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I decided to start my DEILD alarm, after six months of using a single alarm and thus having one long uninterupted night of sleep my body needs to get used to the split up sleep shedule I'll use for LDing. This meant that I'm almost completely certain that last night I did't have any REM-cycles and also no dreams.

I woke up with zero DR so there's not much else to be said.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This was a HUGE dream. When I woke up, I just remembered the last half, and then slowly, bits of the first half came back. But I can't promise that I remembered everything.

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I was at my mom's house. I think I was in my bedroom first. My mom was doing some sort of renovation project, where she was removing a little "hallway" to my desk, and just making that whole wall even. She also added an extra, large window in my room. I could hear the workers still working on the outside of the walls outside. I remember being surprised once I walked into the room. I had an extra window! Awesome! More natural light!

The scene shifted. I was now out on the back porch. A lot of people were there, from my little brother's age to my age or older, whom I didn't know barely any. We were apparently having some sort of party. There was at least 40 people there, either on the back deck, in the living room, or in the basement.

I don't remember performing an RC. Well, I do remember the sensation, and seeing my hand clutch my nose, but I don't remember exactly when I did it. I was still on the back porch. Not completely and totally lucid, but I was somewhat aware. I remember I think someone was being rude to me. Some guy... I lifted my hands up, above my head, and "pushed" my hands back down like I was pushing some invisible force. As I was thinking of it, small droplets of rain began to drop around this guy. I looked up. The rain was only happening a little bit above his head, and no farther up. Like his own little rainstorm.

I turned to my left. I could see over the deck fence over to where a main road should be. About 10 people were around me. Suddenly, the sky got a darkish grey. Flashes of cloud-to-ground forked lightning happened several miles away, over and over. The first time, the lightning was a light purple. The next time, it flashed a bright yellow. Then, a bright red.. I remember hearing myself say, "Oooh, that's pretty..."

Suddenly, in the lightning's place, a huge tornado was forming. Too fast. It was already a cyclone. I could see it heading for the house. It had just overtaken a house that was about a quarter mile away. Forgetting that this was a dream entirely and that I should have just stood my ground, I ducked inside the house and hurtled myself towards the basement.

There were several people down here, but some I specifically remember were these two boys watching something on a small TV that was on the ground. I looked closer at what they were watching. It was some old black and white show.

I think my lucidity dipped here, but I regained most of it when I found myself in a small city that looked like a town over, but a lot less cars driving around. I remember standing partly on the asphalt road. I wasn't the only one walking. There were several people around that were walking, standing, or pushing carts.

I looked up to my left. I could see the road went up a large hill, and blocked everything on the other side. I decided to walk up the hill and see what I could see. First, though, I remember stomping the ground, to try to get some of my senses to fully function. I felt like I was on autopilot, though. I then dropped to the ground and felt the road beneath me. I think I tried to crawl, or I just layed on the road.

I finally went walking up the hill. I got to the top, and I could see a Walmart on my right. I thought I would walk in to see if I could find some candy.

Time moved forward. I was inside. I think I saw E in there, walking around. I remember walking down random aisles, mainly in the bottom left corner of Walmart, looking for candy. But all I was seeing was hardware, and fishing stuff, and other things. I was walking down another random aisle when I decided to stomp my feet again. The pressure of my feet hitting the floor kind of hurt; the force vibrated up my calves. I kneeled down to the floor again, but this time, only to examine it. However, while I was crouched there, I remember thinking how I felt like I wanted to "go to sleep" or like I was sleep deprived. I couldn't shake this feeling, no matter how alert I tried to make myself. I still felt like a zombie.

I walked forward a bit, reached my hand out to a lower shelf, and closed my eyes. I imagined to myself that my hand was about to touch a small box filled with something chocolatey. Sure enough, my fingers brushed against something. I opened my eyes. A small orange box of Reese's minis was lying there. I got excited. I picked them up, ripped the top open, and gorged myself. They weren't bad, but then again, I wasn't really focusing on the taste.. as I was trying to find what next to do.

Another dip happened in my lucidity and now I was in a small shop. J and her roommate were both standing beside me. We were all looking around at things. I remember seeing a stand close to the checkout counter that had decks of cards in it. I thought to myself, "I do need a deck of cards, I've never owned one before." But then I reasoned, "Hang on, this is a dream. I can't take this back (but I wish I could)." So I tore my eyes from the display and walked out the door with J and her roommate.

We were walking down the opposite way of the road I had been on much earlier. We came to a kind of deserted, graffitied building. Sam and my little brother were with me now. We all walked in, and found two guys in there, rolling on the floor or something.

They laughed and walked out. I realized that this was just a bathroom. The walls were also graffitied in here as well, and the main wall paint was black. I walked into one of the larger stalls and looked around. A small light bulb hung over everything.

We were back outside. We walked to a gravel/rock parking lot that was beside the building. I wanted to go somewhere else. I had never tried teleportation before, so I thought it would be cool to try.

Using expectation with the dream characters/people around me (Sam, my brother, J, and her friend), I remember looking around and grabbing a semi-smooth stone that was about half the size of my hand if I had made it into a fist.

"Guys, look.." I said. "This is a summoning rock."

I don't know why I called it that. I showed it to them. They were a little surprised by it and thought it was cool. I tried to etch something into the rock with my finger by expectation, so as to make it seem more.. "symbolic". I silently thought to myself that I could. The top of the rocks surface was then able to be chipped away like a half-baked cookie. I etched a small cross into the top of it with my fingernail.

I held it in my hand. I wasn't sure how we were all supposed to teleport there at once, but I decided that if I believed we could, then we could. I told everyone to get into a circle, and all hold hands. We all did. "I guess I put the summoning rock into my hand.." I muttered. "And hold yours.." I said to, I think it was, Sam.

Now, we were all linked. I closed my eyes and shouted, "To Hogwarts!" That was the first thing that came out of my mouth. I didn't even plan to go there, I just wanted to go somewhere.

We "appeared" in what looked like the Great Hall without any tables or chairs. I could see a much larger Hagrid standing beside a weak-looking Dumbledore like a guard. Dumbledore was seated in a throne-like chair. Hagrid was not happy to see us.

Then I woke up.

Note: At one point during this dream, I remember using the spell "Incendio" with just my hands, on someone. I didn't have a wand. This resulted in a small flamethrower-like fire coming out of my fingertips.

I haven't had any LDs or dreams that I could remember Night 5, though luckily I feel like I am finding it easier to fall asleep at my will through this process. I still cannot remember any dreams that I have had this past week, save for one I remembered Day 4 that I had Day 2 (this had to do with me walking the streets of NYC Houston Street and walking to a new school that may have taken place in my old one). My recollection of this dream is vague at best, at the time I did not at all realize it was a dream and even after waking up my mind failed to accept and remember that my experience was a dream. Tonight I am going to attempt to do WBTB and perhaps FILD or the technique that I previously posted but didn't go through with due to a technical malfunction. On my iPhone I have also downloaded a free app I believe is titled "Lucid Dreamer." It has a premium version that gives access to a "subliminator, reality checker, etc" and things of that nature. The subliminator is the one I find the most interesting. When I press start with the subliminator suggested, it shows a quick slideshow of short phrases and words such as "You are dreaming," "You can do it," "reality check," "control," and other places/lanscapes such as "Jungle" or "Forest." I stared at it for around 5 minutes throughout my day, and I question the validity of it. I will write an update tomorrow about my experience with dreaming tonight.

Night of July 20, 2015 Monday.



I meet the “mystery girl”, the life-long “dream girl” at an apartment building (where her half-brother is living at the time) - the building with the same name as my middle name near a road with the same name as my first name; neither name being very common and certainly not that popular with mainstream society. I walk up to her taking in the layout of the building on the second floor, the railing, her beautiful smile. “Now you know for sure. That I really care for you. Only the eye can tell you why”.

The dream girl came from a place called Heaven. She lived in an unlikely house with exterior walls missing, like a cutaway view of a house as I saw in my dreams as a child; a rainforest girl, born on Friday the Thirteenth. She was the flower girl in a Nimbin event. The Cowsills sing “I love the flower girl. Was she reality or just a dream to me?” She was across the ocean though I always could feel her and sometimes tried to make the journey in my dreams. “Nimbin” is an imaginary place, a classmate tells me.

“What time is it when the clock strikes thirteen?” it says on the back of a paperback book of ghost stories. “Time to get a new clock,” writes my sister on the cover in blue ink.

“Why did you…?” I start to say to the “mystery girl”. Why did she copy the drawing of the only other person I suspected might actually exist on this planet in a way that brought on the blue light. She looked over my right shoulder on my desk in her moment of lucidity, the drawing of which she mentally took back with her to copy so that I knew something was going on when she sent it to me years later upon discovering she was real. The dream girl and the “other” (the one who originally drew the image) both had similar first names (Susan and Zsuzsanna/Suzi) and their last names; both seven letters, and vowels and consonants in the same sequence, probably not that important in the scheme of things

“I’ve got the key, I’ve got the secret,” sing the Urban Cookie Collective. “Come with me see a brand new day”, Yothu Yindi sing. Meeting my partner is the biggest joy ever, especially seeing her as the most beautiful girl on the planet since early childhood…Roma Hungarian (gypsy) but with an intriguing and unique Roma-Australian accent.

I mishear “you see that cycad palm” as “you see that psychic come”. When I learn of the real lyrics, I smile inwardly. It is a good thing. “Psychics” cannot exist because the Source will have none of it. The Source cannot be controlled, named, poked, or prodded. You might as well try to control how your food digests, molecule by molecule.

I look at her in the mirror (as if I was looking at my own reflection) just prior to her contact. “…and if it sounds a bit upside-down, it’s from down under…” The cassette is my first treasure from her.

My bride is the only voice I could ever hear more deeply inside of me (and it turns out that she was the one that told me things as I was growing up - such as the package of books in the mail that had been split open and left on a desk downstairs from my apartment before I got to my boarding house and their exact arrangement in an impossible visual “memory” - yet this was also somehow like a feminine memory and her voice at the same time), the only one who can bring the blue light within me, it seems. The only other one who seems to exist with me.

“Blue flame!” shouts my brother-in-law looking at me as if for the first time and twists his head around in his arm chair, almost straining his neck, to see if other people are looking my way. He says he sees “blue fire burning” around my head and shoulders. A few minutes later, he is himself again, short-term amnesia taking root as it always does with “normal” people.

I look upon the face of my “imaginary girl” and her visage is of the same beauty as before we met. The same unique voice and accent - since April 9th, 1994, the 99th day of that year.

Have others, somewhere at some point in human history, lived as I have…or even understood as I have, the makings of their own place in the universe, and where every little pattern and idea that exists seems to be specially designed for the self as some sort of clue or hint? There are no records of such that I know of. Skepticism. Anger. Jealousy. Short-term amnesia. Nervous doubt. Fear of the unknown. This is what makes people human. I have to remember that others are like chicks in eggs. I have to remember that even as a young child, adults were like chicks in eggs to me. Everything I saw around me was ridiculously deceitful but unable to sway what I knew. All those frustrated people of my past watch me walk away.

The whole world was coming to an end. Every body around me was panicking and was quickly rushing out the exit freeways to escape the city. The city, one next to a mountain and the freeway, was filled with a wide open space of something I didn't bother to look at. I never looked at it. I just sort of assumed it was filled with tons of people and parked cards with people running all over the face. Moreover, there was a boundary that separated that side of land and the side I was standing on. I didn't cross it, so I just went ahead on with the nearing extinction of human civilization.

Before I knew it, I now appeared inside a absurdly crowded jungle filled with what seemed to be an amusement park. I through a quiet building trying to see what I can scavenge to survive longer. Eventually, I found a room that was filled with fearful people, some of which I knew. From what I could tell, most of them didn't know how to survive. I noticed one of them sitting in one of the chairs near one of the exits and until I walked up past them, I realized that it was Jen, or Quynh - whatever.

I didn't want to stay with these weak ones and become fearful my whole life. I wanted to go out and and see what I else I could find. I walked back towards the empty exit doorway and walked back in to the jungle. After making it to the river, out of one of the buildings across from me, I see a huge baldly shaped man charging at me with eyes of danger. To my surprise I didn't know what to do. I didn't think it would hurt me. The rest was just a blur.

I do remember what happened after. Me and a few other people were inside a red car. The person driving, which I assumed to be a stranger, was driving out in the desert with the intention to kill the man who screwed his wife on a video I saw on the internet(that video was on my mind for a while). When we finally went past his place, he drove past his place and started firing at the wife screwer. Then he fights back. I had my head ducked down to prevent from being shot. I heard shots fired near the door. The driver finally got a hit on him, shot and killed him. I became relived.

We made a inspection stop on our way on to a tall bridge surrounded by cops and mountains. We slowly reeled in next to what looked like a prison. The cops were stopping us and told us to get out of the car. That's when I realized that I forgot to take the revolving gun out of the car before we came here. Fortunately, the cop didn't care. He saw the gun and didn't arrest me. However, that wasn't it. There was an attractive looking game center right by the inspect location. Me and the others walked inside to see what we could find. They went along and in to the inner circle of fun while I stayed on the outer side where I spent thinking over my thoughts. The room was lit up by red ceiling lights and multicolored entrance lights. I walked around to see where I could think but I didn't find anything.

As the dream was finally starting to come to an end, I became confronted by some evil spirit. It was testing me to see whether or not I am fearful of it. I challenged it by teleporting myself through a series of mind-blogging events that led me in the back yard of my home. I was alone. I ran up to the evil spirit and enraged all of hatred I had for it and released it in to a show of fireworks. What seemed to be an unknown figure was Darth Maul. He wasn't the only evil being, though. I too became one of the evil ones. He didn't like me though. I pulled out a double edged lightsaber, like him, and started waving it at him and his defenses. He had more skill, which caused my lightsaber to split in to 2. I continued fighting and then lost when I threw both of my lightsabers at him and then was attacked by the piercing force of his own saber. I felt the pain. I imagined my body not splitting in to pieces, and it worked. However, when I grabbed a hold of my saber, I through it at him which turned him in to little pieces.

I then rushed back to the game center using the teleporter and left the dream because of the burning mark Maul left on me.

- Eating chocolates with C in the bedroom (Cadbury eggs, yum!) when I look down at a half-eaten one and notice it has this disgusting thing in it:



These are parasites that normally get inside fish and eat, then take the place of, their tongues. They then proceed to steal all of the fish's food as it eats it. So, I freak out majorly and cry etc. I end up saying to C's brother that I'm just gonna have to wait 'til a lump forms in my tongue, then go get it taken out.

- Helping a young teen girl with long, straight blonde hair get out of an abusive family situation; dragging her around town trying to find a safe place, feeling like we're being hunted/followed; go to my old house in town where there are other people living now, take her in and lock us in a room; feels like we're safe, but the owners of the house come home I guess and we have to leave. Later on, girl is gone and I'm frantically searching for her and some other people we were with for a second (Lu, Z & C I think). They'd been parked along the road, waiting for me. It's night and I can't find them. It seems like they had to drive off for some reason, like the bad people came or whatever. I keep looking in dark vehicles, hoping they're hiding in one. Most of them are empty at first, then I start finding scary dark shadow people that I don't know. I get really freaked out and become sort of lucid. I just know that if I fly to the moon I can get out of this reality somehow. So I take off and zoom as fast as I can towards the moon. The going is a little slow due to fear. I top a hill covered in buildings and find myself looking at a big lake with hills far across on the other side. The moon isn't reflected in the water, but its light shines off the surface all over. I'm still trying to get to the moon but I start sinking towards the deep dark water. This scares me, but I'm so tired of being scared that I just say "fuck it" and let myself follow the curve of the dream. This decision actually raises my lucidity to normal levels. I end up deep down in some flooded underwater facility. Alarms and lights are going off and some of the crew is still trying to get things to work. It feels very space-like and reminds me of "The Abyss" except everything is completely flooded and we're all swimming around inside. Things go even more wrong and I want to get out of the situation even more. Suddenly C is with me, helping me calm down and guiding me to the "edge". I feel like the dream has an edge and when I pop out of it I'll wake up. We reach a weird corner that seems superimposed over everything else and we start to push against it, side by side with arms locked together. It's difficult, but I draw strength from C and we both persevere. Slowly the stuff starts to bend outward and our heads start to go through. C starts yelling like there's a really weird sensation, then I notice it. My head feels HOT and very tingly and I "see" pink and purple sparkles on the other side, a little like the static on an old, inactive TV. I can see a cross-section of my own head where it has entered the other side and it is much darker purple than what's around it. I get scared because it feels like there is intense pressure on my head, but I remain determined, let go of C's arm, and dive through the rest of the way. I feel almost like a baby falling out of a mother with the last push, but I also feel like I'm ENTERING a womb-like space. Once totally across, I assume the fetal position. Almost immediately I sit up in bed and all seems normal. My bed is in a different position now, but I don't notice. I decide to RC anyway and surprisingly to me I'm lucid! I wonder what to do, not caring about tasks, and decide to have some adult fun. I stand up and walk out of my room calling for D. I have a short moment of doubt about whether or not he will appear, but I dismiss it. I turn the corner into a small dining room that normally doesn't exist, and there he is, sitting and eating at the table wearing nothing but white boxers with red hearts on them. I interact with him verbally (no recall) and he gets up to come into the other room with me. His form seems weirdly insubstantial though, so I just walk away by myself. I encounter some people already having sex in my bedroom, so I decide to just watch. The guy is facing me while the girl is not and he keeps noticing me and being weirded out. I mutter some things like, "I'm not here, you don't see me," and wave my hands over my face and he stops paying attention. I end up getting involved then waking up.

I was swimming in the ocean and kept going until i saw a boy was told he was going too far. That's when someone who was older and behind him held him so he could move forward to collect a necklace or something like that. (He had a swimming thing so he could breathe under water too)However, a metal gate was in the ocean so no one could move onward. I felt good about this since i became the character that was being a bit too curious. The person carrying me swam back and we ended up on land.However, when i was hoping he would be a interesting DC suddenly he got on a roof and jumped down. He fell slowly and acted like he died when he touched the ground. I was like "'Get up! I'm not that bad to be with! Come on!"

He slowly faded so i went to a bedroom where i saw a kid playing the Wii U. Super smash bros game. He looked into it and for some reason i had the urge to go on the computer. While i was on it i told him i was having a lucid dream and that he was in the dream. I even told him that he should look at the computer when i wanted to show him how to get on dream version of dream views. He said he didn't know English that well though. I decided I would leave him alone. I left but ended up getting up from a bed in my old room. When the lights came on there was a guy singing to a girl on another bed. I decided to leave them alone and went upstairs.

There the house looked somewhat different but you could tell it was morning. I saw a man who looked tan with brown hair, wearing a white long cloak coat like get up there. At first i didn't say hi but when i saw my family hanging around than looked at the cemetery out the window with people looking at it i decided to say hello. He said hi to me and gave me a smile that said "I'm gonna be nice and smile but there's something i'm concerned about." After that i asked the ones in my living room why there was a cemetery outside my house. Than a dream character came from behind me and pushed me outside. We were walking and as i saw the little stones but decorated cemetery sitting on a little mountainous area but still in the country i asked what the dream and the cemetery represented.

The character sounded like a woman i think though. She said it represented my fear and sadness and that thats what people were looking at. Than she took her hand and rotated her hand around my chest like she was rubbing it in the air. I felt the pain that i felt when i get really depressed and sad. Than it faded and I understood what it meant. After that i woke up though.

Iguess i was thinking about my problem again without realizing i was and the dream was just signaling that.

I was in my home. My younger sister was working on her laptop. I was bored, so I took three bags out of a drawer and prepared for going to a forest, where I could collect bugs. Mother saw me, and asked where I'm going. I said "I'm bored, so I'm going to collect bugs for entomology project.

#451 - DILD - 7:15AM

Some goons are chasing because I have an item that is valuable to them. Two come at me and to shoot them both with pistol. I feel like this is a video game and I become lucid. I run through many doors and various rooms for quite a long time. I eventually come to a larger room and meet one of the bad guys head on. Knowing this is a dream an nothing can hurt me, I bum rush the man and put my gun to his temple. I am disappointed by the lack of sound and only see sparks spurting out the other side. Perhaps they are robots? I let this thought go as collect my thoughts as I dismiss whatever story line I was involved in. I realize that I had some goals in mind, but I can't seem to recall them. The effort of thinking on this causes the dream to collapse. I rub my hands to stabilize, but it is of no use.


7:25

I lay awake for a while and think of some cool lucid dream goals. Staring at a ceiling fan and trying to walk up a rainbow. Perhaps one night I'll give it a go.

#452 - DEILD - 7:46AM

I fall into a non lucid dream of being a rapper on stage. I spout some freestyle nonsense and end up sounding a lot like Emenim. I wake up slightly and start to rub my hands with my dream body. I am surprised how vivid it feels so I get up out of bed. I am blind, but I remember that I put on my sleep mask to block out the day light. I try looking through the mask and find that I can partially see the room. This only works for awhile as I make my way outside. I very much feel the mask on my face, but never think to take it off in the dream. I am blind outside and the dream quickly collapses and I wake up.
Or so I thought. It turns out to be a false awakening and I spend a lot of time trying to record my dream in my DJ without much success. I eventually wake up.

I was Trying to get a item (i dont remember what) and these monsters from a horror game ive played, they tried to kill me but i wasnt scared.
i began running as fast as i could and i remember that i double jumped like in videogames.
i ran down some stairs and entered a bright snack store.
(this snack store is very close to my house and i always go there on fridays)
but something didnt seem to fit in.
i started wondering if there was a fridge in the middle of the store last time i was here.
and i realised that im dreaming, i started thinking "dont think of something scary or i might end up in an nightmare"
so i accidentally thought of something scary(it was some kind of dark room with minimal lightning.
the floor collapsed and i fell down on a chair.
a scary looking girl dressed in white approached me closely and i said you're not real.
i'd feel stressed and started laughing without reason.
i began to look at the wall and try to move it, and after some tries it did!
the wall was now a portal to a tropical forest and the girl in the room looked alot prettier.
(i love to have a dream girlfriend because things are less complicated here haha )
i grabbed her hand and jumped down.
we fell to the ground after jumping from the room and everything looked much bigger, like the size of the forest growed alot.
we began to run and explore the forest together and the last thing i remember is that we were sitting on a leaf and eating from a giant taco.

I changed night to day stabilized the dream handrubbing
I went to a concert and train station there was people with guns aswell

It seems that we've made quite a leap last night regarding DR, in the end I was able to note down a total of 6 dreams!
This means that my DR, if it remains stable with atleast 4 dreams a night we can soon start practising some induction techniques, I never really thought it to be very effective to try and have LDs right away when you don't have sufficient DR yet.

1. The exam

I'm in my old schools canteen with most of the other students in their last year, it's exam which isn't that uncommon to take place in the canteen. However this isn't a normal exam from the school itself, it is the entrance exam I talked about in my 'welcome back' post. Once it's over I meet up outside infront of the canteen with some of my classmates who talk about how difficult it was but somehow I already know my results and I've passed. Then it starts raining and I walk home with a girl I know from school but don't really have (had) any interaction with.

2. Secret factory

I'm aproaching an Industrial looking building which turns out to be a garage or factory of some sorts, there's a lot of workmen around and I know this area is actually restricted for me but for some reason I have to be there for something important, you could say I'm some sort of spy.
In the beginning I don't actually try to sneak around I just walk through a large open room where men are working and nobody seems to notice me, then again I just look like any other person so I'm not too worried about them getting suspicious yet. Then the dream jumps forward and I'm sneaking around avoiding to be seen by anyone. I think I'm eventually cornered which causes the dream to go blury and skip to the next one.

3. Lost at sea

I'm in a rowing boat in the middle of the ocean, in the boat itself are besides me a few wooden boxes and a paddle which I use to navigate.
It doesn't take long before it starts raining, at first I'm not too worried about it and just sea the ocean surface rippling from the rain but then I notice my boat is filling up with water from said rain. I try to scoop it out using a muck that floated around in the boat itself but it's too late and the front of the boat starts to lower under the ocean level and the whole thing just sinks. I panick for a bit and jump out and somehow quickly turn the thing around which makes all the water fall out and I'm good again!

4. NOT Interstellar

I'm watching some kind of film which seems very similar to IRL Interstellar, only the space ship is much smaller and there are 6 crew members instead of 4. And the main protagonist is a woman instead of Matthew McConaughey. The space ship falls into a wormhole but the whole experience and special effects are not nearly as good as in the real film, it all feels a bit dull and low budget.

5. Contraband

I'm working with two dudes who drive a truck and they want to smuggle two small packages, the packages are not heavy and quite small, about the size and mass of the average cat. We try to hide them on the most stupid places, like on the roof of the truck or the side almost in plain sight. The duane quickly spots it every time but gives us some sort of second chance with a small warning and we try again. Then one of the packages is placed on top of the cabin which for some reason is a bad spot and I have to take it off there while we're driving. So I'm Climbing along the side of the truck which is shaking violently back and forward and nearly fall off, then I manage to place my food just above the wheel when suddenly the dream ends.

6. The dive

I'm with my family driving somewhere in Brazil on a road that runs along the shore line on an extremely high cliff, it's at the very least a 100 meter drop straight down to the water. After some time when we make a curve I climb on the roof of the car and jump into the depth, just like that!
After a while I splash down just next to a tiny Island that has palm trees on it, I swim towards it but I'm picked up by a police boat and taken to prison.
There I somehow know that I'm facing a 6 month sentence and my family comes and visits me with cake.

The first thing I was able to see is two police officers in a SVU show talking. I must have been in third person point of view as I became in 1st person shortly after. My brother and I were seeing this cop show playing and we realize it had started from the beginning. So I told my brother I would fast forward the clips as there were some scenes I didn't care to see. The remote controller was refusing to work properly, instead of fast forwarding it simply pause. Not too long after I have an FA and during this transition I began to realize that I had been dreaming all along.

That's when the transition had end and I awoken to find myself in the bed. I was in my father room and could tell a few things were different how it usually look. Outside was dim but when it shine through the window it made it darker than usual. I figure I must still be dreaming. There was a mirror all the way at the end of the bed. I can see an apple underneath my mouth near the top of my neck. I get off the bed, my dream memories told me that I had fallen asleep with this and apple and now it has become apart of me.

With some effort I manage to pull the apple out. I rather eat apples not wear them. I then toss it on the carpet and found my way back to the bed. I notice that one of the covers I usually sleep in was missing. Suddenly I wake up. Lucidity Time: 52 seconds

I never Lucid Dreaming before, I heard people saying the they could fly and control their dreams sometimes, and I was never able to do any of that. So here goes nothing!

Read a little bit about the "Starter Tips" and tried to recite the mantra before sleeping, also did a quick reality check by counting my fingers and trying to touch the palm of the hand with my thumb. Thing is, I remember dreaming that I was walking in the street near home that I always walk by when I go to work! And in the dream I did the same RC and nothing out of the ordinary happened! Haha I counted my fingers to 10 and couldn't "pierce" my hand using my other thumb... so in the dream I didn't know I was dreaming and only realized that after waking up! Weird huh?

+ need to play in concert, and read a text as well, I'm wondering how I'll do both on stage at the same time. I ask conductor (MSK) when rehersals will be, he says "soon enough"

+ playing music lying on back on ground, the music is a syncopated 8th note rhythm: "DUT dut DUT DUT dut DUT dut" repeated, looking up at white ceiling (in bathroom?), some ceiling spots are dirty with a black spotted mildew-looking pattern, wipe black spotted dirt off, some guy concerned about (gremlins?) underneath us, I twist and turn trying to see what is underneath me and have trouble turning very much

+(f) practicing martial arts in a class, can't kick/land, I'm off balance

+ circular bar, sitting around it with a group, a DV friend forwarded email to forums containing my real name in the headers without removing it, revealing my identify, I'm very upset, and I keep thinking about this for a long time.

Outside in a large open area, I've done something good for a woman, she offers me a choice as a reward of <something> or a BJ. I hmm and haw and go back and forth "I guess a BJ would be pretty cool" but I'm not really into it seriously. We're standing outside and I'm embarassed. We're standing up against something (large chair, small fence?).

Spoiler for explicit sexual activity:

She opens my trousers and starts slurping on my schlong, which is flaccid, I feel it and it's good but I'm just not into it. She's doing it for a while and I'm still not getting hard, and I'm thinking of a way to politely stop her without hurting her feelings "Oh this just happens sometimes."

+ dark, outside, aggressive/angry man throwing rocks at me, I confront him, he's angry and approaches me threateningly, he seems to have an endless supply of small/medium sized rocks in pockets in his pants, he keeps throwing, I back off, frightened, I'm blocking with my hands, I feel the rocks smacking off of my palms, then 3-4 fireman coming from a building to the left, see the situation, rush the guy and tackle him hard to the ground, I'm happy, and make some positive comment about union workers.

+ epic: The Diva:

I arrive at a large building, outside, (there are young hipsters on stairs leading in to the building?), inside, in a row of seats, I sit next to the lovely "Diva", we make out sensuously and I rub my groin up against her leg and feel my self getting hard and think she notices it too.

I notice to the left and above us, 3-4 of my high school buddies (looking like they did in HS) have arrived, I particularly clearly see N and DD. I explain that DD was my best friend in Jr High because one year we had every single class together, from first period through 9th period. I say this a few times and a random DC sitting nearby is amazed.

I'm flying through the theater which is a large open area with tall columns, I will myself to fly faster and faster, swerving around.

I'm in a (hotel room?) with (the Diva and some others/) in bed, closely examining delicate, intricate small carvings from a white-ish ivory-like material. I run my fingers over the one I'm holding, amazed at the detail, say "it's like ivory." One of them is like a fish or bird with intricately carved miniature scales/feathers. There are a lot of little protuberances on the objects.

I'm walking outside the theater, look into a room and see a group of people seated around a table. I think this must be the Diva's/theater's staff meeting. I see a few women I "recognize" and try to catch their eye and nod in recognition to them.

Inside (the meeting room?), the diva's public relations staff is there, they say that I'm the Diva's official 3rd choice (of lover/man) (this is still a great honor). Such candidates must sign an extensive contract, I see large numbers like "4,000,000" there are many words, the contract places really egregious restrictions on the man. I don't want to sign. I see another man holding and reading the contract, he is trying to heavily modify it to be more in his favor, I think if he can do that so should I.

They're telling this man one of the conditions is to wear a small wireless network dongle and to tell them all of the websites you visit, then this device will capture all the contents of these web sites. I do not want to have to do this.

I decide this is a bad deal for me, and I want to leave without being noticed. While the public relation agents are busy with another guy, I sneak off to the end of the room and around the corner. I need to quickly put on my shoes and my socks, but my socks have been modified and I can't fit them on my feet, they've woven extra threads which block the main hole of the sock, I pull hard and break through these threads. There is another strange (bra-like?) plastic device attached to the socks.

I make a break for it out the room and down the hall to the stairway. At the stairwell some people are in my way preventing my progress. I make my way around to the top of the stairs but I think I'm out of time: someone's coming from the room. I see a (piano? narrow desk?) with barely enough room to fit under, I get down in there, it's a poor hiding place, if anyone's seriously looking for me they'll find me, but maybe if they go the other way they won't see me. I see the legs of someone approaching on a (scooter? Segway?), they stop and face me, I know they've spotted me.

(wake up? Think about the dream, and re-enter picking up where I left off?)
The Diva(? or a small girl?)) flies out of the building in a candy airplane (racing other girls in candy vehicles?) through a dangerous amusement park of her mother's creation.
Some of the attractions has her breaking through weak barriers. The girl says this is the first time she's done this. Her mother told her that (it's possible to get hurt?)