dream fragment

Some dream fragments. There was a third one but I have such a faint and vague memory of it, not even sure where I'd start. I practically lost the other ones while getting up but made sure to keep my eyes closed as much as possible until I could write here, which helped.

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Dream Fragment:

I remember being at some sort of concrete structure. I'm not sure if I was "me" but a couple of other people were here too, I think one of them was that Torres guy from NCIS. This place was dark and there was a massive abyss right in front of us. Across this abyss was another flat area made of concrete and there were some soldiers there. They were holding us here or something and they shouted that we should stay put.

The soldiers got on a platform and it started moving down very fast. They disappeared from sight. Somewhere down there was some light, but it must have been a literal mile or more away. Then some more soldiers appeared but this time they didn't wait for the platform and just jumped down where the platform shaft area was. I was intrigued but at some point in the dream I simply "knew" that at the bottom was a special fluid that would break any fall, no matter from how high.

Torres like the idea of just jumping across and into that specific area. I felt it was too risky. It was a long way down and there was no way to aim ourselves properly and the gap between the two concrete areas was quite wide. But he got on some sort of pole hanging from our side and got closer to the other side, hanging just over the middle. Then some soldiers came back up on the platform and noticed. They started shouting at him and warning him to stop. He ignored them and now he grabbed onto some rope that was hanging from the ceiling. That's as much as I remember clearly for this fragment.

I do remember there were no light sources. We were very deep underground most certainly, but somehow we had a light radius of our own, like in RPGs where the characters just give off light...

Dream Fragment:

I don't remember how I got there but I arrived at a small lab/office place. This dream was somewhat vivid, more than the other one. There were two researchers, wearing labcoats, and one of them greeted me. He seemed a bit uninterested at first but then he saw my boots. They were covered in some sort of pale golden sand. I realised I hadn't noticed this myself until that moment and he became very interested. He went over to a counter and showed me some tins with rounded caps.

The caps were all a shade of gold or tan. He asked me to see which one I thought was closest. I selected four of the tins first just as a guess. Then I held them and made their coloured cap be over my right boot in my vision. The first wasn't it, too orange. The second and third one seemed similar, the fourth one was too dark but the right hue. I compared between the second and third against the sand and decided the third one was the closest. He seemed happy with this and I felt somewhat happy to help. I made a comment saying "well at least I can definitely tell that my skill at recognising shades correctly has improved". I genuinely felt this was true in that moment and realise now that it was indeed a very accurate test of my skill in this.

The other researcher was just doing something on his own over on another counter but I don't remember what. Oddly enough, despite looking at my feet, can't be certain what the floor was like. Some sort of plastic tiles? Maybe wood. But square shapes. The counters were an off white on the top and a light stained wood on the cabinets. There were a couple of windows to the outside and I made note of the fact that it was daytime outside, but the room was quite brightly lit anyway with some fluorescent lamps that actually gave off a warm colour for once.

This whole dream bit felt like it was in sequence of the previous one or another one between them.

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Side notes:

- It could possibly be the first time while dreaming where I had to use a skill that I'd use for painting in waking life. For me this is a particularly good sign because for a long time I've wanted that context to come over into dreams in some form.
- The researchers wearing labcoats were clearly dreamsigns that I missed. The labcoat is a dreamsign I successfully managed to insert into my dreams as a dreamsign a while back, I think last year or the year before.
- The dust on my boots reminded me very much of gold powder in the dream. In the dream I had a much clearer notion of where I had been previously, which was relevant for that context.
- Despite looking at my boots and remembering them very clearly as the black leather army-type boots I have in waking life, I only vaguely remember my trousers and can't really say which ones they were. It seems odd that my boots are the only detail I remember clearly from looking down, despite the fact that in the dream everything was the same level of vividness.
- I do remember I was wearing some sort of dark hoodie in that dream. I remember it because I remember the sensation of having the sleeves pulled up, something I often do if I'm indoors.
- Don't have much at all to make note of from the first dream since many details are vague now, but the fall-breaking fluid definitely made me think of stuff from Portal and from Satisfactory.

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7/2/2020
Went to bed at 2AMish.
Woke up at 8:30 with almost no recall. I wrote down 'food' which was way too vague I realize now.
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Dream 1:
The only thing I can remember is an image of a food container at work with a little bit of sausage at the bottom(This may just be a memory from last night when I was working). Also an image of someone else preparing food and a feeling of disappointment accompanying it.

Had a few dreams but only remembering a couple of fragments.

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Dream Fragment:

I was playing Dune 2000, doing some sort of special single-player mission. I was struggling a bit with the micromanagement because in this scenario the game started me out with three separate bases each on their own rock islands fairly far from each other, on the south-east side of the map. The map had very large expanses of sand (I could remember seeing a preview in a menu) but also had a lot of cliffs and ruins and old walls.

I remember some of the game's music playing a bit, but even though I remember the interface looking like Harkonnen, my units didn't all seem to match my faction. The enemy was managing to send some engineer units to capture some of my buildings and this was annoying me and something else had also gone wrong so I think I restarted the level. I went back to a menu where I could tweak something and I was tweaking some starting radar thing that allowed me to see further into the fog of war initially.

This second time became weirder, kind of fast too. My vision was more inside the actual game now and despite this being a top-down view game, I was able to somehow control the view and see everything in 3D. I was telling some units to patrol so engineers would stop taking my buildings but this was being wonky. I don't think the game even has a patrol function. Again I was struggling with the three separate bases issue. There were many units on the map and I could see stuff going on in the minimap this time. The game was spawning waves of Zerglings and other stuff from Starcraft I and they were ambushing some unit groups I'd sent out to try and make small attacks on the enemy.

Then some of my spice deposits were running out and more wasn't appearing fast enough. I was afraid the harvesters would be getting destroyed by the worms soon. Then all of a sudden, a bit north-northeast from my middle base some giant walker thing with fleshy tendrils and orange sort of growths on it was approaching and I think I let out a swear. I sent units to attack it because it looked like it had loads of health, and eventually they were managing to take it down. But now the game was spawning so many enemies at the same time, I couldn't keep up at all and was going to be defeated soon.

Dream Fragment:

Was in a parliament. It was dark and a bit desaturated. But the house was full. I was right in front of some middle bit where some person speaks. And this man was there in a suit with no tie or bow, he was speaking about Europe and the future, but I can't remember what he was saying exactly. He seemed happy about not so good circumstances that he would mention. This made me feel uncomfortable somehow, on a less conscious level. It also somehow made me realise a bit where I was standing in the room, but I don't think anyone cared.

I think there was some daylight coming in from the other end of the room, probably why everything looked so grey and dim.

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No notes for now.

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6/2/2020
Went to bed at 12AMish.
Woke up at 10:30 with recall
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Dream 1:
I was driving, possibly to a haircut appointment. The driving controls were really wonky, not responding how I would expect them to. At one point I couldnt hit the brake, it was just accelerating a bit. There was a car in front of me stopped at an intersection so I turned right around the car and down the right side of the intersection. The steering was really bad, I definitely bumped into something like the wall of a building. I stopped the car to get my feet in the right place and to check everything out. At that point I realized there was no brake pedal, only the gas on the right and a parking brake all the way on the left. I then noticed I was also in the passenger seat(There were 2 pedals on the passenger side, with no steering wheels so I dont know how I was controlling it.). I was thankful my mom wasnt there to see the mistakes I had made. I climbed into the drivers seat and then I forget the rest. (Extra tag I forget: FH[FA?] Haircut)

Dream 2:
I was somewhere with a kid and his mother. It was the childs birthday and he was lighting the candles on his cake because his mom was distracted with something like a Wii game. She was talking to him a little but it was clear that most of her attention was on the game and not him. He lit the candles and was waiting for his mom to be with him for him to blow them out. It took some time, some candles went out and he had to relight them. Eventually she finished her thing and gave him more of her attention.

Recorded the majority of these dreams early on in a vague form on my phone on waking up. Had to go somewhere in the car; while I was waiting in the car for an hour, typed everything out in more detail, which I'm now putting on the DJ here.

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First Dream (Some detail missing):

Fairly long dream. Can’t remember the start now but I would recurringly go for a swim with H but also alone. When I started, I felt weak and slow. I can’t remember the water's temperature.

We were on some sort of cruise ship but it was mostly empty, and I don’t think it was ever moving. I started to become strong at swimming, when I was back on the decks I can remember feeling like I my chest was sort of almost puffing out from all the swimming workout.

At some point I was walking down some wooden decking stairs and I could see my parents lounging on some patio type chairs on a higher level. I could hear dad make some sort of mock bird call. I remember then seeing some birds. Seagulls? Dad laughed. H asked from some place below, “is that your dad?” I said yes and then remember continuing down the stairs and losing sight of them.

It was daytime for most of this dream but I made note of the fact that it was sort of cloudy and grey. I remember a horizon of water. It may have been windy but I don’t remember the sound of it.

I remember a few times I’d take my boots off, but at no point do I remember what I was wearing.

When I went swimming, after a short while I’d usually arrive at this sea floor base of some kind. This place did have a lot of people. I remember lockers, the inside of this place almost felt like some swimming pool changing rooms but with a more modern and futuristic feel to it, a bit more like the base from Ocean Girl or the sea city from Bioshock.

Before this dream or through the middle of it, I was stuck in some sort of void like limbo with H for a time. It was like being in an out of control perpetual fall, and there was a strange light and distant but dark cosmic background. This void was filled with ancient structures and artefacts from unknown civilisations, a lot of the stuff looking like it was from some sort of classic period.

I remember interacting with some walls and pillars from a distance, with some kind of telekinetic ability, and cutting them up into smaller chunks. As I did their lighting would change, usually to some dramatic purples and yellows.

At some nearer the “end” of the cruise ship segments I went into this too, to have a wee, but there were no toilets. In the dream my mind was telling me that there were some type of urinals but there was nothing on walls or anything like toilets. Instead there were some tables. I walked past a clear plastic box filled with what looked like cheap and brightly coloured electronic components.

At the tables were some big circuit boards with several components already soldered on, including some transformers. For whatever reason I had to have a wee on these boards, but I remember someone telling me I could only wee on the electrolytic capacitors... I remember doing it, but on a big black electrolytic cap, and then some guy appeared, who apparently owned all this stuff and told me off just for weeing on the big one. He was annoyed but not angry or shouting.

Then I remember going out of that room after a short dialogue. I went some stone stairs, in a wide spiral. It reminded me of castles and churches. There were a few murderhole windows where daylight shun from. This was a different place, it was puzzle like. As I reached some kind of landing I immediately realised that the structure was like in some games like Legend of Zelda and some modern puzzles where the paths loop back into themselves, but I could get around the issue of looping paths by taking them whilst walking backwards.

I remember a crawl space path where the same would happen and there were statues and displays scattered about like some museum. There was a warm artificial mood light and everything had a sort of modern feel to it in the areas with displays.

Second Dream (Fragment):

A different dream. I was born out of a big egg, looked mostly like a birds egg but was covered in a polka dot pattern on the outside. A sort of magenta colour to the dots.

There was some old man in this dream and I remember telling him we all had stomachs made from tin and gold. When I told him there was also sulfuric acid in there, he was incredulous.

Third Dream? (Fragment) NSFW:

A still image, as if on a computer, no doubt from a transition phase into wakefulness,

Spoiler for NSFW:

of a giant phallus in space “absorbing” planets along its skin.

One of the stranger things I might draw from time to time. But unusual for this type of thing to appear whilst still sort of in the dreaming context.

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Notes:

⁃ Almost immediately after waking up I realised I probably had the swimming and diving dream because I spent so much of last night reading stuff on Dreamviews. It made me feel like the water was representative of dreaming in itself.
⁃ When I was reading stuff last night I had some thoughts about symbology, mostly because of the topics but I think also because of something I’d said/posted. I feel this is probably why the dream ended up being so metaphorical.
⁃ I ended up taking the whole swimming and diving experience, which in the dream made me stronger, as a sign that I may be making some progress again with dreaming. There was just a sort of clear association in my head when I woke up that all of this was a metaphor for how I was doing lately.
⁃ The void filled with artefacts etc. also felt relevant in that context because it seemed like a collection of lost and unknown culture.
⁃ This void was very similar to the Chthonic voids found in Grim Dawn, probably because I was also playing that a bit last night.

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4/2/2020
Went to bed at 1AMish.
Woke up at 6AM, nothing
Woke up at 7:30AM, nothing
woke up at 9AM, with recall, wrote down 1 tag. Chilled for a bit in bed and remembered 2 more dreams, and wrote down tags
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Dream1:
I was in an exam room, taking a test which seemed really confusing to me. The incompetence I was feeling was really riling me up. I was really stuck in my head just thinking "Fuck what if I fail this, what if I cant finish it on time, I usually finish them so quick! Am I going to have to add another semester? I really dont want to do that" while I flipped the pages looking for something I could answer. As I was flipping, it was all information and no questions! At one point my sister finished, walked past me on the way out and gave me an answer. A teacher came by and she said something out loud to make it seem like we werent cheating. Shortly after the kid next to me slipped me a paper that contained a bunch of questions about the test, and I rejected it and slid it back forcefully. After a bit more scrambling through the pages they told us to stop, and that 2 hours had passed. We were going to take a break and have 1 hr left after the break. The kid on my right was teasing me about how poorly I was doing, and how I had basically not filled anything out. He kept doing that for a while. A teacher came up to me half caringly concerned and half scolding me, so I confessed to him. I told him I was so stuck in my head that I wasnt event thinking about what was on the paper. I knew if I could jsut concentrate my efforts on the paper I could do it. So during the break I sat down, closed my eyes and kind visualized myself completing the test. I experienced these 'meditative' sensations that gave me confidence in my ability to pass the test within the final hour and at that point the dream ended.

Dream 2:
I was at home with my cousin and some other family. My cousin shaun was telling us how he felt about being lonely and isolated from the family. We tried to talk to him about why things were this way, he lives further away than he used to, we're all distracted these days by technology(Something he acknowledged that he did himself too). He is shorter than me in real life but in this dream he turned into a man who only slightly resembles him and was like a foot taller than me.

Dream 3:
I was skiing with my brother and someone else. It was a ton of fun zooming downhill, jumping off of and over bumps, and zooming between a ton of kids who didnt even have skis on. They were roaming the ski trails just having fun and running around. Very dangerous. At one point, one kid threw a snowball at me while I was zooming by very fast. I stopped and went back up the hill towards the kids. I caught up to them and told them I just wanted to talk to them. We all ended up in a cabin with some of their parents. We all sat down outside the cabin and had a friendly conversation about why it was VERY dangerous for them to throw a snowball at me as I was speeding by, if they hit my goggles they could have permanently blinded me! I told them to think before they act, but in a friendly yet stern way, as in I wanted the best for them, not in a harsh ruling way. They all seemed to understand and some mountain staff came with some lemon tart pastries, they were great After that my brother and I did our final run. We turned into an 'easy path' when we got off the chairlift which also had a warning sign on it because the conditions were very poor. the other person we were skiing with wasnt down so they went on another path. We went down, took sharp turns, had to do slides along fallen trees and did some gnarly stuff. Near the end we were supposed to go through a dark tunnel. My brother went first and then this really small kid went through sideways on their snowboard. They were going soooooo slow and I was too impatient, when they were 1/3rd through I went in slowly behind them and gave them some speed by pushing from behind. We made it through the tunnel together.

Just some short dream fragments. Woke up but didn't get out of bed for a while and got distracted so didn't retain many thoughts.

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Dream Fragment:

Something in space. Felt a bit like Freelancer but I think I could command ships that weren't my own? I remember an asteroid field and an asteroid space station. The system looked like it had a light source coming from underneath but was mostly black space with stars with some blue-ish nebulas on the lower hemisphere. The system felt "sunny". Omega/Sigma/Tau type system. Earlier I had a clearer idea of which it reminded me most of.

Dream Fragment:

There's a bridge that I'm trying to place somewhere. I sort of have some kind of visual interface to move it around and rotate it but I struggle for a while to get it to a position I'm satisfied with. One of my siblings (T) is in the dream somehow but I think only in some form of chat. I remember having a conversation about the bridge and how it wasn't quite working out. I remember I then had to add some extra support pillars.

The bridge location was some kind of crude game-like valley. It looked like the type of terrain/landscape I might roughly make before having worked on any detail for it. The area seemed to be covered in shadow, like there were other objects above.

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No notes.

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3/2/2020
Went to bed at 12AM.
Woke up at 6AM, wrote 1 tag
Woke up at 7:30AM, nothing written down
woke up at 9AM, with recall, fell back asleep. Had more dreams and wrote down tags when I got up at 9:30
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Dream 1:
In this dream I was in a group with a couple other people and we were being chased by this group of a few people, who I'm pretty sure were asian. We were being chased around a city like Las Vegas and we went underground into something that looked like a grocery store with no one else in it. They were too far behind us to see us but they somehow always took the same turns as us, even though there were multiple forks in the path. I wasn't scared, it was more like a rush of adrenaline like when you're a kid playing tag on the playground and the person who's IT is right behind you and inching closer. When we went into the empty grocery store we decided to hide to try to lose them. But they stopped and were looking around slowly, but not urgently. It was as if it was all a game and they knew we were there, they were just building anticipation. They did find us and a giddy laughter came out of me when they did.

Dream 2:
This was located at the bouldering gym. The walls changed so much and the layout of the whole building expanded and changed. At first it was a traverse challenge, with mostly only holds at the top of the wall all around. While attempting this challenge, some annoying ass kid grabbed onto my leg and wouldnt let go! This pissed me off so much! He was putting both of us in danger and not letting me climb this route that I was so excited to try! I grabbed this kid and brought him around looking for a staff member. I found one and told her what he was doing, to revoke his day pass or some shit because he was still smiling and had no remorse. It seemed like he was going to do it again as soon as I let him go! The staff member ended up being pretty useless, the conversation ended with something along the lines of, "I'm pretty new here, try and find someone who has more experience". This made me mad that she was too incompetent to handle this kid who was breaking the rules at the place she worked! Later on in the dream I kept an eye out for him but didnt see him again. After that situation, my friend Matteo arrived at the gym. We greeted and hung out for a bit because they were changing the walls again at this point. I guess it was a special event day. Now there were basketball hoops at the tops of the walls, which I couldnt figure out how they were going to incorporate into the routes. I wandered around a bit, saw this insanely jacked asian man using some training implement to hold himself off the ground with one hand. He was cartoonishly jacked. I went to go hang out outside with Matteo, Bruce and one of their friends. We talked for a bit and then their other friend left to go play in the water and imitated some kid who just got lost or abducted or something. They scolded him for making fun of such a serious event. Shortly after I spotted climbing routes(Finally normal ones) on the outside of the gym building. I went to go check them out and there were some all over the side road, on the bouldering gym and the neighboring building. I attempted to start a hard looking route but couldnt get good enough footholds. I walked around to the back where there was now a gym style training zone with some climbing training apparatus'. Finally, I think I missed something. Near when the basketball hoops were up, they changed the walls 1 more time. There were roman looking obstacles that I believe you had to bounce a basketball off of to get it in the net. this isn't climbing but it felt okay for some reason.

None of these dreams are complete in detail. Transitions are missing and a lot of them had beginnings that I simply can't recall now. It took me over 15 minutes from getting up from bed to write any of these down here because of difficulty getting up and slightly different morning routine.

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Dream Fragment:

Very short fragment. There's a brand new office building of some kind. It has an odd shape, has a very 80s,90s feel to it for me. Then someone has apparently ordered some sort of bespoke building plating. A woman, I think, she's very happy about it and goes "yeah, instant bunker baby!" or something like that. The somewhat thin metal plating is plaited and somehow unfolds itself around the building and fits perfectly over every single side. I remember walking around it to see or something.

The woman then throws a bomb right at the brand new plating. It makes a small explosion, no more than a few yards in radius and doesn't break anything off, but some cracks appear on the plating and underneath it. Despite the fact that the plating is metal, it looks translucent and is a dark tan. I find it curious but don't spend too much time thinking about it. (Years ago I had some translucent plastic spoons that had an electro-plated metal finish of some sort, which gave them a translucent metallic look. The dark tan is familiar from a number of tinted glasses I remember seeing in buildings I visited in the 90s.)

Anyway, she's really disappointed now, asking how could the small blast get through like that. She insisted it was supposed to be virtually indestructible but then some sort of interface overlay appeared in my vision as if in a game and I inspected the plating and it had a little icon that when inspected stated "Highly Resistant Material". I felt she had hyped herself into believing this plating was more durable than it actually was. I remember passing thoughts of how nothing is indestructible.

Dream Fragment:

In some sort of classroom. Me and someone else, maybe H, are there first with the teacher. The teacher doesn't look much older than us and she seems familiar somehow now, but is purely a dream character. Possibly an anima-type construct. There's a chalkboard. There are small metal-legged, chipboard tables, covered with plastic veneer. The setting is very familiar from my childhood. Somehow I don't remember the chairs exactly, but they were probably fibreglass ones.

The room feels dark, but it seems to be day outside. Only a small amount of light gets in from some windows. We are at some table over by the far right end corner of the room.

Then some students arrive. I don't have any thoughts about it in the dream, but realise now that they were former classmates from when I was around 12-15. The lights are on now, I think. I remember turning back to my left and looking at someone else and then approaching for some reason. To get something of mine that was borrowed? Not sure. But then I go over to another table, more crowded, surrounded by a group, and there I grab something, but somehow my way is now blocked and instead of asking for room to get past, I crawl under the table. At this point I notice somewhat clearly that I'm wearing a hoody, a cream coloured one, that I probably would have worn back then but still have now; but I felt the age I am now.

I crawled out from under the side of this group table, somehow not getting kicked at all even by accident.

The rest of the dream's detail is missing.

Dream Fragment:

Me and H were at home, in the kitchen. The room seemed bigger than it actually is, including the ceiling height, which in reality is already over two people's height combined. The lights were on and the curtain roll was down on the window.

I don't remember what we were doing when suddenly we were stepping into the hallway for a bit and lights started flickering, out of sync with each other. They'd go really dim or completely out. H was really confused by this and I was finding it odd. We didn't have any high-power things on. One of the lights started making a loud repeating clicking noise, I think the fluorescent light in the kitchen or some other fluorescent light that doesn't actually exist. But in my mind at that point I thought it was a relay for whatever reason.

I told H to try and find out what was going on, as I was getting worried the clicking noise was actually something shorting out and sparking. He told me to turn everything off, so I went to the electric trips board and (impossibly) moved it into the middle of the kitchen, where I had a look at it with some light. I forced the RCD to trip and that turned mostly everything off except one light somewhere and H was disappointed but came over and I told H to see for himself what he wanted to do. He flicked some other trips and then everything was completely off.

Then there was some knocking at the door. We were finding this all very odd and I couldn't imagine who it was. I was about to answer the door but tentatively waited. I saw through the front room window ( in the dream more like a mini conservatory thing than the flat windowed wall of reality) a man going to next door's and knocking there. The neighbours answered and had a little chat with him, and he was saying how he was sick of all these electrical noises he kept hearing on and on for days coming from someone else's house. I thought to myself "I couldn't agree more" or something to that effect.

The man looked like Haymitch from the Hunger Games, but fatter and somewhat older. In the dream I realised he was one of the neighbours further to the left, past our direct neighbour on the left. It seemed to be daytime but rather desaturated and gloomy outside.

I think I told H about what I saw and then wondered who the hell was causing all this. I forget the rest of the dream.

Dream Fragment:

At a church, not sure who else is there exactly but Fry from Futurama was there. He was saying random things and somehow the congregation was loving him and he was getting ordained. I remember him saying "W-what? I'm not even trying to be nice at this point!", clearly upset that despite some purposefully obnoxious actions he was still being praised, when it wasn't at all what he wanted.

Remember little from this dream except that the visuals were all a bit odd, like my head was hanging low. I remember there was a pipe organ in this church.

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No side notes, but made some notes in-line with the dream content.

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2/2/2020
Went to bed at 1AM.
Woke up at 7AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD
Woke up at 8:30AM, 3 tags written down. forgot to attempt FILD
woke up at 10AM, with recall, fell back asleep. Had more dreams and wrote down 2 tags when I got up at 11
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Dream1:
I was at someone elses house. It was the house of a girl who I was interested in sexually. It was a big house with lots of cool things, but details are fuzzy. I need to write my DJ right after waking for better details. At one point, the woman I was interested in brought me up to her room with someone else, and she had a wire(hidden microphone)(That was a tag but I dont remember that part). Then she tried to seduce me, she had most of her clothes off and seeing her from behind reminded me of this one thumbnail pic I see on the internet. I thought that it was too risky because her whole family was home, just downstairs. Later, we took pictures with all of our two families together. Even some extended family of mine as there, david switched places with someone for the pic and maria was climbing on the big wooden fence to get a good spot for a photo. After the pics, the woman(she was no longer kim, it was someone who looked more like my cousin) wanted me to help her imagine a dam built onto a cliff right near her place. She manifested the dam there and it was made of very simple geometry like it was from a really low budget video game or something. A few of us went to the dam and later when we were leaving I did a flip out of the window at the top while everyone else went out the bottom entrance. I went back to do it again later but it seemed to hard and scary this time. When we all went back and it was time to leave the woman transformed into my cousin and I age her a hug goodbye.

Dream2:
I was at a club that reminded me of Stereo. I was the first in, saw the DJ and then went to get a table for my friends. They arrived quickly and people wanted to buy some drinks but I didnt. I felt as though the servers were not very happy that I wasnt drinking but I felt that they would not have kicked me out because my friends were drinking.

We had a bit of a tidy yesterday and I had somewhat strange sleep because of a supplement I took that I even forgot I had around; but I'd also forgotten why I'd stopped taking it. I had extremely vivid dreams but unable to really stay asleep. The first two fragments were from some of the awakenings and were actually really quite long and detailed dreams, just as the third, but I didn't memorise enough of them since I didn't write them down when I had them.

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Dream Fragment:

Was in my old home area. For some reason I managed to get a job as a secretary for some important person (politician/businessman?) and I was being interviewed by a woman with tied up hair and glasses; very similar to the secretary in the original Deus Ex game, come to think of it.

For whatever reason I was using an alias, a French name going just by "Sís", even though I was uncertain myself how I should pronounce it. I remember being asked about speaking French, and I said (roughly) in French that I could speak the language poorly.

I remember the room I was in was office-like but sort of well decorated as I'd expect for my native region.

Dream Fragment:

I wasn't a character myself in this dream. It was more like watching something. It was in China or a place like it and I was seeing inside an office at a business skyscraper. Two men were discussing (in English) about how a brand new government law was going to make everyone's life hell, basically. They could see it being announced on a TV at their workplace. Everyone was becoming afraid of speaking to anyone else but most people were uncomfortably relaxed in a sense, seemingly they felt safe in this place anyway.

I remember one of these two men making a comment saying "I don't even want to take anyone in my car with me anymore."

Then there were some scenes outside, scenes of traffic and of dead vegetation/landscapes. It was a gloomy day-time throughout this dream.

Dream Fragment:

I am somewhere underground, at some kind of mixed restaurant/convenience store place. I'm with my family, and I'm making small talk with the shop lady. She's interested in my phone and asks if I can get her some extra ones of the same model. I say sure, but then question if it's worth it. I tell her that if I get them at a "brand new price" there's nothing in it for either of us. Before she can give me a reasonable idea of what the agreement would be, my phone "rings" (vibrates, more like, I think).

It's an old friend, someone I haven't spoken to in over two years in waking reality. Da is calling me and I try to answer but somehow I tap something that says "delete contact" right under "accept call"!

Feeling frustrated by the fact I just made such a mistake I try to get the number back somehow from the log and then try calling back. He answers and I try to speak but he can't hear me.

I walk outside from this shop, still underground and take a left and then a right and go up some stairs. I'm outside now. I don't remember what it looked like exactly, but get the feeling of "arid".

I speak again, and Da hears me now. I ask, "Hey, how are you? It's been a really long time." He says "I'm ok, I guess." He makes some sort of ironic and witty but also serious remark about how I hadn't been in contact. I try to explain that I did try communicating over the last two years, but that every time I did, I never heard anything back.

We get into small talk and his behaviour over the phone seems more normal, less upset as it seemed like initially. I can hear he's playing something on a console. "Is that Tekken you're playing?" He doesn't answer immediately, concentrating and then says he'll be finished shortly and then we could do (whatever it was) that we were going to do. I quickly realise internally that it couldn't be a Tekken game. All the sounds are too sort of retro and synth-like.

I remember pacing around outside while on the phone, something I do anywhere whilst on the phone. Everything feels vivid and somewhat real despite the fact that the place I'm at looks somewhat alien. The structure of this place on the outside is some sort of hard compacted sand and I'm on some kind of platform. There are metal beams or girders somewhere as part of the structure, but I forget the details now.

It's kind of daytime, but there's a strange light. I don't remember anything else now but this fragment was only the second half of this dream.

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No notes for now.

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1/2/2020
Fell asleep at 1AM.
Woke up at 7AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD
Woke up at 8:30AM, 1 fragment recalled. forgot to attempt FILD
woke up at 10AM, another fragment recalled. Then I stayed in bed with my eyes closed till 12.
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Dream 1:
I was in the shower, but also the bath. My bath was also in the middle of the bathroom now and not on the side. The door to the bathroom was replaced by the door to the shower which is glass so everyone could see me if they were in the living room or coming up the stairs. I tried to hang my towel on the handle to block the view of my genitalia but that didn't work. Adam Rab. came over and wanted to go to school with me. After trying to hide myself for a bit Jimena and Adam came to the bathroom door so I sat down in the bath so they couldn't see my gentialia. My underwear was also on the sink for some reason.


Dream 2:
I was at my cottage with some friends I think. Then Erica Roth. Showed up at my front door and then started going to the side door and when I went to the side she was going back tot he front. I left the front door and saw lots of people out by the pool with some lights, clearly partying somehow. Then someone who looks like Zacks GF came up to me and thanked me for having her over.

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1/2/2020
Around 11PM I consumed marijuana. This was unhelpful and I want to stop doing it. It's unskillful behaviour and will not help me level up my IRL character hahaha
Fell asleep at 1AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD
Woke up at 8AM, 1 fragment recalled.
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tags: Jungle trap

Dream 1:
I remember constructing a trap hanging from a tree in the jungle. In the end it seemed more like a hanging home that you can swing to. Maybe the gap that you have to swing over is the trap. Stupid NPCs dont know how to swing, their pathfinding algorithm will just make them fall down

Small parts of several dreams from today.

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Dream Fragment:

My friend L tried to contact me. Somehow we were communicating by typing on our computers on notepad, on a shared .txt file, which we would save in turns to effectively "send" messages. Despite being a plain text file, I remember L used emojis, something she'd probably find pretty silly for the specific situation.

I have forgotten most of this dream's content but I remember L had an overall feeling of concern, and equally I realised I felt somewhat neglectful.

Dream Fragment:

I was outside, in a mix of my old home area and of some other place more like where I live now. It was daytime, there were bits of settled snow here and there and the pavement looked completely dull to me at the time. There was a row of terraced houses on one side, with an inordinate amount of front yard space. The pavement was unusually wide too.

I was out here with someone, either my aunt or my mother, or some kind of blend. There was this tiny ancient and ruined chapel and we were sort of investigating it for whatever reason and there was supposed to be a secret passage that we had to activate from the outside. We walked around it several times and eventually I pointed at this crude square shape covered by dirt and grass on the floor, which I'd noticed several times when going around the chapel's exterior, finally insisting that maybe it was what we wanted to check, as at this point I felt that any observations I made were being dismissed entirely.

There is some sort of dream transition and there's a different feel to things, and I find myself sort of manipulating wall segments as if it were a strategy game; the placement ghost for wall sections changed dynamically based on whether I was placing it close to existing walls or apart from any walls.

Dream Fragment:

Something about a blonde or fake-blonde woman, lying in bed. She was reading a book about things she'd done right? Or about things she had to pay for. This was in some sort of birthday party setting. It felt cheesy and crowded, inside a bedroom that somehow reminded me of a hospital room.

Dream Fragment:

I was in bed with H, who was reading something on the phone. It was around morning time by the looks of it and I was lying in bed in a funny way, because I was also reading a magazine of sorts. But the magazine was about as thick as my thumb is wide. It had all sorts of articles, about everything and anything, though I've forgotten most of it now, I remember the last one I was reading before closing it and looking at the cover. That article was about how an older Spain had convinced everyone during the exploration of the Americas to "drink this swill" that we call cocoa and how it's rival neighbouring country of Portugal had done little during that time to stop it too. It was like a sponsored article about an anti-cocoa cult of sorts and I found it to be pretty ridiculous even in the dream. It mentioned they already had hundreds of followers and hoped to expand them greatly in the coming times.

After I shut the book/magazine, I gave H a cuddle and that's the last thing I remember. Somehow I didn't realise the irony of the very dream-like situation at all.

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Some notes:

• The text in the fourth fragment was very consistent. I remember reading and going back to re-read something I'd already read to make sure I was getting it right. In that dream I should have realised that no magazine would ever be so thick.
• The magazine cover was a cream or khaki colour, with a picture of a large manor or something on a sunny day in the front, with some smaller squares of other scenic views.
• I remember seeing bits and pieces of the book in the third dream by myself. It didn't make any sense, it was like a children's book but with tasks and questions. The pictures were all sort of life-like, but drawn.
• The very first dream fragment was one of several that I could still vaguely recall from the early morning before I fell asleep again, the other three fragments being ones from after falling asleep again.

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30/1/2020
Before bed, I recalled the events of my day. Mind wandered many times haha I must stay more concentrated. Did a LD prayer in bed then fell asleep. I also opened my blinds because apparently a light environment i good for LDing! Thanks Lang for directing me to the recall compendium
Fell asleep at 1:30AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD
Woke up at 7:30AM, wrote down tags from dream I was in. Forgot to attempt FILD again
Woke up at 9AM, no recall. Then fell asleep and woke up again multiple times until 11:30. Had recall once during a wakeup but spent too much time lying there trying to recall more and fell back asleep.
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tags: Dawson elevators, coins for greeting, seeing people in halls, elevators not working properly, Really pretty girl looking flirty at me in the elevator

I cant remember the events sequentially.

Dream 1:
I was at Dawson college again in my dream. In a (fictional) area with lots of seats, my sister, her boyfriend and their friends were sitting down talking. As I passed by (I was almost late for a test) I greeted my sister and her boyfriend. Everyone had a double digit number floating next to them with a coin symbol. When I touched them to greet them, there was like a coin getting animation. A few coins flew up from the symbol and disappeared along with the symbol and I knew that I had just received them.

Still at Dawson, I had to take some elevators to get around. The elevator system turned out to be soooo much more complex than it is. There elevators would leave the building, get carried along a cable system above the buildings and get transferred to a different sector of the building. It was rainy and windy out so it was kind of scary, the elevators were moving so fast! The elevator buttons also didn't work properly. I pressed something like 6 when I was on the 2nd floor and the first stop ended up being at like 25. The technology not working properly is a dream sign I must remember!

There was also a really pretty girl looking at me in another elevator ride. This time the elevator was like a futuristic metro bus. It was just me and her on there. She was smiling at me but I didn't want to return her gaze. I was looking down at her lower leg. Her gastrocnemius(calf muscle that protrudes from your leg to make the bulge of the calf) protruded from very low on her leg and was very large(not very important but struck me as unrealistic, can be a dream sign). We got to the next stop where we were both expecting someone very important to get on but it ended up being a sea of people that I felt like shouldn't be boarding, it should have been the important person and everyone boarding now was greedy.

Dream 2:
As I'm writing this, I remembered a fragment of my other dream. I was with a couple people that I went to high school with and a coworker. (Matthew[male], Izraa[female] and Matthieu[male]). At one point matthew and I were sitting on some toilets and Izraa was across the room, with a desk shielding our lower bodies from her sight. We were making stupid jokes about us being on the toilet and Izraa didnt really find them funny. She was smirking but I think she was just enjoying seeing us have so much fun making the stupid jokes. later, matthew was on the bed in the room. He had a big bag of kratom with him which contained a bunch of flower shaped humidity controlling things and lots of kratom. I asked him how long he had been taking kratom for and he said he did a while in high school but not much recently.

Later we(all of us except Izraa) were outside playing around pushing eachother into the snow a block away from where I live. This man shoveling his driveway across the street told us to stop it. I asked him why, if it was private property or something. He didnt have a great answer. Matthieu and I split up and Matthew vanished.That is where my recall ends.

Much better than last night when I remembered nothing! I hope to remember more tomorrow