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Frags:

• "Kang in bowler appears"
• "3D render in camera"
• "ask it for time"
• "no one near enough to call 911"
• "is it even all in Spain?"
• "video cuts, she looks bad" (this one was a nightmare: she looked so badly wounded that I woke up in a panic)
• "stress (or not) about program material"

Previous hours:
Mar 3, 5:09-12:46

Awkward

I walk across the stage where my old orchestra is rehearsing. It's awkward because I think some of them might recognize me.

Later, I'm having class with that Spanish teacher I always hear everyone complaining about. I want to leave the class but I know he won't just let me walk out. I challenge him to a Taekwondo duel: if I beat him, he has to let everyone leave. When the fight starts, I realize that he's better than I thought he would be.

Frags:

• "cross between bat and black cat"

Previous hours:
Mar 1, 4:19-8:34 and 20:50-1:30

Frags:

• my mom urges me to declare that I'm gay
• "I seek elevation gain/loss"
• Two students involved with a different organization try to come into our lobby and start watching a movie as if it's totally their right to use that space. Hint: it's not!

I didn't even know I had a baby until someone told me. I was laying back on my living room couch, chilling. At first, I saw a few people gathering around me like something was wrong. There were also one or two babies in front of me. I didn't know what was happening until someone came in front of me and gave me something important.

Some woman came in front of me and gave me a baby. I didn't question it, I only tried to remember the last time I stuck my thing up in there. I couldn't remember. At the time, I thought it was kind of cool because I had a female who was stuck with me but, having the baby being mine was ever better!

The baby was kind of a whiner though. I picked it up to hold it and eventually realized it was a he. At first, the baby was beginning to cry but after rocking it in my arms, he started to cheer up. There were times when I almost felt like I was going to fall.

There was also another baby in the room but I don't think she was mine. She looked a lot like my niece. She was standing on the couch waiting for me go outside and leave elsewhere.

The dream begins with a nightmare. I am in a place where I cannot touch the floor or I will fall through and get eaten by sharks. It's much like the childhood game my sister and I would play called “Lava” (in which we would pretend the floor was molten lava and we could only touch or step on furniture to make our way throughout the house). I don’t remember much of it except that 2 creepy old men were chasing me and each of them died. At some point I become lucid.

I am in a house. Now that I know I am dreaming touching the floor is no longer a concern of mine. I go up to the first window I see. Outside it's raining and there's a boat dock that has a canoe in it. The window has a latch on it which I undo and push open to hop out.

I walk on the wet pavement..There seems to be no one around.
"Hello? Is there anyone there?" I yell out.
There's no answer. I go up the road trying to find someone to interact with. The dream is very stable and I am much more calm than I have been in the past after becoming lucid, and I know it will help keep me in the dream longer.I get to a downtown area where there are many people going about daily business. A couple of girls in the distance are staring at me excitedly and whispering. One of them has long straight black hair with straight edge bangs and is very tan. The other is pale and blonde. The black haired girl is really excited to see me but I find her to be really annoying. She talks like an annoying girly sorority girl. She asks if I want to stop by her place, but she motions me toward the area where the nightmare started. Hell no. I tell her no thank you.

"It's ok," she says, "I do have to get going anyway though!"

She waves goodbye to both me and the blonde and runs off.

The blonde laughs at me,"Don't mind her. She's a little spacey."

"Who are you?" I ask.

At first I think she tells me "Laurie" but I can't quite hear her.

"Hi Laurie," I say.

She corrects me, "Oh, not Laurie, it’s Zuri.”

“That’s a unique name.” I reply. I feel so comfortable and also feel strongly that there is something special about her. It's rare when I can really talk to a DC like this and have it feel so normal. Zuri is such a great name too. One that I had never thought of before. The dream is also very stable compared to the last few I've had which only causes me to feel more intrigued by her. I study what she looks like (so that later I can draw her). Her hair is shoulder length and wavy. She's wearing dangling pearl earrings. Her outfit is a white men's style jacket with a tight dark blue dress that stops just above her knee. I didn't look at her shoes but I assume she is wearing heels.

She grabs my left hand,“I think we’ll head over to my place, and I think you’ll find it much more comfortable anyway.”

We begin walking through the city. It’s modern and clean. Everything is well-kept. There is no trash or litter. The lights from the windows make the place seem to glow as it grows darker outside. Zuri is so pretty too. I resist the urge to tell her though. I want to find out more about her, but more in the way I would actually try to get to know someone in person than treating her like another random DC.

“It’s just up ahead around the corner,”she points out, “I live in Park Place.”

Once we turn the corner we enter an apartment building. We walk down the hall and stop at the first door on the right. I look at the numbers above the door.

They read “208 Viloire 08”.

Zuri takes her keys from her purse and begins unlocking the door.

Just as that happens I wake up. Damn it!

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Fragment #1 - 11:24PM

Cartoon Doctor Who in a minecraft field

Mixed Up 3:02am

There are two of my mother-in-laws. One is an impostor. They look very similar but one has an obvious give away. They try to convince my wife that they are both real but she doesn't believe them. They get me to play along. I feel like a liar.
My wife is in college. We are there with her. I see my ex-wife's Aunt V and her family but they are holograms being played in a loop in a fake house like some bad play. My dead grandmother is telling my wife, A, she needs to go to bed for school in the morning. I think I may as well go home. It's a 2 hour drive.

Took
Many disruptions from baby.
Tired MILD then went to WILD. Almost there. Woken up many times.
Tried DEILD. Recall suffered.

Fragment #2 5:37AM

Using the neighbors trash can outside. Somehow our houses are connected and open to each other on the inside. There is an open wall to a bedroom. The old cabinet TV my parents used to own is blocking the entrance. I see an actual doorway around the corner.

First Successful WILD Session

Disclaimer: ADULT content ahead! Some twisted, morbid content ahead! Proceed with caution!

Note: This is a WILD Session that popped up around some time before. c: Not really this time where I'm officially challenging myself to master WILD, just before I heard about WILD and wanted to give it a shot. Anyway, without further ado, here's the session:

I was pretty damn sleepy that time. Just finished a project, and despite the fact I just had sleep a couple of hours earlier, I'm now lying in my bed still really sleepy. weird, this rarely happens. It was around the afternoon. Now I'm not sure the exact time, I'm thinking around 2PM or 3PM or 4PM.

The *atmosphere* circulating around my mind was just. really. different. from the usual. I can't put it into words, but seriously, it was just so different, like something I've never experienced before! The feeling crawling up to me was just like I could just summon whatever's in mind to a dream at any given point of time.

So the first thing that came into my mind was: smexy time! c:

Then I just felt like being sucked into the dream. Not like being vacuum cleaner sucked in, but the images, the scenes - they just kept coming, before I even realized it, I was inside the dream. And let me tell you, it was no smexy time at all.

Now here's the WEIRDEST thing ever. So I was in the dream, and then I heard a kid. A little kid, asking for help. To stop it. Please, I never meant to hurt them. For some unexplained reason, I got the story that there was a daughter, little kid - abused, and then the stepfather, the abuser - and this little kid, she ended up, I think, killing her step sister. For what reason, I don't know, can't remember. So the stepfather was furious. Next thing I can remember, I was like floating in a room that looks like the one next to mine (in the real world), so I browsed through the computer and saw like an article piece of a kid who killed blah blah blah. Actually, I forgot what's exactly in that article piece, I just know I saw a news article and all that.

And then there, I was in the body of the little kid. And I felt something inside of me. Like the stepdad's you know what. And it was painful. Not the kind of sex sensation I've ever experienced in a dream kind of painful.

Then I woke up. The transition from a little girl body to my own felt like a wave overcoming me. It was weird. The first thing that came into my mind then was that how weird everything in the dream was. If you would take a look at it, it's actually somewhat realistic - like the plot is realistic and all that, but there are fragments (like elements in the dream) from the dream that are simply distorted. Though I think those distorted stuff would play some roles in dream interpration, etc. etc.

Anyway, so that's one of the dreams I've had in my WILD session.

I remember having a couple more, and I can still recall their scenes, but I won't put it in here anymore as their just bits and fragments. What I can is that they were extremely vivid and just very long dreams + far from my usual dreams

Dream Start-
It's daylight, and I am in my old apartment,sitting on the floor. I am sitting on a rug I still have, behind a sofa I have. But somehow, I am still able to see the long window behind it, along with the spring-looking woods outside. My vision of the outside is extended farther the I should see in real like (Left to right). I quickly take notice to a young girl in front of the window (about six feet away). She is brown or blonde (her hair kept switching colors), her height was indistinguishable, she was pretty gorgeous (body wise), and she was wearing lingerie. I seem to set aside the fact that she was dressed unusual. Somehow, she was ONLY communication through body language and I was talk to her in my mind (She did NOT say a word.). She appeared (or teleported, whichever you prefer.) in front of my door and slowly gazed at me. After about ten seconds, she gave me the feeling that something needed to happen, and looked to her right. I slowly looked towards where she was glancing at, and saw the window open, and my friend, who smokes, smoking a cigarette. I semi-panicked, and telepathically told her to come in. My view "zoomed in" by her hip, and I got a closer look at her thighs . I then saw my friend look towards the girl and nodded as blew the smoke out of his mouth and nose. I suggested to the girl that we should go into my room (I was still in the living room) and have sex. She still gave me an odd feeling, but proceeded into my room, with me following. I opened the slot for the airconditioner in my room and went to close it, as I did, I told her to becareful and be aware. Before I knew it, she was in a dogystyle position, and had her panties moved to the right . I proceeded to have sex with her, but after three or five 'humps', we got up and I went to go see if my mom was home. Seeing she was, I went back into my room to tell the girl about the news, but when I walked in, she was gone . I noticed that the slot for the air conditioner was opened (I was on the first floor, so, the slot was about five or so inches above the ground.) (when I saw it while having sex, (in the corner of my eye) it was closed) and I had a strong feeling that the girl left through there. I looked closer where the slot was, and I was starting to feel lonely and disappointed.
Dream End. (The girl's face was blurry, and I couldn't really describe how facial features.)

I was at a dinner party where everyone except me were Italian. I didn't understand anything of what they were saying, so I just went around and burned time. As I do so, I notice that a person is trying to put me in a bad light. A different person asks me if I could check someones bag to see whether his phone was in it. Without thinking, I go ahead and do it, until I realize he's making me look like I'm trying to steal, so I stop and walk to the other end of the room. I notice the person trying to put me in a bad light is whispering in peoples ears, and I now have a lot of Italians sending me mean gazes. They each separately come over and yell something at me in Italian, and I try to explain that the two people were just trying to make me look bad. Nobody listens.

#1 Racing through Trackmania-like obstacles, loops and such, but with speedboats. My classmates appeared as my opponents for this year's annual race, which happened to take place on a very nice and sunny day. After being the first to complete the track on water, with my classmates right behind me, we left our boats and ran onto land. The race went into a big abandoned hotel. As I entered the building, I noticed it was very dark. Looking out of its windows, it appeared that it had now suddenly turned night. A few light bulbs lit up the labyrinthy corridors here and there, but not even enough to cover half of the shadows. I heard a lot of strange noises, and saw some shady figures, but never got a clear sight of what was hiding, just waiting for us to approach. One of my classmates clung to me, which I found was somewhat an annoyance. We went up a flight of stairs and to the left, where we were met by the moans and screams of something that had just started chasing us. I didn't get a look at it before it came out of the darkness, but I had an idea of it being a humanoid creature, possibly similar to what one might find in the Dead Space games. We ran for our lives back past the flight of stairs, where I now noticed a set of numbers, but this time we ran to the right. I passed a chair which had a body in it, laying completely motionless and in a position as if it had plumped down from the ceiling in a lying position and just landed on the chair (arms sticking out to the sides, legs stiffly in front of the chair, sitting off the edge of the chair). I didn't have the balls to look it in the face to find out whether it was alive, or if it was one of my classmates - knowing it could suddenly spring up and scare me - so I just ran past it. We figured the set of numbers was the place we had to go for the race, but we didn't get a specific letter (the hotel had some special mirrored room-number system so the right half had the same room numbers as the left half), so we weren't sure whether we had to run back to the left of the flight of stairs or take the door leading out to the fire escape. We decided not to go back to the creatures, and just wanted to get out of that hotel. When we got outside, it was indeed night time. We got to the ground, and noticed the host of the race as well as the remaining participants sitting in the lobby watching an old movie on a projector. Apparently three classmates were lost in the hotel and the race was called off.

I woke up after this part, but it continued in another dream.

#2 The host and I went to search the hotel for the missing classmates. As we entered each room, the host had to do something with his briefcase before we could continue, often resulting in a creature creeping up on us and scaring the shit out of us by screaming from behind when we least expected it. I was scared shitless of creatures hiding somewhere in the rooms we entered, such as behind curtains, in the bathrooms, or behind the bathroom curtains, so I checked every possible hiding spot. We never found the missing classmates.

About two months ago I kept having LDs every night or sometimes more than once in each night and they freakd me out... they always started the same I would be in my room and instantly know that I was asleep. When I first startd having these I always saw my mirror no refection where ever I would look it was like I had obscured "mirror vison" ... some times my walking was impaired and once I was stuck in my bed with no movement, it freakd me out I tryd pinching myself screaming anything to wake myself up but it didnt work... no matter bc they never lasted long anyway and at the time I was very grateful they didnt it was really scary and confusing to me as to why I was having these kinds of dreams... so I started doing some research and found out what was happening. .. and I decided my next ld I would fly ( I had flying dreams in my past and they are so amazingly real its out this world the feeling and reality of it) so my next n last Ld I was in my room and I was still a little weary of it but I tryd to will myself to fly but all I could do was bounce around my ceiling and walls... then I woke up gasping
Since then about two mths ago I havent had any Lds and if im lucky I remember maybe bits of my dream. I was meditating and exercising more than I have been lately so im hopeing if I get back on a more pure spiritual path I can willingly achieve Lds any feed back or eexperience anyone has with this would be greatly appreciated and ill keep posted if I have any progress. ..

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some games with LV and we were recording some games as well. There was some strange version of 'I Wanna Be The Guy' which was apparently 3D and there was one level we been stuck at which was happening in some kind of channel and there was moon falling. Then we were chatting for a bit on skype and our friend DP was with us as well. Later we finally managed to beat that one level, and decided to update YouTube channel before editing videos, then we were finally done with it and were talking about subscribers.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was in some big room with metallic walls and ceiling, and ice floor, i was trying to pilot some sort of mecha then i used it to break through ice and then was been able to move around underwater with it.
Then later i was watching some anime about people who had power to transform into some combination of beasts and mechanical parts. I recall there was final battle between main character and bunch of enemies and it was on stadium of some kind. The main character of anime was really overpowered by that time and could freely take on two enemies without even using any advanced powers, then there's a ton of people were attacking him and he used his transformation, his powered form was some sort of big brown cat with stripes and green glowing eyes, piloting some sort of floating mechanical head. Then he went to final battle with main enemy, but only thing i can recall is that it was pretty epic.
Later on i was watching apparently some episodes i missed, there was one that was telling something about time before those transforming powers were found. There were some kids watching show, which was ridiculously bad and people who was setting it up haven't even tried. Then one of people who was setting up show started telling some story about bizarre version of game he seen. The game started normally but once player got control his character was one hit killed by some black figure, which was saying 'sorry~' and even with cheats figure kept killing it.

I don't know where I was...maybe a hotel room. I think we rented out several rooms. I was watching some girl play this old school beat 'em up, and and she was near the end of the game. There was a bonus objective where if the player collected all the flags in the game, they would get a bonus game. Well she got the last flag, and died doing so, but ended up beating it afterwords. The game was another beat em up, made the same year, but the graphics weren't so great.

Anyways, my brother T is in the next room, and he wanted me to play this other game, and my sis wanted me to bring my PS3 over there. I finally get things over there, and hook them up, and my other brother starts having a conversation about my progress in college. They walked off and kept talking, but I could over hear them talk about how far I should have been (ie just get a straight bachelors instead of getting the two AA's what I'm about to receive). I told them that my GI bill only pays for 3 years, and there's no way I can guarantee myself of passing that 4th year without and financial support.

Notes: I had the worst time getting getting to sleep (again), even though I'd taken some sleeping pills. I ended up remembering some fragments anyway (enough to put them in my dream palace at least), so I thought I'd go ahead and type them up today (unlike yesterday when I couldn't even put my dreams into words, much less imagery - ugh).

By now I already know I can hold a lot of information in my memory palace (I'm at 121+) and I have three dream "clusters" stored (I link all the dreams into one chunk each, so that's three days worth of dreams), so I'm thinking of removing dreams as I type them up here at DV, unless they are particularly memorable.

These are all muddled so I'm just going to type them as one - but they may be separate dreams. When I woke up, there was already no order to them.

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I'm looking at Alistair and Zevran from Dragon Age: Origins on my computer, and dad comes up behind me. I flip through an image of one of their abs. We have a conversation about them that leads to dad calling one of them a 'she' (I think there was a picture of them together?), and I hesitate and start to let him think that, because he's against homosexuality, but in the end I stand firm and say "they're both guys". I think he says that it's fine.

Side-note: In one of my loci, for remembering dad's phone number, I have my dad coming up to me and commenting on a porn scene on my screen - I wonder if that caused this dream? :O

A little later, I'm doing something and I hear mom yell at dad, "Your religion is so sexist!". I hate when they fight in real life, but I was pretty into what I was doing and didn't seem to care in the dream.

I have this man watching over a website of mine apparently, and I am in the room with him (maybe checking in). I look at one of the pages, and see that it's full of inaccurate Japanese. I express my dismay and exasperation.

I believe the scene changes here a bit - me and a/the man are talking amiably, but at the same time we both know that we're just pretending for the sake of 'my sister' (I can't remember if she's in the room at the beginning, but she isn't in this next bit).

We give up the pretense and talk about the task I have to go do, because the man is a demon who was put with my sister to have a hostage. I'm not worried that when I leave, he'll hurt her, but still a thought comes up from somewhere above my dream character - "Won't he hurt her while I'm gone anyway?"

My aunt is leaving the house with a black camera, and I'm like, "oh, is that to get a better reading on the Japanese?". Mom, standing somewhere to the right, gets a mischievous look on her face. There's a few bits I couldn't remember.

A trans* char (FTM I think?) was talking to someone in a room about what if someone they liked found out. Later, they're talking to that person and it turns out that he heard the conversation through the vents and knew, and was fine with it. He had blond hair. It's possible that DC!me from the demon part was trans* too and the demon had an inkling?

Wednesday 3/13/13. Last night went to bed 1:30 am - 9:30am.

I was chased by police, again. I'm walking down a pedestrian zone, 2 cops in black uniforms, they look like NY police. They are walking towards me. There some kind of a metal column in the middle of the walkway, and it exactly covers their view of me as we walk. It's unnerving to walk slowly this close to them, but it works, they can't see me.

I sit down outside a small store. Lady owner comes out and tries to shoo me away. Then she sees the look of desperation on my face and askes me if I need to hide. I nod "yes". She lets me in. A customer brings her dog in for grooming and walking downstairs.

- I'm in another building. Could be police station. There are stairs to go downstairs but it's restricted area. I walk there anyway, because I feel that's the way out. Big chase, I'm up in the metal construction thing under the ceiling and jumping out the closed window.

Chase is always fun, but this one was a little tense, for some reason.