?.....impossible. Never.
I got up and made my way after her down the hill. They finished talking and we walked back to school, which was apparently close by. As we passed by H building I saw a good friend of mine, G_____. I talked with him and messed around but then I noticed something. She left and vanished somewhere. The bell rang and I walked to my 4th period, she wasn't there. After class was over, I called her and asked her where she was. She said to me in a panting voice “walking to school, why??” I yelled in shock “walking to school?!? what the fuck! You were right next to me!” with that she seemed to have no answer and hung up the phone. I was very angry.
I walked towards my locker and I happened to see her chatting with other people and I pulled her aside. For some reason everything that I said earlier went out the window and I poured out all my feelings for her. Yet she already knows about my feelings...but I guess not quite enough. As I pulled her aside, I grew a sincere face and said the words “I love you R____.” she agreed back and said the same thing. I explained to her how much she meant to me and that I don't want to be “just” friends. I wanted us to be more than that. I said “this is to the point where I can't just tell you how much I love you, I want to be able to show my affection...I want to be able to hold your hands like this(as if you were playing a game of mercy)...I want to be able to hold you against me and place a kiss on your lips” with that we stared into each others eyes, wanting to do just that. But something was holding us back...somehow, someway, we overcame it, and I quickly yet gracefully placed a kiss on her lips and didn't move. The feelings all sparked up and flew into the air like fireworks and burst into the letters H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S...I woke up from all the excitement, and yet became disappointed....I'll never know her response.

I wasn't really able to write these down until now, I just had lots of things to do.
I have noticed that my dream recall has been acting a bit weird over the past few days.
I just seem to remember a ton of dreams, though most of them are very vague and fragmented.
My dreams don't seem to be more vivid or any longer though, so I'm not really sure if it's "better".
Nevertheless it feels weird remembering like ~10 different fragments a day.
These are a few interesting ones.



Totm Attempt #1: Butterfly
I WILD during an afternoon nap, trying to complete the Totm.
I'm quite confident that I'll manage to succeed on the first try.

My dream starts on "the beach".
For some reason some of my WILD's randomly seem to start out on this beach.
It always looks the same, and it is always dusk.
I remember the Totm and approach the water in order to walk on it.
This is going to be easy I have done this many times before.

But as I approach the beach I suddenly spot a butterfly.
It is extremely colorful, with very colorful and vivid patterns on its wings.
It's emitting glowing particles.
I follow it, intrigued as to where it is going and completely forget about the Totm.


Totm Attempt #2:
I have another dream of being lost in an unknown hotel.
I become lucid and remember the Totm.
The dream is unstable and I'm not thinking very clearly.
Instead of stabilizing, I start running around aimlessly, attempting to find a water surface.
The dream quickly fades to black and ends.


The hibiscus girl:
I had another dream about the hibiscus girl: Another mysterious woman / Emotional and sensory overload - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views
Unfortunately my recall of it is quite bad.

This time we are on the surface of another planet.
She has a red hibiscus attached to her left ear, looking very similar to the one drawn on her bikini last time.
We're having a discussion, I demand to know who she is.
She refuses to tell me though.
It seems clear by now that she is reading my DJ, I'm considering that she might be a DV member.
I make the comment that she has an "unfair advantage" over me, because she's able to read my DJ, yet I know nothing about her.

But she keeps denying my requests, and says that she likes being in control.
I remember that last time she was able to drag me to another place by simply looking into my eyes.
I attempt to do the same thing to her, and manage to drag her to the beach.

This surprises her quite a bit, but it also seems to amuse her.
I say that I never stated that I write everything down in my online DJ, she might be in for a few surprises.
She makes a comment that makes me believe that this is some sort of game to her.
I somehow understand this reasoning though and begin to share it.


Totm Attempt #3:
I decide to attempt the Totm yet again. I'm determined to complete both tasks.
I do it during an afternoon nap yet again since I had some success last time, except that I got distracted.

Surprisingly, I enter the dream on the beach yet again.
This time I decide to stabilize the dream though, and calm my mind.
I rub my hands and slowly approach the sea.
I feel the sand beneath my toes. It's still moderately warm.

For some reason I'm a bit nervous as I start walking on the water surface.
Oddly enough I seem to be afraid to fail, even though I've done it many times before.
Fortunately, it works flawlessly.
I walk on the water, deeper into the sea with my arms stretched out for additional balance.

Alright, so far so good, controlling elements is next.
I look at my right hand and make it catch on fire.
This is quite straightforwards as I have manipulated fire many times before.
But what other element could I possibly manipulate?
Water...? No. That's probably too hard.

I create an arc of lightning between two of my fingers.
I think that I have completed the Totm for a moment, but then realize that lighting isn't exactly one of the 4 elements.
What were the other ones again?
Fire, Water... Earth? I wouldn't know what to do with earth...
Wind it is.

I compress some of the air around me into my right fist and release it forwards.
This creates a shock and air is propelled forwards.
The pressure upsets the water surface.

I'm not really satisfied with the result though.
I do the same thing again, this time compressing much more air.
This time it creates a small tornado, that runs flat over the water surface.
It lifts some of it up and sprays it all over the place.

I'm quite satisfied, and happy that I managed to complete both tasks within a single dream.
I decide to dive into the sea to see if I'll find something interesting, but it doesn't take long until I wake up.


Destiny:
After a long time, I've started having dream fragments of "Destiny" yet again: Recurring dream about a spaceship mission to find extraterrestrial life. - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views
None of them drove "the plot" forward though.
I was always on board the Destiny completing a random task.
My memories of the dream fragments are quite vague.

I was at some area that looked like my old high school, and someone was coming to get D, J, and I. We all split up, running our separate directions. I want to say what or whoever was chasing us, was closer to me, like any other chase dream, but something happened. Suddenly I had the cape from Super Mario World.



I didn't have a single thought being captured after sprinted, and went air born. I was up in the air about fifty feet, looking down at everything. Slowly I glided back down to the ground, and decided to try it again. I took a few steps and moon jumped into the air, and grabbed on to the corners of my cape. I pointed myself towards the ground, and took a nose dive at the earth. Just at the last second, I leveled out, and my cape was full wind. It threw me back up higher than I had originally started. I even thought about how different this version of flying was compared to my normal lucids, but I don't think I was lucid...I was just enjoying things. I took another nose dive at the ground, and tried to smash it, but I woke up before impact.

I’m on a train, but it’s the outside of a freight train. Either I had this dream another night, or I had it earlier this night. There were others with me on the outside, incl. (I think) Homer and Marge Simpson. We’re just powering through country in a wide, gravelled, multi-track rail path. At one point, Homer jumps off and into a bin (green recycle, and the lid closes on him). I tell Marge to do the same.
I make my way along the train to the front – the engine seemed to be at the back. I don’t remember feeling wind, or fear for that matter. As I get there, someone cries “look out” and a brace myself for another tunnel (from earlier in the dream?). Actually it’s a very small looking station, and we stop at it. I remember seeing the orange, hanging board (what for?) past the traffic lights and trying not to hit it when we stop.



As I get off the train, I fall and get entwined with a black/yellow striped pole. I don’t know where it came from or what it was for. Someone I knew helped me out of it. As I was leaving the platform, I saw an old friend cross in front of the entrance in official rail uniform. I saw another old friend and female looking down the tunnel so I veered off right. Ticket office? I may have asked where the toilet was, then went to the right passageway, maybe to the toilet. I came back and Lily (from HIMYM) was at another counter sorting out ‘papers’ for this other girl e.g. Passport, driver’s license, ID. I went somewhere and come out on the roof where she was standing, facing away from me.



She was maybe wearing a fishing hat and some form of baggy dark trousers. Over them she had some sort of green and yellow baggy short shorts and her top was possibly one of those tank tops with straps. The view looked Tuscan, or Renaissance, partly reminiscent of Dubrovnik, but with towers and such. She turned round and maybe smiled at me. Not sure when, but probably at office with Lily: There was a flash when I said something about her dancing. It was all blue and monochrome – high angle, tight cropping – she may have been wearing aviators, and she was dancing. Then cut back to the rest of the dream, whatever it was.

First dream:
I'm in an enclosure of wooden buildings, they feel like restaurants but no one is eating. Everyone around me is wearing wristbands. The song "Mary Jane's Last Dance" is playing in the background. The part of the song that goes "Oh, my my, oh, hell yes/Honey, put on that party dress" loops a couple times.

I woke up, which was good since I was trying to MILD, and wrote down my dream. I lay back down and entered sleep paralysis, but when the dream started to fade in around me I got scared and woke myself up! I'm so mad!!! I was so close! Oh well.

Second dream:
I'm moving in to my suite, but when I go to the office to get the key, CSC tells me they lost it. I'm really upset, and we ride somewhere on the cart. There's another person there but I don't know who. I lift up a cloth and look under a chair and find the key. I start to move into my suite, but the building is very different in my dream. The outside is a bathroom, and there are towels folded for us.

Third dream: M is talking to N about a couple articles in Hi-Fructose. He keeps talking to her, and their laughing together about whatever they are talking about. I feel really jealous, and he puts his hand on her harm. (It's funny because that has actually happened, minus the Hi-Fructose) I try and talk to him about it but he gets upset.

Fourth dream: Me and M in bed. Yes! Not surprising. Great dream. I woke up pretty randy, haha. Only weird part is that during there was almost like a digital screen in the bottom left corner of my vision, with different icons I could choose. I know I have to pick one, and go through all of them. I think they represented Hi-Fructose pictures, but that might be one dream bleeding over into the next.

Thebeastofold's Dream


Fragment - Moms clothes int eh refridgerator?


only a fragment...i walked out of my room and went intothe kitchen and opened the fridge..i found one of my moms suit jackets and slacks and blouse from many many years ago hanging in the fridge... they fell as soon as i opened the door..i had a feeling she was getting ready for work and put them in there to cool them off....um..ok.... so i picked them up and went to her room but she was in the shower...so i went back to the fridge... and found a hangar in there this time and hung everything back up....woke up...


did a WBTB....


dream #2 at a friends house...

I arrived at a friends house, even though ive never seen this guy in my life...i still thougth he was a friend, anyway, i went in and sat on a couch, he went out tothe garage and came inwith an electric keyboard(piano) a ascilloscope type thing and a bunch of othe crap in his arms..and he said i could have it all if i wanted it......the pile of stuffinhis arms was twice the size he was..i became lucid at that point......i got nervous and decided it was time to go, so i went into his dining room to call home..now that i really take a lucid look around his place..it was a house i lived in 20+ years ago..or looked like it anyway....so i called home and said i was on my way...when i hung up and went back in the living room..a lady was there all of a sudden..his sister or mother i didnt know..she said she was leaving for good this time...all of a sudden i was sitting in the back seat of a mini van inthe driveway, his sister/mom was in the seat infront of me..and i was trying to find the door handle so i could get out....i was still lucid and knew i had to go somewhere else yet......i finally gotout and went in the house to get my laptop that i didnt remember taking in with me...i grabbed my laptop from a desk that wasnt there a few mins ago, and the power supply that had an open battery case on the bottom(it doesnt haveone irl) and a few batteries missing....then i grabbed an old mouse i hadnt used in many years that was also there and i told him..."she heard something she didnt want tio think about, and shes thinking about something that she was trying to supress(sp?) she'll be alright and she'll be back..." he said, not this time....I'd better make preparations....and he and i walked out the front door, there was a neighbor throwing oversized tennis balls to their golden retriever...i caught one of the balls and threw it back to the dog....i started walking to a car parked in the street, i decided to drive to chichen itza, as i approached the car i woke up...bummer...


dream #2 - room full of tv's and my tv?


I walked into a house somewhere that had tv's on every inch of every wall, all shapes and sizes, and a killer, massively overblown sound system......and for some reason I gave him my tv...a little 26" older lcd...why he needed another one is beyond me......he took it over to a far corner and tried to set it up, but it kept falling over...i noticed the base of the tv was all warped...i looked behind a wall in the corner, and there were remote controls of all shapes and sizes on pedistals......i turned back and all of a sudden there were about 8 or 9 other people in the room and we wre all wearing bio suite..we started taking them off and some lady asked the guys wife how often they cleaned...the wife answered "why, were ready for wood boring" everytime i asked what i was getting for my tv i kept getting interrupted by people who would appear suddenly and start talking loudly....that short lady, Linda Hunt, from ncis: los angeles was there and she kept interrupting me as well....sheesh! all of a sudden i was sitting at a bar in the fornt of the room, i looked over my right shoulder and saw a huge atomic digital clock on the wall under a hhuuggeee tv.....the atomic clock went out for about 15 or so digits......all of a sudden i had the feeling i was spending the night.....i turned backand the guy was behind the bar..i started to ask him what i was getting for my tv when i woke up......

Thebeastofold's Dream


Dream fragment...at the bank?


All i remember is standing in line at a bank..then standing infront of the atm outside but couldnt makeout the screen, it was su full of information i couldnt figure out where to start reading...... then a guy flew by on a jetpack with another guy on his back and someone yelled "hey you cant do that! you'll burn their butts!" woke up

It started on what was, in my mind, Earth, but it was a bit different. It looked like Earth, but we had all sorts of strange technology. I was with my father and we were with some others, camped out stealthly behind trees in an African savannah like climate. In the distance were these weird beings, I don't think they were human. We were there to kill them. We had sniper rifles and I had one in my scope and was about to pick it off when tons of way different looking alien creatures started to come from the hill behind them. They all looked vastly different from each other. They did not look anything like a stereotypical alien, they were all crazy surreal products of my mind. It's really hard to put their form into words. They were all humanoid in shape, but some had like crazy gold and black masks giant masks, and dinosaur shaped heads. We decided we had to take them out, I fired and killed one and they all started to come for us. My dad was yelling at me that I had to get out of here. He gave me a couple different guns, one looked like a rifle version of Han Solos gun, I can't remember the other. I was shooting aliens at a distance with lasers and they were vaporizing. I hopped on this crazy hover bike thing and began to ride off. It's throttle was like a motorcycles, but it had no wheels, just the crazy hover jet things, it was shaped like Cloud's bike in Advent Children. It was black. I began riding off as the battle was commencing. A silver flying saucer flew over my head and stopped. It opened up and I asked the alien to take me with him. He took me and a girl that was by me. We blasted off into space. I begged him to take us too his home planet because I was sick of living on Earth. He took some convincing, but finally he agreed. We went back to his home planet and he brought us into his home which was a cave in the side of the mountain. The cave was part of a city, a city surrounded by mountains, with people having homes in the interior facing wall of the mountains. He told us we couldn't go outside, for humans to do so was not allowed. I didn't like that rule so at some point I decided to book it out of there. I managed to jack another hover bike and took off into the city. The alien and girl chased after me. I drove all around the city, dodging them trying to find a way out of the city. I lost my bike somehow and began looking for another one. I remember seeing a trailer full of hover boats, they looked bit like yellow bumper boats with jets on the bottom. I began searching for a hover bike. I remember doing a kicking motion and throttle crank motion trying to get one to appear under me. It didn't work, but I found a police hover bike and decided to jack that. I continued my search and found a pathway that led into the mountain. I figured the path would lead me out of the city, and it did, but outside of the city there was a giant wall I could not get passed. I remember also thinking, I want a mech, no, a Gundam. I continued searching and found something vaguely similar. It was a black mech-type machine that had long legs that just sort of hung below me, but didn't actually do anything. I was in the harness of it above the legs, but I don't think it had arms. The one thing it did have that was useful was a jet pack and I took off flying over the wall. I remember trying to buckle the harness, but it kept coming undone. I started exploring the outland and the first thing I remember seeing was a large pond. Out of it came, what looked like murlocs from WoW, except they were much larger, had fuller humanoid bodies, and were much scarier. They were all trying to get at me as I flew over, jumping into the air. Then my jetpack began to run out of fuel, I began getting lower and lower to them. I touched ground and took off again before they could get to me. I ended up landing on a tall wall that was the exterior wall of a farm-like property. He had chickens on it I remember. The murlocks on the other side were jumping trying to eat me. I then woke up. I was partially lucid at different points in the dream, but everything was so cool that I just kept going with the flow.

Dream 1

I was in an Avengers space ship I think there was a party and the "Ultimate Avengers" were being brain-controlled. IronMan was in his Hulk-Buster armour and the Incredible Hulk was chasing me even Chris Evans as Captain America was after me.



Dream 2

I was walking to my friends house and I knocked for him then we went to my other mates house and then went to the park. It was an orange day. We went to the basketball cage where my next door neighbours were. I tried to be nice but they were very aggressive "Get outta here,man" is what they said, there were 3 of them. I called them "The Ultimates" because of the previous dream.

I tihnk I walked away with my friends after.

IMPORTANT DATES
08/31/11 -- Started my Dream Journal!

CURRENT GOALS:
[/] Find a lucid-inducing technique that works for me (Attempting to try MILDing)
[ ] Attain Lucidity


10th Entry:
Date: 09/12/11 (for 9/10/11 and 9/12/11)
Sleep Times: UNKNOWN

9/10/11...

On this night, my dream wasn't very extensive. I only remember a single fragment- I remember 'waking up' and looking at the palm of my hand, waking up on an intensely sunny white-sand beach. This should've triggered an RC, but my hand honestly looked normal! I remember getting up, and I think seeing some sort of ship wreck. I remember as well walking around the beach looking for something....But these are all the details I have.

9/12/11....

Last night, I had one of those more mundane dreams that are actually fairly close to normal. I was in my friend Kevin's house (or I identified it as such, anyway) which happened to be a large manor made completely of glass! I remember some fo the staircases and modern-style furniture around the house....And I remember the entertainment center. I think this came about from a subconcious memory- but we were using excercise machines and watching television at the same time! (Similarly, my psych teacher spoke of how he plays his Wii while running on the treadmill for good excercise.) At one point, I think we played video games as well! I remember waking up, going to the bathroom, and then going back to sleep and returning to the dream. (Too tired to do anything to trigger lucidity at the time....When the bladder calls, she calls!) I remember 'coming back over' and bringing with me my friend Tori, his ex-girlfriend to play video games with me there. However, soon enough, while we were engaged in one of the games, Kevin came home and in the room. ori covered her face, began to profusely apologize, and dropped the game-case on his couch before promptly leaving. Kevin seemed to make no response, merely looking at me before I woke up to the sound of a ringing phone. It just so happened, I awoke to a text message from the real Kevin!

END ENTRY

I had one of those dreams where lucid dreaming was on my mind, but not enough to actually make me go lucid. Rrrrr. But as much as I get frustrated at myself for completely missing the obvious, I have to at least be happy that the idea of lucid dreaming made it into the dream. The more that happens the more I will have lucid dreams.

Dream 1:

I was on The Biggest Loser show (I think this is because I have been traveling and eating bad and I have been telling myself that as soon as I get home I need to eat really healthy). I started making friends with this Korean guy that was also a contestant. At one point we were in this big room and I started flying and floating up toward the ceiling. The Korean guy started floating too.

I said, "Wow--you must be a lucid dreamer too!" And he nods his head.

Then I started telling him about all the things that I can do in a lucid dream. I told him about the tornado that I did in my last LD. I pointed to the ground and said, "If this were my LD I would make a tornado from on that very spot." And I made this little brown spot appear on the floor. I even half -heartedly tried to make a tornado, but nothing appeared.

I also remember asking him if he did WBTBs, which I think he said that he did occasionally.

Then I floated all the way to the top and rested on the ceiling (like I like to do in dreams--lucid or not).


Dream 2:

I was watching TV. I saw that Blink182 was about to come on. They were playing live for some TV show. I saw that they were dressed like the Beatles. They started singing. It was an interesting song that I had never heard that was a good cross between a Blink song and Beatles song. I liked it. Then Tom and Mark turned around and I could see that their pants had the back cut out, and I could see their butts. I remember thinking, "Oh brother, do they always have to do something dumb like that?"

i was in the bedroom of my apartment, it was on the second story looking out into a parking lot and i was having sex with a female DC the shades to the window were open and there were people outside she was waving to one on the guys down stairs which i did not mind but then i lookedout and saw some kids and told her we had to stop and then i woke up

I know that the setting was in an underground cave. All that I can remember is that there were a few lights strewn across some underground highway and that there were these portables off to the side. I was near a portable when I pulled out a book describing how to have a lucid dream and which technique worked best for the author of the book. At the top of the text on both pages, drawings of animals and plants filled the space. Though, I doubt they had any real significance.

Well, it's time to start focusing on dreams once again.