non-lucid

Work meeting
I'm in a meeting with Miguel and some others. They're discussing a problem which seems simple to me, and I try to keep suggesting a solution, but they're all arguing so much they can't hear me. Eventually, I get my point through, and they consider it.

Later, I'm talking to Tom. He says he wants to talk more about it and suggests an 8AM meeting for tomorrow. I think that's too early for a meeting, but I agree to it since it's Tom.

I've convinced a man to throw himself on the king's mercy. A friend had been offering to get him to safety, he knew some people who could help with that, and the man had been considering it; but I'd spoken to the king and I promised him it would work out, so he stayed.

But now that we're actually standing before the throne, the king decides to have him executed. This was not the deal. This brat, spoiling things on a whim; part of me is furious, but part of me just finds this whole situation ridiculous, that these humans allow themselves to be ruled by a man like him. I imagine speaking out, see an image of it, but in reality I say nothing, just wait for the audience to end. Now I'll have to try to sneak the man out. I should have just let him run while he could.

Talking with others, there's something we need from the palace which we haven't been able to locate. Someone points out that there's a private wing that contains the royal suite, but also other rooms of unknown purpose - process of elimination, what we need must be there. We agree to make that private wing our destination for now, and someone makes a joke about how we can wave at the timeline of our original plan as it passes us by, we've gotten so far off course.

This a weird one.

I met someone from a previous dream last night. She was sitting in her apartment, which I have no memory of entering, and did not appear in the least bit surprised to see me.

She told me that it's very rare for us to meet, as dreams take place in many worlds - so many that we were unlikely the exact same people who met in the previous dream despite the both of us having memories of interacting with each other. With this in mind she simply wanted to enjoy the pleasure of my company while she could, which we did: we talked and played and looked out of her window and generally just enjoyed being with each other for an indeterminate length of time. When time came for me to leave, I requested that we exchange details so that we might find each other later, which she agreed to despite acknowledging the futility of doing so.

I can't remember her name.

It's difficult to describe this experience except that it felt like I was a non-lucid part of someone else's lucid dream , her lucid dream specifically. I was in my standard non-lucid haze, but she seemed entirely more in focus and more real.

After leaving her apartment, I found myself in what I'm going to call the Nexus: a long corridor of doors, somehow with the implicit understanding that each door lead to other dreams. If I were lucid I would have taken full advantage of the possibilities as I've been attempting to replicate a similar effect in what little lucid dreams I've actually had, but as the situation was, I just went directly for a door that felt vaguely familiar.

What was inside was a tortured, mutated, horrifying version of someone else I'd met. So I closed the door, and sometime later I woke up.

Piloting a spacecraft, in orbit close to another star. It is by no means a very large star, though, like a red dwarf. The spacecraft I am piloting looks a little bit like this.



The star starts expanding/exploding and we have to get away by flying the ship and dodging planets and asteroids. I don't remember too much of what happened for a good majority of the escape, but when we got past the last planet the cloud reformed into a new, much larger star. There was some explanation to this like the star was going through a metamorphosis or something.

We had to go to a wedding on this alien planet. The wedding for some reason took place in this really dingy industrial building on a barren rocky planet. I remember we were inside of this green nebula and the night sky on this planet was green and full of exceptionally bright stars.

The wedding was between this giant alien mushroom and blob monster. (I couldn't tell what one was the groom/bride.) I don't recall too much going on in this scene either. I think Manei was present.

We got called to return to earth, but then the Tardis appeared. A much older version of myself appeared and claimed to be Doctor Who. I think he then died. We used the Tardis for transportation to return to earth.

When we got back we were in a city. It was nighttime and rainy and it seemed as though the city had been evacuated. Godzilla appeared and he started spitting water instead of radiation breath. Somebody told me that we had been called back to stop him.

Morning of June 10, 2015. Wednesday.



I am in a non-lucid state, though the setting is extremely well-rendered and most of it clearer even though it is mostly unfamiliar. My wife and family and I are living in a different type of building and had apparently moved here recently. The (fictional) residence has the typical “impossible” apartment-related situation that I have dreamt of all my life - where strangers are present in what would be almost the same living space. At one point, I am aware of an unknown older male on the other side of the main large room. Our living area is only divided from his by a curtain that hangs down to about four inches from the floor. I am fixing this curtain arrangement (for more privacy) while sitting on the floor, by pulling it fully down, as part of the bottom edge was draped over a cardboard box higher up (about a foot or so).

At one point, I am using a screwdriver to scrape up old soap residue from a floor tile and as I do, the tile actually comes off, though I manage to align it back where it should be. The appearance and movement (and manual effort) is very realistic.

I also find some toys that the last tenants left behind, some smaller toy cars in a bag, which I think I will put on my youngest son’s large (fictional) table for a pleasant surprise.

In the last stage of my dream, which is very clear, there are several large radios (or boomboxes) set up along the wall for some reason, all side by side on a large table. After a short time, they all start playing at the same time, fairly loudly, and mostly different songs (at least four). I think one song is Fats Waller and another a country song, possibly George Strait. I am annoyed because the radios seem to have been connected to some sort of timing system by the previous tenants and I cannot work out what to do with the setup. I am also somewhat embarrassed (as I do not want to be seen as making so much noise on purpose, as we had just moved in recently relative to my dream’s back story), as the other tenant is home, though I do not go through the curtain to his side at any point.

I try pushing the buttons and after a time, when I turn one radio off, another comes back on and this goes on for several minutes (so that it seems impossible to have all turned off at the same time) - and I am thinking that some sort of cable system (linked with a timer) is connected to all of them and they will play at certain times no matter what you do. It is somewhat amusing in conscious afterthought. The clarity of the power indicator lights is quite precise. This is similar to situations where I cannot turn all the lights off, which I have read in other people’s journals where they are experiencing the exact same details in the same way and with the same associations.

I was in my old school, in the sports hall. People were playing random games, like football, table tennis etc. I decided to go back home, as nothing interesting is happening there. I ran straight the road, leaving crossroad and an old shop behind, and ran into my frontyard. It was cold, cloudy afternoon.

Somehow, I knew have to run up to the fields. When I finally got there, I saw my father in a tractor with machine to dig out potatoes plugged in. Then I spotted a couple lying on that machine. A redhead girl and a brunette dude. Suddenly a hidden chainsaw in the machine started to move towards them.

*Close up of the chainsaw* and then the machine broke. Couple nowhere to be found. I ran closer to the tractor, and told my father that the machine is broken. He drove to take a trailer, and appeared back after a long while. With family we started to pick up potatoes to baskets, and threw them on the trailer.

A woman's coming out of my workroom, which she'd stepped into to give herself some space, taking a break from our conversation. The things I've been telling her have been disturbing her. There's another man here who'd tried to get me to tone it down, break it to her more gently if at all, he didn't understand why I was pushing her like this; but I'd ignored him.

Now that she's back, I see she's taken something from my workroom, two long dull knives which are smeared with a kind of colorless substance. I'm alarmed. I assume she must know what they are or she wouldn't have taken them, but I can't believe she'd be holding them like that if she really understood - I tell her, "This is the substance you - the real you - uses to mark her new bodies, don't-"

She uses the substance to mark the skin of her forearms. She's saying something about why she's doing this, some kind of statement of defiance, but I'm not really listening - I'm horrified, I got to my feet and grabbed her by the shoulders as if I could stop her, but that's pointless; I just need to make her understand this thing that she's done, trapping herself in a single body, how wrong and unnatural this is. The body still won't age, but someday it will fail, and she'll still be tied to it, and she'll die - not just this small version of her who doesn't remember what she is, but the real her will die, something that should never have happened. The death of something that should have existed always. I can't begin to explain to her how horrific this is, the shock and sense of loss; in the end I'm just repeating, "This will kill you, this will kill you, you will die from this," as though if I just emphasize it enough she'll understand the significance of it. She doesn't understand, but she's beginning to see just how horrified I am.

It was cold and grim afternoon. I recall only the sky - gray and stark. There were a few clouds, giving the view some mystery. It slowly became darker, storm clouds started to gather. They moved quicker and quicker, suddenly it started to rain, and thunders shoot across the sky, illuminating the dark gray background with blue and red colours.

Avoiding The Neighbor
I'm walking home from around Daryl's old area, clairmont. I think I get offered a lift from the girl next door, or maybe I just avoid her from seeing me, not sure. As I'm riding home on my bike, it's night time. I see the girl next door driving my way, so I quickly get off my bike and lay down near a fence to try and avoid her seeing me. I believe this worked. I do this cause I'm shy.

I'm in a house now. I forget why and what I was doing in there.

-Dream 1
I dreamed my face was getting really long and fat.

-Dream 2
I dreamed I was sitting down at some table. I jokingly sat down at the spot with a name card labeled "God". My bro G sat at the one labeled "Jesus".

I was outside on a strange creepy looking farm property. It's nighttime and I'm all alone. I'm standing by a fence about 300 yards from a house. The environment was definitely set up like it should have been a nightmare but I never felt panic or fear throughout this dream.

A small creature the size of a large rat runs by me. It looked like a cooked buffalo wing or something. I grabbed a fishing pole and smashed it to death. One or two more ran out and I smashed them too.

A larger animal the size of a raccoon runs out. It looks like a fox with a monkey face. I take the pole and slap it to death. It took a lot of hits to kill.

Finally a large animal that looked like a mountain lion runs at me. I took the pole and kept swinging and swinging and hitting and hitting it until it retreated. It took human form and was injured.

Aquarium beds
I'm in a building with large circular "aquariums." Inside them, people are lying on "beds" that are connected both to the ceiling and floor by many thin wires. It's some kind of "sensory replacement" experiment. I watch them move around, somehow "driving" the "beds" as they play a game. As I'm standing outside of one of these glass enclosures, a girl inside comes over and demonstrates how to "bang" simple communication in case tech goes wrong. Another girl is jealous of whatever prize the first girl won - a sandwich? She's just got a lollipop. I recognize these girls - I've seen replays of this match before and realize I must be slightly in the past. I ponder what would happen if I tell them who will win; then I wonder if I make something up, maybe it'll change who would win; but I tell them nothing.


Fragments
I'm walking down a hill that's been terraced into parking lots. The white van is at the very bottom. Now I'm trying to drive it out, but I'm having a lot of trouble controlling it and nearly hit other cars a bunch of times.

Something about going to England. My family is on vacation, and they've been sending us to England and back. This will be the third trip just in this vacation. It's been neat, but also a huge expense.

Fear

I was on a bed with my eyes closed talking to Dawn. I remember reappearing on the same bed quite a few times until i somehow arrived downstairs in the hall. There were three characters around me, one who i think was my younger brother. One of the characters who looked like Kiro's anime form went to go get something after that. I felt uncomfortable so I went into a room, locked the door and told Dawn how I felt. He told me not to worry but when I heard footsteps I went through the air conditioner in hopes of appearing somewhere else. I started flying above houses and began feeling more uncomfortable. Negative thoughts started popping up as i was looking around an flying. I saw a huge portal that sort of looked like the one from the anime kyoukai no rinne. I flew further to see a abandoned broken castle and heard someone singing an anastatia song. I flew to where i heard the sound and started singing it too. But than I thought about the part where she is imagining people dancing but it looks like ghosts.

I than appear on my bed in the dark with something moving around in side me. Its black, has red eyes and almost like the form of a human but more monster looking. It was laughing as it flew around inside me. I told it to stop but it wouldn't so I started punching myself. Prayed to be brave. Than remembered that i didn't need help because these characters were apart of myself. I saw a phone on a chair after i got out of the paralysis moment. On the phone it said "I will paint over your house". I than flew outside and noticed the orange roof top houses. The scene shifted to a teenager sitting on a porch step with a little girl. Than to me back on the bed paralyzed. I felt really heavy and like i could not get up but i forced myself up.
I than reappeared on the bed and kept punching myself to wake up until i just thought of waking up. Guess I was just mad at the constant reappearing. hahaha

Rape

Something about a girl dream competition where we try to beat up each other in a dream. I than left and started walking home. It was raining. I saw a couple of guys with bats trying to fight eachother. Than one comes up to me with a bat. I try to fly away but i can't. The guy than runs after me and grabs me. The scene than switches to a paper where there are words that rapist use to seduce their girl victims. Its very inappropriate that i can't belive my own dreamng mind came up with those.

The scene than shifts to the interior of the store where the guy who raped me is talking to the store owner or someone about a baby i will have. There are white pills in my hand that are in a clear container. I'm thinking about how its unfair that i get raped, have to take birth control pills and the owner of the store is friends with the rapist. I than get out the store. There is a old dark skin man with a gun on the street. He is pointing it at reporters and people mentioning that he is going to shoot everyone of them for raping the one he cares about. The reporters make fun of him than he starts shooting.I than fly to a street far away from the scene.

There is a announcement saying that in 11 hours there will be a earthquake in tokyo. I than notice on the top of a door there is a pizza and words saying "Educate your pizza". I wonder how much time till i wake up after seeing the future vision than wake up for real.

I don't believe the second was a future vision. It was just my brain was half taken by the dream plot.

With my DC sister we entered a skyscraper placed in harbor. There was a woman in a black suit inside. With sister we were on a balcony placed two floors higher than the witch. I knew she'll use her powers against me, so I took a weird, black wand out of my pocket.

Instead of firing a spell at the witch, I ate the wand. It tasted weird, from bittery to sour. I barely digested it, and then the witch smiled to me. There were some windows in front of us, and I saw two enormous ships sailing off.

I told to my sister "Piss off Poseidon!" Suddenly waves powered by mystical particles striked the ships down, but the guards appeared and took me and my sister. They chained me to a pole in the middle of skyscraper. To free myself, I jumped, made a flip in the air, touched the ceiling with my feet and the chains broke.

I ran away to warehouses, sneaked past guards and took a heavy bag out of hidden stash. Then I escaped.

Extended Reef
I'm at a surf beach (Cat Bay), and It looks different. There's reef and solid boulders right up to the sand. I notice that Sheep is with me. He is willing to have a surf, but I don't think he's done it before. I tell him to watch how the waves break and what the other surfers are doing, to get an idea. A few small waves come towards us, not enough to knock me over or anything. I can't say the same for Sheep, he gets poleaxed by a small wave and ends up being pinned under a boulder. I rush over towards him and he's underwater. I pause for a second and think of what to do. I decide to try and grab the Boulder off of him, and seem to do it with ease. This is enough to free Sheep from drowning.

I remember someone telling me that Sheep is pretty competitive, and doesn't like to be wrong. They tell me he is very long winded with explaining himself.

Im at my primary school, and it seems to be a reunion for my year level. I see some familiar faces. I can only recall Sarah Woders. They surprise one of the teachers that they had, by grabbing her. I think Sheep was still with me, and was kind of not interested in being good friends with him. It's pretty crowded at the moment and I see someone behind me that I thought was Drew Dier, but it wasn't him.