All DJ Entries

Met a girl from an online site, with her friend and my best friend. We all stayed at a Hotel. The Hotel had a roller coaster track down a mountain. We left to the roller coaster from the pool, i had a hard time getting out of an elevator on the way. The train lost brakes and we ran a service vehicle off of the tracks, I injured my arm. Dylan and Phil were there. And there were 2 girls shopping.

lucid

I became lucid in a mini mall parking lot... my brother was there but I ignored that. Everything went really vivid.I wanted to try time dilation. So I found a table and stared at it. I traced a clock shape with my fingers. I bean counting seconds and I saw units of time as tracers come from the clock I was drawing. they rose up and expanded. But then everything faded quickly.

stuff

Started out in my inner world. I was reading some bach like music notes and palying them. (I almost remembered the sequence I was playing). But Bach is always confusing at first unless I play one bar 20 times in a row... After a while I got bored. My dad came back with some woman... In the dream they drove to kelowna and back.

I was outside with this woman. Don't remember exactly what we talked about.

This is the 3rd dream in a month I was riding a BMX bike! There was a beginning and end to this dream that I only vaguely recall. I had this dream last night:

I was hanging out in my neighborhood and when a white car started to follow me. I remember I rode away on my bike causally at first but he kept coming. So I peddled hard, cut through the park and double backed uphill to my house without getting winded. I completely lost the person who was following me and I clearly remember crossing the street most likely to bump into him while doubling back to my house. He was not there either.

I never got tired and I easily had my bike up to 25mph+ When I reached my block, there was a lot of activity and cars parked on the street. Lots of neighbors were in front of their houses.

In May and July 2010 I spent many nights trying to induce dreams about my house and city, and didn't have one that I recalled. Now I am having regular dreams about my city, and strangely, my old bike! I was fortunate enough to have my own car at age 16, the incorporation of my bike to escape from "threats" is an old dream theme.

In the past I have noticed that dream seeding takes weeks of build up, then often, those planted themes become regular. This happened with the High School dream theme.

I got a weird night's sleep last night. I made a sound file a few nights ago that has five hours of silence and then five seconds (a bit too long but I'm too busy to remake the file) of a sound and then an hour of silence and the sound and then another hour and the sound. I played it last night and I woke up at 4 when I heard the noise slightly confused and just really tired. I fell back asleep and none of the subsequent sounds woke me up at all. I also don't remember any dreams and I didn't feel rested at all even though I got about 3 more hours of sleep than usual. It wasn't the first time I had listened to the track and it woke me up every time before (and didn't prohibit me from getting a good rest) but last night I just didn't sleep very well.

Hopefully I'll sleep better tonight.

Note: The goal tonight is mainly to have another Harry Potter dream, MoSh is wanting to continue the Harry Potter dreaming, I haven't heard from Tigress as to if she recalls the last night's dreams at the sorting… so the goal was to meet up with MoSh and attend a class where they are teaching patronuses.

I am in bed in a dark room that I don't recognize, but this doesn't seem strange to me at all. I look around as my eyes adjust to the darkness and I see I am in what looks like a dorm room with three roommates, all of whom are fast asleep. I can't make out much detail of the room in the dark, but what I can see of it looks like I am in some kind of medieval castle. I let myself enjoy that fantasy for a bit, thinking it would be awesome if I really was in a castle instead of an ordinary dorm room… the fact that I am not attending a school where I have to sleep in a dorm doesn't occur to me at the time. I lie there quietly as the light from the window starts getting brighter, which sucks. I don't really want to get up. I'm not especially tired, which comes as a surprise to me, but I am comfortable and I want to stay in bed for a while longer. But soon my roommates are getting out of bed and stretching, they don't seem to want to get up any more than I do, but it is clearly time to get up.

So I get out of bed and dress behind a curtain that hangs around my bed for privacy, and I notice the uniforms for school look like something they would wear in Harry Potter! I laugh to myself about that, muttering that I wish it really was magic that I would be learning… I put on the robes, noticing mine says Slytherin on it… not what I prefer… I come out of my isolated bed area and look at my roommates, they are all coming out fully dressed as well, also in Slytherin robes… And I notice that the room really does look like a castle, we are dressed as if we were attending Hogwarts, the room looks like we are staying at Hogwarts… this entire thing seems a bit too strange… I remember that when I wake up I need to do a covert RC by pinching my nose, so I do that and I find out I am dreaming! I repeat the RC a couple times to confirm, but there is no doubt that this is a dream. I decide to go along with the dream, since it is going in an interesting direction already.

My three roommates are fairly friendly, though it seems they would also rather be in bed right now, we talk to each other a bit, good morning, how are you, some other assorted small talk… Then we are ready to go up some stairs into the main common room of our dorms. There are more people in there, now there are both men and women, everyone looks like college age… There were other rooms on the women's side of the dorm, and there are quite a few guys, too, and I recognize some of them. Specifically I recognize Draco Malfoy, Gregory Crab, and Vincent Goyle… Both Crabb and Goyle are bitching about being hungry, Draco is clearly getting annoyed at them for going on and on about their stomachs, he seems to find that frustrating. Finally he turns and just walks away from them, he comes right over to me and asks if I am feeling ok, though I am not immediately sure what he is talking about as for me feeling better. Have I been sick? I don't remember being sick… I say I am feeling fine. I am wondering what Draco is up to, but it is time to go so we can get to class.

I will get over the next part quickly, we go to the great hall and get some breakfast, though I am not really feeling hungry, I usually don't feel that hungry in dreams except for if there is something really yummy to eat. I nibble on a few things so I am not standing out in the group, then we move on to a class, the class is a Defense Against the Dark Arts class… with Professor Lupin! I sit down in the classroom, waiting for a class to start. I see the other students coming into the room, Harry, Ron, Hermione… MoSh! MoSh comes into the room! I go over to MoSh and say hi, MoSh says something about not wanting to get out of bed for class, I tell him this is a dream. He says yeah, being able to come here is a dream, he has been wanting to learn stuff like this. Before I can reiterate that this really is a dream, Tigress comes into the room! Yay! Now there are two people in the class that I know, I sit down next to Tigress, MoSh sits down next to me, and now the three of us are waiting for the class to begin. MoSh has a Gryffindor robe on, Tigress has one from Ravenclaw, so I figure this probably looks like an unusual gathering… now we just need someone from Hufflepuff to join us there. Inter-house cooperation, cool! Soon Asuka comes into the room, so MoSh says bye to me and sits at the table behind Tigress and me with Asuka since there are only three seats at each table. I look back at the two of them, but not for long. Class is about to begin when Draco sits down beside me… wtf? He should be sitting over with Crabb and Goyle, who are looking a bit confused at the table across the aisle.

Well, it doesn't really matter because we don't stay for long in the class, just long enough for Lupin to explain what a patronus is, and what the spell is for creating one, then he says the best way to learn is to do it, so we were going on a short field trip to a field, where we could have plenty of room to practice. All of us follow Lupin outside to a clear meadow area near the school, which looks just like I had imagined it to look, like a pretty awesome castle. We are on the top of a hill when Lupin talks more about creating patronuses, then we have a chance to create our own patronuses. Tigress, MoSh, and I have no problems creating our patronuses. Our three patronuses are soon flying around with each other, in the sky, and quite a few of the others are now just gawking at them without even trying to create their own patronuses. Lupin says we have done absolutely fantastic, but tells the others they need to focus on their own patronuses rather than looking at ours, then he goes around to other students to try to help them. Soon Asuka's patronus joins MoSh's, Tigress' and mine. Harry is the next to add his patronus to the party, which is its usual buck form, the rest of ours looked like the pictures below…

MoSh's is an Eastern style dragon…


Asuka's is a white peacock…


Raven's Patronus is a white panther…


Tigress' patronus is a mystical white wolf…

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

These are dreams I had during the night between Saturday and Sunday. 28th is the date I wrote it all down. Awesome dreams! Nightmares perhaps? Still long, vivid and filled with emotions.

Schizofrenic Depression
I'm with a female psychiatrist. Apparently I am very sick in the head. I am handed two big white pills, and is told to swallow them. It takes a couple of tries before I get them down with some water. "You have a depression" she tells me. This depressions causes brain damage, and makes you kind of schizofrenic. A thousand thoughts and theories spin around in my head right away (much like while I'm awake).

"So that's why I can't seem to stop thinking? I got a sickness..." I tell myself. I completely trust the psychiatrist and several pieces fall in place. We're sitting at a table with a few guys from work. I can't stop thinking. "How can I be so sure that any thought I have, is the real me? And not the disease talking. Who am I?" I ask myself. I pull my hair and yell that I have to stop thinking. People around me look very concerned.

Zombies
There are zombies everywhere. I'm standing on a road in the middle of nowhere. I spot a military vehicle in the ditch, and head for it. I have to fend off a zombie trying to bite me. The vehicle has a plastic bubble on the roof, and I see several people inside. They let me in and we're safe from the zombies. For now.

Several weeks later, we come out and I have a beard. There are still zombies walking around, but they're much more rotten now. "We should head for the nearest gas station" I say. A zombie tries to bite me and I kill it with my fists. Its rotten flesh ripping easily. We drive the vehicle to a gas station. There's just one zombie around, and I pour gasoline on him. "Don't light him close to the pumps!" I yell, running away from the faster than normal zombie.

He lights up, but doesn't seem to care. He just stands there, dying slowly. Suddenly a couple of cars appear. They're racing and a guy tells me to join them. I spot a light blue ferrari and I get in. The engine roars as I step on the gas and quickly catch up. The landscape looks a bit like from Fallout 3. From being in fifteenth place, I end up being third after a huge jump. It feels just like a racing simulator! In a tunnel I gain pole position, but sadly the dream ends.

Summer Computer Problems
I'm standing on a dock. The weather is amazing and the radio is on. "We have 30 degrees out at the moment, but we will expect much colder weather in the coming days" a woman says. I really enjoy the sun and I feel extremely happy. I want to take a swim but I decide not to because it's probably cold. Monica is with me, and I check my computer. A couple of files I don't recognise is on the desktop. I delete them.

They appear again. I delete them. Once again they appear, and I notice some kind of loading window. Winrar is unpacking things onto my desktop. The entire computer's contents are being copied. I try to make it stop, but I can't. I decide to ask DV chat for help.

Hair
I'm watching some kind of reality dating show. There are happy couples on the beach, telling people they've had the best time of their lives. I am standing in the water, and I accidentaly drop Monica's cellphone. It slides around on the sandy bottom. Felix tells me that I shouldn't be afraid to tell her I've got alot of hair on my back. "It's normal dude! She won't mind!" I find this strange since I am almost hairless.

Amount of sleep: Around 8 hours

Supplements before bed: Lots of alcohol

That's it! I will write the remaining dreams tomorrow. Took alot longer than I thought.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Had other dreams but didn't write them down because I was focusing on the WILD.

Edit: I now recall more of dream before the incubated scene.

Flying, Teleporting, Hot Tub Revisited
Method WILD
Lucidity C
Vividness B
Control B
Once again, I visualize the hot tub scene. I plan to return to this scene several times as I practice my first few WILDs. It's such a vivid memory for me. I visualize being in a friend's backyard a few steps from their hot tub. It's a party with a bunch of high school friends but mostly I am focused on the two girls in the hot tub who waiting for me. I concentrate on the blueness of the water and the silhouettes of the two people sitting in the hot tub.

I transition into dreaming but I am not in the incubated scene. I am outside and it is very dark. I think I am in an alley surrounded by tall buildings. I start flying to figure out where I am. I slowly float up above the buildings and see the cityscape around me. It's still almost pitch black. I see the outline of buildings as faint silver lines. I also see a few spots of color of neon signs. I practice flying a bit. I try to fly standing upright instead of laying out with my arms stretched, Superman-style. I don't see any people or movement so it feels kinda lonely. I practice throwing fireballs and sonic booms. They seem dim and silvery, like the outlines of the buildings.

Now I look upward, hoping to see stars or the moon. But there is just empty blackness. This disorients me and, when I look down again, the city is gone and I am surrounded by blackness. It's not scary though. I think to just fly to a new scene. I recall my visualization of the blueness of the hot tub. I think of that and start flying forward. Soon it seems I am going through a tunnel with the scene at the other end.

Then tada! I am there, in my incubated scene. It's still dark of night, but somewhat lit. It seems to be lit by some of those tiki torch things that people put in their yards. Once again, it's my own backyard instead of the girl's who is hosting the party. I look at my hands. The fingers on the right hand are long and distorted. Cool. I step down into the hot tub and sit between the two girls. I look to the one on my right, Sara. I put my arms around her and appreciate how real she feels. I look at her face. She gives me a big smile. She actually looks like someone else that I recognize, not Sara. I start to turn to look at the other girl but my body goes stiff. I try to look at my hands but the dream quickly fades. Tried to DEILD but no luck this time.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID SEMI-LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

Good morning! I went away for a few days this weekend. Visited my gf's hometown. I didn't have dreaming in mind, other than sleeping in some. But after seven dreams the first night (Friday to Saturday) I just had to write them down. Even got lucid twice that first night, and the other nights had some VERY long dreams in them, and a very cool theme. I'll write them as three separate entries. I didn't write down my bedtime or anything.

Civilization
I'm playing a game very much like Civilization IV. I got control over a few units and I'm walking around in the enemy camp. I can see Indian tents and stuff like that everywhere. I destroy everything I can with my tiny soldiers. The enemy troops retaliate and I am victorious. With just a few soldiers left in each group, I click the "+" button. My teams are quickly replenished and I continue wreaking havoc. A side menu pops up and I can see alot of different awesome upgrades they have. "Veterans, +20 damage" and so on. A movie scene appears and a couple of guys in strange costumes are chanting over a kettle. A building is about to be sunk into the ground with magic. I successfully sink the building before my troops are destroyed.

Call of Duty DILD
I am playing a virtual reality Call of Duty game. I got an UZI and the longer I aim, the more precise the sight becomes. I take out several guys standing on the third floor of a building, behind some broken windows. Apparently I'm in some kind of dark, oldschool city. I check my score. 25/6. I am way ahead of everyone else. I run down some stairs and almost run in to a guy, which I quickly stab to death with my knife. It's getting pretty hectic and I don't feel like staying for too long. I head for the backdoor and leave the ruins.

I run for my life as bullets hit the ground very close to me. I go down a hill, and take out a sniper. I try to aim with it, but the guys coming over the hill are spraying me with bullets and I don't dare to stand still. It's still very dark outside, but I spot my friend G. The dream gets kinda fuzzy, but we enter a car and leaves. We're cruising around in my old neighbourhood from when I was a kid. We're trying to find the way to something, but we keep getting lost. After driving around for a while, we stop next to a forest, and get out.

We walk around for a while, scouting the area perhaps. Then walk back towards the car. I pick up a beercan and figure I can amplify the volume of the speakers with it. G tells me he's going to steal the car parked next to ours, and looks around on the ground for the keys. I get in our car and close the door. I realise I am dreaming. I leave the can in the car and decide to see what G would say if I told him this is just a dream. I get out of the car. "Hey G, you do realise this is just a dream right?" I ask him. "Yeah ofcourse!" he tells me.

I can't really focus on anything because of it being so dark, and suddenly I'm floating. Going up a few meter. The dream starts to fade. I quickly look at my hand and see a very bright hand, with a bright background instead of black. I hold this imagine for a few seconds. I wake up.

Spy Mission
I'm a spy of some kind, walking around in a building. I spot a guy and I know he's got the combination to a door that I need. I sweep his legs and point a gun at him while he's on the ground whimpering. "What is the the code" I ask him and notice it's a guy from highschool who was in my class. "Farting Warts" he tells me and I leave him. I try the combination but it doesn't work.

Stefan from work appears and I ask him casually if he knows the combination. "Yeah sure, it's "Unit It"" I try it on the safe-like door and it opens easily. I get a strange thought in my head. "What if the door just shuts on its own" BAM! The door shuts tight. I really want to see what's in that room, so I imagine it being very easy to open once again. I can easily open it and there's no resistance what so ever. I wake up before I get to see anything in the room. I decide to DEILD and lie completely still. My arms and hands are having very intense spasms, and once again it feels like they're bending in impossible angles. I know this is how I feel in SP now, and I try to ignore the feelings. I wake up and give Niklas (the former school friend) a call, and tell him about the dream.

My Dead Grandpa DILD
I'm at work. Doing high jumps on a table. There's a soft matress lying on the table and there's one of those bars they use. Björn is there with me, and we compete against eachother. It's a piece of cake really, and we get bored quickly. I put on my jacket, but Björn decides to put on someone else's jacket. He fools around, pretending to be a monkey or whatever. I smile and look to the left. Sitting at a table, staring at me, is my dead grandpa.

I get kind of shocked and slowly walk towards him. He looks straight into my eyes and he doesn't look very healthy. "Grandpa?" I ask him. I haven't seen him in about 10 years, and I get a bit emotional. He looks exactly like he looked the last time I saw him, and his face isn't distorted at all. His skin is pretty grey/green. Suddenly he opens his mouth, gasping for air. This is too horrible for me to watch, and I look away, thinking; "Fuck that, this shit ain't happening in my dream".

His gasping stops, and I realise that I am dreaming. This is way too heavy to just ignore, and I decide to see what he has to say. "This is a dream" I tell him. "Yes it is. What was the last thing your mother told you, before I died?" He asks me. I try to remember and I get a few false memories, but nothing concrete. "Uhm, well she told me..." is all I manage to say.

Fragments
*An old baker is telling me how he is a soldier, but in his heart, he has dough! He's very old and his skin is all red. He got flour everywhere and a white apron. I think it was related to the Civilization dream.

*I'm standing on a grass covered island, trying to get to the other side. The bridge infront of me is broken, and I can only take a few steps out in the water before it gets too deep for my boots. Two old guys walk up to me and they smile. They have to cross, and decide to walk around instead. I do the same.

*I've got 300 kr left on my bank account. I double check the amount and I can see that I've spent 8000 kr twice on something. Something about Monica's loan or whatever. I get pretty anxious.

Amount of sleep: Around 10 hours

Supplements before bed: Nothing

That's it! Pretty intense night, with two lucids! Sweet. Got two more nights with long, intense dreams coming up!
No supplements at all this weekend, and I will wait until next Saturday before I do some Galantamine + Choline.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

This was last Thursday while I was out of town. This was my first successful WILD using the common sleep paralysis technique. I've had DEILDs and I think an accidental WILD once. But this was the first using this technique. Some interesting notes:

- I've been attempting WILD on and off for about 3 months. Probably about 20-25 attempts.
- I was out of town in a hotel room instead of my normal bed. It's the first time I've slept in a different bed in quite some time.
- This was the night of Thanksgiving holiday, so I had a very large meal for dinner, but no alcohol.
- I went to bed early, compared to my normal schedule.
- The WILD happened after about 7 hours of sleep.
- I had other dreams before in the same night, but I didn't have my dream journal with me so I couldn't write them down or recall them.

The Hot Tub
Method WILD, DEILD
Lucidity C
Vividness C
Control C
Awoke naturally after a dream around 7am, decided to try to WILD. I lay still on my back for about 10 minutes and felt some sleep paralysis. Changed position to my side and let my mind wander. After a few minutes, I felt sleep paralysis again and then a strange feeling in my head. It's like when you are really really tired and you feel a swell of tiredness in your head that makes you close your eyes and droop your head suddenly. This was my cue to start visualizing. I had a scene in mind, one that I've been trying to incubate for a long time.

This is real memory from when I was about 15 years old. I'm at a party with a bunch of high school friends in a girl's backyard. They have a pool and a hot tub. I visualize standing a few feet from the hot tub, looking down into the blueness of the water. There are two girls in the pool wearing bikinis. Mostly, I am trying to focus on the blue blob of the water and the dark silhouettes of the two people sitting in it. I start to see the blueness in the hypnagogic hallucination.

I transition into the scene as if through a tunnel with a blue light at the end. I am in the scene and I know I am dreaming. The scene is a bit wrong. It's my own backyard instead of the girl's. And the girls are sitting in reversed positions as compared to how I visualized it. But it's pretty much what I was trying to incubate. I can't move though and I still feel my physical body. I wait patiently and the dream gets a bit clearer. I look at the two girls, now on either side of me. I am excited that I've gotten this far. But now the two girls start arguing with each other. Something about getting your own job instead of working for your father. I'm surprised. I don't know where this dialogue came from. The dream fades.

Now awake, but I can DEILD. I try to visualize the blue water again for a few moments. Then I am reminded that I am laying in bed, so my hallucinations change. I am in a bed with white sheets with the two girls instead of in the hot tub. It's pleasant but I try to concentrate back on the blueness of the water. I re-enter the hot tub scene and wait for it to solidify. I am calmer now. I am able to look around and appreciate the scene. It's bright daylight. I look at one girl and feel her skin. I look at the texture of her brown hair. I am aware that I am sitting in the water, but I don't quite "feel" the wetness. I try to focus on my body to feel the water. The dream fades again.

The whole dream started out with me in an old classroom from 8th grade. Mrs Cooks room. She wasnt in the class yet and the room was a little different than i remember. Im talking to some old friends while we sit on the computers playing games. I started to begin to notice that things were kind of strange. Than a dog that i had seen the day before (in real life) ran up to me. I started petting it and my teracher walked in the door. She told me to take the dog out when school ended. The bell rang and i brought the dog outside and tied its leash to a pole for some reason. I was confused because the outside of the school looked like my elementary school. I remembered i left something in the classroom so i went back to look for it but when i entered the room everything turned dim litted like it got dark outside and the lights were out but everything was still visible. Everyone from my class was sitting down still and my teacher asked me to sit. When i did she said we have a test. I was confused because i thought the day was over. She told us that it was a riddle type of test. I dnt remember much but somehow i ended up in a dome like building that was covered in grass and trees. We had to go out looking for he answers to the riddles. I started to realise that this was a dream and began to slightly fly kind of like a hover. I tried to control it but when i would fl to one end of the room i would hit a wall and get pulled to the other side and hit the wall again. I dont remember much more of it and than i woke up. I think this was my first good lucid dream.

Holidays are ending. Really poor recall. I expect things to go back to normal soon.

In which I watch a YouTube video...

Or maybe I really watched a YouTube video and then dreamt about it? I don't know. But I searched YouTube and couldn't find it.

I'm watching a video on YouTube. It's a jingle about how people like things like themselves. We like little versions of real things. There were lots of pictures of people looking at cute miniatures. A smiling girl holding a matchbox car. Kids playing with stuffed puppies. Then it became a cartoon and the jingle started saying, "People like to make mini people". It showed a video of lots of little cartoon babies- pink, blue, yellow, green babies all falling down the screen. Then the jingle became a rocker. "Stop making people! People, stop making people!"

Is this real? Or is there something real like that on YouTube that I got mixed up with other images in my dream? Or did I dream it all up?

Disneyland

Drempt that I was supposed to go to Disneyland for Maggie's birthday on a bus. It was my birthday present and I was really excited about it. My mom also told me she would buy me a fake id for my birthday present so I was like yeaa yeaaaaa. My friend caled me and asked if id pick em up on the way I said yea but never did. I was at my house with my friend Colin and we werers bullshting around talking playing video games. Then a bus pulls in to my bakyard and they asked if I was coming to disneyland. I told em to wait up then I went and took a nap. When I woke up from a dream less sleep the bus was still there and I laughed but felt bad about how long I was maken them wait. It was like three in the morning and then I got ready to leave. I grabed my stuff went outside and My friend matt left outside I said to wait up cuz I need my kid cudi cd player and new album to listen to on the ride. I grabed batteries and when I left their was no longer any bus just shelly in the car. She drove me to the bust they pulled over and I got on and said whats up to everyone. We drove the bus through some large gaming where house for some reason where games were made. Iw as like wtf y is this place so secretive. I saw how they made games. A rainbow light was shined from the webcam of an oldschool 90s computer that hit the disc and made the video game. I woke up soon after and tried to dream about getting to disneyland and half assed it but woke up never reaching disneyland.ahhh

I am in a room, it is not my room but it feels like it, there's a computer screen in front of me. Its a big CRT monitor with a black finish. I am watching a time laps video of someone painting. There is a sound coming from the PC speakers I think its an online radio show, I remember hearing that some DJ has just died. I swivel the chair to look around, there are lots of wires, and a single box. I know it has something to do with audio equipment. I then get up and open the door, I am confronted with familiar scene, I am upstairs in my own home, visitors have just come through the front door, my nieces and brother in law, my sister is not with them. Someone appears to left from the bathroom, its a family friend whom I considered as an aunt, she died tragically a few years ago. She greets me, I say, “ Long time, no see”. I know that she has died but it doesn't seem to bother me, she wearing a red dress, I notice that on her ankle there appears to be some waxing strip, strange, I then proceed downstairs...

I now find myself in a third person view, it looks like I am in America at some mall with an open air cafe. I'm at a table there's a doctor in a white coat and a nurse in light blue overalls I take it they are on a break, its like something out of friggin ER. I get the impression that the hospital is just across from the mall. I have the perfect image of the nurse she is in her mid 30's, slim build natural blond hair tied back with a short pony tail. The doctor has just told her she has missed her chance to have children, she doesn't know how to react to the news...

Suddenly I am transported to some southeast Asian man 40s 50s who has just found out that he cant have children. There's a pedestrian bridge that's crosses over a busy road, he jumps off it and commits suicide. I get the feeling the reasoning behind taking his own life was because he felt ashamed and also he believed that his wife should have children even if it meant with someone else...

I'm still in 3rd person, I'm in a hospital there is a warm ambient feel to the room, a man is lying in a bed with a newborn baby next to him, the man seems to be the father. His two friends are with him, they remind me of some famous musicians. The man however looks sick his hair used to be thick but now is thin, he may be sick but still smiles at the baby girl...

I'm now following those two friends along a boulevard, in what looks like some cheap medieval theme park, there are trees to my left a huge wall to my right and the boulevard in the middle. They both seem to be in good spirits and laugh that their friend is now completely bald. They both meet up with someone at the end of the boulevard, its the mother of one of the men. They all decide to got up one of the towers that's built onto that large wall. As they enter the tower the mother morphed into 6 year old girl. They then meet a tour guide in the tower dressed up in medieval clothing. When they get to the top of the tower there is a platform built above the entrance the girl and the guide climb onto the platform to get a better view, both friends are still talking away. The girl slips and dangles off the railings the tour guide freezes and doesn't try to help, one of the friends rushes to the girls aid but by the time he get there the girl has already plummeted to her death...

I cant remember when this dream appeared last night but its odd. Walking along a very still river with almost no current, koi are swimming in the dark water. As I continue walking up the river I notice something incredible. A koi out of the water, using its pelvic fins to support itself on a flat stone, it had its tail up in the air with its back arched. Once it had noticed me staring at it, It quickly returned to the water... was it doing fish yoga?

Before bed I took 400mg valerian, 50mg vitamin B-6 and 0.5mg melatonin. I woke up at 3:30 am and did a WBTB. I also performed a MILD before sleeping. In addition, I attempted to incubate a dream about Myst Uru.

Uru Marker Quest

I am in D'ni, doing a marker quest (this takes a while to explain if you don't know what I'm talking about. You can google these things if you're curious). I am in a big room "upstairs" (a vauge dreaming impression, I don't know what building I may have been in). I follow the markers "downstairs" into a large dark blue grey room. It is a little reminiscent of somewhere in Kadesh Tolesa. The marker quest is describing a murder mystery (taken from waking memory. I was on such a marker quest before going to bed, and it was a location I was at during this quest that I was trying to incubate). The markers tell me about a group of people who "explore the walls". They seem to be suspicious, and I look around the walls of the room. I also call someone on the telephone. One guy in particular does not have a telephone. For some reason this makes him even more suspicious.

The County Fair

In this dream, I am back at my old job with the Army Corps. I am working at the public relations booth at a local county fair.

My former boss is supposed to call me (taken from waking life. I had to call my present boss this morning because he was supposed to call me and didn't). I am at home, but I know he is talking to someone about my phone number. He can't remember my number, and therefore can't call me. I somehow walk into his office as he is saying this.

"You need my number?" I ask, surprising him. We exchange greetings, since we haven't seen each other in a while. Then he sends me out to the county fair.

It is cold and rainy, and many vendors have pulled out of the fair. I myself am a little disgusted with the fair for some reason. I am hungry and decide to get something to eat. I stop at a booth selling hot dogs. I order a hot dog since it is only 75 cents. Then I decide to order french fries too, even though I wasn't going to at first. I fall into conversation with the vendor while he prepares my food, who is also disgusted with the fair.

"This fair ain't like it used to be" he says, squirting ketchup and mustard into a plate and then dumping fries in. "Look at all the people who have pulled out".

"I know," I say, "I think this is going to be our last year here." In fact, I know it is, because I am the one who schedules the fairs. He hands me my food. The fries have onions and peppers mixed in with them. It looks pretty tasty.

I walk for a while, and come to some railroad tracks. There are some people walking on the tracks. What they do is wait for the warning lights to flash on the track signalling a train is coming. Then they jump on the tracks and walk, as though that is the safe time to walk. I try to warn them not to do this (though I seem to be walking on the tracks with them). I describe to them how "two of my relatives - or ancestors, I guess" were killed doing this.

The above dreams were recorded at 3:30AM during the WBTB. The following dreams I recorded this morning.

Western Christmas Carol

I am with some bad guy, in a sheriff's office of the Wild West. The bad guy has a rather distinctive face, looking like a typical bad guy. While we are waiting for the sheriff, another guy walks in and leans on a counter in front of us. Those of us waiting in the office are startled to see how much this new guy looks like the villain. They could be twins, except this new person is much younger. Then a second person walks in and leans on the counter next to the first person. He too looks exactly like the villain, but he has a big bushy beard. Those of us waiting (the villain, myself, some other person, and Peter Lorre - I don't know how he fit in) talk about the coincidence. Then the villain starts reliving past memories.

The past memories are brought on by the fact that the first look-alike reminded him of his own youth. It is like the Ghost of Christmas Past for him, and he begins to soften up by remembering how he used to be. Then, when he sees the second look-alike, he thinks of the present, and how things could have been different. This then, is the Ghost of Christmas Present.

Then the sheriff walks in. If we were surprised before, imagine our shock at seeing the sheriff - an exact double of our villain, except for the badge and hat. This is the Ghost of Christmas Yet to Come, with the ominous foreshadowing of a hanging.

Sad Dream

This dream may have been part of the Western Christmas Carol dream, as it started out in a similar scene. It deals with some issues from the waking life that are sad and personal to some close friends, so I won't go into much detail in the first part. It cheers up a bit by the end, though.

A man, falsely accused of a crime or imprisoned for a petty crime, has a heart attack while in prison. They could have let him out to go to the doctor, but they didn't. He dies. This makes the following events even more tragic and frustrating for the family. Some other things happen (taken from waking memories) that add to the family's grief. There are some scenes of sadness.

Somehow the scenes above lead into a story of three guys who go to Russia. They send a letter to the United States' government threatening to do something extreme. This causes the government to go into a tizzy, and then reports come that the three guys have taken over Russia. What actually happened is that they claimed Russia and nobody bothered to argue with them. It was so silly that it wasn't worth Russia's effort. However, the newspapers pick up the story and blow it out of proportion. Some of us get a big laugh out of that. "Then violence spreads" as it was said in my dream. I am sort of writing this as a story and living it at the same time. Everything disintegrates into a big fight and mass destruction. I buy candy.

The Minivan in the Kitchen (Lucid)

I am walking down the hallwau in my house towards the kitchen. I enter the kitchen, and on the left where the table is supposed to be is a large minivan. This isn't right, and I realize that I am dreamin. This realization seems to cause me to jump, and I wake up...

...But it's a false awakening. I find myself walking down the same hallway, and enter the kitchen again. I look to my left, and there is the minivan sitting there. This reminds me that I'm dreaming. Once again I jerk when I realize that, and either wake up, have a FA, or something. I can't remember anything else.

This one I can't really remember, but I do remember that there was a small building. I went in. There was a room with a small stage that I peered into from a doorway. A show was going on. I can't remember what, but there was a caroony man on an empty stage in a moth-eaten suit and top hat. The spotlight was on him. The audience was full, and hardly visible. I went upstairs and saw some theater students from school. I asked what shows they were putting on. They showed me flyers for about 4, but I only remember there being Sweeney Todd. I asked if I could try out. One of the girls said that they had already held auditions months earlier at her house.