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I had my first lucid dream in a while last night, and I was having some difficulty getting to where I wanted to go in the world. I tried closing my eyes and spinning, but that didn't seem to help me whatsoever. I tried something I've personally never heard of before, I'm sure its not just unique to me, but I went on a computer and looked up pictures (kind of like Google images). I kept scrolling through the pictures until I found one I liked. Then I just soaked myself into the picture, kind of like it was a portal to a new world, and it worked!

I did it several times and ended up in multiple scenarios with people I didn't know and places I've never heard of. It was one of the more exciting lucid experiences I've ever had.

WAKING LIFE DREAMING LUCID UNDERLINED IF IT FEELS PARTICULARLY SIGNIFICANT

Spoiler for Past Related Dreams and History:

History

A new experience dreaming the other night. It gave me hope even though I woke in fear. It also prompted me to get off my butt and finally join a forum that discusses such things. First, a little history.

In the past I’ve had a reoccurring dream of family members and others trying to kill me. One repeated every year it seemed, starting at the age of about 8 and ending (at least consciously) around 18. In this dream a calm and intense voice announced to me that my family was turning into monsters. I ran from them. My father chased me (the chase scenes varied significantly, thought it seems that they were always outside of my grandmother’s house, where the dream started). Sometimes I got away, sometimes I fell, and there was one time I thought I experienced death before I woke up. The dreams filled me with terror.

Other similar dreams have often occurred, the main theme being that someone is stalking me and I am aware that they wanted to kill me. Sometimes I’d confront them. Most times it would be an endless hiding and running deep fear experience. Sometimes it was a combination of both. I’ve experienced other variations of this type of terror dream, often including sharks (in college), tornadoes, and tidal waves.
Usually when I wake the consuming fear and sadness and loneliness from these dreams is so very present, infusing me to some extent throughout the day no matter how much I process and release it. It can be exhausting. Ok, pretty much done with the history.


Recent History

A couple nights ago a terror dream was different than other experiences. I haven’t been remembering my dreams as often in the recent past (I started to type recent future, lol). I had meditated right before sleeping with binaural audio that also incorporates other meditation-inducing aspects. It was a pretty deep meditation and a lot more emotional pain than usual came up, but I was largely able to hold the discomfort in a larger awareness and release happened as well. I fell asleep.

Nightmare with Lucid Meditation

The terror dream was a series of people trying to kill me. Each chapter seemed to occur in my current home or a similar one.

One instance was a psychological death of sorts, where someone wanted me to admit something I’d done that hurt them but I knew that if they knew it would hurt them more than if I didn’t tell them. I felt ashamed. As they tried to dig it out of me tears ran down my face and I avoided looking into their eyes. I think I explained to them at one point that I couldn’t tell them or they would be more hurt. I was conflicted and I’m not sure I held my ground (I think the dream changed at that point).

The dream continued, one person trying to kill me, the dream morphing, then another person trying to kill me, and so on. They were sneaky, some trying to lull me into feeling comfortable with them. It didn’t work. I knew. I resisted. After a few chapters in the dream, I became aware that I was dreaming. In this lucid state I tried different tactics.

1. Dream Control

I tried what I now know to be called dream control. Tried to turn my stalker away, tried to make them friendly, tried to make it not be about being stalked. That wasn’t as “successful” as the tactic has been in other lucid dreams I've had.

2. Wake

I tried to wake myself. In the dream I had access to my real memories: I recalled that I’d woken myself from a nightmare as a young child, maybe 5 years old, after frantically trying to wake in the dream and having no success. This is how I remember it. I became aware of my physical body in my bed. I tried to open my eyes. Felt my eyebrows raising, my lids stretching, but they stayed together. I tried to move my arms. They were heavy, they wouldn’t move. Then my shoulders responded. Finally my arms moved. I reached up and opened my eyes with my hands and woke like that…my fingers on my eyelids, having pulled them apart manually.

Remembering the success of this childhood experience, I attempted this tactic in my dream last night while lucid. It failed. Throughout using these wake-myself-up-please tactics,

I would think I had awakened only to find out I was still in the dream. I became identified with the dream and then lucid and aware I was dreaming (usually because I had a new stalker or less often because something else wouldn't be the same as in my home) again over and over after each failed attempt.

First I tried to wake myself by simply willing it, then throwing a large amount of the energy of my desire to wake into it.

Then I tried to feel my body in my bed, to establish a connection like I thought I had in childhood. It seemed that I could feel my body and that I woke. This was the first time I thought I'd woken up but after I “woke” myself I soon discovered I was being stalked again and had not escaped the dream.

Then I tried to not only feel my body but to move my body, however, I found I wasn’t very coordinated and I was flailing. I became afraid of hurting myself or spilling my water on my nightstand, etc.

The cycle of thinking I had awoken and then realizing I was still in the dream (I think called false awakenings?) came full circle at least 3 times, though in my not completely clear recollection it feels like it was more like 4 to 6 times.

3. Lucid Meditation

At one point I tried to meditate in the dream, hold the dream and the fear of the dream in the arms of my awareness so that I wasn’t so self-identified with it and terrified. This was the new accomplishment. A big one. I don’t think it lasted long, maybe a couple minutes.

I’ve been in different meditative states in many dreams, but this one was intentionally, lucidly, induced. Even though it was a meditation initially infused with the desire to escape from the emotions, I'm still goanna break out with a yay! I came to a place where I wasn’t hiding or trying to wake up. I was confronting in an accepting way while still trying to protect myself.

The meditation did not relieve the fear but I felt more me, more whole. At first the fear was very present and perhaps more so. It seems that the fear ebbed to some degree after a time. I remember looking down on my body during the meditation. The dream also may have gone to black and white during the meditation and got a static quality to it, like white noise. I don't remember ever dreaming in black and white, though now that I look back I don't recall any color in the dream at any point. I am skeptical of it not being in color, however, because now it is days since the dream occurred and I only remember snippets. After the short meditation is when I fuzzily think I woke.

I don't remember the sequence of the following parts of the dream. I'm about 90% sure I wasn’t lucid at the time:

I felt physical pain when one stalker was biting my lips. The physical pain felt so…well…physical. It hurt in a sharp way, just as if my dream body was a physical one. That realization is unsettling and also wondrous. Now I realize that both of the times I have been aware of physical pain in dreams was when I was being bitten. Both dreams were at some point lucid dreams, but not lucid at the time that I was being bitten. The other time was a dog biting my fingertips. Now I’m interested in this…why biting? Perhaps this similarity is connected to a pattern, perhaps not. Worth keeping an eye on it and a thought hanging around.

I tried to manipulate the people out of trying to kill me. I plotted quickly as they advanced. One of the people I offered myself to sexually to try to avoid being killed, to distract him. It worked. It was boring and rather ineffectual sex and I ended up feeling frustrated because I wanted more pleasure, even though I was creeped out and scared.

Well, that was long. I doubt I'll want to use the energy to write so much in the future (or try to refine the clarity of my writing so much, gah), but this dream absolutely fascinated me and I felt reconnected to past dreaming experiences after dry spells and inattention. It woke the inspiration.

I think a big part of why it waned was nobody I shared these types of dreams with had similar experiences or seemed to want to dive in. But after reading some of the forum, wow, some of you not only have had similar but extensive experiences. Thanks for reading, I'm interested in learning from others on this site if you want to respond! That said, I also have a very skeptical side and enjoy critical and insightful discussion, though it is tempered by many other sides.

After watching a Glee/Skins (UK) outdoor concert there was a mass of people gathered. At least one hundred people were dancing in formation amazingly. We asked a guy what was going on and he just swore at us then said it'd cost 5 bucks and laughed. I told him very matter-of-factly that was the worst joke I ever heard and asked if it was really necessary to swear at us. He got pissed! He surrounded me with 3 of his friends and at this time I'm lying down like in bed. I imagine fighting the 3 guys and do. Then I 'wake up' but it's not quite a false-awakening because I don't remember ever thinking I was asleep, just, the next thing I know I'm walking down the stairs of my house.

The front door is open and I check the screen door to see if it's locked by opening it, it wasn't locked. I wonder why it was open. Is someone inside the house? The TV is on, some weird anime is playing where the wise man/narrator keeps repeating "He sleeps and he sleeps and he sleeps" over and over, like some kind of gag-joke". I should've realized then, that was a BIG clue as to what was going on. Some of the lights were on throughout the house. The backdoor into the kitchen was open too and wind blows in through the screen. I am SO confused at this point, what's going on here? Why did I go to bed and leave the house like this? At this moment everything gets incredibly vivid and reality is kicked up a notch. That's when I start to wonder, 'maybe this is a dream!'. I try to move some tumbleweed stuff that blew in from the door with my mind. I got it to move one way, then the other so I'm pretty sure it wasn't just the wind. Just then my phone rings in waking life and I wake up.

Waking up felt like a teleportation of consciousness from the dream body to the one that was lying in my bed, newly awaken.

This dream is notable for being the first one where I was actually confused by things in the dream. Even though I didn't reality check for a long time, all of my lucid dreams so far have not involved RCs. Usually I just become lucid like a light switch has turned on. So I think this dream was a step in the right direction.

So, this dream was quite vivid, and though none to exciting it was still enjoyable and actually quite relaxing. I woke up right after the dream, 3am, thinking "Well, that was a pleasant dream."

So, the dream starts out located in a larger town. I am outside walking down the sidewalk with the road to my left, grass to my right with houses lined about 20 meters over and occasional planted aspens every couple meters.
I was walking and came across my mum who was telling some childhood story about crushing a cockroach. I was just thinking, "but it is impossible to kill cockroaches!" When this good 4-5 inch long cockroach comes crawling across the pathway, apparently wanting revenge for being stepped on by my mum. My mum continues to step on the cockroach as I watch, and she ends up with a good jump crushing its head (somehow). It sits for a second, un-flattens then crawls into the grass and I state, "See? Impossible to kill cockroaches!"

At this point my mom disappears and the sun barely starts setting. I see someone's driveway and walk up it for some reason, noticing this HUGE tree that looks very climbable (The kind of tree where there are branches 1-3 feet in diameter). I think I will grab my little sis so we can "explore" the tree and have a little fun. I run back across the various lawns of houses, coming up to "our house" (which is nothing like our house) where I see my little sis. We also have a big tree so I decide to try climbing it a bit while telling her about the large tree I found. She asks about how big the branches are and I put my arm in a circle (touching my hip) to show her how big, while hanging from our tree by my other hand. She complains it is too small and dangerous to climb, but in the end I convince her to join me.

I random race starts between us towards the tree. At this point the scenery changes and it is in the middle of the day and very vivid. I find as I race my little sis that while running I can simple take REALLY long strides as I sort of hover over the ground as long as my legs are in the "running" position. I am booking at what feels like a good 30-40 miles an hour with my sis keeping up easy. The scenery is lush green grass everywhere, no longer in a town. There are scattered trees on both sides, but mostly it is fields. In front of me quite a few meters ahead the ground drops down in a steep (probably 45 degree) hill. As we approach this steep hill, which goes down a good mile (if not longer) I notice were are barely above and looking down upon many huge mountain ranges below with a blue misty color over them and a bright blue sky with the sun clearly visible. We start racing down the hill at top speed where the dream starts to fade and I wake up.

Not the most exciting dream, but that last part especially was a very nice experience.

Lucidity: 9/10 (maybe better!)
Vividness: 9/10
Length: ~20-25 Min. (longest since 4/15/11)

When I was about to do something as soon as I became lucid I remembered how to make my lucid longer. So I did that. Then after I rubbed my hands, felt the ground, and smelled the air. I started to feel and notice a lot more things just like the tutorial said it would. So I started off small and started playing around lightly. I saw my shadow and saw that it was going crazy so I gained control of it and made my shadow how it is supposed to be. Then I just walked around for a while. Then I was in my house and was still lucid. I was trying to think of multiple reasons of why I was dreaming. I noticed that I had two of the same video cards and the box for it which I haven't seen in years. Then my brother, or somebody, wanted me to do something and then left. I immediately left after he did. Then all of a sudden it became kinda like a story. I killed someone, on accident, and I had to do something for them. I was in a hospital and the doctor asked me how she died. I was about to tell him when my friend dragged me out of the room. He was kinda mad. The only way I could possibly help the person I killed was to Lucid Dream. So this is my longest lucid ever. I had a team and I need them in order to complete my task. It was Kaleb, Ramone, and some other people that I didn't realize. So I found a bunch of glass that looked like it was from Minecraft so I broke it and jumped down. When I got down, almost immediately, some guy showed up and pointed at the sky and said "look, look at the stars! See how there glowing and bright? Their doing the burial of your body." It was a wonderful experience to experience something like that, especially in a lucid. I felt like I had died, and was on my quest to heaven. I asked him "do we have a time limit?" He said "yes." We had to finish the quest before our bodies died. Then he showed me a demonstration of how we were lucid dreaming this long. He was controlling our bodies, making them do what they would do if we were awake. Then he said "now, let's do something fun!" He pointed at the sky and made the scenery behind him completely change. We were to find some objects to help us on our quest. All I wanted to do was sell them rather than use them. But my friends kept me from doing that. Then it was kinda like Halo and I was running around with Halo-like weapons shooting skinny blue aliens and such. I felt like I was on computer. I was in a house and then I saw Sara so I thought "as always, I will end this lucid dream with some lucid sex." Then a timer showed up and said 19:19.19 minutes or something, I was like "cool, a timer. Now it will make it easier to find out how long I've been dreaming!" Then I woke up and remembered my very vivid and lucid adventure.

This dream that I faintly remember took place in a third-person view. It was a bunch of people inside a tomb that had no entrance or exit except through a portal in a pit. The room itself was a basic square with a pit in the center that had sand in it. The pit had a floor of sand and apparently housed some coffins of famous heroes. Surrounding the pit perimeter on the second level, there were four statues placed at each corner that resembled the grim reaper and a small rail to prevent people from falling in. On the second floor, the walls each had iron doors leading to rooms that resembled some sort of prison cell. If you opened one, a bunch of demons would come out and try to kill you. So as these people opened each door to find the key to open the portal, demons poured out each and every one. A few got injured, but not severely. It wasn't until they finally opened the last door and found the key that some demons materialized at the four statues and looked exactly like the grim reaper. The portal instantly opened and the people rushed towards the portal, all while the reapers started swinging their scythes and flying at them. They all escaped, but the room almost stayed exactly the same. The bright orange lights that once lit the room now changed into a bluish color and the tombs developed vines all over the place. The sand had also turned to grass and a large natural door appeared at one of the walls in the pit. I say "natural" because it looked like a cavern entrance made from the erosion from water.

I suppose attempting to "de-stress" myself has worked a little. xD
I know for certain though I had another dream after this, it's just that I can't seem to remember. :/
Well! I gotta say, I'm looking forward to the weekend!

Leo and I we're reading books about zietgiest. We were looking at houses to move into. We found a kinda nice one. It was big but kind of old. I was talking to a group of people saying if you don't love your body when you die you die for good. I talk for a while about how I loved my body and how I loved everyone else. I was half naked. The zietgiest books were a little creepy. The covers looked like they were meant to be for Halloween and were animated. I was on the phone with Leo and we were talking about how excited we were to move in. The realtor came in and said this house was only 11k we thought about buying the place. I saw the master bathroom and was freaked out there was something wrong. I knew that the woman who owned the house died in that bathroom. It looked nice, but had weird energy. I looked around and was scared. I saw a messed up kitchen and walked faster. I was lost in the house going in circles. I saw a ghost and screamed on the phone to leo as I ran. The ghost looked like Kara. It would catch up to me and I would scream harder. It was kind of funny in a way because it would make a funny face Kara makes. Kind of like it was trying to be scary in a funny way. It was chasing me but also looked like it was running away. It fell and twisted its head. I laughed and said you idiot now your dead and we both laughed.

I was walking baron and he found another pug the he made friends with on the street. They we're playing for a while when I saw the lady had another dog. It was super black and scary looking. I touched it and it tried to bite me. I was Trying to get baren to leave but the dog would chase us and try to bite us. I woke up in my old apartment and went out of the room. I broke a lamp. Baron kept trying to eat glass and it was pissing me off. I got the vacuum and tried to vacuum it all up. It wouldn't work very well. I had to throw the glass in the garbage.


Everything was weird when I woke up. My table was moved and there was a large truck outside my driveway. I walked to the bathroom and kara was putting on makeup. I went downstairs and Adam was playing with trains and my mom was making dinner. Why is it dark already? I went upstairs and I saw kids stealing shit from the truck. I got my green laser and started shining it at them. They ran away up a hill and I kept trying to get it in their eyes. There was a group of people in my front yard and I hit them with the laser. They stopped and started looking for me. I was hidden behind my curtains and was sure they couldn't see me. They gave up looking and started to leave. I was safe. A knock on my door made me think I wasn't safe. I opened the door and a black looking man with dreadlocks was there. He worked at the gym and had a logo on his shirt. It looked like he was trying to hit me and I was holding his arms down but he was too strong. I tried to be nice and asked him what the problem was. He said I hit him in the eye with the laser and he was pissed. I told him the story and he kind of understood, but told me to never use my lasers again. He knew I had a giant blue one because hes been watching it at night. He knows they are cool and he has one too. I agreed and he left. I quickly ran upstairs to shine it on him as he was leaving. I thought the table looked so weird because it was positioned differently and knew I was dreaming. I was rubbing my hands together for most of this and woke up several times. I went to Kara and asked if she was the real Kara. She kept responding with stupid answers and I quickly knew it wasn't her. I woke. I reentered by saying 1 im dreaming. 2 im dreaming 3 im dreaming until I sort of just knew I was back in. I did nose rcs to confirm im dreaming. It looked 100% vivid, real, and complete. I wanted to have sex so I spend a while looking for a girl. I went outside then inside then upstairs and found a hot girl laying in my bed. I knew if I played I would probably wake up. Also, she wasn't as vivid as everything else. A voice told me its because I created her out of my mind and I have never seen her before so she wouldn't be as strong an image. I left her and woke anyway. I was waiting and then I was back in the dream. This time I went downstairs and tried to make a portal. I couldn't. I've gotten worse at portals for some reason. I tried to get that magnetic feeling in my finger, but nothing. Adam was laughing at me calling me a noob. I gave up and went outside. It looked 100% like my neighborhood. It was sunny out. I made it cloudy for some reason, probably just to try and see if I could. My powers were weak. I woke. I reentered and Leo was there. I wanted to show him how I could shoot a laser and couldn't. I asked if I could borrow some of his power and he gave me some. I was beginning to shoot it and failed again. I woke. I was getting annoyed that I couldn't do shit. I went back outside and ran super speed for a while. That I could do. I woke. Michael was calling me on my phone and I was annoyed because I was trying to DEILD. My phone picked up by itself and Michael was trying to talk to me. I ignored it and went back inside the dream. I fucked around for a little longer and then remembered I wanted my dream guide. I went outside and said I want to find my dream guide. Everything changed I heard a loud noise and was instantly teleported I think to another planet. The shift was weird. Its like reality was washing away to another location. I never left earth before even when I tried. I was so shocked. Everything was red. There wore volcanoes and it all looked hot. The sky was either black or red I can't remember. Looked like something almost prehistoric. I know I've been here before. It was so familiar. It was 100% vivid and I somehow knew my dream guide lives here. I was excited. I woke. I couldn't get back in. I felt the true shift of waking up.
EDIT: I remember jumping around in joy spinning in circles really fast. I remembered that spinning could change a scene so I stopped. Nothing happened.

Adventure with kara. We were able to teleport around and go back in time. There was several issues that we were addressing. Hers was the lack of real.friends and mine was my hair. We kept going back into qfc to check on stuff. We would be in Paris at one moment traveling with a car. There was a house there that really got kara feeling bad so we couldn't stay there long. It was dark and the moon was bright. One guy came out and asked if everything was alright. We ignored him. My hair was all messed up and we had to fund an earlier time where it wasn't. The portals we went through were different instances of time. There was another instance where kara would kiss a guy and she kept going back to try and fix it, but would keel happening. At one point there was a secret passage in qfc and kara was dead. I went down and revived her. We loved that we could teleport and we thought when this was all over we would teleport to Italy all the time. In the end I found it that it doesn't matter what my hair looks like and I was saved. My hair turned golden yellow and I could style it any way I wanted to. Baron was with us half the time. The end was kara at a dance in a barn. She was dancing with a guy might have been Stewart and she kisses him. She goes outside pissed and her sister says she has known all along. she went back in time and told her sister not to stop her. She was pissed at her sister fir letting her do this. 5:45

Went to my dads condo and brought baron and another dog for him to watch while leo and I went out to. We stayed in the condo for a while to play with the dogs and hung out with my dad. We went out for a day and when we came.back we overheard a guy talking on the phone about a attempted kidnapping and how this time hr doll get it done. The guy next to us was missing some glasses lenses and we knew it was him. Leo gave the guy his glasses lenses and said he knew what be was up to. He was going to kidnap our dogs. Unacceptable. Leo follower him to his room. The guy had a gun but when ur shot nothing came out. Lei shot him and he died. He was on his way back to the condo when the mans girlfriend caught up to leo and beat the shit out of him. I was back at the condo and the place was trashed. My dad had a party and there were 6 dogs hanging out. Baron was fine. I had to go pick leo and up from the airport so I left while my dad watched him. They were high as hell as we drove to the condo in the limo. We talked and joked around for a long portion of the dream. We made German watch the dogs while we went to go do stuff. Leo and I walked to mothers house and walked to the woods to meet kara. Kalee was next door watching us. We went down and got kara and walked back to the condo. There was a little party down there. Leo and I went up to the condo with kara and a group of girls. I saw Michael watching us and he gave us a wink if approval. We went up and I found out German got my dog high. I didn't like it but I couldn't be mad at g. Lei and I left them and went downstairs to hang out. Something was wrong with the elevator and we went underwater and had to go through a mini maze to find our way back up. When we got to the lobby leo was walking up the escalator the wrong way and I pretended to be drunk. I screamed that I was drunk and people were asking where I got drunk. I continued until someones dog attacked me and I threw it back at them. I felt bad and called the dog over. The dog was nicer this time and followed us into the elevator. We had to give the dog back but didnt want to get lost in the maze again. We weren't sure what to do. It showed a cut scene of a diver. His dog was missing and he used it to light up the water he was swimming in. He thought he dog would be there so he jumped in. The dog never came and it was too dark for him to see what was going on and he got eaten by fish with lights on their tails.

- Souls or spirits coming to me for help or helping me, and/or trying to take advantage of me or invade me

- Terror, anxiety, and/or rushing

- Tidal waves and tornadoes

- Being stalked with murderous intent

- People and animals from my past

- Spiritual bliss / channeling / meditating / healing / overwhelming beauty and a feeling of my heart opening

-Extraordinarily (somewhat glowing) vibrant colors, especially in nature and spiritual symbols (usually when experiencing that blissful feeling, sometimes when interacting with souls or spirits)

I imagine these will change since I haven’t kept records of a lot of my dreams and these are somewhat based on the dreams that were significant enough to me to remember.

(And hi everyone, I'm new here.)

Lucid = orange

I'm with my friend Sam Harris and one of his friends. His friend wants to take a bus into town but doesn't know how much it costs, so I explain it to him. I then go with Sam to the ticket booth, and the other guy mishes off as he wants to do something before he goes, entrusting getting the ticket with us. Once that's done, we go our separate ways.

Next I'm in a building nearby (I think) with somebody else, in a place which reminds me of a part of college. This guy takes a small girl and drowns her head-first in a sink full of water or something. He's laughing while he does this. Then we hear a loud bellow and somebody is chasing after us (probably her father). The guy disappears and I'm left with the blame, even thinking I had some part in it, racing down the staircase and out of the building as fast as I can, with this frenzied man chasing after me. As soon as I get out, I spot a car, and figure that's the ideal place to hide. I go round the back of it and squeeze underneath, bringing in all my limbs so that he won't see me. It's a success, and he goes past.
Note: I never actually saw this guy, only heard.
The next thing that happened I don't really understand. I became lucid, but at the same time I didn't, I just became in control. I underwent some sort of transition in which the dream became clearer and colours were more vibrant, like something being wiped across my vision, but I already knew I was dreaming before that to an extent, just not fully.
At this point I almost woke up, but managed to keep myself within the dream. I'm now in lying on my back in the car, on my own, being transported somewhere. The scenery outside of the car was strange, similar to what you'd expect to see while travelling through some kind of wormhole (or something of that nature).
Because of what had just happened, I remembered I needed to deepen my state if I was to get anywhere, and proceeded to rub my hands together and note how it felt. Then the dream faded out to black, leaving only a small part of what I had just been seeing, and I could feel myself back in bed. I could still feel my dream hands rubbing together though, so I concentrated on that entirely and managed to bring the scene back to life in its fullness.
The scene then changes to a vastly populated area that looked like some kind of city square.
Note: This is the first time I've seen SO MANY people in a lucid. Usually I see none/a few.
I'm in the 3rd person, with no control over what's happening, being told that I've been sent as a detective to solve the murder of this girl and bring the criminal(s) to justice. Then it zooms back into my body and control is restored. I think to myself ''Well, that's not going to work, since it was me and that other guy.'' and dismiss it entirely, eager to get on with my lucid goals. The first thing I do is recognise that I'm having trouble staying lucid this time, and call for my dream guide. I then waste no time in exploring what's around me. There's a guy in front of me. I ask him if he knows anyone, but he just gives me the 'wtf' look, so I turn around and spot a bench. I bend down and look at it closely, examining fine details, all the while rubbing my hands together and noting how it feels. I also take some time to touch up the bench a bit.
I then hear somebody crying out trying to get my attention. It's a half laugh-half yell kind of thing and then from the right side of me somebody jumps on my shoulders, nearly throwing me back into wakefulness. I manage to hold on, however, and bring myself to, (AGAIN ) and this guy is sitting in front of me on the bench, and sounds very proud of me. I assumed this was my dream guide, although he looked completely different to who I saw last time. I ignored this change and asked him how to get more lucid, since I was experiencing quite a bit of difficulty this time round. He told me ''Right now, you're gonna eat something.'' I turned to the left and spotted an ice-cream stand and ask him if that'll work. He dismissed that idea and told me to find a ''potato chip'' instead, then ran off. Leaving me clueless of where to find one.

After analysing this after waking, I'm now sure this guy wasn't a dream guide. It's quite possible it was the guy who murdered that girl, hence his initial attitude (the loud and proud type. Since we had evaded any form of justice, that makes sense.) and why everything he did only threw me off course.

Dream, Me

Dreams 4/14/11
Initially I had a fragment of a dream and was kind of frustrated that I couldn’t remember more. But after falling asleep 2 or 3 more times, each having a very detailed dream, I felt a lot better about my recall. Here we go…

Dream fragment:
I’m riding in a falcon from Halo Reach. I feel like I own a huge corporation and say to one of the people in the falcon with me, “Now this really feels like Halo.”

I wake up and record the dream. Back to sleep.

The Party:
I arrive at a house party with my brother and dad. There are other people there but the lights are off initially. It’s dark but light enough to see people around the room. I’m sitting on a couch with my brother now. We have a short conversation that goes like this,

“Should I go buy a case of beer?” my brother says.

“No. Why would you do that when I have a case of Lionshead in the fridge at home?” I say.

I look at my dad and he hands me a half empty cup with someone’s mixed drink in it. I don’t see this as odd and start drinking. I think it was baileys and something else, although I couldn’t taste it. I look back at my brother and he’s now holding a Lionshead and looks like he’s not enjoying it. I ask him,

“What’s the matter?”

“Why do you always have to get Lionshead?”

“Because I like it and it’s a good cheap beer, that’s why.”

“I’m just so sick of Lionshead, I drank it all the way through college, I just want something else.”

“Relax man, drink your beer.”

So as I’m sitting and drinking I see people smoking weed and smoking hookah. I don’t partake like I have in my other dreams but I see my best friend IR walking around and I get up to talk to him. He says, “Hey where have you been? I haven’t seen you all night?” I tell him, “Oh, I just got here but I’m ready to party.” We chit chat about some other things I can’t remember and then I teleport.

I’m in a room where Jack Black is nailing Sarah Bell(So envious of him right now)from behind in a king size bed. They are also covered by a fly net, which is used in Caribbean locations to keep bugs off of you when you’re sleeping. Anyways I watch for a little bit, and then I walk out of the room and I teleport.

I’m down in an alley in New York or Pittsburgh and it looks like it’s around sunrise. I can’t really tell which but I’m almost positive I’m in New York. Anyways, I’m hiding behind a dumpster and keeping an eye out for something or someone. I can barely see over the dumpster, but I have a good view of the street ahead of me. I see a group of city officials dressed very nicely in suits and ties. I duck down a little bit to avoid being seen, and I spot one of my fraternity brothers RM. I keep quiet and as soon as he has a chance comes over to me. I thank him for keeping them busy and not letting them in on the fact that we’re having a party behind me on the pier. He says no problem and runs to catch up with his group.

I turn around and return to the party, and we are indeed parting on a pier/dock area. There’s a beer pong table, and about 15 people. Someone calls out that they need a partner for pong and I accept the challenge. The one girl on the opposing team says we can play anything from regular beer pong to Plinko. I have no idea what she means and just let them pick. I walk to the table and notice that only 3 of the cups have water in them. So I ask the opposing team for some of theirs to fill up the rest of our cups. The guy barks back at me that I should find my own. So I tell him to chill out and go searching for water with a pitcher in my hand.

I notice a pool area across the way and decide to look over there. Where there’s a pool, there are bathrooms; and where there are bathrooms, there’s water. The only way to get over there is a broken dock section. I jump onto the one broken section and it launches me 15 feet in the air like a trampoline. I wasn’t expecting this at all and kind of freak out but I am for the pool area. I don’t quite make it and land on another portion of the dock. I lie down and paddle my way with my hands over to the pool area.

I pull myself up and realize that there’s a little going away ceremony for one of my friends VP. Everyone is standing next to a large bus. Not like a school bus, but more of a traveling bus they use for sports teams. I walk over and everyone has a celebratory shot and I get one as well. I look back and see that the people are still there who wanted to play beer pong. We wish her the best of luck in the future and she gets on the bus.
After taking the shot, I bring my hand down and I’m inside a random house. I have a book in my hands and I’m reading it. It looks like a ninja technique book and I start to flip through it. I stop at a page about conjuring and throwing fire. It says to throw fire, I should pretend that I’m throwing a cookie and believe that it’s on fire. I throw one or two “cookies” and test it out. It works and I’m really surprised. I go to look through the rest of the book and I wake up.

The Training Room:

I’m in what looks like a training room. I initially think it’s for the game mass effect but I quickly dispel that idea and realize it looks like an old castle. There are large bricks that make up the walls, and there’s moss covering everything. After surveying the room, I notice that there’s a small stream on the one side of the room. On the other side, there are 6 or 7 rooms that have signs in front of them. I can’t make out the signs but they have symbols on them. I walk to the last room which has a red, elemental looking, symbol on it. Apparently, I don’t have this ability and can’t go into the training room for this ability. The door is open though. I walk through the archway, and into a smaller hallway. There’s a large wooden obstruction in my way and it has the red elemental symbol on it. I turn around, because I don’t have that power yet.

After turning around and heading back out, I’m now with my college swim coach and there’s another door in the initial room I walked into. 5 or 6 jackals run out and try to escape the room but are blocked by a blue force field. My coach asks me if they are mine, and I say no but I think they are not going to hurt us. He sounded really scared. I charge at the jackals and as soon as I break through the group, I teleport.

I’m now in a concert hall that seats about 100 people. Not a large place, but roomy. Everyone starts to cheer and I look up on stage. It’s Jeff Dunham!! I am so excited that I get to see him do comedy that I wake up.

It’s my alarm. I set it for the real time I wake up and go back to sleep.

Cousins’ house:

I’m at the front door to a house and I walk in. My cousin P is in her living room on the couch. I notice that we are both wearing hoodies and shorts. I point it out and she’s like whoopdi do! I notice that I have a bag full of stuff and I’m planning on staying the night. She grabs us a glass of water and we sit down at her dining room table. After a short conversation, 2 girls walk downstairs and I believe that they are either her daughters, or her friends. I can’t really be sure which. The one is a brunette and the other has dark red hair. More talking and I notice that the red head has huge boobs.

My sister comes down from upstairs and comes over to me. She pats me on the crotch. I ask her, “WTF are you doing?” She replies, “Just checking!” I tell her to F*** off and don’t ever do that again. So now there is a larger bowl/dish filled with ice water and it’s in the middle of the table. We all have our own cups, and my sister now has one. I look at the larger dish and it looks as though someone cut the top off of something to make it a water dish. I reach my hand in and the red head says, “Don’t do it.” I do anyway and flick the cold water down her top. “OOOO Surprise, surprise, he flicked water down my shirt,” she says in a sarcastic manner. I look away from her chest area.

My alarm goes off again.

I used my mantra to have vivid dreams and remember them and it worked again. Hopefully next time or soon, I’ll be able to realize that I’m in a dream and try to become lucid.

Okay so I was going through my old dream logs i recorded and i found one about miley cyrus LOL.
Kinda relates to what she's going through now, ..okay not really, but maybe I can foresee the future through my dreams!! hahahah
I had this dream 12/06/09

i was at the airport and I remember I was trying to get to the other side but it kept getting blocked off. I don’t remember all it too clearly but I remember not being able to go in and being very frustrated about it. I was on the farm and I saw miley cyrus. She was becoming a partier and her mom was very worried about it. She would always take people home on a horse and say that since its dark she’s going to ride with her friend back to their house. There was a speed eating contest in one of the barns. There were three turtles on the table. They had very big mouths and inside their mouths were many rocks. They had to finish a whole coral reef. They chewed it very slowly and was very slow. I asked the turtle “why do you eat the coral reef? Does it taste good?” the turtle replied “no, it’s okay but when I chew, it’s soft on the teeth.” I was in the point of view of miley’s mother and she went in miley’s room to clean up her mess. She found poop on her bed and was terribly shocked. She told miley that she can no longer play with the friends that she associates with. Miley was mad because she said that her friend was a “talker” and that she needed to become a “talker” too.

I remember most of my dreams, I'm not sure whether I should think of it as something grateful or unlucky.

I've been practicing the art of lucid dreaming for the past month now. I've been having intense hypnagogia/sleep paralysis because of it. Every time I experience hypnagogia it's always so stressful for me. Before I become hypnagogic I always have a dream that I am just living my daily life when suddenly something goes wrong; For instance: I try turning on the lights in my room but they won't turn on and the room becomes dark, or in worst cases once I saw my brother hanging from the bathroom ceiling with blood everywhere, or suddenly I am talking to my friend and her skin starts melting, or once I opened my closet door and inside was pitch black and I heard some demonic voices yelling at me so I got annoyed and yelled back saying "f*ck you, you're hella annoying" and flipped him off (but then what ever it was got really angry and screamed at me). Anyways, after something goes wrong I go into sleep paralysis/hypnagogia. It gets pretty intense and scary sometimes but now I'm just really annoyed.

I realized after studying about lucid dreaming, dreaming and sleep paralysis, that it is nothing but a dream and now when I have nightmares I am able to control the bad situations and even the unsettling events that occur in my dream before sleep paralysis.
So yeah, if any of you have sleep paralysis/hypnagogia don't be afraid! You are just merely asleep and your mind shut itself off from your voluntary muscles so you don't hurt yourself while you move about in your dream. But you are still able to move your fingers and toes, so if you ever want to wake up just keep wiggling your fingers and toes and your mind will realize that you are conscious and you will wake up. Or try taking deep breaths because doing so will trigger your mind to realize you are not sleeping because your breathing patterns are different from your sleep breathing patterns!

Anyways, on to my first lucid dream..

I've been trying to make a habit of checking whether I was dreaming or not even in reality so that I might habitually do it in my dreams as well. What I do is, I plug my nose and shut my mouth and take a deep breath. Obviously in real life that is not physically possible, but I read somewhere that when you do it in your dreams, you can breathe even though both of your airways are shut. I've read that doing this in your dream state would induce one to become lucid. So after much practice, I had my first lucid dream about 2 weeks ago.

I was standing in the middle of an empty road and I did my reality check and what do you know! I became conscious that I was dreaming! Since it was my first time I became so excited I started telling everyone around me that I was dreaming (apparently this is normal for newbie lucid dreamers). I found it so spectacular that I could finally be lucid. I ran around and went up to random people (for some reason i dream of people I've never met before) and told them I was dreaming and that they were merely made up people in my mind. After calming down (thank goodness I didn't wake up), I walked in front of a white honda civic. I wanted to test my ability to control time. So I exclaimed to the man inside of the car to come out and shoot me with a gun. He looked at me kinda funny and didn't respond. I told him again that I was dreaming and that I needed to test time control so he HAD to come out and shoot me with a gun. He shrugged and came out of the car. I was so excited. He pointed the gun at me and shot.
It was amazing, at first it seemed like the bullet was coming at me at lightning speed, but only for a second. I then managed to slow the bullet down into ultra slow motion. I tried to pinch the bullet in between my fingers but failed. I told him to shoot at me again and the same thing happened. I did it a couple more times but with no success. Kinda bummed out I walked away and thought about what else I should do in my dream. I started to make my own music/beat and had it playing all over the entire city as if the music was coming from the sky! It was a pretty damn good beat too, I told myself to try and remember it when I wake up.
As I was walking down the street listening to my music, I created a cannabis store so I could experiment to see if I could get high in my dream. They had weed with a transparent-like rainbow glow to it. I took a few hits and continued walking down the street. I felt buzzed but not high.
I ran out in the middle of the street (there were no cars) and spun around 3 times to see if I would land in another dimension. Mission failed, and I slowly felt the dream falling apart. I tried focusing on my hands but ended up leaving my current dream.
All of a sudden I was in my bed. Everything was really bright. I did my reality check again and immediately became lucid.
I wanted to see if I could control having sex in my dreams.
I thought of my boyfriend and he appeared but looked different. He seemed much skinner than he is now and he did not seem too happy to see me. He wasn't intimate at all and was being cold and blunt. I was sad at first but realized he was only a projection and just a shade of my real boyfriend.

Then I woke up.

The beginning of this dream stemmed from real life, where a friend and I were waiting outside of another friend's house in a car. It was dark outside as it was well beyond 9 PM. All of a sudden, another car pulled up on the other side of the street, but still a bit out of sight. It sat there for a moment doing absolutely nothing and my friend and I got scared. That is until the person checked their mail and promptly drove off -_-;

So the dream begins in much of the same way, with the same friend and I in our other friend's neighborhood at night. The difference is that we're walking down the street instead of waiting in a vehicle. As we're walking, I get the strange feeling that something is behind us. On cue, my friend says "Don't look, but somebody's following us I think" and I attempt to catch a glimpse of this person from the corner of my eye and without alerting him or her. The person is shrouded in shadows so I have no idea who he or she is or what they even look like. I turn around and focus on hurrying away without looking too suspicious. But then I get that hair-raising feeling and I know without looking that this stranger is running up behind me. I can feel him on my back and I tense as I see my friend's face morphing in horror. He looks as if he's seen the most horrific thing ever, or as if he can see my life ending before his eyes. The person grabs me in a choke hold from behind. Before I can even react or fend him off, he plunges a knife into my lower back. Fear and sheer panic are flooding through me. I don't even get the chance to scream as he brings the knife around to my throat and jerks it across cleanly, slitting my throat. At that point I don't know if I died in the dream or not because I woke up right after it was over.

I've been having this dream with some alterations since I was twelve. Small things have changed, like how I and some other characters look in it, but it has more or less been static since it began. I have it once a week, and I had it when I went to sleep last night.

The dream starts with me standing outside a cathedral looking up at it. It is built with white marble, and shines under a noonday sun. All around the cathedral is nothing but a peaceful meadow, with a single dirt path running to the doors of the church and seemingly stretching out forever behind me. My shoes are caked with mud, I run a hand over my face and feel that I've let my facial hair become overgrown, and I'm carrying a bag slung over my shoulder. As I continue to look at the church, I begin to hear a hymn of sorts. It's slow, low in tone and in a language I don't understand.

Prompted by the hymn, I push open the doors of the cathedral and walk inside. Inside is a multitude of women, all dressed as Catholic Sisters and all singing the same hymn that I heard from the outside. When I look at their faces, I recognize them as all the women I know or have known in my life. The inside of the church is made of the same marble, with a deep red carpet extending from the door all the way up to a golden altar at the head of the church. Behind the altar is an ornate throne, decorated with gold, red silk, and diamonds. Sitting on the throne is a woman who is always in my dreams, with black hair down to her ankles, shocking red eyes, and in this dream she wears a red and white Nun's habit, with her black hair spilling out from the headdress. She sits on the throne, propping her head up with one arm, smirking at me. She is the only one who does not sing.

High above the throne is a circular stained glass window, filled with pastel blues, greens, and pinks. The light from the sun outside shines through the window and lands down on the last figure in the dream, the friend I've had since childhood. She is dressed like a Sister as well, though her clothes fit less loosely, the uniform itself is white instead of black, and her head is uncovered, revealing her dark hair to be as messy as it always is. Her white-gloved hands are folded, her eyes are closed, and she has a peaceful expression as if in prayer, completely unlike how she is normally.

After a few seconds she opens her eyes, looking right into my own eyes, and begins to sing. Her voice, while still recognizably her voice from reality, is much softer and more pleasant. Her song is faster than the hymn the others have been signing, though the two songs seem to fit together. She begins to sway in time with the rising and falling of the notes, and unfolds her hands, spreading her arms wide. I still don't understand the words, but I believe it sounds beautiful and I become fixated on my friend.

I drop my bag and begin to walk forward, like I'm compelled. I stop just a few steps shy of her and continue to watch her until she finishes her song. After she is done and all the singing has stopped, she puts a hand to her chest and takes a deep breath. Then, she turns to me and smiles--which particularly strikes me, as in reality, my friend is something of a grim person and has never smiled to my knowledge. Something boils up inside me, and I push her down on the golden altar, placing my hands on either side of her shoulders.

She starts to exhibit more atypical behavior by putting on a frightened face, and crossing her arms over her chest defensively. The crowd of Sisters behind me all gasp in unison, and she begins to fearfully shed tears. I seem to be only spurned on by this, and grab at her clothes beginning to tear at them. As I'm doing this, I lean in to her frightened face, and out of the corner of my eye I can see the woman-in-red's smirk grow into a full smile, bearing her teeth. When her clothes begin to rip, and I'm just about to finally touch her skin, I wake up.

Honestly, my dreams tend to extremes of violence, but this dream always leaves me shaken in the morning.