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Journal Entry Lucid #70 Dream,Lucid, thoughts in dream,(Comments)
Background: no meditation for this one. Before going to sleep after WBTB I watched avengers and I did RC since most of my dreams are me spectating. While going to sleep I listened to Robert Monroe Lucid dreaming audio. I was also pretty determined for LD.

Lucid Dream # 70, day: 08/03/14, time: 4:24-5:30 Am " Water Zero Gravity":
I see scarlett Johansson getting beat up by rogue agents. I intervene. I soon realized it is a dream Every agent pointed their gun at me. I chuckled and told them to stop joking. I then used telekinesis on every one in that room. Their leader asked for mercy, and he doesn't want to die like this. I let them down and I left. I see my sister in the kitchen. I tell her it is a dream. I started to fly/float to prove it to her. She got spooked by it. I tell her it is ok and anybody could do it. She burst into tears of joy and she said, "All of us could do what you did?". I land and I wanted to create something I have never done before. I started rotating my right finger in a circle expecting for water to form from thin air. And surely it did. Not only that it kept going like perpetual motor. I then create another and throw them at each other. They started to interact with each other. It was beautiful. It had diffraction like water and it reflects maybe not as accurately but it reflects. I am getting overexcited. I then wanted to taste if it is close to water. I then float like an astronaut and put it into my mouth. I am overjoyed and excited that such a world exist inside all of us. . I woke up due to excitement.

8/9/14

Last night bed at midnight - 8am.

WILDing 10am - 1pm.


I waited for cats to fall asleep then laid down on my sofa. 5 min into it they started growling at each other, but I was already super relaxed and didn't want to break it, so I let them growl it out. They stopped soon after that.

I got into a WILD via a huge head sensation. Like falling backwards while a waterfall flowing through my head.

I did one ToTM, which now I can't remember. But I remember recapping it in my LD, before remembering the "Pull your eye out" ToTM.

Just before bed, I practiced getting naked, pulling out my green banana (don't want a ripe mushy banana as a weapon) and robbing a bank while yelling "this is a stickup! Gimme all your lucid dreaming vouchers".

Then I practiced getting naked and pulling my eye out. I said this is gonna be gross, and I proly don't wanna do this one.

So after recapping my ToTM, I remembered the "pull your eye out." I put fingers of my right hand around my eye and pushed in slightly while thinking "this is not gonna work". Grabbed the eyeball and pulled it out. My hand is kinda closed and I'm thinking again that it didn't work. But I see a shiny white ball with black dot in size of a pupil between my fingers. I'm totally surprised. (I have also practiced putting the eye behind me and looking at my butt) but I kinda lose it here and don't remember what happened next.

Then I stupidly slept for 2 more hours.

Dream started with me waking up in Father room, my Father had just enter in the room while sweeping. I got up and first thing I did was a reality check by looking at my hands as I did I tried to see if any of the fingers would change or not. It became hard to focus so I grab my hand so it wouldn't wander off my mind , that's when I began counting how many fingers I had. It would mostly come up as 5 but after a few more checks I could see another finger and it was much smaller from the rest. I got up and walk in to the bathroom to look at my face. I could hardly stare at myself as it kept shifting and was way too blurry even for me. I left the bathroom and approach my Father with a question, I ask him if I was dreaming but he didn't respond and only continue to sweep. I think I am dreaming I said and that's when this pressure hit my head which allowed me to become fully lucid and certain that this was a dream. I left Father room and went in to the living room and quickly unlock the back door to begin walking outside.

It seem like it was fall now due to how all the orange leaves on the ground , I was amaze by how real walking on them felt. The sky was grey as I continue walking forward to the road then turn left to continue walking till another I made another right turn to continue where I was going. That's when I notice a person walking behind me but decided to not pay much attention to them. That's when I cross the road and walk on the sidewalk whiling passing 1 guy who said something that I could no longer remember but I do remember agreeing with what the statement. I continue walking till he came back and said hey I replied with sup and notice the guy who was walking behind me stop on our spot as well. The guy started showing a lot of money, I ask him is he hiring anyone? He look at me and seem like he was thinking about it but that's when the scenery change in to a gloomy cafeteria that had no lights on but the windows reflect what the outside look like that gave us light in the school. The sky was grey but started looking a little darker. The DC's all change in to different people as well , one was a scout I use to know and I realize we were standing next to a table now. We began fighting over who gets to take what type of food, once that was over we all sat down and began eating however I didn't like that I didn't get the chance to pick out what I wanted and was left with a ham sandwich.

I took 1 bite out of it and felt awful , There was a teacher at our table she started talking about hoping the kids were liking their meal. I then realize that I never did like the cafeteria back then, I got up and told her I think it's time I leave before I run out my dream time. While I am walking I hear her say ok as I open the double doors leading to the school hall ways. I decided to have some fun by knocking everyone who was in my way, first came someone who look like mickey mouse but was color greenish blue and wearing a yellow shirt with a tie and had just close his locker. I push him out of my way continue till I saw some guy having trouble opening his locker . I punch him in the head and shove him on to the floor, I could tell from all the DC's reactions when everyone on the hallway turn around staring at me that they were mad. The guy I shoved to the floor quickly got up and ask me what was my problem and did I want a fight? I look back at him and smirk before pushing a small girl aside. I open a door which took me to a place that seem less crowded I also analyze the colors of this school and it was all brown and blue with no lights except counting the mirrors casting out the greyish whether from outside. Seems nice I open another door to where I find there's not a floor anymore. I try to think of a safe way of getting down so I jump on a wood ledge while keeping my balance in till I jump down again.
I was really enjoying how quiet it is here, I open another door and started walking upstairs as I am doing so I notice a orange light with students using the computer. I went up and look at an empty seat that show the computer screen then suddenly I heard a student calling out for the teacher. The teacher got up and was in a black coat with black slacks. He started saying hold on and that's when I woke up. Lucidity Time : 9 mins

So I hit on this website and this tasks and decided to directly giving them a try!

I did the first basic task last night but it wasn´t as exciting as I hoped...

I was suddenly in school again wich confused me because I have holidays for like a week now and a moment later I knew this had to be a dream. Just for fun I looked at my fingers and I saw eight of them. For some reason I had some fun with it and tried to do a 'most fingers at one hand' - world record and failed pretty much. When I had 11 fingers at one hand further tries of manipulation just rebuild my hand in weird way so that it looked nearly scary. But then I remembered my task an went down the stairs where I found a woman. I just asked her for a word in a different language but she seemed to be a bit...dense wich forced me to explain it all again. But then she finally understood and said with a little delay 'nicht'. Then I asked what that means in our language and she answered with the same unsure delay 'not'. 'Yay, that is right!' I answered in an ironic way because this was nothing new for me and the woman was just plain dense... Originally I wanted to get a new magic spell from her but I refused when I saw her first confused reaction.

Well, that is it for this task. Lets go on to the next!

Four wee pieces - very bad recall, they came back to me over a couple hours.
Regards the first , I am a birdwatcher in real life, so often get these kinds of dreams!

1) Funny wee bird in the garden, brown wings and dark purple head - I studied it for a moment and said to myself - 'Yep, that's a Willow Warbler' - (which it clearly was not.)

2) again in the garden, I was standing by a huge pile of cuttings from my hedge, my neighbour spoke to me over the wall 'Steven - my son will swap you those cuttings for the last of the paving slabs from our garden!' - I was touched by the offer,but couldn't think what I could do with loads of slabs at that time.

3) Walking past a field with my wife - she pointed to a figure in the field and said 'Jings, hes standing really still' - it was clearly a scarecrow.

4) In my shop, man had just bought a pair of shoes, I was putting them in a carrier bag and the man said 'At least you bag things in this place.'

Pretty dull.

So i was driving home from a two week vacation and it was a 14 hour ride I only remembered one dream from that ride so here it goes.

I was in prison with two guys from a tv serie called Prison Break it was Micheal scofield and his brother Lincoln I am watching this show as we speak and we saw a dark tunnel in the prison so we ran in and at the end of the tunnel there was a couch and somehow this was very usual in this prison prisoners like to run and jump on the couch but we were there first than we can hear the intercom and we hear 'We almost forget to jump the COUCH!!' and the three of us now that we are in trouble but we see a hallway we can run into but also there are alot of couches when the prisoners run towards the couch we run into the hallway and micheal hides in a corner next to the couches so that he won't be run over and I suggest that as soon as the prisoners run towars the first couch we go back into the hallway and run back in the prison Micheal says '' Do what you gotta do' and i decide to stay and hide between two other couches all the time this happens I fear for being stabbed by a prisoner than the prisoners come running towards us we survive but a bold scarry guy lies on the ground behind me and starts talking to me that I should come and fight him I say 'No thank you' and he does a weird flip and is on his feet again I react and hit him but in this dream I have no power he still goes down but when i try to finish him but kicking his face in he doesn't feel anything there is another bold guy who is also trying to kill me but than lincoln and michael jump on top of them and lincoln has a gun and he tells the guy that he has to leave me alone or he will shoot him he doesn't listen and tries to kill lincoln than lincoln and micheal both put the guys in a armbar and than I woke up. It was a really weird dream.

Ps. I'm new to this site so I hope I understand the concept of this forum if not please tell me I'm also new to lucid dreaming en dream recall.

1.
I was inside of a school. I had just entered a classroom and knew almost no one inside of it. I saw one friend of mine and went to his table to sit down. I told him, "hey", and he replied with, "What's up?". I sat down and saw that there was a mexican guy across from me who didn't look very happy about me sitting at the table. We looked at each other. He said something along the lines of, "I don't like you sitting here" basically. I told him that that was a shame because I wasn't moving.
After that the situation pretty much dissipated and we chilled. Class ended minutes later and I walked out. I went down a hallway and saw my crush, Alexandria, sitting on the floor talking to some other students. Because it seemed like every time I try talking to her I get cock blocked by one of my friends, I decided to avoid doing so. I remember a teacher giving me instructions to give a piece of paper to Alexandria and tell her that a teacher wanted to see her. This was after I walked into another class. I walked back out of that class I was only momentarily in and looked around in the hallway for Alexandria. She wasn't there, she had left.
I decided I wasn't going to walk around the entire school to look for her so I went up to one of her friends that was still standing where she was and gave him the paper and told him what was going on. Just as I did so Alexandria came back and I basically just re-stated everything I had just told her friend. She said ok and did what I told her(sounds pretty rude lol but it really wasn't). I started going down another hallway, not sure about what I was doing. All of a sudden, a group of ROTC dudes came around the corner running.
I was going to beat them, I have no idea why I had this urge. I started running as well and ran with them. They ran around the entire school. As I followed them I would have short, super speed bursts that would put me in front of the group. However, we all stopped because some guy got in our way. This guy was no ordinary guy, but a giant. He was around 6-7 times my size and about 8-9 feet tall, maybe even 10. He reminded me of hellboy because of his face but there wasn't much similarity.
Somehow he got mad at me and I started to run from him. I ran around the school again but eventually left it. I ended up in some parking garage. Here, me and the giant both stopped running. He told me, "Ill make this a fair game, but once you fall off, your dead meat." I noticed that we were standing next to 4 or 5 super bikes. The giant got on one and waited for me. I picked out a green bike. I didn't have the keys so I didn't know how i was going to start it. Just then, I turned around and saw a chinese dude, in his 30's or so. He was afraid, and he gave me his keys. The giant got his keys the same way.
With this I started up my bike and rode off. It was pretty easy to control, and I wasn't expecting that. About a minute into riding my bike, my bike turned into a completely different bike. It was now silver and blue and had what looked like stainless steel handlebars. I drove into a mall. My handlebars had never been completely extended so I extended them once I got in. I heard the giant closing in behind me, so I sped up and continued on. As I did so, I went to fast and crashed into a plant. I fell off of my bike, but quickly got up and got back on.
Once I got on my bike I started riding again, but my bike wasn't going fast at all. It was only going about 3 miles an hour and was smoking really bad. I tried my best to get it going but no luck. At this point the giant was only 50 feet behind me. I got off my bike and started running, but the giant was catching up fast. Soon he caught up to me and grabbed me. This is where the dream ended.

2.
I was in math class in school again, but in a classroom I had never been in before. I was sitting down in the far back side of the room when the teacher moved me for some reason. She moved me to the middle part of the classroom in between a group of girls(niceee). The desks were all arranged into groups were 4 or 5 desks were connected together to form one big giant desk. I sat in one of the middle seats and started working on some kind of quiz/test. I looked up from my work and noticed Lisbeth was sitting right in front of me, facing me(Lisbeth is a girl from my sophomore math class last year). She looked beautiful! She was wearing a yellow shirt and I think some skinny jeans. I remembered that she always dressed really nice, but it her outfits were at the same time extremely attractive.
We started talking and ended up working on the quiz or whatever it was together. We shared our answers and what not. While we did this, I noticed another girl sitting to the left of me that was also in my math class before. She had brownish-reddish hair; its hard to describe. Her name was Cassidy, and she was also very pretty as well. I talked to both girls during the class.
One thing I noticed about the class, was that the lights were dimmed and the room seemed rather yellow. There were a few lamps around as well. I forgot who the teacher was.

3. I was in a big open room that had a stage in it. I was with one other friend, who had brought a friend of his along as well. I didn't know the guy and I didn't care to either. When I met him I could tell immediately that he was a jerk. We all sat down in the rows of chairs that surrounded us. "This place is pretty spacious" I thought. All of a sudden, some man emerged out of the stage and started talking to us about what we were here for. Apparently this room was a class, but Im not sure what for.
Not long into his speech, me and the jerk guy started arguing. He tried making fun of me- pretty pathetic. We got so loud that the teacher told us to stop arguing and made ME leave the room. I did, but as soon as I got far enough so the teacher couldn't see me, I hid behind a wall. Looking at the wall I saw that it had alot of faces on it. I regained focus and listened to what that jerk was saying, he was still talking behind my back, and making fun of me. As he made fun of me and now all of a sudden my friend, our faces appeared on the wall in front of me. We each looked a little different on the wall. The entire wall was covered with other peoples faces, but me and my friend's was bright, and they stood out.
Later I went back into the class and stood up the jerk dude. I asked my friend, "How is this guy your friend, he's a complete douche-bag!". My friend agreed, but not out loud. Apparently the jerk dude thought I was his friend(what a joke). I didn't care about that guy anymore, he was only killing my vibes. I stopped talking to him and I think I also left the class.


4. I was in my room, sitting on my carpet floor. Out of no where, a small bug crawled onto my foot and onto one of my toenails. I thought this was gross, so, after a while of trying to catch him, I finally got him and killed him. The bug looked like a small brownish-greenish bean that was a little transparent. I stood up off of the ground and went to my mirror. I started combing my hair and as I did so, loads of dandruff came falling out(WTF, hella gross! btw no I dont have dandruff in real life, my hair is clean). I kept combing it and it would still keep coming out. It was everywhere.
I dont remember anything else of this dream really.

I was hanging out with my uncle, helping him fix a car. These two people appeared and were supposed to do some kind of maintenance work, I don't remember. I just remember that I looked up and there were tremendous, red clouds that were swirling around each other. After a few seconds they turned dark blue, then red again. I heard a loud rumbling and the earth shook. Water came pouring down from the sky and waves rolled down all the streets and everybody ran into the garage for some reason. Cars were floating around me, I just stood there in disbelief. I was all alone at that point when a neighbor boy ran up to me and yelled something that I could barely hear over the torrent. All I made out was that I could come with him if I wanted to. I asked him what happened. He said that it was a combination of secret, advanced weaponry and inter-country trading. I felt disappointed, then I realized that it was just a dream.

I told the boy to not worry because it wasn't real, then i started walking over to the garage. I noticed a giant chocolate shake in my hand, I took a drink from it. It tasted like...an imagined taste that I made up when I was a little kid, reading some book about a giant. A combination of sweet flavors and magic. I wanted to make sure it was really a dream and I hadn't just snapped under the madness of what was going on, so I tried to make a glove fly into the air, didn't work, tried to make paper fly into the air. The piece of paper jumped off a table in the garage and someone caught it really quickly. I took another drink of the chocolate shake, yum. Then I decided to manipulate some of this water for fun. There was a stream of it that was falling from the roof. I made that stream fly into the air, forming a spiral pattern, then I froze it like that. I then looked at a DC of a neighbor lady that was with us and tried to make her slow down, didn't work until I got really close to her but even then I could only slow her down for a couple seconds. I put my hands on her boobs and she got really angry in slow motion. I really wanted to make time stop completely, so I asked myself, "how do I do that?" a voice responded, "you just do it". I made time freeze and I laid the neighbor lady and her daughter on their backs so I could do naughty things to them >: D. I thought for a second about what would really happen if I were able to make time stop and then move things around. I came to the conclusion that either the kinetic energy would destroy the universe or there would be no net energy from the action at all. The dream started to end, time went back to normal. I said out loud, "noooooooo, not yet". Then tried to think of something else to do to switch up my dream control skills. I made a miniature, young Jerry Lewis as the Nutty Professor appear on the shoulder of someone that was in front of me. He was in the full costume with a white lab coat, glasses, and a messed up face. The miniature Jerry Lewis just cross his eyes and said, "OYyyyYyyyyyeeeee". Dream ended, woke up.

This isn't actually an entry about a dream, but it falls within my definition of dream-like phenomena.

I was just sort of lost in my own mind when I swear I started just kind of creating a complete and kind of dark metal/rock cover of this song on the fly in my head.



It actually had a really awesome guitar solo too. >.>

I hear music in my imagination a lot but it's usually not like this, except for when I'm dreaming. In a dream I can hear the most amazing club music I've ever heard just generated effortlessly, so I know that the mind is capable of this.... I just thought it was worth noting because it happened to me this vividly while awake and it just happened to be kind of random.

That is all.

I am in high school again, and am walking to my bus after school. Already lucid, but not very much -- don't remember how I got there! I am walking with a short, chubby black kid. I have just done something not very nice (don't remember what) and think I need to make it up to this DC. I give the kid a big hug.

"What are you doing?" he asks in disgust.

C/R my response. I think of how I might win this DC over. I reach into my pocket, hoping for some candy. I find instead a toy from childhood:



I give this to the DC and tell him it is a chocolate bar (?) DC takes a bite and complains that it is not a chocolate bar, and that it is indeed a plastic toy. I take the toy back and try to morph it into a chocolate bar. It's outward appearance changes somewhat, but not enough to be food.

The DC then asks, "Is this that kind of candy that once I chew it, it becomes candy in my mouth?"

"Yeah, sure," I say, still searching through my pockets.

He begins eating it again.

"Oh my god," he cries, "It's glorious! It's like I'm flying through space on an imperial starship!"

I look down and see a piece of the action figure/candy on the ground. Yep, I pick it up and eat it. It tastes sweet but nothing spectacular. Definitely not flying through space. I wake up.

False awakening. I hear a loud whistling sound and something explode. I don't even bother to roll over in bed or open my eyes. Some idiot just lighting off a firework in august.
Just as I am drifting back off to sleep, I hear another whistling sound. Then the explosion. It sounds closer this time. My eyes open just in time to catch the flash of light shining in my window. I hear what sounds like a bunch of men laughing. One more I just try to shrug it off and go back to "sleep".
Three times the charm. I hear a third rocket and turn over in bed. I see it go shooting up from somewhere to the south. The rocket burns out and it slows down, then starts to fall. Then the rocket turns back on and kicks it a little more before it explodes into a rather small firework burst.
I look down the street of my sub, and see that it has been my dad along with say, five other men. My vision 'zooms in' and I can see all of them. They are all holding alcoholic beverages with plenty more in a cooler nearby, and they are lighting off the fireworks.

False awakening. It is now morning. My dad is nowhere to be found but my mom tells me she is going to lock up all of our fireworks. She wants me to ride my bike to the hardware store and pick up a lock and some lengths of chain, and she is going to put all of the fireworks into a big metal box.
I ride to the hardware store, and when I get there I realize it looks like any hardware store in my town in WL. I decide to RC. So I pinch my nose. Nothing happens. And, like I always do, I double check. I do the nose pinch a second time. I can't breathe. I ask myself if this situation seems logical, and (well I guess it's not that absurd of a dream plot.) so the entire thing passes my reality checks.
I go into the hardware store, that feels more like a convenience store and start looking for locks and chain. The funny part comes with what this store was selling. The entire front of the store sold fairly normal things. Chips, cookies, pop, junk food. The back of the store was guns. Yeah. All guns. All different makes, models, sizes. A huge wall with containers for different types of ammunition. I look around, and think maybe I could buy a gun. Just one of the really cheap ones. I see a gun on the shelf, it looks like a toy gun, but on the package it reads that it is real. I take it to the register to buy it, and ask the cashier if they have a lock and chain. I then lose the dream.

I am in some world. It looks like a very strange LittleBigPlanet level. I have control over these two characters that are attempting to make their way to the highest point in the world. I start ascending platforms and jumping over obstacles.

After some non-lucid sequences in my hotel room, I found myself in the kitchen of my house. I knew I was out of town on a trip, so I felt like I was just checking in. However things were a mess, even I knew the catsitter had been coming. There were lots of bowls of food out but they looked old and uncleaned, and the water was dirty. I went over to the sink to start washing them and I noticed that the sink was already full of dirty dishes. However, I distinctly remembered that I had done all the dishes before leaving on my trip. "Does this mean I'm lucid?" I thought to myself, and decided, "Of course, certainly," and felt that I had been aware that I had been dreaming all along even though I evidently had not been until I noticed the discontinuity. (In one of the earlier sequences I had been confusing about whether I was awake or dreaming to the point where I felt convinced that dream events were impinging in impossible ways on waking life.) I wondered if there were other discontinuities and looked around. I noticed that the catsitter had not taken the check I left for her, and that seemed odd. Wouldn't she have taken it on the first visit? However, I realized that this wasn't necessarily a discontinuity, because there might have been plausible reasons for her to have left it until later.

I started washing a dirty bowl at the sink, one that the cats could use, but then I reflected, "If I'm lucid, maybe I should go do something else. I know! I'm in my kitchen, it would be a great opportunity to go outside and leave a trail of breadcrumbs to try to do the Hansel and Gretel task. But first I'll just wash this bowl and leave some fresh food and water for the kitties." So I stayed at the sink and continued washing the bowl, and also washed and refilled a water bowl.

Even though the dream felt very stable to start, I was a bit paranoid that it wouldn't last long enough to let me get to my more interesting task, and I felt like this anxiety about waking was pushing me closer to actually doing so, and tried to put it out of mind. However, I soon felt my senses disengage and half-woke. But I didn't lose the mental image, and after a moment felt my senses re-engage and knew I was back in the dream. So I rushed to get a can of catfood and put it in the bowl I had now cleaned. A dream version of one cat came out and didn't seem interested in the food I had selected, though I figured, maybe this is a good thing, because if the catsitter feeds her food she likes better, the cat (who is very skittish) might feel more friendly to her. Just as I had finished this and was ready to start on my new task, I woke up again, and though I held very still, the dream state was too disrupted to re-enter.

I was a bit annoyed with myself for wasting a lucid opportunity, but I understood my rationale. Even though I knew I was dreaming, I was not comfortable with the idea of leaving my dream-cats ill-tended, so that took priority over any other task. However, the error I made was in tending to them using the tedious methods of waking life: actually standing at the sink and washing bowls, actually going to another room to get the food and walking back with it, opening the can and using a spoon to empty the food into the bowl. I guess I did it this way out of habit, as it certainly felt like I was going through very familiar motions. I should have just manifested some clean food and water and then gotten to my task much more quickly.

Dream - Lucid

I was reliving my past, though it was an alternate version. Honestly, I'm not sure where I was, I just know I was inside somewhere. I was watching the guy that I first kissed, Nick, taking these girls into the bathroom with him. I was jealous because I really liked him. I think at one point I went in there with him, but we didn't make out or anything. He was showing me something in there.

This alternate past went on for quite awhile, mostly it was me watching Nick, wishing he would be with me. There was a brief point of lucidity, though it was hard to grasp. It was like I was having trouble letting go of the dream plot. I finally grasped the idea that I was dreaming, and started trying to do other things, when I woke up.

~

I was in Nick's house, though it was a weird house; it was like a mixture between a house and another location. I saw that Nick was in his room, though I did not go in there. I was in a dark, basement-like part of the building, but I could clearly see the entrance to Nick's room, and I could see the kitchen. We were older now. I had been in this building with him for quite awhile, it seems like years, and he had been in his room for mostly the whole time. I did not see him come out. I didn't want him to see me.

I then had to go in there to give him something. I was afraid he wouldn't talk to me. I believe we did talk, but I can't remember for sure.

I then was "remembering" a part of my alternate past again, though it was when we were older and in college. We were talking and having a great time. We weren't together as a couple, but we were quite close with one another, closer than we ever were IWL. We were sitting on some stairs, just talking and having a great time. I looked into his eyes, and saw him for who he was; his light brown eyes were quite happy.

I then was "remembering" us writing letters to each other. At some point during this, I started to "remember" the past more as it really happened IWL, though not to a T; I wrote him a letter that upset him, and he never spoke to me again. I was now back in the present moment. I then had another "memory" of me in a dark room that was lit with starlights, and it was full of small models of the orbiting planets. There was also a picture on the wall of all the planets that apparently I had made. It looked very realistic, as if it were a computer rendered image or a very realistic painting. It wasn't accurate as far as their orbits went, and I had more on on there than the ones we know, but still, it was really good. It was really quite beautiful. I tried to telekinetically take control of Neptune, which looked like a grey rock with an indentation in the middle. I was not doing a great job at it. As this was happening with the planets, I was thinking about Nick and how close we had been and how upset he was at me.

Then, I was back in the present moment, considering whether or not I should write him more letters, though I was receiving no response. I wanted to write poetry to him, but I then thought about how inappropriate that would be since I'm married.

Dream skip, though the Nick thing was still relevant somehow. I was working at a grocery store, the same one I work at now, though I was not in the bakery, but I was doing something else. I was in a different section. It looked like produce, but was not all produce; there were other things besides fruits and veggies, like rice and such. I was working on setting up a display, when a woman approached me, an older, Asian woman with glasses. She asked me about a bag of rice that she had that was slightly opened. I told her I'd get her another one. I took the one from her and gave her another one. She examined it very carefully to make sure it wasn't opened. The bag was VERY slightly torn, and she noticed. I told her it was fine, it wasn't opened like the other one was. She still needed another one, however. Before I left, she told me she needed a 1-pound bag because the one she had was 3 pounds, and she wanted 4 pounds of rice. She was holding up two bags and showing me how one said one pound and the other said three pound. I took them from her to look, one at a time. For bags of rice, they were extremely lightweight. I gave them back to her. As I was leaving to go get one from the back, she shouted after me
"One pound!" as if I didn't hear her the first time.

I went and found one, I think asking someone about it on the way. I made sure that it said 1 pound on the bag. I went to bring it to her, and she swore it said 3 pounds. -_-'

She then directed my attention to another woman, a customer, who looked like she had chain smoked all her life, who was standing at a microphone at a podium to make an announcement. Only associates were supposed to use those. I saw some smoke trickle from between her lips. She was announcing something. The customer then asked me
"What's your joystick policy?" she asked as if she was quizzing me; she knew the answer, but wanted to see if I knew.
"I don't know," I responded. I had never heard of a "joystick policy" before.
She then directed my attention to an associate, a girl wearing the uniform we have to wear, who was standing behind a different podium with a microphone, but she was standing a bit further a way. The customer asked her to tell me what it was. She started to speak into the microphone, but her voice was no clear at all and I could not understand a word she said. I told the lady I couldn't understand what she was saying.

~

On average, I dream about Nick 1-3 times a year. It's usually something vivid too.

Morning of August 9, 2014. Saturday.



I am incorporeal as I often am in impersonal or spectator-type dreams (and there is no discernible emotion, either), especially when watching from a distance. I have no in-dream association with the location. I am just looking at the outside of a high building (more than ten feet out, apparently hovering in the air) that could be anywhere in any city. I am not sure if it is a business building or apartment building but it does look more modern and with some commercial implications such as ferns in large white cylindrical vases near one open area at the end of a large hall. There are two sets of elevator systems on the outside of the building, it seems, but there is no logic to their apparent function due to the fact that the entire elevator system is vertically layered. Thus if you are on an outermost (secondary) elevator, an inner elevator (closest to the outer opening of the building) must be on your floor as well before you can enter the building onto that floor by additionally going through the inner elevator after leaving the more outer one, and of course, the doors have to be open in both.

The elevators seem to have mostly glass or at least transparent walls, though I also see a horizontal silvery metal beam (of about ten inches or so) around the perimeter of each elevator at about a third of the way up from the floor and I think the walls below that are translucent (or only semitransparent). The elevator is crowded with at least a dozen people dressed both formally and informally. It stops at a floor higher up but no one gets out due to the fact that the inner elevator on that floor is full of various larger animals, one each, including a bear and a wolf, possibly a tiger, and also an owl flying about inside. There then seems to be a second inner elevator near the ground floor, also full of animals, including even a rhinoceros and a lion and possibly an egret or stork. The elevator with the people also stops on that floor but no one gets out or makes an attempt to change positions. This happens a couple times; they go up and then down. The animals do not leave the other elevators, either.

I suspect that at least some of this was partially triggered by a very annoying recent television commercial which I have seen several times - where it shows three people in an elevator near the end, each with animal heads; a dog, a frog, and a horse - and it relates to some sort of throat or cold medicine, I think (I really do not pay much attention to commercials relative to what is being advertised). The commercial ends with the woman with the horse head then having her human head back after the medicine supposedly takes effect. However, walking from the elevator and down the hall, she makes a loud, fluttery “horse sound”, much like a “raspberry” (which actually implies, at least to me, that the medicine was not effective; most television commercials these days actually turn me off from buying or even relating to the product in any way).

WBTB with alarm and (hence?) no recall - no lucid - but a very vivid dream again, and it took ages. Really ages.


Dream #1: I need a job, like a fast side-job, and got one as helper for a ballet-dancer while they were training and practising for a show. It was a huge production, I wasn't a dancer, but doing her stretching with her, or on her and doing all sorts of stuff for her - carrying her water, basically. It was very interesting - she was incredibly hard on herself at times, one of the choreographers found a bruise on her lower leg, and asked me, if I did that - and I couldn't remember anything - then she asked the dancer, who tried to evade, but in the end it had been me, and she hadn't told me, how it had hurt.
There was a later scene, where I overheard a sick dancer, she said appendix and then something on top of it, pleading with her helper to go on with it, who was of the opinion, that she can't possibly train in her state, she had a hugely swollen abdomen. There were a couple other helpers as well and we were also sitting about and watching, partly. Initially this was to be something for a religious ceremony, but in the end it was a big film-production, where they were the ballet or even more, it was about them, like a musical, maybe? I just missed out on seeing a celebrity make himself known, having sat in the audience of the otherwise almost empty theatre and giving compliments - I wanted to see, who it was, but couldn't leave what I was doing...
But while it was still religious, something disgusting in my view happened - I didn't see where it came from, but somebody put a very little piece of skin into a sort of complicated little shrine with strings around it in a certain pattern and hooks and hoops, and it was supposed to have something to do with circumcision. I suspected it was just some skin, but something came over me, and I opened that up, threw the skin away and tried to get it back together again, which I didn't manage. But I pretended it was a mishap, having opened it, and just got a row on that - but didn't get fired. He found the piece of skin on the floor and put it back in.
One funny scene had another choreographer come in late and saying she had to, because the rest of the catholic drug-addict support would only expect junkies from 2 pm onwards, while in truth they are out early mornings and she had to do her own Christian best instead. Nobody was angry - even while the whole thing was very edgy, very professional.
Not so funny scene had me remember that my mother had stormed off from a conflict and failed to reappear for a meanwhile long time already, and I search and search my telephone in the changing room, planning to ring my half-sister (why her?) - but then decide that I can do exactly nothing now, others are on it at the moment.

Na - that must be enough now.

Fragment #1: Again about this house, and about how there would be a financial crisis in Germany, and everybody having real estate would be well off, everybody selling stupid - man - can I not let loose on this finally - fuuing uncon - get a grip on yourself and move on!!