lucid

Two nights ago:

I was at my old high school, in the gym. I don't think it was gym class though, nobody was else there. I've made my high school a dream sign and RC'd in the dream. But for some reason the nose pinch RC didn't work, and I didn't become fully lucid.

Last night:

I had a false awakening. I was laying down under a blanket. I could feel Manei's ora (or that presence she gives off) in the room; she was laying right beside me. And I was instantly mega-lucid, and thinking really clear.

I was in a room where everything was made of cut polished stone. The room had the layout of a room in my dad's parents (the ones who are still alive) house, and the general feel of it. There was no glass in the window. Just a white curtain blowing gently in the breeze.

There was a really old TV with a wooden case was sitting where their flat screen TV is IWL. It was on but it was just showing static. Every once in awhile I would see the face of a bald man with a fat neck flash onto the screen. The volume was turned down low and I could barely hear the white noise.

The sofa had been replaced with some thick mats on the floor and there were vines growing all across the walls. Outside the sky was orange and there was a big purple and blue ringed Jupiter planet taking up a good portion of the sky.

I got up, and thought of my dream goals. I was trying not to wake up Manei as well, but I guess I didn't do a very good job.

"Where you going?"

"To go find Jack and make friends with him. You wanna come?"

"No. You no go either. Just like TV, you always on. Work hard is good, yes, but need to relax sometime."

I lay back down with her. She put her arm around me and started to go back to sleep.

"Great... no getting away now..."

I stayed with her for a few minutes. I was still feeling restless though, and I really wanted to go and get something done. I started doing affirmations and trying to keep the dream stable. I then remember staring at the ringed gas planet in the sky. I was trying to make out details in a storm, and noticed that I could see it slowly spinning.

"Relax. Too much tension. I feel it."

I started to relax. I was still thinking a lot about my reality, but I started to relax and just enjoy the moment. I was startled back to 'reality' when My grandmother came home. I heard her open the door, set her purse and keys on the counter and walk into the living room. It was only now that I noticed that the kitchen (connected to the living room) was completely normal.

She walked in and got really confused.

"*duck quack*! who are you people!?"

The two of us got up. I started laughing at the duck quack sound. Manei thought it was funny too. My grandmother started yelling for help, that there were strange people in her house.

...

There was some other alternate part of this dream where she was hugging me and the two of us were spinning around. The environment kept shifting. (Double dream spinning...?)

After a normal dream - that I have voice-recorded - I found myself playing with hypnagogic imagery. I see a city street and practice flying by extending my arms and try to fly Superman-style. At the same time, I feel my self in bed pretty well (I am quite sure - now, after awakening - that this was a dream-bed, so the next LD was a DILD). I have the same problem I have in most of my lucids - inability to gain height. I run, jump superman-style and I land and slide with my belly - again and again. I am on a terrace by now and keep on jumping and landing on my belly - but the dream has cleared by now and I am fully there.
Next jump, I grab my parachute controls, pull down hard and immediately I gain height and I am now flying over the blocks of flats - I am in a city, but I don't recognize the place. I try to get more height and after some difficulty, I succeed. There is a slight covering of my left eye - left from the dream blankets but I know that if I ignore it, it will clear out - as it eventually does. I make a 360° turn on air and enjoy my flight. I then decide to land and accomplish some lucid tasks of mine. I land and think of making some affirmations but it's getting dark fast and some kids are around, so I walk and try to stabilize the dream. My daughter appears and says that her shoes are not right. I notice that she is wearing a red dress and simple, red shoes. I say dont worry! I will change them to better-looking ones. So, I cover them with my hands one-by-one and try to make them pretty - but hey remain quite similar.

I say, it's ok - they will soon change, we are in a dream now and kiss her on the forehead. I feel a wonderful sense of freedom being in the dream and think, what should I do now? Well, let's rehearse a surgery (arthroscopy). I go into the nearby block and start climbing the stairs, imagining that the surgery room is upstairs. Next floor, it's indeed the preparation room, quite luxurious for its purpose with a large mirror and thick carpets.

There is my surgery suit waiting for me in a hanger. I take of my coat - wondering for a moment if it's safe to leave it here - but then remembered that yea, it's a dream. I have some difficulty getting dressed - and I find a way around: put my suit in front of me, look in the mirror, take the suit aside and I am dressed (in another one, same to the first). So, I walk to the main desk, greet the stuff - the secretary said that the next surgery is about to begin - and as I walk into the theater, the dream fades and I am in bed...next time...
That lucid felt really good - not only the flight, I had a sense of freedom throughout the dream. Woke up quite happy!

Supermarket

I was inside a supermarket looking for cereal. But than i wanted strawberries and told my older brother to get it for me. But he was taking too long. Next thing I know I'm looking at the candy and I'm interested in buying candy corn. But it looks like they are sprinkled with a lot of sugar on them so I don't buy it. Things become complicated so I begin to look for my family. I have a feeling i spotted my grandma but i'm not 100% sure. Anyways I found my cousin and she takes me somewhere completely different. It is a empty black square room filled with red floating clouds.

She tells me that there appears to be something wrong with her stomach. I look closely and think she is trying to tell me she is getting bigger or shes pregnant. But i see nothing wrong with her stomach. I tell her I notice a slight difference though. After that my brother comes inside and mentions how the guy from the lucky charm box is coming to see if we accomplish the dream sharing race. Apparently we have to escape from it inside someone else's dream space. I happily accept the challenge and fly off in a direction.

I pass through places, than through a door. Most of all the places i passed seemed like a void though.Soon it becomes quiet and I think about how I don't really like where I'am now. I fly somewhere else than notice someone flying behind me in a fast speed. It felt like my mind was trying to keep up with me so it can change the dream into the way it wanted. When i arrived at a office building I landed on a guy that looked like he was from the matrix. I told him I won but than was interrupted by a lady who works at my job place. She told me she needed to see me for a sec.She showed me a paper asking about something work related. Than a guy who was on the computer asked me if i was nervous. I said no and after that I woke up.

Teddy

I was listening to my dad and uncle talk about something as i was brushing my teeth in the bathroom but the toothpaste kept accumulating. I tried spitting it out and rinsing but felt like i swallowed a bit already. I than turned to see a black shadow in the form of a teddy bear with yellow eyes smiling at me. I thought I was just seeing things and told my dad. But he wasn't listening so I went downstairs wanting to go to my room. But the hallway was blocked by lots of green curtains. I felt like there was something hiding behind the curtains in the dark hallway. But didn't want to find out so i ran upstairs.

I'm at work, serving tables. I go to the bar to get a drink for a man. I realize we don't have that wine, Morno something or other. I look back at the man across the open dining room. He's looking at me, wondering where his drink is, probably. I think about it and decide to try to serve his wine using telekenisis. It doesn't work. I get bored with this and go off into the kitchen to have some fun. I see one of my pretty co-workers and make out with her briefly until I remember to try the advanced task. I reach into my pocket to find the hole but nothing is there. I persist and after a few seconds, I find the hole and throw it on the ground. I jump into the hole which leads to an underwater void. "Wait for me!" I hear from above. A DC whooshes past me.

I end up in large, underwater game room, set up to play another DC. I guess the point of the game is to hit a volleyball against the large digital screen, repeating this once the opponent returns the serve, trying to hit the ball in as few bounces as possible. I play this with the DC but they are a lot better than I am, because they are more agile underwater. Using so much force to move, I quickly get exhausted and quit. Breathing heavily, I look for something else to do and see an exit sign. Having enough of this, I walk through and wake up.

Ritual: WTB 2am, woke 9am with dream. Recall: 9/10. April had so far been a dryspell, but after my hot streak in early March I hadn't worried too much about it. I've noticed that my streaks and dryspells often seem to operate cyclically. I was distressed in early April when even my dream recall was inexplicably poor, but for the past week that had been improving. I had been continuing daytime RCs but to no discernible effect, and hadn't made any serious LD attempts all month.

Last night was no exception, but since I was stressed and annoyed over work obligations, I let myself drink rather heavily with dinner. The consequence of this was that I slept poorly, having to cycle lots of water and wake up even more frequently than usual. This didn't bother me either, as I'd slept plenty in the last few days and didn't feel especially tired. I also enjoyed that I was dreaming heavily all night, with decent recall, though the dreams themselves were not interesting enough to sacrifice more sleep to record them. As morning approached, the line between sleeping and waking started to blur, to the point where I found myself in a long dream where I seemed to be lying half-awake in my bed, but talking and interacting with DCs who were in the room with me. Even before the dream ended it occurred to me that it had involved some semi-lucid intervals, so I realized I should get up and take some notes. I was in the process of doing so when I began to suspect I was still dreaming. My first instinct was to wake myself up so I could record the dream properly, but then I realized that I shouldn't squander this unexpected opportunity!

DILD: In my living room. Don't think I'm awake yet. Could wake myself up, of course. Hang on—that would be a waste. Must be at least an hour before I have to get up. What were those tasks again?

Jogging will be easy enough. I start running even before I leave the house. Suddenly my feet feel heavy and I notice I am wearing my old black leather combat boots. Grin—if there was any doubt I was dreaming it has cleared up now. [For the record, I was never in the military, I just had a distinctive fashion sense in my youth.] Go outside the door and jog away. Immediately nothing like my backyard, though it does still resemble the region I live in. Look around: in the distance see a woman pushing a stroller. "Woman pushing a stroller," I say to myself, to fix the details. I'm running across a parking lot, and where it ends I pass an unusual tree whose thick branches are armed with long thorns. "Thorn tree," I state for the record. Find myself at the edge of a steep hill and run straight down. Gravity isn't a problem, I stay perpendicular to the ground I am covering, which means I am pitched forward at a 45 degree angle and would fall flat onto my stomach if gravity were operative, but it isn't. I can feel my body being gently buoyed up into this position, and my speed doesn't become too great. Say, "Steep hill." As I'm running down the hill, looking around, I see something stranger. The earth is almost barren, with dry scrubby vegetation in patches, but looking to my left, I see razors sticking up out of the ground as if someone has planted them there, dozens of them, several inches apart, covering a large patch of ground. "Razors planted in the ground," I say, adding, "Disposable razors." And they're not just any brand, but I recognize them: distinctive yellow handles, white heads... "Bic razors," I think.

At the bottom of the hill the ground levels out. I notice that the act of jogging doesn't feel at all realistic, which is interesting because I actually do jog in WL on a semi-regular basis, so it is not that my dreaming mind lacks sensations to draw upon. In what respect is it unrealistic? Well, there's no need for real effort, no sense of real weight. And now, unbidden, my arms are dangling and dragging through the dry dirt of the ground, I can feel it sifting through my fingers. My arms do not feel any longer than normal, and my legs do not feel any shorter than normal, yet my fingers are trailing the ground alongside me as I run. I notice a small mushroom lying on the dirt and pick it up, saying "Mushroom." It is a fleshy beige tube-shaped stem without a distinct cap, and I recognize the type from the grocery store—it is a small eryngii mushroom.

Previously I had passed highways at the base of the hill, but now I'm approaching a smaller local street, buildings tightly packed together on the side of the street across from me. I decide to move on to another task. When the April TOTMs were posted I had worked out a plan whereby I would use the portable hole to portal myself into space and do the bonus task. I note an ideal location in the street—there's a manhole cover there or some other kind of circular mark that seems the ideal place to set down the hole. I notice three guys on this side of the road are getting into a parked car and feel instinctive momentary caution about running in front of it, but remind myself that this is a dream, there's no way to be harmed if the car hits me, and anyway I should use it as motivation to succeed quickly in the hole task. In retrospect, I note that the direction they're about to drive suggests either that this must be a one-way street, or else that the traffic flow is the opposite of what it normally is in the US.

I had planned my strategy as I was jogging up, so once I got to the spot I had designated, I promptly used my right hand to reach into my "pocket" (to avoid overcomplicating things I deliberately didn't bother to take notice of what I was wearing or make sure it had a pocket, I just let assumption carry the day), pulled out my portable hole and dropped it. Nothing happened, but the problem was easily diagnosed: my hand had come up empty from my pocket, so I had only been pretending to drop the hole. Apparently, in dreams, there can somehow still be a distinction (however nuanced) between "pretending" to do something and "actually" doing it.

"You actually have to pull something out," I murmured to myself reprovingly, and reached into my pocket again. This time my hand closed around a folded piece of very thin black cloth. I recall the texture of the cloth made it feel like a synthetic fiber, smooth and slightly shiny. I unfolded it and dropped it on the pavement. It was circular, perfectly sized to fit over the manhole-cover spot in the street, but I had thrown it so casually that it had fallen in a bunched up and wrinkled way, so I kneeled down to gently smooth it flat. Then I stood back up and stepped on the cloth, intending to sink through it and find myself in space. Of course the first time, it felt no different than stepping onto a layer of cloth that had been set onto the pavement, and I didn't go anywhere. This didn't surprise me, since I knew my expectations might have been conditioned by some of the early TOTM reports I had read in this month's thread. So I patiently tried again, knowing I could make this work. I hopped in place and focused on the sensation of sinking. The second try was still a dud. I hopped again, maintaining my focus and emphasizing the idea of falling through the hole. It worked, though instead of falling suddenly, as one might through a real hole, I was sinking slowly and gently downward. I used this extra time to build my image of where I wanted to end up: space.

After I sank beneath the surface of the pavement, I was floating in a pitch black, unconstructed space. This was more promising than disorienting—after all, outer space has very similar qualities. However, I knew I should be seeing stars, so I firmed my resolve to be in space, specifically "outer space," not just unconstructed space. The dream complied, and filling my field of view to the front and right was a sudden glimpse of a great starry disk, fully round as if I was looking at it head on. "Galaxy," I murmured, impressed by how beautiful it was, how awe-inspiring, even if it had been generated entirely by my own mind. But the task required me to observe a sunrise over Earth, so I focused my intention using keywords: "Space. Sunrise."

The beautiful galaxy disappeared, replaced with a vision much less inspiring. From photographs I have the impression that seeing the actual Earth from space is visually stunning, but despite the loveliness of my galaxy, my model of Earth was rather dull and unconvincing. What made it so underwhelming was that I didn't feel like the distances were right: even though I was still floating in "space," I felt like I was only a few feet away from the planet, which resembled a large globe about six feet in diameter. It was dark, because I was looking at the night side, and as I willed the "sunrise" to occur, the light creeping around the edge of the planet illuminated something unexpected: the whole planet seemed fenced in by structures built over and around it, and they were covered with corporate logos! Actually it seemed very appropriate metaphor for the current state of affairs. The structures definitely didn't look like the sorts of things that could exist in space, though, since they consisted of large interlocking beams that crowded and dwarfed the planet itself. As I examined this structure, the "space" in which I was floating stabilized into the interior of a large, dimly lit room, the earth and the structures around it becoming mere models. It resembled the lobby of a planetarium or space museum.

"Space. Sunrise." I said again firmly, trying to restore the scene to the one I had intended. I temporarily succeeded in making the room fade away so that I was again floating in darkness in front of the Earth, but when I tried to re-do the sunrise, the growing light illuminated the walls of the same room that I had just banished, and now the light was almost aggressively bright. This, I figured, was actual light from WL—during my earlier wakings I had noticed that it was a very bright morning, and my curtains can only do so much to keep light out of the bedroom. I managed to ignore the light and hold onto the dream a little bit longer, but I was still wrestling to turn the room's interior back into outer space when I woke up.

It's been a while since I've updated this, mainly because I've been too busy with school and work and life to even try to dream. Pretty much haven't had any interesting dreams anyway. If you're interested in how the Vi situation is going, I had a few semi-lucids a while back where she appeared, and I asked her a few questions. Of course, my recall was horrible, so I don't remember anything other than that.

Anyway, I did manage a decent lucid during a nap yesterday, and just got around to typing it up today. So this entire dream was kind of in and out, mostly since there was a lot of noise in my room, between my roommates playing Minecraft and annoying dormmates barging in and being loud. However, I did lay still through all of it, kept drifting in and out of a dream (usually a different scene each time), and eventually did have a long enough period of actual sleep to get some quick lucid stuff done.

After all the mini DEILDs and stuff, the dream was still pretty unstable, but I found Vi in a mineshaft of some kind. She was pushing a minecart while I walked beside her. I asked her where she's been lately, and she mentioned something about hiding, although she disappeared before I could find out what she was hiding from. I then found myself on this floating island that looked like a planet from Super Mario Galaxy. A long, straight, shallow canal ran down the center of it, and I jumped in to swim. I tried to remember the Tasks of the Month, and for some reason I thought one of them was to drink water through a straw. I was going to drink the canal water, but it was filthy and looked disgusting. I got out and found a water fountain instead, so I drank from that. There wasn't really any refreshing taste or anything, the dream was too unstable for any of that detail.

I finally thought to stabilize a little, and I finally managed to get a little more clarity than my hazy semi-lucidity. I thought if there were any more tasks that I could do. "Of course, how about the one I came up with!" I reached into my pocket and felt around, and managed to pull out a round circle of black fabric about the size of a grapefruit. I threw it on the ground, and it formed a hole. It grew a little bit, but was still too small to fit into. I did stick my foot in, however, and it felt like I was dipping my foot in jello. I then continued to pull out different torn pieces of black fabric out of my pocket, and they each turned into equally shaped holes in the ground. After getting desperate, I stopped, took a deep breath, and reached in my pocket one last time. I felt something like a squishy grape, so I pulled it out. It was a small black sphere that I can’t really describe other than being a blob. I threw it onto the ground, and it grew to a decent sized hole. I jumped head-first into it and actually had no problem getting inside.

I found myself in this back alley, which was covered in snow and ice. I walked down the alley until I reached the back loading dock of this big department store. I passed this guy and started to make small talk.

“Lovely weather we’re having…” I sarcastically remark.
“Speak for yourself, bud. I’m sick of this snow.”
“Well at least it’s supposed to warm up soon.”
“I don’t care. This winter has lasted long enough. I say we end the tyrannical reign of the cold. WE SHOULD BOYCOTT WINTER!”

He continued to shout, which actually drew quite a crowd for his bizarre cause. Meanwhile, I snuck away awkwardly and went into the store before I woke up.

I was stuck on my bed and couldn't move. I heard a person moving around the hallway and thought it was my father. But I didn't want to wait to see who it was and tried to break loose. I couldn't though so i lay down and started calling for Dawn. I managed to break free and walked to the next room. I thought I found Dawn but didn't. It turned out to be a dc that kept changing forms. I was annoyed and was like " Pick one already!".

The next thing that happened after I walked away is that I entered another room with a boy who than showed me a group of dancing and singing Japanese men. They looked very colorful and bright. I found it odd and than the purple hair guy turned into a British man who started complaining about a little girl touching his hair. After that a boy that was present told me we have to go back in time.

I wasn't interested in going back in time though and started walking fast trying to find Dawn. The room's lights began fading. So I tried jumping to reach the light i saw. For some reason unknown to me I started singing something that came to my mind as i thought of healing light. "The little mulberry tree~" I kept saying it, ended up outside and was flying as i thought of Dawn. Suddenly a DC ran up to me and handed me a CD. The picture of the CD showed a girl laying on a dimly lit floor,dead?,with red rose petal spread out around. "Are you saying this is supposed to happen to me!?" I asked the dc. But it ran away.

After that i tried flying away but a girl and her father tried shooting me.I tried summoning a pink barrier but it wasn't working so i just stood against the wall wondering what would happen.

After that i woke up than went back to sleep and ended up having the dream below.

I appeared in a house that looked somewhat like my house. There were four girls and a mother present. As i was looking at children books the mom and the daughter were arguing until the daughter made a rude remark. The mother ran to her bed and was crying near another lady. Suddenly the mom said she had enough and pulled out a long silver blade with no hold. I took it away slowly and told her to calm down.

I than flew to the living room and saw that outside were girls with guns and knives. They told the other girls to open the door so that they could shoot them. I decided this was a waste of dream time and flew through the corner of the house than flew away. One of the girls managed to catch up to me though and asked me where i thought i was going. I said "I'm just flying away." casually. Than the girl said "Oh.Ok" let me go, than left. I woke up after that.

We are coming up on 550 DJ entries, my goodness.

That said. I know WBTB works, particularly because I usually (like I did last night) seem to WBTB twice, meaning that I have three chances to become lucid rather than one. (Once before the first awakening, once after the first awakening, and once after my second awakening.) I've just got to figure out ways of making it a very reliable technique. I'll make a list of factors (bedtime, food, mantras, etc) and maybe experiment with slightly different variations to see what produces the best results.


So the first dream was very odd. I was working with my parents and other people from our subdivision to plant rows of pine trees. This is because (IWL) our neighborhood is next to the clean water plant and when the winds are blowing the right way, our whole neighborhood can start smelling like a middle school bathroom. They said that they wanted pine trees because they were the best at catching the smell. I thought it was odd because I couldn't smell the clean water plant at all.

...

I became lucid and left everybody. It felt like we were in an orchard now, we had planted so many trees. I felt like doing a lucid dare even though I made those a lower priority now. I had a false memory that I had a lucid dare/totm to fly to the moon, that of I had falsely remembered that I was meeting there with DawnEye11. Or I remembered a previous LD where I had tried to fly to the moon and failed.

Flames on, we're flying! I looked down and saw that I was about fifty feet off the ground. All of the DCs stopped working on planting trees and stared up at me in amazement/confusion, asking how I was flying. You know, i'll be honest. It's starting to get old.

I looked up at the moon. I knew with my standard flying technique it would take me all night to fly to the moon. I had to cheat. So I looked up in the sky and imagined the moon coming closer. At first it didn't work, but then the blue sky turned black and the moon started to fill up my vision. I regained control. I was flying at hyperspeed through space.

The moon was coming up quick. I went around the dark side, sweeping low across the terrain. So low that I kicked up a bunch of moon dust and made a trail across the surface. I made a complete orbit and came around the dark side again, this time pulling 'up' twoard the north pole. There was a big flat crater here that looked like a good place to land.

I halted my velocity and thought to move down toward the surface only to go flying at the surface at some absurd speed. I had to quickly freeze myself again. I was only a couple miles above the surface now. It was also now that I noticed that the moon was kind of a beige/sandy color rather than grey.

Okay, I need to descend slowly! Just like in KSP landing on the moon is a delicate art...

I shot back down at hyperspeed, even faster than before. Everything went dark for a second and I heard rock and dust exploding. I stood up and I had made a fifty foot wide crater for myself. I'm so lucky that I am invincible. I still remember shouting something profane when I hit the moon though.

I decided I wanted to look up in the sky and see earth. But when I looked up at the direction I had came from, I didn't just see earth. I saw ALL the planets. They were all in a straight horizontal row, about moon sized in the sky. Some were a little bit bigger than others.

"Mercury... Venus... Earth... Mars... Jupiter... Saturn.. Uranus... Neptune... even Pluto!"

I started bouncing around in the gravity of the moon. Kudos to the dream for getting the gravity right. Even though I don't think I was wearing a space suit...

I then saw a plastic container full of art supplies, things like colored pencils, pastels, paints, etc. I remember thinking "How did that get here?" I tried to pick it up and examine it. It seemed like it was attached to the ground. I couldn't pull it up, but I could push it down given enough force.

I continued walking around. The beige/sandy color of the moon was beginning to shift to red, and I was starting to get a mars vibe. I saw a small canyon, that it looked like water had run through at one point. There was an Easter basket with a card on it.

"To: Jade (this seems to have become my dream name...)
From: Stanley (for some reason I read it Stan Lee, like the guy from Marvel comics.)

I know it's a little late, but happy Easter. Hint: This basket weighs a lot."

Some how or other I picked up on the idea that this was like the cube from portal and I had to put it on the art supply case (button), so I did that. I heard a door open somewhere and saw a tiny trapdoor about halfway between the button and the spot where I found the basket. It looked like it carried on underground with a metal slide.

I wasn't sure how I was supposed to fit down there. I tried sticking one leg down the door and figured maybe some weird dream logic would take over and pull me down. But it didn't.

I tried to shrink myself, and I think it worked. I shrunk to about two feet tall, and at that point I fell down the slide into an underground facility. For some reason, the slide split into three. The slide on the right went to a shredder. The slide on the middle went to a sewing machine. The slide on the right would drop me into a bin full of newspapers. I tried to lean to the right but ended up going down the middle.

I came to the sewing machine. It was motion activated and a robot arm came out and tried to stitch me together, but I pushed it away as best I could. But when I got off at the end of the slide, my leg was full of stitches and bleeding everywhere. It didn't hurt though.

The room had an office feel to it. There were filing cabinets and in the middle, this big machine. For some reason I assumed it was for making comic books since the tag on the Easter basket read Stan Lee. A man in an office chair was facing a desk. He turned around. He had short black hair and looked to be about 40 years old.

"I am Rick Lee. Do you want to know the answer to life's greatest mystery?"

"Um... yeah... I'm bleeding a lot, do you have a bandage? What is life's greatest mystery, anyway?" I guess my lucidity and therefore my invincibility were wearing off...

"I know what Master Chief's face looks like! Here let me show you..."

I woke up.

-WBTB-

I had an oversize zit (on my tooth...?) that I had to pop. It exploded with enough force to knock me over. I'm going to skip over the details because... this dream was really disgusting.

Something to do with playing this game with people in my neighborhood. Both kids and adults were throwing these hackney sacks at each other for fun.

I was semi lucid and for some reason my stomach kept growling. I got impatient and yelled "Shut up, I can eat when I wake up!"

-WBTB-

I was pulled over by the side of the road. I recognized the area as part of my route to college. I had taken a barbecue grill out of my car and was grilling hamburgers for myself while I worked on my final project for my drawing class.

A squal blew in pretty quickly. I grabbed my drawing project and put it in the back seat of my car. I heard thunder and it had already started to rain. I knew I would have to come back for the grill.

...

I somehow found myself driving across someone's front lawn, knocking over their porch, fences, some small trees. I was semi lucid so I didn't really care. I got out of the car and had somehow transitioned to a plaza in the middle of a city.

I became fully lucid. I think I did a nose pinch RC just to confirm. I remembered my #1 priority dream goal. I knew I had to manifest her to figure out where to start.

"Manei, Kuansen Axio Sosunbulee. Alright she should show up any second now..."

I looked around and saw my parents appear. IWL they have been in LA all week, and they were happy to see me. I then saw my dead grandmother as well. For some reason she had ashes on one side of her face. This might have been a reference to the fact that she was cremated. I waved to her and she smiled and waved back.

Where is Manei...?

The dream faded to black and the scene changed. It was nighttime. I was standing on the surface of a lake. There were outlines of trees all around. The sky above was a bluish green nebula full of really bright stars. But, reflected on the lake it was a reddish-brown nebula, also full of really bright stars.

It took me a second to make her out, but I could see Manei. There were really interesting lighting conditions, she was lighted red from the bottom and blue on the top.

"So what's this about a naked picture of you on the internet?"

"You figured it out. It was only a test. You are too smart for your own good."

"So, everything is okay then?"

She floated over and hugged me. The amazing visuals went foul and the dream became more focused on touch. I've never been what you call a hugger but I hugged her back anyway. The last thing I remember was her leaning over and wispering into my right ear.

"Everything is okay."

For some odd reason I was able to see her face and the back of my head and shoulders when she said that. I lost the dream and woke up.



Even though it was only about 6:00, I couldn't go back to sleep. I sure tried though. I knew I was on a roll.

The 1st half of the dream I was getting ready to return home. On the way they way I was going to drop off my daughters are their mams.
I was waiting around for something before I could leave.
While waiting and to pass the time I decided to clean the car. I noticed I had 2 bottles of soap and a bottle of something else in my hands. I also had a dry cloth rolled up like a cigar. I squirted soap on the back of the front seats and began cleaning / wiping it off. To keep my daughters busy I went inside and asked my youngest daughter to sweep the floor. She couldn't find the sweeping brush so I decided to help her look. I found it in the hallway on my way out.
Also in the house were my daughters step sisters. I picked up the youngest of them who had no shoes on to say hi.
My dad asked me if I would run an errand for him. I said no. Later when I was busy and my back was turned my youngest sister started to drive off in my car to do the errand. I caught her and hold her that I had already said 'no' to dad. I said this to her when she was half way down the drive way. My dad overheard because he was in the garden beside the driveway.
I told me sister to turn around at the first available opportunity which she did.

Back at the house I went out the front door of the house. I noticed that my dad was cutting the tall and unattended trees that ran parallel to the front of the house. He was using a silent motorized saw. I quickly put my hands up to protect my head from a tree that was falling. I caught it just in time. Also the last tree I noticed had several full horizontal cuts and I remember wondering how it was still standing. I remember telling myself this is allowed because I'm dreaming.
I then walked to my left and noticed movement. I noticed a large octopus approximately the size of a car moving towards a damp shaded clay patch beside me. It was a dark'ish color with moss and old twigs on its back. Looking at it front ways it looked like a giant crab.

The crab saw me. Its mouth was approximate 4 to 5 feet wide. I felt I would need to be on guard so I picked up a long think branch to poke it if it came close. Which it did. I pushed the branch into the back of its mouth. It stopped. I then noticed a 2nd octopus behind it. I noticed I was at the bottom of a dark and damp steep hill. I felt the only way to back away from these creatures was to walk backwards up the hill. As I started walking the 2nd octopus climbed over the 1st one. Again I had to use the stick. But I started to fear I might not out run them. I proceeded up the hill. As I got higher and higher I no longer saw the top. It was like climbing a mountain were you just see a new higher horizon.
I felt the creatures could appear at any minute but I couldn't see them.

My initial thoughts:
I don't get on with my dad at all. I always say 'no' to him. But I don't tell others not to do something he asks. Normally I'm ok with someone borrowing my car.
I've never been too fond of the power of an octopus to crush things nor do I like the look of crabs.

I was returning to work with others to the remote jungle. The whole dream takes place on boats as it was all rivers. Apple pie-preparing. 2 of us sliced the apples but we knew we would not be able to make the pie until the next day as we would have to look through our baggage or obtain supplies to make the pie.

I knew returning would be very, very tough. We were expecting lots of trouble but nothing like what we encountered. Every minute of every day were were been chased by armed gangs who's sole aim was to rob and kill us. I think I had sensed this even before we began.
Suddenly a secondary school teacher I had for 1 or 2 years appeared. She is not something I would ever have thought about and she is someone who I would describe has having a neutral relationship with at school.
She got hit by a stray bullet in the back. I grab her as she was falling. In the dream I instantly recognized a volcano of emotion rising up in me. I proceeded to carry/drag her to a bed. I knew she would be dead in a few minutes. I started to hold on tighter and tighter and tighter to her. She or another person offered to shake hands. I said to myself I'm going to see how hard I can squeeze this person hand. I squeezed very hard but I was unable to squeeze hard enough to break their hand. I was away that I was dreaming and felt the tears well up in my eyes (which were there when I woke up after the dream was over!).
I decided I would like her have her last moments alone so I said 'see you later or see you next time' and tore myself away.
Shortly afterwards spoke to another and we agreed with every once of our being that we had enough running and trying to dodge these gangs. We decided we would proceed in a way that got us as far a way as possible from them.
Suddenly we found ourselves in a remote town. We were on the street and were glad to see the local police chief. He agreed to help use find safe passage. When I turned around there was the leader of the gang. He and his hundreds of followers were dressed in the same uniforms as the police. There was to be a dual which I felt we would not win.

My thoughts/comments.
For 6+ months now I have scarified or given up living by my own free will. Instead I have found a way to connect with my spirit guide and I have been living life by their indications. e.g. what to eat, would it be good to watch such and such a TV program, etc, etc. Recently I have been putting ALL my energy into preparing to 'return' to South America to start a new life i.e. I sense I will leave for a minimum of 2+ years (either travelling or working with medicine plants deep in the jungle). I have been doing this at huge person cost i.e. people would view me as abandoning my daughters which I have effectively done already by following my spirits guides indication not to take up access. And do yo know what ? It feels like the right thing to do. i.e. I viewing this as short term pain (2-5 years away) for long term gain (developing to be the best person I can which in turn will benefit others) , failing to socialize, etc, etc.
If an outside person was to view how advanced my preparations were they would report that I am fully ready.

Black: Non-dream
Blue: Non-lucid
Red: Lucid

Dream - Another unexpected lucid
I've recently acquired a new surfboard and wetsuit, which is true in both my dream and real life. I'm in my flat and I see my flatmate Oliver scoot out the door in his own wetsuit with a surfboard (he doesn't have them IRL), it seems that he acquired a surfboard after me and is going to test-drive his surfboard before I've tested mine (been too busy sadly ). I decide that I'll meet him at the beach since it's a nice day, I head there and he's absolutely ripping it up - except instead of it being Oliver it's my friend Isaac... I don't notice the transition though. The cut of his board suits his skill level and the wave types there... But my surfboard isn't quite right, I'm having a hard time paddling and can't turn properly, I swim about for a while but the tide is starting to come in (which, where I live, can be a predicament as it comes right up to the wall which would suck to smash into...). I climb up a hill to rest and at the the top there's a slooty bar with a name in glowing red neon, can't recall the name though >_<. I look down and see Isaac leaving, for some reason I think to myself it might be a dream, which my rational says "No way man, this is so realistic, there's no way it's a dream!". I do a reality check anyways, pushing my finger through my hand, it goes through but I'm not convinced... I decide to try something NEW, something that can only be done in a dream. I put my hands in front of me separated with my fingers splayed and curving. I turn them to face each other, finger tips an inch apart, then try to summon electricity. Sparking occurs, stretching between the tips of my fingers from one hand to the other crackling with energy.

"Hmmm... Okay, I'm convinced, this is a dream" I narrate to myself, the dreamworld around me so convincing that I'm still not so sure. The reality of lucidity doesn't quite dawn on me, I don't really DO anything except follow the dream normally, never truly being in control. At some point I actually lose lucidity and continue on oblivious, which leads to a situation where I'm swimming with friends and we need to get out the water for some reason. Oh well.

Note: 4th lucid dream recently that has been unexpected, might be related to simple breathing meditation I randomly did before going to sleep - which I primarily did just so I could slow down my racing thoughts and focus on a 'day-dream' to help myself fall asleep.

April 12, 2015

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You're Back Already?

Fragment I remembered randomly: I was at home, and so was my little brother. I saw him sitting on the couch and at firstthought he had just come for the weekend, but he had all of his stuff with him too. I asked if he was done with school now, and he said he was. I said, "ALREADY?!" and that's about all I remember from the dream haha.




Christian Grey's Mansion

I was in a large mansion with Christian Grey. We were just talking for a while; he seemed less of a creeper in my dream than he was in the movie (didn't read the books so I can't attest to that). Then he got out duct-tape and a whip, and I was like "WTF are you planning to do with THAT." He looked at me like it was obvious, and I was fine with having a little tussle with him, just not that way. I told him as much (a little bit more vulgarly), and he said that if I could keep away from him for half an hour, he would put them away. But if he caught me within half an hour, he would get to use them. The thrill got me more excited, and he promised to not actually whip me, so I agreed. He smiled and closed his eyes and I started running through the halls of the mansion. All was well until I ran into a booby-trap. I started sinking into the floors of one of the hallways...

He hadn't mentioned anything about booby-traps. This made me freak out because if he hadn't told me about the booby-traps, he expected to win the game, and he might have lied about not using the whip on me. I heard footsteps and freaked out more, fell all the way through the floor, and landed in a room. I started to run, and ran into more booby-traps and the halls were like a maze. I could have sworn Christian was around every corner. Then I came to a room with a panoramic window from floor to ceiling. The mansion was in a desolate, red, volcanic landscape. I could tell that I would die within minutes if I stepped outside the mansion.

I didn't know how much time had elapsed since the start of our little game, so I didn't know if it was safe to let him find me now. Somehow through my fear, I was still up for sexytimes. As long as there was no whip. Duct-tape I might tolerate either way, I like the feeling of sticky tapes. But no whip. So I continued to hide from him (didn't think to look at my watch to keep track of time, silly me. Might have gotten lucid if I had, too!)

Eventually he did find me, but it must have been more than 30 minutes because there was no whip and no duct-tape involved~




I took a nap around 5:00 and had this dream. I'm not sure if it was a WILD or not, because it was a pretty low level of lucidity. But I don't remember ever actually falling asleep or losing consciousness. Like, the whole time I knew I was awake in bed, but was still having this epic experience. Does that make sense?
Double-Layered Landscape

I laid down for a nap and wondered if I could WILD. A few times, I felt the shaking and had a really loud ringing in my ears, but I would slip out of it because of an itch I needed to scratch.

About the 3rd time this happened, I had been thinking about flying. Gradually my bed disappeared and I felt myself entering a dream with a low-ish level of lucidity... I Was flying and could look over a landscape sweeping below me.

IT was gorgeous. It was HUG. Everything was on a huge scale. I was flying very high up, and there were vast mountains and canyons and waterfalls all around me. the colors were also vivid and bright. The sky was dawn or dusk-ish; bright oranges and blues and purples.

I flew around at high speeds, watching for villages. The world was like a less blocky Minecraft. I wanted to know what was on the other side of this huge waterfall, so I flew over the edge of that. It was just like those videos on Blue Planet or Planet Earth. Right over the edge, close to the water. It was all mist and white beyond, so I flew down through the mist to see what was beyond it. I flew fast; for some reason I wasn't scared of hitting the bottom. Once the mist cleared, there was this amazing world BELOW the landscapes I had just seen. As far as I could see, there was a massive cave-like area. Moss grew all over everything; other than the moss and tons of luminescent flowers and leaves ground on the ground and walls and ceilings, there was no other vegetation. Streams of water fell straight down through holes to the over-world. these streams were scattered all around, and it was just so beautiful. I flew around down here for a while and then sought out one of the waterfalls back up to the overworld.

It was a much narrower one, with lichen and vines and those beautiful luminescent things surrounding me. When I reached the overworld, I flew up high again. I was in the mountains. I flew a little lower to search for a village; I wanted to interact with people.

I did find a village, but it was in the middle of an evacuation because of some monster that was going to attack. It, like everything in this world, was massive, I was told by a fleeing DC. I felt the dream slipping and slowly became more aware of my bed than the scenes around me. Then I knew it was gone, and so I opened my eyes in bed.

I am walking in a hallway with two other people, that appear to be 1 male and 1 female both in suits. One of them just finish their conversation with an assistant. As we continue walking for a couple of more minutes. One of them stated "did you see that shadow behind us?" The guy in the suit replies yes and without any of us saying anything else, we begin to walk faster. Soon we made a right and I remember saying I've been through that door located at the far left of the hallway before, it was from another dream.

Though the guy insist we take the other side of the hallway. It was at this time that it became apparent that we were running from something. The guy began panicking and told us to run. I quickly jump down a few stairs and rushto the entrance door. Ahead of me was the guy in the suit but for some reason he could not continue moving forward. I ran pass him and then realize the building was some how forcing him back. I pulled my hand out in a attempt to grab him back.

But the entrance door threw him back inside the building and the doors shut rapidly after. My knees fell to the ground, while the shoppers outside were either stunned or haven't notice anything odd. That's when I felt a tug, I began to struggle to get off the road. Felt as if my legs were glued to the road and soon I began to be pulled back to the store. The feeling of my skin being torn was quite consistent. I grab on to a woman shopping cart, then pleaded to her to not continue moving toward the store.

She look at me with a look of disgust and proceeded to ignore me. I then decided to force the cart around which contain her young child inside. This causes a rather unpleasant reaction from her, she begins making several attacks toward me. Which eventually threw me off the cart. Once that happen she prepares to lunge at me, so I quickly flop my hands and grab a chair from a blue truck. I made a swing near her face and told her to stay back.

She then insults me constantly. I took this time to feel how bruise up I am. I didn't even feel like I could walk properly. I sat down near 3 guys who were planning a way to deal with the chaotic building. I then realize I was dreaming after thinking about what ways would be best to stop the building. I ask one of the 3 in a white sweater, if it were possible to become lucid before hand. He began struggling to come up with an answer.

Then the one in the military shirt demanded answer about how we're going to engange this type of situation. I then explain to him that the building can control anything inside and we needed to destroy it outside without being in it's magnetic range. I started brain storming but before we could act on our plans I had woken up. Lucidity Time: 2 minutes.

I was with a large group of friends. They looked the the TV cast of uk shameless but some of them represented certain people to me. We were at the old lovers lane property in front of the barn. It was nighttime and we were just having fun. We were sitting on the ground and I got lucid and began exclaiming to the DC's that this was a dream and we could do anything. We could pop our eyes out! We could fly! Many of them tried to pop an eye out and take flight. The lucidity faded pretty quickly and I walked home because it was very late. It was 3am. I walked upstairs quietly. All the lights were on. Mom had been hanging Christmas garlands on the stairs. I knew mom and dad were sleeping. I went to take my contacts off. When I looked in the mirror I had no face. I shook my head, then I had a face but it was distorted. I went to bed.

I had a good length of lucidity but my recall is poor so I just wrote bits of what happened.

-I was with a dc who was holding a picture of Mary. I thought it was a picture that the dc wanted me to pray to. I told it to get it away from me. The dc told me not to worry because it was just a picture that was turning into a old person. I said "Oh, okay." and stayed with the dc.(Lucid)

- I was inside a place, outdoors where I was told to stay because God wanted to observe me. I was flying and met with another character but forgot most about what I did there when I woke up.
(Non Lucid and Lucid)
-I was inside my house living room with my dad. There was a centipede and another black centipede that looked like a scorpion. They were running around. I told my dad to kill them for me which he did. Than Selena Gomez appeared out of no where with a diagram of the harmless centipede she said had a water like body and the harmful one she said had a crunch to it. She mentioned how people are afraid of both but they shouldn't be worried about the harmless one.
(Non lucid)
- In another part of a dream I woke up on a bed and saw fin and Jake waking up. Jake said he slept good but Fin said his head felt heavy and that he slept horrible.When fin got up and started walking he tripped on a piece of bed cover that was on the floor. Either Jake or my dad told him that he was warned about that. Something else happened after that but i forgot.(Semi lucid)

- I was walking inside a lake with a group of people who were crossing for survival. A mother started complaining about how her stomach really hurt. I flew above the lake with a basket than landed in the water. A few guys got mad at me but I told them not to worry because I was planing on fixing the basket for them. I fixed it and than the dream took a different direction.
(Lucid)
-Ariana Grande and another guy were in my dream talking as if they had a crush on each other. Ariana wanted to color an already painted painting of a city with a orange crayon. I did it for her instead(Colored the clouds to make it look like it was sunset) because she was distracted with the guy. They left than I stopped and helped another girl named Josie(A girl in my old class but Josie is not her name. I just called her that in the dream.) fix her glass sculpture and get the room in order.
(Non lucid)
- I was inside my living room in the dream with my dad and little kids. The kids were coloring with markers. I walked to the window than a lady dc came out of no where and threw pills at me. I asked her why she did that and she said God told her to than left. After that I followed a little girl who wanted to show me something. I ended up in an unfamiliar house where a boy or a man was annoying me.
(Non lucid to Lucid)
After that I was searching for Dawn and a boy said he would help me. Someone gave me a plastic with two red years, A picture of a little boy with blonde hair and the name Alex that changed to Alexus. The boy was walked me through a hall, than into a room where we spotted a group of children hiding. The boy I was with tried beating them up but I held him back. Others tried joining in with the boy that wanted to fight than i was told to throw white powder at them. I tried but missed and woke up.
(Lucid)