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Last night was the first night ever I tried WBTB. I honestly expected quite a lot, as it has been reported to be an incredibly effective way of achieving lucidity - I won't exaggerate at all by saying I have been tremendously satisfied, even though this was my very first attempt. I could recall a total of three highly vivid and detailed dreams... which were, for the least, tense. Brace yourselves.

N.B.: Those dreams only happened after doing WBTB. I was semi-lucid in all of them; I had the feeling I was in a dream but I didn't always manage to actually realize I had one or take control.

Dream 1: A dream that must well have spanned over an hour. It kicked off in a German class, with me and a bunch of friends being in the classroom where are always held our German lessons. I was sitted at the very front row, a tad on the left. I can't remember much of what we talked about, but I believe everything was pretty normal at that point.

A split second afterwards, the whole dream scene changed into another classroom, which seemingly was one of my school's room that actually exist, but it was reversed in my dream. Our biology and history teachers were present and we were debating about political news in France (and, if I'm not mistaken, about immigration issues). This rather troublesome dude in my class, P.C., was, as usual, pressing his arguments forwards, pretty much ignoring the reactions of both teachers. To his habit of making teachers rather angry, he succeeded once again; my bio teacher had his eyebrows frown and appeared to be slightly pissed off, and so was my history teacher who was resting her hands against a table while she was standing up. I even think my history teacher told me he 'talked without actually knowing the reality of things', something she often points out.

Next on, I end up being in the exam room, where our two weekly exams take place IRL. It actually looked different; although it still had its initial size, it was much more bright due to the addition of massive window panes on either sides of the room (back & front). The room was recently renovated, and they changed pretty much everything; in the dream, there still were the old tables & the old floor, but they were clean, white and neat, whereas the whole place was dirty before. Again, I was sitted at the top front-right row, on the alley side (left-hand side). Besides me, three 12th-graders (exclusively girls, to my knowledge) were completing an empty geography map, somewhat appearing to be a map of Syria.
I took a look at one of their maps, laughed a bit with them, and put myself back to work. At this point, I found myself sitted a bit back; I had moved back by one row and was now sitting on the wall side. A desktop PC, along with a keyboard and a mouse, had appeared on the table; I thought: "Hey, this is cool, I'm going to use it!". What I didn't realize was that I was in the middle of a history exam - thus, as soon as I began typing to google something on Internet Explorer, one of my best friends which was sitted to my left turned his head towards me and said: "I don't think we're allowed to do that.. I can hear keystrokes". Right then, my history teacher, who was watching us all as we were taking the exam (she shouldn't have been here - we always supervisors to keep an eye on us, but teachers are not allowed to do it). She suddenly turned her head and started shouting violently at me, asking whether I was dumb, and telling that using a computer during an exam was strictly forbidden. Meanwhile, I misclicked and accidentally closed the Internet browser (OR it might have unwillingly shut itself down). I bit my bottom lip as I initially planned to use it to show my teacher I was not searching anything related to history; then a blonde gal (A.B.), in my IRL class, shouted back at my teacher and whole-heartedly said I actually did not do so. Needless to say, my teacher ignored her, and the head-of-supervisors (S.B.) came into the exam room. My history teacher eventually told me I was going to be thrown out of school after being reviewed by a disciplinary panel, then I was ordered to leave and follow S.B., but I noticed that I soon as I stood up, the sky adopted a dark, purple shade. The exam room itself also had been shortened; seemingly, a lot of the back rows had been cut out and the entrance door was much closer to my table than it previously was. While getting out of the exam room, I screamed: "Fuck this! I didn't even fucking cheat! I can't abandon my fucking class representative position!" - and I glared at everyone with an anger-filled gaze. We then headed out, into the schoolyard.

Due to the colour of the sky, I would be tempted to assume it was a mid-spring evening, at around 7-8PM. Still devastated, I implored S.B. to help me out, though she only told me the final decision was not her choice but the disciplinary panel's one. All of a sudden, as we walked a few steps further, the sky turned bright, sunny and cloudless, and it revealed the tall apartment complex that faces both the schoolyard and the high school's main building (it exists IRL); a small fence separated the yard from the outter side of the building. In front of the fence stood a lengthy flower bed, and besides it appeared a small stream, which was shadowed upon by not-so-imposing trees. S.B. passed the flower bed then crossed the stream, eventually jumping above the fence, thus making her way in the building yard; she looked up at the windows, seemingly seeking a precise one. She quickly and vigorously shuffled to her right, stopping at a re-entrant corner which I saw from her perspective, while, I assume, I stayed in the schoolyard. From there on, she yelled "David, come here!" and some Edward Norton-looking guy sticked his head through an open window, at the third or fourth floor.

Surprisingly, I put myself in David's shoes as soon as he was called by S.B. I found myself locked in a tiny dark room while I was looking straight ahead, glaring at the sky through an open window; I felt another one was behind me, which would have been the one through which David had shown himself to S.B., but I refrained myself from turning around. A sure thing, though, is that I was exhausted and slightly dizzy. Out of nowhere - or, I speculate, the hallway that would have led to the room -, I heard men shouting: "Go, go, go, he's here, catch him, go!". For some reason, I knew they had to be looking for me. Although a panic wave crossed my body, I did not hesitate a single second before climbing onto that window. I saw a yard filled with fresh, green grass, which was blocked ahead by a wooden fence. I jumped out and started running. The way I was running was extremely strange; I couldn't turn right or left, as my body was being blocked by my left brain hemisphere (and I felt it). The only way I could steer was to move backwards, which moved me a bit further onto my right side everytime I took a step. Meantime, I was running through this magnificient yet massive yard, I saw tons of flowers, mainly red and yellow tulipaes, but my drowsiness and my fatigue badly affected me. I heard footsteps besides me and even though I kept running, I came to a full halt when a special agent appeared behind. He looked exactly the same way as those countless agents seen in American action films, but if I specifically had to describe him, I would say he was a mix between Kiefer Sutherland (Jack Bauer, 24) and Neil Patrick Harris (Barney Stinson, How I Met Your Mother). Withdrawing his pistol from its holster, he started shooting at me.

The landscape transformed in a green valley while I was dodging one by one the bullets shot by the agent. Upon having nearly finished his magazine, he only had one round left, and I shouted out: "Let's see who's the fucking man, gimme that fucking gun!". I did not really expect him to do it either, but he nevertheless executed the order. I spinned onto my heels and the gun changed into a massive, bulky arrow, while a horse ridden by a knight in a fancy, exotic flashy yellow-blue-purple carnival outfit ran in front of my eyes. I forcefully threw the arrow at the horse and it struck him down, thus resulting in the horse and the knight falling down onto the ground, both dead. I walked to the knight's corpse and looked over my shoulder at the agent; "Who's the fucking man, now?". That was enough for him to crumple down and die instantly.

Finally, in the last chunk, I spawned in an extremely tiny room. It had a particular design - the walls, the ceiling and even the floor were made of black and white glowy squares. The best similarity that comes up to my mind is those squares on dancing pads that are used on old arcade games machines. Two of my friends stood alongside me; E.C. on the left and H.C. on my right. H was 'inflating' his head and making funny jokes about his 'big' head, while E was a bit scared but still found it amusing and laughed at it. The dream eventually faded.

Dream 2: This one was a stressful dream. I'll try to keep it relatively short.

Sitting at my desk, I was casually browsing on Internet when my mom bursted into the hallway, rambling around and holding a syringe: "Look at what I've found in your brother's room! He's not even hiding anymore that he fucking shoots himself. There also is the protective cap." The effect of surprise turned into massive worrying on my side, but I already suspected my brother was into 'hard' drugs prior to this event. I think that my brother was hanging out with some friends in his bedroom when my mom went there, or it might have been after they had left. Anyhow, I found myself in my school's exam room (once again...) on a bright and sunny day. There were a few parents, as it seems a conference was going on. I stood up and left the room, thus reaching the middle school playground. My brother was waiting for me at the exit; the sky was sort of orange (as if someone had put an mild orange filter). While exposed parts, such as the playground, were perfectly enlightened by the sun, the slope besides it, which in real life is also bright if the weatheris sunny, were shadowy. My goal there was to bring my brother to the medical room. As soon as we met, he told me he wasn't in his normal state. My mom told me that I shouldn't explicitly declare to my brother I knew he was taking crack, so I refrained from doing that and instead act as a surprised kiddo, but I didn't tell much either. As we were midway down the slope, we entered the hallway that led to the medical room, but it was simply dark. My brother felt he could not make it through the hallway, so I left him a bit behind while he stopped. As I was about to open the door at the end of the hallway, that leads to a staircase, I noticed one of my friends was walking nearby as if we wanted to go somewhere together. Upon opening the door, I saw a black sports teacher - or so I assume; in my dream, I thought he was an elementary school teacher, as there was a whole class of kids behind him. He was grinning at me with an absolutely weird stare, overall looking like a scary smiley smiling. At that point, I did a reality check. I tried to push my finger through my palm, but it failed; as my 'friend' told me to be careful, I attempted to block my nose and to breathe at the same time, but I felt my breathe was either getting blocked or going through. All this confusion led to the loss of the scene. However, I reappeared in a sort of classy, party club lounge, with a huge carpet and immense sofas set on each side of it. At first, my brother and I were among the few people who were present, but additional persons arrived, filling up the gaps. Everyone was talking, and there were some old people (grannies especially) in the first place, who were replaced by young adults or teenagers as people came in. My brother lied back in one of the sofas, passively glaring at the whole scene.

Dream 3: This dream stopped pretty quickly, as my alarm rang a bit after it had started. All I remember is that I was in Africa, in the back shop of some clothes store; I needed to get an avocado, for some reason. It turns out the African woman, wearing a traditional African dress along with a bandana, with whom I was, could not find any; I managed to find two but they were old and tough as rock. She then told me she had apples and I told her I was fine with that, considering I could replace avocados with apples for what I wanted to do. She showed me a gigantic pear/apple that was about two meters tall... this didn't even make me blink. As I spotted a few Asians entering the main store, my alarm rang and I woke up.

11/14/2012

In this dream I am some sort of private investigator. I go to this lady's house to work a case about her missing dog. The dream started out like a few fairly regular days. I went to the neighbors and questioned them. Then I questioned the lady's daughter's friends. Very basic stuff. A lot of downtime walking and driving places. I always knew where I was going but nothing was actually familiar from real life. The first night I am there we sit down and have thai food for dinner and I go upstairs with the daughter to watch some weird Japanese horror movie. It was very bizarre and I didn't follow the plot very well. At some point during the movie I realize the daughter is into me, which is cool with me because she is a very pretty girl who is home from college for Thanksgiving break. Things get heated and we have a little dream sex then I go to bed in my room (the guest room). I wake up the next day and that day progresses just like any normal day would. Meals, talks, driving, and all kinds of normal mundane stuff. I didn't really question anybody at this point. I think the whole detective part faded out after the first day. Later on the second night me, my brother, the daughter, and one of her friends go to see a movie at the movie theater after dinner. I don't remember what it was about really either because I was occupied with the daughter, although it was strange because there was an intermission during the movie kinda like a play has. Everyone got up and went outside the theater. My brother and I go to the concession stand and grab a few beers for everyone while we waited for the second half of the movie. Instead of going back in though we took off. My brother was in a different car and driving way too fast. A cop pulled out behind him and gave chase. The cop ends up flipping his car off the road. We all go and help him out of his car and he decides to let my brother off for speeding since we helped him. What a guy. We go back to the house and get ready for bed. I am brushing my teeth when the mom comes into the bathroom and tries to jump my bones. I reject her even though she is also good looking. I tell her it is because I am into her daughter. She breaks down and starts crying hysterically. I go to comfort her and she shows me cuts all up and down her arms and says she has been cutting since her husband died. I continue to console her until she feels better and gives her blessing for me being with her daughter. I go lay in bed with her daughter and discuss her mom and what happened, have some more dream sex, and go to sleep. I wake up the next day and stay through lunch, then I leave because I had some other obligation. I wake up as I was leaving. This is by far the most realistic dream I have ever had. I was fully immersed in this other life. When I woke up for real I was completely confused. I didn't know where I was or what day it was. One of the most bizarre experiences I have ever had but cool at the same time.

11/10/2012

1st Dream
Run into an old friend from school. I have been worrying about where to live when my roomate gets married next year and out of the blue this old friend invites me to live with him. I agree and we start to move my stuff in. I wake up and get pretty shitty when I realized it was only a dream.

2nd Dream
I am at my local library checkin out some new books to read. My hands are full and I have my girlfriend get my keys out of my pocket so we can get in the car. She does and we get in the car, but it won't start. As I look at the horizon I see about 20 huge yetis running down the hill straight for my car. I am not worried. All I can think is "fuckin yetis, now we're gonna be late". To what, I have no idea. The yetis run up to the car and begin to shake it back and forth like an angry mob. As they do this they transform into people. Very strange.

3rd Dream
I am sleeping in a hammock in the crows nest of a pirate ship. The view is beautiful as I awake but quickly turns dark and stormy. I have to come down because it's freezing cold and lightning is everywhere. I put on my favorite sweatshirt and head down to the hold. A girl I had a thing for in highschool is there wearing only a towel. She smiles at me, drops the towel, and walks up to me. I wake up. MAJOR BUMMER

This was the night of November 3rd/Morning of November 4th

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Pre-knowledge:
I went to bed around 6AM (Was up late drinking with my friends.) Only got about 4+3/4 hours of sleep. The dream got more and more vivid as it went on. I got more and more aware/lucid as it went on as well. I'm not quite sure whether it started in a street, my room, a mall, or the computer labs at my school. I'll just explain all scenes and how I think they go together.. Again, I will label violent/scary/weird parts in RED

The Dream!

I was at home, in my room. My sister kept bothering me. My friend Jesse came over. My friend Jesse is a pretty big stoner, so I asked my mom for $20 for marijuana.

We went out to this street for I don't know what reason. We were near a car on the side of the road. Two black guys kept talking to me about money and I said something along the lines of "Hey everyone has a use for $20 in today's society!" I turned around back at Jesse and my sister and there was a giant tree I had to go through to get to them.

In the next scene, its my sister, Jesse and I at some sort of store. We were just messing around at the store. Opening random items, tasting things we had never tried before etc. I was eating some sort of Ice cream with my hands as I walked down an isle. The isle slowly turned into the entrance to the computer labs at my uni.

There was a cop there, so I devoured whatever was left in my hand. I talked to the lady at the front desk to use the computers. She yelled to a teacher that his shift was starting soon (I had shown up for class.) There were a lot of chairs along the side of the wall, where people were sitting/studying. I noticed the lady was talking to my Composition teacher who was sitting in one of these chairs. For some reason I got really absorbed by his face. There were suddenly two of him and his face kept changing.

I became lucid somewhere around this point.

He started explaining some concept to me and I was envisioning what he said. He got to a climax in his speech about "YOU NEED PHYSICAL STRENGTH!" I was then on a beach. Me and a group of five people were at one end of a rope, and six on the other. The other team was pulling us pretty slowly. The rope went around a pole in the middle, so both teams pulled in the same direction. We were fighting over a very beautiful naked woman.

I gained some strength and in one big jolt, won the game of tug of war. All the other competitors disappeared once it was over. It was me and this beautiful girl on a tropical island. The island was completely square with beach on all sides. Nobody could get off of the beach as the rest of it was ALL thorns. I kept trying to have sex with this girl, and the scene kept getting creepier. It got really stormy. We turned around one of the corners of the island and down the beach I saw a very strange figure. It was a giant monster. I grabbed the girl and said "It's okay it's only a dream."

I tried to make the monster go away, but I kept focusing on it. It was still slowly approaching. I saw a ton of eyes looking at us from the thorns. The monster kept changing form/shape which is why I was attentive to it. I realized I was paying too much attention to these details, so I turned 180 degrees. Everything disappeared without attention on it. The day went back to normal and the things were gone. I ended up talking to the girl/teasing her in the water. Because I was lucid, I wanted to know what its like underwater, so I tried summoning some goggles. I wanted to explore.

It didn't work, so I turned around and to my luck, there was an ambulance floating in the water. I kept trying to open the things on the ambulance knowing there would be goggles inside. I couldn't open it, so I just ended up going underwater without goggles.

It was beautiful. The color and clarity were so vivid. There were small white fish as far as the eye could see. There were pink streamer like seaweed strands floating in the current, like they were hanging down from the top of the water. The ocean bed was covered in coral and other wild life. There were giant snails and there was a very tall coral formation. There was an octopus on the side, and a mermaid laying on top in a giant white anemone.

At this point, my phone woke me up (Stupid low battery .) I didn't want to waste the day away, so I didn't go back to bed. I am ready for REM rebound tonight!

I am in some bar, and there was Helena Havlova working as a bar tender along with some other girls. What is interesting that they are working without their top on. And she has really nice breasts and tanned skin. I wanted to talk to her, but then I end up talking to her friend that is also pretty.
Later I am sitting by a table with George H, his father and younger sister. We set out to play some card came, probably poker. Old H says something that I play against three Havels, and so that I am going to win so or so as they or come from one family and I will be taking money from them. So I say that they are playing for different teams so it is impossible.
Then we actually playing something like a baseball. Its set on the side of our house in CZ. My brother, Pavel and Dan are playing too. Actually it seems its only us playing now.
I do play well, but at one point when someone shoot the ball in a way that we would loose the point, I throw an apple and shoot the tennis ball (that we play with) down with that apple. My brother is looking at it in disbelief and Pavels is cracking up with his typical laugh. I am laughing too, saying that it was just a coincidence.
In fact I am laughing so badly that I wake up!

Hey guys, so first off, I want to say that I've had about 5 LDs, but I've unfortunately only written about one. I will definitely start wrtiting in here more often. Also, I want to say that I have good dream recall now, so I can remember dreams almost every night. Alright, so here I go. This morning, I woke up and didn't move. I didn't have any dreams (I don't think) and I was probably mostly asleep when I just briefly thought about LDing (I didn't even plan on LDing) when instantly, my body started vibratingand I couldn't move. It felt like my foot was asleep, except on my whole body. I couldn't mistake that it was SP. I closed my eyes so I wouldn't see any hallucinations. Here's the weird part: When I opened my eyes, I was in a dark field, even though I was still in SP. I closed my eyes, and almost instantly, I was thrust into a LD. When I opened my eyes, it was dark, and I was in my front yard (We live in the middle of the woods). There was a man standing next to me in a wrestling mask (could he be my Dream Guide??) And he was telling me to vote on something. Let me just say, everything was more vivid then life, and I could FEEL the weather (it was freezing.) I told the man (I was lucid) that if I was voting, I wanted to use the electronic voting booth. The only reason I was doing this was to practice summoning. Instantly when I looked over, there was a bright voting booth. When I looked towards my house, I could see my dad sitting in a chair at the door. I closed my eyes and tried to imagine downtown Atlanta (I live in Georgia.) Nothing showed up. I walked inside, and my dad was talking about the weather to my mom. I asked him if he would drive me to Atlanta. He said yes, and when I looked out into the front yard, in between the woods were semi trucks like a truck stop, and a plane was landing overhead. The lights were more vivid than real life. It was Atlanta in the woods! There was a parking lot on the side of our house, and he said we would take the big bus (we don't have a bus). We got in and the whole place was red, with TVs for windows. He said that when he got on his phone, the bus ride would intensify, and then I woke up.

I'm hanging out with this one girl. Brunette, small, and would be average looking, but she makes up for it with deep brown eyes, and pure sexuality. There's another guy who doesn't really know what's going on, and we're just all sort of there chilling. What I mean by not knowing what's up is she's sitting in my lap wearing a skirt with no panties, and is pulling me out from my pants. All while we're having this conversation with this other guy who's drinking. A good song starts playing, and she forces me inside her, and starts moving. We both move with the music, and I'm trying my hardest not to just get totally erratic. We're whispering in each others ears about how good it feels while constantly daring each each other to grind harder. Then her BF walks in. He doesn't seem to mind that she's in my lap, but I stop gyrating. She's sitting down all the way on it while talking to him, and as soon as he left, we both continued and came. I straightened out all of my stuff, and I really didn't know what to say after that, other than ask her if we could do that again some time soon...like in a few minutes, because I was almost ready to go again.....then the dream faded.

I'm in a hotel room..there's some redhead with me. Absolutely astounding. Super long natural coloured hair to her feet, alabaster skin, freckles green eyes, the works. I don't know that I'm with her in that way, because I really don't know what's going on. She tells me about the party I was at....and I'm not sure how she knows. Then she gets furiously upset with me. She says I was with her at the party. I'm thinking "no that was totally a brunette chick", but I don't let her know that, but it still doesn't matter. She's mad at me for pretending like nothing happened. She runs into the bathroom, starts calling me a bitch, whore, pussy, you name it. I'm trying my hardest to keep my temper, while trying to calm things down, but soon I get angry. I told her that I wanted to be with her and all that jazz, and "bitch" kept coming out of every other sentence, so I ran to the door, and broke it in two with three hammer fists, and she's like "hit me", "do it". I said "I'm not that kind of guy, but you have to listen to me, I want to be with you". D and some other girl comes in, and pulls me away from her, and the red haired girl storms out. The other girl asks me what happened, and I finally calm down and started explaining. I told her everything, and got really emotional...like on the verge of tears because the one girl I was with in forever had left me that quickly. I stopped and held it in, and said "I'm over it". Then she started coming on to me. We were talking about business and pleasure, and I told her we would definitely have to meet up again. She was a brunette, with a tight green shirt, and blue jeans....possibly Puerto Rican....we left....


And I'm at another get together with D, JH and some other people. I'm telling the story about all the craziness that's been going on, when the cops show up. JH finds some powder that someone left, and get this, he smells it to check if it's coke! I said "damn! fucking taste it, don't smell the shit!". Cops getting in closer....one comes up and questions me, while everyone else sort of leaves except D and JH. She asks me if I knew some guy...and I told her no. She tells me he's some sort of athlete, and I'm like okay". Then she says in a really deep voice "well people say I sound like him". I told her, "no, unless you try to like you just did". Then this flood of people started walking in from all directions. I weaved through the crowds while the cops practically got engulfed by the entrapment of people. I headed down a few halls, and met up with D again...we were both smiling that we made it out of there. He said JH had took another direction, but we were going to meet up with him. We were both hungry so we headed to a lunch room, and all those people were in line.

Then I'm talking with D again, and he's telling me how he had sex with J....I'm happy, because one of us needed to do it.


running out of time...but there's this crazy batman dream that I had. I was robin....throwing batrangs...presidents wife, knocking people out....crowd going crazy....batmobile....hopefully I can remember this when I get back to it.

12-01-12. Last night was an intense night for me, in my dreams. It started out as me tied to a chair in a sort of vomit-green colored room and there was someone else tied to a chair next to me plus two men standing in front of me, one with a ski mask on and the other just a random person. The man with the ski mask was pointing a gun at my head and i was trying to reason with him but nothing was working. Then in the dream i thought to myself "i'd never be able to keep cool in a situation like this" and right after that the man with the ski mask shot me in the face. The first and second bullets i felt go into my face (it stung) and i was still seeing normally as i was getting shot. I could feel the bullets getting lodged into my brain. Then the blood came and got in my eyes making it so that i could not see. after the second bullet hit me i felt a separation from my body and i could see myself fall over dead and i fell to the ground still strapped to the chair. Then i started floating up away from my dead body and i jumped awake. The same dream happened later that night again i just dont remember it as well.

It's been a while since I've had a vivid dream like this one, but that's only part of the reason that this dream was so asonishing. Well, maybe astonishing is not the word, but it certainly surprised me to wake up and realize that it wasn't real.
I really can't remember the plot of this one that well, but there was one main point that really sticks out to me. A girl that I know from school, whom I don't that well, kept insisting on giving me a blowjob. Now, it being a dream, one would assume that I would take her up on her offer, but I wasn't lucid. Instead, I treated it very seriously, since I thought it was all real anyway.
So what did I do? I couldn't really decide what to do, so I kept dodging her, but I was always sure to never completely say 'no.' I was really torn. Part of me really wanted her to do it. Let's face it, I'm horny and that sounded great.
However, another part of me thought that it wasn't that great of an idea. I was surprisingly logical about the situation. I knew that I don't love her, and I didn't really want her to be the one I would lose my virginity to. I also wouldn't want anyone to find out, should we actually do the deed.
By the time I woke up, she never did blow me. Oh well, I guess it's nice to know that I have morals, even in the dream world. It really does make me wonder though. Had I been lucid, would I have taken her up on the offer?

It was a very short dream and i only remember this 4 hours after i wake up

We were talking with someone for how i should do my haircut i suggested that i make it short mohawk and he
always said "no man", "nah"

Today Djpatch999 persuaded me to try and WILD. He'd attempted the night before and thought it'd be a useful exercise for me. He lent me his headphones playing pink noise and set me off on my task. A few conditions that probably should have been considered before this experiment were the fact that I;

- am ill and have been for a few days,
- Had taken some medication that day and was still under its effects,
- Had been watching horror films the night before at about 2am and earlier in the evening when I was not able to sleep because of the first reason.

After a while of trying to relax to the brink of unconsciousness by keeping very still and focussing on just my mind I managed to feel my limbs loosen up and stop twitching or moving. I'm one of these people who's limbs can barely ever keep still. Whilst this was going on my mind was flitting between many different thoughts. After some more time had passed I noticed my body go very very cold. This was even more prominent to me because I'd been having a hot flush within my illness as I attempted this. Once my body had gone really cold I began to notice that one of the thoughts my brain was switching to was a little different to the rest. I didn't realize this had happened till alot longer after I had woken up.

This thought then began to develop into a dream. I think it was part-way through when I joined it because I was in a pitch black forest and I had been running away from something very fast, and very hard as there was adrenaline filling my body. The reason I think the dream was part-way through is because I knew I'd been with a group of people before and now I was all on my own. Somehow in my mind I knew everyone in that group, including my boyfriend, was dead. This thought petrified me and threatened to send my dream self into hysterics, whilst I'm fairly sure my breathing actually remained normal along with my heartbeat. I looked around me frantically searching for the thing that had been chasing me and I heard and felt a really fast rustle/whoosh through the undergrowth so I turned on my heel and started to sprint again.

Apparently it could be seen by the other person in the room with me that my hands were starting to twitch and jerk at the time and it was evident that my eyes were moving very quickly and panic stricken behind their closed lids.

As I sprinted away this time I could feel something had changed and I knew I was going to die. I was terrified and completely panicked. I kept running and suddenly felt something grab my arm and before I could fall to the ground I woke up suddenly, finding the other person in this experiment stood over me beginning to turn the pink noise off. When I awoke I could tell my right eye-lid had been twitching heavily on my body which corresponded to the franticness of my 'dream'.

It was pretty scary stuff. :L

I had a lucid dream last night, my 5th! This one was the first one vivid enough to actually write about. It was short, but sweet. And I think I've broken a long dry spell after attempting to get back into LDing!


I was in one of my classrooms, at a desk. I looked around for a while, bored. I decided to idly nose RC. I do that often in real school. I found that I was breathing through my held nose. It felt like my nose was running, but I could still breathe. I looked down and tried to count my fingers, losing count multiple times. I got pretty excited. I looked around the room again. I have never had a dream this vivid. The entire thing felt completely real. It was so bright, too. I was surprised. All I can remember that was out of the ordinary was that my teacher was not the right teacher for the class I was in, and a thin, faded black border around the edge of my vision. I got out of my chair, thinking of what to do. I walked over to my teacher, holding my nose harder to confirm that it was a dream. I was going to slap him in the face just for fun, but wasn't confident enough. I turned around and walked to the classroom door, thinking of what to do. I told myself that my friend was just outside the door. When I opened the door, my friend wasn't there, and some visual distortions and purplish-blue spots faded in and out of my vision-something that happens when my dreams collapse. I stopped thinking and they slowly stopped. I walked down the hall, finally remembering I should stabilize the LD. I was pretty excited at that point that i was able to stop the distortions. I walked to one side of the hall to rub my hand on the wall, hoping to stabilize the dream, but that is all I remember.

This dream isn't recent, but I wanted to post this first because it's been on my mind lately. In the dream I cheat on my boyfriend with a stranger, and kill myself. I've never considered cheating, or killing myself. However, the dream came at a time when I was considering a break up. I look at the state of the water throughout the dream. The raging, relentless ocean. The running water. The tranquil pool.

I am traveling in a group of five. We set off across the world, seeking a way to keep it from ending. This world is winding down and the end is eminent. Our efforts are futile. Yet while I travel with them I find I can hope. We come to the ocean, it is vast and ceaselessly tumultuous. The waves tower and crash, and we walk between them, on rough stone platforms. I'm trailing behind the others, and I realize they wouldn't care one way or another if I left them. I do not speak a word, I just decide to leave. I turn around and make my way home.

I am approaching my house. The forest meets my back door, the smooth golden path transitioning prettily into a single stone step. The door stands open. I hesitate knowing that as soon as I go inside, I may not be able to leave. I considering trying to find those I have left to their quest and then decide that it is hopeless. How would I even know where to look?
Inside the house it is cool and dark. I feel a sharp stab of sadness, thinking that I will find the house empty and that my boyfriend has long since left. I notice that the floors are a white/grey tile, there's an L-shaped sectional in the middle of the room with blankets piled on it. There are dark brown curtains covering the far wall, to my right is a wall of glass blocks. I know the bathroom is on the other side. I keep thinking that I can hear water running. I walk to the end of the glass block wall and step into the long hall preceding the bathroom. There's a sink there full of water, and a maid who has been dusting the drapes walks up beside me. I think about how easy it would be to kill myself now before my boyfriend has discovered the depth of my betrayal, and with that thought I remember having sex with a stranger in an alleyway when we first realized the world would end. I think about slitting my wrists in warm water, and about asking the maid to draw it for me.
"I know what you are thinking. It is not as bad as that, is it?" she gestures behind me and I notice movement on the couch. There's a person under the blankets, he rolls over. It's my boyfriend. Tentatively I allow myself to believe that I do not have to tell him what I've done. I go to kneel in front of the couch. He refuses to look at me.
"Hey," I begin, "it isn't too late! I came home." my throat feels thick, like I'm about to cry. I worry that he knows what I have done to him, and doesn't want me anymore. "We can go anywhere, just you and me. We can watch and wait for the world to end, together."
He turns his back to me. I plead with him, but he has ceased to exist. There is now only a pile of blankets on the couch.

What now?
The maid has drawn back the drapes. The entire wall behind the drapes is glass, one panel slides back. I know what I will do, what is the point of drawing things out? My world has already ended anyway. My feet are bare and the floor is cool beneath them. I'm wearing a white sun-dress with large red flowers on it. I step to the edge of the tile. My house stands so high off the earth that even the titan trees on the ground below seem tiny.
"Yes." I think, and take a shaking breath. This is where I will find release from my grief. I stare out over the valley. Then I close my eyes, and I dive neatly out into the air.
I can actually feel the wind on my face, the longer I fall the more free I feel. The air streams past me. Intuitively I know that I will land in water, or that I must. I became aware then, that I am dreaming. My mind resisted the dream, telling me three separate times that I could choose to wake up, that hitting the ground would be the death of me.
"No." I thought, "I want to see how this ends."
So I fell, and fell, and fell. I could see the tree tops and directed myself toward it because I knew there would be water at its center. By then I am without all the pain that was with me when I jumped.

When my body hits the canopy my mind separates from it. I am crouching beside a tranquil pool when I see my body tumble like a rag doll through the trees and plunge into the water. I stand up and walk out to the body. I know it is me, but she no longer looks like me. I take her wrists in my hands and pull her from the water, dragging her beneath a tree and arrange her among the roots.

I leave her there and go to find the others in their quest to save the world.

11.30.2012

Me Vs. Ganondorf (Windwaker) (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was controlling Link from Windwaker mentally, or maybe it really was just me in his outfit, and I see Ganondorf is preparing to run up the long and twisted castle stairs forming into the right side. There's a red carpet materials in the middle of the stairs, and it leaves about 1/4 of the width of each step from both left and right sides exposed.

This endeavor in the dream was fairly simply, hunt down Ganondorf and face him off. Before I run up the stair to get to him, for maybe 20 seconds, I was in the area behind the start of the stairs going up. There were turquoise walls composed of stacked like bricks, but with a completely different material.

The flooring was also turquoise, or maybe slightly grayer than the walls. I see Ganondorf is standing there with his two swords, and he's about 10 feet away from me. I quickly prepared my Light Bow, and it shot through Ganondorf like it would for any other entity of evil.

However, it doesn't seem to affect him at all. He quickly runs up the stairs, and I get this sense of exhiliration. Going after the bad guy, hearing the "Hyrule Castle Ganon" Track from the Legend of Zelda Twilight Princess.

As I'm getting to the apex of the stairs, I could sense something bad was going to happen. I see Ganondorf in a different form, from Ocarina of Time. I get this quick imagery of him opening his mouth and has his eyes wide open, as if to scare me.

The dream resets, and this time, when I reached to the stairs, I believe I encountered him, but I forget what happened next.

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11.30.2012

I'm Floating Over a Sea (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This dream feels similar to a Winder Waker ocean envrionment. It feels like I'm in the body of Ganondorf from Ocarina of Time. I'm at least 200 feet above the sea.

I can't believe how much I'm stabilied by floating, and I start seeing incomplete forms of several islands from the Windwaker series. They all started out as gray colors, and then began to accumulate more detail.

However, because I'm lucid that I'm floating above the sea, which REALLY scares me, because I don't want to descend into it and face whatever mystery contained in there.

My fear of this makes me descend slowly to sea level, and before I knew it, I woke up out of fear.

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11.30.2012

Almost Becoming Lucid (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember walking on a side walk, and as I'm randomly talking to whoever,

"Hello? Yeah....I......uhmm."

Then I woke up before I could get the chance to become fully lucid.

*sigh*

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11.30.2012

Outset Island (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember wanting to take a family member to Outset Island from Windwaker. I don't know why exactly, but I just wanted to.

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11.30.2012

U.S. History Discussion Class (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm at the discussion room I usually go to for U.S. History class, and there seems to be quite a few people in a small area.

The flooring is vanilla, the walls are the same as well, and there's more than enough white lighting inside. I was probably sitting at the back rows on the far left side that's closer to the left wall.

The reason I'm confused is that I have another dream shift, but that will be mentioned later. I hear my discussion teacher go on in random declarations, and I don't really pay too much attention to the details until he calls my name.

I quickly jolted upwards, like literally half a feet. I quick put on a dazed and confused facade, waiting for his question, but I can't remember what it was.

Then the dream shifts, but I think this would've been a DEILD if I had been aware. Anyway, I'm sitting in the front or somewhere near the teacher, and I think he asks me a question that I was engaged in.

Funny thing is about the dream, in waking life, I had a discussion meeting for History today, and when no one didn't know the answer to the teacher's question, he said he would randomly pick out someone.

He screamed out "Brandon!"

I was shocked, but fortunately, there's another Brandon, and he picked him instead.

Hahahahaha.....that almost made me go crazy.

11.25.2012

Fingering A DV Member or Batgirl? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I ended up fingering some girl that looked a lot like a DV member I rather not mention about.

She has black hair that's curled into a ball, with the ends being spiked out. Her skin complexion is that of a Caucasian, and she's fit, but has a slight pudge on her stomach.

I like girls like that, or maybe I was liking her because I was going to do sexual things with her.

Spoiler for 18+:

At first it was anal fingering, and then it was vaginal fingering. I take one finger, then put in two fingers with my palm facing up.

The dream shifts sightly where she's on top of me, and I'm lying down on the floor. She's sitting with her body perpendicular to me on the left, meaning her legs are near my left side. I ask her a question, which was probably to finger her vaginally.


She responds, "Okay sure."

She quickly gets up, sits down and prompts herself into the Spread Eagle position.

I felt the squishy-ness, she's wet as fuck, and I saw a little tiny drop of blood dripping from her vagina. Don't tell me I fingered her virginity away....

I find that special little bump females have and kept rubbing it. She has the expression of, "Oh Shit," and as I'm getting deeper, her breathing augments, and shortening in pace.

She starts vibrating with sexual euphoria, shaking, and I'm trying to hold her with my free left hand, but it's not enough. She orgasms, and she twitches her legs, rotating them towards her vagina at a 45 degree angle.

Later on, I end up talking with Batgirl. Something is odd about her. She feels completely different than before, and I can't recall what she was before.

I had a feeling I was fingering her before or something, because she looks at me with a smile on her face, like, "You just made me orgasm with just your fingers" happy face.

So instead of friendzoning, I get a list from a fairly large notepad, and then I mentioned to her how we can do more of the fingering, and much more later on with her.

There's definitely something about Batgirl's smile that bothers me, it's like I've been socializing with her before or something. She looks peaceful, as if she can feel safe whenever I'm around.

Her exposing this fragility to me, especially when she still has her masks on gives me mixed emotions.

Things that I feel for dream characters.......

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11.25.2012

Desserts (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember going to some area at a top floor. The carpet is green, the lighting is a diluted orange color that spreads across the environment. It's the type of lighting that makes me imply that it's night time.

I saw a bunch of desserts ready to be served.

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11.25.2012

Akashic Records - Flashes of Intuition (Note)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

So I decided to meditate while inside of a vehicle. I wasn't driving mind you.

I always assume that I have to travel somewhere to find my Akashic Records, or have some kind of puzzle solved before being "deserving" of my records. I watched a certain video on Teal Scott over the Akashic Records and how to access them, and deep meditation seems to be the best method for me.

Since I barely become lucid anyway, I might as well take the time to deconstruct my thought patterns, and hopefully overcome that mental state where sporadic thoughts are abundant. If I can get past that stage, I can reach a state of tranquility, and access the records from there.

It's really just intuition at it's finest. I asked for advice on how I can be productive more on my blog, and how I can get more views and all that. Not this blog, another one, and I won't link it because I don't want to get an infraction or possibly banned.

Anyway, I started getting ideas popping in my mind, all sorts of very enticing things I can do. In fact, I'm going to do them now before the end of the night, and I'm doing fairly well in ideas at least.

I'm still getting a writer's block, and with so many things to worry about like not failing my exams and such, maintaining the other blog with over 1,000+ views within 4 days...I'd say I'm on the right path, I just need to keep this up.

I've noticed that it's good that I'm sublimating my tl ; dr ability into making a lot of blogs in the future. It should be fun, and I plan to access my records again tonight. I really would like a path on how I could talk with my tulpa.

Because if that can happen like before my exam, shit....I'd be fucking HAPPY.

Sigh....the only way to find out is to do this meditation state well, and start getting serious, because I know there's a way for me to overcome all this stress. If not, I might be fucked for life, and I just might...never mind.