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#240 - DEILD - approx. 5am

I had my usual Friday night drink which resulted in a nice REM rebound early this morning. There were a lot of FAs this time but I was eventually able to hit a nice visual DEILD. Unfortunately, I didn't hold it long before I was blind-sided by another FA. Though this lucid was on the short side, I included it to my count because my awareness was high and the vividness was amazing.BTW I know my typos will be horrible but I am short on time. Apologies.

All I can recall in the first one is that I am trying to get to sleep but can't

I have an FA then I watch a scene unfold. I am in a western and hold someone at gun point wanting a refund for something a friend purchased. He has to leave to get it and we wait around becoming chummy with the other people around. I become worried that he will bring the police back so I tell someone to hide the gun. A friend tries to load a track on the trailer and leave with the gun but he can't drive and embarrasses himself horribly. Another guy says he has a cabin in the woods not far away and takes the gun. The guy I held at gun point comes back with the cash and we act like we are friends. As the dream fades away I realize I was dreaming and become annoyed that I missed that one.

I lay still and keep awareness as I DEILD.

I watch a scene form and find myself travelling in the back seat of some car. I begin to have emotions with the dream but know it is all fake. I feel that I am a child on a road trip with my parents. I "know" my mom is driving but I don't look. I feel confided and think this has been such a long drive. All I want to do is get outside and stretch out.

I look out the window and see some desert like terrain blur past. I accidentally phase out the window hold on to the car. With my body stretched out horizontally, I hover along side the car and feel like I am flying at an incredible speed. It seems the car is going impossibly fast and pulling me a long with it. There is a deafening roar of wind in my ears and the feel air resistance my body along with the feeling of acceleration. I am overcome with a glorious feeling of euphoria as I enjoy the feeling of effortless low flight.

Suddenly everything collapses into darkness and void. I mistakenly assume that I am waking up.

I have another FA where I slept too late. I step out of a room and find myself in a school. Some girl looks a me with disdain. I feel embarrassed about my "morning appearance" and I start to think about getting a shower and doing a my morning thing. I have a small container on the wall with a tooth brush and I reach for it. I hear my wife remark how small it my container is. I see her next to me getting something out of a locker. She says something about leaving with "Darren". I jealously ask who the hell he is and she explains. I falsely remember something about him and decide its nothing to worry about. He was a teacher or something and it was all business.

Then, some friends, a young man and woman, walk up both in some odd looking dark green scrubs. The guy says something about wearing a lab coat later and the woman talks about how she just hears "this" when they go out to eat at "..." restaurant. I notice the woman more than I should. She is short with blonde hair and her scrubs is more like a short dress. She wears tights underneath. I find her attractive. I wake up.

I have another FA where my daughters wake me up. We are saying at someone's house and I get up to go to the bathroom. I assume my wife woke up with my son already. I use the toliet and have issues wiping. Then then the toilet turns into a training potty and the lights flicker on and off. I wake up.

I have another dream about a red solo cup flying low just about my head on the beach. I am taking part in some ritual and standing in a circle with other people. There is an odd looking person in the middle officiating. We assume the cup is a spy drone. I see a blimp flying close in the distance but ignore it. The cup seems to be full of hair and I can her some sort of motor coming from it. I wonder how it is flying. Then, I think we should set it on fire and it suddenly burst into flames. Everyone becomes excited about that. The hair burns out and the cup turns black before crashing into the sand. My son picks up the cup and plays with it. I wake up.

I'm in a school bus, and I think I'm back in middle school now. The bus is taking me home, only somehow we are driving around in a relatively rural area (i.e. country roads, crooked power lines, people driving pickup trucks if there were other trucks, etc.). I missed my stop a long time ago, but I'm not particularly concerned. A lot of the jerk kids I remember back in school were on the same bus, and as we get further and further into the rural areas, I kept thinking, "oh, you live in the middle of nowhere? No wonder you are such an ass." All apologies to people who live in rural areas.

At one point, I begin having a conversation with my old friend K. We were talking about careers, and he was telling me about a nice internship that works outside, gets in touch with the environment, and works with animals (all things I actually do love), but I catch on and say "wait, you want me to be a farmer?" K had a you-caught-me grin. So, to recap, my subconscious is insulting both rural and farming areas now.

We come across the side of a road, and there appears to be this Reality TV/Small Claims Court Election going on between a family. I don't know what the argument is, but it's a family of five, and the mother is suing the father over something while the host explains. The verdict is passed down in a really convoluted manner, like "we find the defendant being accused by the prosecution of the case to be correct in the blah blah blah," so everyone takes a brief second before registering that the father won. The rest of the family politely claps their hands, but the mother is visibly distraught. She approaches the host, but the host seems to reject her, telling her "I'm sorry, but you are only 15-inches tall," "and a soon to be divorced woman," she responds sadly. And yes, it's only about this time I realize the family are all tiny, and they are lined up each in their own tiny kennels.

Dream two gets bad. I'm in a mall plaza, near a large cell-phone kiosk like AT&T or some other large brand. A tall man and I have an intricate plan to rob someone that somehow involves me pretending to also be robbed at the same time. I look in my wallet, and I have a $1000 bill (Um... what?), so of course the plan goes awry and my partner decides to keep the money for himself. I got really angry, but before I could do anything, your stereotypical mall cop appears. I explain the situation (basically admitting our plan). The mall cop thinks for a second and says "I know what to do," then shoots my partner in the head with a gun. And of course the mall cop looks like Pepper Spray cop.

The scene shifts a little, and now I'm aware of being in an ad where they are shooting a commercial for a tea product or something, but it's blended into real ("Dream" real, I mean) life where the premise is the grandpa (who is also the "real" owner of the tea company) had to leave, and his adorable tells the rest of her family they can't start dinner yet, and she runs around the mall distraught, yelling for her grandpa to come to dinner. Dream me got a lot of dust in his eyes. The mom seems to know grandpa is okay, and says something along the lines of "if grandpa is gone, I get his car," while the rest of the family laughs, and the scene shifts to a parking lot you'd find in an apartment complex. For some reason, the mom turns into Rosalyn the babysitter from Calvin and Hobbes, and I realize I'm wandering around the lot having just finished watching a Calvin and Hobbes movie. I wake up at whatever ridiculous time it was, short hand my dream, and go back to sleep.

Dream three starts with watching Michaelangelo from the Ninja Turtles trying to flirt with a ninja girl he meets, but it also feels like I'm reading a book about this. The narrator explains that Michaelangelo thinks she is better handling Sais than Raphael (BLASPHEMY!), and they are scaling walls in the city while he keeps trying to impress her.

The scene switches to my brother's wedding, but he tells me to fill in for him. So now, I'm sitting at the groom's table like a panelist in a convention, and the bride and I are both dressed really low key -- I remember the bride is wearing flannel and jeans, and I have my legs kicked up on the table. At one point in the wedding there was the whole "this bread is the body of Christ" thing, and we have to dip our respective bread into a cup of water. I think my brother eventually made it in time, because the scene shifts to their house (which resembles a 60's style home) during Christmas morning, and I walk down stairs and say hi to my brother and his wife. It's at this time that I realize that my brother's new wife is now a weird version of what I feel should be an ex or someone I knew, although I have no idea who this person is.

I either wake up laughing, or laughed myself awake.

I'm sitting with my uncle Tr somewhere. We are talking about something, possibly work, and he decides to call my uncle Ty to ask a question about the project. He calls and gets a hold of him. He's somewhere with his wife, and we can hear wind in the background. I ask where they are, and they say they are on an archaeological dig.

As he speaks and I walk, the land around me changes from the green forest it was before into a drier, sandier clime. First it's a little rocky, but as I keep moving, it becomes hills of rolling sand.

I get to a small empty base camp of sorts, and my companion (Not my uncle anymore, changed to a faceless friend). And my companion and I laugh at the people who come here for a "Archaeological Journey". The people here strew fake artifacts about the sands, and get people to pay them to take them digging. We follow a trail of these objects, to a small field of them. There are actually some nice silver cups, lined with gold inside that I quite like, even if they are fake, so I grab one.

We see a small hole in the ground, and drop into it. There I see my uncle Ty and his wife looking at a huge mound of real treasure. Gems, and gold mostly. As I walk in, Ty asks how many of the quarter sized emeralds it would take to buy something that I can't remember. I quickly say 30, and that we should go soon. So I go to grab some, but then I notice 4 doors in the room, and ty says that we can only take what we can carry in our hands into one of those rooms, then something happens. So I grab a few and go into a door.

A man is in the room, which looks like a two child bedroom, messy too. He says if I pass his test, I can take 10% of what I'm carrying and I quickly wish I had brought more. I get nervous, and stall by asking if I can clean the room before the test. He looks surprised and says yes. After I tidy up a bit, he makes me get down, and starts beating my back with a stick. I'm surprised that it doesn't hurt. I can feel the stick hitting my back, and hear the sound. But the pain is like a memory. (That should have clued me into the fact this was a dream)

2 rounds of increasingly powerful hits go by, then on the third, I get super angry all of a sudden. Irrationally angry to the extreme. So once the round ends, along with the trial. I exit the room and grab one of my adventuring group (Which just came into existence). One of them is huge, and we plan to ambush the guy who beat me right when he answers the door. One strong hit to the face. Which goes according to plan.
He drops like a rock, and we take a huge bag of the treasure, and his sword, which I can somehow tell is of a crazy sharpness and quality.

We get out of there and head back to our home base. But on the way, I feel horrible. We just robbed the owners. So I take the sword and the bag and head back. (I fly back). I know they will be angry,so I go in quickly, drop the bag of treasure and the sword and then drop to the ground and lower my head. Then I ask for forgiveness.
I explain how I got so irrationally angry and made a mistake, and hope they can forgive me.

There are 4 of them, and they seem to be an adventuring group as well. A very successful one. They accept my apology, and I leave. It feels like no time passes, and I might be forgetting a part of my dream, but next thing I know I'm in a large field with a battle going on. Those four are there, and they are trying to take down a huge elephant like creature. I'm under it's legs, dodging as it moves around. I see an opportunity to knock it over when it rears up. I throw all my weight into it, and manage to tip it off a ledge. The leader of the four is impressed and they take me back to their cave. He then insists I join their band. I decline, saying I'm in one, but he won't take no for an answer. He tries to get me to accept gifts from him, but I decline again and fly away as fast as possible. They follow.

I can't really remember much from here. But I really enjoyed this dream. I noticed allot of little details and I feel my awareness is geting better.

11-08-13 I woke in the hotel room after the last LD and did a WILD. I appeared again on the roller coaster. It looked like it was running through New York City. I spent some tyime trying to fly through city streets and cutting tight corners around power lines. I played with flying Superman style and with flying feet first on my back. I think I like the feet first thing better. Dur~10 min

11/08/13 This DILD was perhaps 30-45 minutes long, and I am at work, so I will just jot some highlights down. The non-lucid part involved looking at a new house that had cool fire places all around a central chimney. I thought this would be a good way to use up the wood in the back of my real house. This made me realize I did not know where this house was, and I became lucid.
I rode on a giant roller coaster trough a landscape of vibrent colors and fancy buildings. I spent some time with a female DC on a hill outside a church. I met an angel and she introduced me to another angel. They were named Hana and Joseph. She told me that I should stay and watch the sunset. She had me stand at a certain spot and a weird display started. It was like standing too close to a speeding frieght train, so I could not handle it for more than a moment. I guess what ever Hana called a sunset, was a bit of a sensory overload.

Brown something. I can only remember something brown texture. Could have been. Meat, as it was a positive smell with it.

As I went to sleep tonight, I recited a mantra, "I will stabilize". I also firmly fixed in my mind that as soon as I began dreaming, I would know that I was dreaming.

This worked. I spent some time drifting, and then a dream began. I was lying in bed, and the lights were on. I looked to my left. There were 3 tiny, glowing playing cards floating in the space above my head. I thought, "Yes, I'm dreaming," and snatched the playing cards from where they were floating. It's hard to explain, but the cards were a cue for me - it was specifically seeing the cards that made me lucid. I don't remember what suites the cards were, only that they were 1/4 the size of normal playing cards, they were glowing, and they immediately induced lucidity.

I got out of bed, and my bedroom was very different and not at all like my real bedroom. The carpet was worn out, and an ugly shade of tannish orangy brown. My "dream room" carpet is always this ugly color, for some reason. The door was in the wrong place, and led to a hallway that doesn't exist, and there was no furniture besides my bed. The bed was a twin, but in real life, I have a full. I said, "Stabilize!". I went to the door and tried to visualize that as soon as I went through it, I would be in a rainforest. I tried very hard to convince myself of this.

When I went through the door, everything was dark. I saw shadowy forms that hinted that I was in another room. I got frustrated and lost lucidity.

I woke up, grumbled, and tried WILD. I got past the initial wave and felt as if I was sinking into my bed. I sat up out of my body. I tried to open my eyes, but it was very hard, and I felt like I was opening my physical eyes. I was really tired and had work in the morning, so I gave up on it and lapsed back into unawareness. I dreamed that my head had made a huge dent in my pillow, so now my pillow had 2 lumps of stuffing on either side and nothing in the middle. I tossed and turned (in the dream) and tried to make it comfortable somehow.

I dreamed I was shopping at a store. I've never been there in my waking life. There was a desk on a top shelf that I was interested in - it was $50, and I thought it would make a good room divider. But my cell phone was malfunctioning badly. The screen came off (how?) and then it got hot to touch and melted. I got some of the melted screen on my finger, and it burned me. I kept thinking about how frustrated I was that all of my money now had to go toward buying a new phone. I needed a smartphone, too, so it was going to be expensive.

I woke up. I tried some visualizations. I visualized a room full of dolls, where each doll represented a DC I knew. I visualized putting a doll on the floor and making it grow to full size. (I was not asleep at this time). I began drifting off, but the visualization didn't completely take hold, and I didn't become lucid. Instead, the room became the room of a woman with a group of really odd friends. My dream followed their antics, but I don't recall any specifics on what they were.

Review:
Dream clues:
- Playing cards (instant lucidity)
- My pillow doesn't have stuffing. It's a memory foam pillow.
- Unfamiliar store, without recalling how I got there
- Malfunctioning phone (malfunctioning electronics)
- Spectator perspective

Edit: Believe it or not... I actually figured out the playing cards while I was riding the train home. In my dream, they were glowing like they were lit up LEDs. On the train ride home, there's an installation where LED playing cards flash by the train windows. I tend to stare out the window at them because I'm bored and they're something to look at... which means I'm also staring at my reflection. So, since mirrors instantly make me lucid (for some reason), apparently my brain linked the playing cards with my reflection strongly enough that just looking at a card makes me lucid.

Original journal entry dated Feb. 9th 2002:

I had another bizarre dream last night. In it, M and A were going to a college in California, and they were driving there. I was going to a college in Michigan, and bummed because I couldn't go with my friends. My mother and her boyfriend were going to a casino somewhere. Anyway, M and A, instead of using a map, rolled up a little ball of clay and gave it a face. It would shout directions at them and tell them how to get where they wanted. But it was EVIL. And its strength came from mirrors. So at one point, they smashed every mirror in the hotel room trying to kill it. But it WOULDN'T DIE! And they'd given my mother one of them, too. As for myself, I had stayed home trying to figure out how I could follow my friends, but they showed up at my house saying that they hadn't been able to get to California. And then my mother and her boyfriend came home.


Original entry dated Feb. 1st, 2002:
Regarding several dreams taking place over a period of time:

Dream #1:
I dreamed about a vampire who was actually a large anthropomorphic lion, only he kept falling into lava and coming back to life. And I dreamed that I was at the Russian Olympic games, where one of the sports was to swing around a pole and see how far one could vault into the water. This feat was performed by 6 foot tall 8-year-olds. I sat in the bleachers, only I didn't have a ticket, so when they came around looking at peoples' tickets, I forged one and tried to remain inconspicuous.

Dream #2:
I dreamed that we were in a car trying to cross a bridge, which was actually a large ramp across a channel - you accelerated and then flew through the air and landed on the other side - but we kept crashing and dying.

Then I was on an ocean-liner with my aunt, and there was a murderer loose, and he would claim his next victim by slashing them on the thumb a day or two before he killed them. And my aunt got a slash on her thumb, so then she was really scared, and then my finger turned into a squid, so we all became vegetarians because we could no longer stand the sight of shrimp.

Last night I dreamed that the lead singer in my band came up to me wearing glasses that had glass wings extending about a foot from each side of her glasses. She said to me "What do you think?"

"You can fly", I said and we both laughed.

Earlier in the day I had found out that she would be able to join us for a gig in Puerto Vallarta, and she would be flying there to join us.

Funny to see how my mind works.

Didn't lucid dream, unfortunately. Dreamt about having to beat a boss. I also got an ice home, which was a circular room with an ice pillar in the middle. There was a hole that led to an NPC, I'll call him, and he led me to the boss. I struggled against it before waking up. That was basically it, and I had my teammates beside me as well. I don't remember their faces, or if I talk to them on a daily bases.

[COLOR="#800080"]This is one of the coolest dream I ever had, So I might as well type it down just in case I forget it.[/COLOR]

[SIZE=3][COLOR="#800080"]I'm in my apartment with my family and I suddenly have a heart attack(That was so damn random). I die and leave my body into this grey shadow.I look at my body laying on the ground in horror. I see my dad and my sister in those shadows so I realize they died too. I find out that my godmother died too so I started crying because she was one of the persons I always believed in, told all of my secrets and I also got very good advice from her. I cry desperately and I ask my mom when she will come to us because I wanted to be together with her, she said she couldn't come only in 20 years when she'll be old enough to die. I cry and get really depressed.I try to posses my own body and realize it's working.I get back to my shadow form(Whenever I switched from shadow to human form I felt like a jolt in my upper body) and I tell mom that there's no hell or heaven and that I was right when I told her that god doesn't exist(Last night I had a conversation with her about the existence of god and she refused to even think about it). I ask someone if I'm able to walk while possesing the body, I get no answer but I try to do it and it works.I then think about visiting my grandmother and my grandfather. I go into my grandmother's room and I look around when I notice some shadows and I ask them about my grandmother and grandfather.One of them says that they are busy and they will come later but I keep insisting on meeting because I really wanted to spend time with them.My grandmother appears and she seems like she doesn't want me to talk with her, she just tells me she's busy and smiles. I put her in a.... pokeball.... and throw her on the ground. [/COLOR][/SIZE]

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was going around streets then through an underground passage.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing hearthstone, but there was some weird system of numbers integrated for sending actions.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was on some island.

Dream 2(fragments):

There was a team of scientists that were making stealth suit designed especially for robbing banks, then some crazy black armored dude attacked the lab.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was in some kind of ancient temple/garden place and there was some dude that was jumping high.

Dream 4(fragment):

I was watching some anime.

Ah! So close so close so close... Slept 8.5 hours today, not surprising after last night's early waking, at first I thought I had no recall but then memories came in from the night from multiple scenes and did quick journal. Woke once or twice during the night but just too tired to journal.

Decided I still felt sleepy enough to try for a WILD again. Spent about an hour trying to sleep, with mantra going ("I'm dreaming" mostly) with visualization of desired scene. It was a fun scene so didn't really feel the time going by . Probably the wrong thing to do (visualizing the scene and playing with it)? Felt like I was trying to "make it happen" by holding the scene in my mind. At one point I did get some body hallucinations: like I was swinging. I could change the feeling from front/back swinging to side-to-side swinging like on a huge hammock. I know, I know, "don't fiddle with the noise, sonny." . I was on my back for all this, not my usual sleeping position.

Didn't feel like I was making progress, so I rolled over to side (usual sleeping position), and decided just to "let it happen" instead of trying to "make it happen," let go of visualisations, did my usual "go to sleep/dream" relaxing/releasing of mind/thoughts, but kept "I'm dreaming" mantra. And pretty soon my breathing became a bit shaky and laboured, my heart rate went up a bit, and my mind entered a feeling just like how lucidity feels in a DILD, yet I was totally aware as it occurred! Tried to stay relaxed and kept mantra going. Strong feeling of excitement/anticipation. But I didn't see anything except the back of my eyelids. I thought "where's the dream?" Feeling subsided a bit, and I found I could "push" back towards it a little.

Didn't make it in but that's the closest I've ever been....but jeez after an hour of visualization, no dream images waiting for me!?

Anyway, "Let it happen" seems to be the key, which is I believe just what Sageous is teaching . Also I think it's not a bad mantra...

The experience gives me confidence that I can in fact WILD! Just have to hold on to the patience longer and let the dream form...

1st LD
I was near my village house, understood that its a dream, made RC and flew a bit. Then remembered TOTM with pies. I had several DCs near me, so i summoned pie and threw in the nearest. But missed. I summoned a lot of pies (about 20) but only 2 or 3 hit the DC's face. But DCs didn't react on me. i don't like it because i wanted the pies destroyed and theese pies jumped from the taget like balls. So i summoned a bottle with cherry jam. Put it with my hand and throw in the nearest man. It was in the white shirt. And in his daughter. i saw red spots from my jam on their clothes. The man came to me and spit in my face. But missed and the spit was on my hair. I went to the road, transformed the road into the river and washed the spit. and exit to real.
2nd LD
i return to my village house on the train and found myself near the other town. i thought how can i get to house now? then remembered, that such situation can be in LD. And if its a LD i will be in my bed.I count fingers and just wait till i wake up.