non-lucid

I'm on Teraluna.
Yuya is teaching me about dream bubbles, or temporary dimensions like she calls them.
We've done this before, but this time she's telling me how to create a completely customized bubble, with my own rules at will.
She's explaining that using the 'natural bubble' we spawn in when we dream requires little to no energy, but it is also impossible to fully control.
We can definitely influence it to a great extend, but the control is limited.

Creating a custom bubble whilst in the dream plane requires a lot of energy, and it is fully customizable, but unfortunately they are very small and somewhat limited in features.
You can create a simple room, and apply some rules to this room, but you cannot create a beautiful outdoors environment for example.

The idea is quite basic, create a custom room and apply the rule "create gradually more powerful monsters attacking myself".
According to Yuya this is a rather high level training method, and quite effective.
Not only do you have to stay alive, but you also have to keep the dream bubble up, which requires a high degree of concentration.
Maintaining such concentration during a battle is very hard.

I don't understand how it works, but I somehow understand how to do it.
It's quite complex and requires delicate energy manipulation and a lot of willpower.
You have to fade into the new dimension at the same time you're creating it, it is a very weird and confusing experience.
My first few attempts are quite unstable, and the dream bubble breaks twice.
When it breaks I simply fall out from the spot I created it.
But then I get a feeling for it, and suddenly it seems very straightforward.

I am fighting waves of increasingly more powerful monsters, using my dragonic powers and my katana.
Even though the monsters are very realistic, there is no blood or anything.
When I slice through one, it simply fades away.

I'm trying to push myself to the limit, to see how powerful I truly am.
My own aura causes massive vibrations throughout my body, it feels great!
I move at an incredible speed, and the heat of my aura leaves burning trails behind me.
The dragon tattoo is fully grown and glowing in a bright blue.
Even though when I fully focus, time progresses so slovely I can time every one of my movements perfectly,
I still occasionally manage to move so quickly that my mind cannot keep up.
It's a fantastic experience.

I'm at my limit, I cannot keep up with the monsters anymore, at this point I'm just reacting instinctively to stay alive.
One scorpion like monster manages to pierce me with its tail.
It feels really cold for a split second, then the dimension disappears and I fall back to Teraluna.
I check my chest, I haven't hurt myself, this really is an amazing way to train!

... I'm now at Yuya's place.
I'm exhausted and we go to bed... I feel myself falling asleep very quickly...
I know this feeling from waking life. The numbness of my body, the heavy blanket feeling, the lightheadedness, I'm beginning to dream!

I am floating through darkness. I do not have a body, I am pure energy.
A scene starts to form around me.
The ground is volcanic, there are small crates everywhere and colorful plasma is streaming out of them.
There are a few lava streams as well.
I realize I cannot be on a planet. The horizon has no curvature and there is no atmosphere, I can see directly into space even though it is daytime.
Somehow this place feels oddly familiar.

I feel a presence behind myself and turn around, I am still floating in the air.
A white and blue dragon approaches me. He is very beautiful but also very fear inducing.
He has two pairs of insanely large Wings, and two tails with white blades on them.
He stops right in front of me, gazing into my eyes.
His voice is deep and so strong it is resonating in my body.

"You are Dragon!"

I am surprised by this statement, even though people call me Dragon all the time.
I always figured I was somehow using dragonic abilities, but I never considered being an actual dragon.

"I use the powers of a Dragon."
"No. You are Dragon. Always."
"You were born Dragon. Appearances are irrelevant. You are Dragon!"
"I am here because you need to know this."
"You are near the age of waking. When you do, your powers will fully awaken."

His presence is absolutely overwhelming, I feel that whatever question I would ask would be inappropriate.

"Thank you."
"Remember... you are Dragon... ALWAYS."
"Yes."

I wake up in my bed at home. I want to tell Yuya about this dream, but when I turn around I realize my mistake.
I am not on Teraluna, I am at home... I just woke up... stupid me.
I take some quick notes but then my eyes start to itch.
Rubbing my eyes, I walk to the bathroom to check in the mirror if I have something in them.

I am shocked when I see myself in the mirror. My eyes are glowing lightly... The same way Yuya's eyes do, the same way mine do when I look at myself in a mirror on Teraluna.
What is happening???
I am Dragon... always? Shit... this can't be!
I turn around to look at my back in the mirror, searching for the dragon tattoo which I know cannot be there.
But there it is...
It is not fully formed yet, my skin is bleeding in the spots where the dragon tattoo is in my dreams, and it is slowly being filled with color.
Holy shit... am I really a Dragon? Am I awakening?
I can't decide if I should be amazed or be worried about the consequences this would have on my future life.

But then I realize that I'm wrong.
Of course... I am still dreaming, holy shit!

I wake up again, this time for real.

Dream Journal #19, May 21st 2011.

Well, slept like at 3 am last night so of course I don’t really remember any dreams. Just one dream fragment though. I remember dreaming about lucid dreaming lol I was at a party, steven was there. They were doing some other thing, and then they saw me looking at lucid dream stuff. That’s all I remember. Going to WBTB now, I shall become lucid

edit: after WBTB

had a lucid, but the dream was very unstable, because there was just too much external noise coming from outside my house and inside my house, sigh.

the lucid started out as me walking in my school towards my friends. the environment and surroundings were very vivid, and they were also very familiar. i dream about school often. it didn’t take anything for me to become lucid- i knew i was lucid as soon as i saw everything. the dream faded as i became lucid, i let it fade. the dreamscape changed, but i was still lucid. i started to see the ceiling of my room, with the fan. first thing i did was rub my hands to stabilize the dream. it didn’t work… the dream started to fade again. it’s like the more i rubbed the more it faded. i awoke to little girls screaming like hell outside playing and a lawn mower. ugh. i tried to deild but it didnt work, so i got up and closed the window.

what was odd however was that i remembered a nonlucid dream in a lucid dream! something i did in the lucid dream (i forgot) triggered a memory, from before the WBTB same night. here’s the nonlucid:

I was living in my current house and i took my bike. I rode and i rode until i got to my neighbors house (this neighbor should have lived right next to me… but for some reason he was a block away now). I see that they trust me and my family a lot, but I go into their garage and steal a bunch of drinks. I bring them back to my house and tell my parents I got free drinks lol. After a while of doing this (like 3 times), John, my neighbor, comes over. He knows about me stealing the drinks and he tells my dad, I hear all this from the backyard eavesdropping. I get nervous, but I eventually just go up to John and say I’m sorry… I’ve had a history of stealing things in my past and its hard to overcome. lol. The dream ends there I believe.

Short Lucid

I was walking into my garage and things seemed unstable and I had an uneasy feeling and just didn't like it at all. I really really wanted to escape somehow, to get rid of the horrible feeling I was having. Then I realized I was dreaming and was glad it was just a dream. I was thinking about how good I was getting at lucid dreaming because everything was very stable now and I wasn't getting overexcited because I was sort of used to it. I thought about what I should do, and contemplated flying and stuff but decided not to. I walked outside of the garage into the sunlight and saw some kid standing on the side of the driveway. I don't really know what got into me, but I went over to him and said "Have sex with me." and he just said "okay." I don't think we actually did it and I don't know what happened after that..

Swings

I was in my neighborhood walking around and really wanted to go swinging. I came to a house that looked like you could cut right through the yard and get to the park with the swings, so I walked in back and saw a lady staring at me. I didn't want to look like I was intruding so I just kept walking and walking through more and more yards until finally the park came into view. There was a small swing set with some small, boring swings on it and beyond that were tons more swings, so I kept on walking until I got to the main part of the park, which turned into a neighborhood type thing, and it was completely filled with swings. But every single swing was filled up, so I kept on walking and looking for somewhere to swing. Apparently it was a new hobby for everyone, kids, adults, and even elders, to go swinging. People would stay overnight in these small house type places and try to get up early or reserve a place to swing. I think I actually stayed in one for the night, and eventually found a swing.

I got a lot of sleep and had many dreams this night. I didn't write them down so here's my best attempt at recall.

fragment
There was a dream here before the lucids. No detail other than I remember waking up from it and then into the lucids.

Black and White Lucid
Method DILD (?)
Lucidity C
Vividness C
Control C
I don't remember much about this one. I mostly remember that my vision was black and white and this was disappointing. I remember trying to look at my hands but I couldn't move them. When I woke up, I was determined to have another lucid of higher quality.

Questions Answered in Lucid
Method DILD (spontaneous)
Lucidity B
Vividness B
Control C
I don't recall how I became lucid. I am in a luxurious house. I am looking through a sliding glass door to the pool area. In and around the pool, a bunch of attractive people, mostly blonde chicks in bikinis. I look at my hands for stability. My body is a bit stiff and I have some awareness of my paralyzed physical body. I try to let go of that and just focus on being in the dreaming. I notice that the dream is in full color and that it fills me whole field of vision like an IMAX movie. This makes me more confident. I phase through the glass door and enter the pool area.

I think a few other things happen at this point. I don't recall. I feel like I fly away from the scene to find something and then came back. When I come back, there are four people left at the pool, all blondes in white bikinis. I walk back into the house and they follow me. Inside is the living room with windows facing front and back and the sliding glass door to the pool to the side. There are a few couches around a coffee table. I stand in the middle of the room and the chicks arrange themselves on the couches or standing next to me.

I recall the talk by Robert Waggoner from the DV video post and recall his advice to ask the DC to explain the symbols. So I look at one of the girls and ask "could you explain the symbolism here?" She replies willingly, not rude but as if it's obvious. She looks at the front windows, which are covered with drapes and says "you have a tentative father". Then she directs her attention to the back windows, also covered with drapes, "... and a tentative mother." Then she looks at the couches which have plush stuffed cushions and pillows. She says "The couch cushions show your attraction to large breasts". I think she said a few other things that I don't remember. Even though what she said was a bit nonsensical, it was and interesting interaction with a DC.

Then I have an orgy with the four girls. Not much to say about that.

fragment
I think this dream was about Brian? No recall besides that.

Gas Station
I am at a gas station with my friend B. My car is having problems and I am trying to fix it. I have the hood up. Also, I seem to have a convertible and the top is down. I put the gas nozzle into several holes in the car, hoping that adding gas somewhere will somehow solve the problem. When I squeeze the nozzle, liquid sprays from another part of the car. I eventually realized that this means the car is full and adding more just causes overflow. B suggests that I start the car so I can see if the gas gauge shows it's full. I am a bit afraid that it will cause an explosion because of all the gas that has spilled. I start the car and it shows the gas is full.

Late sleep so I hardly recall this dream

I was at school inside the hall and I was at a matric dance. It was my dance and I can only remember sitting with my friend who was depressed. We were both wearing suits and sitting at a huge table.

Realism: 6
Vividness: 3
Daily Residue: More like weekly residue

Dream - Lucid

I remember being outside at night with my friend Dakota. Someone else was there too, but I can't remember who. We were having to fight zombies. It was like a video game, where we had to kill these different types of zombies in one level to get to the next one. In this level, one of the first levels (there were 1 or 2 before this one), there were 3 different types of zombies to kill, each type deadlier and harder to kill than the last, and we only had a limited amount of ammo.

I remember before we went out into the level (we were just hanging out behind something so the zombies wouldn't see us), I was telling Dakota about what I did in the previous level (Dakota had gone through it already; he was at this level way before me). It had a beach on it, and I told him that after killing a few zombies, I laid down on the beach. If zombies came up after that, I'd just take them out. That level really wasn't that hard compared to the one we were in now.

I remember seeing, at some point, Dakota or the other person that was with us, fighting with someone's mom, I don't remember if it was Dakota's mom or the other guy's mom. But they were arguing about when they had to be home by.

Alright, back to the zombies. First, I remember talking to Dakota about what would happen if we lost all our lives. I asked him something about if we'd just come back or if we'd really die. He said if we lost all of our lives, we'd really die. It was real life, after all.

We decided to go out and kill some zombies. We went out from behind our little area. The zombies started to come out. We were shooting down the easier ones to kill. Not too bad, but then we got to the last ones. They didn't look like zombies, but more like almost invisible aliens with this big blue light streak going horizontally through their mid-sections. Dakota was telling me to shoot them, trying to instruct me what to do. I was trying to take one down, but he kept hitting me. I finally ran out of ammo and then energy, and died. I thought I was dying for real, because I thought it was my last life. But then, I was back where we started, sitting behind something with Dakota. We had been so close to completing the level!

I remember coming out from behind our little area a few times and killing off the easier zombies. Those crazy alien-like ones were really difficult to kill, and were very aggressive. We were trying to prepare ourselves for that.

Dream one: Walking through neighborhood to house with friend. At house and various things happening in house. Wall made of wood falling in. Fires being lit in house and not going out.

Dream two: Old neighbors house, lots of people there. Some tenious link to Star Wars in my head. People I did not know there. Cat on top of person.

Dream three: Shopping in regular shopping centre. First got groceries and then clothes for my kids, ended up leaving it too late and not getting kids clothes I needed.

Dream four: In house I work (didnt look like it). Got angry at kids as a means to control them. Had to restrain one and person with me didn't help. Met people from old job there.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Was out drinking heavily last night, so I didn't dream much. Did have one dream which was rather weird.

03.00: Sleep

12.00: Damn crooks
I'm in my hotel room at Gran Canaria. It looks way bigger than it was and it seems as if we have a small house instead. I get out and pick up my phone and call my old friend Jesper. He picks up and I ask him if he feels like going shopping for groceries together. I remember he's living next to another one which is closer and he intends to go to that one. I hang up and sit down at a bench near the water. I can see a shell in the turquoise water, it's nice.

I mind my own business and just eat some crackers when a couple of guys in brown police suits shows up. "Is that box of crackers open?" one of them asks me. "Only one is open" I say and show him the box on the bottom, which was open. "Oh, I thought it was closed". There's two crackers left. "You can't have two boxes open at the same time, it's complicated but we have to arrest you" he tells me. I figure it has to be some kind of retarded law about germs and stuff.

I don't want to get arrested, so I start begging them not to. "Please don't arrest me! My girlfriend Monica's sick, she has a disease, she can't do anything on her own". "A disease?" they ask. "Well, almost like a disease, she has so bad memory she can't even remember what she was supposed to do when she goes to the bathroom". They decide not to arrest me, but just fine me instead.

I'm given a 5 euro bill and I take out my wallet. I stare at the coins for a long time, wondering if I should really do this. I decide it's best to just play along and I give him back a 1 euro coin and a 20 euro bill. "Thanks" I say and walk away.

12.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 9 hours

Supplements: Massive amounts of alcohol

That's it! I'll try to get lucid tomorrow morning. Hopefully I'll have a nice REM rebound because of the drinking.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I am living in an apartment in a subdivision of caves in some fantasy world. Outside of our door is an infestation of baby dragons so I have to call for an exterminator. I tack a posting for the job on the bulletin board outside of the church. Apparently there is a lot of trouble with work lately so I get a pretty long line of people to interview for the job.

First is this Dwarf Barbarian with Fur armor and a battle axe that is twice his size. He tells me that he will smash and crush all dragons for a fee of 3 gold a dragon plus an extra 15 for the queen mother. I say thank you and that I will get back to him.

Next is a little weasely elf in a member's only jacket holding a box cutter. He says he'll kill all the dragons, queen included, and bring me their hides for a flat fee of 75 gold. I thank him.

Then a mage comes in wearing a bathrobe and sneakers and says that for 20 gold total she will teleport all of the dragons away and I'll never have to see them again. I say to her, well if you just teleport them away won't they just be someone else's problem then?


She sort of shifts her feet and looks down. Is this some kind of a scam where you put dragons in people's front cave yards?

I am lying in bed in my bedroom. My dog, frank, is standing on the desk across the room. She is whining and howling for me to take her outside. I open my eyes to look at her and there is a huge snot bubble growing out of her right nostirl. The bubble pops and turns into a huge stream of mucus that pours out of her nose and runs all over the desk. She is still looking at me and whining for me to get her some food.

So I remember being in a back room right next to the stage. The band was practicing; or well, I remember seeing the drums and someone playing. I heard that it was time for me to go on. So I ran through a hallway jumping up and getting excited. But when I entered... I could only see staff still setting up. No audience. Then someone in the back shouted, "Why did you come out so early? It hasn't started yet!" So I embarrassingly walked back through the hall into the band room again.

After a while, there was a sort of "tunnel" to my right (the entrance to the stage was in front of me, and I was standing in the practice band room; to the right of me were the instruments). I went through. Apparently I had to jump over things/crevices! Then, somehow, I morphed into a squirrel-looking animal. Then all there was were stairs of dirt. I "hopped" down them and saw someone lying unconscious on the bottom step. I gave them a good hard bump with my body, and they fell onto the floor. He/she woke up and thanked me. It turned out that that creature was a "squirrel" too as well as my lover!

So now the whole band came through this passage. I guess this was the long way of entering to the stage. I don't really know why we were in there; but I could have sworn my drummer looked like a turkey.

I can't remember what else happened.

First dream (fragment)
I am outside. It is evening. The car is standing at the side of the road with all doors open. i walk towards the car and out of nowhere this strange orange cat starts to come towards me. i try to pet it but it kinda attacks me.
the dream skips a little bit. 2 girls i know (but not a lot) comes towards me in big fancy dresses and gets into the car. i get into the backseat and suddenly i realise "well shouldnt i be driving?" and i get into the front seat.

Second dream (fragment ish)
i am in this big bus or classroom (it changes between those two). I remember something about writing on the drapes and there is something that reminds me of cake. apperently i had 2 big slices of cake in my backpack 0_o. One of them was chocolate !

Third dream:
i am in this big grey city where the tall buildings is smoldering apart (kinda like in inception). after the buildings had collaps me and my mates had to clean up the city. while we were doing this an annoying waiter from a nearby resturent came and wanted us to eat at this table in the middle of nowhere. just a table with 5 chairs and some plates on it. I was the last one to give in but we were 6 people and there was only those 5 chairs.. so i left them..

Fourth (fragment):
we are in the classroom, watching old movies with my teacher

Last dream (WILD LD):
i see this window on my wall - and i know it isnt there IRL so i do an reality check --> i become lucid:
I sit up in my bed and look around, trying to get a feel of it. As soon as everything was clear as glass i wanted to try the "finger through palm" thing and had a lot of fun with that and even made the dream a lot more vivid. I had a feeling i had to pee so i went to the bathroom. on the way over there i looked out another window there isnt there normally either where i saw this beautiful horizon with a purple touch to it. i went to the bathroom and thought "HEY! what if my pee was like a rainbow ?!"... so.. i was standing there.. peeing rainbows..
After the pee rainbows i went down stairs...
i woke up. might be the morning light comming through to me. (it was like 10 AM)

I distinctly remember having four seperate dreams (quite vivid, in fact) but I didn't have access to a pen and paper to write them down in time. I kinda just layed in bed, thinking about them, and eventually forgot them as my mind wandered. I do still remember one though.

It was about my friend and I who were in an MMO type setting together (goblins and werewolves and such) and he was to buy some Hogwarts robes for some special occasion. He got Slytherin robes, I believe. Afterwards, I recognized a few items from a game I used to play: Global MU Online (Dark Lord items).

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm standing in a class room that look familiar. I think it was my 1st grade class room (but everyone including me is my current age). One of my friends tells me to grab 3 items from my backpack- so I grab a pen, pencil, and brownie. My backpack is the same black, Swiss Army pack that I currently own.

I'm now walking in a school cafeteria that I have never seen before. I sit down at a small table with some friends also sitting there. I know they are friends- but they don't look familiar to me. After talking for awhile I get up and walk around to the back of the cafeteria that opens up to a larger space that looks like a theater. There is a large mirror that I can see myself in. I have longer hair than I currently have, I'm wearing a blue shirt with normal colored tight jeans. To be honest, I was kind of amazed at how nice I looked.

I went to sit down at the front of the theater. I sat next to Max and a few other friends. They congratulated me on becoming the class president and I laughed and said thanks. Some people yelled across the "theater" to also congratulated me.

Eric was making some comments about how it wasnt that big of a deal for me to be president. Max made a comment about Eric and he shut up. I then, to snap back at Eric, said "Logic? I hardly know her!"

A teacher walked up in front of the people sitting down and made a suggestion that people were going to vote for student elections.

Woke up. Pretty weird dream- pretty weird that the mirror looked normal- pretty weird that I had a dream about becoming president (considering the fact I hate talking about politics and I hate the fact of public speaking).

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was on the Brooklyn Bridge with my mother. The walkway of the bridge felt a lot different. It was like all the suspension cables were packed tightly together, and as if there were layers and layers of them. The cables seemed to run incredibly high up into the air. And the bridge itself seemed much bigger and taller than it is IWL.

I was standing out on some metal beam over the walkway with my mom. I may have been holding on to some of the suspension cables for balance.

I was telling my mom some dream I had. In the dream I stood out on some beach, possibly bordering a jungle. One of my co-workers, DD, was there. He had been followinf me around, snooping into my business.

Then, in this dream, a flood had come. It managed to wash me up onto a railroad freight car that was itself filled with debris. I stood on the debris, but it also sometimes felt like the freight car had a solid, red roof on it, and that I stood on that.

I was carrying something like notebooks and textbooks. I was actually in this place to begin with, I now understood, so I could study this stuff. There may actually have been a school desk in the distance, now littered with debris, which I had possibly been using for studying.

DD was now running all over the place, trying to find out where I'd gone. He was really intent on snooping on me for some reason. But I kept quiet and just got to my studying again.

I might not have spoken this dream to my mom. I may have thought it while she read my thoughts. As the dream ended, I may have gotten distracted and tried to tell her the dream again. I may not have known whether I had actually finished telling the dream. But at some point I felt like I was done telling my mom the dream.

For some reason I now climbed through the multi-layered lattice of the steel suspension cables. As I did, my mom asked me, through voice or thought, whether the people publishing me dreams were paying me a lot of money. I said no, that the newspaper (or periodical) I wrote my dreams in took my dreams for free.

I climbed down along a section of suspension cables that was like a ladder. It wasn't until I had started climbing down this ladder that I had felt any fear of heights. The bridge was so tall!

I was now back down on the wooden walkway of the bridge. My mom was already down there, but she was now an old man. She walked behind me as we walked on the outside of the fence guarding the walkway. We were on the edges of the wooden slats now, possibly heading back out to climb on the suspension cables.

The old man started talking about his life as a reporter, back in the old days. He said that in those days reporters really dug into a story. Nowadays, the old man said, reporting was shallow and lazy. I felt bad about what the old man was saying, as if I could have done something to prevent this.

Dream #2

I was in a living room which was positioned in the house like a bedroom. A few people had been in the room. They were all nice-looking and young.

Among these people was a Latina woman who had been recognized as a spy. The woman had been fatally injured or had been made to take poison.

Everybody else was now gone except for the woman and I. I may not have been "there," but just seeing the room. The woman lay on the couch on her back, her head and shoulders kind of slumping off the front of the couch. She was still alive and she may have said something.

I now had a view of another or the same woman. She was standing over me, as if I were a child. My view came up to just under her breasts. She wore a tight t-shirt and a dark blue hoodie. She was in trouble. She had possibly just been shot, or else she was possibly about to be shot.