dream fragment

9/6/2013, 10:10-6:25

Regular Dream Lucid Dream Awake

I went to sleep after meditating, repeating the mantras, "I remember that I'm dreaming when I'm dreaming," and, "I remember my dreams when I wake up." During meditation, I repeated those mantras, too. I took a drink of water, went to the bathroom, and went to bed with the air conditioner on.

Dream 1:

I remember a Sith base, and people running around it. I was watching from the ceiling, but it was really a camera dream, without me being in an actual body. I watched as the base was apparently under attack.

I woke at 3:21 (with a reality check of course). My dog seemed to need to go outside, so I went out with him. It was cold out there. As he took a piss, I looked up at the stars, and tried to sort out any constellations I could find. None. I then got back inside, drank some more water, took another piss, and went back to bed at 3:26. I couldn't really sleep because I was thinking of too much about my dream from last night AND my dog was barking a lot. I eventually got frustrated and put him in my neighboring room, where my grandma was sleeping. I eventually got back to sleep.

Dream 2:

I remember playing Empire: Total War. That is all.

Dream 3:

This one was a false awakening. I went out of my room and started reading a book on the living room couch. Then I started noticing that the house was vibrating! I went downstairs into the basement and noticed that the house wasn't completely on the ground. It was lifted up slightly by a piece of wood. "That must explained the vibrations," I thought to myself. I probably thought the boiler was making the house vibrate, combined with the house lifted up slightly. (In real life, it probably was the train passing.)

I eventually noticed the illogical sense behind this, and turned lucid. A sudden rush of energy and vibrations came over me. I heard a sound similar to a helicopter starting up as I turned lucid, too. I suddenly imagined the TARDIS (probably as a reality check). I suddenly saw the TARDIS levitating off the ground, and me, as a camera, rotating around it as I lifted off the ground. I then tried to do something else, but I "pressed the wrong button", and accidentally opened my real eyes. I woke up to the sound of my dog barking again.

I saw a jeep, and flags surrounding us. Some city. The jeep has a silver horse statue on the front standing on its two hind legs and two front legs are kicking.

Was playing some video game coop with someone, some mechanic place and we were discussing teamwork stuff.

Last night's dream was a strange one, although it is mostly fragments, my most vivid memory occurs in a basement; or a room which looks like one. There was somebody, perhaps me or a girl(?), who was tripping on morning glory seeds. What was truly bizarre was the discussion we were having. which involved the gorging of eyeballs from their sockets, whilst hallucinating on LSA. I saw the individual with just their bare sockets exposed walking around in an almost zombie-like manner. At the same time, the dream character had eyeballs in their appropriate compartments. Now, this contradiction is chalked up to being a dream fragment but nonetheless, perplexed me to no end.

The lights in my IRL home won't turn on. None of them will, and I think of the darkness as a danger, which makes me wonder if this is a nightmare. I start to head down the stairs, by floating, head first. Yes, this is definitely a dream. I start to do my light-of-Apollo anti-nightmare trick, which after 2 uses appears to be my go-to way of avoiding nightmares now, but then it occurs to me that while I'm here, I could enjoy some lucid dreaming instead. I decide that there is no ceiling, so that when I look up, I'll see the night sky and be able to float up into it - and then I turn over and am pleased to see that this is so. After I've floated up into the stars, I look down to the house again to put the roof back on, and then, as if it was just a task I'd briefly delayed and had to get to now, I start up the anti-nightmare trick, and wake myself up in the process.

(5:08 am, just half an hour after bed. As I was trying to get back to sleep, it occurred to me - this has happened a few times now, nightmares with this timing and on the theme of darkness - I'm starting to suspect this is the result of trying to sleep before dawn. Possibly on some level I'm aware that it's much darker than when I usually sleep, and my dream interprets that as something wrong. Reliable way of getting lucid, though, so that's not really a problem. Back to sleep.)

Fragment: "Ancient papers, and an age a fraction of that."

I'm discussing an upcoming ball with a young woman I'm acquainted with, leaning against her desk while she goes over the invitation, pointing out the bit where they encourage everyone to dress colorfully, and she, thinking herself quite clever and looking for me to praise her, tells me about the black outfit she's planning, so that she'll stand out in a sea of bright colors, and she asks what I think. I tell her I expect that's exactly what the people throwing the ball are planning themselves, so perhaps take that into account. She reconsiders, and asks what I'll be going with, as she can't picture me in anything but black. I say not at all, my basilisk coat is blue, isn't it? - it's entirely black except for the basilisk design but that's enough, and I think about the feel of that dark blue color, the warmth of that creature's image on my back. As I think about that coat I either am or am referencing The Etched City's Gwynn.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

OUAT's Belle is binding Rumpelstiltskin in a contract without realizing it. She was speaking in metaphors and he's got to abide by them literally. While the two of them were attempting to patch things up between them after a fight, she asked him to pretend she's the mistress and he the servant in their deal. He, sitting on the side of her bed, is thinking that they've done this before, thinking of a particular scene in which Julia was a princess and I was her servant, and how utterly beyond my reach she'd been then. (A scene from a dream I had years ago, accurately remembered as far as it goes, though he left out the unflattering parts.) He's been silent too long, and when Belle says something, he jumps up and makes a game out of it, addressing her as milady, going to her window and throwing the curtains open, asking what she'd like for her meal. And although she didn't at all mean that he should literally treat her as his mistress, only that she wanted him to think about things from her perspective for a moment, she's not surprised by the game and she takes it as a sign that all's well between them again, so she gets up to make breakfast herself.

As she leaves the room, she finds a strange object in a corner of the hall - a statue of a unicorn that she hadn't noticed before, with what looks like a real horn. She knows Rumpelstiltskin's been after such horns, so she's wondering why he leaves one just lying around here - unless this is what he makes out of them. She thinks it's odd, and goes on about her chores, when she finds another one, smaller, in a window sill. She knows that wasn't there before, and she calls to Rumpelstiltskin, and turns to see that he's already found the first one, and is looking at it with obvious displeasure. This is something that shouldn't be in the castle.

(Woke up. That last one was almost certainly influenced by watching Legend the other day.)

Sept 5, 2013

I was with JAG in Bacolod, in the shopping area. I was looking at a tall building. Brewery? A van has it's logo.

This dream is incredibly long so I'm only going to type up the lucid part.

I was walking through a dark field with black dirt and dark grey brown twisted trees with occasional rundown stone buildings when I realized I was dreaming and went lucid. I suddenly decided that instead of doing anything with super powers, I wanted to...well... So using lucid means I made a guy appear from around a building and using even more lucid control, managed to get his and my pants off, because apparently this guy didn't want to do anything, but I only managed to get a few minuets of doggy style action before I woke up. I did not give up. I went back to sleep, trying as hard as I could to go in lucid, and It worked. I was in a dark run down building this time when I called the guy lucidly and repeated the same steps and got the same results. I woke up again at the same spot. I realized I must have been trying too hard and would try something different. I managed to go back to sleep a third time, this time I didn't really pay too much attention to my surroundings, but I think I was in the woods. I went into the dream lucid again and called up the guy a third time lucidly. This time I took things slower, using half lucid influence and the other half letting him do what he wanted. We only got to our cloths getting taken off, and before anything happened he said he wasn't in the mood and walked away. I probably gave him too much independence and not enough lucid control. I gave up and went along with where this dream wanted to take me.

This dream was very interesting. I won't go into details but the gist of it is my dream character was trying to find a husband and had to choose between four different guys. In the end, she ends up with no one and my dream does a 30 or so years later bit about how she sees the guys again and finds out how happy they are with their spouse and kids, and she is sad that she never found anyone for herself. Then she sees that one of the guys in on his death bed and visits him before I wake up to my alarm. Anyway, I can't believe I was able to go lucid in so many dreams in the same night progress.

I dreamed of my father. This is one of those dreams where you know - positively know - that there was a lot to it, but can only remember one stupid little detail. I remember dreaming of my dad. He was with me and my mom, and he was tired. We were at the top of a set of stairs, and he lay down right there, on the landing at the top, and went to sleep.

I think I dreamed of him because I wish I could talk to him. Whenever I was in trouble, or if I needed advice on something, dad was always the one I turned to. Lately, things at work have been tough, and his advice would have been of great use and a great comfort to me.

My partner pointed something else out to me. He said that perhaps I dreamed about him sleeping at the top of the stairs because, for the last few years of his life, he didn't sleep upstairs in his bed. He wasn't very well; he couldn't breathe very easily, and going upstairs made him too breathless and lying down was worse. So he slept downstairs in his chair, or at the kitchen table.

I slept on the bus (I was there for 14 hours!), but there was a really stupid guy playing on his phone half the trip (with the sound on, because who cares if others are trying to sleep, right?) and by the time he fell asleep, I was too stressed out to get some good sleep.

Still, something interesting happened. I ended up falling asleep in the morning (around 7am) with my headphones on. The interesting part will be in red, and here's the whole dream...

I was walking and there was this huge place. Big enough to be a farm, but it wasn't totally open, some parts were undergroung, like a bunker. For some reason, I kept walking, I don't know if I was going somewhere, if I was lost or if I was looking for something/someone.

Then I ran into a girl I went to school with. She told me that the place belonged to her and she had planned this huge party, but nobody had showed up. I hadn't been invited, but since she was crying, I decided to let it go and point out that I was there for the party!

That cheered her up a bit and she ended snuggling to me. Which was weird cause we were never close friends. But she WAS crying, so again, I just let it go. I remember patting her back, and it was super awkward.

I heard voices and turned around. Some people had arrived to the party. I jumped to my feet, pointed at them and shouted "LOOK IT'S PEOPLE" and stayed the hell away from the girl... we REALLY were not close at all, ever.

Some of the people there were from The Glee Project 2 and they randomly started singing "Eye Of The Tiger", with Aylin glaring at me during her lines. I knew she was just acting, though, so it was fun. I also joined in and sang Michael's lines, making fun of his singing. Abraham quietly told me that I should be careful, because Michael could get offended.

I heard someone mentioning that a guy from my old school had brought his sister, and I've always had this huge crush on her, so I ran there and hugged her, kinda tackled her, really.

I woke up. I could vividly remember the song and went back a song on my iPod. It WAS The Glee Project's "Eye Of The Tiger"!

I also had a dream about being on a river and canoeing. Can't remember more than that, though...

9/5/2013, 10:00-6:00

Drank water before and after waking up. Didn't wake up at all in the night, except at 5:18, and stayed up till 5:21. Didn't go to sleep after that, though. I had a few dreams, and a few dream fragments:

Dream 1:

I remember being with a girl from school. T was her name. We were talking and hanging out at school. She had to go, and she kissed me on the cheek. She then kissed me on the lips. It felt amazing; I felt her lips on mine, and "sparks" almost flew! I then either walked or teleported home. I then started picturing having sex with her (lulz). I then thought about her fat, and that I didn't really like fat girls. In real life, she's not even really chubby. Anyway that's the dream.

Dream 2:

I was running around my town. I kept thinking in my mind that I had to find a nuke somewhere, and that if I didn't find it in time, the world would blow up. I think there was a countdown, too. I don't remember anything about the countdown, but I kept having this "countdown" feeling.

Dream 3:

There was a villain in a place. I felt like this dream had to do with Star Wars, in the time of the Old Republic. The guy was part of the Sith, and wore a strange costume, kind of like a Mandalorian outfit, or Boba Fett's armor. Anyway, he was sitting in a throne, listening to one of his commanders. The commander was telling him about something. The Sith guy kept saying no about it. The commander then told the villain he should be more open-minded. The Sith guy said, "maybe I should." That's all I remember.

Dream 4:

Something about a boardwalk next to an ocean. Not even sure if this was a dream. I "remembered" it after I got up.

I also remember the songs "Holiday" by Green Day and "Bang a Gong" by T.Rex.

Don't remember much at all now, but there was a part where I was in the area between the outside front door and the inside front door at the middle school I used to go to, except the place was much bigger. Outside and inside there were many deer, mostly does. I warn people not to be rambunctious around them, especially the bucks, since even deer can be dangerous when threatened. At some point Spock was with me for a short time, but I'm not sure if it was then or some other time.

Later, I'm in a rain forest-type area, and smeagol is being very possessive of an oblong coconut, but I want the coconut, so I take it and convince him to instead focus on a large, oblong mango.

Sleeping schedule, where are you. First dream was fairly long.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was apparently at school and there was some kind of test going on about which i didn't cared. Then there was something about languages and the fact that i have used english everywhere, then i was talking to some people and there was something about some small red mech things. After that i was wandering around through some other rooms.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some multiplayer platformer with some people and we were going through some metallic place full of traps and fighting some robot things. We had jetpacks and at some point there was something about falling down invisible stairs.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was browsing some illustrated forum game and then joining it, there were three other players and we were entering some building owned by some organization and then our team had to split up a few times and three of us had to fight some humanoid robots and one of them was one of organization's leaders. The fights were done like in RtD and we had lots of potions.

Dream 4:

I was playing some game that was made around shmup creation and it was multiplayer. At first i was trying to figure out how to make stuff and there was some coding involved and i have created some simple boss fight. I've been looking through some other creations and fought some grey spaceship-style boss, and then later i joined someone and she decided to show me some other creation which apparently was 3D boss fight. It was kinda chase, spaceship-like playership vs tank-like boss, on the road. At first tank spammed waves of weak enemies in lines while i had to get close enough to be able to attack him, they died in one hid but there were hordes of them and they all flied parallel. Soon second phase started where tank attacked with aimed shots from his cannon and was speeding around trying to ram my ship, at which he almost succeeded at one point, but as i was shooting him the phase went down quickly. Third phase he fired his main cannon which was some kind of huge homing laser, but i point-blank'ed it after it fired and destroyed the phase in seconds.

I'm evacuating a place where True Blood's Eric and Bill had been staying; Bill's already gone, but Eric's chained to a chair, and I have no intention of freeing him. I'm going to carry him out in the chair. Despite this, I have nothing against him, and I'm asking him if he wants me to bring any of the belongings he's kept in these rooms. I'm kneeling in front of the chair as I speak to him, and I say that I may need him to carry something of Bill's in exchange, to which he consents. Aside from 2 belongings which needed no discussion, he says he doesn't need anything else. It seems a shame, the rooms are full of things he's collected over his lifetime. I pick up a sword he has on display with a hilt that looks like carved ivory or bone, and I say sure, you may not need anything else, but it's better if it can come, isn't it? I put it on the chair with him.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

Fragment: a mention of Louis, a king.

I've heard about a gathering of people I'm thinking of as 'the British' tonight - there's a connotation of a specific politically subversive group in my mind - and I intend to arrange a meeting with the queen, although I'm not as close to her in this reality as I have been in past iterations; I've spent too much time focusing on other contacts this time through. I sit down beside the queen at her mirror. Her daughter, Antoinette, is here as well, standing by the window; she's beautiful but spoiled, self-centered. That's largely my fault - in other versions of this reality I'd devoted more time to her and she'd developed into a very sweet girl. This time around, we're not particularly close, and she notes only that she owes her name to me. In French, I ask the queen her plans for this evening after the party. I don't speak to her in a particularly deferential manner. She seems wary, suspicious, but I think I have enough influence with her to pull this off.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

I need to kill a giant snake, but I can't find a weapon. Finally, a woman produces a long knife and beheads the snake herself. But I tell her that it's still alive, you need to destroy the brain, otherwise beheading it is just slow death by suffocation, it's cruel. I point to its eyes, which are still moving; I tell her it's suffering. She doesn't care. It's harmless now, that's all she cared about. I can't believe this. But I do my best to put it out of its misery without a weapon, until finally its eyes stop moving and its skull is crushed. I pick up head and body and carry them outside.

When I reach the door, the storyline changes - at first I was still aware I was carrying something and needed to get rid of it, but I forgot about it quickly and so the snake disappeared. I was distracted by the sight of colorful glowing orbs floating down the river, just through the trees. There's a festival going on all this week, and tonight is the children's celebration. I walk past the women handing out colored orbs for the children to light candles inside and carry down to the water, and as I walk I see a couple kids carrying their lights the wrong way, down to the sea instead of the launching place at the river. Some adults are trying to point them the right way, but the oldest kid says something about their father's ship out at sea.

I was pretty confused last night. When my WILD alarm went off, I could've sworn that I was already awake and that I hadn't slept at all. I shrugged it off and attemted a WILD/FILD, but I failed and ended up dreaming about spiders again. FML. I guess hordes of spiders is a new dream sign, lol.

I start school tomorrow. What does this mean for my lucid dreaming efforts? Now that I have an actual reason to get up in the morning, I'll be able to establish a regular sleeping schedule and better understand my sleeping patterns. This should make the whole process a hell of a lot easier.

Date: 2 Sept

Pre bed: lecithin

Suspicious early ld fragment: in a room, lucid and talking to a woman with orange hair.

Fragment: something about my mom and me getting up

Fragment: I am a goat and am looking for Angel Falls. I see a fountain and wonder if I could turn this into AF, but find it's not very convenient.

Fragment: Mom has invited relatives

Random fragment: I remember this strange large somewhat non-human human guy being interested in me, trying to keep me somewhere and romantic stuff going on.

LD: I am in the library part of a university building. They are talking about this dark-skinned guy who had 12 kids, but he is only sixteen. There must be some kind of mistake, I think you are referring to his father, this guy is one of the kids. I become lucid, decide to exist the building. There is still some scenario going in the background, some sort of event maybe. My lip gloss is on the floor and I do some TK on it. I want it to fly directly in my hand but it doesn't so I return it and try again until I am able to pull it properly and it lands in my hand. I go out. This is now a mix of buildings from my past. I shortly lose lucidity, looking for a quiet place to take a break. I then recall I have been TKing around and lucid so change direction. The dream starts to fade away and there's nothing I can do about it.

DEILD: I vaguely recall waking up and DEILDing, with the new scene appearing in front of me. Much like those from scratch lds or wilds, I need to hold on to it so that I can fully integrate.

The first thing that catches my attention is a glass full of water and I grasp it for stability. Almost immediately this DC of unpleasant person pain in the butt appears in front of me as well, she moves like a snake and sticks to me like a blanket. I have no interest in staying here so head for the window. Before I do I think I am going to score a few points so think telekinesis and look for something to move. There is a lipstick near the window so I make it fall. Alright.

This DC is still holding on to me and I take a few moments to consider the situation. I know she is a mirror of my thoughts and feelings but how could I not have them. I look at her face and admit I feel aversion. I try to become indifferent. Not sure if I succeed in doing so or my thoughts simply stop for a moment, but this DC unexpectedly lets go of me and drops to the ground remaining motion and expressionless. I realize that she is just an empty phantom projection. The dream fades.

LD: There is some stuff going on that I can no longer recall. I am thinking/doing something lucid initially, but then non-ld scenario distracts me for a bit. They tell me that this friend of mine had posted something on FB about a video! and my other friend also has something to do with it..I can't remember. I see brief images of my friends and the web. I am on something like a flat rooftop, talking to my friend. Awareness level gradually goes up. I know (more on a subcon that con level) that she is no longer with us so I decide to ask her if she is real. Aware that I might influence her answer, I try not to think about it, yet I know that I want her to confirm to me that she is real. I notice her hair, blonder than my expectations, some thoughts about that. Her features slowly change and she looks a bit different but I still treat her like my friend. I ask her a few more times if she is real, but get no answer. I look around a bit, notice some stuff I can't recall, the dream fades.

LD:In the void, I remember I was supposed to look for Xanous, so in spite of the constant feeling that I am about the wake up any moment, I decide I will do that. I concentrate and appear in a room full of people. Room full of people, I remind myself. It is really hard to remember all these dreams already. The room is quite unstable and I hurry forward, looking around to see if I can recognize him among the DCs, also shouting like crazy "Where is Xanous, tell me how to find him", but DCs don't care much. The shouting helps stabilize the dream though. I reach the end of the room or rooms and go outside and see some part of building construction. I don't like the atmosphere outside, it's also high and I don't feel like flying or exploring out there so decide to go back.

The moment I turn my back it looks like some section of a shopping mall, I see a fast food chain and a magazine shop. I am looking at the two from the outside and they are completely separated by a closed door and wall. I try to phase through some sort of glass and handrail barrier to get in the magazine shop, but it changes so I climb the thing and get into the fast food place instead. I go to the counter and order two burgers or something like that. I find it very amusing that I am doing this, they even give me two receipts. There is a typical McDonalds table and I decide I will phase through it, so accelerate towards it and bam! Nothing. I have the feeling that I was thinking at the back of my mind that it is hard object, so I guess that's why I didn't do it. Keep the eyes open thought comes to my mind. Ok, maybe I just look at it too much. I try again and turn the table over, but catch it midair, it is a long table now but the items on it didn't fall out. I feel weird doing a mess at this place and fix the table and stuff as DCs are staring at me.

Somewhat bored now and feeling a bit sexy (actually needed to pee) I decide I might as well have some fun with this DC and go into some sort of sales talk about it. The DC looks at me distressed. Suddenly, I feel very bad about the whole situation thinking "So, I am here, hopping from dream to dream and what do I do - terrorize DCs." I remain in the dream for just a bit more, staring at her and wondering about who she reminds me of as the dream finally fades.