non-lucid

Last night was horrible, I couldn't fall asleep and the longer I waited the more my neck and back began to hurt, eventually I woke up with 5 pillows around me and my sheet partially on the ground.
Because of this the dreams of tonight were quiet vague and not vivid at all!

1. Mammals not allowed

I'm in a field somewhere infront of a large forest, I have a gun and there are some people around me, we're hunting for fun or something. I remember seeing a bird fly up from the trees and someone aims his gun at it, suddenly I look through the scope of the rifle and I see it being fired, the bird is shredded apart from the shot and falls on the ground just infront of a girl who's standing next to a tree. I think the bird was a seagull from what I can remember. Then we talked about how some animals are allowed to live while others aren't, the rule was: No mammals. Then I responded "Does that include that panda?", suddenly I see a panda sitting in the forest.

2. Google earth

I'm looking at google earth and the places keep switching between Brazil, Spain, Germany, Africa, Antartica and more. I'm talking with my mother about the WK and then she shows me were Artica is, I respond "There's also Antirica... no it's called Antrica... how can I forget the name?!", "Atricia, oh whatever, I mean the south pole." (Weird that I wasn't able to speak out Antarctica.) Suddenly Google earth zooms in somewhere in Spain and somehow I'm teleported to my livingroom.

I think this evening I will not eat anything nor drink anything before going to bed, I think that's what is keeping me awake.

Morning of July 4, 2014. Friday.



I am with my wife Zsuzsanna in the garage on Duffy Street where we lived when we first came to Bundaberg. There is a (fictional) large aquarium aligned along the wall on the opposite side from our main door. There are a few interesting plants and about four or five main types of creatures.

The water is very clean and clear. Two giant mole crickets, a little longer than my hand (and my veiw of them seemingly magnified), are swimming near the bottom. The detail is amazing and vivid though I am not lucid. Zsuzsanna comes out and actually grabs one and lifts it from the tank but puts it back a little later. It is almost like a lobster (or at least reminiscent of one). There is no concern or uneasiness of any kind.

Our garage door is open and several unknown neighbors walk by outside, a couple seemingly living where we would be living relative to the direction they came from, though they are visiting the other apartment in front.

Eventually however, one unfamiliar male neighbor comes in and soon shuts our garage door behind him which I feel is a bit imposing but I do not say or do anything regarding this act. He reminds me of a celebrity in my dream but I do not now recall who it would be, possibly Sam Neill as he appeared in “Jurassic Park” but I am not certain.

He gives a warning about one type of life-form in our aquarium, claiming it is very venomous. I look down and see that he is pointing to and talking about a cluster of brownish to rust-colored and kite-shaped fuzzy plant-like creatures that seem to open and close near the “top” of the kite shape (the kite shape having slight inward arcs on all sides). I am not that concerned and I am not sure if he is correct. I do not remember what he calls them. I say something absentmindedly about “Little Fuzzies” in relevance to the 1962 science-fiction novel “Little Fuzzy” by H. Beam Piper. I am not sure what the connection is; it seems mostly that I am just forcing conversation to lighten the situation.

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Update: I am documenting this as postcognitive (precognitive in light of my own perspective) on my main journal only, as I actually brought up a cover in Google which I had never seen before that features a large lobster-like creature with a “Little Fuzzy”. Seeing something directly from a recent dream in quite precise patterns (relative to in-dream context and associations, often ridiculously trivial or impersonal) has happened on a day to day basis all my life, so often that I often do not even mention it, but decided to here because of the higher unlikelihood.

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Non-lucid, semi lucid, lucid, false awakening

.../It's night and I'm standing on the roof of a building, seeing the ruins of another one in front of me, it's around 10 floors higher than this, or perhaps it's on the top of a hill. I'm not sure about it. It looks very familiar to me, although I cannot define where have it seen it before. I turn on the bed while I'm still staring at this building, there's something I cannot remember about all of this, I feel it's getting late and I must fall asleep first, perhaps have I seen it in a dream? I lay on the bed while thinking about it. After a while and a couple of turns on the bed, I'm standing again on the roof of this building, I think perhaps I might be already dreaming, so I decide to test it trying to fly to the ruins in front of me. I have no problems in flying there, I turn and see the roof of the building where I was previously standing on. Now I remember! It's a recurrent place from previous dreams. Once again I have a flash of some other dreams that took place on the ruins. I see a door on the roof of the first building and I go flying there. When I'm standing in front of it, I remember some creepy scenes from previous dreams, including some sort of crypt where a funeral took place in the basement of this building. I don't mind about it because of my sex drive is starting to take over and all I want to do now is finding her having sex with somebody else. I get inside the building and go downstairs. I find a room where one of my kids sleeps. Nothing of my interest. I leave it being careful to not wake her up. Then I go to another room. I feel she's there, and I could catch her once more. The door is slightly open, and I can see part of her body. It looks like Yes! She's having fun with somebody else, I see some movements but cannot distinguish if there's another person besides her. I get pretty excited about it. I have to push the door and it takes some time until it's wide open, I feel I'm making to much noise with it. When I get into the room, I see she's just changing her clothes, apparently to wear her sleep clothing. She's alone, I'm little bit disappointed although I'm still on, so I take her and start having some fun/...

* Wake up because of the excitement, I make some mental notes before going back to sleep, I don't want to forget about it

.../A fly is disturbing the peace of the room. I catch it and remember there's a spider web under the bed. I go there and throw the bug into the web. It gets trapped although moves too fast and is about to fly again. I try to push it against the web when I see a medium spider coming out. Then a second one although bigger which walks on my hand to take the fly. It's disgusting but I don't want to get bitten so I don't move and wait until it takes the fly and runs back to its place. I see some fights take place with the little one/...

The dentist tells me I’ll need to eat something. She gives me a saucer with a small strawberry on it and then leaves to clean up. Apparently there’s going to be an operation or something.

Me and mom can hear the water running and wonder what’s taking so long. I figure she must be taking a shower rather than washing her hands.

I talk to mom about how I hate strawberries and wonder if I should tell the dentist how I puked the last time I tried one. I might be fibbing there, but close enough.

I end up hurrying out of the room to try and find something else to eat. I find a basket of pears [that’s actually peaches] and slice off some of that. Somehow I end up with some kind of cake stuff on the plate too.

I’m looking at a magazine and mom suggests I trade it with the one I have [something to do with the date on it?].

Then I’m looking through a book, which has scraps of paper in it. I figure some of them were used as bookmarks by the last person to read it. I come to a paper with Spike Spiegel on it. It has a place to sign your name and the date, and something about putting down what power you have but it was some strange term. I didn’t know what to put there so I just out my name and date [though I don’t remember what it was].

I can’t remember if it was in the magazine or book, but a ‘date’ was written: 1-2-1.

Back in the room with plate in hand, a guy comes in and starts talking. I’m wondering who the heck he is but apparently he’s taking over or helping.

Inspirations: Talking about our teeth issues, mom has peaches in the fridge and I have coffee cake, I saw a Spike Spiegel post on tumblr recently, been reading food magazines lately, have had a lot of doctor’s visits lately and was thinking about my teeth

Mom tells me to go get my gray shirt. I go look in the drier but it’s not there. There’s a white one though. I go back to mom with a white toothbrush in hand with a purple decoration at the bottom.

She takes a pair of fabric cutting scissors and starts hacking away at the bristles, complaining after a moment that she wishes it were easier.

She starts putting some thread and the bristles together, and I wonder how because the bristles are so short.

Then she starts sowing the thread to my fingertips, one by one. She then ties my hands behind my back.

In return for something they did, ‘we’ were trying to help someone/thing become a centaur. We put it in a suit. “It’s a bit tight, but.” And set it off running. There was another centaur ‘riding’ on top of it, causing them to topple. [Actually looked more like a dinosaur.]

The fake centaur passed by a bird creature as it ran…only it stopped, looked and saw that it was not a bird but another creature flapping its appendages and flying with some leaved branches. The fake centaur asked how it was doing that.

We’re in a shack that might also be McDonalds or something and I’m making burgers based on what the guy there told me.

We’re in an enclosement and on the way north I’d been looking for something along the fence. I come across a black device with a round button and click it. I see blue light twinkle around the enclosement’s edges. I go inside and say I found something. That’s when I hear a bark.

We look out and an ominous air gets thicker and thicker as we listen. I can practically see creatures coming towards us. They tell me to turn it back on and I do. I hope in the minutes it was off, nothing got out. I remember seeing a car or something pass outside on the left.

We wonder how to fight if needed. Someone (maybe the guy there) says, “Magic, of course”. I had forgotten that that’s how we fight since we didn’t have weapons.

Inspirations: I had just read the Homestuck comic ‘Hunting Lesson’, watching Aliens?, my fan clicker, I’ve had a few other fence dreams inspired by the place I used to live, reading an article on how to make goo hamburger patties

I am working at In-N-Out and have no idea what I am doing. Someone buys something and it takes me a long time to get the money put away. There are lots of 100's in the register, some in the 1's spot. The area behind the counter is small and empty. There is no kitchen. A few employees are sitting or laying on the floor. There are some doodles under the counter. I think that I would not want to work here.
I'm out at the tables now and a man is giving me his small box of fries. He says "this is gonna be to go" and that he wants "winco and teriyaki sauce". I take the fries to the counter, not understanding why he couldn't do it himself. My cousin N is behind the counter. I ask her to which sauce is which.
I also see my dad; he is at a table with a customer of his.

7/3/14

Last night bed 1:30am, same as night before. Got up at 6:40am.

WBTB 6:40 - 8am. Got up from WILD nap at 10am.

I knew nap is going to be a good one. Got relaxed in matter of minutes. Cats were asleep and I was at the gates of a LD. Then my cat jumped on me and layed on me for a few minutes. I didn't let that bother me one bit. I was incredibly excited and played out scenarios I would like to dream about. So many cool ones.

Not sure how I got lucid, if WILD or DILD.

LD:
I'm in a place with some people. I look down and I'm in underwear and a bra. I quickly pull off the undies, while saying sorry to those around and telling them that I'm on a mission.

Next I'm in a long hallway. It's rather narrow, like maybe on a ship. But we are not on a ship. Doors made out of shiny lighter colored wood are lining the hall on both sides.

I decide to go door by door and find someone, so I can undress. First door has a female in. I realize this is doctors offices and doors have patients behind them waiting for the doctor. I quickly close the door.

Next door has 2 skinny people with body piercings. I can't tell if male or female. I'm hoping at least one is male. Not sure why I'm thinking I should undress only in front of males.

Another door has a person with blond hair, sitting in a chair facing away from me. I say hi in hope it will turn around and I can see if male or female.

Next door has a freaky huge machine in it, which I recognize as Iron lungs. I quickly close the door.

Next is an x-ray room, or some lab, with lots of females in white coat. I don't find this room suitable either.

Finally, there is a lonely male leaning against a door. I ask him to help me take my bra off. He is doing it with one hand and I praise him for being a pro. Dream cutts off here.

Dream ended and restarted many times. I remember lots of transitions.
1. Just a regular restart
2. I'm rolling out, fall on my knees and I'm thinking I'm actually awake. But have 8 fingers on one hand.
3. Pushing head backwards to get the falling feeling
When I stop pushing, I come back to the bed, so I make it a swinging sensation. Push down, come back up and higher. Untill I was standing on the bed and just stepped off. This one I did at least 2-3 times.


Next dream - I don't think I'm lucid here, because the whole time I'm desperately trying to WILD.

I'm in a large, L-shaped room. She is in the other part of the room in a bed with white sheets. I think a medic is treating her, because at one point she says with pain in her voice "damn, that stings". But that's the only complaint I hear from her.

When that person leaves, I come closer and ask if I can help. Make some food or anything else. But she declines every offer I make. Nothing new, I expected that. Makes me feel sad though, that she won't accept help even from me.

So I sit on a chair next to the bed and trying to figure out how to at least hold her hand without her rejecting it or making it look like some mushy move. All I really want is to transfer some healing energy to her and make her more comfortable.

She says something about her kidneys giving her hell.

She gets up and tries to do some chores. I trail her while desperately trying to WILD so I can treat her aura in a lucid. I'm pushing my head back while walking. I feel like I'm WILDing a few times, but those are all fake, not real lucids.

Now I see through the window that we are in LA. For a second I'm happy that she lives here but then i remember that she is only visiting. I have a few suveniers from my visits in LA and I'm rummiging through them picking out the one I want to give her. But I know she wont like them, so I stop doing that.

Hiking up a mountain with a friend, we take a short break at a cliff that overlooks the trail head below, trying to spot the others that were coming with us. I hear them below, just a few paces into the woods, but they seem to be taking a really long time to move anywhere.

A truck pulls up right next to the trail head, and two people get out of it. They seem to know that there is some sort of wisdom within this mountain, and they want to use it to win the lottery. From my position on the mountain, I know that I can give them the winning numbers, but I believe that giving them wisdom would be much better in the long run. I step out of view so they cannot see me to demand the numbers. I start to summon the wisdom of the mountain to give to them, and as I do so, my friend who is with me tells them the winning lottery numbers at the same time. Now they have both! I guess that's okay too.

Standing in a large warehouse, I hear a lot of noises and yelling up on the next floor. Some guy is really angry up there. I look up the stairs just in time to see a Molotov cocktail bounce down the stairs without breaking. My cell phone manages to allow me to create grenades, which I throw up the stairs at the angry guy. I can't see what happens, and then remember the Molotov cocktail seems more like a bomb, with a burning rag as the fuse. As it explodes, the shock wave sends me flying 15 meters through the air, landing face down in a man made river. I lay there disoriented for a bit, until I need to breathe again, and pull myself out.

The dream sort of resets a bit here, and the angry guy is not trying to kill me. We both need to charge my phone so that we can again have access to machine guns, grenades and other weapons. I must have an app that makes all this possible. We are riding in the back of a pickup truck to some place to plug my phone in. Arriving at my back porch in the winter, I plug it into an electrical outlet outside the house and let it charge.

The guy with me runs down the hill to my neighbor's house and starts destroying their yard. He pulls the fence out of the ground, throws it into the yard, and starts digging large holes quite quickly. I run down there to try to mitigate the situation. Holding part of the fence to try to put it back where it goes, my neighbor comes outside, sees me with the fence, next to the chaos, and assumes I am responsible for all of this. Before he gets a chance to say anything to me, a motorist pulls into his driveway, and asks how to get out because there's no room to turn around. My neighbor tells him to turn around in the street. The motorist doesn't listen, and instead turns around in the yard, leaving deep tire tracks that tear up the grass leaving deep ruts behind. My neighbor just gives up on his yard at this point, shaking his head in disappointment with humanity as he goes back inside.

The angry guy, still visibly angry, seems satisfied with the destruction he has caused, and gets back into the pickup truck. I'm standing in the back of it, looking over the cab as we drive off. My friend is driving us, and just as we turn onto a more substantial dirt road, his dog runs under the truck, out the front end of it, and down the road ahead of us much faster than we're driving. Briefly looking back at us over his shoulder, the dog gives us a look as if to say, aren't you coming with me?

The scenery instantly transforms into a cell phone store, where the salesman is talking me into upgrading my phone to a Galaxy or something like that for $35. It takes better pictures, but I don't know if it works like the iPhone in terms of music playback capability, so I hesitate to go for it. I ask the salesman about the app I currently have for explosives and machine guns. He tells me that one is no longer available on these newer phones. I am a bit bummed out about that.

Hello, this morning I tried doing SSILD again and everything went well until I was done with the technique itself and it was time to sleep again. I couldn't fall back asleep, after several hours I eventually fell asleep but the effect of SSILD had lost it's power.

1. The 9/11 incident

I'm in Chemistry class at school and we get a preview of what the exam may look like, one of the exercises is so long that I lose hope before the exam has even started. The bell goes and I walk down the stairwell with a friend and we talk about how the exam is going to be impossible. Then when I get to the secondary entrance I suddenly know I'm about to go on a trip with a class, I don't know where but it will be about something religious or something. Suddenly I'm standing with the class on a roof somewhere in NY and the teacher is talking about some things but I'm distracted and look back at the twin towers. I can see an airplane flying towards it and I see it crash into the building. I see it happening over and over again from all kinds of angles, I saw it maybe 40 times. Then I told someone about what if the plane flew lower, now I see the plane crashing into a smaller building infront of the towers, I say "Good, now less people die cause those are appartements and most people are now working.", then I see the plane hitting the tower quiet high, it doesn't explode but instead cuts the top of the building of and drops it next to the main tower preventing it from collapsing completly. Suddenly I'm on street level and see a large cloud of dust coming towards me, I see a police officer keeping a hand for his mouth so he wouldn't breath in too much dust.
Again I see the buildings explode multiple times, then I'm suddenly back at school in the main hall and I wake someone up and try to grab something out of her bag.

2. England in a nutshell

I'm watching a film, Lara Croft strands up on a shoar, just behind a large mansion. Two rich people pick her up and addopt her, then I say to myself "So that's how she got so rich...", suddenly I'm in England with school for a week. We get divided into small groups and get houses to sleep in, I and a friend get the mansion from before. The rooms are really large and quiet dark, the sky seems to be grey always. It all goes really fast, suddenly I'm playing a game of soccer and I'm the goal keeper, I want to write my name on the ground infront of the goal. The goal is small, I stand behind it and lean over it to write my name on the other side on the ground, the owner of the mansion's wife tells me I'm not allowed to write my name on the ground, while leaning over the goal. However I can do it without leaning over the goal, which makes me think of how stupid all of these rules are. Then we're in a large theater, it's massive and most of the school has already taken a seat. I sit infront with some friends and the show is about to start, the security is extremely tight and I don't dare getting out of my chair or doing really anything. One student walks in and is late, he gets taken away by the security. Then we suddenly stand outside and I know I'm late for the buss so I'm in a hurry.

I think if I keep practicing SSILD it might start giving impressive results, I've only done it 3 times until now and 2 out of 3 it worked.

7/2/2014

In bed: 11:18 PM - 7:40 AM

#4. II. 7:40 AM
I have my Japanese final today in the middle of the day. There are tons of events going on on campus though for some reason. Out somewhere with my brother, I have the bike, he want to switch but I bringing up again that I have the exam. Lady with dogs lending her bike to him randomly. She has motorcycle anyway. I start trying to pull my bike out with LB, BB, NB on the back of it for some reason. The ladies’ dogs are getting in the way coming up to me and such which is annoying. Once I get it out, she says something about I could have just introduced the kids to the dogs. She drives off on the motorcycle later.
Point when I go to carnival of sorts. It is sort of like a puzzle-thon with a route you follow and different puzzles and riddles you have to solve. A friend of mine is with me that I apparently told to come. I am ahead of him a little bit and enjoying myself. He not liking it though apparently. I am in a narrow hallway with a bunch of people, many leading the riddles like an old friend of mine, GS, that I see here. I pick up on that my friend kinda wants to leave. We deciding to skip ahead through hallway to see what’s ahead. We reach a door leading out to a courtyard. Seeing seniors charging towards us down some stairs from other way, we deciding to go back and leave. As we are walking back through the other hallway, realizing I'm late for final, whole class and mom have called my phone looking for me.
I hurry to leave. I go back to some dormitory-like long and big bathroom to get all my stuff. I have so much for some reason. I have a few big bags, so I start dumping my stuff into them to see if this helps. I am in a bit of a bind since exam has already just started since it is 12:15 or so and it started not long before that. I decide to wake up to avoid dealing with the situation.

#3. I. 6:05 AM
I am at a library looking for a particular interactive book. I walk towards a back section where I’ve found it in the past and go to an semi-open space in the back left corner. When I walk past the last tall shelf and reach the area, I see that there is one of those box TVs hanging up on the far wall facing me and the area. It is playing some cartoon that I kinda enjoy. I use the remote control over here to raise the volume very slightly. After a few moments of me standing there watching the show, a lady comes walking up who must be a librarian. She tells me that I am not allowed to use or watch the TV and gives me other admonitions before walking away. I feel annoyed, but decide to continue on with looking for the book. I search a bit unable to find it then look it up. I learn that it is apparently in the iOS section of the library which is confusing since I found it back here in the past.
BB with me later in library, I handling leftover chicken and fries for us later that are on plates on a bed here currently. I work at wrapping them up and then putting in backpack pocket.
Arriving back at place that I am staying though I have to go to sleep soon as I am going somewhere soon. Wishing goodnight to that girl staying in same place, she a bit older, seems sister like to me. She looks Indian and some decoration around her nose of some sort. We are slightly sentimental which seems to be because I am going away for a week or so. Entering the door behind us. Opens into a bathroom. I follow the next door to a weird separator room of two sections of bathroom like those types of bathrooms out there. Except, I have to climb through this dark separator room with my toiletries and stuff to other side of it. There seems to be a room connected over there too. Over here, I have some calf pads to use in the tub since my legs are tired apparently. CP demonstrating how to use them. You have to lay in the tub facing up and raise your legs up so that your head is below your legs and other different contortions of your body.

I've finally made a success to my 3-year lucid dreaming drought. All I merely did was reality check a dozen times yesterday, drink almond milk, and eat a banana, and bam, lucid dream. Although they're not as vivid as my dreams were back then, this'll suffice.*

I was walking out of a bathroom stall (one that resembled a theatres) when something appeared odd, and I noticed an old friend, Courtney. I become lucid at this point, remembering to remain calm & not go overboard. Looking in the large mirror, try to observe my reflection and surroundings. I see myself, and it looks like me. I end up grabbing my friends face at some point (her cheeks) to get a full observation of what's going on. I eventually tried to open the bathroom door to see what was outside, but I neither remember waking up nor falling out of the dream.*

At some point in one of my dreams, a bunch of friends and I end up taking a plane out of my driveway. We can't go, since Shawntel is blocking it, but she moves out of the way. When I turn around, apparently it's only my sister and mom/dad in the tiny aircraft, and it's like we rented a private jet to visit dad in Africa. We're figuring out who's going to drive it, and I'm looking at the vacant cockpit were the pilot should be. It was too crammed to be a transportation plane.

Around this time I wake up, disappointed of my lucid dream. I try to sleep into another one, quickly seeing the Hugh Jackman Wolverine sitting in a cell with his claws out. I'm guessing it didn't work, since everything went black and I felt tingly. Soon, I AM the Wolverine, acting as an astral projection for Bruce Wayne as he sneaks through a factory. His sneaking methods awfully resemble Jensen from Deux Ex (since I've been playing it nonstop), and he appears to be hiding his identity. He sees me as his guide, trying to catch up to me as I end up changing my forms many times. After many metal ladders, we eventually fall into the factories' production: a huge river of marshmallow fluff. My form now being Morgan Freeman, I tell him: "Try it, Bruce! It's marshmallow." We continue our ride down this river, and eventually now I'm in the perspective of Bruce, as next to me is the female protagonist of the first Christian Bale Batman film (I don't remember the actress's name). She doesn't recognize me, but I eventually kiss her, where she says, "you kiss just like Bruce." We climb our way out of the river, completely clean and happy, and I make a call to Alfred to pick us up. I think she was fishing for something? She had a pet rat, or ferret that ended up using something to dig around with a tail-thing, and the pet ended up eating a beetle at the end of their rod.*

Canoe

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I find myself in a rain forest. I am surrounded by millions of squaremeters of trees. After some searching I find an old canoe. I decide to leave my friends in the forest and go on a journey to find help. When I want to put the boat to water I get attacked by piranhas and salties. I take the dust road. So I slide over the ground, down the sandy roads a while, doing jumps and steerin with my paddle. I reach a city and go inside the city-walls. I find a big pile of conterfeit money and put some in my backpack. The looks more and more like a modern Jerusalem. I find a train and get in. When the train stops I get out and find myself in another city, even more beautiful than the last. I start snowing.

Marathon of the Gods

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am an old mayan god and stroll through the rain forest. Everything has an avatar like look. My god friends challenge me to a race and we get ready. We start running and I pass rocks, mountains and different surroundings. I run through forests and deserts. I finally win and I get an old, weird looking stone with red glowing carvings in it. With this stone I have to activate a mechanism but my alarm goes off..