non-lucid

Okay guys, last night I had quiet a clear dream which was really detailed.

1. Premiere

I'm with some friends standing in a cinema and it seems the whole school is there too, we're watching a new film that just came out and I'm curious which film it is. I look back and see a large sign: "THE EXPENDABLES III", what follows is a conversation with my friends. (little back story, IRL about a year ago when I was returning home from a week in England with school we saw the film 'The expendables II' and I joked with a friend about how silly and predictable the story was.)

Me: "Really? Man remember last time we watched one of those movies? It sucked!"

Friend: "Yeah, it was so bad... I can't believe we're watching this again."

Me: "You know, I bet the story is going to be almost identical to the first two."

After that we got inside and we took a seat, the room was enormous I'd say it was a football field wide and deep. I sat next to my friends somewhere on the left side high and I noticed my mother sitting some rows behind me. I acted like I hadn't seen her and tried to do things that might impress her, like having a talk with some of the teachers or something. Suddenly a teacher stood up and gave some of us a heart, it looked like a piece of grilled chicken and had it in my mouth before I even knew what it was. When he said we had to dissect it I took it out of my mouth but half of it was already bitten away and I felt ashamed I wouldn't be able to impress my mother.

2. The clean up

I'm somewhere in an office building and know that I've done some bad things and the police is behind me. I think I was involved in a shooting with the police before where an officer was killed but my friend had shot him, he was gone and the police thought I had killed him. I run around and get in a small office without windows and a single computer against the wall. I don't know exactly what I did but I think I was trying to clear my name of any convictions and evidence before the police would arrive.

I think I will set my alarm one hour earlier tomorrow as I now can sleep quiet quickly and I think I need a bit more time for techniques like SSILD/WILD/DILD and falling back asleep again in the morning. Alarm will be set at 06:00.

Good night everyone!

07.15.2014

We're Apparently NOT Going to Church (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm sitting on the front lawn of someone's house with my dad and a bunch of his friends. They're all drinking and acting stupid. It reminds me of King of the Hill, so to pass the time I assign each of the characters to one of these men based on personality.

Suddenly, an old woman walks up to the very front of the yard near the road. She pulls down her pants and begins to pee. "Oh, no," I exclaim, turning away and shielding my eyes.

"OH NO!" the men echo. They jump up and run away.

Shaking my head, I stand up and walk in the general direction they scurried off to. On the way, I come across my aunt. The tone of the dream completely changes here. Despite the fact that my aunt seems estatic about something, there is an unsettling atmosphere that I can't quite shake. "I just saw your father!" she tells me.

I suddenly remember that my dad is dead. How was I just talking to him? I have vague thoughts about it being a dream, but for some reason I don't seriously question it. My aunt tells me that she believes God has sent him here so that we can see him again. Since I don't believe in God, or at least not the one she believes in, I'm a bit more skeptical. "How do you know it's really him?" I ask. "What if it's the Devil?" I don't believe in the Devil either, but I do believe in dark spirits and I want my aunt to be cautious.

"Pfft! Why would he be the Devil?"

"I don't know. You said yourself that the Devil likes to try to hurt people."

We walk over to where my dad is standing and begin to talk to him. "So," I begin, "What's it really like out in the great unknown?"

He grins. "Oh, it's a real tea-bake," he says with a laugh that makes me think he's referring to something inappropriate to annoy me.

I stare at him blankly. "I have no idea what that is."

He laughs louder. "It's a lesbian joke!"

I have to refrain from face-palming. Is now really the time for this kind of game? "No, for real! What's it like?"

"Okay, okay. I'll tell you." He pauses and tries to look serious. "The Night Team and the Day Team run around shooting each other with Nerf guns!" He laughs at his own joke as I groan in frustration.

"Why can't you just give me a straight answer!" All of this seems exactly like something he would do, but I'm still not 100% convinced that this is really my dad.

We've been walking as we spoke. There are other people walking with us now, people I don't recognize. I assume they are my dad's friends. They're all crying at the sight of him. I haven't been paying attention to where we're going, but now I see we're coming upon a small white church with a long line of people outside the open door. I think I ask where we're going.

My dad says, in a weird run-on sentence that confuses me, "Guess where we're not going to the chur-uurrch!" The last three words he says in a somewhat creepy sing-song voice.

Bewildered, I repeat, "Guess where we're not going---?"

He interrupts, again in his sing-song voice, "to the chur--uurrch!"

The unsettled feeling I've had since coming across my aunt grows even stronger. I can tell that something big is about to happen.

But suddenly my alarm goes off and it's time to wake up.

Quick note: I think I have been using MILD as a dream incubation technique, and that using it actually causes my dreams to be weirder, as well as inserting elements that are meant to be incongruent. For instance, focused on the statement, "I want to be lucid in my next dream" and fell asleep. First thing, a friend of mine approaches with a book on "How to be lucid in your next dream." I promptly ignore this information and proceed along my non-lucid path to delusion.

I have a fragment that exists before my actual memories. I'm going down a road, and meet a vendor, and he asks me if I have a particular mount already. It's a polar bear mount? I tell him that my Draenei could use it. I was up on a ridge. It feels oddly, in retrospect, like I may have been in Feralas?

The earliest point in the dream that I can truly say I remember is me walking down a road, in a grassy, urban area in a large valley? I recall red rocks. Anyway, I eventually came to a small station, which looked perhaps like a gas station, but wasn't, exactly. There were three gnomes there, and it became readily apparent that this was a quest hub. They had daily quests available, but I was able to turn them in, as I had done them in the past. So I turned them in, and it activated a teleporter that took me to a place called Solitude. It is irrelevant, as I don't really remember the location it took me to.

The final phase of the dream (and the only other part I remember) took place in a car, and I was driving around what appeared to be the same geographical area. Red rocks, lots of grass, valley, roads. My grandfather, and some other people were there. Man, this took place after a long and intense dream segment that's related to both of these, but that I can't remember. Anyway, I was riding in a car with grandcharles and some students. He was soon to be taking a class on Kurt Vonnegut. Or maybe teaching it? No, taking it, because I later found out that Shelly Huth would be teaching it. ANYWAY. Someone made some statement about the book (Slaughter House Five, I think) that I didn't agree with at all, but instead of attack the viewpoint, I was going to direct grandcharles to a quote in the book itself, something for him to focus on while reading. I paraphrased the quote, but someone else (another future student in the class, I assume) said that I had it all wrong, and insisted we look up the quote. Turns out it wasn't where I thought it was, it was in the back of the book, buried in fields of other quotes and pictures of space. I didn't get it just right, and when grandcharles read it, he stated that it probably referred to the marriage ritual Vonnegut had created for him and all of his descendants (no such ritual exists, to my knowledge). I remember claiming that it could be viewed as a companion quote to something that exists in the opening of Cat's Cradle. Then, my girlfriend woke me up.

(First dream) I don't remember.

(Second dream)
I was outside in the city about to cross the street. I was waiting for the right time and I think a girl passed by me so I crossed. Somehow I met a man who wanted me to try eating different things I think. Maybe it was a competition...I'm not really sure. After that I was at my house living room and my brother and cousin was there. I was laying on the couch seeing images of sword art online characters and the word wataoumote Episode 1 The kiss showed up in front of me. I think I heard Japanese music playing until I noticed there were people outside the window near the house. I tried to hide but I was too slow. A man came up to the window and took a picture of us and showed us the picture inside the camera. I saw us but we were mini people on motorcycles. My brother said maybe they could get us on TV. But i said maybe not cause they like perfect faces on TV, xD

(Third Dream)
I recall being on a small platform high in the sky that was high in the sky. Disney XD characters were there and the star from kickin it fell off it. I tried pulling him up but I gave up on him and let him fall. Anyways... the platform went down and I slid down the slide. I was now in a park where half people sized colorful teddy bears were fighting people. I ran up to one and tore off its arm. Than I used it to hit the other teddy's head off. It was fun and funny to see what was happening. I told others to do what I did but as I was walking I left the scene. I was now in my kitchen with my cousins and younger brother. There was a boy sitting on the counter staring at my cousin cause he wanted to have it with her. I got mad but when I noticed my brother I hugged him and was happy again. I left the kitchen after that cause my sister came and she brought cookies. I ate 3 and than my cousin said she was leaving. I was surprised she was leaving and in the dark too cause she lives with us now. But I said OK and suddenly the scene changed. I was now in a house that was bright but was somewhat similar to my house. There were doctors and military police officers sitting on the table trying to get info out my dad. I was shocked. One of the men told my dad to pull out a camera laptop that was hidden under the couch. I left the place to let them take care of their buisiness only to find my parakeets missing from their cage. I screamed at my dad and everyone to tell me what happened. Especially since I saw the windows were open. However when I went to the bathroom they were there in a dirty cage. I took out their dirty water cup to wash it but stopped cause my cousin shouted that my dad was having a heart attack. My other cousin was mad cause she said I shouldn't have been told that. I was praying my dad would be OK as I walked to the crowd of doctors and military police officers and saw my dad sit up. The crowd of experts said he would be OK. I was really happy and thought that there was really someone looking out for me. But I also was confused cause in the dream my dad looked way older like in the 60s maybe. After that I left the living room to wash the cup but noticed I was naked with poorfy hair. DX I told my cousins to stop following and staring at me but they said they were girls too so It shouldn't be a problem. I went into a room and lost them but another girl came in naked so I screamed and told her to get out. She apologized for freaking me out than left. I started thinking about anime to change the scenery and appeared in a room with my mom and other ladys who were customizing Japanese game characters. I pointed to the screen to show my mom how I could read the hiragana but not the kanji. One word was maiagarou. She said why would you- to me after I said that and I woke up. I think the dream cut her sentence off.

(Fourth dream)
I was trying to stop a boy from killing his sister. I tried flooding the house but I don't think it worked. Later in the dream I had a false awakening where my sister woke me up and offered me cookies. I checked the calendar after that than noticed some messages on it than woke up.

1. I was outside of a house on the corner of my street, I had seen this house before, so nothing seemed unsual. I walked inside the house and found myself in a theatre. Everyone was sitting down waiting for something to begin. I sat down next to some guy wearing a mask, from a movie. Then an announcer came in and told us someone special was among us, and that it was the actor guy wearing the wierd sci-fi mask. Everyone turned and looked toward him, at this point I became the guy in the mask. The announcer told me to talk in my creepy alien voice. I got up and stood on a seat so hopefully everyone could see me. But not everyone could so the announcer told me to wait and I could go around and talk in my wierd voice to everyone in a second. So I sat back down and seconds later, the real actor and owner of the mask came to me and told me he was going to be going around talking to his fans. I said ok and tossed him the mask. The mask was orange and looked like an alien for star trek or something, and it was also slimy. After I gave him the mask I decided to walk out of the house. I wasnt the only one who left, a whole group of people left as well. I stood on the sidewalk in front of the house and talked to the people outside for a minute. After that, they all left and I was on my way leaving as well. Upon leaving I remembered that I had left my snapback in the theater, so I walked to go get it. As I walked back I wondered what a beautiful day this would be if it were a dream. haha. I ran inside and found that the theater inside had turned into a regular interior of a normal house. I looked around, there were many rooms, each had a small staircase so you could get to them. I yelled out "Anyone home" because I felt intrusive being in someones house I didnt know. An answer from a man saying, "Yea who's there" returned and I explained that I came in to get my hat. I entered a room and found my hat and the owner of the house along with it, he made sure I got my hat and then made sure I did nothing else. I walked out and went back to my house to chill. When I walked inside a small black dog was there waiting for me. I played with it but then it started getting aggressive so I decided to leave it. I walked away but the dog followed me and continued biting me. I remember at some point asking the dog why he bited me, and he said, "Because I like rock music." [WTF??] But anyways, I tussled with this little dude for a while and eventually I pinned him down on his side after he gave me a good deep bite. I held him there and watched him squirm. I think I eventually let him go. But then he started biting me again. Just then I looked out the front door and saw an old grandma sprinting towards my back door. I became a little scared and waited until the old lady had opened up my back door, then I opened the front door and ran out. I ran to my neighbors house directly to the left of mine and just ran in and told them what was going on. I closed the door and explained how some old lady was on the loose and after me and told the girl I was talking too to lock the back doors. She went to do so. I glanced out the front door of this house and saw again the old lady sprinting towards the back of the house. I locked the front door and told the girl I was talking to a second earlier that the lady was coming and to lock the doors quick. I ran to the back of the house to make sure she did so. Once I got to the back door I locked one side. The back entrance was two doors wide. But the girl couldnt lock the second door. She decided that it would be a great idea to instead open the door and proclaim that she couldnt lock it. The old grandma ran in and seized me with her car keys. It was my grandma, she told me if I ever ran away again that she'd "have me". She even stabbed me once with her keys. Any who once that resolved I found myself listening to the girl and how she hated this house and didnt want to live in it, I asked her why. She said she was being forced to watch movies with these 2 old men, and then they came over to the kitchen where we were. The old men told me about how they were watching old vietnam war movies and listening to rock music. The one old man was tall and was wearing panties in see through spandex. I was disgusted but kept it to myself. The old men continued talking and I began eating these chewy gummy like candies while listening. This is where it ended.

2. I was following my dad by going through a secret passage to get into my house. I climbed in an opening in the floor and tried to get out but got stuck. I immediatly blamed my sister who walked over the door lock right before I emerged out of the floor. She apologized, but I was still stuck halfway in the floor. I decided to remove some tiles so I could crawl foward and get out, and I did so. However I removed too many tiles and took some tiles from underneath the fridge. I replaced them quickly, my dad noticing none of this.

3. I was in my room and was hanging out with my friends patrick, dylan, and trey. We were all chilling in my room and I was trying on some of my shoes. I had new shoes that I had never seen before, but it didnt occur to me. I was talking to patrick while putting on a pair of green high tops, and he was telling me about how something was fair. Once I tied on the shoes I stayed sitting down and talked. I remember going into my closet again sometime and seeing alot of new stuff.

4.I was in a dark alley, planning to save someone with the real batman, and batman beyond. It was kinda wierd really because Batman Beyond in this dream was old and crusty and was wearing a blue suit instead of a black one, and he didnt have a mask. We devised a way to save someone and kill these hostile guys. At one point I insulted batman beyond in a way I didnt mean too and he told me, "Hey, Im the batman that came out of a trunk with no parents." I didnt reply, but instead agreed with him in my mind as if, "oh yea thats how his story line went".

5. I was in Kroger with my mom and sister. I was quite hungry so I looked around for something good. My mom came to me out of no where and recommended that I get these spinach enchiladas with cheese. I told her I was good and instead focused on some fresh cut salmon from Private Selection<<< a company.

6. I was in an underground system of tunnels. I noticed my sister wasnt following me anymore. I looked ahead to the tunnel infront of me and noticed that walls were building themselves inside of it out of cement blocks. I ran inside the tunnel and jumped over 3 or 4 walls until I couldnt go any further because the walls completed themselves. I looked back toward the entrance trieng to see if anyone was there, but there was no one. I remember somehow making it deeper into the tunnels, and then my sister appearing. We re united and made our way down ward 90 degrees down ward in fact, so basically a hole. As we went down it an enemy attacked us and was about to kill my sister when I finally killed it. Once I did, I saw that my sister was extremely low on health, and she said that she wanted to leave so she wouldnt die, I said ok and we made our way out.

* Dream recall improving, Im starting to remember really early dreams that I had in the beginning of the night.

Dream - Lucid

My grandpa was still alive, but he knew he didn't have much time left. I was with him, my mom, and my aunt Marge, though I feel as if there were more people there too. They were all very sad about him dying, but he was at peace with it, and was trying to make the most of his last moments.

I was then somewhere else, though the situation had not changed. I opened a door, and saw my grandpa sitting in a chair at the head of a table. His hair appeared different than it ever was IWL, with streaks of red, some blonde and maybe brown as well, though the red is what I really remember. I then caught a quick glimpse of my mom and aunt, who were sad and not wanting him to go. I feel like they were asking him, pleading with him not to die. He looked at peace.

My aunt Marge closed to door. I wasn't supposed to be there for some reason.

~

I was at my old job, which was a department store. It was nighttime. I was in the building with a few other associates.

I was over by the women's fitting rooms, when I saw some lava leaking from a crack that it had caused in the wall. I remember going back to it a little later, and more was coming out. I started trying to cover it with clothing, but, of course, the clothing just caught fire and burned up. I felt as if we were trapped.

I then had another idea. I went to another fitting room with another associate, and we started looking for fire retardant clothing. We looked through lots of packaged pajama sets that normally the store receives around Christmas. I went through lots of red ones. Then, a supervisor, Charles, came up to us.
"Those aren't going to work," he said.
I imagined the fitting rooms slowly filling with lava.

Someone went back in the fitting rooms a little later to get something, and I was surprised when they came back out, because some time had passed, and I figured it was filled with lava by now.

Then, I was close to the front of the store by the doors, when Ashley, another associate and my IWL friend, came back in. I asked her if there was a way out, and she said no, there wasn't. I imagined it outside, us surrounded by lava or erupting volcanoes. I knew we were doomed to die in the building. We all knew.

I then approached Jaime, a manager, and asked her if she had anything strong we could take. If we were gonna die slowly, may as well not be able to feel anything. She took a silver package of these big pills out of her purse. They were Percoset, a strong pain killer (never taken them IWL). She gave one to me, one to Ashley, and took one for herself. The pill was wrapped in another piece of plastic besides the silver packaging, but it was supposed to dissolve when you took it. I put it in my mouth to swallow it. It immediately tasted very bitter. I tried to swallow it, but it was such a big pill, it was proving to be difficult. I really wanted the bitter taste out of my mouth. Before I swallowed it, I already started to feel the effects of the pill. I figured it was a fast-acting pill for those who were in major pain. I remember Jaime chewing her pill. I didn't understand how she could stand the bitter taste.

I woke up for a little bit, then went back to sleep, entering the same dream.

The pill was in full effect now, and I went to the bathroom to pee. I looked down at the tiled floor, and the designs on the white floor tiles appeared to be oscillating. Yeah, definitely feeling the pill. I stood up, and then, even though I did not feel the need to pee, I kept peeing. I peed a lot.

~

I was at the department store I used to work at again, setting up some display on the endcap of a register. It was almost Christmastime. I thought to myself that it seemed so soon for Christmas; it felt as if we had just had it. I remembered the year prior with my husband, who was then my fiance. It seemed like just yesterday.

Then, Ashley walked by. She was wearing a black maxi skirt that was slightly sheer, but only at the legs, and a black top. She said
"It's been a year, and I'm going to be possessive of you, _____, and _____." I can't remember what else she said besides me.
Apparently, Ashley was my wife. She had some issues about Christmas; something about the holiday made her feel insecure. I understood this, and was not upset by it. I just wanted her to be happy. I "remembered" kissing her, and thought about how I never thought I would marry a woman, and how my family never saw it coming either. But I loved Ashley; she was my wife.

I then "remembered" driving to see her the prior year on Christmas, and taking pictures of the road on my way and sending them to her. I remember one in particular of the interstate in front of me. I was in the far left lane, and there was a metal chain-link fence on the divider. I think a semi-truck was also in the picture.

~

I was walking through a city in the daytime. It was sunny out. It reminded me of a video game. I was with my husband, Dallas. The objective of the real-life game was to kill the governor. I had a shotgun on me.

Dallas and I split up at some point. I was walking the streets alone, searching for the governor. I feel like I encountered some people and talked to them, but I can't quite recall. I noticed my husband's absence, and wondered where he was.

I then approached a building and entered it. It was a library. I was standing in the huge foyer. There was a service desk in front of me, and behind it, glass windows looking into a room with computers and books. The floors were dark wood, and the lighting was sort of a "mood" lighting, not too dim but just right. Immediately, I recognized this library as one from a dream I had years ago, and knew I was dreaming. The dream quality instantly started to suffer, so I concentrated on my hands so as not to lose lucidity. My hands were changing as I looked at them, turning into baby hands and sprouting extra fingers. I walked as I kept focus on them, and the dream seemed to stabalize.

I approached a young, tall, skinny girl standing at a podium. She looked to be in her early teens, and had dark hair pulled back into a ponytail.
"What's your name?" I inquired.
"Jaime," she responded.
"Jaime, are you a real person, or are you part of my mind?"
"Part of your mind," she responded with a smile. As she said this, she stepped out from behind the podium.

I then went somewhere else, up some stairs I believe, and into a very crowded hallway with a balcony overlooking the foyer. It was circular and stretched around the edges of the room. I approached a blonde boy, probably about the same age as Jaime, and found out his name was Josh. He didn't really seem happy. He reminded me of someone I met IWL at my old job. He had the same name as well. He looked similar too, though much younger. I was having trouble getting him to look at me in the eye. I took his shoulders in my hands and said something to him, though I can't remember what. I was trying to get him to see something.

I then was not sure what else to do with my lucidity. I didn't feel like I had much more time. I could not remember any goals I had prior to falling asleep. So I decided to do something I actually haven't done in a long time in my dreams: Fly. I took a running start, and people started to look, telling their friends to look because I was going to fly. I ran up and down the hallway a few times before I decided a running start wasn't the best way for me to do this. I leaned over the balcony. I saw all the people across from me on the other side of the hallway, and everyone below me in the foyer. I wasn't sure about this, since I had not done it in so long, but I let myself fall from the balcony. I then flew. Everyone was cheering me on. I was going very fast, however, and felt out of control of my speed, though I could rise and fall when I pleased; when I thought about going higher, I would, and when I thought about going lower, I would. I was just going so fast...

The cheers then started to slow way down, like when a record is slowed down. I had an FA in my bed. I kept my eyes closed for awhile, but finally decided to get up out of bed, because I was hearing what sounded like someone peeing, or water trickling into water. When I went to get up, however, I noticed that my feet were already touching the floor, as if I was half standing, and half laying down in my sleep. I got all the way up and walked down the hallway. I noticed my husband standing in the guest bathroom doorway. The lights were off in there. That's odd, I thought he went to work. I got closer and noticed his shorts were pulled down, and he was peeing. Is he sleep peeing?

Upon getting closer, I noticed he was peeing in my cat's water dish! My cat, Belle, was just standing there too, watching. I started getting really pissed at him (no pun intended), and yelled at him for doing that. I know that he and my cat don't really get along, but seriously?? I started yelling at him to stop, and asking him how he would feel if someone peed in his water. He said something smart-assy back to me. As I was raging, he started to walk away into the kitchen, which was much, much bigger than our IWL kitchen, which actually brought me to lucidity for a second, but I was so angry that I lost the lucidity in my rage. I noticed that the kitchen had chopped up potatoes all over it; the counters and every surface were covered. I knew he had done this just to spite me. I asked him if he was going to clean it up, and he shook his head no. I was so fucking angry. I went into the guest room, which also looked much different, and tried to slam the door, but the coat rack on the top prevented me from doing so (this does happen IWL). Ugh, I was so angry!

Then I woke up for real.

~

Ugh, I can't believe I couldn't remember what I wanted to do with my lucidity. Maybe another night. I'll just keep incubating my ideas, and hope that they come through into my dreams. Glad for the lucidity though! Woot woot!!

Morning of July 15, 2014. Tuesday.



I am seemingly in the living room in Cubitis (middle childhood home), but it is somewhat distorted in layout. An unknown taller, slimmer older lady with mostly lighter gray hair and I think wire-rim glasses is there in the southeast area and I am at some sort of table or desk in the southwest area, but closer to the hallway entrance. She seems to be either some sort of teacher or just there to watch and comment on what I am doing or supposedly learning.

There was a lot more to this dream but it was quite distorted and involved quite a bit of in-dream reading. I am, at one point near the ending - reading a page near the front of a large book with two main aspects or ingredients that are supposed to be part of some sort of concoction relating to something like magic or developing some sort of more focused insight or greater success in upcoming endeavors. There is a word or name that is something like “Agnatha”, which in reality relates to silver lampreys (eels). After that is some some sort of abbreviation that reads exactly as “aN” (lowercase a followed immediately by uppercase N) which is supposed to mean “silver” or be a symbol for silver in my dream but is not correct. The actual symbol for silver is Ag, which is curious, as that is the beginning of “Agnatha” (the next syllable being “an” in reverse).

Apparently, “Natha” also relates to a Buddhist deity as well as a sect: “Natha, religious movement of India whose members strive for immortality by transforming the human body into an imperishable divine body” - which loosely seems to relate to one part of the in-dream book mentioned above. None of this was on my mind in any way, though I have taught chemistry in the recent past. Typical layered composite “gibberish” for this dream-type.

Just realized that Agnatha could be written as AgNaThA, which would be one atom of silver, sodium - and isotope Thorium A whatever that would produce.

I'm walking through a neighborhood with my sister. There's a family, with a young, blonde girl, in front of us; we pass them. We see a house with two connected motor homes parked in front. There are middle aged women in bikinis on the front lawn, organizing things.
Now, we have arrived at the beach. The sand looks soft and bright, the water sparkling and clear. I slip out of my flip flops and take off my shirt and get it.
There is a picnic bench in the water with a lot of kids sitting on it. I want to set up on the beach, but my sister wants to set up on the table.
We are on the table and it is spinning. I go underwater and hold on to the table.
Now, I am to the left of the table, spinning the little blonde girl on a tube. She is having fun.

I'm walking barefoot through a dark neighborhood. I am trying to get to a Suice Silence concert (even though I don't like them as much as I used to) but am a bit lost. I look at a GPS, see where I am and need to go, and feel stupid for making a stupid mistake. Now, at 5:00 - the start of the show - I'm approaching town. I see my uncle walking around.

7/14/14

Last night bed at midnight, exhausted from 2 jobs. Wanted to just take a nap and continue working. But woke up at 7 am.

Remembered 2 dreams. Seriously considered not writing one of them down, maybe would be better forgotten. Was not bad as in nightmare, I wasn't scared, but it was extremely uncomfortable. If I find out it was a result of my cat snuggling up to me again...

DR
So someone put a snake in my left chest. It's big. All coiled and twisted up. Everytime I move, it moves and stirrs. Tightens the coils, adjusts, moves a bit. So I stop moving, I'm barely even breathing now. But even then it moves a bit. God, i hate it. Someone is suppose to come to take it out. Now I'm looking into a room through a window. I see a man, holding a 4 ft long dead snake. Looks like he is gutted.

DR 2
I'm at work. Nobody is there though, only customers. Standing at a checkout, but lane is closed. No cashier. I'm there, trying to fix some gizmo, but I'm not a cashier. They are growing inpatient.

Dream 1
I see ANW, and he's putting a dish in the dog bowl. He mentions his putting some nutrients in the bowl, which helps get the fluoride out of it. I tell him it's got distilled water in it anyways.

The bowl is now the size of a baby pool and has distilled waters in it. Rex is trying to get his paws over the ledge to have a drink. I help him out by lifting the bowl down a little. Rex decides to jump in the bowl instead and lay down in it. He's loving it and putting his head under the water with no care in the world. I lift his head out of the water a bit to make sure he doesn't choke on water. I give him a bit of a bath while he's in there while he's enjoying himself.

I see that the bowl is empty now and can see the left over dirt from the water at the bottom of the bowl. I take it over to the bath and give it a wash.

Dream 2
Recorded at 9.00am

I'm at a house and shooting a shot gun at people in a house. It's a game so no one will die for real. Im on a killing spree and one shotting everyone I see. I'm now up against Daryl and I'm shooting him but he isn't dying. Im trying my hardest to bob and weave out of the way of his bullets. Waiting for my gun to auto reload was nerve racking as all I could do is pray that I didn't get shot.

We eventually stop trying to shoot each other and talk. I hear someone coming towards the door and I get passed a pistol off of Daryl. I point the gun at the person, which is an innocent old lady. Either myself or someone else threatens her as she stands there with a gun pointed at her head. I notice it's dark outside as she leaves the house. She walks over to another cabin and knocks on the window. It looks as if she's trying to alarm someone about what just happened.

We decide to leave the area. I see that we are on the oval of range bank. My brother is with us and is running as quick as he can with a young kid on his shoulders. I tell him to be careful in case he fell and the kid got hurt. He looked as if he was going so quick that he was running unsteadily. I start thinking about if this was a dream but nothing clicks for me to realise I'm actually dreaming.

We scale some sign posts and I think about the fun of being a kid without all this technology and how much better it was then the fun kids have these days. I try out a little trick out on the pole and see if I can get my body horizontal while still holding onto the bar. To my surprise I was doing It with ease. I showed my brother and was hoping he would try.

I tried WBTB, but instead every time I woke up and went to bed I had a short dream, in which I remember only about three of them.

1. I was battling a giant monster, after its defeat it turned into a human. My friend was a medium and tried contacting Albert Einstein's spirit to 'prank call' him.

2. Going to camp, we had to wear our sport uniform. Teacher forgot I was present and though I'd gone missing. Camp never happened just school. I skate out of school (without a skateboard, I was floating, like on a hover board, so I was technically flying - which is a dream sign. DAMN IT!). Jumping was float-like (dream sign. Damn).

3. Person from school was watching an anime and I got 'sucked' into the screen and was a part of it. We all lived/stayed at a giant house/mansion. My cats were there, Ollie (cat) turned into a kid, found Badger (cat) in a pond outside the house, swimming. Sims game turned into reality, I turned into a horse from the game and escaped the home and ended up at a school oval. I soon turned into Lucy Heartfillia (from Fairy Tail) and got called trashy names so I turned into a lost child and ended back at the house/mansion. Flying? Climbing walls like Spiderman. Suddenly at camp in some sort of hall. Neck touching game with Lisa Simpson there (we had to have hands on the people sitting beside us, sitting in a circle, and if they caught the prize the two people would have to tickle their necks and if they 'let go' and they would vibrate and lose the prize), somehow we had four arms, because two were on the necks of the people sitting next to me and two was reaching out for the prize.

One group weren't allowed 'camp' maids (we were staying at a fancy place) because they didn't fill out a diary we had to do (probably a subconscious thought about my DJ).

July 14, 2014

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During the night, I only have vague impressions that I had a clip-board. I have no idea why or even what the clip-board was like.



Then I took a 1.5 hour nap at 4:00, after my yet-again-long day as a teaching intern, and had this dream:

I was at the elementary school in which I am an intern for summer classes, and we were all in our class after the kids had left. Most of my actual cohort-mates were there, but a few of them were replaced with guys (IRL there's only one guy in the cohort). I was aiming for one of them, and hoping that another of them would end up with one of my friends (we'll call this other one George for now, since he comes in later).

The day was done and I decided to take a nap before heading home; so I curled up in one of the empty classrooms and dreamed that I was a prostitute on my first night on the job. When I woke up, I was thinking that I needed some money, and being a prostitute wouldn't be all that bad, anyways. So I went down the street to the Prostitution Center (which doesn't exist IRL) and asked to fill out a form to apply for work.

The secretary there didn't seem to like me; she noticed the hours I was logging in as "previous experience" and made some snide comment that I don't quite remember. She also noticed my class ring and rolled her eyes. Part of the job was that we had to lift three boxes of supplies per day, at the main building; they received shipments daily of things like condoms, kinky roleplay outfits, and silk and lace. Just before I was going to get taken on a tour of the facilities, I heard the beeping of a truck backing up, and then a few men came in with said boxes, placing them at the door. Two scantily clad women walked in on stilettos and each lifted a box, taking them beep inside the building. I saw those high heels and panicked for a moment.

"I'm not going to have to wear those heels, am I? I'll die, or kill a client or something."
The secretary shook her head, and led me to a door behind the counter. She opened it, and I followed her into a large factory-like room with concrete floors and tape lines to guide people and machinery. I didn't ask what they did in this room, but I assumed it was some fantasy- or fetish-room, for men who liked that sort of thing. The secretary pointed to another door on the opposite side and paused to inspect something or other. I went to the door, and opened it, holding it open and waiting for the secretary. I think she warmed up to me with that. She thanked me and we continued with the tour. The new room was an office-building; cubicles and photocopiers in dark corners and a whole row of boss's offices, doors shut and blinds pulled. Another fetish-room?

We exited that room into the open. There was another building in the business, so we would take the company's advertizing vehicle there. It was a dump-truck. But the bed of the dump-truck was a huge mattress (I didn't realize how hilariously punny that was until I woke up and texted Zukin about it, HAHAHA). The secretary gestured for me to hop into the bed, while she got into the cockpit. I felt vulnerable and exposed on the mattress, and to my horror, we were going to pass the school to get to the other building. I tried to hide my face, especially when I saw that some of the kids were actually still there, waiting for parents or perhaps a late bus. One of the kids was one of my rising 3rd graders, and I prayed she wouldn't see me. It was then that I decided that I probably shouldn't be a prostitute, because I was going to be a teacher, and it wouldn't look good.

As we approached the T-intersection where we'd turn right, I noticed a bit of a jam; the bus had gotten there, but the road was being blocked by a sudden accident, and the bus was having to get out of the jam by going around the left edge of the road, behind the trees which separated the road from a large drop (apparently we were on a high hill). I was impressed by this feat of maneuvering on the bus-driver's part, but I waved to the secretary and asked, "Sooo... What if I decided I don't really want to do this anymore?"

She just smiled and turned right, as if heading to the other building, but turned around in the driveway of the school, and dropped me off at the main building again. "So can we just go back in there and shred this application? Those hours I logged were a dream, anyways." I asked, glad that she understood.

"No problem. I'll do it for you even, so you don't have to go back in." I handed her the application, which I'd torn in half, and smiled.

"Thanks!"

She honked goodbye and drove off into the industrial parking lot of the main building. Since I didn't have my car, I went to the nearest bus stop, and as I walked, the world slowly shifted into an anime-ish world. A few of my cohort-mates were sitting at the bus stop when I got there. Apparently they had also just decided not to be prostitutes. We all started gossiping about the guys in our class. "So, George, right? He should totally be with *insert name of freind (not sure which one it was haha)*, right?" I said, and the other two looked at me, incredulous.

"Dude, no. He totally has a crush on you. It's pretty obvious." One of them said.

"What? Noooo." I laughed and shook my head.

"No, really. He watches you a lot, actually. You should tap that. He's got the looks AND the personality."

I thought about George, and smiled a little. He was pretty handsome... I decided to switch my target to him, and hope that my friend got with my original target.

Then I woke up because Zukin texted me (haha! It was right before my alarm was going to go off anyways, though)

7/14/14* My previous DJ entry was up there with my all time favorites. I just loved the setting and vividness. Tonight near lucid then lucid later. I'm in a parking garage. Guy pulls up in a car with a tarp over a big part of it. What do you have under there? He says he doesn't need to tell me. We need to know (am I police or security or something?). First thought=could be bomb! Then, it could be kidnapped kids...Sure enough dream comes up with 2 kids under the tarp. Some other guy struggles with guy that came in the car and also with the kids who are being brats. A relatively big tough guy nearby wants to stop me from intervening. "The three of us can take you," I start to say. He says some threats related to him not being afraid to go back to jail. I back off...wake=FA. I think to myself if I was lucid I could have knocked him around with TK! Tough guy and I are sharing a sleeping space now? I'm on couch and he crawls over me slowly...to go to the bathroom? I can feel him stepping on the couch in several places trying to make his way over me. I pretend to be asleep. When he gets back he seems to be cuddling me... Hell no, I think...uh...I need to go pee. I get up and say something like "gotta stop drinking so much water...gotta pee all the time (excuse)." I look back at him. He has this weird peeking eye?..One eye is slightly open but he is also snoring so I assume he is asleep. His feet are up on the couch and his upper half on the floor, face up. I head to the bathroom and I have to pull 2 doors together to lock it in a very loose fashion and I can still see out. While I am urinating I see a lady with a spotlight on her doing burlesque! I'm dreaming! I approach her. She changes to a different woman and then back. She is not really slender, dark hair and is in black lingerie. I think let's look around while doing a little dancing with her but I can't focus on the surroundings much. I start to have intercourse with the dancer lady standing up. Someone says "here's Mom" and a older motherly figure and an older fatherly figure show up. I take this as a test to my lucidity and think: no worries! I say "Hey mom, check her out" as I continue intercourse. "Hey check out these breasts" and I remove her bra..."nice breasts, right?!" Ok...let me get down to goals...I want to find Dreamer for the Bonus TOTM, but not here, not like this. I will teleport...closed eye
teleport. I say I want to arrive in a beautiful and vivid world...but perhaps I did not give it enough focus. I open my eyes and I am in a hazy storage room? There are stacked metal folding chairs in a few different spots. I look around a little while, but I am not seeing anything interesting and unfortunately lose patience. I try another teleport and instead of closing my eyes I clench my eyes like when I am trying to DEILD and I wake up or have a convincing FA of right where I'm at IWL...possibly FA because when I decide to roll over and check the time it feels like I am shaking off SP. Either way, awake. 174