memorable

11/10/2012

1st Dream
Run into an old friend from school. I have been worrying about where to live when my roomate gets married next year and out of the blue this old friend invites me to live with him. I agree and we start to move my stuff in. I wake up and get pretty shitty when I realized it was only a dream.

2nd Dream
I am at my local library checkin out some new books to read. My hands are full and I have my girlfriend get my keys out of my pocket so we can get in the car. She does and we get in the car, but it won't start. As I look at the horizon I see about 20 huge yetis running down the hill straight for my car. I am not worried. All I can think is "fuckin yetis, now we're gonna be late". To what, I have no idea. The yetis run up to the car and begin to shake it back and forth like an angry mob. As they do this they transform into people. Very strange.

3rd Dream
I am sleeping in a hammock in the crows nest of a pirate ship. The view is beautiful as I awake but quickly turns dark and stormy. I have to come down because it's freezing cold and lightning is everywhere. I put on my favorite sweatshirt and head down to the hold. A girl I had a thing for in highschool is there wearing only a towel. She smiles at me, drops the towel, and walks up to me. I wake up. MAJOR BUMMER

This was the night of November 3rd/Morning of November 4th

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Pre-knowledge:
I went to bed around 6AM (Was up late drinking with my friends.) Only got about 4+3/4 hours of sleep. The dream got more and more vivid as it went on. I got more and more aware/lucid as it went on as well. I'm not quite sure whether it started in a street, my room, a mall, or the computer labs at my school. I'll just explain all scenes and how I think they go together.. Again, I will label violent/scary/weird parts in RED

The Dream!

I was at home, in my room. My sister kept bothering me. My friend Jesse came over. My friend Jesse is a pretty big stoner, so I asked my mom for $20 for marijuana.

We went out to this street for I don't know what reason. We were near a car on the side of the road. Two black guys kept talking to me about money and I said something along the lines of "Hey everyone has a use for $20 in today's society!" I turned around back at Jesse and my sister and there was a giant tree I had to go through to get to them.

In the next scene, its my sister, Jesse and I at some sort of store. We were just messing around at the store. Opening random items, tasting things we had never tried before etc. I was eating some sort of Ice cream with my hands as I walked down an isle. The isle slowly turned into the entrance to the computer labs at my uni.

There was a cop there, so I devoured whatever was left in my hand. I talked to the lady at the front desk to use the computers. She yelled to a teacher that his shift was starting soon (I had shown up for class.) There were a lot of chairs along the side of the wall, where people were sitting/studying. I noticed the lady was talking to my Composition teacher who was sitting in one of these chairs. For some reason I got really absorbed by his face. There were suddenly two of him and his face kept changing.

I became lucid somewhere around this point.

He started explaining some concept to me and I was envisioning what he said. He got to a climax in his speech about "YOU NEED PHYSICAL STRENGTH!" I was then on a beach. Me and a group of five people were at one end of a rope, and six on the other. The other team was pulling us pretty slowly. The rope went around a pole in the middle, so both teams pulled in the same direction. We were fighting over a very beautiful naked woman.

I gained some strength and in one big jolt, won the game of tug of war. All the other competitors disappeared once it was over. It was me and this beautiful girl on a tropical island. The island was completely square with beach on all sides. Nobody could get off of the beach as the rest of it was ALL thorns. I kept trying to have sex with this girl, and the scene kept getting creepier. It got really stormy. We turned around one of the corners of the island and down the beach I saw a very strange figure. It was a giant monster. I grabbed the girl and said "It's okay it's only a dream."

I tried to make the monster go away, but I kept focusing on it. It was still slowly approaching. I saw a ton of eyes looking at us from the thorns. The monster kept changing form/shape which is why I was attentive to it. I realized I was paying too much attention to these details, so I turned 180 degrees. Everything disappeared without attention on it. The day went back to normal and the things were gone. I ended up talking to the girl/teasing her in the water. Because I was lucid, I wanted to know what its like underwater, so I tried summoning some goggles. I wanted to explore.

It didn't work, so I turned around and to my luck, there was an ambulance floating in the water. I kept trying to open the things on the ambulance knowing there would be goggles inside. I couldn't open it, so I just ended up going underwater without goggles.

It was beautiful. The color and clarity were so vivid. There were small white fish as far as the eye could see. There were pink streamer like seaweed strands floating in the current, like they were hanging down from the top of the water. The ocean bed was covered in coral and other wild life. There were giant snails and there was a very tall coral formation. There was an octopus on the side, and a mermaid laying on top in a giant white anemone.

At this point, my phone woke me up (Stupid low battery .) I didn't want to waste the day away, so I didn't go back to bed. I am ready for REM rebound tonight!

I am in some bar, and there was Helena Havlova working as a bar tender along with some other girls. What is interesting that they are working without their top on. And she has really nice breasts and tanned skin. I wanted to talk to her, but then I end up talking to her friend that is also pretty.
Later I am sitting by a table with George H, his father and younger sister. We set out to play some card came, probably poker. Old H says something that I play against three Havels, and so that I am going to win so or so as they or come from one family and I will be taking money from them. So I say that they are playing for different teams so it is impossible.
Then we actually playing something like a baseball. Its set on the side of our house in CZ. My brother, Pavel and Dan are playing too. Actually it seems its only us playing now.
I do play well, but at one point when someone shoot the ball in a way that we would loose the point, I throw an apple and shoot the tennis ball (that we play with) down with that apple. My brother is looking at it in disbelief and Pavels is cracking up with his typical laugh. I am laughing too, saying that it was just a coincidence.
In fact I am laughing so badly that I wake up!

Hey guys, so first off, I want to say that I've had about 5 LDs, but I've unfortunately only written about one. I will definitely start wrtiting in here more often. Also, I want to say that I have good dream recall now, so I can remember dreams almost every night. Alright, so here I go. This morning, I woke up and didn't move. I didn't have any dreams (I don't think) and I was probably mostly asleep when I just briefly thought about LDing (I didn't even plan on LDing) when instantly, my body started vibratingand I couldn't move. It felt like my foot was asleep, except on my whole body. I couldn't mistake that it was SP. I closed my eyes so I wouldn't see any hallucinations. Here's the weird part: When I opened my eyes, I was in a dark field, even though I was still in SP. I closed my eyes, and almost instantly, I was thrust into a LD. When I opened my eyes, it was dark, and I was in my front yard (We live in the middle of the woods). There was a man standing next to me in a wrestling mask (could he be my Dream Guide??) And he was telling me to vote on something. Let me just say, everything was more vivid then life, and I could FEEL the weather (it was freezing.) I told the man (I was lucid) that if I was voting, I wanted to use the electronic voting booth. The only reason I was doing this was to practice summoning. Instantly when I looked over, there was a bright voting booth. When I looked towards my house, I could see my dad sitting in a chair at the door. I closed my eyes and tried to imagine downtown Atlanta (I live in Georgia.) Nothing showed up. I walked inside, and my dad was talking about the weather to my mom. I asked him if he would drive me to Atlanta. He said yes, and when I looked out into the front yard, in between the woods were semi trucks like a truck stop, and a plane was landing overhead. The lights were more vivid than real life. It was Atlanta in the woods! There was a parking lot on the side of our house, and he said we would take the big bus (we don't have a bus). We got in and the whole place was red, with TVs for windows. He said that when he got on his phone, the bus ride would intensify, and then I woke up.

I'm hanging out with this one girl. Brunette, small, and would be average looking, but she makes up for it with deep brown eyes, and pure sexuality. There's another guy who doesn't really know what's going on, and we're just all sort of there chilling. What I mean by not knowing what's up is she's sitting in my lap wearing a skirt with no panties, and is pulling me out from my pants. All while we're having this conversation with this other guy who's drinking. A good song starts playing, and she forces me inside her, and starts moving. We both move with the music, and I'm trying my hardest not to just get totally erratic. We're whispering in each others ears about how good it feels while constantly daring each each other to grind harder. Then her BF walks in. He doesn't seem to mind that she's in my lap, but I stop gyrating. She's sitting down all the way on it while talking to him, and as soon as he left, we both continued and came. I straightened out all of my stuff, and I really didn't know what to say after that, other than ask her if we could do that again some time soon...like in a few minutes, because I was almost ready to go again.....then the dream faded.

I'm in a hotel room..there's some redhead with me. Absolutely astounding. Super long natural coloured hair to her feet, alabaster skin, freckles green eyes, the works. I don't know that I'm with her in that way, because I really don't know what's going on. She tells me about the party I was at....and I'm not sure how she knows. Then she gets furiously upset with me. She says I was with her at the party. I'm thinking "no that was totally a brunette chick", but I don't let her know that, but it still doesn't matter. She's mad at me for pretending like nothing happened. She runs into the bathroom, starts calling me a bitch, whore, pussy, you name it. I'm trying my hardest to keep my temper, while trying to calm things down, but soon I get angry. I told her that I wanted to be with her and all that jazz, and "bitch" kept coming out of every other sentence, so I ran to the door, and broke it in two with three hammer fists, and she's like "hit me", "do it". I said "I'm not that kind of guy, but you have to listen to me, I want to be with you". D and some other girl comes in, and pulls me away from her, and the red haired girl storms out. The other girl asks me what happened, and I finally calm down and started explaining. I told her everything, and got really emotional...like on the verge of tears because the one girl I was with in forever had left me that quickly. I stopped and held it in, and said "I'm over it". Then she started coming on to me. We were talking about business and pleasure, and I told her we would definitely have to meet up again. She was a brunette, with a tight green shirt, and blue jeans....possibly Puerto Rican....we left....


And I'm at another get together with D, JH and some other people. I'm telling the story about all the craziness that's been going on, when the cops show up. JH finds some powder that someone left, and get this, he smells it to check if it's coke! I said "damn! fucking taste it, don't smell the shit!". Cops getting in closer....one comes up and questions me, while everyone else sort of leaves except D and JH. She asks me if I knew some guy...and I told her no. She tells me he's some sort of athlete, and I'm like okay". Then she says in a really deep voice "well people say I sound like him". I told her, "no, unless you try to like you just did". Then this flood of people started walking in from all directions. I weaved through the crowds while the cops practically got engulfed by the entrapment of people. I headed down a few halls, and met up with D again...we were both smiling that we made it out of there. He said JH had took another direction, but we were going to meet up with him. We were both hungry so we headed to a lunch room, and all those people were in line.

Then I'm talking with D again, and he's telling me how he had sex with J....I'm happy, because one of us needed to do it.


running out of time...but there's this crazy batman dream that I had. I was robin....throwing batrangs...presidents wife, knocking people out....crowd going crazy....batmobile....hopefully I can remember this when I get back to it.

12-01-12. Last night was an intense night for me, in my dreams. It started out as me tied to a chair in a sort of vomit-green colored room and there was someone else tied to a chair next to me plus two men standing in front of me, one with a ski mask on and the other just a random person. The man with the ski mask was pointing a gun at my head and i was trying to reason with him but nothing was working. Then in the dream i thought to myself "i'd never be able to keep cool in a situation like this" and right after that the man with the ski mask shot me in the face. The first and second bullets i felt go into my face (it stung) and i was still seeing normally as i was getting shot. I could feel the bullets getting lodged into my brain. Then the blood came and got in my eyes making it so that i could not see. after the second bullet hit me i felt a separation from my body and i could see myself fall over dead and i fell to the ground still strapped to the chair. Then i started floating up away from my dead body and i jumped awake. The same dream happened later that night again i just dont remember it as well.

It's been a while since I've had a vivid dream like this one, but that's only part of the reason that this dream was so asonishing. Well, maybe astonishing is not the word, but it certainly surprised me to wake up and realize that it wasn't real.
I really can't remember the plot of this one that well, but there was one main point that really sticks out to me. A girl that I know from school, whom I don't that well, kept insisting on giving me a blowjob. Now, it being a dream, one would assume that I would take her up on her offer, but I wasn't lucid. Instead, I treated it very seriously, since I thought it was all real anyway.
So what did I do? I couldn't really decide what to do, so I kept dodging her, but I was always sure to never completely say 'no.' I was really torn. Part of me really wanted her to do it. Let's face it, I'm horny and that sounded great.
However, another part of me thought that it wasn't that great of an idea. I was surprisingly logical about the situation. I knew that I don't love her, and I didn't really want her to be the one I would lose my virginity to. I also wouldn't want anyone to find out, should we actually do the deed.
By the time I woke up, she never did blow me. Oh well, I guess it's nice to know that I have morals, even in the dream world. It really does make me wonder though. Had I been lucid, would I have taken her up on the offer?

It was a very short dream and i only remember this 4 hours after i wake up

We were talking with someone for how i should do my haircut i suggested that i make it short mohawk and he
always said "no man", "nah"

Today Djpatch999 persuaded me to try and WILD. He'd attempted the night before and thought it'd be a useful exercise for me. He lent me his headphones playing pink noise and set me off on my task. A few conditions that probably should have been considered before this experiment were the fact that I;

- am ill and have been for a few days,
- Had taken some medication that day and was still under its effects,
- Had been watching horror films the night before at about 2am and earlier in the evening when I was not able to sleep because of the first reason.

After a while of trying to relax to the brink of unconsciousness by keeping very still and focussing on just my mind I managed to feel my limbs loosen up and stop twitching or moving. I'm one of these people who's limbs can barely ever keep still. Whilst this was going on my mind was flitting between many different thoughts. After some more time had passed I noticed my body go very very cold. This was even more prominent to me because I'd been having a hot flush within my illness as I attempted this. Once my body had gone really cold I began to notice that one of the thoughts my brain was switching to was a little different to the rest. I didn't realize this had happened till alot longer after I had woken up.

This thought then began to develop into a dream. I think it was part-way through when I joined it because I was in a pitch black forest and I had been running away from something very fast, and very hard as there was adrenaline filling my body. The reason I think the dream was part-way through is because I knew I'd been with a group of people before and now I was all on my own. Somehow in my mind I knew everyone in that group, including my boyfriend, was dead. This thought petrified me and threatened to send my dream self into hysterics, whilst I'm fairly sure my breathing actually remained normal along with my heartbeat. I looked around me frantically searching for the thing that had been chasing me and I heard and felt a really fast rustle/whoosh through the undergrowth so I turned on my heel and started to sprint again.

Apparently it could be seen by the other person in the room with me that my hands were starting to twitch and jerk at the time and it was evident that my eyes were moving very quickly and panic stricken behind their closed lids.

As I sprinted away this time I could feel something had changed and I knew I was going to die. I was terrified and completely panicked. I kept running and suddenly felt something grab my arm and before I could fall to the ground I woke up suddenly, finding the other person in this experiment stood over me beginning to turn the pink noise off. When I awoke I could tell my right eye-lid had been twitching heavily on my body which corresponded to the franticness of my 'dream'.

It was pretty scary stuff. :L

I had a lucid dream last night, my 5th! This one was the first one vivid enough to actually write about. It was short, but sweet. And I think I've broken a long dry spell after attempting to get back into LDing!


I was in one of my classrooms, at a desk. I looked around for a while, bored. I decided to idly nose RC. I do that often in real school. I found that I was breathing through my held nose. It felt like my nose was running, but I could still breathe. I looked down and tried to count my fingers, losing count multiple times. I got pretty excited. I looked around the room again. I have never had a dream this vivid. The entire thing felt completely real. It was so bright, too. I was surprised. All I can remember that was out of the ordinary was that my teacher was not the right teacher for the class I was in, and a thin, faded black border around the edge of my vision. I got out of my chair, thinking of what to do. I walked over to my teacher, holding my nose harder to confirm that it was a dream. I was going to slap him in the face just for fun, but wasn't confident enough. I turned around and walked to the classroom door, thinking of what to do. I told myself that my friend was just outside the door. When I opened the door, my friend wasn't there, and some visual distortions and purplish-blue spots faded in and out of my vision-something that happens when my dreams collapse. I stopped thinking and they slowly stopped. I walked down the hall, finally remembering I should stabilize the LD. I was pretty excited at that point that i was able to stop the distortions. I walked to one side of the hall to rub my hand on the wall, hoping to stabilize the dream, but that is all I remember.

This dream isn't recent, but I wanted to post this first because it's been on my mind lately. In the dream I cheat on my boyfriend with a stranger, and kill myself. I've never considered cheating, or killing myself. However, the dream came at a time when I was considering a break up. I look at the state of the water throughout the dream. The raging, relentless ocean. The running water. The tranquil pool.

I am traveling in a group of five. We set off across the world, seeking a way to keep it from ending. This world is winding down and the end is eminent. Our efforts are futile. Yet while I travel with them I find I can hope. We come to the ocean, it is vast and ceaselessly tumultuous. The waves tower and crash, and we walk between them, on rough stone platforms. I'm trailing behind the others, and I realize they wouldn't care one way or another if I left them. I do not speak a word, I just decide to leave. I turn around and make my way home.

I am approaching my house. The forest meets my back door, the smooth golden path transitioning prettily into a single stone step. The door stands open. I hesitate knowing that as soon as I go inside, I may not be able to leave. I considering trying to find those I have left to their quest and then decide that it is hopeless. How would I even know where to look?
Inside the house it is cool and dark. I feel a sharp stab of sadness, thinking that I will find the house empty and that my boyfriend has long since left. I notice that the floors are a white/grey tile, there's an L-shaped sectional in the middle of the room with blankets piled on it. There are dark brown curtains covering the far wall, to my right is a wall of glass blocks. I know the bathroom is on the other side. I keep thinking that I can hear water running. I walk to the end of the glass block wall and step into the long hall preceding the bathroom. There's a sink there full of water, and a maid who has been dusting the drapes walks up beside me. I think about how easy it would be to kill myself now before my boyfriend has discovered the depth of my betrayal, and with that thought I remember having sex with a stranger in an alleyway when we first realized the world would end. I think about slitting my wrists in warm water, and about asking the maid to draw it for me.
"I know what you are thinking. It is not as bad as that, is it?" she gestures behind me and I notice movement on the couch. There's a person under the blankets, he rolls over. It's my boyfriend. Tentatively I allow myself to believe that I do not have to tell him what I've done. I go to kneel in front of the couch. He refuses to look at me.
"Hey," I begin, "it isn't too late! I came home." my throat feels thick, like I'm about to cry. I worry that he knows what I have done to him, and doesn't want me anymore. "We can go anywhere, just you and me. We can watch and wait for the world to end, together."
He turns his back to me. I plead with him, but he has ceased to exist. There is now only a pile of blankets on the couch.

What now?
The maid has drawn back the drapes. The entire wall behind the drapes is glass, one panel slides back. I know what I will do, what is the point of drawing things out? My world has already ended anyway. My feet are bare and the floor is cool beneath them. I'm wearing a white sun-dress with large red flowers on it. I step to the edge of the tile. My house stands so high off the earth that even the titan trees on the ground below seem tiny.
"Yes." I think, and take a shaking breath. This is where I will find release from my grief. I stare out over the valley. Then I close my eyes, and I dive neatly out into the air.
I can actually feel the wind on my face, the longer I fall the more free I feel. The air streams past me. Intuitively I know that I will land in water, or that I must. I became aware then, that I am dreaming. My mind resisted the dream, telling me three separate times that I could choose to wake up, that hitting the ground would be the death of me.
"No." I thought, "I want to see how this ends."
So I fell, and fell, and fell. I could see the tree tops and directed myself toward it because I knew there would be water at its center. By then I am without all the pain that was with me when I jumped.

When my body hits the canopy my mind separates from it. I am crouching beside a tranquil pool when I see my body tumble like a rag doll through the trees and plunge into the water. I stand up and walk out to the body. I know it is me, but she no longer looks like me. I take her wrists in my hands and pull her from the water, dragging her beneath a tree and arrange her among the roots.

I leave her there and go to find the others in their quest to save the world.

11.30.2012

Me Vs. Ganondorf (Windwaker) (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was controlling Link from Windwaker mentally, or maybe it really was just me in his outfit, and I see Ganondorf is preparing to run up the long and twisted castle stairs forming into the right side. There's a red carpet materials in the middle of the stairs, and it leaves about 1/4 of the width of each step from both left and right sides exposed.

This endeavor in the dream was fairly simply, hunt down Ganondorf and face him off. Before I run up the stair to get to him, for maybe 20 seconds, I was in the area behind the start of the stairs going up. There were turquoise walls composed of stacked like bricks, but with a completely different material.

The flooring was also turquoise, or maybe slightly grayer than the walls. I see Ganondorf is standing there with his two swords, and he's about 10 feet away from me. I quickly prepared my Light Bow, and it shot through Ganondorf like it would for any other entity of evil.

However, it doesn't seem to affect him at all. He quickly runs up the stairs, and I get this sense of exhiliration. Going after the bad guy, hearing the "Hyrule Castle Ganon" Track from the Legend of Zelda Twilight Princess.

As I'm getting to the apex of the stairs, I could sense something bad was going to happen. I see Ganondorf in a different form, from Ocarina of Time. I get this quick imagery of him opening his mouth and has his eyes wide open, as if to scare me.

The dream resets, and this time, when I reached to the stairs, I believe I encountered him, but I forget what happened next.

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11.30.2012

I'm Floating Over a Sea (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This dream feels similar to a Winder Waker ocean envrionment. It feels like I'm in the body of Ganondorf from Ocarina of Time. I'm at least 200 feet above the sea.

I can't believe how much I'm stabilied by floating, and I start seeing incomplete forms of several islands from the Windwaker series. They all started out as gray colors, and then began to accumulate more detail.

However, because I'm lucid that I'm floating above the sea, which REALLY scares me, because I don't want to descend into it and face whatever mystery contained in there.

My fear of this makes me descend slowly to sea level, and before I knew it, I woke up out of fear.

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11.30.2012

Almost Becoming Lucid (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember walking on a side walk, and as I'm randomly talking to whoever,

"Hello? Yeah....I......uhmm."

Then I woke up before I could get the chance to become fully lucid.

*sigh*

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11.30.2012

Outset Island (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember wanting to take a family member to Outset Island from Windwaker. I don't know why exactly, but I just wanted to.

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11.30.2012

U.S. History Discussion Class (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm at the discussion room I usually go to for U.S. History class, and there seems to be quite a few people in a small area.

The flooring is vanilla, the walls are the same as well, and there's more than enough white lighting inside. I was probably sitting at the back rows on the far left side that's closer to the left wall.

The reason I'm confused is that I have another dream shift, but that will be mentioned later. I hear my discussion teacher go on in random declarations, and I don't really pay too much attention to the details until he calls my name.

I quickly jolted upwards, like literally half a feet. I quick put on a dazed and confused facade, waiting for his question, but I can't remember what it was.

Then the dream shifts, but I think this would've been a DEILD if I had been aware. Anyway, I'm sitting in the front or somewhere near the teacher, and I think he asks me a question that I was engaged in.

Funny thing is about the dream, in waking life, I had a discussion meeting for History today, and when no one didn't know the answer to the teacher's question, he said he would randomly pick out someone.

He screamed out "Brandon!"

I was shocked, but fortunately, there's another Brandon, and he picked him instead.

Hahahahaha.....that almost made me go crazy.

11.25.2012

Fingering A DV Member or Batgirl? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I ended up fingering some girl that looked a lot like a DV member I rather not mention about.

She has black hair that's curled into a ball, with the ends being spiked out. Her skin complexion is that of a Caucasian, and she's fit, but has a slight pudge on her stomach.

I like girls like that, or maybe I was liking her because I was going to do sexual things with her.

Spoiler for 18+:

At first it was anal fingering, and then it was vaginal fingering. I take one finger, then put in two fingers with my palm facing up.

The dream shifts sightly where she's on top of me, and I'm lying down on the floor. She's sitting with her body perpendicular to me on the left, meaning her legs are near my left side. I ask her a question, which was probably to finger her vaginally.


She responds, "Okay sure."

She quickly gets up, sits down and prompts herself into the Spread Eagle position.

I felt the squishy-ness, she's wet as fuck, and I saw a little tiny drop of blood dripping from her vagina. Don't tell me I fingered her virginity away....

I find that special little bump females have and kept rubbing it. She has the expression of, "Oh Shit," and as I'm getting deeper, her breathing augments, and shortening in pace.

She starts vibrating with sexual euphoria, shaking, and I'm trying to hold her with my free left hand, but it's not enough. She orgasms, and she twitches her legs, rotating them towards her vagina at a 45 degree angle.

Later on, I end up talking with Batgirl. Something is odd about her. She feels completely different than before, and I can't recall what she was before.

I had a feeling I was fingering her before or something, because she looks at me with a smile on her face, like, "You just made me orgasm with just your fingers" happy face.

So instead of friendzoning, I get a list from a fairly large notepad, and then I mentioned to her how we can do more of the fingering, and much more later on with her.

There's definitely something about Batgirl's smile that bothers me, it's like I've been socializing with her before or something. She looks peaceful, as if she can feel safe whenever I'm around.

Her exposing this fragility to me, especially when she still has her masks on gives me mixed emotions.

Things that I feel for dream characters.......

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11.25.2012

Desserts (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember going to some area at a top floor. The carpet is green, the lighting is a diluted orange color that spreads across the environment. It's the type of lighting that makes me imply that it's night time.

I saw a bunch of desserts ready to be served.

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11.25.2012

Akashic Records - Flashes of Intuition (Note)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

So I decided to meditate while inside of a vehicle. I wasn't driving mind you.

I always assume that I have to travel somewhere to find my Akashic Records, or have some kind of puzzle solved before being "deserving" of my records. I watched a certain video on Teal Scott over the Akashic Records and how to access them, and deep meditation seems to be the best method for me.

Since I barely become lucid anyway, I might as well take the time to deconstruct my thought patterns, and hopefully overcome that mental state where sporadic thoughts are abundant. If I can get past that stage, I can reach a state of tranquility, and access the records from there.

It's really just intuition at it's finest. I asked for advice on how I can be productive more on my blog, and how I can get more views and all that. Not this blog, another one, and I won't link it because I don't want to get an infraction or possibly banned.

Anyway, I started getting ideas popping in my mind, all sorts of very enticing things I can do. In fact, I'm going to do them now before the end of the night, and I'm doing fairly well in ideas at least.

I'm still getting a writer's block, and with so many things to worry about like not failing my exams and such, maintaining the other blog with over 1,000+ views within 4 days...I'd say I'm on the right path, I just need to keep this up.

I've noticed that it's good that I'm sublimating my tl ; dr ability into making a lot of blogs in the future. It should be fun, and I plan to access my records again tonight. I really would like a path on how I could talk with my tulpa.

Because if that can happen like before my exam, shit....I'd be fucking HAPPY.

Sigh....the only way to find out is to do this meditation state well, and start getting serious, because I know there's a way for me to overcome all this stress. If not, I might be fucked for life, and I just might...never mind.

Last night was my first night without being high at all for quite some time, and this is officially my day one of no smoking. I've read that cognitive deficits from weed should disappear within about seven days of the last usage regardless of how long or how many times it was used, so hopefully within a week I should start seeing some good improvement to my recall and vividness.

I was stressed out as I went to bed last night and so I wasn't expecting my dreams to be anything spectacular, but as it turned out I didn't really get anything at all. I had one of those insomniac nights where you just roll around in bed working through (usually stressed) thoughts that make perfect sense at the time but are hard to recall when you fully wake up, and you feel like you kind of slept even though you can recall just tossing and turning in bed all night. I used to have them quite frequently, so it's no surprise that one would happen as soon as I stop smoking. This is actually an interesting subject to me though, as I've read before that those times are actually NREM dreams where you just feel like you're still awake but really your low-functioning consciousness is just sort of delirious and feeling overexerted.

I've been looking into the differences between REM and NREM lately and found that one of the big things is that acetylcholine levels are very high during REM but very low during NREM. That makes me think about hallucinogens, particularly dissociatives (NMDA receptor antagonists) and deliriants (muscarinic acetylcholine receptor antagonists). They both have core effects centered around lowering of acetylcholine activity, and they both have a curious side effect of being able to cause you to see your environment through closed eyes. They also, especially deliriants, both inhibit your ability to think rationally to a degree (or completely, depending on the dose). I have to wonder if there's a link between the two? Could it be that these NREM insomnia dreams are actually just the same low acetylcholine levels causing us to see a projection of our rooms (or wherever we're sleeping) behind our closed eyes as we roll around in our sleep and think poorly-formed thoughts?

It's hard to say for sure because I don't know exactly what part of the brain is responsible for that effect, I just find it interesting to think about. I guess that's about all I have to say for this entry.

#1 - Just Trying To Be Spontaneous [DILD]

I don't actually remember the part of this dream before I got lucid, I just know that as soon as I did I started stabilizing by rubbing my hands together and I didn't stop for basically the entire dream. The first thing I remember is being, I believe, in front of my house with J and N and trying to stop trucks and buses in the road by pointing at them and yelling "Stop!" as I have in a previous lucid, but it wasn't working at first. Once I adjusted my technique a little (hard to describe how exactly) it worked though, and I was satisfied. I can't remember if we did anything more with it, but the next thing I recall is deciding that the three of us should walk into this random nearby house and see what's going on. The house and the people inside seemed totally real and random, I can't recall where my mind might have created that house from. All of the DCs, of which I think there were three, were older Asian people, one man and two women if I'm not mistaken (though the memory is a little bit hazy). I can't remember if there was more in between that and this next part, but I'm pretty sure that when we walked back out of the house the door lead to a totally different environment. We were in some kind of fancy hallway and in part of it there were these two gigantic doors that I was sure would lead to somewhere amazing. I told them to believe that the doors were going to take us somewhere cool, but when I opened them it was just like a tiny empty closet space. ._. We walked in and shut the doors and decided the room was still pointless, so then we headed back out. Suddenly there was a view to the outside and as I stared into the sun I vaguely recall hearing Penny from The Big Bang Theory saying something about having a Jewish boyfriend in the sky, or something confusing like that.... When we turned around we were suddenly on the rooftop parking lot somewhere in the middle of the downtown area and there was someone standing near a black sports car with all of its doors open like they were waiting for people to get in. Around this time N became O and I turned to him and J and said "Come on guys, we're going for a drive." Or something like that lol. We get in with me in the driver's seat and I hit the gas. We end up driving forward over the side of the building and they're both freaking out, but I'm just trying to pull the steering wheel back until finally the car tilts up and I have control of it like a plane. It was a little rough, I had to focus a lot on stabilizing and controlling the car at the same time but I managed to pull it off. The guys were now thrilled but still shocked and I found it quite amusing. At some point I had the feeling that we were being chased by cops or something for presenting a hazard to the city, and somehow they knocked us out of the sky. We were at the edge of the city and facing a long stretch of road, and the car turned sideways and started bouncing off of it repeatedly, twirling for long distances with each time. During one of the bounces I stood up (technically sideways) out of one of the car windows and flipped off the city and whoever was chasing us with a big grin on my face. The last thing I remember about the dream was that O had turned back into N by this point, but then it ended.

Not bad if I do say so myself.

#2 - Definitely A New Look For Him.... [MILD]

I was back at my middle school as my current age and all I wanted was a day off (of what I don't know) and to talk to my... well, to keep it simple, let's just say my theater teacher. I had sneaked back into the school and was off to the side of the stage by the bathrooms while there was a play going on waiting to talk to her, when I was spotted by what I took to be Sylar from Heroes pretending to be reformed as a good guy and wearing a dress, and scaled up to be proportionally taller and bigger than normal. He was looking at me weirdly and I just pointed to my teacher and he told her that I was acting strangely but needed to talk. I said "Yeah, like you're any less suspicious." and glared at him while following her into the music hall, but as I walked past him through the door he gave me a sneaky signal like "see me later" or something. >.> I was becoming lucid and turned around to watch him peer around a corner just to have him turn into some creepy smiling old fat guy. I felt really weirded out and just turned around to talk to see my teacher, but she was gone. I went around the corner looking for her but the music hall had become the main hallway in my house I just saw someone who I forget now in my parents' bedroom. I was feeling freaked out and every direction I looked in felt surreal and distant or dissociated and like there were strange people there. And that's about the last thing that happened before I woke up.