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I find myself at the JH basketball court near my house with AD and AF We are all standing on the concrete taking an IQ test that is being administered by my counselor. I think there were other people from school running around the track nearby or watching us take the test from the grass or something. We work on the test for some time and during that whole time I cannot answer any question on the test. I do not know if they are illegible or particularly difficult or something, but I seem totally incapable of answering any. We then break for lunch and walk back up the long concrete stairs on the side of the building. There is some indoor hallway beginning immediately at the top of the stairs and TAnd is laying prone right in the doorway. I walk to the hall and turn left into a longer hallway with various people from my school. AF is taking a drink from the drinking fountain (which has four separate spouts for some reason) but she is bent over at the waist and her ass is sticking up in the air (like 6 feet in the air, she looks deformed or contorted and insanely tall). I walk with AD and AF to some cafeteria that vaguely resembles the high school cafeteria, lunch in hand. I ask AD about how difficult the test was and he says that he definitely answered every question (he evidently thought it was easy, the bastard). AF agrees and as they walk toward the lunch table, I wake up.

I had a bad night's sleep last night, which I think effected my recall. I have some brief impressions though.

1. Someone, an older man, pulling me by the arm. He is very angry with me for something I did.

2. Taking some sort of test.

3. One of my friends being arrested.

That's all I can remember, dammit!

17.02.2011

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in a bar and heard someone talking about how bad computers were and said that he hated technology. When I exited the bar I said that technology was important or something.

I was in my university and the electromagnetism teacher begun to give us the test results, but unlike in a previous dream fragment this time he seemed happier when he finally got to me (up until that point only J had passed). He told me that I had some things out of order, especially an exercise that was about remembering a song, but that I had answered mostly everything right.

He played the song (I think it might have been a real one) and he skipped forward to a part that went "la la la". He was rewinding it but I still heard it with quite a bit of quality, only faster. He skipped this part because he thought that it didn't contain any important message. The song was also kind of visual because some words had colour. We then argued about the colour yellow being bad for memory consolidation (¿?)

After that he showed us a video about something (don't remember) and when we discussed the video he said that the use of yellow represented "memory ______". I pointed out that it then turned green and he laughed and told us that if the makers of the video hadn't studied _______ they probably wouldn't have studied _______. Then we joked that the video might be useful for telling our parents what electromagnetism is about.

08.02.2011

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It was electromagnetism test day. When I first entered the test room I laid my bag at my table next to J but A took my seat. I told him to move over and he did, but then I regretted it and lent him one of my rulers. I had two, the one I use for class in real life and another longer one, I lent him the long one.

The teacher explained the exam to us, there were going to be twenty questions but we only had to answer ten. He told us something about a robot program and he was sick and wanted to puke, and so was I for a moment. He also asked us how many of us were sure that we wanted to be physicists in the future or something physics related, but only a few people raised their hands.

When I got the exam I was surprised because there were not any electromagnetism questions and it was all questions like "have you grown accustomed to college yet?"

(in the same week as Golden Gate Death, a previous dream)

It starts off as a school stress dream. Me and one of my friends from my class have our final (during finals week) and we can't find a place to print our papers. etc.

The dream shifts

My friend is still there, I am pretty sure he is just a carry over from the previous dream.

We are taken hostage, by a man with a gun. He is wearing a white shirt and has black hair. He is having small talk with my friend about something. I tell him something like "you wont get away with this."

In the distance I can hear a fancy party going on. All I can see are shadows, and hear feint music and talking. I say something like "you can fire that gun because they'll hear you." He says something like "oh yeah..."
He shoots me in the stomach. I don't feel the pain but I feel wet, and I feel it extend as a bleed.
The party continues to go on with no one noticing. I am confused on how they could not hear something so loud.

I try to get their attention, and yell "Help!" I feel myself become weaker.
No response. I feel my body being drained, I am getting tired, but I know if I fall asleep I'll die.
"help.." I yell noticeably quieter. The gunman mocks me. "You can never reach them now"

I know I am going to die no matter what now, it is to late to save me. But I can at least not let that asshole get away with just shooting me and going on his merry way.

I take a deep breath and prepare myself "HELP!!" I scream until the fabric of the dream fades and I wake up saying "help"

I felt empty all day...

(from years ago)
(I could feel everything)

I was late for history class and was running to try and make it. I open the door to see that everyone is there and the classroom is different. The right side is the room is a normal almost cliche looking classroom setting, but starting a little right of the middle of the room a circular section of the classroom was replaced with water that extended into a vast ocean on the right. In the distance (still close enough to see clearly) there were a row of large arcs facing toward the classroom.

My first thought is: "Crap I didn't study!" (apparently an arc with oceans is some kind of exam XD)
It is my turn to "take the exam" only there are a bunch of steps I have to go through first in order to complete it.
I am partnered with a random kid from class, and the first think we have to do is attack each other with a series of kung fu moves while underwater. (I assume this was part of not studying since I did not know what they were or what the objective was). Whoever had the edge would get a head start to the arc, and the object of the "exam" was to blow up the arc before the opponent.

The teacher sees I do not know what I am doing and sighs. He begins to explain the kung fu moves again, but briefly. I feel confident that I understand. Their are 3-5 strikes in all (I can specifically remember) the last one being an upper cut, bringing both players to the surface. I stand their waiting for it to start, and as soon as it does he hits me with all the strikes in quick succession before I can even swing my arm and find my self floating with swirly eyes on the surface of the water as he swims toward the arcs.

I get my equilibrium back and swim slowly for the arcs. I figure he has a head start anyway so why hurry and get myself tired. I get to the arc and rest my hand on it. This is the point I realize "Hey, I'm dreaming. I don't need to do anything special to blow up this arc if I want. I can just punch it and it will blow!" When my arms was fully cocked and ready to release a huge punch, I forgot I was dreaming and punched the boat with my ineffective assault. It hurt: "Ouch! Why would I do that. Why would I punch a boat?!" (This was funny when I woke up for real XD) Now that the fact it is a dream is forgotten I move on. I see there is a ladder to my left and climbed to the deck.

At first all I see is my face in shock, then I get a look at the deck and it is covered with different kinds of guns. I realized that my opponent had about a 10min head start and was probably decked out with guns right at that moment. I looks around but did not see where he was. I reached down slowly to grab on of the guns, and a bullet shot right through my fore arm. I fell to the ground to avoid getting shot more and grabbed a gun per hand. He was suddenly dressed like Neo from the Matrix practically and as I had predicted, armed with tons of guns.

We exchanged heavy fire. I was shot 6 times in all (right forearm, left side, right calf, right shoulder area, left thigh, and another place I don't remember) and I got him twice before he fell back below deck. He might have thought I was dead, or would die, but I was not sure.

I followed him down a ladder into the ship, but he had already gone into a different room. In the room is a bed with sheets and a blanket and a table covered with teddy bears. I was confused and walked toward the table. I heard a rustling in the other room, so I darted under the bed, and peered out from underneath the hanging sheets. He came out of the door and up to where the teddy bears were. He opened one up and I could see that it was filled with C4. I was shocked that he would be cheating so epically and decided to try and trap him with his own trap. I came out from under the bed quietly and began to ascend the ladder, he heard my footsteps and tried to grab me to keep me in the ship. I kicked him down off the ladder and climbed onto the deck. I shut the top and ran into a leap off the ship into the ocean. I landed with a big splash, and felt the pain of salt water in my wounds. I heard the ship about to blow, and began to swim for my life. It blew. The explosion become a extending golden sphere that was growing fast. I was getting tired. I finally was so exhausted that I just curled up in a ball for protection under the water and hoped for the best. The explosion creeped up to an inch or so away from me before it receded.

I swam to the pier where my friends helped me out of the water.

After I woke up every place I had been shot was a large dense muscle cramp and I had to get in a hot shower to ease the pain. It was worth it though because I passed my exam as far as I know XD

As I read some of the DJs I always read about zombies and they seem pretty common, so much so that I think "oh not more zombies!" I haven't had a zombie dream in a very very long time. So wouldn't you know that my dream world would have to bring on the zombies.

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Drewam 1: Zombie Apocalypse
Nonlucid
I am walking to a road in a big city with a guy thats a buddy of mine [never seen him before] and on the other side is our female buddy. She has a few guns on her to keep the zombies off but we have nothing. We are trying to get across this heavily traveled highway to her. Apparently it was the start of a zombie apocalypse which had zombies on the street walking around but people still drove in their cars. She waited for us to get to the intersection but for some reason we thought it was dangerous to cross. She didn't want to move much or yell cuz the zombies wouldn't attack unless you looked lively. She yelled at us to moon the cars, to get them to slow down for us, so we could cross. This sounded strange to us and I looked at the other guy with a scrunched up face and we shook our heads as our hands were on out pants. She then yelled and waved her hands in frustration and we felt guilty enough to dodge the traffic but when we got to the other side her waving had attracted several zombies. She waited till they got close and put a shot gun up to their faces and BOOM BOOM, click click BOOM, and their zombie heads were vaporized by the blasts. While I was in a little shock and my ears were ringing she yanked my friends arm "come on!" BOOM, shot one square in the chest, "click click". The shooting was attracting a lot more zombies and we ran for it. Unlike the movies though these guys ran too, well slow running but still. Soon there was a mob behind us of at least a hundred. We ran to a building's doorway where its a safe-house but you are supposed to enter slowly so zombies don't follow you. Apparently zombies don't open doors and search around, they just walk around unless they see a meal. For us there were 200 zombies behind us! We ran in and up a hallway to the 2 hardened steal doors at the end, the zombies couldn't get in at all. The people on the other side were not happy with our huge zombie posse but they were ready for this but they would also have to clear them out at some point. We left their glaring eyes and walked up a hallway. The girl with the guns broke off and went into a room inside a room cuz the zombies would never go in there and they could jump out the windows if things got crazy. Me and the guy decided to find the exit on the other side of the building.
Once out into a hall way there were 2 zombies coming towards us as we lightly ran. He had a knife on his belt which the zombies grabbed at. We then ran faster till we were outside. There were 2 zombies out here and they look surprised to see us. There was a huge chain-link fence (20 feet high). This was good because zombies were the slowest climbers and would probably fall. He pulled out a grappling gun that was spring loaded, he hit back end of it on the ground and the hook shot in the air and over the fence connected by a black rubber rope. I jumped on the fence but couldn't get a hand hold on the fence and a zombie was right next to me. He looked at me unsure how to get a jumping target. I got a hand on the fence and climbed up. My friend was over it already when I got to the top. I saw it was a double fence with an inner fence so zombies would fall between them if they could ever got to the top. I couldn't span it either so I shook the fence till it fell down a bit and jumped to the ground.
On the inside was a zombie free enclosure where people were playing baseball.


Dream 2: Florida House
Not very lucid but with extreme vividness.
I came home to my house which was a single level ranch in Florida [I've seen them and they a very common little white houses made out of cinder-blocks]. I walked into the garage which didn't have the car in it cuz I could pull the car in the neighbors driveway cuz that house was vacant for years and I could pull my car around into my driveway facing the street [I saw myself doing this]. Once inside the very clean and kind of new garage, I found a piece of paper on the floor and picked it up and took it to the garbage pail. Once there I saw that the cabinet was open and there was a piece of paper on a shelf. It was a sticky note of the contact info for a scam artist. 3 thoughts shot through my head, call the number from a payphone and find out what it was about or throw it away. As I reached my arm out to drop it in the pail I thought that I should report this scammer to authorities.
Satisfied I started to walk away but saw my old humming bird feeder in the garbage too. I thought to leave it but I actually felt sad to do that so I took it out and put it back on the shelf. Another thought shot through my head, "we are what we have." I felt proud of myself for having achieved something. I felt that I had finally became who I wanted to be.
Upon awakening I remembered I had this dream twice before. It was exactly the same place and each time felt like the only time during the dream. One dream had me deciding to call the scam artist and another had me throwing the info away. This one I cared about other people and decided to help. Did I set up a test for myself to see if I would do this? I have had 2 other "test" dreams something like this.

Note: MoSh and I are starting a new plan to increase his lucidity and recall, and hopefully make mine more consistent as well, and it involves MoSh and me sharing repeated dreams, MoSh recalls all he can, and then I fill in the blanks. Our first plan was to explore a tower in MoSh's inner world that was constructed by Walms. The tower is basically a challenge of perception, the goal to simply be to get to the top of it. This was my goal as I turned on my light / sound machine and slipped into my WILD…

I am in the yard outside MoSh's inner world home, and I see MoSh is already there, he was looking at me. I tell him that I am there to go check out the tower Walms built in there, MoSh says he is ready to go. I notice he seems to be in a hurry to get going, but I figure he is just wanting to get going before the dream possibly ends. I ask MoSh where the tower is, he points towards the forest across the street from his house, he says it's off in that direction, then he heads into the forest. I follow MoSh into the forest, and we follow a path that seems to wind around for a while. I wonder how long the trail is, and whether it might be faster to just open a portal to get to the tower. I am about to ask MoSh about that when we come out of the forest and I see the tower up ahead. It is a rather tall and creepy looking tower, it looks extremely tall. I look up and I can't see the top of it. From what I can see from the base of the tower, it has no top, it goes up forever. Well, I suppose that's the challenge, so we need to find a way to the top of the tower, a top that I'm not even sure exists.

MoSh and I look around the base of the tower, it is of a pattern of bricks that looks quite interesting, but there doesn't seem to be any sign of a door. I am thinking it would be really pathetic if we can't even find the entrance, so we continue looking around the tower. Finally MoSh finds a spot in the wall that he says looks different to him, he pokes around that for a while until he finds a particular brick and pushes on it. A bunch of the bricks shift around on their own to reveal an entrance, which MoSh proceeds through. I follow MoSh through the door, and as soon as we are inside, the bricks move on their own again and seal us inside. For just a bit the place is completely dark, but then there is illumination from an unseen source. The room is now filled with a cool blue glow, making the room look really strange. The room is cylinder shaped, though there is a ladder up the far side of the room. The ladder goes up the wall, and then it goes horizontally across the ceiling to a door in the ceiling. Well, the way to do that seemed pretty clear, climb the ladder and then swing across the horizontal ladder like monkey bars, and then deal with getting through the door. So I head over to the ladder, MoSh is right there with me, and we climb up the ladder, MoSh is right behind me. When I reach the top of the ladder, I reach and grab the first ladder rung of the horizontal part, thinking if this was my waking life, this would be really hard. As I grab the rung, however, the entire room shifts, or at least it seems to. Now the horizontal part of the ladder is going up, MoSh is climbing on the floor. Um… ok… so now I climb up towards the door, which is now in the middle of the wall, I notice MoSh looking at me strangely, then he follows me. I reach the door in the wall and reach for the doorknob. The room shifts again, so now the door is in the wall, I am standing on the ladder, and MoSh is crawling on the floor. I open the door, then MoSh and I go through the door into the next room.

I step through the wall and find myself standing on a ledge on the outside edge of a huge spherical room. I look around the room, I feel MoSh standing right behind me, both of us barely fitting on the narrow ledge. Then MoSh is pushing me forward, I am about to tell him to quit it, but I realize the door behind us is closing, and we are both pushed off the edge into the room… where I realize there is no gravity in the room, MoSh and I are sent tumbling into the middle of the room. I look back at the door just in time to see the door close flush with the wall, such that I can no longer see the door. So where were we supposed to go now? There must be an exit somewhere around there, maybe it was another hidden door in the ceiling… but where was the ceiling? I can't even tell which way is up without the aid of gravity, so I'm not sure where to look for the door. Actually, finding a door wasn't going to be a problem… doors appear all over the inside of the spherical room. They are moving, so now I feel rather like throwing up, it is definitely making me nauseous. I try to focus on one spot to keep from throwing up all over the place, and I notice that one of the doors isn't moving at all. It is stationary, not rotating, not moving, so that's the one that must be real. I float over to that door and pull it open, then I call over to MoSh, telling him I had found the exit. MoSh floats over to me and then we both go through the door.

MoSh and I enter another room like the one before, and I soon figure there is a pattern of two or more of those rooms set up connected to each other. It seems like we wander around in them for a bit, but then MoSh and I decide to attach a line to the door we entered through to make sure we aren't backtracking, so we can be sure to get through the rooms as quickly as possible. Finally MoSh and I exit through the final door into a room that has gravity and isn't moving. Now, however, the fact that the room isn't moving seems rather nauseating. I still feel like I'm going to be sick. MoSh doesn't seem to be bothered by it, however, as he starts looking around the new room.

I finally get to a point where I no longer feel like I'm going to throw up, and I look around the room MoSh and I are now in. MoSh is huge! MoSh looks like he's about ten feet tall, he is standing at the end of a hallway. He shrinks down to normal size as he comes back, then he says he found the way through here, I just need to follow him. I follow MoSh to an opening in the wall, it looked like a tiny hole from one angle, but it is clearly large enough to fit through. MoSh says there is another opening on the next level up. MoSh climbs out through the hole, I follow him. We are now on an invisible floor that is so far over MoSh's inner world that I can't even see the ground, but I know there is no way we have gone that far up… MoSh follows an invisible pathway to another hole through the wall of the tower. I follow MoSh and look around the room we have just entered. I don't even get a very good chance to look around the room before a wave of vertigo hits me so hard that I wake up.

Note: Only a couple of fragments from today, and I am running behind, so here they are.

Final Exam
I am in the largest classroom I have ever seen, it is easily the size of a large concert hall. Instead of just seats around the room, however, the stands are lined with desks at which people are working. This is during a final exam, though it's not even a class I am taking at the time. I am sitting next to Tigress, who is taking the exam. Somehow I have a copy of all the answers from the test. The class is a completely pointless one that isn't worth the time it takes to study for the exam, so I was helping Tigress to cheat. I do that for a short time until an instructor comes over. I hide the answer key just in time before he tells me I don't belong there, so then I get up and head for the door. Just by the door there is a ladder up to the rafters of the room, so I climb up that. I expect someone to stop me, but no one does. I am now in the rafters looking down on the students taking their tests. I crawl over until I am over Tigress, and I start dropping answers down to her in small balls of paper. I don't remember how I knew what answers she needed when, but she seemed to be doing fine with that method. I hear a sound off to my left, I look and I see some guy sitting on a toilet taking a crap… um… not really what I want to see. This is sooooo wrong… When he flushes the toilet, there is no pipe under it, and a splash of water and shit falls down on several students sitting below… um… yuck… But they don't seem to notice, they keep working.

It's a Gamble
I am in a casino of some kind, it is a bit different than most casinos I have been in . Instead of being a big room, it is a long hallway type setup, with slot machines on the sides and a couple poker tables at the end of the hall. I don't know how to play Poker so I go over to one of the slot machines and check my pocket for money… nothing. I think that means I can't gamble, so I might as well find the exit. I'm not sure where to go for that… The entire building suddenly shakes, and the slot machine beside me pays out spontaneously. I collect the money, thinking I won by earthquake. Now I have a bag of quarters and I still want to find the exit. I walk down the hall, the place shakes again, more slot machines pay off. People are gathering the quarters, I decide not to get greedy since I can't get to the money very easily. I see a sign that says exit, so I go to that and open the door. I am hit in the face with a blast of wind as I see the place is moving at a rapid rate. I look out the door and see the tracks below, the train stretching out in both directions… I am on a train! The train is a casino. I wonder if I could survive a jump if I hit the ground in a roll like they do in movies. I am considering that when someone grabs me and pulls me into the train, telling me it is going too fast to get off. I turn and see a man has pulled me in, I recognize him, but not sure. Is it MoSh? Maybe. He says the slot machines in the next car are loose, they all pay out all the time. We should go there and get some more money. I am following MoSh when I wake up.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

21:30 GMT+9 – sleep

My biggest fear
On some strange shop (like some Japanese shops I’ve been at) with really attractive cakes and sweets, but I couldn’t really tell if that’s what they were. Then a guy on the shop is taken down a corridor and told there’s a test to him. Behind a big door at the end of the corridor is the scariest thing that has ever haunted his dreams. In his case he says he used to play a game with his friends in which they’d hide and seek and the one seeking the others would incarnate a scary character they’d call the fog-man, a mythical creature that would take away the soul of the one found by him – and then this kid would replace the fog-man in his role. The man said he used to have nightmares with the real fog-man taking his soul. Then the people overseeing this test told this man that whatever he’d find behind that door would be his own mind’s creations and therefore if he was certain of that, they wouldn’t possibly harm him, but if he failed to recognise that... The door opened and out of it came a dense thick fog. He entered and the door was closed.
I also wanted to play. I opened the door and there was still fog but no signs of the man. The fog disappeared. I tried to think about what is that scares me the most and had this vague feeling of something unknown and scary coming out of the darkness and attacking me but before it would materialise I decided I was in the control of my mind and therefore no fear would take over. Then all the fog and light darkness dissipated and I found myself in an empty room with a mirror and a door. I positioned myself in front of the mirror, saw my reflexion. I was dressed in white and yellow and although I looked a bit strange it was still my normal look, no monstrous face or anything of the kind. I’m semi-lucid and I dance a little bit both to increase lucidity and test my image on the mirror. I manage to prolong lucidity but it is still weak in terms of control. Not sure about what to do I decide to summon all of the people I know through the door. Soon I start seeing people from my past, present acquaintances, family, “enemies”. I can’t tell if everyone is there, it would be impossible, but soon they start interacting with me.
I lose lucidity. I am with my aunt India and my friend Zilla. Zilla decides to call my old friend Mara, whom I don’t see since her wedding. Her brother answers the phone. Zilla doesn’t say a word and he gets upset. He hads the phone over to Mara in the hope the person will talk to her. She asks “who’s there?” and I can see both people on each side of the line now. I tell Zilla this is a stupid game and I don’t see the point of it. Mara then thinks she knows who can be and gets very worried. She says “don’t worry, I will come for you. I’ll help you.” Obviously she thought someone in distress was needing her help. I tell Zilla to please stop it and just say something on the phone!
Then I am engulfed by a lot more people I know and there’s this lady, who’s my opponent in my work and hates my guts, among them. When I see her I remember we were both at a same party some past time and we talked to each other when we were so drunk already and our hate transformed into attraction and we had kissed. I was wondering how could we still be mad at each other after that. We had been stripped down from our divergences and connected as human beings, but here we were still as enemies.
Then I’m outside in some big city with skyscrapers and neon lights. I enter a van and someone else is by my side. Zilla is on front seat by the side of the driver. She hands me over a synthesizer she bought but I already have other things on my lap I also bought and she feels angry with my refusal to take up more stuff.
Then on some kind of mall I see a lady doctor famous in my country who is giving an interview about birth and how women should embrace hospital methods instead of this trend of natural child birth at home, cause so much can go wrong and they need medication and blah-blah. I go to her and make a phenomenal speech to counterbalance – not radical, but very well balanced I refute her ideas that seem to approach giving birth as being seriously ill. Then my friend Zilla and others come with a more radical attitude and start making hate speech and mess up everything. I later ask why they did it and they said I sounded to compromising. I told them I had simply used skilful means to pass the message across without conflict. By then I have a group of followers and admirers but among this group there are a few who don’t understand my way of doing things and always create a fuss. I’m on some high room with view over some kind of inner court. People are down there celebrating the result of some football (soccer) game and I comment loudly about the frivolity of such celebration. They get upset. They accuse me of being peaceful and moderate to the outside but quite radical inside and that the radical activists that are around me just reinforce that I am a secret extremist. As I seek to be alone to digest such accusations, these two radical friends of mine follow me and I scream at them to leave me alone, that it is their fault people think such things of me. Walking down a street I encounter another guy that went to school with me. We talk and I conclude the big issue here to be solved is if I am becoming what my father said I would become or the opposite of that. Am I an extremist under disguise or am I really becoming moderate and if so, am I moderate in the sense my father preached (which resembled too much with conformity) or am I moderate due to wisdom and maturity? As I wander through these philosophical matters, I conclude, after all this dream sequence, that my biggest fear of all, is to become like my father or the person my father wants me to be.

03:00 GMT+9

Cat stapled
My cat is showing some discomfort. I cuddle him and find a staple on his belly. I take it off gently. My mom is upset and worried and I search for more. I find lots of staples on his skin. We don’t know how this happened and feel sorry for the poor fellow.

Friends and relationships
I’m in the middle of a crowd who’s watching a movie on an open air cinema. I am by the side of two old girl friends from school and all is fine until it starts raining. At first it’s ok, but my friends start complaining it’s raining too much and open an umbrella. Then not even that is enough and they want to leave. But I’m just fine. The rain is not really wetting me and I say it is just dream rain. Still they leave and I decide to go along. Didn’t go lucid.
Then sitting around a wooden rectangular table with my friends. One is Mara and she says her husband calls her names and I assume he is also violent with her. She asks for advice and I say she needs to get away from him, but she doesn’t want to. Then he also joins the table and I change subject but she says we can go on, that she doesn’t want to make it a secret. My other friend present doesn’t understand this, thinks he’ll get mad and beat her up later but I say maybe she wants to confront him but can’t do it alone, so we should help. He says he likes her, but she didn’t reveal to be the woman of his dreams and so he gets angry sometimes out of frustration. I ask him why doesn’t he simply leave her and go look for that dream woman? I say if my dream guy was Brad Pitt, I would go after him, no matter what and not beat some other guy for not being Brad Pitt. He feels embarrassed by seeing the ridiculous and we laugh together.
Then my boyfriend comes up and he insists on having sex immediately. I don’t think it is appropriate and also I feel like he wants to force me like a punishment for something. He drags me to some room and rips my clothes off but I get really upset with his attitude and I escape from him. Outside I meet this guy who I had a crush for in highschool. I am happy to see him and I follow him. He is climbing some steps to go inside a house. I go to. It’s like an antique shop but with rooms. I lie down on some sofa, my friend who was with me on the wooden table before is here now again and notices my interest in this guy. She says I should go for it right now but I feel bad, I just said no to my boyfriend. Then the guy comes to me and ask if I have some deodorant. I find that question completely dislocated but my friend says he is really into me and wants to be fragrant for me. I feel yuc!

06:00 GMT+9 – wake up

First, it's been forever!! And now I come back and see that there's a whole new dream journal system LOL. Well, let's start with last night's LD.


October 11, 2010

Last night's LD was a visit to Test Area 102. Time for more harvesting of mean-looking things with gnashy teeth and other scary-looking features!

I found myself standing, again, in front of the painting that I had planted into the ground in the center of the dreamscape.
I took in a deep breath out of habit and immediately breathed out the moment I smelled the swamp-rot.
BLEH!
With a thought command, I summoned a peppermint candy, opened my e-visor and popped the candy into my mouth.
Closing my e-visor, I summoned a pulse rifle and began making my way through the dark forest of thorns.
Almost immediately, the thorns began to hiss as I passed them by, the trees creaked and groaned as they bled dark ichor, and occasionally the ground would tremor for some reason or other.
My motion detector wasn't picking up anything at all even after half an hour of walking. I wondered if the spine hounds had decided to avoid me for good this time?
It was after an hour that finally I spotted my first spine hound. It didn't even notice me before I shot it twice, killing it where it stood.
After that though, it was back to me and the hissing thorns... neutral
It was after another few minutes that I finally picked not one but five objects speeding towards me!
I quickly swung my pulse rifle around to bear on my new targets... but they were nowhere in sight whatsthat
I watched as the blips passed my position and that was when I heard the rustling... up above!
I quickly aimed up and started firing into the thorn canopy, plasma bolts burning through thick mangles of thorn branches which shrieked and hissed as they were destroyed.
I attempted to track my targets as I watched the blips continue moving away from me, firing into the canopy in the general direction of the blips.
And then they were gone... Bugger.

Silence....
And then the thorns started hissing again.

I continued my trek through the thorn forest, pushing my way through thorn bushes, breaking through low-lying thorn branches, and occasionally stopping to listen for anything other than the thorn hissing.
Eventually I came across the same trees I had stopped at before. The scratch markings were still etched into the bark.
And there it was! Looking up, I saw something in the branches, seemingly huddled in the nest I had found!
I slowly inched my way towards the tree base, my pulse rifle trained on the nest and the creature inside. It didn't seem to sense me; maybe it was asleep?
Holding my pulse rifle in my right hand, I stooped down to pick up a small rock. Carefully standing back up straight, I pulled my left hand back and threw the rock up at the nest.
It missed the nest, but it bounced off the branches before falling to the ground... and that was enough.
The creature jerked up, its odd-shaped head weaving back and forth as if searching.
It's head reminded me of a sting ray's... its back though was a segmented carapace like a scorpions... and then its legs unfolded, hairy and segmented like a spider's. It lifted itself out of the nest and turned on point to face me, revealing serrated teeth lining its mouth from one end to the other and a secondary mouth just barely peeking out of its primary jaws.
Its form fully in view now, it was about the length of a snow mobile and its body as wide as a skateboard was long. Its long legs made it look even bigger though!
And then it started making a bunch of clicks and croaks at me, it probably wasn't happy that I was so close to its home.
Unfortunately, I couldn't just walk away. I was looking for it and now I had found it. And so I shot it.
A three-shot burst and the thing virtually exploded down the middle, almost falling in two, save for its lower abdomen and spindly tail.
I watched as the creature's corpse fall from the tree and hit the ground in a crumpled heap. Then I noticed a strange thing.
As the thing's blood pattered the ground, the ground almost seemed to... move. Like lips pressed against a stretchy film of rubber, trying to gasp for air or utter something. It was like the stained soil was trying to drink the blood.
"Interesting," I muttered to myself as I thought this, raising an eyebrow in amusement.
Then I heard a series of rapid-fire clicks and long drawn-out croaks. I looked up at the other trees and saw more of those... sting ray spider teeth things... tree sharks, I guess I'll call them.
And they were all turned towards me.
With a thought command, my pulse cannons unfolded themselves from my shoulders.
"A jolly time for a brawl, aye?" I called to the tree sharks. As my pulse cannons locked onto their targets, I fired off a storm of plasma bolts into the trees all around.
In the initial fusilade, four tree sharks blew into smoldering clouds of chitin, flesh, and misted blood--then they all started attacking me at the same time. Tree sharks were either leaping from the tree tops or scuttling down the tree trunks, leaving more scratches in the bleeding bark. I barely was able to register any of that while I was at this point firing at a mass of tree sharks that was slowly enveloping my whole front, leaving me to run into the woods if I needed. But they were slowly closing around my flank as well as I continued firing along their line.
Ten, twenty-one, twenty-eight, more kept coming and I had to keep blasting them as I started edging towards the denser part of the thorn woods. As I got closer to the shadow of the thorn woods, the more the hissing returned from the thorn branches. The trees began to groan again.
My kill cams were going in every which direction as my pulse cannons were auto-tracking tree sharks that was scurrying across the ground, jumping from tree to tree, weaving back and forth from thorn bush to thorn bush, it seemed like they were everywhere, and with the added claustrophobia of the dense thorn wood forest I started thinking about that one scene from Cloverfield when the main characters were in the subway getting chased by those doberman-sized creatures that looked like a mix between a spider and a toothed snapping turtle with bad dental hygiene.
Anyways, I had made it about twenty meters back into the main part of the thorn wood forest when the things started really getting sneaky about their chasing me.
As the tree sharks on the left would weave through the cover of shadows and thorns, distracting me, I noticed the right side would try to rush straight at me before suddenly turning to scale up trees and such to chase me down from above. Then the ones on the left would actually start to rush me for real.
I ended up summoning and chucking a few fragmentation grenades towards the group to my right, but I didn't really hear the pained shrieks of more than two tree sharks getting maimed and blown apart by the FIVE grenades I threw. The others must've made it up the trees a lot faster than I thought--which was a nice skill considering I could be using these creatures one day.
I returned my attention to the left-side wave, my pulse cannons' plasma fire sweeping across the low thorn bushes, blasting up dirt, and setting bushes and trees on fire. Another tree shark went up in a fountain of body parts and gore, its head was there a moment before instantly vanishing in a flash of blue-white plasma fire, and then its body followed suit, exploding in charred bits.
I quickly reloaded my pulse rifle, ejecting a steaming hot spent cell and slamming a new one in, pressing the charge button. The pulse rifle hummed and whined as it charged up, a second later I was firing bursts into the canopy above while my pulse cannons continued applying the pressure on the ground.
Then I found out where the right wave went.
It was almost raining tree sharks as they leaped from everywhere above!
I felt the weight of one slam into my back before its legs were grappling with me, hooked claws scraping across my Battle Armor, trying to get a grip on me.
Suddenly I felt the pressure of jaws clamping on my right calf, the armor protecting my leg creaking slightly under the pressure.
Just as I was aiming down to blast at the tree shark that had my leg, the whole weight of another slammed into the back of my head, imagine somebody throwing ten original Xbox's at your neck simultaneously, then you'll know how it felt. Minus the pain, of course, but the pressure was enough to tell me it would've outright broken my neck without my Battle Armor and if this were a real life situation. These things must have incredibly leg strength to launch themselves so quickly and so powerfully. It was like what a flea might be if it were the size of your neighbor's Saint Bernard!
In any case, I was thrown forward and I hit the ground rather hard. Hard enough that my e-visor HUD flickered out for a moment from the impact.
And then suddenly, I was being swarmed.
As I felt my pulse rifle get wrestled out of my grip, I summoned my energy sword to my right hand and began flailing left and right, kicking wildly, and occasionally--by accident, albeit it worked--head-butted a few tree sharks. It's hard to tell amongst a mass of flailing limbs and gnashing teeth and snapping secondary jaws, but I probably killed or maimed around ten tree sharks in that brief outburst of random attacks.
Anyways, I was able to pick myself up as two more tree sharks leapt onto me and attempted to gnaw at my head and right shoulder.
I managed to shake one off as its legs couldn't find purchase on my armor, but the other managed to clamp its teeth on the sides of my e-visor helmet and it just bugged the hell out of me that I could hear its frantic breathing so clearly.
As I was furiously shaking my head, my pulse cannons firing in random directions, and my energy sword swinging in reaping sweeps, I felt more jaws and claws scrape against my armor over my legs and arms. These things weren't stopping!
"BLOODY BUGGER OFF!" I yelled as I swung my left fist randomly and connected with something. I couldn't tell what because my e-visor was being enveloped by the mouth of a second tree shark.
I grabbed the tree shark that was on my visor, hooking my fingers into the upper lip of the creature before squeezing as hard as possible, using both the strength of my Battle Armor and a dose of superstrength.
With a sickening crack and crunch followed by a sucking smack, the creature released me as its upper jaws and eyes were crushed to a pulp in my clenched fist. I then drew my fist back and immediately lashed out at another tree shark as it leapt at me.
I hacked with my energy sword, bisecting another tree shark before severing the leg of another just beside it, before it could leap.
I using the weight of the tree shark still on my back, I lifted one leg and used our combined weight to crush another tree shark underfoot while I swept my energy sword across again. Again another tree shark latched onto my right arm, which I promptly punched my fist through its teeth and down its throat. I didn't know what it was I grabbed, but I grabbed something inside that tree shark and flung it into two other tree sharks like a club before discarding the corpse. (That was when I discovered I had a grip on the thing's spine.)
Suddenly the tree shark that had its jaws around the back of my head released me, and the remaining tree sharks began to turn and run...
At this point there were easily fifty-some dead tree sharks all around me. My left gauntlet was covered in guts and blood, my energy sword sizzled with crackling energy, my left shoulder-mounted pulse cannon was having trouble turning properly to scan for targets, my pulse rifle was out there somewhere buried under the bodies, and I was ready for a vacation.
Then I found out why the tree sharks had run. And it wasn't from me.
One moment I was standing, the next I was flying into a thorn tree.
My e-visor flickered with static as I impacted the tree like a comet. I quickly pushed off the tree and turned. Just as I summoned my energy sword again, a giant claw smacked me across the face so hard that I was lifted from my feet!
I flipped almost twice before I slammed the ground like a brick dropped from a building. Before I could pick myself up I was already under attack. A solid hit slammed me in the small of my back, which would've broken my dream self's back if not for the Battle Armor--I could've sworn I was being pushed deeper into the ground by the sheer force of it.
I pushed against the ground, and forced myself into a roll to my right as the ground shook with the force of a barely missed blow. I looked up in time to see it was a Spine Behemoth... and it was even BIGGER!!
I quickly summoned a pulse pistol to my left hand as my pulse cannons began firing. The massive creature was a hell lot faster than it looked, falling to a hunch and rushing to dodge the overshooting plasma bolts, it started towards me with loping steps that covered several meters in an instant.
I only managed to fire a single shot from my pistol into the thing's left shoulder before it backhanded me straight into the thorn canopy!
Branches snapped as I flew up into the hissing thorns. Again the thorns shrieked as the branches they were attached to were snapped like twigs by the force of my being thrown skywards.
Then I began to fall, and before I could have the chance to hit the ground, the thing was onto me, its clawed hands swiping me in mid-air like a baseball. I found myself spinning and bouncing off the ground like a skimming dam-buster bomb from World War II.
I hurried to stop my roll and was rewarded with my left hand breaking in three different locations and my wrist dislocating. Then finally a tree stopped me, just barely as it cracked and started to lean to the side.
Without the hindrance of pain, I quickly picked myself up as the Behemoth was already closing distance with me, bellowing and shrieking.
Rather than dodge, I simply thought back to how I beat a bunch of Archangels...
With a thought command, I was launched towards the Spine Behemoth at blazing speeds. Shoulder-first, I slammed into the massive beast's chest and was rewarded by the solid thunking vibrations of ribs breaking under the impact. Another thought command, and my energy sword inverted in my grip and I drove it straight through and upwards the creature's sternum.
Large claws grabbed at me, which my pulse cannons quickly took care of one, and wrenching the energy sword out and slashing across took out the other. With a thought command, my energy sword reverted back to normal in my grip and with a bounding leap, I slashed rightwards and cleanly sliced through the Spine Behemoth's skull.
The Behemoth clapped its jaws open and shut spasmodically before falling over, the top half of its head sloughing off from the rest of it.
I took a deep breath to let out a sigh of relief and immediately puffed out through my nose forcefully as the awful swamp smell reached my senses. "Bugger this place..."
As my left hand was stitching itself back up, I summoned a bottle of air freshener and tried spraying it all around me, but it didn't even last for a second.
Oh well... at least it was a good hunt this time around.
I summoned myself a cup of tea to enjoy before waking up.

Date: Sunday, May 16, 2010 8:43:24 AM PDT
Important: No

English class
I am sitting on a bench in a mall. There is a donkey in front of me. Paul-1 wants me to play a game with it while Anna-4 is waiting to talk to me. I see broken lines point horizontally to different parts of it's body with words written along it in orange fire like colour and texture. One word I remember is 'de-vination'.
Me and my brother are in a classroom. There is a professor who looks a bit like Hilary Clinton. We are having an assessment to get into good English classes. I see a list of people on the whiteboard. One being Hilary Clinton. The professeur picks one for each of us to imitate. My brother and another dude got picked first but they wouldn't start because of shyness. Another student has to imitate a black woman.

Note: This is the last week before my final project at school, so my lucid dreams came to a screeching halt as did my recall, these are some of the last dreams I recall before the date of the project presentation.

I was in a car with Tigress, she was driving, and I was staring out the window at the stores we were passing. We turned into a parking lot, I knew it was the parking lot for Toys R Us, but it wasn't like any parking lot I have ever seen, it had hills all over it. The parking places were all on steep hills going either up or down, it was impossible to see the store from where we were looking for parking places. Tigress turned to park in an empty parking place, and stopped just in time to avoid a black SUV who decided to pull all the way through from the next aisle to our row. With a brief expletive, Tigress pulled back into the main aisle and continued looking for a parking place until she finally saw another one. We pulled all the way into the empty parking place, at the same time a yellow pickup pulled into the place across from us, but I noticed there was no room for me to get out. Tigress backed up to straighten out in the parking place, and as soon as she backed up, the yellow pickup truck pulled forward and took our place! What an asshole! There were more expletives from Tigress now as she backed up and looked for another place, finally finding one and managing to park in this one before anyone stole it.

Tigress and I went into the Toys R Us store, I immediately looked around for electronic keyboards, I knew exactly what I was looking for. There was a small kiosk in the back of the store that had a sign announcing they had quality used merchandise for low prices, I thought it was strange that Toys R Us allowed them to set up there, but I figured it didn't really matter if they had what I wanted. I went back towards their booth, and as I was approaching, I saw an awesome looking electronic keyboard on one of their shelves.

I saw a price tag under the keyboard that said $298.95, and I thought that for that kind of keyboard it was an amazingly low price. Of course it was used, but if most of it still worked, I definitely wanted to get that keyboard. I looked over at Tigress and pointed at the keyboard, then I looked back at the keyboard. I must have misread the price… it was $756.95… shit. There was no way I could afford that, no matter how cool the keyboard was. I was going to have to pass it to get to the Toys R Us instrument aisle, and as I got closer I saw I had yet again misread the price… it was only $75.95… WOW! But then I looked, and the keyboard was different, now it was a cheap looking piece of crap that looked like it didn't even have different sound choices… There was no way I was even going to pay $75.95 for that thing which wouldn't do what I needed it to do anyway, so I followed Tigress farther into Toys R Us.

Tigress and I looked around the store a bit longer until we realized it was late and we had to get to class, so we had to leave without finding any more keyboards. We drove to school, it was similar to ITT Tech, but it was in a different place, and I realized Tigress and both had two classes, but only one was together. We went to our separate classes, they were boring, so Tigress and I were chatting on Skype… until suddenly she stopped responding. I wondered if she was mad at me about something… I didn't know what I could have said. There was a short break, during which I could not find Tigress, and then the class we had together. Upon arriving at that class, Tigress sat on the opposite side of the room, which I thought confirmed she was mad since there was an open seat right beside me. We spent the first part of that class reviewing for a final exam, though I didn't pay much attention to that since I was wondering why Tigress might be mad at me.

There was another short break, then back to the same class, now to take the exam. I returned to class, and it looked like Tigress was going to avoid me again, but then she dragged a desk closer to me, pushed another desk out of the way, and sat beside me after all. Apparently she had just preferred the desk she brought for some reason. I asked if she was mad at me, she said no, there was someone she'd had to talk to over there. The instructor passed out the tests and we began. I found I had no pen or pencil, the instructor wouldn't let me ask Tigress for one… I finally found a marker, so I was trying to do the test in marker. Between the fact I didn't study and the marker was rather messy I was making a huge mess of the test answer sheet, and it was getting really frustrating. The instructor said we had ten minutes left, I was on the verge of a panic. I told her I needed more time, I told her I've been having a lot of problems with depression and the test was harder for me because of it, so can't we make an exception? She said no, she didn't care if I was fighting with depression, the test was due in… eight minutes now. I was so angry that my hand clenched hard enough to break the marker and spill ink all over the answer sheet, Tigress was saying something in a soothing tone, apparently trying to calm me down, but I would not be calmed.

"Why do you have to be such a fucking bitch?" I yelled at the instructor, causing the other students to look up in surprise, "Well fuck this test! And fuck this class! And fuck you, you fucking bitch! Fuck you!" The instructor had only enough time to look over at me with a shocked look on her face before I woke.

22.06.2010

(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in a post-apocalyptic world, except, shortly after the apocalypse. It was a zone with many shops spread in a desertic land. I knew it was past the apocalypse because: 1) most of the population had disappeared and 2) the country wasn't that desertic normally.
However, the buildings were still standing and in a good shape.
In the beginning, I was alone. Soon, I noticed 3 Black men running and I challenged them to a race along the empty shops. Surprisingly, I beat them all so they were in awe. I think one of them offered me ammo.
Then I was with a group of other survivors, among whom a beautiful woman possibly inspired by Lara Croft or Megan Fox. We were looking beyond a highway bridge (definitely inspired by FallOut 3, we haven't got those here) where a giant set of Mikado sticks were. And by giant, I mean, several dozen feet long.
We even consider using them as spears to defend ourselves.
Then, Lara-Megan says she knows of a big city where we will be safe. She takes us to the entrance of the city, whose guards have ridiculous uniforms reminiscent of Alice in Wonderland.
We're told that to be let into the city, we need to pass a test of trust that is also a sort of inner conscience journey or stuff.
Practically, it means being held down flat on a convector belt that takes us through the city and exposes us to different scenes of the city life for a day or two.
Then we're into the city and I am with 3 childhood friends, twins: Gur (a boy) and Mad (a girl) and their older sister Soa. They're in their early teens again.
I take them up a road, under a bridge, and up to my house which is on the left side of the road, hanging over a cliff.
On the door there is a sign saying "Ande" followed by my name, Ande being a deformation of my mother's middle name, Andrée, and her father's name, André. Under it there is my own name.
We get in the house, which is all in length: an entrance hall, a small kitchen, a tiny living-room and the bedroom.
In the bedroom there is a big bouncy king-size bed (actually my grandmother's former bed) and a small one person bed to its left. I tell my 3 friends I'll take the small bed and they can sleep in the big bed. I start taking blankets for them.

Had a nightmare that I was doing my makeup and somehow accidentally stuck myself in the eye with a pair of tweezers. I didn't think it was that bad, so I went to the mirror to look at it and realized I'd jammed it in pretty deeply. Despite the apparent severity of the injury, it didn't hurt. I pulled the tweezers out of my eye, still didn't hurt even though I felt the tugging sensation, and realized there were more things stuck in my eye... like a magician's handkerchief or something... all said and done, I pulled out another pair of tweezers AND an eye lash curler. Much to my horror, I then realized that my entire eye was gone and there was nothing but a gaping red hole (which was amazingly not bleeding). I didn't know whether to freak out or not, because I was still shocked by it.

Then, I dreamed that I had twin kids who were about 8 years old, and I was pissed at them for some reason.

Then, I dreamed that I had taken some sort of exam or something like that... scored really well on some test, or something, and gotten a highly coveted award along with a new position. I don't remember what it was, though, except that there was a list of benefits from the position, but for some reason it just felt like something straight out of high school. Also, for whatever reason, when all of this was being read off, I was sitting in the woods, and I was wearing some kind of dress made from calico, and everyone was sitting on logs, even though it was some sort of technical position I had tested for.