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I had mostly fragments last night. The two I can remember had to do with inmates.

On my first one, I was coming into Los Lunas from I-25 north. L. Sanchez was driving and the light was green. There were many cars on the lane going from our left to our right. Sanchez didn't want to turn left while other cars were also turning despite there being two lanes. I got mad but eventually he turned. The sun was setting in this dream.

I was in a room with a bunk bed. There were a few people in there and there were also a lot of tools. People were taking the tools. I was taking some and B. Joe was also. We ended up staying last. I remember a window in the room and it looked like we were in a very tall building. I grabbed Joe, got somethings, and asked when he gets out. He said in 5 days and I took my necklace off, removed the handcuff key, and threw the cross at him, telling him to keep it.

I was in a big crowd in a stadium and the girl directing the show called me out to be on the stage. I went down and there were 12 women on stage and 11 had no shirts on. The one without a shirt was a beautiful brunette with big breasts and a green shirt. While the show was going, I would jump around the things they had on stage. The crowd got mad and the girl directing the show asked why I was doing that. I stood there for a second or two before saying I was excited because I had over 10 boobs in front of me. The show girls seemed disappointed and the men in the crowd cheered while the women booed. The announcer said I shouldn't of said that cus of the female crowd. Then, the lights changed and some black dude started jumping from colored board to colored board. The whole stadium then started walking towards some event. We had backpacks with equipment because it was going to be a few days' trip. We came to a stop when some kid that exclaimed he was a swimmer dunked a basketball. There was a huge board and beyond it, water. We had to go through it but no one wanted to get wet. I tried scaling around the wall but it was difficult since it was eaten up by the water. Once I made it up, I couldn't run because there were twigs and branches and I didn't have any shoes on. I jumped back down and the water was almost gone but was rising. A few people were with me and I let them know. I ran back towards the crowd and jumped on a platform that was next to a wall. I noticed a huge gold statue holding up a torch. The statue was were the city was and it was facing away from us. The huge statue was the Colossus. The water got too high and I had to dive in. When I did, the weight the weight of my backpack caused me to do a front flip while underwater. I made it to ground but was the only one there. I found an old man in the old medieval-looking city and we teamed up. I told him we would loot the cars for supplies but we needed shelter from enemies and the cold. The first house in front of us would put us in the paths our enemies would take so we went around the corner into an alley and into a small home. Once we entered, the old man asked me to find anything weird in the room. I started going up the stairs when a closet door started opening behind me. I went down and there was a spirit. I hit it and suddenly, the old man was a zombie skeleton. I struck him with my sword and he tried to run so I chased after him. I killed him using a lightning spell. My hand had a glove with lights that would turn off depending on how much mana I had left. The old man then appeared out of hiding. He showed me what he found and we acquired minor supplies and useful melee weapons and magical supplies.

#286 - MILD - 2:53AM


I wake for my WBTB and recall a non lucid dream about having breakfast with morbidly obese people. One asked me if I wanted "cool" (cool whip) or peanut-butter on my pancakes. I shout that I want both. The guy asking looks really pleased with my answer.

Later, I fall asleep a little too fast and forget I wanted to WILD. I find myself at some strange version of my workplace. It's break-time and I see something like cherry cheese cake on a table for everyone to eat. I take an extra large piece with my hands and wolf it down. I see another plain cheese cake and do the same. I begin to feel guilty and like total shit as I realize that I am blowing my calorie restricted diet so blatantly. I've only just started.

As I walk deeper into the break room, I think some coffee would be nice to go with the sweets and pour a cup from a weird coffee pot. I find it strange that the coffee looks like it has creamer in it already, but I just shrug it off. As I start to turn around, I see a plate of really large lemon muffins. I figure since I am blowing my diet I may as well do it right and take a muffin. I quickly shove it into my face as I pick a seat.

I start to sit with Ronnie, but I see Glenn and decide to sit with him. I've been wondering why he's been gone from work (sick) and want to ask him about it. He seems to be engaged in deep conversation with Richard so I politely sit with them waiting to speak. As I sit, I slip and land hard, embarrassing myself. Richard seems to be annoyed and purposefully not making eye contact with me. I decide to sip my coffee and notice that it just tastes like creamer and is not very warm. I get up to check the coffee pot and see it's just now making coffee. I assume someone preloaded the pot with creamer prior to starting the coffee. I go ahead and pour a little more in my cup hoping the first of the brew will be strong enough to counter all the creamer.

When I sit back down, I begin to feel extremely tired and put my head down on the table for a second. I think I am about to dose off, but I suddenly fall out of my seat. I look around, but no one seems to notice. I notice Ronnie's table. He's talking to that one guy whose name I don't know. I suddenly wake and roll over.

I feel annoyed that I feel asleep so fast and decide its time to get focused about WILD. But first, I want to recall the dream I just had. As I am going over it I feel a little shocked at my binge eating. It try to recall the little details but end up having a MILD and slipping right back into the action.

I'm sitting in another spot but still in the same scene and moment. I see the nameless guy sitting alone now. He's talking about fitness and health to someone and mentions something about how the skin of fruits and vegetables have a lot of nutrients. I say, "Yeah. Pretty soon, instead of throwing away the peel, people will eat just the skin and throw away the rest to save calories." I am completely ignored.

I notice a guy I went to high school with get up from another table and tell Nameless that he's been reading a book about core fitness. High School tells Nameless that his "core" is all wrong and needs to work on it. Nameless seems confused and I know why as if I am reading his mind. High School cannot possible know anything about Nameless or his "core" because Nameless hasn't even talked about it.This triggers lucidity.

I realize that I have been eating some type of fruit, or rather, I am holding it in my hand. I look at it, and it looks to be something like a really large plum. There is a bite missing and the interior flesh looks just as deep purple as the skin. I take another bit lucidly noticing the taste. It is deliciously sweet and plum-like but way better than any type of fruit I have ever had. There is no core or seed and the texture is like solid, seedless tomato or maybe a persimmon. My vision starts to fade, but I don't care. I just continue eating the dream fruit enjoying every second. I decide to really focus on the taste and feel of it in my mouth. The taste intensifies to near euphoric levels. I say, "Goddammit, that's so good." I continue like this until I slowly wake up with watering mouth and smacking lips. I look at my empty hand disappointed.

I guess you can see what's been going on in my life.

I remembered a few dreams last night. What was so strange was that I woke up and thought no recall again, but this time I said I am not buying that and I kept thinking. I got one little detail and it kind of opened up the dream memory.

Dream fragment 2, 4:58am-7:00am."":
-I remember telling a kid that I don't know how to draw.
-I saw a picture with people and they had some huge mouths.
-I also saw my professor, the one that had cancer.

Dream fragment 2, 4:58am-7:00am."":
I was with my sister. I got on computer ad started messing with photoshop. I sued various methods on altering pictures, mostly making it blurry and clear. I also burned a color in the image. I found out that I was late for Calc III class. I kept mixing up teachers name as I told my sister who I had as a teacher. She said "I am confused is he, old Calc II teacher, your teacher?" I said, "oh no I am just losing my mind. I was in my room. I looked at my hands and started counting and the dream fades. I woke up and did a RC.

We saw two guys leaving their apartment so me and my brother broke in and look around. Outside was night and their room was quite dark, their place seem to have a lot of items. Items I notice was carpets , curtains , hand guns and many books. My brother began to hesitate saying this is agaisnt the law. I convince him to continue through this by already telling him we commit a crime by breaking and entering. After that I took the hand gun and place it in my upper left jacket pocket. That's when we left the place and walk quickly to the dark blue van. As I enter in it and look around my dream began to fade while I started to move in Reality.

26.02.2014

Becoming a guardian angel (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in an abandoned house, searching for something paranormal.
At some point I walked through the hallways when suddenly all nearby doors closed themselves. "Ha! I knew it!" I shouted out.
Then I heard something behind me, ran down the hallway and entered a room. A small girl was sitting on the floor playing with toys. She saw me and looked at me, surprised but not afraid. It turned out, that no one could see me except for her. I somehow was travelling back in time and only visible to her like a ghost. I knew I was chosen to watch over her and secure her in her life.

All of that was part of some kind of enlightment and I seemed to have found the answer to a really big question. Unfortunately I forgot what it was about.

So, I should probably start this off by explaining that literally all of this is a dream. There was at no point of this where I actually woke up and no point where I was lucid. Anyway, here it goes, one of the freakiest and bizarre dreams where I was aware I was dreaming but not lucid.

The dream started off with me in an apartment which I hardly recognized. I went to the stairs and suddenly knew I was dreaming, but I also couldn't control it and tried to see what I could do. I then had a false awakening where I was in front of my friend Sonam's house and he just arrived and found me on the front steps. He took me inside and into what looked like a therapist's office and shone a light in my eyes, saying that my pupil's were pinpoints and that I had been sleepwalking and was not fully awake. Then, I found myself in a movie theater watching a play apparently. My friend Kevin was sitting next to me talking to me about how I was probably slowly going insane from too much lucid dreaming, and how you really shouldn't be walking around in your own mind since it's a very erratic place.

I then had another false awakening where I was in my room but there was like a metal shelf full of chips a soda next to me. I realized that this was another dream and had yet another false awakening. Now I was outside my house and all the houses next to me looked extremely real minus a few strange details such as them changing if I looked at them for too long, but I remember looking closely at my handrail and the pattern of the corroded metal looking very real. I worried that I might be sleep walking and in danger so I tried to find someone who could wake me up. I started walking in a direction to see if it would take me to some surreal place but it was just my regular neighborhood and I began to get worried that I might really be half awake and sleep walking.

Suddenly, I find myself walking down a dark street and thinking about a meme I saw where a girl is being grabbed by a zombie and the caption reads "Try lucid dreaming they said, it will be fun they said." I look down into a sewer and somehow know that if I go down into that sewer there be that same scene.

I then found myself walking towards what looked like a school and it's daylight and I somehow know it's graduation day at the school, and a bunch of people I know are there heading towards the school. Inside the school it's like a maze, and a little person shows up and tells me that I am still dreaming and that I should try to force myself away. I have yet another false awakening but this time my vision is horribly impaired and I am having difficulty navigating my room. Everything goes black and finally I wake up for real.

Woke up late and had no time to write down my dream, so now I just remember fragments of it.

I had to go on some sort of trip with someone and the hotel beds were covered with bugs that looked like stink bugs. I had no choice but to sleep in the bed anyways.

An aircraft of sorts was crash landing and another aircraft came up under it to catch it. They landed safely.

One of my close friends is dying in the hospital but instead of seeing them, I knit a scarf at home.
*this dream has probably resulted from me knitting while watching Grey's Anatomy *

As the night begins I find myself suckered into cleaning up a Spring Break motel room after an escapade of filthy sex. Not my own mind you, I was hired. As I'm digging through the mess, I find odd items. Old toys which I can't make sense of. Staying here seems like a waste of time. I look for an exit but two men interfere with my departure. They tell me I have a job to do. I tell them no, I don't. I head back into the room and they leave yet remain nearby. I manage to rip a hole in the wall and leave that way.

I emerge into an old home of mine. I walk around. My close friend, K, is already here. She wants Starbucks again. We walk downstairs to the Starbucks, she gets her drink but I have a nagging feeling I can't get rid of.

We go back upstairs and I sense it again. Something is following me. Something dark and heavy but I can't see it and it doesn't interact with me.

I ignore it since I can't pinpoint it. I go into a bedroom to rest. I fall asleep and wake up looking at a computer screen. People are chatting, I'm reading the lines of text, nothing out of the ordinary for chat rooms. Until a symbol shows up on the screen.

A glowing red eye appears at the bottom of the page and the chatter picks up. I look at the name next to the eye and it's Mzzkc. I lean away from the screen. Look left then right. Hrm.

I haven't typed anything into chat yet and don't feel like I should. I'm about to log out when suddenly I get an invitation to join a call. Silently I click 'accept' and wait.

Mzzkc is in the middle of talking to a group of us about a video game he's designed. I can't recall specifics, it was nerd-speak on the mechanics of it but I understood enough to know he was talking about the 'how' in regards to the creation of the game.

A moment later I'm pulled through the screen of my computer and am within the game. Others are here with me and we're standing while listening to Mzzkc continue his lecture. I'm still decently confused of the 'how' and the 'why' behind this but don't mind it enough to leave yet.

Along the way we passed through a barricaded hallway. I stared at the barricade for a long while, trying to make sense of the mess. Many fire extinguishers and boxes. . . varying types and sizes for both.

We're doing a walk through of the progression of the game. We're guided through a school, eventually finding our way to a laboratory with a medical chair in the middle of the room. We walk into a connected room with windows and vials bordering the walls. As we walk around this area a werewolf looking character emerges. Startled, I prepare to fight it but soon realize it's not real. Sort of like a hologram or a replica of the real thing. The attention to detail in the character is impressive, in fact everything so far holds an excessive attention to detail.

I haven't said much so far but decide to walk out. I walk down a driveway and then continue along the side walk for a short distance.

"Hey, wait up."

Mzzkc is walking on the grass at an angle before arriving in front me. He keeps walking, says something, then points out the snake nest to my right.

"They won't bother you if you don't bother them." He points right in front of me.

I look down. There's a couple coral snakes that I would have stepped on with my next step if he hadn't pointed them out.

Slowly I step away but one of the snakes takes an interest and follows me. I slowly shift directions but the snake moves for me. I'm forced to jump to avoid it, when I land it comes at me again, I jump again and the cycle repeats a few times before I ask for help.

Mzzkc catches it attention and it follows after him, which gives me enough time to leave.

I'm now in a house nearby, safely away from the snakes. Then I see some kids running outside as I run inside. I'm concerned they'll run into the nest and head out after them.

Turns out they've found a snake and they're hovering over it, staring at it curiously.

I walk over and get to them before they've touched it, managing to pick the snake up and hold it near the neck.

I can't seem to keep a solid grip on it and the longer I hold the snake, the more the flesh degrades and falls apart. Yet it's still alive and able to strike so I continue to hold it, considering tossing it but aren't sure the risks involved with tossing it free. I become worked up with holding it and eventually break down.

"Mzzkc!"

"Mzzkc!"

"Mzzkc!!!"

He comes running out of the house I was just in, passes through the garage, and comes to help take the snake from me. Just in time for me to wake up.

Notes from a couple nights ago:

Walking in downtown. Sad about recent things. Happy about others. A project I was invested in for the past three months has finally been completed. Knowing it was a temporary project I knew it would end at some point so I was careful about over investing of myself. Yet when all was said and done, my objective completed, I couldn't help but feel the odd emotion of sadness. The people are what I miss. The person I was able to portray, that character is also somebody I will miss.

Now I'm left to my own devices again. Another successful assignment and yet I don't quite understand why I feel the way I do. I was successful. Everything I set out to do has been completed. It was a win. I should be elated and patting myself on the back.

Strangely, I'm not.

That is a lifetime I would enjoy living but again, I can't settle into that lifetime. Any lifetime. I must move on to the next assignment. Must remain unattached.

What comes next is a wave of oddities.

One dream I'm on an airplane disposing of drunken pilots. Another I'm with a friend from the assignment I just completed and entertaining her ideas for being a teacher. Another dream I'm with an old boss and assisting her in building her team and office. Then at another point I'm with that same boss, doing a poor job of driving a vehicle she asked me to drive, running into old men at the bottom of a drive way and then having the car vanish only to have trouble ascending the drive way.

Recently, I have been having dreams where people are trying to kill me... sometimes I don't know who they are, but other times they're famous actors.

Last night's dream started with a storm coming. I was with my mother and another woman came over to prepare for the hurricane. All of the sudden, a bus pulls in front of the house. I realize now that the house is unknown to be. A large black man who is an actor in Forgetting Sarah Marshall (you know, the big funny chef guy) bangs open the door and pulls a gun on me. I managed to fight the gun away from him and shoot him. He kept coming at me, so I had to continue shooting.

When he finally stopped, someone else came to the door. I couldn't make out who it was until we fought for a few minutes, but I finally came to realize he was an old friend of mine. Every time I'd wrestle the gun away from him, he'd pull out another...

I woke as soon as there was a gun pointing me straight in the face, as I usually do...


What do these dreams mean? They frighten me.. I woke up screaming when they first started.
If anyone has any idea.... please share.I'm at a loss.

Johnny Depp and I are sitting on a mountain in the Biodome smoking a big fat joint. Somehow we are in the middle of a conversation.
"This is some good dream herb, bro," he says to me.
We talk about the Hollywood Mafia, and how they've killed a lot of high-level actors, like Heath Ledger. He starts crying. "They enslave us, and kill us, even though we have all this money, so no one knows. They've killed a lot of my friends... my friends. We are real people, we're not images on a screen. That's not me, that fucking image, and it's dehumanizing. People put us on a pedestal and worship us like gods, but we're just fucking real goddamned people."
"You have to fight them. Johnny, no."
"If I fight them, they'll kill someone I love. There's nothing I can do bro. I just have to smile and act like nothing's wrong. I am good at that, I'm an actor. They already got me long ago in the 21 Jumpstreet days. That's when I sold my soul to the devil."
A portal opens up behind him, and two Agents in black step out. "It's time for you to go, Mr. Depp."
"How the hell did those bastards get in here?"
"I called them, I had to. I have to go now, brother."
"Johnny, no!"
"Don't end up like me, don't walk down this path."
"This is not real, none of this Illuminati bullshit is real."
"Never forget Heath Ledger."
One of the Agents slaps Johnny's face. I cry out in anger. They grab him by the elbows, and take him into a dark creepy portal, and they disappear. I collapse in grief and cry alone amongst the wildflowers for what feels like hours.

My wife and I are walking down the sidewalk in a generic Honolulu. She is remarking how my posture is improving, then laughs about how her abusive ex-boyfriend would hunch over and look like Gollum. We turn into a local drugstore, Longs, and there he is in a space between a cashier's counter, and a rack of stuff. He is hunched over looking very Gollum-ish. I want to walk past him to get to where I am going. I consider turning around, but said in my head, "Fuck it. If he fucks with me, I'll just kick his ass."
He sees us and makes a "oh-it's-you-two-assholes", kind of a face. As I get closer, he sticks his leg out as if to trip me. I simply stop walking and look at him. He lunges at me, a kind of tackle/grab attack, and I engage tai chi. I block and sidestep, grabbing his arm and shoulder, redirecting his energy into the cashier's counter. He hits his head on the counter, and stands up, shaking it off. He charges me, and I allow him to run smack into a rack of hairbrushes. He grunts in frustration and, turns to me again. He tries to weakly kick me. I see it coming from miles away. Perceiving the weakness of the kick, I simply stand there and do nothing. When the kick lands, I chuckle in mild amusement.
He grunts again, then kind of screams and lunges at me again. I again engage tai chi, and let him do a chin plant on the floor. Now that the onlookers have seen I am not the attacker, I decide it's time for me to reciprocate attacking. Time for some fucking Hawaiian street fighting. I leap upon his back with a primal growl as he stands up like a savage beast, and triangle choke him, wrapping my legs around his torso to weigh him down. He stumbles forward, and makes it out of the drugstore, then collapses on the sidewalk in front of the store, trying to get me off of his back. He is on his hands and knees know, coughing and sputtering. I alter position, sitting upon his lower back, and choking him with my hands from behind.
"This is what you get, this is what you deserve motherfucker," I think without saying. I think my actions speak loud enough. I grin evilly, then awake with a smile on my face.

I was outside with about 15 other people. We were all standing in a large circle in a forest clearing. An ancient lady was leading us all through some kind of ceremony. She had dark skin, dark eyes, and she was pregnant and magical. She pulled me aside and told me that this next part was about rebirth. A hole in the earth appeared and she told me to get in it. She filled the hole with water and mud until only my head was sticking out (I have a fear of small spaces and being buried so it was a little tough at first). I felt something in the hole with me and I thought it was a woman. The ancient lady told me that this was part of it. I reached towards the sensation and pulled out small green snakes. They bit my fingers, but I wasn't too worried about it. I felt more snakes in there and I kept pulling them out and completely destroying some as I did. Once there were no snakes left, the ancient lady dropped some slugs in the mud hole. The mud levels began to fall until it was only up to my waist. I thought, ooh I'm okay with slugs, much better than snakes! But I also thought they were leeches for a minute. I picked them up but I don't remember removing them from the hole.

I looked to my left and there was another woman there but she wasn't like the ancient lady. She didn't look completely human either, I remember she was yellow and pink. She told me that she could see peoples' energy too and that it was real. She said that she could see me as well. She gave me a large, warm smile and i reciprocated as I sent her love. I woke up and my dad started talking to me, I tried moving the sheets with my mind and they flew up in the air. I went on another lucid adventure.