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i had a few small dreams last night... i had 5 of them. but most are super short and boring so ill just post the good one.


setting- i was a younger girl in this dream. In this dream, it was just my father and i. we lived in a remote rural area. my father was over-protective, so i was always inside trying to talk to people online. I was a short pale girl probably about 13 years old with long straight black hair and blue eyes. my Father was a fat balding man, who whore a brown suspenders with a light green button up shirt undernearth; with light brown pants.

I was sitting in the living room of our house with my dad. he was reading a newspaper and had a cigar in his mouth. he never lit his cigars, just put them in his mouth for the flavour. (this is something my grandfather used to do.) I had wanted to take a funny picture, so i told my dad to put his fingers to his head in the shape of a gun. he pretended to do it, then when i raised my phone to take the picture he reached out and slapped the phone out of my hands, and started scolding me. "what are ya stupid?! im not taking a picture like that!! *mumbles* stupid kid...."
i remember getting really upset. i just wanted to take a funny picture... what was so bad about it? why dad always yell at me?? I grabbed the phone off the floor and went downstairs. downstars was actually underneather the house... there was a tunnel for cars underneath it to go through... (though there was no road, and one entrance was blocked off, so it was a one way in and out.) i was sitting down there just kinda sulking. i found 2 newspapers down there and decided to look through them... that's when things started gettin freaky. The first newspaper i picked up was normal, but the one right next to it was full of photos of murders and blood and dismemberment. This actually didn't bother me though. i kept looking through the newspaper, at the photos. (i remember seeing a few that are pretty famous on the internet here haha.) suddenly it got pitch black, and started downpouring so hard that the only light coming in from that one entrance tunnel was pretty much completely cut off. i looked around for a minute when it happened, then looked back to the newspaper. there was a photo of me covered in blood, posing naked. and the photo was like glowing. i remember being like, "huh weird." (i love that nothing is freaking me out lol.) i had an idea, and turned the newspaper around to use the glowing picture to illuminate the darkness. it didn't help a whole lot, so i also took out my phone and used that as well. with the two of those in combination, i could actually see pretty well. It was then that i noticed a shadowy figure just standing there trying to be menacing, but i wasn't afraid. This angered the figure, and it asked me why i wasn't afraid. and when i thought about the answer, i realized i was dreaming. i looked at it and said, "because i deal with creeps like you all the time." and gave it a grin. then the shadow opened its eyes wide and i was forced awake.

...Not that I was ever really active here. But I want to continue working on my journal and become active too. I haven't had any lucid dreams in a while, and I think updating this is going to help. Besides, this is a cool community and all.

I only remember 1 dream from last night.

Dream 1: I think I was outside of a house. Under the house there was this toy chest, and the toys in it were singing and talking. Now I don't remember what we were talking about, but it was apparently a good conversation. Then, two adults (probably in their 30s-40s) came by, and I remember closing the lid to the chest so that they couldn't see the talking toys. xD

My problem was when I wrote this dream down, I was still pretty much half asleep. So I think I fell asleep before I could write down the rest of the dream. I know there were more details initially than what I recall now, but of course after waking up they slipped my mind. :/ I'm sure with practice I'll get it down.

I forgot to mention I took melatonin last night. Going to keep track of when I do and don't take it in order to see if there's any correlation. I don't think there is, but maybe.

I'm flirting with this young woman. A while ago, me and Julia had this mission that required us to help her. I think of her as sort of coltish - she's got an unbelievable amount of power and no idea what to do with it, aside from awkwardly trying to help the people around her. Incredibly endearing to watch. Afterward we'd gone back to England, but now I'm back in America. Julia didn't come this time, and I said it's because she's busy with her music right now, which is true. But the main reason I'm here on my own is because our mission might require this girl's death. Julia doesn't know, and I don't want her to have to be involved - she likes this girl, we both do.

1. I was outside standing in my driveway with alot of my friends, some of which were: Darius, Patrick, Dylan, Braden, Trey, and alot of others. My sister was also outside with us. It was fully nighttime and all of the street lights were on and glowing orange in color. We are talking to each other, just socializing and stuff when suddenly it starts to rain really heavy, and I mean really really heavy. We are all about to walk back inside to my house when something catches our attention. All of us spotted a passenger plane flying in this weather. I keep my eye on it and after a few seconds of doing so I see a huge lightening bolt strike the plane directly. Seconds later I hear the lightening because of its speed.
Everyone notices the plane, and the plane is now on fire and is flying at a downward angle towards the ground. We all knew it was about to crash. I look down at my street and notice that it is completely flooded with water, and its about 10 feet deep. My driveway is elevated so its not a problem being that high, not yet at least. As I look back up into the sky I see more passenger planes flying around, all of them are on fire and going down. One plane catches my eye because I see that it is flying straight towards our group. However, this plane isn't on fire, but its still coming down.
Everyone's eyes are now on that single plane and we watch as it gets closer. I have no idea why none of us are running at this point even though we see directly that there is a hazard flying straight at us. Finally the plane crashes into the 10 foot deep water, and it doesn't explode. The water must've been deeper than 10 feet though at that moment because the plane quickly became completely immersed in the water. We all keep watching the sky, everything seems chaotic at this point, and God crosses my mind(as usual when I'm in world-ending dreams). "If I died right now where would I go?" I thought to myself. Suddenly I see flames come out of the water, I recognize that these flames belong to the plane.
Suddenly the plane explodes and everyone sprints back to my house. As Im doing so I think to myself, "This has to be a dream, this is too crazy", but immediately after I think that I get distracted by someone. Everyone is in the house now and they are all emptying their pockets of everything that was in them. The thought comes to me that, what if a plane crashes straight into my house, but I'm not the worrying type of person so I quickly dropped that thought. I see that everyone takes out a bunch of money out of their pockets. I go up to where my sister is and pick up her money, and it is really wet.
I noticed that this money felt quite fake, like it was not real at all. Because of that I decided that I was going to give away my sisters money(lol, no idea why). Darius and Patrick ask for it so I give them two dollars each(so generous) and then I put the rest back where my sister had put it before. She comes back as I put the money down and now has a disgusted look on her face.

2. I was inside of a video game. The game was structured where one team is versing another, but on each team there is one player that has the powers of Jesus. The thing is, none of us know who it is besides the person who has the powers because we are all clones of Jesus. The video game is taking place on a grassy civil war battlefield and there are cannons and wagons laying around everywhere.
(will finish later)

So, I was having some difficulty falling asleep and decided to try out the method*. At first, I was trying to make random semi-meaningful sentences and phrases "They came for the food; People sitting on road, etc.", then switched to more meaningless stuff and finally went on to random generation of a set of any three words, sometimes with a slight association between the words "hobby batman train", "milk bread wall".

One of the early effects while trying to generate these words was that I started having mini memory flashbacks of real scenes from the past. This sometimes happens to me when reaching a clear but conscious state of mind and the memories are real ones rather than imaginary.

As I continued with the exercise, a number of past dream memories, again real ones started mixing with the life flashbacks. These weren't very vivid and would last a second or so as I was fully concentrating on the word exercise.

I was getting somewhat tired of continuously generating random words and also my awareness was beginning to slip away. At this point, I noticed the emergence of other random scene flashes, but those contained novel or rather different (not real dream or life memories). This is not new to me as I had on other occasions observed that the more towards unconsciousness I would drift, the more of these different scenes I get, while when my mind is fully aware and quiet it tends to get more real memory flashbacks. No idea what this is all about.

Anyways, the interesting part was that as I was struggling to generate a new set of words, I would begin to get a random flashback scene before each word (now a mix of true past places and some unknown random places), and my mind would actually scan the scene for an object or action and use it in the word set! And this would go on for every word or sometimes two words would come from the same scene. It a was really cool realization when it happened the first time, then I let the process continue. I wasn't fully asleep at this point and took a step back towards wakefulness to review the process. Then continued a bit more with the word generation, eventually got tired and stopped and fell asleep.

Looking forward to playing with this again!

*Tnx to Xanous, Jeff and CL for the ideas and links.

Sorry if you find any spelling or grammar errors. This was long to write and I had to correct my mistakes. OTL

First Dream

I recall eating a soup with lots of good fresh vegetables with my brother. We were at a younger age like 10 or 8. But after we were done we were in a mall and were supposedly playing a game where we had to defeat the zombies. I jumped down a escalator and kicked a zombie in the face but my brother was annoyed."That's not what you were supposed to do! Your doing it all wrong!"

I shouted sorry at him and asked him how was I supposed to do it. But he just left me alone. I wanted to go to my mom to tell her how stupid my brother was being but than ran into a big lady who was supposedly someone my mother knew. She said to take the number code that she was going to give me and to give it to my mom so that she could call her. After she left I found my mom and my mom showed me another small rectangular card with a number code.

" Hey! I almost forgot. Your friend gave me this number for you to call her." We looked at the one my mom got and the one I got and I think I found that it had two similar numbers 3490. That's all I could memorize before the dream ended.

Second Dream

I remember that in the dream me and a couple of DCs had to stop zombies from taking over. I think we got into a argument though and I broke one of the guy's 3ds somehow. Also, I think there was a cartoon zombie character following me around and supposedly he was our friend but than he left the team because he was mad at me for some reason . I felt bad about this and tried playing animal crossing to get it out of my mind.My brother and two other DCs asked me what I was sad about. I told them I felt sad because of what I did but than slowly realized that what I did was only because I was in the dream.

I than thought about my castle goal than closed my eyes and imagined myself flying to the castle. Everything around me began falling apart and building into a different scenery. At first it looked like I was going to get a church building surrounded by buildings but than I kept trying to focus and managed to get a building that looked somewhat like the castle. However, as soon as I started to fly around it, it began to change into a tall building and other buildings began to surround it. Apparently, my mind wanted the castle remodeled into a city area. Lol

I flew around to see if I could find a castle like building like the one in the picture and found one that looked like it was slowly morphing into a castle form. But it was different from the picture. The windows were outlined in a light blue color with arched windows small but detailed and the castle that was forming was like a reddish brown. I was still satisfied with the effort though. (It was also realistic looking)As I began to observe it I started hearing instruments being played and it sounded like Spanish music. I flew around to see where it was coming from and the place began turning into a city again. I flew around some more and noticed there were people on top of buildings playing drums and singing happily.

I decided to sing too because it looked fun and started singing and used two sticks to try to tap a beat. Everything seemed right with the dream world but than we suddenly appeared in a area that looked like a restaurant/movie place. The DCs were all talking about how unusual this was and then a DC shouted" look over there! What is that!?". A eight foot type of purplish deformed man monster thing came down and broke a piece of the roof like cover for the building. The DCs began to scream and run around afraid. I knew I had a advantage against the beasts but decided to just go different scenery that was less dramatic. As I was trying to leave two of the beasts came to me and one that looked more like a man with blue eyes and black hair. I tried to use charm for him to let me go and he looked content.(I wasn't really on their side though)

It was like I was now safe but than as we flew he wanted to go another way with his monster buddy to scare and takeover the dream world. I told him "I like you .Your a nice guy". He looked at me sad though and said " Yeah right, Your just saying that. As soon as the wind blows you'll be gone with the wind." I thought about it and in my mind I was like" that's actually a great idea to escape! But I think I should stay to help the DCs...." As we started flying again I opened the black cloak or jacket I had on and felt the wind move towards my direction. I took his quote literally and let the wind blow me away. I could see his frown but than he just went with his friend in the other direction like he wanted to say "I knew it...But I have a job to do."

The city scenery began to change into a nice green pasture where there were houses for the kind that needed to be surrounded by the castle. I was content with this but in my path I noticed kids crying with their mom who was trying to comfort them. I flew more than saw a Asian old woman who looked like she was deranged and lost. A woman came out the house trying to comfort her. Than I flew past another house where a Spanish lady came out with her mom saying she was in disbelief how her husband left her and ran off by himself. I thought about how sad the DCs looked and was thinking " Should I just save them and see what happens?....Or should I be selfish and just leave them?..." I thought about it for like four seconds and was about to go to fight but I woke up. It was a really interesting journey that seemed just like what was suppose to happen in a castle like town with a evil enemy.

Third Dream

I was inside the dream with Eye and was talking with him about what he felt about me. He told me that he cared about me but couldn't tell me things in full because he didn't know how to tell me. Than as we started talking about his past he started to play a character that was dieing from the extreme cold on his bed. His lips slowly began turning purple and he was shaking. I found this odd but just watched until he finished. We started to laugh when he was done playing the dieing human.

I hugged him than started kissing him but than a DC burst through the door.I told the DC to go away but it wouldn't so I told Eye to keep the random DC out. He took a chair and pushed the DC out than locked the door. But than another door opened and I suddenly appeared in my backyard in the cold snowy weather. I stared into the sky than got up and floated through the yard than into my house room. I started calling for Eye or Dawn but there was no answer.

Out of no where though a invisible DC started to create more and more walls in the room like they were trying to hold me in a small space or squish me. I flew out but than it grabbed my legs and flung me really far into the air. I thought this was going to be a fun way to test my defense. But when the DC picked up two huge towers and started demolishing buildings in its path I was surprised at how reckless it was being.

I decided to fly farther away from it and reached a area where pirates were carrying boxes. The DC began to acquire its form more and dropped a house on me. I was now in a house and it was building more and more things around me so I couldn't get out of it. No matter how hard I tried to go through the roof I failed to get out. The song Boku Note by Sukima switch played for a few seconds than I woke up.

I'm not sure if that DC was Dawn or just a random DC but I'm sure it wasn't Eye cause Eye wouldn't fling me around like that unless he was mad at me. : P


Fourth Dream

I was in my house trying to take a shower but the tub was clogged. I got out mad and complained to my dad that the bathroom was a mess. He told me to just move the books out of the way but I was still upset. Than something I don't recall happened and I ended up walking into a MCdonalds. As I was walking I saw a boy with blue eyes and dirty blonde hair talking to another guy. There was something about him that made me want to listen to their conversation.

A girl came out of no where and pulled me into a corner. She asked what I was doing around here and I said " I don't know. I just wanted to get something to eat." I than heard the fresh pretty cure song and thought about how cool it was they were playing it here.The next thing I remember is walking with two boys trying to get candy to a safe place away from a bully.

As we were walking I saw a boy had a sword and asked him where he got it from. He said it was fake but when I opened it I could see the blood on the sword. I was shocked and he told me to give it back. We started fighting for the sword but eventually I got it from him. As I was walking I appeared in a empty apartment but heard my cousin's voice. I thought about how odd it was to hear my cousin's voice here than realized it was a dream.

But just as I was going to fly away to the castle my aunt came to me and begged me not to go. I told her I had to and slowly started flying higher into the air. But than my aunt jumped and grabbed onto my legs begging me not to leave. I told her it was fine because I would just take her with me.

I focused on the castle we were going to and flew at full speed to the castle spot. When I arrived at the spot though the castle was missing. The french prince of bel air characters than appeared and told me the castle was missing. I was like "what!?"(I was surprised because I put a lot of focus to going to it just to arrive at a empty spot) But than I walked to another building and decided I would turn the huge rectangular building in front of me into a castle. The characters were talking amongst themselves as I put my hand to the building and it began to change.

When it was done it looked like a castle but not like the one from the picture. So I took a different approach. I asked the dream if it could make the grass like in the picture, the windows, the door and everything else. It started changing and it reached to the point when it looked like the picture. But everything was darker and the outline of the windows were gold now. The mood and scenery of the place looked gloomy.

I was going to enter anyways but just as I was going to open the butler stopped me and said " Where are you going? Don't you see the sign on the door says do not enter?"I told him it didn't matter and just opened the old door anyways. But to my surprise the inside was small, with lots of corners into other small rooms as if it was a behind the stage area. Not at all what I wanted to find....I was happy that I was there though and started to sing a song as I was walking a long.

I don't know why but I chose a song from the little mermaid. The funny thing is my voice came out exactly as ariel's voice. I decided to stop singing though and petted a golden retriever I found in the room. My next goal was going to be to call my guide Dawn into the castle but after waiting for him a few seconds I woke up.

I saw the dream forming into a forest so i focused on it because it seemed cool place. The image became clearer and suddenly i was in a dream walking. It was hazy so i thought i take it slow until it becomes clearer. I looked the forest compared it to reality. I looked textuare of moss and trees. I jumped from rock to rock and looked for something interesting.
I found a this old village and went to speak dream characters. I asked them to tell me something intersting but they didnt say anything reasonable. I went to this old time Inn and decided to buy food. I said i pay for everybody and got my wallet it was empty. I look away and thought my wallet is full i look my wallet it was full of cash and i payed for every DC foods. The food tasted bland. I went out and continued this alley just to see next interesting thing. Well nothing came up so i tried create ball of light. It look so cool these colors forming into my hand but when i tried to threw it solidified to white ball i tried again same thing.
I saw this tall old school street lamb and i jumped on to it. I look around and though that i want to have some action so i imagined i was running away from someone. I jumped from house roof to another running. I made the huge jumps which was so cool. I saw this rich mansion behind the fence and jumped over it then i looked back and the soldiers from 1700 year found me. They trid to attack me whith their gun knife but i flew up to the roof. I became bored of this place. It was just too bland. So i flew towards a ocean. I tried to speak to my unscounsiouss again but nothing happened. I levitated on over the ocean and just thought of things. I knew i was in a lucid dream but i just wanted to be there. I started thinking of things while looking at the sceanary. I deceanted to to forest and just walked and thought that i want to see something meanigfull but the dream become fading and i fell to complete darkness and i was in my body. I had complete recall of the dream and thought i should have done something cooler.

I have had this dream where i become lucid everytime on the same spot.
I suddenly realize im dreaming. I look around im in this huge bridge. As i look back the bridge just carries on and i look foward its same never ending bridge. I notice everywhere i look i see only ocean. The place is beautifull yet it has weird feeling to it.
The ocean is so huge,clear and blue. Its sparkling from the mid day sun. I think what should i do and keep walking. My lucidity gets higher and i start to fly and dive into the water. I can see so clearly the clear blue ocean. I notice there are no life in there only empty ocean. Im walking alone this path which this bridge will take me.
I lose all my sense of will to seek anything else and i keep walking and flying trough this bridge thinking of something meaningfull. Then at some point i wake up. I always become lucid at this place yet never i seek to do anything. I know clearly im dreaming but nothing comes up in my mind. I have tried to fly away from direction of the bridge but the ocean and sky turn black and storm comes. It usually scary so i keep just going on the bridge and tring different stuff while at it. I move water, fly high speeds, try to make something appear but cant. I always follow the bridge knowing i will find something but i end up wasting each lucid dream when im at this place. I never see anything besides the ocean and the bridge only direction where i can go.

(Originally I was going to be fancy and copy paste leaves so there was a pile in my old dream, but that never happened)

I'm in a random blue room, lucid now. I gear up and start the seige on my neighbor's house. The sunset cought my attention. Normal autumn stuff, but it looked nice. Going back to the mission, I go prone on this hill about 80 feet away from the house. Silent sniping ftw! I'm not really all there anymore, and I kind of thought I'd reward myself by burning my eye using the scope and the sunlight. This somehow created a lot of smoke. The swat team came in and shot me a thousand times. I'm only semi-lucid now, and I matrix dodge. Too bad my dream-self has bad balance. I fall over into the treeline, where there were mass collections of leaves. END

We're (me and a few others of who I can't recall) are in a boat and we're competing with other people of who I can't recall. The objective is to hit one another with a paddle and whoever hits who first, wins. Sadly I get hit and I fall into the water. I remember seeing my breath in the form of bubbles floating ahead of me as I sink farther and farther into the deep blue sea. I remember one thought and this thought only: What if a shark comes and eats me whole?
So I try to swim to the top but the pressure is too immense and all I can do is sink and sink. But somehow I gain the strength to swim to the stop and I do, but as I'm about to reach it I feel the darkness below me start to pull and above me I see a hand. I reach for the hand and it pulls me to safety. I realize it's a friend from my old school. It's weird because she was always a good swimmer but it also makes sense why she's the one to save me.

I never knew if my team lost or won. I will never know and it kind of bothers me, but it doesn't matter, I guess.
After that the rest of the dream was a blur.

late morning epic!

I "took a day off" of day work yesterday after having a sleepless night the night before caused perhaps in part by over-strong intention setting at bed-time. Of course I couldn't take an entire day off after spending so much time on active day work, becoming mindful and doing RCs is such a part of me. I just didn't keep it actively on my mind all day long.

Bedtime was a tad nervous, since I felt sooooo tired yet aware when heading to bed. Relaxation discipline helped and I slept in a reasonable amount of time. I set only the briefest and shortest of intentions to remember dreams and get lucid and then let it go and aimed for sleep.

No recall during the the night. Several wakings where I felt no recall and decided not to really search for it for fear of waking. I did feel "this is a good time to set some intention" for lucidity and did so and returned to sleep.

As is becoming typical for me, I recorded about 5 mins of voice notes speaking very quickly for the epic, and about 6 minutes or the second batch of dreams, but I did not need to consult my notes while I wrote this here. I seem to be getting pretty good at organizing and cementing the dream memories mentally before moving to record.

Also I have to say: wow, 2 epics in 3 days. Those mega multi-vitamins must be doing something, plus all the soy lecithin, or perhaps it's just "me" finally recovering from the horrible month of jet lag and experiencing the backlog of dreaming that I missed. Good, tiring exercise yesterday, too.

23:00 bedtime

07:30

+ epic! summary: DD's restaurant/cafe & laughing turret video; asphalt digger; hold the door at the bar; DB rejects me, plan revenge with a drunk; goose the pretty, drunk girl who wants to come along; searching for my car so we can go on a double date and I can make out with the drunk girl; vegetable hat guy in restaurant; they're laughing at my foreign language speaking in the cafe, hilarious weird face of drunk girl; amazing transforming cell phone; black woman neighbor grows beautiful cherries; burglar break in at my childhood home

DD's restaurant/cafe & laughing turret video
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+ walking on the street in North B, near the old VV. I hear an ad playing for "DD's Santa Barbara Restaurant". Wow, DD opened a restaurant in Santa Barbara? I didn't know that. I realize I'm near DD's B restaurant now and I decide to go visit. I enter and see DD. As we're walking towards a table in the back I ask him how's business (it seems empty). D says a lot of (high school) kids come in looking for the special deal. And he says a lot of Russians come and eat here, I think that's interesting. We're sitting down at a table, and a black man is seating us, I "know" [false] he is DD's guide/helper, assigned to DD by DD's father watch over DD and help him. I stand again to greet the black man, offer my hand, he takes it and I put my left hand over his right for a double-handed very warm handshake, I feel very warm feelings for this man. The man sits down nearby at a table just around the corner of the wall from us, I notice he has what looks like two flat piroshki on his plate for his snack.

Sitting down again at the table with DD I notice has has a chocolate donut/muffin in front of him, his "regular" snack, I wish I had one. Our laptops are to the right of us on the table, DD is anxious to show me a funny video. He opens his laptop and plays a video: it's of several "Star Wars" blaster gun turrets on the exterior of some base firing into space, making "pew pew" sounds, then the turrets start *laughing*. I think this is fascinating. Their sides sort of go in and out while they're "laughing" amidst the "pew pew"s.

asphalt digger
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I'm outside running on a street, there's a street maintenance worker there digging a hole in the asphalt with a shovel and throwing out the debris on to the street. Other people are also running by, I run to the left, but a guy who runs to the right of the hole is almost hit by the debris the shoveler is throwing out. I think the worker should be more careful, I notice a volcano-shaped cone of asphalt (about 1 meter high) built up just past the digger.

hold the door
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I'm leaving a bar, in some sort of entry room in between the main bar and the street, the room is two levels, bar level, and an upper level at street level. The barman comes by me lifting a chair and asks me to stand there and hold the door for them. The power has just come back on, he explains, and now they must readjust the chairs. They're moving the chairs from the lower level and stacking them on the upper level. I'm annoyed by this and say "get your own guys to hold the door" and walk out, wondering if he'll get mad.

DB rejects me, plan revenge with a drunk
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Outside, I notice there's a door immediately to the right of the bar I just left heading in to another bar. I enter. In the back against the wall I see my old college girlfriend DB. She looks a bit dirty as if she's been working on something. I approach her for a light kiss, she allows it but does not look happy at this PDA. I bring out a large keyring full of exotic looking large keys, there are two keyrings interconnected and I take off one of the keyrings and hand it to DB. I move to hug her before I leave but she withdraws and does not allow it. I feel angry and hurt, and I leave. Outside there is a drunk guy who steps into a big boot (like a rubber rain boot) which has beer on the bottom, it soaks into his sock and he exclaims "Hey! I got a free sockful!" and plans to drink it. Then 3rd person me (or some other guy OG) pours a full cup of beer into the boot and says "here's a full cup!" The drunk says something like "you're planning to invade/infiltrate!"

goose the pretty, drunk girl
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I'm walking down the street with this other guy OG, and a cute petite bubbly girl with short brown hair and a silk (orange/pink) blouse comes up and walks with us and asks "May I come, too!?". At first I'm not sure but I warm to her quickly, she is so cute! I put my left arm around her neck and shoulders.

Spoiler for NSFW:

As we're walking I feel a bit bold/frisky and reach over with my right hand and feel for her left breast on top of her blouse. She is small but not flat chested. I do this a few times. Another boy/girl couple appears and they say "hey, don't use her...." (I think they're going to accuse me of feeling her up) "... like a windbreaker" (?) (whew, they didn't accuse).

. The idea comes up with this other couple that we should go to Santa Cruz. Woohoo I think, I can make out with the cute girl there! I have a car and say I can drive us, but I can't remember where it's parked, and ask the other couple where I left my car.

vegetable hat guy in restaurant
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We're looking for my car and we're indoors, there is a set of double doors in front of us, I push/pull on the outer set, and there's another set of doors with (Chinese?) characters on it, I push these open and they lead into restaurant with people seated in it. We just want to walk through I think of saying, hoping the staff won't mind. As I walk forwards there is a just ahead and to the right of me a guy seated at a table with a bunch of food. He's making impossibly fast gestures and shaking things at blinding speed (like "True Blood" vampire moves). I think he is ravenously hungry and as I walk past him say "Just got off of a desert island?" He responds (I forgot what). I'm still walking past him and I look back over my right shoulder and see he is wearing a funny hat on his head made of cut vegetables like carrots.

foreign language cafe
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We (drunk girl, and other couple and I) are seated at a table at a cafe. The cafe owner woman is there standing near us. I try to say "I offer you..." (to do something) in a foreign language. I stumble over that word (offer) just like I do in WL. The woman makes fun of me. I get a bit mad and try to say in the foreign langauge "behave well" but also mess it up. I want to look up the word in a dictionary on my phone to get it right. I'm standing and moving around the table, I notice the drunk girl is passed out with her face on top of a bottle of weird meat. The position of her head on top of the jar (her nose is on top and her jaw behind the jar and so not seen) and the contents of the meat in the jar looks like she has a fleshless smiling horse mouth. I think it's funny more than horrifying. I tell the other couple to take a picture of her while I reach for my phone. I notice the girl who I thought was passed out chuckling at the amusing tableau, but still remaining in that position.


amazing transforming cell phone
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I take out my phone, something's different, not right. I see a little green stick partly visible attached to it. I poke around and discover that it is a stylus! I take it out, wow, my phone has a stylus, after all these years I never noticed?! The phone I realize can be adjusted, it is made up of many movable pieces that can rearrange, I do this and the entire thing transforms into a device with a larger screen! I never knew it could do that! Then I keep finding changes like parts that flip up to form multiple other screens. They're no color though, more like monochrone screens, like on the old palm pilots. I see the transformations clearly as they happen with many moving parts that interlock in weird ways. I get a "whoa!" feeling, It's like watching a mini version of this:



I'm driving in a car up the roads to my childhood home, I"m talking with some guy (tech support?) about this phone, he's asking me to press something and we're trying to figure out how I can activate it since I'm busy driving, I say I could use my right hand. There are various buttons on the bottom of the phone I think about pressing. How about voice activation? Tech guy says "It has it but it only responds to a very particular female voice tone", it's only for internal use apparently. Speaking of internal use there are various escape codes that start with a dollar sign ($) and something else, which I think is only natural because many modem escape codes begin with those [sort of , but false].

black woman neighbor grows awesome cherries
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I'm on the final few streets remaining before reaching my childhood home, heading up the hills. I drive by a black woman standing out in her garden, she grows "cherry plants". We're out standing among the cherry trees/plants, looking at the dark, purple fruits. Some are not quite ripe yet and are more red/pinkish. I see a cherry plant that I "know" [false] I planted earlier, wow look at it now it's like 6 feet high with lots of fruit. The branches grow horizontally sideways as well with lots of little cherries on it.

I'm continuing on to my parents house still thinking about the cherries, and a woman says "I thought those apples would be sweet, but they're really tart!" I see a few apples on the ground they look a bit shriveled.

burglar break in at my childhood home, mindful moment of calm
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I walk in the front door to my childhood home. I feel a terrible thought that I forgot to turn on the alarm when I left, and that the house was unprotected. I move through the living room, dining room, kitchen, and back porch, and I'm getting more and more panicked, things seem out of places, cabinet doors left ajar, I just can't tell if things are wrong or not, in the back porch I'm positive that a burglar has ransacked the place, I'm getting more upset and scared and say "ohmygawdOhMyGawdOMYGAWD" then something happens.

I realize that I'm panicking, and that this won't help anything. I take a few deep breaths and let the panic go and start to try to think logically about what's going on and what I should do. (I've been doing "Stop!" mindfulness moments this last week in waking life, looks like they're starting to seep into dreams already!)

I continue on back into the dining room. I see the curtains are pulled over the sliding glass door and I think the burglar may be behind that. I move to open it and a guy jumps out at me. I struggle with him and he has a long stick and he whacks me several times in my left arm REALLY hard. I run out of the house and think to call 911 and imagine saying there's a home invasion and the guy assaulted me with a stick. I see two guys outside and one of them I think I know, he's beating up the guy who hit me saying he wasn't supposed to attack me.

wake up
back to sleep

+ summary: still image of beautiful blonde; appreciating the illustration on the blackboard
I see the still image of a beautiful blonde woman (with blue eyes?).
I'm looking at a green chalkboard with a chalk drawing of (a penis? a finger?) on it. I appreciate in particular the way the artist has rendered a wrinkle in the skin of the thing it depicts, with just a few strokes

wake up
back to sleep

+ summary (lucid #86 [KILD]) boldly swoop in and kiss girl at bus stop, her name is "Rider", and she does ; bus ride: too far can't get off, woman scolds me, annoying celebrity with gargantuan eye socket

I'm approaching a bus stop there's a girl standing there, I feel bold and I swoop in to take her in my arms and as my face approaches hers for a kiss I get lucid. Kiss. Pull back. Short kiss again, pull back. She's standing there looking at me. I say (thinking about stability) "do you want to walk around?" She answers "NO!". (haha never give a DC a choice). I kiss her again, each one is short, with half a mind to not losing the dream. I go in for a longer french kiss and experience very realistic sensation: tongue, a bit of mouth and teeth sensation. I ask her "What's your name?" She answers "Rider!" I think this means she implies she wants to ride *me*.

Spoiler for NSFW:

So we go around the corner, still on the sidewalk right there on the street, and lie down on my back on something. Rider is on top of me. At some point I get interested in her teeth which seem a bit horse-like, but this passes. We're fully clothed but begin intercourse. I feel something slightly pleasurable "down there", but it's vague. I reach down and realize I'm not "in", so I adjust to go in and the sensation increases, the whole things lasts about 15-20 seconds

and then I lose lucidity.

I'm on a bus thinking "woohoo I can't wait to tell fogelbise that I had half-decent lucid intercourse. (I *need* to learn how not to "give up" on these lucid transitions and stay vigilant for the dream state!).

"get a real girl"
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(just remembered this, not 100% positive which dream it occured in): a scene where a young man has made a mistake at a financial institution and lost tons of money. A group of guys and girls are joking about how he needs to "get a real girl." One of the girls gropes herself in a dramatic fashion. There are two breast-like bells posted up on a wall, I imagine one should feel these to get a notion of a woman's breasts(?)

bus ride:
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Riding the bus I'm with my wife. I realize I need to get off. The bus is driving through the urban street scene with hills and large buildings and cross streets. It's getting too far from where I need to go to get back on foot, but the bus does not stop. My wife offers to get the car and drive me to where I need to go but I decline.
I see the water in the distance down the hill. She's going across the water on a ferry to pick up the car(?) I don't want to go that far out of my way. I'm getting upset about too far the wrong way. I ask a woman suddenly seated next to me in a foreign language "does this same bus return to the center of the city?" (after stopping at the ferry/bus building coming up ahead). She doesn't know/doesn't answer. A woman sitting one seat back tells me in English that "You must repent! You should plan your trip better [with maps] to prepare for ...." and does on a while about how I'm not prepared. I feel a bit annoyed by this and come up with a "stunning retort" and say "The best laid plans of Mice and Men...." and she seems to appreciate my wit.

annoying weird eye celebrity guy:
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The bus stops, we don't get off, people get off, a new group of men get on and sit across the aisle. Their leader swaggers on to the bus, considers how any people there are, then tosses the bus fair (one large [50cent piece I think] coin and one small one) into the air and the coins fall to the floor. He sits down next to me.

He starts talking about himself and his (band?), I get a deja vu feeling of familiarity with him (sort of looked and talked like Billy Bob Thornton), I think I recognize him from the internet. He plays the trombone? As he's talking I get a close up view of his right eye. His eye socket has grown ENORMOUS and is bigger than his head itself, it is full of wrinkled skin and veins, I see his right eye looking around and see about fully half of his eye, which is also a big larger than normal and covered in red veins. I wonder what my wife thinks of this view.

The guys tells me that he saw how I reacted to the dance that one of his guys did when he got on the bus and that he (eye guy) didn't like it. I told him that his tossing the fare coins on the floor was extremely rude, and that some poor worker would have pick them up. Across from us I see a little robot juke/box looking thing with a screen that flashes: "Illegal" / "legal" I think it's going to display some local laws but I pay it no more attention.

The weir eye guy is miffed at me and is sitting one seat back (a long sideways seat). I decide to make smalltalk with him, and think he may reject my opening, but I ask him "when did you arrive on your trip?" He says something like "the month of the tigress". I have no idea when this is and say "I'm not into Aquarius, I only know the " ... intending to say "goat", and the guy says "goat" just before me, I say "goat, crab, fish, twins," and want to say "cancer" but don't.


awake recalling for a while, reviewing dreams, cementing the details in my waking memory

10:30 decide to get up

I really don't know why I can't recall any dreams.

I was in the LRT area. Then I am in a jeep. We're in the middle of nowhere. It's dark outside, with some hints of trees and grasslands, like in the province. I wondered why I travelled here.

I was in a provincial area. I was in a shack/house made of bamboo or some sort of wood. Rob was there. I was looking for the comfort room. There was none, only a general area (inside the house) where you can pee. Uncomfortable. There were cats. I think one scratched me.

Okay here how the dream starts I'm near the ocean it's nice and windy I'm just standing there behind me are apartments I see people in them and I started walking to the apartments I go in the building people waving at me saying hi and I went into my apartment I sat down and I went to sleep(which was weird) but as I lay down the tv was right in front of me I couldn't really see anything just a beep sound coming from it I heard a lot of movement going on in the apartment building I figure there was so kinda of party going on so I just sleep.When I woke up in my dream it was really quiet couldn't hear any sounds really I went outside the wind is blowing that's all I hear I look around the area it was so much life here last night this place is like a big city and I expected to hear more noise but I just went back in the apartment I can see the beach from here.here. Im sitting down on a chair there is an alarm clock ringing it's really annoying for me it's coming from upstairs I really got mad about that
So I went up stairs to tell the person living there to turn it off.I go upstairs as I'm waking up its so quiet just as before nothing but the wind is what I hear I go up to the room where the alarm is coming from I knock on the door but as I knock the door opens by itself I walk inside I closed the alarm clock I see a cat he's staring straight at me it was so creepy he/she wouldn't stop staring I figure it was hungry I look and see the cat food in a bowl but it's overflowing like there is so much it goes on the floor.I say to myself where is the owner I look all around couldn't find him I started to get so scared I yelled "IS ANYONE HERE" "HELLO!!!" But no word back all I heard was the wind.out of nowhere I heard a beep sound coming from the television but this time I saw "Warning warning "I looked outside I see a giant wave of water coming towards the apartment then I got on my knees the cat ran under the bed I said to myself "I don't wanna die please stop" I woke up from there my eyes were in tears...

Morning of November 26, 2014. Wednesday.



This is a dream more-so of a theme from several years back regarding the end of the human race and my family and I “moving on” to a better existence. It is typical to where I eventually have full control over my dream (as a “writer” and “director”) for the most part yet am not remotely lucid or even in a more vivid or defined state.

In my vaguer dream state, I am unsettled at the severe lack of intelligence on one dream “interpretation” site. I had actually joined the site recently, but do not plan on being much of an active part of it. One main “interpreter” (with about 20,000 posts) and another with 3,000 posts seem to have never correctly remembered any dreams in their lifetime or even know what dreams are. This is actually far worse than what I read when growing up and not wanting to have anything to do with dream dictionaries and such. Even though I am not aware I am dreaming, I ponder the two bizarre characters on that site and my proportional focus of being entirely “alien” by comparison. (This focus is what eventually builds the main dream itself, I think.)

One of the posters believes that all dreams are functions to wake up a person - sometimes because they are tired (which makes no sense at all - if you are tired you need more sleep or rest not less) - or in many cases, caused by a pain in the neck or arm in a certain position. He continuously claims all dreams are solely for waking you up and never have any meaning at all and that lucid dreaming is not possible. There are around 3,000 posts of this nature - all evidence the “interpreter” has never remembered a dream themselves or know what they are. The posts are so bizarre, I cannot help but have residual “alien” associations. While it is true certain types of dreams are influenced by the environment or physical body or sometimes produce scenarios to deliberately wake someone up, that is certainly not the main cause or purpose of all dreams. The other “interpreter” with the near-20,000 posts interprets almost everything as either “a thief” (and making references to serfs and pages/page boys and many other long-outdated social scenarios as if he is from another century) or “getting a money” - and yet people reference this poster when asking for “interpretations” on that site as if I am still living in the ancient Middle East. It is a strange world still.

Obviously, there are far worse things than the general lack of intelligence and valid information regarding dream work. The overwhelming corruption of authority comes into focus again.

At one point, there is a war between two groups of people. Apparently I actually am an “alien” as it is the “only” explanation for my perspective of society as it is. Oddly, though, other (unfamiliar) people that are seemingly average are also “alien”. There does not seem to be different DNA (other than human) to “explain” this. I am the leader of a group that is moving to a planet that is very close to Earth (which of course would not be possible in reality - planets cannot exist within a short distance of each other). However, before we can be fully free, we need to destroy the infrastructure of Earth so the governments will not corrupt the new planet. Mostly, miniature airplanes (about the size of a person with their arms spread out) that look like Fokkers (from World War I) fly around and destroy everything but without killing people. At times, I seem to be flying over various landscapes seeing what needs to be done. I see people running around in chaos and fear, but again, I do not see anyone being killed (unlike similar dreams of the past).

Over time, I am aware of the American president (Obama) agreeing to meet with two or three people from my group as well as me (it is extremely rare for me to dream of presidents in any context). After this meeting and shaking of hands at a public venue (after most infrastructure has been destroyed), my group and I walk down a sidewalk and begin to prepare to eventually travel to the other planet - and all our clothes change color - for us to elude other people (for example, snipers) who know what we had been wearing at that meeting. Still, I sense betrayal for the most part, and at any rate, we need to “begin again” on the other planet.

I mentally set off a huge atomic bomb of potentially worldwide destruction, or so it seems at first. It is not even that far away from where we are and I can see it towering into the sky in the distance, reminding me of a sunset in some ways. However, the explosion and mushroom cloud is slightly “frozen” yet moving in extremely slow motion. (This being similar to dreams where I control tsunamis to “freeze” their location or reduce their force or “play with their energies” sometimes experiencing ecstasy.) I casually walk along, and eventually decide to also remove the nuclear fallout potential from the event before I bring the event back to normal speed after we get to the other planet - there will still be all the otherwise healthy humans of Earth but without a means to reach us at this point, until they rebuild, I suppose…