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Date of Dream: MON 29 JUN - 2020



Dream No. 677 - Banned From My Server

I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember; somebody who treats badly on an online community in real life found there way onto my personal server in the dream. By the time I caught that they were joined, they had taken all these screenshots of things that were posted in my server so that they could supposedly share it around. I did not hesitate to go to the commands list and hit not just the ‘kick’ button, but the ‘ban’ button.

I was taken to this area that does not exist IRL on discord to confirm if I wanted to permanently ban this user and once again, I did not hesitate to say yes. A picture of a ‘ban-hammer’ then appeared and it felt like the most epic ban ever. It felt good to get rid of some who I knew was going to otherwise cause me great problems in the dream. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream No. 677
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: SUN 28 JUN - 2020



Dream No. 676 - Mystery Of The Possessed Kingdom Hearts Characters

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, it was a simulation of Kingdom Hearts and for some time, the first-person entity in the dream was Sora (in his KH3 appearance; in-fact, all characters were in their KH3 appearance). He was in this world which seemed to be like a forest with ancient ruins scattered throughout it. The King (Mickey) was instructing him throughout a mission which seemed to, though, have some dark, creepy and somewhat psychotic vibe about it. Sora had to collect these red coins (120 of them) and the later the coins, they were harder to find and some even triggered weird events for Sora.

The dream seemed to change scenes but it was regarding the same situation. I was now amongst Riku as well as Aqua and Terra in a different, seemingly more peaceful part of the forest. The King wasn’t there, but through his energy, we knew that Sora was in trouble. In-fact, Riku, Terra and Aqua spoke to me, wanting me to go on a scouting mission for them. Ventus was with them but he didn’t really say anything and was rather hiding being Terra and Aqua as if he was their child. I realised that the reason they wanted me to go is because as I am not an official member of Kingdom Hearts; Organisation XIII would not recognise me and so I could do whatever I wanted without being caught.

The dream now split into two different scenes of what each party was doing. Firstly, the dream went to Riku, Ventus, Terra and Aqua who now seemed to set up base under a great big majestic tree and they were there waiting for me. Terra and Aqua were sitting on an additional stump on the side and were casually conversing with each other (though there was no sound from them, just visual) as Ventus seemed to be eating a bowl of porridge, but not by himself. Riku was spoon-feeding Ventus and I believed Riku was practising his feeding technique as a dream guide for when I would return. As Terra and Aqua had a calm, casual energy, there was a nervous energy coming off Riku like he was extremely worried that I wouldn’t make it back safely.

Now the dream went to my scene. I was walking to this more open area and I saw these characters glowing with some light-greenish data shield around them; they were recognisable Disney characters from Kingdom Hearts. In the real life games, Donald and Goofy are Sora’s main companions but in this dream, they were his closest, nastiest prison guards. Sora didn’t have any obvious restrictions but if he moved from in-between Donald and Goofy, the possessed characters would hurt him very badly (any characters with the shields moulded around them).

Even though the characters were extremely nasty and creepy when possessed, I walked around without a care as I recalled I would not be recognised by any of them; though my energy was that of sheer nervousness. Upon assessing the group, I shockingly noticed that Kairi was also possessed and so could also very well hurt Sora. The dream camera then went to a close-up of Sora, Donald and Goofy. Whoever was possessed would be able to say some of the nastiest, most horrible things in somewhat of a deep robotic tone; and this was Goofy at the moment, threatening Sora… Sora did dare not move or say a word. However, Goofy’s shield seemed to switch off and he was trying to cram as much in as he could naturally. However, it wasn’t long before his shield came back on and he was as psychotic as ever. Donald just stood there all the time, looking like he could hit Sora with a baseball bat.

Goofy seemed to now be giving the ultimate speech of sheer terror and Donald now looked so violent like he was ready to pounce. I even felt Riku’s energy of sheer terror from afar, being worried sick about his dreamer. The speech did it; as Donald and Goofy remained on the hill to bar Sora; the rest of the possessed characters, including Kairi, got violent with each other. The dream camera even ended up doing a close up on the Pirates of the Caribbean group who were punching each other in the face while laughing in their faces like drunkards. I had seen enough and I figured it was time to head back to the group at the great tree before something would indeed happen to me too.

As I quickly but quietly slipped away, I started off with a little dash and propelled myself into the air. I gained the best feeling inside me as I was to fly across the forest to return ‘home’, this energy of sheer joy and excitement to see my Kingdom Hearts family again. Flying felt so much fun as I went up and down and then straight forward, but making a slight left curve to steer towards the great tree, and now this triumphant sounding music was playing as I continued towards the great tree.

Now as I was flying straight again, as soon as I caught sight of the great tree, Aqua and Terra smiled and started waving at me. However, Riku seemed to have his back turned and was still doing something with Ventus. Terra took a quick second to tap Riku on the back and had a look like ‘told you she’d make it’. Riku turned around quickly in a flustered manner and had the most surprised look on his face, like he was gasping in astonishment, as he then smiled and waved to welcome me back along with Terra and Aqua. While I was still at full speed, just before I entered under the shade of the tree; the dream ended and I woke up.



Dream No. 676
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No



I also ended up discussing this dream, so I'm also going to share here what I said about it on my Tumblr account:

I’ve treated Kingdom Hearts differently compared to the past video game worlds I’ve incorporated in my dreams. Because Kingdom Hearts is such a large group and they all seem to be ‘friends’ with each other, I felt bad about using only Riku and therefore perhaps taking him away from the rest of them; so I’ve devised a 3 Level system in which the whole KH group can contribute. As Riku is my dream guide; he’s the only one on Level 3. Those that are not dream guides but I think still have a strong competence are on Level 2; they are Aqua, Terra, Roxas and Sora; they can act as substitutes if my dreams were to impair Riku in any way. The rest are on Level 1 which are those who are... Casual players; they are Kairi, Axel, Xion, Ventus and Namine. For those shocked about Kairi; I MAY promote her to Level 2 depending on how she performs IRL in Melody of Memory. It’s funny because I think the Level system was really demonstrated in Dream No. 676, but I’ll get to that recap eventually.

So, since Riku was maintaining significant weakness as a dream guide; I decided to write a letter to Aqua and Terra in my IRL task journal, asking them to ‘speak to him’ about some points I as a dreamer wanted to address. I wrote to Terra because he’s Riku’s predecessor in their world; and then I included Aqua because I creatively thought ‘what if Terra gets another spell of darkness or some kind of rage?’. It was amazing to actually see results, but I was not expecting Dream No. 676.

I’ll give the actual full dream recap in another post, but here’s some discussion on it. In Dream No. 676, Riku, Terra and Aqua appeared to me (after the first scene was about Sora rather than me). Ventus was also there, but he seemed to be ‘hiding’ behind Terra and Aqua like a kid; so that there emphasises my Subconscious’ (SubC’s) assertion that I had put Ventus on Level 1; whereas Terra and Aqua’s Level 2 was demonstrated by them ‘outlining the mission’ to me; and in this dream, it also seemed that they were teaching Riku about being a dream guide. In-fact it felt like the Wayfinder Trio were the main ones featured but Riku was brought along as that link between me and them.

In a sub-scene, while I was gone; Aqua and Terra were sitting at the side on a stump and were talking with each other. Then there was Riku and Ventus at a table; Ventus had a bowl of porridge and Riku was spoon-feeding it to him. I feel like Aqua and Terra had asked Ventus to be a ‘practise dummy’ for Riku and Ventus had agreed. Riku may never spoon-feed me a meal in a subsequent dream, but it was just a metaphor at least of general caring conduct as a ‘dream guide’ in my universe.

Like Riku still has a way to go to be a fully-fledged dream guide in my universe (he still has to master hugging and carrying), but he tried so damn hard in Dream No. 676. In-fact, Riku was the sole one to have the fear of God in him that I wouldn’t make it back alive (like a parent, he was worried sick for my safety), whereas the energies from Aqua and Terra showed that they were always confident I’d make it back to them safely. In-fact when I was returning, it was Terra that tapped Riku on the back and Riku was absolutely shocked. Ventus just continued to twiddle around at his end of the table. So with our group, it felt like a family of 3 ‘adults’ (Riku, Terra and Aqua) and 2 ‘children’ (me and Ventus).

I loved the interaction I had with these guys in Dream No. 676, so I decided afterwards to draw us. I’m the one in-between Riku and Terra. My outfit is consistent; I devised this to be my Kingdom Hearts OC outfit; I thought my usual school uniform would not suit, so this is my new get-up. The background is externally sourced from a wallpaper image but this is similar to what the environment was like in the dream. As I said; I’ll put the actual dream recap in a separate post. Don’t hesitate if you want to ask me about any of my ‘universe laws’ and/or my various interactions.

Congratulations if you made it to the end of this post!!

DREAM VIEWS: I'll post the image I sketched about the dream below:

I'm on a street as usual I don't know where I am. There's tour guide?! who tells me to go and see these two other guys in order to travel in town. So I go to find them aroun the corner. There I am, again looking at a street sign. The letters are white, on a blue background. the letters are starting switching then I try to read the sign but it's almost impossible but then I see a name, it says "Biergärten Örinhnen"..I Think I'm in Germany! I'm in a dream!, I Look up and sure enogh, the architecture looks exactly as it should. Then to make sure I look again to the sign and all I see is: "yäöööä!", I get the giggles and keep on going and rubbing my hands a bit to stabilize lucidity.
There I see a vehicle, but is more like the cargo of a truck, without a cabin, maybe wheels, and is half way opened. There are two German dudes, standing to the left side of the cargo, resting the arms on some metal hangers. I think to myself, this is my chance to speak a foreign language.! "Hallo mein Namen ist Dorian". One of the men: oh!, isn't your namen Jordian?
(I think to myself again, the tour guide must have given a different name) nein, (no),I'm Dorian! They laugh and go on with their own talk..
My perception shifts to the left, and I can see there are a few maps on a screen, and the locations where we would be traveling..Aparently in a very short of time, since the vehicle has a special technology. I look down and there's the cabin, below the ground. Now I'm sitting there, and a lady is next to me, in front of me there are 3 boys; she's tapping on top of their heads with her left leg, she's wearing sandals..
I notice I'm getting caught in the drama and as I try to rub my hands again the dream vanishes..
Man I really wanted to try one beer...

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

Had a lucid dream yesterday and I tried to summon water but I only managed to summon a water drop and a water emblem unintentionally.

I'm driving a car up to Hemköp and decide to park in the middle of the street. After a while the car is gone and I'm miserable because I think someone took it. I talk with my mom and she says that it's okey and that she knows where it is. It got taken by the police because I parked it wrongly.

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7/11/2020
Took melatonin and B-complex vitamins
Fell asleep at 1AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, woke up, wrote dreams
Woke up at 8AM, with recall, fell asleep
Woke up at 9:30AM, with recall. Wrote down dreams

What to work on: SSILDing for longer when trying to fall back asleep
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Dream 1(COD): This dream seemed like it had happened before, I was very familiar with the scene and its like I knew what was going to happen and where I needed to be. I was like in a Call of Duty video game. I had to run from cover to cover while under fire and eventually got to this space where I got a sniper and had to fight off a few dogs that were right next to me with a teammate. They were hard to hit but also very stupid, like they had terrible pathfinding AI and bad hit mechanics. I killed a couple that were around me then woke up.

Dream 2(Matteo date after work): I was at work and I had a date planned with my friend Matteo. He came to my work dressed nice and had a gift for me even. We started walking back to his place and then we were able to kayak the rest back to his place somehow. We rented kayaks that ended up being only being $4. Then he threw me into the water we were kayaking in. It was fun but also the water was super dirty and kind of concerned me. We went into his house after and his parents came down. They seemed a little tense at some points. Later Matteo, his dad and I all sat on the couch together and his dad was telling about the new room configuration and he seemed very proud of it.

Dream 3(Casino gambling): I was at a casino looking place and was with my family and some friends. At one point I wanted to go play a certain card game with my friends and I heard my mom say I wasnt allowed, but Maria was. I wanted to ask her what that was about and convince her to let me play. She was playing this game against my dad and had been drinking so I decided to let her finish her game before conversing with her. She lost and then she gave a little speech in the form of a rap about how I'm not allowed to. Before I could answer she left. I tried to find her but found this multi-level learning place right outside the casino. I explored there looking for her and then came to a room with monsters and people in lockers and wanting to play chess. I approached someone/something and wanted to play chess with them. They were warning me or something and I told them I could play. Then we were talking about who our partners were going to be and he had this super scary and strong looking monster that I knew to be almost impossible to beat and he would kill us. I told my partner lets back off. He tested the monster by touching him and moving him around. This provoked him. Thankfully at this point the room started spinning and that meant everyone had to get locked into their locker so we were safe. We were all scrambling to found our locks on the floor.

I am outside my old childhood house. Daytime (though the sky is more gray). Colors are dulled out the dream world feels flat, blurry, and generally low quality. I am already semi-lucid due to a gradual climb through lucidity that has happened over the course of a long dream of which I am only recalling the tail end of. I recall flying around, having some rather typical trouble with my flying powers with them being slow and very low to the ground but with some concentration, I am able to work past them. (I don't know why this is. I always seem to have these difficulties when flying now, but I always seem to be able to work past them.)

I attempt to explain to some dream characters (this brown-haired girl who was moving boxes out of a house a few lots down from mine) that this was a lucid dream. At first she doesn't believe me but after flying in circles around her a few times; doing some loops and flying through the branches of some trees I manage to get her attention that something is off and eventually fully convince her.

At this point, I begin explaining the nature of lucid dreaming to her in a pretty imprecise and incomplete manner. I explain the basic concepts of MILD, DILD and WILD, dream journaling, and dream stabilization. I then start demonstrating some basic dream control by summoning small items by reaching behind my back and grabbing them. I summon an apple and a bottle of some kind of alcoholic beverage that comes in this purple and blue glass bottle with crystals growing off of it and give them both to her. The dream scene transitions to a very distorted cafe/resturant enviroment where we are sitting on a large sofa and there are a lot of robots/ andriods. The lighting in the scene is very harsh; light and dark coming in through a big vertical window.

At some point I sit down on the couch and sink into it until I fall through the floor. I look up and see the resturant enviroment above me floating in a white void with some faint clouds. (It sort of looks like in a video game when you clip out of the world and fall through the floor). I begin flying once more but wake up not long after.

I’m in a car with Mom and Makayla, I think with Mom driving. We are in or near downtown. I am in the backseat and currently looking behind us as what looks like a large flame bursts through a window in the GSR. I can’t believe it, and I take my phone out so I can get it on video. I think there is another fiery burst towards the top, and then the building appears to slowly collapse. We are a ways away and driving straight away from it, but the dust cloud slowly engulfs the street and everything else not too far from us. I tell Makayla (maybe she was driving the whole time) she might want to step on it a bit. It almost seems like no one else knows what’s going on. Now, I’m in the GSR and I don’t think there’s any damage. I don’t get how this could be.

I am in Germany with Mom and Makayla. The first place we go to is a small, unassuming office building. Inside, it looks more like a home that has been converted to an office space. It is a perfect blend of the two. For a short period of time, Makayla and I can’t find Mom. At one point, I see her with a glass of non-alcoholic beer with a few sips missing. Part of me thinks ‘Already?’ There are two German ladies here. They are short and squat, older and very friendly. They speak English with a faint German accent. They work here but do not come off as an ‘employee’, eradicating any ‘us vs. them’ and promoting a genuine sense of helpfulness. The music that is playing here is odd and definitely nothing I’ve ever heard in any office building. It’s fairly loud, a slow and melancholy beat with droning female vocals. Through a window, I see that it is overcast out. One of the ladies says they should do something when it lightens up, gesturing as if she’s parting clouds. Now, I am outside with a different lady. We are sitting on a rocky shore against what must be the ocean. As I sit and observe the scenery and feel the perfect temperature, I am overcome with both grief and something close to euphoria, knowing that this is where I belong and that I’ll have to leave. I think I almost start tearing up. The scenery is rocky, but of soft soil and greenery where it is not. The ocean is calm and dampens the temperature to what I would call perfect. I talk to this lady as a small, wooden pallet drifts this way. There are a few seagulls on it that seem to be steering it. It becomes overcast. I think part of me is aware that Germany is not an island. The lady is showing me a map, pointing us out (a clear island), and showing how close we are to the very southern end of the ‘Hawaiian archipelago.’ There is a succession of maybe ten or so tiny islands to the North until I see the familiar cluster of Hawaiian islands. The rest of the map looks like a bunch of green islands close together on the deep blue of the ocean. She is now showing me where I’ll be staying. The house is two stories, wooden, and facing the ocean. It looks like the entire second story has a deck; we’re walking on it now. We see into one of the rooms, and she is nonchalant, but I’m not sure I like what I see. Looking down into the plain room, I see what looks like a dog bed. On it is a dog collar and some rod-like object. The unsettling part is that I think this is for a human )a captive?). Along the wall to the left there is an open cabinet. Attached to its door are about three black sheathes with different knives. I am disturbed because I thought Germany would be completely pleasant and not at all like this.




I’m outside somewhere that looks similar to Midtown, but I think more residential. From a third person perspective I am watching Donald Trump and his advisor jogging. It seems his ‘advisor’ is trying to keep up with him. Now, I am jogging with them. His pace is fast, and I think of his old age. We turn a corner and head down a straight away. For some reason I imagine someone attempting assassination and how it’d be easy right here; I don’t think he currently has any protection. Now, I am home (the house seems unfamiliar) and I hear some activity in the doorway. There’s a member of the press just inside the door, interacting with someone just out of sight outside the door. He steps into view - it’s Donald Trump. I think I’m naked and/or don’t want him to see me yet, so I hop into the ‘shower’, which is actually the refrigerator. I shut the door and just barely fit in here - I think door’s actually still open just a bit. Pressed up against the sides of this ‘fridge’ with nothing but me in it, I don’t recall my ‘shower’ being this small. I turn the water on and it comes out cold.




I must be performing auto fellatio. I am alone in an almost pitch black
space, feeling the sensations of both giving and receiving oral. It is slow and passionate.




I’m in a store with Mom. she points out a case of beer - it’s all of the World Beer Cup gold winners. The white case is probably almost as long as me and I think $15. Though I know it would be a good choice, I just don’t really want to get it.

I am in some store when I see Sean and another, girl employee from the Sephora. I’m waiting for someone in here and think I go over to talk to them. Now, someone tells me that they think they’re stealing, so I keep an eye on them. I think they’re both in uniform. Each has a small bag with them, like a travel size toiletries bag. I notice that Sean’s is open, and I can see that he does have multiples of a certain item. They are crouching down close to a shelf frequently, but I find it hard to believe they’d steal from where they work. Then again, maybe it makes it easier. I’m not sure I directly see them take anything.

Fainting

It began inside a classroom on the first floor. Science class-like. I went upstairs to go to the bathroom and as I was walking through the halls, I fainted. It was towards the one end of the hall and when I came to, two girls there helped me up. I was groggy and one of the girl put my arm around her shoulder or something similar to that and helped me walk. We walked downstairs and then took one of the doors outside, I told her I'd probably be ok and thanked her for helping me. I found Steven in the yard and this was the second time I found him around here in the dream. I was headed towards my class or just towards the direction of home and I found Y there. I asked Y where my stuff went, since I was gone for a while. And he said he didn't know

I think I took a bus home after this.


Undead Ruins

I was right outside of a church or a church like building, maybe chapel. But I was on the right side of it. My consciouness transferred to the inside of the building. There was a princess there and I noticed someone hiding behind the closet. It was an assassin and his name was Ahaha. Basically the princess was targetted for her seat in the throne sort of deal. But the assassin Ahaha was dead so she made it out ok. Now I'm back outside the building, and I see another princess here. This was the third princess of this country and I told her that Ahaha was dead and that her plan failed. Suprisingly Ahaha was the prince of this country. I think he was the second prince.

Heading out of the country now. We formed a company or just a group of us and headed to the nearby ruins. I was sort of far but not that far. I could still see the castle from there but it was far away. A hidden entrance way at the bottom of the mountain and a way out near the top. The under monster here was sort of like a zombie. Sort of blurry memories here, purged some undead and we were at top. There was like a board there and showed something. But we were going to head back to the kingdom or head to the next now. But before we went, I had some ability to materialize and bend metals so I did that to make weapons for the others there.

-maybe the same area as the kingdom dreams lately


Rock paper scissors
I was on the second floor of a warehouse like building. Or a warehouse remodelled to be a sort of a loft. On the bed with a few others there. Our job here was some sort of bounty hunter and two of them were getting ready for their job. I just stayed there for a while until some ppl came. There was a party here today. Some little girl came up and wanted to do rock paper scissors. But she made up some specific rule. I did scissors and she did too, but she said that it was double RPScissors and that her scissors beat mine. Anyways we were deciding who was winning but the old man showed up. He was the boss of this place, a thing old man, with short white hair and a beard. He was asking us what we were doing and I told him about the double RPscissors rules. I was still skeptical of the rules and summoned the Grim Reaper, or something that looked like it. Basically and Elder spirit that would have all the knowledge that mere youngling mortals would never know. And hoped that he'd know every BS rules of it. Grim showed us the rules and advanced hand positions that would beat others. One was the holy hand sign, and that basically split the hand into 3 sections so you had 3 times the power apparently. The other one was the exact opposite. Well it was pretty much the same hand sign, but your fingers grew more fingers at the tip sort of like branches on a tree and it was called the unholy sign.

After some time had passed we went on a van for a mission or something.

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Notes:I think I figured out what to do to be more lucid. I think it's related to consistency, balance and taking breaks.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

I encounter Evangelion's wife and we have a nice talk and she invites me over their house. Then she calls Evangelion and she tells him I am coming over and how it's the chance they wanted to have a threesome with me. I am shocked and then relieved about my affair with him (from a dream the other night). I also wonder if she found out and is just trying to fix it in a positive way or if she has no clue and simply also desires me. Anyway I am up for it.

Created Friday 10 July 2020

I got two DILDs and a scrap today.

Spoiler for Kinda long:

Scrap Group 1
Dreams where I was conversing with some mystical being.

Dream 1 - Deadly Prank and Flight Radio LD

The visuals started a bit blurred. Spectator mode. This depicted an episode of Spongebob Squarepants. The title character and his friend Patrick were in an unknown apartment suite. The two were in a make believe game of hero and villain, Spongebob acting as the former, and Patrick the latter. However, Patrick got so engrossed in the game, that he started to believe he himself was really a villain. Things started getting dangerous when the starfish left deathtraps in every room. Spongebob was eventually cornered. As he cowered, Patrick loomed towards him with a nasty looking weapon. The insane starfish drew closer and closer... only to immediately drop the whole matter as if it never happened. Spongebob, with a sigh of relief, also laughed away his own near-death experience.

Around this point, I manifested on the floor of the suite's kitchen. I was exhausted, so I didn't even bother trying to get up. There were a few other voices, but I didn't pay attention. Soon, a fluffy medium sized dog trotted along right up to me. It got too curious for my liking. I was afraid it was going to bite me. But instead, it simply licked my face. This got me to question my environment, and thus, I quickly gained awareness.

Springing to my feet, I rushed to a room at the far end, then jumped out of an open window. I found myself flying over an expansive city surrounded by grassy hills, all under a clear dawn sky. Among the more interesting sites were two or more amusement parks, as well as an airport carelessly built between a few skyscrapers. Quite a view, especially considering that my visuals clarified by this point.

I opted to form rigid metal wings on my back just for the fun of it. Just then, I received a radio message internally (not unlike Codec calls in Metal Gear Solid).

"This is the US Air Force", says a male voice, his words muffled a bit by static. "If you can understand me, leave this airspace or we well open fire."

Well, this never happened before. I figured he thought I was some kind of alien.

"Permission to land.", I responded promptly, filtering my voice to sound inhumanly deep.

It took a moment before I received another message. "...alright.", the voice says skeptically. I don't think he expected me to talk.

Anyway, I looked for a safe, flat landing spot outside the city. But, there was nothing of the kind. The dream destabilized, and collapsed shortly after. DEILD attempt two minutes later, though I dozed off.

Dream 2 - July 2020 TOTM Basic Task I

Scene 1 - Game Gear Idea Awareness
The visuals started blurred. I was resting on the floor of an apartment suite similar to above. Dazzling sunlight forced me to half-open my eyes. There was some commotion going on in another room nearby, as well as noise from people getting started with their day. I just wanted to get some sleep, that is, until I started questioning my state. As a test, I meditated in an effort to float up as I laid supine. It took some effort, but eventually, I did levitate. This easily affirmed the dream.

I was about to head out the door, when I spotted this dude (olive skin, dark, unkempt hair) playing something on a Game Gear. On closer inspection, he had a Sonic game loaded. This got me to sound music from the series. The first in mind was Aquatic Ruin Zone from Sonic 2. I then had the idea to visit that very location. With an unusual combination of focus and anticipation, the scenery warped.

Scene 2 - A Visit to an Aquatic Ruin
The visuals were clearer. I instantly found myself just where I wanted, a lifelike version of Aquatic Ruin Zone, sunlight seeping through the foliage. This did indeed appear as the crumbling walls of an ancient city overrun by tropical wilderness. The air was heavy with vapor, though I never did directly see a body of water as per the namesake of this location. Anyway, as I floated around, I decided to pull down a nearby branch to touch the leaves. They were surprisingly sharp on the edges. I then noticed big red berries growing on the branches, the very same ones from the game. Of course, I wanted to sample them. Unfortunately, an unseen force dragged me out before I could do so. Cue another warp.

Scene 3 - Mountain Breaking Wave
The visuals were perfectly clear. I was standing by a road between some hills and a thin forest, a partially cloudy blue sky above. Various different locales were in the distance. To the far right were the shores of a beach. A city spanned out throughout the rest of the horizon, their skyscrapers notably larger than normal.

I took a moment to appreciate the view, when I quickly went over some tasks in my mind. I settled for this month's basic task i. Of course, that meant I had to find a mountain. I walked towards the left alongside the road. It didn't take long for me to notice a huge, ice-peaked bluish grey mountain leftwards to the horizon. After a brief moment of concentration, I released my aura. It was visually tame, appearing as just a quick, transparent wave that pulsed in the air for a moment. So it came as a bit of a surprise when the mountain crumbled seconds later. Job well done, I thought.

Regardless, I wanted to see such destruction more closely. With an upward wave of my hand, I collected as much asphalt as I could from the road to create a huge hill made of the same material. Once again, I conjured my aura. In an instant, the asphalt mountain exploded violently into millions of chunks. Some of the larger clumps almost flew right at me.

Perhaps I got startled a bit. The dream collapsed shortly after.

Spoiler for Aquatic Ruin Zone:

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7/10/2020
Took melatonin and B-complex vitamins
Fell asleep at 12:45-1AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, woke up, went pee, Used SSILD
Woke up at 8AM, with recall, fell asleep
Woke up at 9:30AM, with recall. Wrote down all the dreams I remembered

What to work on: SSILDing for longer when trying to fall back asleep
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Dream 1+2(Working for Riaz then first class, making pizza for uncle.): I was working at big cheese and the makeline was set up very differently. We were doing things like making sides and prepping pizzas but Riaz was doing all the topping. I imagined thats why he can keep his stats so good at such a high volume store, he controls everything. He finished up and we clocked out really early at like 5:30, I thought thats all he really needs to keep the store profitable, he'd rather spend his time doing other things with the extra time. Another time I was at first class and I remember Ana letting her hair down with no hairnet after her shift near the food. At one point my uncle(maybe an employee too) wanted a pizza. I was helping him make a pizza and got the order of things all wrong. I ended up with the dough at the bottom of a bucket and pouring some sauce on top. I thought I had to make more wings too but there were some in the fridge.

Dream 3(Austin comes over for food, slaps me, I bring him outside to talk, grapes): I was chilling on the driveway or garage and Austin came up to us looking for to hang out or get some food. We went inside and I realized its because he has no food at home. I offered him everything and he ended up with like a ice cream drumstick and some orange ice cream/popsicle looking thing. I got near him and he slapped me with the orange thing. I asked him why he would do that and then told him to follow me and I brought him outside onto the front lawn. I again tried to get an explanation and then he left. I felt so bad for him, wasting the only food he had at the moment just because he was angry. Then Pheobe helped clean me up and tried to cheer me up by saying well make chocolate covered grapes. I remember just sitting or lying down feeling sad for Austin.

Awake/explanation
Normal dream
Lucid dream

4 AM

I dreamed I was sitting in my high-school French class streaming 'Everybody Loves Raymond' (lol) when suddenly I felt the teacher walking up near me and shut my tablet off and started copying what was written on the board-- writing down what episode I was on of the show so I could continue when she went away from the front of the class again. As I was note-taking, someone in the back of the room, a tall, goth looking fella, spoke up and said he couldn't see the board, so she told him to bring his desk up next to mine where he could see, by the window. He did so, and after a few seconds of note-taking, I looked over and noticed him standing on his desk chair with a noose around his neck.

Alarmed, I said, "Woah, what are you doing?" and the teacher ran over almost screaming and pulled it away from him and asked what he was doing. He said he was so tired of being at high-school all the time every day that he decided he was just going to kill himself, because it was really just too much (I silently agreed, lol). She asked him what he did like about life, and before I knew it he came to the front of the class and began performing a very colorfully languaged rap (lots of curse words, awesomely, in the high-school setting) about how his favorite things in life were playing sports (don't judge a book by its cover I guess) and banging chicks, but it wasn't filling the gap in his soul and he was gonna kill himself instead. Some of us laughed at the part about banging (and the very descriptive gestures accompanying it, sorry, I'm still a teenager when it comes to humor and have to say I laughed), and the teacher almost cut him off a couple times, but the fact that he almost just tried to kill himself made her pause and we all listened to the entire thing.

After he finished, we all broke into applause and laughter, and his face completely lit up, like he had never been met with such approval before. He seemed significantly happier all the sudden, and soon the bell rang. I joked with my friend that his rap sounded like something that would have been the title-screen song (but censored) on FIFA '03, and one of my other friends asked why FIFA '03. I thought about this for a second and said, "Uh, inside joke I guess," because I felt like it was, but had no idea where I had pulled the title from (in reality, I played this game for a blog post about a year ago, so I guess that's where it came from).

I set off walking through the hall at this point, from upstairs, and realized the stairs down had been replaced by a mountain of still-packaged tampons, almost like a slide. Quite a few girls were making their way down ahead of me (I have no idea what was with this imagery in the dream, my mind was clearly just all over the place after the crazy rap), and I tried to go down slowly without losing control and falling all the way down. As I neared the bottom, I wanted to jump off to avoid landing on any of the packages and breaking them, and I steadied myself to do so and jump in a small hole between a few packages. A couple people noticed and went silent as if watching me, and I bounded off and held my toes together and landed right in the small gap, and everyone sarcastically clapped as if pretending to be impressed. I deeply bowed sarcastically also, and a couple people laughed, and I walked out the door.

I then set to looking for my bus, and remembered it pulled up at the very right-side of the front of the school, which had a playground there. I jogged my way over there, and realized there was a shortbus still there that had to leave first, for the handicapped kids. I sat down on the wooden perimeter of the playground looking at the side of the bus, and a couple other guys came and sat down at my sides. Suddenly, as the bus was taking off, a baby was thrown from behind me and landed in the dirt underneath the back tire of the bus.

The guy to my right suddenly leapt up shouting, "No! Stop!" and it wasn't enough, the bus took off and ran the baby over full stop, mashing it into the dirt. This guy let out a blood-curdling scream and ran and picked it up, while I sat in shock watching him, and he held it up and the baby just happily said "mama!" despite being folded into a pretzel. We all blinked, and he, holding the baby, said, "It's... it's just a doll..." and started straightening out its limbs. We all breathed a sigh of relief while watching him.

Then I woke up!

6 AM

I was at my friend's (Brooks') apartment in a city building, on the third floor or so, and we were casually chatting, when I suddenly remembered my dream goal of conversing when someone in a different language I didn't know. Somehow this did not make me lucid at all. I turned to him and said, "Do you know anyone that speaks a different language in here?" and he mentioned that a friend of his from high-school (her name was Megan) spoke Spanish. I told him to call her up immediately because I wanted to speak to her. He went and buzzed her up and went out in the hallway and brought her in, and when he did, he said hello to her in Spanish (buenos something), and she looked at him puzzled, and said, "Uh, hola." He asked if she remembered how to speak Spanish, and she said, "I've never been able to speak Spanish...?"

Suddenly, we were in the courtyard below talking about this instead of his room (don't know how, didn't question), and she continued, "I took French in high-school." I remembered her being in my French class and held my hand over my head going, "Ahhhh, crap, that's right, and you know as much French as I do!" and she nodded. Then I sort of threw my fist down and said, "I needed to speak Spanish with someone!"

Overhearing this, and older lady who was walking by brightened up and said, "Oh, Spanish? I love speaking Spanish! Come over to my apartment and we'll speak Spanish anytime!" and continued walking up the ramp into the building. I walked back to my friend's room with him and asked who she was, and he explained she lived next door. As we got back into his apartment, he sat down on the chair, and he said, "How long do I have to live in this apartment?"

I waved my hand and said, "Just until I can speak Spanish with this woman in my next dream, not that long, you just can't move yet because it's really convenient and I won't have a reason to come see her." He began complaining about the apartment and I started looking around and saying, "What's so bad about this apartment, look, you've got a room... there's another room, you've got four rooms! This place is huge, it's like a house!" and his wife from the other room said, "I wouldn't say that!" and as I was starting to feel like they were definitely gonna move, I woke up and slapped myself in the forehead for being so dumb.

I’d just woken up, and I began to record myself explaining my dreams while they were still fresh in my mind. Never mind that it was on an app that doesn’t exist, I didn’t pick up on that, but while telling my dreams I had the idea to do a reality check. I counted six fingers and realized this was a dream!


I put my phone down, walked toward my bedroom door, and told myself out loud, “I am in my house in [town I used to live in].” (I opened the door.) “The dream is clear and stable.”


I chose to go to that house so I could find my parents, because I live alone but had to find a DC so I could complete the TOTM, but why I picked that house specifically, I’m not sure. We moved out of that house in 2013; I didn’t leave home until 2019.


Immediately, my vision became more vivid (I hadn’t realized it before but it was kind of dull color-wise). I was still in my apartment, but standing in front of me was a man.


“Guten Nacht,” I said. (Yes, I meant Guten Tag, but close enough? Autocorrect tried to change this to Gluten Nacho.)


“Guten Nacht,” he replied. He said something else I didn’t understand. The only word I recognized was verstehen (understand), so I assumed he was asking if I understood German. We were entering the dining room now. (I looked up verstehen while typing this; it’s conjugated wrong for second person, but it DOES mean understand. Yay for recognizing one of the handful of German words I know!)


I tried to recall how to tell him I don’t speak German. “No spreche… German. Alemán?” (Alemán means “German” in Spanish.)


“Alemannisch,” he corrected me.


“Deutsch,” I corrected myself. We were in the kitchen now, and I doubted I could carry this conversation further, so I decided to wake up so I could write it down right away.


By the way, it turns out Alemannisch actually refers to a group of Upper German dialects spoken in Switzerland and parts of Germany and Austria—but I didn’t know that, so I’m going to assume my brain just tacked a German suffix onto a Spanish word in an attempt to make it German. Whatever works, right?