non-lucid

I was supposed to meet C for a date, and I got a call from her from her about a minute after she left. She said that she couldn't make it and I shouldn't waste my time. When I hung up the phone, I ran the conversation through my head, and realized her voice sounded like D was impersonating a girl.

I headed to the area where I was supposed to meet her at, and I ended up getting interviewed by some strange man. I forget what the job was for, but the guy had on heavy makeup, and there were girls everywhere. I sat at this long table and he was asking me various questions about my work ethic while a girl at his end and my end of the table was playing with our faces. They were playing with our eyes to be specific. The girls were forcing them open, and one of them told me to not look the guy in the eyes. I found just about everything weird.

Once things looked like it was over, one of the girls kept flirting with me, and her friend was jealous . Her friend was trying to tell her that I didn't like her at all, and that it was all physical. I was at a lost of words, as she walked out. I was more or less waiting for the girl who liked me to say that I was genuine, but she left too.

Dream #1

Well, I don't usually remember too many of my dreams, but luckily I was able to remember a tiny bit of one I had last night. Usually my dreams are very mundane and ordinary, which makes it very hard for me to determine if I'm dreaming at all. I guess this one had some oddities about it though. I'll just jot down the pieces that I can remember.

I believe I was at my university for this one. The first oddity was that there was some girl that I think I liked, but apparently she didn't like me. I literally chased her throughout the campus but lost her when she ran out the doors into the parking lot. She totally ran away from me. Saddened, I just got into my car and was going to just sit and mope while I listened to music. It was nighttime. There was another guy with a huge beard sitting in his car next to me. He was listening to a song that I actually had in my head and I thought that was weird.

Later in the dream I found myself walking, I believe, back home. Where my car went, I don't know. I looked up into the sky and some parts of the clouds were really colorful, like the northern lights...but not. It was like a rainbow was trapped in the clouds. Something like this could have triggered me to realize I was dreaming considering I had never seen anything like that before. I went home and told my mother about it, but she kind of just shrugged it off like it wasn't a big deal.

That's about all I remember. Hopefully I'll remember more dreams in the future, and start having more interesting dreams...

September 29, 2010

G/C

Asleep by 1:00am.

WBTB at 4:00am. Took 8/400 G/C and this sleep aid called Melissa, which is 900mg lemon balm, 180mg l-theanine and a combo of B-vitamins. Ate a small 100-calorie bag of baked Cheetos to help swallow everything. Back to bed.

My recall is kind of low, because I didn't experience much in the way of dreams. Everything tipped off with an INRALD. I was laying in bed, listening to Jack breathing next to me (which made me think I was awake). I also thought I heard my dad thumping around upstairs, getting ready for work. Regardless, I heard ringing in my ears... the volume would sometimes jump. I relaxed and saw a swirly void behind my eye lids. When I focused on it the first time, I felt my body whoosh into a full on SP transition. The noises got louder and my entire body felt like it was buzzing. It subsided, but the swirly was still there, so I focused on it again, and the same experience happened again.

Tentatively, I wondered if I was asleep, but kind of lost myself, and drifted off a bit. I felt a book at my feet. I don't remember falling asleep with a book on my bed, but I guess I did? I pushed the book off my bed, gently, so it wouldn't slam to the floor. I realized my head felt kind of voidy, so I decided to reality check by biting my tongue. My tongue didn't feel any sharp piercing where it should (since I use that pointier tooth that sits next to the first molar)... I tried biting a few times, and it was the same. I knew now that I was asleep, but I decided to nose pinch. First time, I could breathe, second time, I could breathe. Sweet, alright. Now to move. The SP was still kind of strong, so I started moving with my ankles first, but unfortunately, it woke me up

I tried to fall back to sleep, but couldn't, as my dad actually was getting ready for work at this point

About 6:20 I decided to move to the couch for a bit, and by 6:40 I was waking up more, so I took a half-mg of melatonin and passed out at some point.

I had a series of false awakenings again. Each one, I tried to catch by biting my tongue, but each time it hurt like it should have, so I missed them all But at the same time, I knew that it was a false awakening, throughout the whole thing... it may have just been low-level lucidity. It's kind of confusing.

I had a dream that Jack was cleaning up our apartment. I noticed our bedroom door was closed. I opened it, and there were boxes piled about shoulder-height to me (I'm 5'2"). I went to our kitchen, and everything had been cleaned out. Except there were leaves covering the floor (probably because I was watching Glee last night, and one of the music scenes had leaves all over the floor).

Another dream, Joe's sister, Becky was at my house for some reason. I don't remember much about that.

I remember being at work, and trying to follow my family. I was trying to leave through the loading dock door. Each time, I would open it partially, and attempt to duck under the door as it was closing, but before I could even set the door in close motion, it would fall shut on its own. I finally got out, and I noticed some dodgy teens in the alley. I started jogging, and they didn't want anything to do with me.

Overall, I don't think I'll do 8/400 again. The night wasn't too much different than the first time I did 4/200, but this time, I woke up with a massive headache and I feel a bit nauseous.

29.09.2010

September, 29, 2010 (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM

I was at my old High School, Everything looked different. It didn't look quite the same, What I saw in my dream really threw me off. I didn't realize until I saw Link from The Legend of Zelda's Majora's Mask, Shooting a Light Arrow at a object on the wall out side a open roof window in the gym. My friend and I was standing on the main floor in the gym. And we saw Link shoot that Light Arrow to the object. My friend, She was really curious on what was happening. So the room started to shift, She didn't knew what was going on. The dream became vivid after Link shot the arrow. The room shifted upside down, We tried not falling to the ground face first. We held onto the ceiling and easily fell to the ground when the room shifted. It was a freaky experience. Everything changed. The place looked like a whole new world. We saw two dream characters talking, And they were telling us something. "We need to be careful" This is a whole different world. I didn't catch what they fully said, I can't barely remember the dream properly. The dream was suddenly changing its story.

This is what the roof looked like.






Later on in the dream my friend was walking some where else. While I told her to wait I didn't want her to go out any further, It could be dangerous, She looked at me with a grin on her face saying she'll be fine, She wanted to explore this new "world". I didn't see her again after that. The dream characters told me I better go soon, I had to be careful, They suddenly disappeared. I found my self in the School hallway, Everything was upside down like it was before. I was wondering what the hell was going on. I saw the football field and bleachers, They were upside down, You could see the sky at the bottom of the ground when you look out the windows. Then suddenly I saw some High School students wondering whats going on, I saw some girl looking curious on what is happening, She looked scared, I tried to approach her and tried to comfort her. Then I walked away when they looked at me like I was some stranger, It looked like they were different kids having the same dream as me. I didn't even knew who they were. I never seen them before in my life. Except that one girl looked really familiar.

I decided to travel on my own trying to find a way out of this place, It was so bizarre that this dream happened. I was trying to force my self awake but I couldn't wake up, It felt like the dream was holding me back from awakening. It was really depressing at the time, I didn't knew what was going on, I was thinking, Why is this happening, Am I dreaming? Will I ever wake up from this place? At the time I wasn't aware I was dreaming. I didn't knew what was going on. Then the scenes started to change, I was walking and looked out a window in the hall. I saw some crabs standing on a big square block blowing bubbles from its mouth, It looked really disgusting. It looked so realistic it was really freaky when I saw the crabs move like that. It got vivid at that point, I think the dream got really vivid after that.

Then after, I was walking, and ended up outside the school in the court yard, I saw some kids standing by the lunch tables wondering what was going on, Everything still looked upside down, The kids were asking me, Hey buddy do you know how to get out of here? Then I said I have no clue whats going on either. And I was wondering how did all this happen? I woke up after the dream. I can't remember the rest of the dream after I woke up. But it's worth it.

Type: Regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

It was later in the day, but still light outside. I was in the grassy area of a large park. In the distance I could see small, light grey bike paths. There were trees everywhere, be it evergreens, maples, or whatever, which blocked out some of the light from the sky. I was at a basic picnic table made of wood, and my sister was sitting beside me. There were a few other picnic tables around us, but no one was sitting at them. I decided to get up and look around for precious stones; apparently there were lots of them at this park.

I was a decent distance away from the group of tables when I found a beautiful stone. It was shaped like an egg, except slightly flattened, and it was a light, pale pink color. Around it was some form of polished grey rock, shaped like the outside blades of a beyblade spinning top, except the blades were slightly duller, not as sharp. There were deep grooves in the rock, shaped like broken lines. Because of this, it looked like something ancient. "Should I keep it?" I asked myself, and picked it up. The whole thing, including the stone around it, must have been at least eight inches across and five deep, and must have weighed only two or three pounds.

The dream ended.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING NIGHTLY ADVENTURE

Good morning. Didn't recall any dreams in two days, but tonight was a big success! I woke up at 9.00 and did a WBTB. Went to bed again at 9.45 after some breakfast, and the dreaming started. I also had my first annoying session of False Awakenings. It wasn't as fun as I thought it was, but still I'm glad! I will now start doing Reality Checks everytime I wake up.

Nightly Adventure - The walls are caving in
I wake up and get on my feet in an instant quick jump. The walls are caving in! I start yelling "Oh shit, oh shit!" While holding my hands out towards them. With telekinetic powers I manage to stabilize one of the walls, but the other one is still instable. I look real closely to make sure this isn't my imagination, and sure enough, the wall is full of cracks and it's swaying. I decide to try to control the telekinesis without using my hand and I put it down. "Baby... What are you doing?" Monica asks from beneath in a tired voice. The walls are finally stable and we're safe. I go take a piss.

Nightly Adventure - End of the world
The world is ending. I don't know why but I decided I needed my snowboard for this. I get out of bed and walk up to it where it's hanging on the wall. My waterpipe is in the way, on the shelf below so I decide to take it down first. There's alot of stuff on that shelf and a deck of cards fall to the floor. "What are you doing now?" Monica asks. "It's okay, I just gotta fix this" I tell her. Suddenly I wake up for real, and put the waterpipe back in place.

9.00: 45 minutes WBTB

11.45: Scared babysitter
I'm at my parents house and apparently I'm babysitting two kids. I don't know the kids and I'm very jumpy. The little boy runs upstairs and I follow him. I tell him that he can't just run off like that. We're standing at the top of the stairs and I look down. Suddenly a girl shows up, and I scream in terror. She looks up at me and starts crying. I realise it's the girl I'm babysitting and I comfort her. Not only am I babysitting two kids, but also a few pets. Including a small rodent. The door opens and my mom comes back home. The little rat sneaks out and I chase it down. Outside I see several other animals, including a huge possum, a few dogs and a cat. They all try to sneak back inside and I try to stop them. It's all very frustrating. When we're back inside I try to explain everything to my mom, but she's totally ignoring me. So is everyone else and I scream out loud for a few seconds in frustration.

11.45: Chasing Harry Potter
I'm a flying observer of some kind, and I'm watching Harry Potter and his friend Ron run for their lives. A bunch of people are chasing them through the city of Stockholm, and they're in the older quarters. They reach a cliff overlooking the water and jump in. With magic they alternate between flying and gliding on the water and they enter a canal. They start shooting red sparks with their wands on the nearby mountain walls and try to bring some of it down for some reason. I decide to stop caring about them and look around some. The feeling of flying is awesome as usual, but the view is even more so. The canal disappear into the city and on its sides are old houses. It's all very beautiful.

11.45: Travelling
I wake up on a bus. I've been sleeping, trying to achieve a lucid dream. (so close to realising I'm in one already!) The driver asks me if I had a nice nap, and I tell him it was ok, but I didn't accomplish my goal. I check the time and realise I only have 10 more minutes before the bus will reach its destination. I'm in a seat facing backwards. The driver calls out in the speakers. "Seems like we got a sleepy head on the bus" and everyone starts laughing at me. I drop my headphones on the floor, and Monica helps me retrieve them. They roll around and I drop them several more times before I finally get a proper hold on them. We arrive at a customs of some sort and after some time, we enter a building.

I walk around the building with my luggage and an Australian man comes up to me with two of his kids and ask me something. I drool on his leg for some reason, and they take off. I run into the bathroom of the place and splashes my face with water. "God damnit, what about hepatitus B?" I think for myself. "Wait a minute... We haven't even been on a plane yet, we must still be at home" I leave the bathroom and end up sitting in a corridor, waiting for the plane to depart or something. A woman in a phonebooth tells me she will freak out if the phone doesn't work this time. "I've put in as much money as possible" Ofcourse it doesn't work and she starts screaming at it. I get up and leave.

I enter a restaurant and I find a Linus from work sitting at a low table in a sofa. "Hey Matteh! Come over here" he tells me and I walk over. I take a look at what he's eating. It appears to be some kind of dessert made of chopped up, roasted almonds, cream and alot of colourful fruits. It looks delicious, but doesn't taste very much I notice after taking a bite. One of the chefs comes over with another plate. It looks like a paella of some kind with mussles and rice. He also puts a glass filled with some white liquid on the table. I ask him what's in it. "Cream, milk and a few spiders" he tells me. I can see the six or seven small black spiders in it, and they are sinking into the milk, one by one. When all the spiders have disappeared, the liquid in it starts bubbling like crazy and it turns transparent. The spiders in it turns into slices of starfruit with a touch of red. "Awesome!" I exclaim.



13.00: False Awakenings
I wake up in my bed, and I think about what I've dreamt. I decide to write some of it down but something's not right... The light is totally messed up and Monica isn't here. I wake up. Monica is next to me this time, and I put a hand on her ass. "Damn that was a False Awakening" I think for myself while lying there, trying to remember what I've dreamt. I wake up. This time Monica isn't there, and I remember why: She's at work. I count my fingers and pinch my nose and try to breathe. Nope this time I'm awake for real...

13.50: Unstable shop
I enter a shop of some sort, and the entire shop is vibrating. I enter a small room and I can see thousands of cans of coke. I shut the door and a woman walks up to me. "You can't enter there! You have to be careful, or the whole place will colapse!" She's really freaking out, but I'm not the least worried. I calm her down.

13.50: Smart girls know when you're lying
I'm in a car with some girl. She's driving and somehow I have to explain what I've done recently to her. I make up a story and try to convince her. She knows I'm lying straight away, and tells me to tell her the truth (I think she was my wife or something). I tell her the truth. "I stabbed a man to death" I can recall doing so, a knife to the back. "Come on! Tell me the truth! Now you're just rambling" she tells me and I sigh.

13.50: Fragment
*Something about my electric bill being over 500kr.

Amount of sleep: 11 hours

Food before bed: 1 can of mackerell, 2 eggs, 20cl applejuice, 30cl protein shake, 1 omega-3 pill, 100mg B6.

9.15: Porridge, 15cl applejuice, 1 omega-3 pill, 50mg B6

That's it! One hell of a night. I thank the B6 for that. I don't really know how effective B6 is. But I think it amplifies dream recall and vividness, and if you have a bad night, B6 won't help. That's what I think.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Morning of September 29, 2010. Wednesday.



It seems I may be in La Crosse living with my wife and children but I am not sure as it may be somewhere in Australia. Seemingly to the east of a road we are walking on northward is a “giant” birdhouse. By that, I mean it is on some sort of cylindrical platform and higher up from the ground (though really only about the distance up of some of the houses I have seen here with longer stumps, implying enough room to walk underneath if there was enough open space otherwise) as well as looking much like a typical birdhouse, but a bit fancier in some areas. The doorway (and there does not seem to be a closeable door, which causes a thought about security or potential intruders) is even circular and much like that of a birdhouse and one needs to climb a seemingly unstable ladder to get up and inside it.

An unknown young girl (perhaps a relative of my wife’s) lives there though we do not see her much. I believe there is a need to visit her but we cannot quite work out how to get in. This is similar in mood and theme to another dream where we lived in a house where the front door had to be reached by climbing a narrow ladder (though this concept is sparsely recurring). I think there was something about her giving my wife jewelry or something but the details are rather odd and distorted with several “resets”.

Had a lucid and a non-lucid last night. I'll start with lucid since its short.

Lucidity-5
Vividness-6

I'm standing on a road and do a RC for no reason. Lucidity hit me. I wanted to fly. I could actually fly for once in a dream. I wasn't fast but i was able to fly. When i got pretty high up, i stopped flying and freefalled to earth. On the way i took my clothes off for some reason, and then smashed down onto the ground.End of dream

The second dream

There is an arrangement of tables with different groups at them in what looks like a small cafeteria. I'm at my group with a few others, theres a group to my right and one to the front.
Dream skip.
Me and this girl are talking about me sponsoring her for something. I tell her i don't use money much so its no big deal. I follow her to her group and she doesn't want me sitting their. So i walk back to my group and they don't want me sitting their either. Then i look to my left now and the group there has some friends. I sit their and am mad because noone wants me to sit in their group.

Best recall ever had since I started. For two days I took a break, but now this definitly sparked my interest again. I know its not beaten my record in terms of number of dreams, but each and every one of them is so... complete
UPDATE: Now 9 DREAMS(truly epic)
In other words: NEW RECORD

Dream 1: In a pokemon battle. The arena is brown. My opponent has two Primeapes. I appear to have a Ralts and a fire poke (?). Throughout the turns, my ennemy switches out his primeape for a Xatu, then the other one for a Fire Primeape (which doesnt even exist). Meanwhile, I continuously exploit flash fire of Ralts (who traced it from Primeape). I wonder if the Xatu could easily kick the Primeapes ass. I try to Psychic with my Ralts.

Dream 2: Just remembered. I get in the Physical Education class which is once again happening in class instead of in the gym.
I think to myself that we already had our time in class. I also see very clearly in my head the sheet where it says which period is taken by MITIC.

Dream 3: Playing Combat Arms, I am using my trusty RPG (rocket launcher) to just freakin own. I get a Ultra kill by shooting between four players, then I jump down and pull out my other gun to kill to other guys. At that moment, I think to myself this is great since I never had an unbelievable, and now I get and Unbelivable+. I also hoped they wouldnt think im a hacker and kick me. The map was Junk Flea BTW. Then, and this one is fun, one guys shoots me with an RPG while I am on the rooftop. I avoid the missile closely, but then it rebounds back and hits me on the head. I laugh and think I got owned right there. It felt very real.

Dream 4: All of my class, including girls, play Magic the Gathering in class. I dont play anymore, so I watch. They all have blue cards, each and everyone of them. Then a narrator explains to me some cards that are misunderstood. I ask Frederique the question I always asked myself, and he tells me they count as one mana and not another mana card. I knew it . After watching a little more, I almost hope I had my cards. I pick a card from the deck and try to understand how it works. Its a grey creature with -9 written on it. Weird.

Dream 5: Now this was very close to lucid. I dont quite remember how I got there, but I am practicing dream control. Thats right, its possible to practice DC without dreaming (in a dream of course). My excuse for it was that there is consequences in RL but not in dreams. I was aware and decided to practice, but I didnt know I was dreaming. In this, I managed to: Make something appear directly in my hand, pulling a thing out of a mirror and most importantly feel like I was getting bigger and bigger. This gave me a glimpse of what shapeshifting would be like, and it was awesome. It really felt like it, physically and mentally. To pull out from a mirror, I looked in the mirror and saw something in my hand while it wasnt in my real hand. I would put my hand in the mirror, and hold the thing when it got out. Just remembered, theres also a part where my sis can clone herself and I try to make a dance choreography with her, which fails.

Dream 6: In the schoolyard, Meg Griffin sends out Neil to find a 275 year old girl. Out of context. Then I talk to Frederique (again) and ask him how he got that cloning machine. He tells me his father made it and it works like a charm. After asking how it works, he tells me u just get in and bingo. Eric joins the conversation and says Colin talked about it to him and hes interested. Hes wearing brown pants and brown/white T-shirt. Just as im about to ask if theres any chance you get out with three arms, I wake up.

Dream 7: Got this from a homework. We had to draw circles, squares and triangles for a math work. Then, we had to scribble on a certain amount of them to make a "shadow". In my dream, I am watching a tutorial of Word saying if we want to put a shade behind an image, u just press X button. I think its easier that way.

Dream 8: This one is limited to a sound. Yeah. Just my dad saying we should think about my drumming classes. The rest is black, but this WAS a dream. And it counts

Dream 9: In my bus, I am sitting and looking around. I think to myself "am I really in the same bus?" since I dont recognize people around me and just because I happened to wonder. I guess it didnt occur to me that I could be dreaming though

Hello I had a few very vivid dreams, was really near to get lucid and I remember them surprisingly good. I now go to bed at a different time to get more sleep: I have to wake up at 5:40 am, so I went at 9:30 pm to bed to fall asleep around 10 pm. And today I don't feel so dizzy as yesterday

1. I'm in my bedroom and I here noise downstairs. So I hurry to go downstairs to look what's going on. So I don't really pay attention how everything looks like. In one second I'm downstairs and I see that my parents bring a lot of boxes into the house. I help them a bit. By the way the boxes are heavy.
After a minute or two I'm suddenly in a different room (it looks like the attic of the old house I lived when I was a kid). My mum says to me that there is a letter for me from a publisher: it's an answer that I'm waiting for ages. So I get really excited, I already can imagine how the letter looks like. But she says to me that the letter isn't here, but in the neighbour-town She says to me that I have to hurry to get it before noon (no idea why) I open the door and suddenly I'm outsides in my home-town. I don't pay attention how I got there, because I just couldn't stop thinking of the letter!
I begin to run, for one second I asked me if I'm dreaming, look around me a bit but everything looked like normal. I wanted to look at my watch, but I'm not wearing it. "Great, I forgot it in the hurry", was my thought. So I said to me that everything was normal. Exact in the same time, I saw a friend. He was also running and he was running next to me. I didn't perform a RC, because I did it a second before
I said:"Oh hello Micheal", how are you doing?"
- "I'm so ill!", said he and coughed really loud. "but I have to continue to jog, 'cause I have to loose weight"
- "O really?"
- "Yeah it's true"
Awkward silence. I feell that it is really chilly outsides and look down at my feet. I don't wear shoes, nor socks.
"WTF" was my first thought, but didn't developed my thinking into "OMG I'm dreaming!"; Instaed I said too him:
- I guess that I too will catch cold! So you don't have to feel so lonely with your cold!
I looked down to his feet. He was bare food too
I don't see these oddities... -.- So I kept on running
Suddenly, I see that I'm really fast, I have the feeling that I even don't touch the ground while running.

2. I'm in a bus. I don't remember the letter nor anything what happened previously... A few girls are sitting in front of me. They are talking about handbags Their conversation was like this:
- I bought me a new hand-bag, didn't you notice it?
- Yeah it's awesome! How much did you pay?
- Well, last time I just spend 300 Yengins (I don't have a freaking idea what kind of money this is)...
- But what about this time?
-... EEh it was one and a half Yengins
- OMG, that's expensive!
(Yes 1.5 is more than 300 )

I awake an hear an alarm clock. I'm not realizing it directly, but than I thought I was late. I looked at my alarmclock: it was 4:45 am. That's not the time I have to wake up. I do a RC (nose plug) I'm not dreaming. WTF, what's going on. I look around me: it's dark. I look again on the clock: 4:45am. The alarm went off.
It was another alarm clock of my watch, that I set up in August to wake me up to WBTB+WILD, but it never woke me up
So scribbled down some notes. I noticed that my mind was clear, but my body was really hard to move. So I tried WILD. I kept on thinking mind awake, body asleep. After a few minutes, I was in N1: i saw colours, monochromatic, I felt also the "tetris effect" (I felt the movements of a driving bus, 'cause I spent 3hours in a bus through the day), Suddenly I heared waves of bizarre sound, I've got a buzzing sensation. It wasn't really SP, because I could still move a finger or toe, without loosing the sensation. But after 5 minutes or so it simply stopped and I felt really awake. My attempt didn't worked. I did another RC, it turn out I was still awake. So I just fall to sleep normally.

3. I'm in a car. My friend drives it. The radio was static, and didn't work. SO I pushed a few buttons to fix the problem, but it doesn't work. Suddenly I hear a loud noise and I awake.

It's my alarm clock, but now it's time to get up defenitly (after doing RC)

The end

★★★★☆

09/28/10



Killing from the shadows.

I get tied up a lot. I would wonder at the Freudian implications of that, but I'm a little busy right now. What with being tied to a chair, and all. I'm at the center of an empty conference room, surrounded on all sides by bare floor space. It's almost like the huge room, with its fluorescent lights and grey carpet, is supposed to be intimidating or something. The syndicate's second in command swaggers into the room. He's an older man with greying hair, and wearing a business suit. He's confident, and self-assured, and my gods do I want to beat the smirk off of his face. He's walking towards me, and stops three feet away.

Get closer, I dare you.

"How is it," says the man, leaning in, "That you got in here? Our defenses should be impenetrable."

I tilt my head to the side, deliberately widening my eyes. "Should they, really?"

The man scowls. "You should tell us what we want to know. Things might get... unpleasant for you, otherwise."

This is going to be the most cliched interrogation ever.

"Hm," I pretend to think about it. "No."

The man growls. His arm swings back, and suddenly I'm released from my bonds. I surge forward, catching him off balance, and use his arm to throw him to the floor. I'm on top of him in an instant, grabbing him by the sides of the head. I lift up, and I smash his head into the floor. The back of his skull impacts with a dull thud, and the man struggles, feebly. I lift again, smash his skull into the floor until the back of his head is a pulpy, bloody mess.

Well, I feel better.

I exit the room, closing the door behind me. No guards. I sense someone approaching, and I duck into a hallway running across a glass wall. Outside, I can see the city, sparkling in the night. This building is mostly office space, but that's a front for something larger. Hell, the ground floor is actually a mall, teeming with people during the day.

The footsteps are getting closer. The guard rounds the corner next to me. I duck behind him and lock an arm behind his back, and use his momentum to push him into the window. He grunts with the impact, and cracks spiderweb across the glass. Before he can pull himself together, I'm pulling him back, away from the window. With a blast of telekinetic energy, he goes flying. The window breaks, and the man goes tumbling out into the street, several stories below.

I run up a staircase, trying to avoid the patrolling guards. The longer I can hold off the alert, the more time my partner has to find -

The dream is destabilizing. My surroundings are a blur of light blue and white. I feel blinded, fully aware that I won't be able to see the guards before they find me. I'm trying to hold onto the dream, and I sense it. It's a shadow, human-shaped and in the room next to me. One of the guards - his aura is completely black, and I can feel him getting closer. He solidifies as a human shadow -

I strike out at him, hitting him in the temple. Before he has a chance to react, I have him in a full nelson, choking him. He's losing oxygen, starting to pass out.

He doesn't have to die, I could just knock him out. Maybe I should stop killing them. This is their job, they probably have families. No. I'm just too close, physically. I'm feeling his fear. A memory washes across the surface of his mind. He's on a job, on a team with three others. Capturing a girl. They rape her.

I freeze. I almost recoil, but the man's waking up, starting to struggle.

A snarl of rage is coming from me, and I throw him to the ground. I disable his vocal cords with a wave of my hand, and he's inching away, trying to scream for help. I weave a wordless spell in blue, lay it over him.

He's frozen for a moment, as he begins to lift up into the air, gravity losing its effect on him. I'm standing back now, as he starts to tug against invisible bonds. I summon another wave of energy.

Glass shatters into thousands of pieces, and this man, too, goes flying. He's falling up, though, up and up and up, screaming soundlessly, clearing the outcropping near the top of the skyscraper, falling into the sky.

Even if the spell fails before he hits the stratosphere, well. It's a long way down.

Killing in the open.

I'm surrounded. Six mooks in blue, four fighters in red, and the leader, a Djinn. Bald and muscular, covered in shifting blue tattoos, he's easily the most threatening presence in the room.

I wave my hand, sending a wave of kinetic energy at them. Four out of six mooks have their necks snapped, dead before they hit the ground. The remaining combatants have too strong of a will to be taken out of the game so easily.

I need a stronger spell. I call up blue-tinted soul energy, holding it in my right hand, and I rush one of the mooks and force it into his chest. I can feel his heartbeat, one, two, and the energy pulses, entwining with his soul and pulling it out of him.

I'm counting numbers in my head: 20, 24. The numbers seem arbitrary, but they help me keep track of the soul energy. If I hit zero, I'll be powerless.

The Djinn hits me from behind, and I can feel my numbers sink to 17. Snarling, I pull free of his grip and hit him with a pulse of the energy. He's flying backwards and I'm down to 16.

The red-shirts are in my way, and I down two, one with each hand. Their souls pulse out and back into their bodies, frying them. I absorb the excess. 27.

I'm ready this time. I block the Djinn, meeting his attack with a soul shield. The energy sparks dangerously with the impact, and we're both forced back, sliding several feet. 23.

Where are the other guys? The floor is conspicuously empty. Jim Gordon is standing on the sidelines, surrounded by the remaining mooks. They've got his gun.

Cursing, I put up an energy shield as I fry the mooks with soul energy. 7. "Run!" I shout at him, "Get the fuck out of here!"

He's hesitating. Why is he hesitating?

My shield is draining me. I'm blocking an attack by the Djinn. 4. "You have all the evidence we need to shut them down! You need to get out!"

Something in my tone convinces him. He's turning on his heel and running, and I'm turning around to face the Djinn.

"I can take care of things on this end," I say, and I let the shield drop.

Happy endings.

I'm walking through the building at the mall level, a skip in my step. It's daylight, and there are people around. A feeling of contentment is going through me, and I ignore the graves being built near the side entrances of the mall.

I'm a child, and I construct a mother DC out of nothing.

Something is coming to an end, some mystery was solved. It feels like closure.

Scare Factor: 4/10

On second thought, think I may have lost that fight. Djinn in the Supernatural universe "grant wishes" by trapping their victims in a dream world and sucking out their life energy. Happy ending? I don't think so.

I think this deserves another play-through.

(P.S. This has nothing to do with the anime of the same name.)

I was at my house and I custom made a shotgun that could hook up to the internet. The keyboard was on the butt of the gun, and it was pretty basic. There were 10 buttons, but if you pressed them high middle or low, they would type different letters. I was going to go outside and hunt with it because the moon looked bright outside, and when i left my house, the scene changed to some dark area hallway.

I headed into a room that turned out to be a dimly light bathroom. I could see someone at the end of it, and I wasn't sure what to do. I left, and came back, and the guy was already at the door. He looked like some bum that came off of the streets, but he had on a military uniform. This girl walked in, and he started hitting on her, and I told him chill out. He started getting upset with me, and I was trying to figure out how I was going to fight this guy without anyone getting shot since I still had that gun in my hands.

September 28, 2010

Asleep by 1:30am

My notes are confusing me... Anyways...

New apartment
Jack and I were moving into a new place (this has been coming up a lot lately. I think I must really desire living on my own, or our own; as opposed to my current location, which is my parent's basement suite). It seems like we're moving into the university residence apartments. I remember us moving boxes. That's about it.

Overpass of doom
There is a pedestrian overpass. It's a bi-level, metal and not very.... safe. It doesn't have much in the way of guard rails, and it tends to sway. And for some reason, Tim was out in the middle of this overpass (lower level), over traffic, and not moving.

I went out onto the upper level to help him out. I was crawling along it, cos the thing was very scary, and I had more stability this way. I reached Tim (who I couldn't see, since he was on the lower level). We both sat there for a bit, taking it easy so we wouldn't fall. I looked below and saw the cars passing underneath. I started to sing, to calm my nerves, and felt the overpass shake, because Tim started drumming to it I shouted at him to stop drumming, he's going to shake us off of here!

We both started inching along, and made it off the overpass, safely. As I descended from the steps, I caught sight of Darren, who had been watching us, tensely. His face lit up when he saw that we were okay, and we ran towards each other. I jumped at him and he swung me around, and he held me tight and told me how worried he was while I was up there. Dream ended

Awake at 4:30-ish, natural. I reviewed my goal for the night (instead of using the front door idea, I wonder if I will have any luck in finding my brother if I ask a DC to point me in his direction? Anyways, it would also kill off the advanced task, cos if they say they haven't seen him, I was going to plant the idea that they would offer their help. DC's are always around in my dreams, so... it's worth a shot). All in all, it was a good WBTB and actually a good MILD mantra while falling back to sleep, but in the end, it wasn't successful.

Breakfast fragment
I was cooking sausage in a frying pan, but not at the stove Rather, I was somehow cooking it while sitting on a couch. I got up when it was done, and Jack got upset that it was the only thing I was eating. He made me cook off some tater hashbrowns.

Theatre fragment
I recall being in a line up with the crew of a play I was working on. Unfortunately, I can't remember much else about this dream, other than this... being with the crew. The theatre walls had dark drapes hanging from them.

September 27, 2010



To be fair, though... I only had 3 hours of sleep.

Anyways, for the lack of a better post, I will post this lovely end bit of a song from the Beatles Love album... This one is a transition between Eleanor Rigby and I am the Walrus. The transition song is "Julia," one of my absolute most favourite songs ever (and one I have listened to many times before WILDing or just when trying to relax).

Anyways, when I heard this version, with a ghostly overlay of quiet "chattering" and other random sound effects totally reminds me of what my audio hallucinations are like (especially when on G/C). Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OOqqBWie58M#t=2m28s

September 26, 2010

Just some fragments, today... Slept between 9am-4pm

Theatre fragment
I was with mum at a show. We both had iPods with us. I was listening to something with mine, on headphones, but for some reason, I kept trying to play something on hers, out loud. This guy in front of us was getting upset, and I got pissed off at him for touching mum's iPod.

Work Glee Club fragment
Walking through my current work site, I see this old radio classmate is there with a group of people. They are in the glee club for work, and I'm silently jealous, because I want to be in it, but because I'm a contracted security guard, I can't.

Downtown fragment
I'm downtown, on a street corner. I see my reflection in a shop window and notice my shirt is on inside out. I had a "sudden snap of awareness" but I ignored all the tell-tale signs to get lucid, because I was lost in thought with something.

Picture of a lake fragment
Staring at a blue-green mountain lake (surrounded by red rocks). The water was so clear, you could see to the bottom. At first, I thought I was looking at Warcraft graphics, but then realized it was real.