non-lucid

July 19, 2014

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I woke up super early and remembered a dream or two, but didn't feel like writing them down, and had forgotten them by the time I woke up for reals. All I remembered is that Dizzy (my stuffed dog) had become GIANT.

July 18, 2014

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I was in a house with a few other people, but I don't remember who they were. The house was falling apart because of a huge tornado that had come through and almost killed us. The stairs, which had been completely ripped out during the storm, leaving splintered boards in the wall, were replaced with a ladder (I blame this on a book I had one of my students read to me. It was about going up and down stairs and ladders haha). The hall that the stairs had led to, which ran along the wall, was made of extremely weak boards placed across the opening where the floor had been. It looked a little bit like the side of the bathhouse in Spirited Away. I needed to get to a door at the end of those boards, and so I climbed the ladder just fine, but when I took a step out onto the weak boards, they broke and I fell through the the ground below. I stopped to think, and while I was contemplating strategies, I saw the man who had set up the ladder go up and walk across the board while holding the hand-rail. I had an idea, and tried again; I got up the ladder and stood at the start of the boards. I held the hand-rail and put most of my wheight on it while stepping on the boards. I made sure to keep my hands on the rail all the time, supporting just enough of my weight so that the boards could hold the rest. I finally made it to the door, opened it, and was in a kitchen-like room with a white linoleum floor. To my right was a hallway with about four doors on each side. I turned to my left and suddenly there was this creepy-ass woman standing right there, staring at me. She had on an apron, handkerchief around her hair, and held a ladle in her left hand.

"U-uhm. Hello..." I stammered.
"Who are you?" She demanded.
"I'm ---'s friend...!" (I said the name of someone who was downstairs, who had told me to come up here, though I forget who it was. I remember that it was a guy, though)
The woman was suddenly all peachy. "Ohh, a friend of his? Why didn't you say so?" She led me to a door on the other side of the room, which led to a loft-type thing looking over the living room, where my friend stood. He waved up to me and said, "Mom, are you bothering her?"
The woman waved the ladle and denied it. "I'm going to show her my ---s" (she called them something, but I can't remember hat they were called)
My friend laughed and said to me, "Oh, you're in for a treat! She only shows them to people she likes!"
I was still a little creeped out by the woman, but followed her back into the linoleum room, and she led me to what looks like a fridge that was right next to the door I'd come in through before. When I got closer, I realized it was a series of cages of some sort, and out of it the woman took a handful of these little creatures; about half the size of a hedgehog, and covered in what looked like little rocks and sticks. They were like a pokemon! I played with one of them for a while, and wanted to keep it, but gave it back to the woman when she put them all back into the cages. Apparently, these were prize-winning what-ever-they-weres. She took them to shows and they won Best In Show every time. I felt honored to have gotten to play with them. The woman told me that on Pine Day (a holiday for my street apparently) I could carry one around with me all day as a treat.

Last night went okay, I was able to fall asleep quiet fast despite the warm weather... that was until I woke up around 03:30. I was wide awake, so warm and I started almost panicking about how long this night would last. I was too scared to even move as it could wake me up even more, I was content with the fact I was in that limbo mode of sleep/awake where time seemed to pass faster than normal.

Anyway, two dreams.

1. A small problem

It's the first day of the school year and I'm waiting in the hallway infront of a class with some other students to get the administration done. Someone walks out and I'm called inside, the class is larger than normal and there's one table with on one side 2 chairs on which two of my teachers sit, on the other side no chair. I walk up to the table and crouch on my knees instead, the floor is very soft almost like a sponge and it's quiet comfortable. One of the teacher says we should start with the paperwork, they start checking some files and after a minute he notices something. He tells me there's a problem with one page, it has a small hole in it that somehow corresponds to a file in the court of justice. It has something to do with a drug case and they ask me if I have anything to do with it, I respond saying I don't know of anything and they say it wouldn't be much of a problem. After some minutes they're done and lead me outside the class, they tell me it's all done and smile.

2. I'm quiet good at this!

I'm playing some game called 'Dwarf fortress', it's really difficult cause it uses ASCII-art and uses icons instead of graphics. I embark somewhere on a cold tundra and dig down, there I make a base. After some time the ASCII-icons fade away in a 3D graphic overview of the fort and it looks really good. I'm impressed with my work but notice how deserted everything is, then I notice a message in the bottom right of the screen which says some epidemic is going around and most dwarfs are either death or have abandoned the place.

This day I went to the beach and after some hours I got bored and decided to maybe do something that could help me with lucid dream control in the future. As you might've heard already one of my goals in lucid dreaming is to relive the Normandy landings of D-Day. There weren't many people anyway so I thought I could give it a shot. I went about 50 meters into the sea which was pretty much the limit of how far you were allowed to go that day. Then I looked back at the beach and tried visualizing the scene, I imagined MGs scattered throughout the polder embankments and mortars shells exploding on the beach. Then I tried to get up to the beach as fast as possible, I swear I could almost hear the gunfire and stuff. I kept it quiet discreet though, I must say even with just some swimming shorts on I was exhausted 70 meters up the beach.

July 20, 2014 10:28AM

3mg melatonin before bed around 12AM

My rating: 3/5

Good dream but bad recall. 2 dreams.

First one was great! Tho vague. I woke up and went right back to sleep on it. I was in an old house exploring it. Instead of just walking from room to room i was going through a network of crawlspaces and mini tunnels all over the house. I needed my light most of the time because it was so dark. Most of these tunnels were lined with plywood sheets and sone had spider webs in it. There were in doors and out doors, vents, pipes, ect. I came out upon a few rooms in the house and some rooms i could only get to via the tunnels. The rooms of the house were pretty dim lit. It was day i believe but curtains covered every window. Wish i knew more about this dream but the sequence of events is vague now.

+I was at a big entertainment/zoo/shopping center. The kind you see in big touristy areas. it started out as a single building we were all in, people were everywhere, there were pools people dived in. But eventually it all became out doors. It was a sunny day, but later in the afternoon. I went to one spot where there was a water slide, and fish. I hung out there for a bit watching the fish. The water was light blue and opaque. I went down the slide thing once into the water but never felt getting wet. I went to a store later that sold mini hatchets for some reason then when i was walking out i put my hand in a big fish tank thing except this tine i could feel it and it was warm. Then i woke.

Dream - Lucid

I was at my old apartment, and a younger guy was living there. He looked to be about 20 or so, and had long, very curly dirty blonde hair. He was talking about how small the beds were at the apartment, and I agreed with him, telling him that I had to sleep on a pull-out couch, and Courtney C. had to scoot two beds together. I also told him that I got my own room to sleep in, while she had to sleep elsewhere in the apartment, even though she had her own room.

I then remember having to work. It was supposed to be at where I'm currently working, but I was having to greet people as they were entering this bungee jump ride. It was kind of like a video game at this point; it makes me think of Animal Crossing. Some of the people looked like they were made in that art style. Anyway, to greet them, I had to "click"on them, and they would say "Thank you!" in a little voice. It took me awhile to figure out how to greet them. Being greeted made them happy, and gave me points.

I then went back to my old apartment to sleep. I had to get up again in 4 hours to go back to work and work another 4 hours doing something else. When I walked in, the curly guy was in the living room fixing something. I thought that he was lucky that he didn't have to work a split shift. I went and took my Ambien to go to sleep, and laid down in the bed.

Then, I woke up for work again. I couldn't remember what my task that night was. I was thinking customer service, but that didn't seem right. I got there, and then remembered: I needed to go to the hospital. It was my due date for my baby. So I went there, which it just so happened to be where work was, and went into this room that had a hospital exam table, a hospital bed, a TV that had the news turned on, and 3 or so other pregnant women sitting in it. It was a kind of holding area for pregnant women who may go into labor. My mom was there with me. Apparently, I wasn't actually due for another two weeks and was having signs of early labor, so they wanted to monitor me. If I showed signs of labor, they would have to do an emergency C-section.

Then, it was just me and the pregnant women in the room. I was wondering if it would be alright for them to give me pain medicine even though I'd already had an ambien 4 hours prior. I laid down on the bed and watched the TV a little bit. I also remember seeing my reflection in something at some point, and thinking to myself that I didn't look pregnant, and I hadn't looked it when I had my daughter a few years ago either. I wondered what happened to her; my mom had adopted her, but I hadn't heard about her in awhile. I figured my mom had adopted her out to another family. I thought to myself that I should remember what happened to my daughter.

Then, I started to feel something dripping down my leg. I looked and saw a bit of blood. I then had the urge to lay down on my back and start pushing; I felt a twinge in my belly urging me to do so. So I started to lay on my back, and thought to myself
I was so glad that she shared her pain pills with me.
It sounded like I was narrating what was happening to me. I'm not sure who gave me pain pills or when, I just know it was one of the expectant mothers in the room.
I then felt the pain pills; I felt woozy and high, but no pain. The nurses rushed in and said they were going to put me under for the C-section. I said something back, but I don't remember what. They said it wouldn't matter because I wouldn't remember. They put the mask to my face to put me out, and I breathed it in a few times. I was then out like a light.

The next thing I knew, I was waking up in the room again, but things had calmed down. I got up out of the bed, even though I knew I probably wasn't supposed to. I was careful not to exert myself too much since I had just had a C-section. I held the area on my tummy where the stitches were. The room was empty now; I was alone in it. I wanted to know where my baby was, if it was a boy or girl, if it was even alive...

The doctor eventually came in to talk to me. They said that the baby was alive, it was a boy, but they had to amputate one of his legs.
"Was the cord wrapped around it?" I asked, thinking for sure that was what it had to be.
"No, it was because of a birth factor," said the doctor.
He then explained birth factors to me, and they run on a sliding scale back and forth, and whatever the factor is on when the birth happens determines if the baby has anything wrong with them or not. My birth factor had been high, while a low one would have also been bad. It was ideally supposed to be in the middle.

The fact that my child had a severed leg made me remember all the dreams I've had about having to get a leg or foot amputated, or about seeing people with prosthetic limbs (IWL this actually is a very common dream theme for me, though it hasn't been lately until last night). I then wondered if it was the Ambien that I had taken all throughout my pregnancy that caused this.

Anyway, I was so glad that my baby was alive, despite the leg. I knew I would love him just the same, and raise him like he did not have a defect. I walked into the nursery to see him. He was in a chamber at the very end of the room that had caution tape taped around the inside of it. Below the chamber was a bucket with two severed legs in it, although my child had only had one amputated. They almost looked like baby doll legs. There was a little blood. I wondered if that was just the holding chamber for severed legs.

I then was back in the holding area, and my husband came in. He was excited that I had had the baby! He asked if it was a boy or girl, and I said boy. His face lit up, and he got really excited. I had never seen him so excited about anything! I then told him about the leg. It seemed to slightly temper his excitement, but he was, like me, just glad the baby was ok. I imagined holding the baby, and putting him on my shoulders to play with him. I wondered if it would be different to do so because he had one leg.

I was then shopping with my mom at Kohl's for some baby supplies. I knew I needed bottles, so I went and found a package of three colored bottles that had Disney character head cut-outs at the nipple. I saw Mickey and Donald, but noticed that the third bottle was missing. I then picked up the package, and noticed that the Donald bottle had water in it. I told my mom that I had wanted to get those, but not if they had been used and were missing a bottle. I didn't see any more, either; it appeared to be the last one.

Wow, this dream was so vivid. Again, barely any sleep, but when I did sleep, holy crap. Definitely a memorable dream.

I'm sitting in the passenger seat of a car. There is someone sitting next to me. A male. I feel like it's definitely Stiles that's next to me. But there are no details. It's like we are just souls, like light without bodies.

So I volunteer at the zoo.

I don't remember much, but the other night I dreamed that:

I leave the indoor elephant area to find Captain Picard (who I know to be the zoo curator) and the elephants' zookeeper sitting on lawn chairs facing the outside area of the elephant exhibit. There's an empty lawn chair between them, but Picard tells me to feed the elephants instead of sitting. Obliging, I pick up a basket of eggs and throw them one by one at a basketball hoop that's high up on the outside of the gate. However, I miss all that I try to throw (and hit an elephant once), so I turn back to Picard and say something like, "Can we just not? 'Cause all I'm really doing is egging the elephants." Picard nods, stands, and says something that I don't remember, then we all leave together.

Recorded at 9:00am

I meet some guy on a bike. He's an older man and is extremely friendly.

I'm with Daz and a couple other guys when we decide to go surfing. I see a commercial or TV show, showing surfing in New Zealand. The waves look massive. They're barreling and look think as. Looks similar to teahupoo waves.

We reach the beach and make our way out into the water. It's extremely flat at the moment. I see a couple larger females in the water and they're gazing our way. My board seems to feel oversized.

I'm waiting for waves next to one of the blokes and we're getting along quite well. We seem to have similar personalities. He asks if he can push me off the board. I seem to be at a greater height then if I was normally on the surfboard.

Daryl and the other guy are chatting amongst each other. The other guy seems to feel awkward talking to Daryl.

After the surf we head back to the house and the sun glasses I borrowed seem to have gone missing. I'm feeling pretty bad as they were not mine In the first place. I think they were Daryl's ex girlfriends or his sisters.

We're outside and I see the man on the bike again. I walk over to him and have a quick chat.

There's a fence that we all have to squeeze under and I seem to think that I wouldn't be able to fit. The man on the bike burns or blows up the fence to widen it a little.

Before we knew about the widening of the hole, one of us got a massive run up and got slingshotted into the fence to try and widen it. But because of the fence already being widened, he slammed right into the fence and went splat.. Not knowing what had just happened earlier. It was as if it was straight out of a cartoon the way he hit the fence.

I'm now in a house with the guy I surfed with and he was telling me about how he would get a ball thrown at him, not knowing what was inside of if. He would get a bit freaked out by it. He tells me that I don't have that fear if I was in the same situation.

I notice the windows and think of them as great ways to capture pure water through the dew that sits on the window. I wonder how much I could capture off of the window.

I'm now watching the TV which is a poker show, staring Robbo from the newspapers.

I'm now in the game myself and i get dealt pocket 2's. I end up with 5 of a kind, which is impossible. I knew this was odd but didn't think too much into it. Once the hand is finished I soon realise that I must have misread my hand and only had 4 of a kind.

As we're starting to get the next hand ready, i see that there's some weird looking cards in the deck. They are oversized and have random stuff written on them.

I see a clear plastic bag, and I look to see what's in there. It's a pair of pink pair of goggles. I wonder if this is what I was looking for earlier.

First part of the dream, I was notified about school clubs, I don't ever remember them being read out but I ended up choosing child care at first.

I was in this floating oval field with dirt and there were kids everywhere. My brother was there and started having a grudge towards my choice for clubs, telling me "you just chose it because you think its easy, it's really not." Eventually I realized I didn't want to do this and quit and began thinking about other clubs.

I was then having an online chat with one of my friends from school (who we'l call Bryan), he was talking about getting his own sword for the sword club and was checking the law of Australia to see if it was okay to own a sword, apparently it was. Then it clicked, I wanted to join the sword club.

I then had a flashback of the clubs being read out, specifically sword fighting, it was a club you couldn't back out of and only the strongest and bravest could join. I was having second thoughts but I finally came to the decision to do it.

Next thing I know I'm in some kind of dojo, Bryan was there along with someone else from school who we'll call Jeremy. Jeremy could turn into the hulk and I thought it suited him.

I'm suddenly on the edge of the cliff, I see myself in third person on top of a golden orange dragon about the size of Toothless from How To Train Your Dragon. My friend Bryan was there and told me that mounting the dragon was a good first step for that day and we should probably head back. I looked at him with disappointment, but I wanted to fly. Then I started walking my dragon closer to the cliffs edge, down below was the ocean, waves hit the sharp rocks below, but I knew I could do this. Bryan started protesting, telling me I better not do what he thinks I'm doing. Without a thought, I ordered my dragon to fly off. At first I had no control, I was going really fast, I tried going down and just before we could hit the water, my dragon swooped up and I was in control of him.

Soon I flew into a city and spotted a puppy falling from a skyscraper. I had my dragon swoop down and catch it just before it hit the ground. I got to the ground safely and returned the dog to its owner. Bryan came flying next to me on his dragon with a scowl at first, but realized my actions and smiled, he patted my back and told us to get out of there.

I was back into first person, and I was some sort of shopping centre with two of my other friends, one of them popped a massive balloon and I don't remember anything exciting happening there.

Last night was so hot I actually decided to make my T-shirt wet and sleep on towels, however after 1 hour it did get quiet cold so I decided to go shirtless instead. Then it was too hot again, in the end I managed to fall asleep around 03:00.

1. This is art!

I'm in some art/cultural class and it's the end of the year, our last task is to make a self portret... out of the VOMIT FROM OTHER PEOPLE! Really she showed us a small bottle of brown vomit and told us it was excellent for painting. I exit the class without much trouble and start asking around for people to vomit into a bottle I'm holding. I end up driving past a game shop and stopping to pick up a public Phone, I ask in English if the person would like to meet up with me and 'donate' some of his vomit. It actually goes really smooth and I can't believe I spoke English so fast and clear, then I drove away.

2. Mac Donald?

I'm rapidly riding around on a motorcycle somewhere in an indoor chinese town almost, the Streets are extremely narrow. I drive past a Mac Donalds and see my mother on another motorcycle falling, not hard but I expected her to break her arm or something. Later I'm suddenly in her bedroom and she tells me her foot hurts a lot, I help her sitting on the bed and inspect the damage, her foot looks a bit red but I don't notice anything else.

Anyway, I really hope on lucidity soon as I think I have yet to experience a serious LD with a purpose.

This dream was in a top down view with an old JRPG/Medieval style setting, non-lucid. I had just entered into the attic, my movement was restricted to: up, down, left or right and "use object". I started in the lower left corner of the room and since there were plenty of bad flooring I had to navigate around those spots to continue, by the mid right wall I found a book which I then selected, there was a message mid-screen saying "Spell Book: Duplicate Money. YES/NO", I did not see a problem with this and picked -YES, another message popped up "Warning, this spell is illegal to use and and a bounty will be placed on you if you continue. Do you wish to continue? YES/NO". -YES, a new message "A bounty of 200 Gold has been placed on your head by (City name)". I went over to a chest by the mid left wall where I got the message "Place money? YES/NO", I remembered how the family of the mansion I were in needed of money because the daughter was sick or something along those lines, -YES. By the top wall I found a large pile of stuff and after the 'Use object' command I was prompted to choose between three events and their only real explanation was a single picture for each. I only remember the second picture, it was of me being chased by guards out of the town. I must have spent at least half a minute trying to decide which one to pick and their prospective consequences, I didn't even consider I might be dreaming -_- . I picked the second option, I was then prompted to select between another two pictures that would determine my actions during the event, the first picture was of me running down the street holding unto many large pieces of bread-rolls while chased by guards, the second was of me running down the street carrying lots of money also while being chased by guards. I picked the bread. "Warning: You have not yet met (name of a woman), this will affect your future game. Continue? YES/NO" -NO, I then went back down into the mansion and started searching for the woman, I wanted a good ending after all. I found her in the kitchen making out with the husband of the family and I concluded they were having an affair, they threw bread at me and sent me out the front door, I was spotted by guards who probably thought that I was stealing the bread and started chasing me down the street, I managed to escape through the gate towards the forest without being caught. The scene ended and went dark, then I woke up. My first thought after waking up was "But I selected -No!!"

1. I had come to a large pool area from somewhere else, and it was as big as a water park. There were many rides. First I went with friends and family to one specific ride. It was a slide and was also an inflatable. I slid down it and once I did I immediately tried to climb back up. There was a clone of one specific person that would continually come down from each section of the slide. There were 3 sections on this slide. I climbed back up and held on to the edge of the slide where the drop was, kinda like a cliff. Another clone flew over me and eventually I lost my grip and fell. This time I went all the way down the slide and just got off. This is where I went to the huge pool. When I got there, everyone was either swimming, playing badminton, volleyball, or just chilling. I myself tried to play some badminton but couldnt because there wasnt enough room. I then just went to the middle of the pool and swimmed. Soon I realized that I had an inflatable tube wrapped around me and that I wasnt really swimming, I was just floating the entire time. Great, I wondered how I looked to other people. I floated my way towards this girl I thought I knew, but it turned out, I was just mistaken. I talked to this girl and asked her what she was doing, but I dont remember her reply. My friend Darius passed me and he too was in an inflatable tube. I grabbed onto his tube to get a free ride and he floated towards where I wanted to go. Darius never knew that I did this until I let go. When I let go of his tube He turned around and asked me "Who do you think you are?". I told him I just wanted to get over here fast. He said he was going to push me underwater, but I told him not too. He came over to me and was about to do it, but midway he just stopped for some reason and left me. I got out of the pool and walked over to this robot fighter arena. I went over and activated the robot. Turns out, you dont use robots, you just fight one super big strong one by yourself. I grabbed a gun and started the match. The way my gun would work is that you have to charge up each shot for about 10 seconds and then shoot. I did this for a while and almost killed the robot, but I was getting low on ammo and needed a new gun. I went to the corner of this arena and there was just a pile of guns laying on a platform. I grabbed one and as I did, some random dude decided to jump in to my arena and help me out. I got my gun and we both started firing down on the robot. But something was weird, he was getting stronger. The dude that was helping me out told me to back up cause, "its about to get messy", so I did. I watched the random dude. He was apparently super charging his gun to the point where it would completely obliterate the robot in one shot. He finished super charging his gun, then He jumped in front of the robot. All of a sudden the robot let out a huge blast of energy from his chest and immediately the dude that was helping me out flew and slammed against the back wall. He had just died. I decided it was getting too crazy inside the arena and left. But before I did, I went back to that gun platform and saw some papers that the dude had brought with him. I read the papers only to find that they were MY notes that I had taken about the brain earlier that night. I knew that he stole them, so I took them back. I also saw some past DJ entries on purple paper from a while back. I then walked down a road and oddly enough, all my friends were there. We walked to a point in the road where it was covered in barbed wire. There was an opening in the wire and we went through. This led to another road and halfway down the road, my friends car was parked. We got to the car and Ryan(it was his car) opened the door and told me and my other friend to get in because we were leaving. I asked why and he said because his feet hurt. So we got in and thats where it ended. (god that took me 30 minutes to type up)

2. I was in my house, laying on the carpet in front of my door. It was daytime. My sister was next to me. Out of no where, a random mole climbed onto my body and started rubbing his nose on my head. He was hairy, and he put ALOT of pressure to the point where I freaked out, threw him off, and got on my way. I looked around my house and noticed this was the Dream version of my house which had always interested me because it was really different from my real life house. At this point I became lucid and explored the house. I walked into my sisters room where a huge part of the house was. Her room led to the other 90% of the house. It filled me with curiosity and I made my way into her room. My dad went in front of me because I said something like, "I think this part of the house is haunted". (I always get that feeling when Im in that part of my house in dreams, its weird). So my dad walked down the next hallway into the other part of the house. I took off my glasses because they were messed up for some reason, and continued to follow my dad. At the end of the hallway it opened up into a huge foyer room. I looked down and past the stairway and saw a huge room with tons of candles lit in what looked like a religious way. This is where I got spooked. (by the way I lost my lucidity during this part because I wasnt really focused on what I wanted to do) The flames on the candles started flickering in an odd manner, and some even went out. I turned around and my dad disappeared. I was pretty scared because of the fact that every time I come back to this house it changes and gets bigger. INSANELY bigger. I decided to jump over the edge of the staircase and fly over to the other side. I made it.(I think this is where I lost my lucidity for sure). I came over to an elevator and a little girl was standing there. I walked to her and she had a snake in her hands. It bit her and she said something like, "Fine, if you're going to bite me over nothing then Im going to punish you." At this point I became the girl and choked the snake. I put it on the ground while choking it and stepped on it. Its fangs fell out and they were like crystals of a rainbow. I do not remember any more.

3. This was earlier in the first half of the night. I had "woken up" from a dream and decided to write down the dreams I just had. I got my dream journal and started writing down the two dreams I remembered. I then woke up for real and noticed that entire thing was a false awakening. It made me kinda upset because in the FA I had just recorded two dreams. I decided to go back to sleep and not record them.

4. I was in my bed in a dream. I was awakened by the sound of whispering in the corner of my room. The whispering got closer and louder and I thought it was a ghost or demon or something. I got my bible and tried to speak to rebuke the demon but when I did I found that my speech was impaired. I couldnt talk right. So I just got the bible and held it in my hand, as I viewed it as a weapon. Whatever it was never touched me.(btw Im not a religous person anymore so I dont know why this happened).

5. I was in my house AGAIN and I was with my family and two other people. The two other people were one dude, and one girl. They were surviving along with us. They werent a couple in the beginning of the dream, but by the end they started going out and disappeared. Anyways, in the beginning we were driving on the freeway, and a blizzard was basically happening. The freeway was covered completely in snow. It was also very dark and gloomy in the dream. As we continued driving, huge globs of mud started falling from the sky onto the earth, everywhere. I was terrified and thought that the world was ending(Usually I become lucid during nightmares like this, but this time I didnt). I thought it was real and prayed to God to save me(even though im agnostic, so idk why). Some how we ended up making it back to our house in one piece. When we made it back it was night time. As I walked into our driveway after I got out of the car, I noticed I was shirtless, and also that my friends were 2 yards away from me. I said "Whats up guys, come on in." They came in and we chilled and talked. I also talked to that couple alot. We talked about how we were going to survive. I hadnt seen the couple in a while so I decided to get up and look around for them. I went into my China room in my house(where all the chinese glassware and every valuable chines thing is) and found them cuddling in a corner. I talked to them for a sec to make sure everything was cool and left them. (btw they were about my age, I think one year older.) I returned to find that all my friends were gone. Thats all I remember, even though there was ALOT more to this dream.

Dream recall has really improved, and Im remembering dreams from early in the night.

Dream 1

I'm at a campsite and these two men break out in a fight, there is a crowd gathered round to watch. Then angrily he pulls out a gun, its some sort of submachine gun he turns round and starts firing at the crowd. Everyone starts running, including me, I'm running for my life I run round a corner and its on an edge of the cliff, I keep running round and it comes to a corner where there's a dead end. Then the guy who the man was after comes running round too, then I hear the man shout 'Haha! I know you're round here.' I had the choice, I knew if I pushed him off I'd survive. So I did it, I pushed him straight off the cliff to his death. The guy came round and let me go. I then look at my thumb and it has a cut, which hurt. I realise that its a dream and I could heal my thumb. I'm semi lucid now, aware that its a dream but not fully. I heal the cut, everything turns vivid. Now I really turn lucid. I remember my goal to try LSD in a dream. There are lots of plants to my left, I know if I put my hand in there I will find some. I did, I pulled out some large colourful paper which I knew was LSD. I ate it, and expected the effcts to happen straight away, there was a quick flash of colour but I lose lucidity.

Still aware its a dream but not lucid, I grab some friends and show them the benefits of lucid dreaming, I take them to a caravan where they can do whatever they like. Then I tell one of my friends what I done earlier in a dream, I made him come outside to tell him because it felt like everyone was watching me. He said it was ok, don't tell the police but if they ask you, tell them what you told me and they'll let you off. I knew they would find me if they found the body as my fingerprints were on the body. Another friend rings me to see what I'm up too, he picks me up in his car and we drive off the campsite, on the way out I look out the window. I see policeboats and rescue teams driving up to where the body fell. I realise here that it as only a matter of time before they approach me.

July 19, 2014 9:53AM

3mg melatonin before bed

Rating: 4/5

I had a few dreams this night that were good. The first escapes me at the moment.

The second dream has to be one of my favorite ones yet. I cant remember everything I did because there was just so much! Started out with a small group of people in a big city full of random obstacles, buildings, themes, ect. While some spots remain blank I can still remember some. We started in a white building all together, was dim lit and had whit walls but nothing in it. We went out into the street, I don't know what they did but I started by trying to climb high. We were all being chased by a guy with a circular saw too to make things crazier. I went my own way first into a building that was being built still. I went up a metal grate staircase to the second floor. It was kinda dark up here. The floor was steel grate material, wall was sheet metal, there were tools and pipes laying around all over the place. There was a lot of rust as well, as if it was started then abandoned. I hid in a concrete pipe that was up there at first, looked through a window it had, waited a minute but it started rolling forward so I got out and stopped before it hit a rail and made a loud noise. I went farther into the room up a steel beam staircase to the 3rd floor. But looking below it was never ending darkness so I got up quick. Once I made it there, I heard the saw rev a few times, and saw a shadow go by above me on the fourth floor. This floor(3rd) looked like the one below, and I could still see below because of the metal grate floor. This floor had some windows around part of it though. I went left after coming up to the floor into a hallway. (This part is hard to piece together because I end up going into a room I was in earlier in the dream, but cant remember when I was). I came out to an outside area on top of a roof to a house, I see that people are parked nearby and I quickly duck into a hole in the roof into the house. The part i first ducked in was damaged by fire, so I went thru an open door way into another room. It is full of small glass items, and there is a lot of tables. It is a small room that is crowded. I knock over something, then someone tells me it is my grandmothers stuff. I look in one more room and it is basically full of the same type of stuff. This place does resemble my grandmother house. Greenish carpet, yellow cabinets with decorative glass things in it. My grandmother kept appearing and disappearing throughout this house.

Unfortunately that what i remember most vividly from that dream, theres much more I'm blanking on. I basically explored this huge city going from room to room and building to building doing what i love in real life. There was so much to see.

+for this dream, the beginning is a bit tough to remember. The whole dream is on a overcast day. I am with a group of people, some real family, some people i have never seen. We are riding through a grass land trying to get to a enemy camp. The field has pale green grass, and pine tree lines on either side with a few pines in the field, it is not flat either, there are hills. We drive up to the camp where we get out of the vehicles, and hide near the road where they are working. For some reason one of our cars is visible and i somehow mover it to the side by pushing, and i viewed the move of it in 3rd person for about 2 seconds. So me and this girl move into the crowd of people unnoticed and quickly get a job clearing streets, and doing geology work to blend in. First i ride in the back of the white pickup truck, while the girl drives, and i clear debris with some sort of scoop thing. Then we get to a entrance in the rock, where i get out and do sone work, thinking about my rock hammer i left at home in real life, still not knowing I'm in a dream. I break some of the dark grey rock and find a opaque light orange crystal. I take it out by hand and it is about 1.5" long and has a great crystal structure. I put it away and go to clean more rock but then i wake.

Getting ready to embark upon a lengthy trip with no apparent limit on the duration, my mom asks me, "Did you pack the camera?"
"No, I ran out of time... I didn't even have a chance to look at my list of things I wanted to pack. But I did pack the essentials." I think about if I had more time, I would have been able to pack much better for this trip. Too late now, I'll just have to make do with what I've got.

/// I interpret this dream to be referring to my preparations for what comes after this life. When that time comes, will I be happy with what I have prepared? Or will I wish I had made more time to really prepare well... Right now, I feel I've prepared enough, but still lacking in a lot of areas. Maybe non-essential, but nevertheless very helpful and nice. Well, me, get down to business!

Not sure if the camera is just a general symbol for having more potential preparedness, or if it is a specific symbol relating to the ability to share experiences with others.