lucid

Woke up around 6:00 AM, DJed a bit and then MILDed for about five minutes. Drifted off to sleep and had this:

7:45 AM: Maybe a FA? My wife tells me to not worry about having an LD: "It will happen soon." I am in some broken down, burned up city scape (day residue from watching clips of The Matrix yesterday) fighting colossal enemies that grow out of the ground. I am using one of the pole blasters from the movie Stargate. In the dream, the weapon is given to me by a hermanubis:



I blast one of the creatures a few times, then point the pole at some lit up squares above me on a burned out building. This activates an elevator. I plan to use the elevator to travel underground and attack the enemy's legs. At some point during this bit, I become aware that I am either dreaming or watching someone else's dream (??? C/R exactly).

I am running down some hallways. I see an odd-shaped item behind glass used for fires. I cannot tell if it is a fire extinguisher or an oxygen mask. I remove it and spray some gas out. I inhale some of this. It smells quite odd but seems safe enough. Not sure what happens after this.

After awaking from this, and feeling a bit worn out of trying to MILD, I decide to give myself a friendly auto-suggestion (as I have done in the past) and then practice SSILD. I practice SSILD for a little while. During this time, my wife wakes up and gets ready for work, the construction men are walking all over the roof doing who knows what, and I am just lying there.

Things seem to calm down though. My wife stops in to say goodbye, and I decide to roll over and sleep. As I roll over though, I decide to give SSILD one last shot. I do the visuals, then the auditory senses, and then come to my body. Here though I decide to just rest (instead of repeating the cycle). I suddenly feel the onset of REM--sort of like rushing sensation, but also a bit like a heaviness. I feel my body starting to slump over. "No, body--do not fall over!" I think--I don't want this to mess up the WILD! But of course, it isn't my waking body, but my dream body, and I begin to feel myself rolling outward in a semi-circle. At this point I realizewhat is going on--we're WILDing!

When I cease rolling, I have landed in some beautiful master bedroom--not my own!--and slowly get to my feet. I wait for a few moments, in case the dream is not set yet. I then carefully nose pinch. I a little air blockage but not a big deal because I am already sure I am dreaming. I immediately remember my 3-step task and begin to complete the fourth step. However, as I usually use my pocketses to summon items, imagine my dismay when I realize I am in my underwear! I still attempt to summon my phone from my underwear. I reach in, and pull my hand out real fast, saying "phone: be there!" I momentarily see the black outline of the phone in my palm, but then it disappears. I try this a few more times. I finally decide to do some other stuff, since Sensei said the goals for fourth step do not need to be completed in order. Before leaving the master bedroom, however, I decide to take off my underwear (?) as I feel they are useless to me

I place my hand on the wall of the bedroom, phase it through, and then phase through the entire wall. I then think of what else I wanted to do. I decide to look for StephL. This house is very nice--lots of wood and glass and sculpture and art around, and the floor is marble--and I feel odd shouting. I decide to contact StephL telepathically:

StephL, I think. StephL! I try a trick. Ah yes, I think, I remember now--I look around a bit and see a cabinet--StephL was definitely in that cabinet! I run over to the cabinet, but as I approach it becomes smaller--too small for anyone to fit inside. I realize it is unlikely she will be in here, but I open the tiny door anyway--empty!

I continue my rounds. I suddenly feel something bump inside my pocket (wait--pockets! WTF! I thought I was commando! ). Hey, I think--I bet that is my totem! I reach into my pocket and BAM! pull out my f***** totem. Fourth task complete. I am quite pleased as I know I have managed to get some points now. I pass a life-size version of my totem resting on the ground, and squat down in front of it. I feel it in both hands, still quite pleased with myself. I then continue my search.

I enter another master bedroom. On a very large bed--probably king sized--my wife is sitting, nude, wrapped up in sheets. She is smiling at me. I begin to walk over to her, but then remember I am on a quest. Sorry sweetheart! I turn and walk out of some glass doors into a screened-in pool area. Coming up out of the water is a beautiful, porcelain-skinned girl with long, blonde hair. She looks at me but doesn't seem ready to talk.

"Are you StephL?" I ask.

"No," she says. "My name is Katerina : some Russian patronymic that I don't entirely catch. She is treading water, and her mouth goes under the surface while she is talking, so I miss that bit.

"Can I swim too?" I ask. So much for my quest.

"Yes," she says, "But I am getting out."

I jump into the water, come up and then swim over to her. My fingers somehow get tangled in her hair. I pull them away gently, as I do not want to pull her hair. She lets me touch her. She is wearing a full-body, dark teal wet suit. She then says something demeaning to me, or kicks off of me, or something. This gets me kind of riled up

"I like girls who are a little mean to me," I say.

She is now climbing out of the pool, but she lingers a minute. "You're lucky I like retards," she says.

I laugh. "What?"

"Yeah," she says, "Retards--boys I can be mean to."

We are now sitting on a ledge, still in the water. I move in close and slide my hands along her waist. She feels nice. I suddenly remember the contest. What was I supposed to be doing? I slide back a bit, because I have thought of a good final task.

"Do you mind if I try something?" I ask. She shrugs. I quickly and forcefully push my hands out at her, with the intention of using TK to knock her backward into the water. Nothing happens. I try a few more times, and remember how CanisLucidus knocked over a speedboat rather effortlessly. I try doing the motion lazily, not caring. The girl looks bored. Oh well.

I move in close again.

And I think that is enough, Dreamviews.

I will say that the dream ended with me feeling like things were destabilizing; I focused a bit on my senses and managed to hold it together a few more moments before I woke up.

When I went to bed I tried to go straight into a lucid dream. I got a few fails until I got one where I was in a city and a giant owl like creature was released. But it only lasted for a few seconds and I snapped out of it. After that I kept trying and feel like I zoned out of it. I can't remember the dream but I know I had one for like a hour I think. I tried again and had a dream where I was semi lucid for a bit but when I woke up I forgot what it was about.

Invisible person(lucid)

I appeared on my bed and a invisible person was trying to float me out my house. I screamed but the person managed to pull me to my parents room. So I struggled until I appeared in my room and told my mom to tell it to go away. That's when the thing took over my mom, came up to me, than slapped me in the face and I woke up.

Detective(Lucid)

I appeared in a nice building where there were buisiness people around. Apparently someone was wanted for shooting someone but no one knew who. I think I shouted I knew who it was and somehow a guy went flying down the stairs/escalators. I'm not sure if that was my fault but I pointed my small gun to someone and two girls tried to convince me of something in another room. Than I woke up.

Stairs To God(Lucid)

I was at a park or in a place where there was grass and nature around. I saw people around than noticed a vivid DC. I tried touching him saying to myself he could be a real dreamer. He was about to enter a bright portal with his friends but he just looked back at me with a straight face. He said something like so what if he was a real dreamer. That's when I appeared on a bed in front of a wide screen TV. The boy asked me why I bother to see if a dreamer is real or not. I don't recall what I said to him though. After that I appeared in a huge place with my nephew. It looked like a survival facility that kept people safe. I went to look at the food they were giving and a guy shouted only 1 red colored pack of sliced bread for each person. I took one and went with my nephew to another part of the facility. We saw people and ladders trying to go way up into the sky or somewhere. Someone told me that they were the stairs to God. I thought it was weird and left the place with my nephew. We found books somewhere and I wanted to check them. But I woke up.

Invited To A Dinner Party (lucid/Semi Lucid)

I appeared in a family house where there was lots of people including my family. I knew it was a dream but wanted to go with the dream instead of do my own stuff again.(But I became semi lucid at this part) I walked to my family and a man showed us where to sit. I asked him if he put us in the back cause we weren't rich looking people. (Others were wearing very formal clothes) He told me that wasn't the case but I saw there were seats in the front.So I said "I'm not sitting there!" My mom told me to deal with it but I didn't want to so I left the room. A lady was showing people around and I wanted something to eat. I saw plastic plates on a top shelf and took a few. I asked where I could get food and she showed me into a room. I didn't see any food there so I kept looking, But out of no where she tried to kill me and a few kids there. I became fully lucid than managed to kill her somehow. I left the place and appeared in a house or apartment. I was looking around and saw people doing their own thing around the place. I entered one of the rooms and saw a guy in the room. He was telling me something/ flirting with me. I felt like he was my enemy for some reason though. Everything felt more real than before so I kind of liked it. But the guy started getting closer to me like he wanted to have it with me. I didn't want that but I thought I would trick him to think I wanted it than stab him or get rid of him somehow. But he pulled me close too fast, so I told him, No, I changed my mind. But he got right into me so I screamed. It felt too weird/real, even though I've never done it in real life. He stopped and got up after that confused,nervous and his appearance changed. I thought he was going to cry. He said he didn't understand. I said I didn't know who he was so I didn't want it. He said I was with him in another dream where we were sliding down or something. I said I don't remember that. That's when I noticed a mirror and told him "Wait, let me see how I look." I looked and saw I looked like myself mixed with another person/game like character maybe. The skin texture seemed different,(Like a final fantasy character)I was wearing makeup, my eye color was missing the brown in my hazel eyes and my lips seemed smaller I think. I still thought I looked pretty cool, I don't recall what I was wearing though. I said I looked beautiful and he agreed but I started to get distracted with something in the the room. When he started talking to me, I picked up a broken wood stick thing and tried fixing it for some odd reason. Than I woke up.

So i slept at 12 and woke up at 6 .Had some water, a granola bar and went back to relax on me bed,I used the Wild technique to lucid dream and when i got the vibration i used the rolling out of your body technique ,I ended up in some sorta ocean and always wanted to ride a sea scooter as soon as i thought this it was right beside me but it changed colors every now and then i went deeper into the ocean,And just as i had read online wanted to visit the city of Atlantis so i dreamed of it and lo it was there a huge shiny city and i don't know why there were diamonds all around everything was made from either gold,silver or diamonds.The more funny part is that i found MC Donald's don there and went inside and the funny thing is that there was nothing except mac and cheese i got out and saw few mermaid dudes looking at me,they had p90s and wanted to attack me i don't know how but i had a flamethrower in my hand and worked underwater!!I burnt down these guys and flew straight up in the air .Due to all these things i got very much excited and alas I woke up.This is my 56th perfect lucid dream till now....And here the sea scooter.

Not that I gathered many points - but I gathered lucid time, for my meagre standards quite a lot of time, even.
Did a WBTB, but again a short one, and not like planned...

LD #1: I was standing in the atrium of a house, maybe 3 stories high, looked like an office-building, I don't know how I got there. But looking down the hall - it just simply struck me, that it was a dream. Forgot to RC, but did that later on. What was on my mind first, was that Maxis had lucid dared me to die and survive it like a proper cat should be able to do. But what I did first wasn't trying something fancy, nor going after my 5 senses, since I ended up in the void by interrupting what I was doing before and especially upon lacking input from a sense, I search. So I slowly walked out of the building, as if nothing had happened. And that was a good idea, when I came out, the dream had nicely stabilized.

The idea had been to transform into a cat and then let myself get hit by a lightning strike. Somehow I had the feeling that I'm not up to full transformation, didn't dare try - and since I could also die and survive something as a human - I started weather-witching instead and conjured up rain and storm and darkness - but lightning eluded me. I was a bit afraid then if I'd get anything done and went flying - by jumping from a high cliff into something like a canyon. The plan was my 3-stepper super flight, into which I wanted to switch while in the sky, and maybe catch a deadly lightning strike under way. But - soo stupid - I suddenly had such an urge for the toilet, that it disturbed my air-swimming. Soo - what now, I think in mid-flight, and wanting to get something out of this LD in the last seconds, I grab my right eye, see if I can rip it out for the TOTM. Well I do - but not really - it stays on it's optic nerve, I get it out maybe 20 cm and then it bounces back in. No pain - no spectacular visual effects, either - but it feels slimy. Now reading back - I should have examined it further - what I can say, is that I saw it with my other eye, as a dark ball. Before I could go on and land somewhere and maybe cut it off with something, I felt I had to go so urgently, I woke myself up. And of course - nope - I didn't need a toilet irl - this happened several times before. Need to remember that once and for all - maybe stop moving my dream-body or just letting it go...

Dream #1: It's back - the old house. This time, though, it had been ripped down except for a small part, and all the place around it had been sold and integrated into city-buildings on one side, on the other was some garden left. I was very happy to be there, to know it exists, but later on I found out that even that last bastion had been sold, and there was a party with the new owners moving in suddenly appearing in my and a friend's living there. We were just living there, and they came in all dressed fancily and with champagne glasses, we had to first find out what they wanted, I couldn't believe it nor accept it, but I had to in the end...

Fragment #1: A woman stands at a table and wants to demonstrate something, takes her fingers and does as if it was a touch-screen and she would make the picture bigger. It screeched like hell, but that supposedly belonged to the new technology, where you could use anything as a monitor.

I guess I know exactly where this is coming from - Sivason and the wet oil painting thing, which I mentioned yesterday...

Fragment #2: Washing dishes...

Fragment #3: A kid with a sick guinea pig, and I don't want to check it, because I'm afraid it bites, looking somewhat sinister

Fragment #4: In a coffee shop, looking at the lots of cakes


Again didn't dictate something - hence the fragmentation...
And I try to keep that up - just pretending nothing would have happened upon lucidity, taking it slowly - that was good.

Lucid dream:
After I tried a WILD, but probably after a lapse in consciousness, I start visualising a street full of people (a scenario I have been incubating because several goals involve DCs)

There are lots of people walking in the same direction as me as I fly a couple of feet above the ground (a favourite way of getting around in a dream - helpfully reminding me that it *is* a dream!) and a few going the other way. I try to look at people's faces to see if I recognise anyone, but nobody looks familiar.

The street is familiar and I think it might be Dogpole in Shrewsbury (where I grew up) I nearly get distracted worrying too much about where the street goes, but realise that having a street in mind is handy because I can just let my subconscious follow the route and I don't need to think to much about generating more scenery. As I turn down the hill I realise that the street has become enclosed like a giant corridor in a shopping centre or the like. The sides of the street / corridor are a combination of shop fronts, redbrick buildings, and rich oak panelling. The ground changes from tarmac to satin finish white tiles.

Heading down the hill, I realise almost all the people I see are heading in the same direction as me which isn't very convenient because not setting their faces turns them into "traffic" rather than "people". I turn left at a junction at the bottom of the hill (I should have just stopped at the junction, but hey) thinking that I might see more faces heading that way, but my subconscious pulls a fast one on me and I turn into a large room that feels a lot like a swimming pool changing room.

My lucidity drops somewhat at this scene change, but I'm still just about lucid. I start faffing around with taking off my suit (apparently I'm wearing an expensive suit) carefully folding it and trying to lie it on a bench where it won't get wet. I notice a female DC who seems to want me to "interact" with her, so I oblige. My lucidity / dream recall fades out completely here.

NLD:
I'm in my suit from the previous dream, but I have been awake in between. I'm at Armoury Gardens (childhood home) getting ready for work, mum is there explaining why I'm in a suit to Sandeep (my boss's boss) and the explanation involves staying overnight at a relative's house but I don't remember the details. Alice (my sister) has a rather awesome electric violin in a nice case that seems to be designed for two. She talks about getting a chin rest for it, as the case has spare space.

There was more to this dream but it's very vague, I remember a spiral staircase and some gizmo or other but not even really enough to call a fragment

SammyTheSnake

I started out nonlucid, and I don't remember what I was doing before all this started: I was walking down some sidewalk in some neighborhood on a really sunny day, when something breezed past me on a bicycle. I looked to my left, and saw him turn to look at me briefly and smile before continuing on. He had to be like 8 feet tall, and gorgeous. Oh hell yeah. I started after him, but lost him. He zipped around the corner. I didn't see this part, but he got off his bike and started walking down the street. Only now instead of 8 feet, he was over 50 feet tall. And resembled a cartoon Homer Simpson. His feet thudded as he walked down the block, parallel to the one I was walking down. He didn't seem to notice me, but he morphed into a couple different gigantic forms before settling on a 50 foot naked black woman, stomping around this one house. I was suddenly filled with this urge to fly up and smack her on her shiny brown butt cheeks lol. As I flew upward, I realized I was dreaming!

I immediately landed and remembered the task about asking a DC to tell me a word in a foreign language. A young boy appeared, and I asked him to tell me a word in a foreign language. He said something garbled, and I asked him what it meant. He looked at me with a huge grin and, shaking his head, he replied, "I do not know!" I asked him for another one, same answer. So I flew off and found a young black girl sitting with her mom outside their house. Funny, it was night time now. I asked her for a foreign word and she said something that could only be described as tongue and throat clicks. I asked her what that meant and she said, "Go the way of Jesus."

I thought of the eyeball task right after that, and thought about going into their house and finding a bathroom mirror for the task. But before I went in, I decided to recap the basic task so I'd remember it better when I woke up. It was a good plan and a bad plan. I took the time to recall it, but then woke up before going into the house. Oh well, next time

Shame I start only now, when most of it is forgotten. But the lucid was just a mini-moment again - since I RCed - I count it for the comp, but not for my LD-count.

LD #1: Getting lucid at the end of a dream, in a garden, doing a nose-pinch afterwards. Sorry for the unspectacularness of it all...

Going to do a longer WBTB tonight, and really think about how to DEILD.

Dream #1: Also with a garden, but that was not the same dream, it was behind a building I worked in and I went exploring it. I was in search for the cafeteria, and chanced upon it. With some of my beloved ruins to climb through...
The story was about a huge building-complex and me new there to work. But the garden was good!

Fragment #1: At a party with some people I didn't see in ages.

I always seemed to dream more about people from the past - even in that past - like not of my boyfriend, but of before ones, but going on - so not because of me wanting somebody old back or something. Same with friends.
Anyway - I had so much more upon waking - but was frustrated by again just a hunch of an LD - very...

I can't recall my first dream because I didn't write it down. But in my last dream I actually tried getting lucid.(Which I haven't been doing recently) In my dream I was with my dad and he poured a plate of rice I got back into the pot. He said it was cause I ate already. I was lucid at that time and hid behind my dream guide who I noticed in the living room.(Cause my dad started acting violent) I was too anxious though and appeared in SP. I tried to wake up but it failed and a portal opened in front of me. It showed a quick clip of something happening. When it stopped a invisible person tried going inside me. I thought it was my dream guide at first but didn't let it get in me cause whenever that thing goes in me I have a nightmare about a scary little girl. (Although the invisible person felt kind of taller and big cause it sat on me at first)After that I saw a really bright light and everything turned white and I fell into a dark abyss filled with black/gray clouds. I thought I was going to die but remembered reading that when you fall into a dark hole like that you can use it to recreate the dream scape. So I relaxed and thought about a anime setting somewhere in japan. A boy appeared in the abyss and I pointed at him as I was falling. After that I was in a college or store or campus where there was another guy. I followed him out and wanted to see if it was a real dreamer or not.(can't hurt to try) I told him this was a dream and to get lucid but the more I told him he ignored me. I looked around and saw lots of kids around and came up with the conclusion it was a school. I told him I didn't want to come here and as he was looking for something in his bag he said he wanted to go to Japan. I said "Why would you want to go there"? Than remembered I wanted to go to a anime setting that was like Japan. Than I woke up.

On another note, Today I met my nephews puppy and found a sync between I and him maybe.(Not on purpose) A few days ago I had a dream I was in my house with him and a puppy with the same appearance and collar like the one in real life. There was another dog there too but it was not a puppy. It was a small fat dog. XD

A lot of stuff happened, and I had more than one dream, but I think this is all from the same one.


PART 1: I was living in a home similar to my apartment. My 9yo brother and mom were there, as well as another adult and another kid. I can't remember the whole story, but there was some kind of conflict within the family. The final part involved me putting my brother to bed and saying something comforting. I heard my mom go, "STOP," from her room.


PART 2: I was in my grandma's backyard at night with some other guy. He pointed out a big and bright red star cluster thing and said it was Israel (which is a star cluster according to dream logic, I guess) and that it was normally not visible were we were (a city). I thought to myself, I wonder if I can see the Pleiades from here? Sure enough, there was a smaller blue cluster nearby.

Suddenly, and I shit you not, the "Pleiades" start shifting around until they formed a large rectangular pattern in the sky, which proceeded to zoom away. "Holy shit, holy fuck, HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!" I said. I'm not saying it was aliens, but it was aliens.

But wait, I thought, I might be dreaming. I pinched my nose and sure enough, I could breathe. I was disappointed, but my attention quickly shifted to the fact that I was now lucid, and I remembered that I needed to keep the dream stable. My vision became narrow. There were two black bars above and below where my vision was, and I could see my glasses in front of my face. I felt like I couldn't fully open my eyes. I figured I may as well summon a girl while I was "there". It took a few attempts, but I finally summoned one.

My vision returned and the dream felt stabilized. I ended up in a house where two people were going at it on the floor. The one on top (not sure if it was a guy) moved out of my way, giving me full access to the girl. However, I had quite a bit of trouble entering her. No matter how much I tried to manually "open" her, my dream logic porn dick would not go in. I did manage to get inside of her once, but it was uncomfortable.

After that, I woke up, but I took me several seconds to fully realize it.

TL;DR Domestic conflict, aliens, and I finally got lucid for more than fifteen fucking seconds.


I just got an idea. If I were to see a UFO or some other paranormal thing in waking life like I did here, I would do a reality check just to make sure I wasn't dreaming (again, like I did here). What happens to you in waking life can affect dream events. So, if I watch a lot of YouTube videos about UFOs and whatnot, I might dream about them more, thus increasing the likelihood of me doing a reality check and becoming lucid.

It seems like it might work. I'll try this tonight. What do you think?

I had read on lucid dreaming years ago. In starting a dream journal I decided to try again, I gave up before from too many failures. The only thing I remembered reading was about using a trigger object as a dream sign. I told myself to dream clearly, remember it clearly, and to see a backwards 2 to trigger. I hadn't known about reality checks and didn't use any. This was last night..

I was talking to a tall man in front of a shop on the street. His skin was dark, almost as dark as his black leather jacket. He wore a dark blue shirt, jeans, and scuffed black leather boots. I can't remember the full conversation, but we began talking about two of something. The severity of the number dawned on me, so I looked at the window (a scenario I had imagined while awake) and sure enough I saw a large reflection of a 2.

"I'm dreaming! It actually worked!" I said. The man looked at me blankly as I had interrupted him. The whole scenery just went blank and the ground turned into fluffy clouds that were shaded pink and gold as the distance went on. I was aware that I was not in control of the terrain when a large stone wall shot up next to me, roughly 3 stories tall. I didn't want to waste time, I flew up/jumped uponto the wall. I made my clothes changed into an archer type style, a brown leather tunic with a green shirt underneath (it reminded me of Link from the game Zelda) I began to sing a lovely song, my dark brown hair fell golden from my roots to the ends of my hair, growing elbow length. I smiled and felt excited at how easy these changed were and how video-game-like.

Suddenly large vines scaled up the large wall, starting thin and then thickening as the vines arched off of the top of the wall and shot out into the distance, traveling though the end of that distance which was all cloud fluff. They became 2 feet or more thick, resembling what you see in Jack and The Beanstalk movies. I excitedly lept onto one of the vines and slid down the dip of it, running upward as it arose.. this was when my perspective changed to a 3rd person view and I saw myself run into the distance.

I lost my control and can't remember more from there. I dreamed on, but it was very nonsensical and not worth writing because the memory is so fragmented. I'll try again tonight and try to perfect some stability before running my imagination rampant.

I'm browsing DreamViews on my PC. I think that I am currently doing my WBTB.
There is something important I need to ask ~ Dreamer ~, but I cannot quite remember what it is.
I have the private message site open, trying to remember what it is I wanted to say.
Then, I spot some movement from the corner of my eye.
I could have sworn that ~ Dreamer ~'s Avatar just winked at me.


After some initial confusion, I think that she must have changed her Avatar to an animated gif, which does just that.
I think it is a pretty hilarious idea, because it is going to catch people off guard.
It might get people to RC if they notice...
I try to increase my awareness, given what just happened.
Hmm...
That avatar does look somewhat suspicious.
I poke it with my finger.
The avatar giggles and moves further into the screen a little.

"... Hello?"

The avatar then proceeds to climb outside of the screen and eventually ends up on my desk, still giggling.
It is so cute. But I resist the urge to poke it again.
The avatar points towards my left. I turn around.
~ Dreamer ~ is standing right next to me!
This comes as one hell of a shock. I immediately stand up.
I was in a semi-lucid state, but now, in the blink of an eye, I am fully lucid.

I run my fingers over the palm of my left hand to check my senses.
Everything is crystal clear. I can feel the individual patterns on my skin.
I haven't had a dream this clear in some time...
Oh... right... Dreamer!

"Hi..."

Really? That's all that I can come up with? "Hi"?
Well, I suppose I'm still a bit in shock from her sudden appearance.
She smiles.

"Hi Hyu."

I try to calm down a little. I point at my monitor.
Her voice is very soft, so I decide to reply softly as well.

"That was one hell of a trick."
"Which trick?"

I look at my monitors, and they are all blank now, with a purple haze around the corners.
This has happened many times before. I don't worry about it.
There is no sign of the Avatar.

"You made me realize that I am dreaming."
"Yes."

This is amazing! And the dream is so vivid and clear!

"Hyu, do you remember my dare?"

I wouldn't have remembered that on my own.
Lucid Dares

"I am to confront Faye."
"Yes. It is time to solve this once and for all."
"Yes... it is."

But you're right here in my dream.
I want to talk with you about all sorts of things.

"Go now. Faye awaits you."

She points towards the door leading out of my room. It becomes clear that Faye awaits me behind it.
I suppose ~ Dreamer ~ has a better grasp on priorities than I do. She is right.
The dream is so clear and stable, I need to use it to confront Faye.

"Thank you!"

~ Dreamer ~ winks at me, just like her avatar did, and then slowly fades away. Wow... what an amazing encounter.
I approach the door, but hesitate a moment before opening it.
I assert again that the dream is perfectly stable, and that my head is clear.
Yes, I am. Though I'm not entirely sure what to say yet. But that's okay, I'll figure it out on the fly.
I open the door with confidence, expecting to encounter Faye behind it.


To my surprise, this new room that I've just entered looks like some sort of an interrogation room.
One table, two chairs facing each other, and a big, probably one sided mirror.
Faye sits in one of the chairs waiting for me.
I'm not off to a good start. Not only does Faye look like Kate again, but I really dislike that this is an interrogation room.
I can understand why this happened though. It must have been caused by my determination to get answers from her.
I sit in the other chair and try to smile.

"Hello Faye."

She doesn't answer. She just stares down at her hands which are on the desk.
That's alright. I'll talk for now.
I recall positive memories we shared together. I retell those stories. (Unfortunately I don't remember this part of the conversation well)
But I can't seem to get any reaction out of her.
I gently grab her hands. She finally looks me in the eyes.

"I miss you Faye."
"We had so much fun together. I want to go on adventures with you again."
"..."
"The Faye that you remember is dead."
"..."
"I understand... What do you want?"
"No. You don't understand. And what I want..."

She smiles.

"I will destroy you. I will destroy us both."

She plays with a butterfly knife a little, then shows me the palm of her left hand, and then cuts right across it.
I can feel the cut in my left hand clearly. I look at it, and I have the same wound Faye has. We're both bleeding a little.

"You and I we are the same. We've always been."
"What has changed?"
"There is darkness within you. I am that darkness now."
"Nothing you do can stop me now."

This is not what I wanted to hear. But I suppose deep down, I already knew that things would never return to the way they were.
She also made it quite clear that I cannot remove her by force. What do I do now?
... first of all, I need a change of scenery. This interrogation room is inappropriate, it probably plays right into her hands.
Teraluna it is. I stand up and use the wing technique to teleport to Riven. Faye follows me. We are on a bridge close to Yuya's place.
She's no longer looking like Kate. She's looking the same way she did when we first met. She shows me her knife and says.

"I will never let you be with Yuya again."

I can see Yuya in the distance. She reads my thoughts. I make it clear that now is not a good moment to come over. She understands.
I look at the horizon. The gas giant that we are orbiting is experiencing a huge storm. It is quite beautiful.
This change of scenery was a good idea. I feel refreshed. And I know what I have to do...

"Oh Faye..."
"When I look at you, I remember all the good times we've had together."
"I will cherish those memories. I'll always remember you as the person you were, not as the person you have become."
"Whatever it is you are trying to do. It is not going to work."

I just smile. It is a genuine smile. I truly do cherish those memories.
And what I am about to say is going to hurt. But I know that it is the only way out.

"Faye... you are right. You always are. You and I, we are the same. And there is darkness within me... I do understand that."
"You do not... you have no idea. It will destroy you. I will destroy you."
"I know."
"No."
"You see, I've done a terrible thing."
"..."
"I didn't see what was wrong. I couldn't understand. So I have channelled all that darkness; all what was wrong, into a single dream character."
"You're making this up..."
"I needed for it to have a face. So that I could clearly identify..."
"These lies will not work on me!"
"Faye, I am sorry. I did not do this consciously. But it is all clear to me now."
"You are all that remains of that darkness. I will have to let you go..."
"No... I am your dream guide!"

Her voice has become faint. I can see fear and sadness in her now.
Is this truly the explanation I believe in?

"Faye is no longer here... My dream guide is dead."

I touch her face... one last time. I look deeply into her eyes. I can see nothing within them. You are no longer Faye.
Was it my fault that she ended up like this? Or was it beyond my control? I will never know.
But this is the only choice I have left. I take a step back... and then I let go...

"Goodbye Faye..."

She closes her eyes... and slowly fades into dust. The wind takes her away until nothing is left. Faye is gone.
Have I done the right thing? Was this really the only way?
Yuya approaches and hugs me. I hold her tightly.
I can feel her thoughts, her emotions, how helpless she felt, because this is not something she could help me with.
This was something I needed to solve on my own.

"Did I do the right thing?"

She gently answers:

"What do you think?"
"I think so... but I cannot shake the feeling that I may have taken the only path, rather than the right one."
"When there is only one path, is it not by definition always the right one?"
"Well..."
"Worry not. This was the choice you needed to make."

And suddenly I feel such relief. Like all the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. My dreams are mine again.
Yuya rarely gives me such a straight up answer. Instead she helps me to find my own.
But this time I needed to hear it from her.
I am so happy to be with her again.

We walk through her gardens, knowing that my dream will soon end. That is fine. I am exhausted.
I know that I can now visit Yuya again whenever I desire. That is what is most important.
But Faye is gone. Forever.

6:27 AM: My mom is driving me to school in the city (I never went to a school in the city!). We are running a bit late (. . . skipping some NL details, getting to the good stuff ). Once she drops me off and heads to work, I realize I have forgotten my lunch (a caramel and chocolate protein bar) and my bite guard (in case I want to take a lucid nap!). I turn and run back to the drop-off area, scanning the busy thoroughfare for my mom. Students and people are moving all over the place. I finally see her; she is moving back in my direction carrying my book bag. I think of several things to say, and one seems most appropriate: "You brought my bag." (Please don't try to make sense of this!)

She replies, "At least you said that." She seems grateful. Now that I have my things, I am heading (finally) towards school, when all of these emergency personnel get in my way. Seems there has been some sort of accident. I have to thread around behind them. As I do so, it occurs to me that I have no idea what my school is like on the inside. I know it isn't the first day, and I marvel that I have been on autopilot so much at school! I am excited to see what this new school will be like! I then nose pinch, in order to be certain I am not dreaming.

Ah, I see. I look around and notice a friend from WL. In WL he is a very towering guy, and he looks the same in this dream. I ask him, "So even this isn't real." It's more of a statement than a question.

He looks at me and nods. He then proceeds to say something deep that I have now forgotten. I decide that this DC is legit and ask him some more questions.

"Does the dream world contain stability?" I ask. "Does it contain stable locations?"

He shakes his head. "You create and control dreams."

"What is the most important aspect of dream knowledge?" I ask.

He looks at me as though he is a bit surprised or nonplussed. He then points at me, as though the answer is obvious.

"You mean controlling myself?" I ask.

"I mean controlling your mind," he replies.

We are now somehow in a small, empty diner. I ask him if he can help me control my mind. He nods and extends his hand. I take it and he proceeds to hurl me into the air towards the ceiling. I turn in the air and fall to the ground. My shin bangs one of the diner tables. This actually feels just like I imagine it would in WL--painful. I tell him so. He makes a face (like I am being a whiner) and points to a more open area.

As I am moving, however, it dawns on me that even pain in the dream world isn't real, and as I think this, the feeling evaporates. I realize I can't be harmed. In a moment, I remember Mancon's guide for flying (in particular, let the clouds suck you into the sky). I try this briefly but don't have time to work it properly as my pal has already grabbed me again and tossed me into the air. I now fly into a whirling ceiling fan and smack against the blades. This does not hurt, however.

My friend continues to sling me by my arm into the air. A voice comes over the PA telling me to come to the dean's office, but I realize I do not have to go, as I am dreaming. The theme from Mortal Kombat begins to play.





I am mid air (and mid-fan) when I awake. My heart is pounding and I assume the adrenaline pushed me out of sleep.

Non-lucid, Lucid

.../The further memory I have, I'm in an abandoned farm where its owner is a little nasty guy who didn't take a shower for months, he looks dirty and covered in sweat. His partner gets in place and takes off a sort of leather necklace he's wearing. It's like he hasn't take that thing off for months. I don't like what I see. He goes out where all the vegetation has grown without control. I remember it used to be a beautiful place, I'm sort of disappointed. There are three big dogs out there, when I see a lion hunting down one of them. It takes the dog from the neck and takes it away. I follow the lion until my hand becomes its mouth and now I'm holding the dying dog. I let it on the floor, but it's too late. I put it where the cubs can start to eat it/...

.../Now I'm in a car, with a friend of mine who recently I got to know he loved a Japanese TV series form the early 80's named Sankuokai. He's obsessed with the series and pretends this car is a space ship, although he's driving it backwards. I get concerned we can have an accident because of he's driving too fast. Finally I got to turn the car by changing the position I'm sitting on it. It's better to see things the right way. We get to the end of the road. We get out the car and see some hills in front of us. I remember this city was build upon what was going to be a huge burial ground in ancient times. I tell him, this place is a huge burial ground. Then I turn and see a known cemetery from WL which uses to be in my dreams. I point it and tell him that some disgusting things use to happen in that place when I'm dreaming it. It hits my head all of the sudden, what about if it's actually one of those dreams!? I look at my hand and I confirm it. I tell him laughing, actually it's a god damn dream. He doesn't seem to care. Another pal gets in, and they both start talking. I leave them and go to the cemetery, thinking about my sex drive that uses to screw things up. I walk next to the main gate, when it turns into a window and I see a couple sitting on a table. They don't look interesting, although I think perhaps I should force them to have sex in front of me, I'm sick of my sex drive. I ask them to do it, they don't seem to react. I take their clothes off and put the woman on the man. They start doing something although it's not enough. I'm starting to find the scene more disgusting than exiting. Another woman gets into the room. She looks like she has some sort of skin infection. It's getting worse, but I don't care. I want them to play dirty things in front of me. I lift her skirt, and the spectacle is too disgusting, because she seems to have a serious STI. I give up, I cannot see more of it. I go to the next room. There's a couple of friends from school times, they look better, at least they were the classic lovely picture. I'm not excited at all, I just one to fulfill what I wanted to do at the beginning, so I command them again to have sex in front of me. I help them to take their clothes off, it gets better although I don't feel excited, it's just fun to see that I can control it. I leave them in their game when an ex girlfriend, who appeared somewhere in a previous dream, gets into the scene. She start doing her hotter stuff, but what she says is disturbing me. I try to stop her but she's in ecstasy covered with slobber on a table next to a window. I'm surprised I didn't wake up with all the sex stuff happening around. I'm pleased I didn't wake up trying to control the dream, although I'm disturbed with all the disgusting stuff/...

* Woke up before the alarm clock went off. And couldn't go back to sleep.

I'm on a big amphitheater having some kind of advanced math class.
I solved one of the problems earlier than most, but I'm not really sure if I cheated or something like that.
I run down the stairs to the door and glance at a table on my left where's at least two or three guys that work with me.
I reach outside and I'm on a beautiful fishing port. Without stop running I dive into the water and swim back up to the port and enter the room again.
There's a friend of mine (R) sitting in my spot and we discuss the previous problem. He's really good and we spend some time there.
My alarm rings. It's 04:30am and WBTB time.
I went to sleep at 23:30 and scheduled my WBTB after 5 hours of sleep.
I got up in the dark. Noticed one of my cats around me. I should go to the bathroom but I'm too lazy.
I turn my office's light switch on (that's were most of my WBTBs are) but the light it's still dark.
I'm confused. That's not normal.
I realize I'm dreaming. (This is the 3rd FA in 4 or 5 days).
It's all dark. I go to my kitchen and start screaming lights, clarity, clarityyyyyyy!!!!
Things are clearer, but there's a round blurry and circular thing in the center of my vision. I go to the window and I don't know what to do.
Things are unstable and I'm pissed.
I'm about to fly or jump trough the window but I suddenly remember that I promised my girlfriend that would always start flying from the ground and not from a window
I start to feel my real body and sure enough I'm awake.
Damn I'm a noob.

First thing I remember about the dream I was shopping, first in a grocery store and second in a town near me where I wanted to buy some pastries from the bakery. I don't really remember what happened here though.

Next some guy kidnapped one of my friends brother and also locked up various other people for people to gawk at. I soon realise the situation and start saying that this is completely wrong because humans are not animals and this isn't a zoo. Next some lady came up (who was with putting humans in cages) and every protest I made she would just mimic and I found her really bloody annoying and even said how annoying she was in her face. Soon I was in some field, people were everywhere, including the kidnapper who looked like a teenager wearing a fake beard. I start to trip over or just fall casually and the kidnapper/woman (don't know who) was walking up to me to hurt me.

"I'm dreaming!" I say spontaneously. I soon realise, yes, I am dreaming and told the kidnapper to get out of my dream, which he did. Next I turned to the really annoying woman and tried to throw fire at her, nothing came out though, but the second time round I managed to get a fireball going which was blue and looked really blotchy and not like fire at all. I shot it out and instead of the woman, the kidnapper was in the way but managed to dodge out of the way.

Next I was in a public bathroom, the walls around the toilet were quite short and I wasn't wearing shoes so I had to walk on my toes so it didn't come in contact with the wet and gross ground. After I had done my business, a bunch of year sevens were right outside the cubicle near some kind of shoe-shelf and was talking about getting ice cream sundaes and I was self-conscious that if I stood up to pull up my pants they would see me (even though they could only see my top half). And I woke up pretty soon after that.

I should've done a reality check at that moment, but I've been slacking off in the waking world with RCs (oopsies). But I'm glad I managed to get lucid, I didn't even expect it to happen at all.