non-lucid

I was outside on a gorgeous day. I understood that I was visiting my friend's home in Texas.

He had a few acres of land, with some small gardens dotted throughout. I took a particular interest in one plant, which I understood to be rice. Every plant grew a single long stalk, with a matrix of fluffy dots at the end. And now that I looked around, the fluff was everywhere; the ground was covered by at least a couple inches in places.

I looked up and really took in the scene. It was stunning. I was situated midway on a hill, green and lush. I thought about moving there.

Looking up at the sky now I saw what looked like an old minivan, with silly stubby wings. It was dangerously low to the ground, and seemed to be poorly controlled. Yet, somehow, it managed to snake between two tall trees and landed on a runway that I knew was behind my friend's home. I hurried over to see this strange craft.

Soon enough I was in my friend's house, and I met the elderly pilot. I asked him if he had truly snaked between those trees, or if I had simply imagined it, and he confirmed that he had. I was very impressed.

At this point I started feeling some pain in my legs, and I realize I had become quite sunburnt. I thought this odd, as I hadn't been outside very long. I went to go search for sunscreen, and noticed it was becoming unbearably muggy and hot.

This was more like how I remembered my time in Texas. Perhaps I wouldn't be moving there after all.

very little recall here...

I was being held hostage by this woman in her house. I was myself as a child. There were at least 2 other children being held there with me. The lady was choking me and I almost fainted, but then one of the other kids started crying and yelling for help in another room so she ran off to stop him and left me alone. I was having a bit of trouble walking since my head was a bit messed up from the choking. The other girl I was being held hostage with opened the front door of the lady's house but said I should wait until we can plan a real escape. I don't care so I start trying to run out of there. I get out of the door and try to look for somebody to ask for help or something to hide behind since I know the lady won't be far behind me. The street outside of her house gives me the same feeling as the street next to the elementary school I went to irl. I begin to run but I feel something at my feet. This wakes me up, it was my cat trying to get warm.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

I am at a post office and there is aguy in front of me shipping some packages. The postal worker is in a bad mood and at some point yells at some colleagues. I notice another girl to my right that leaves in a hurry but I don't pay much attention. I notice though that the guy had been noticing her and is not happy that she left. He complains to the worker about her attittude and mood and then leaves. Then I am not really there, but actually watching this unfold in a movie.
The guy comes back to the postal office area hoping to see the girl. One day he is lucky and comes across her at a park. She is wearing a rainbow colored baggy dress and looks quirky. They lock eyes and she approaches him slowly. It almost seems like she is going to kiss him, but she just does some quirky dance and off they go together.
I think to myself that it is a cliché, but she definitely looks autistic. Then I start remembering all the details I had missed at the post office and realize she was having a lot of quirky behaviors and then she ran away because of the noise of the woman yelling, as she couldn't take it.
I go to facebook looking for the autistic groups that I am in, wanting to share my thoughts about this film and I stumble in a post in one of the groups with the link to the said film. It's called "Breannis" and I realize it is centered on the girl and that she is indeed supposed to be autistic. Then I wonder how did I miss at first that it was about her and not the guy. Then I start writing down my opinion on the comments.

I had a fabric doll, with skinny arms and spindly legs.
I think her name was Helen.

I was walking at night, holding Helen. I was sleepwalking. Yes I must have been sleepwalking. Helen wanted me to walk into my parent's room. Why not do what Helen wanted?

Flash forward, I was in a bar. I didn't know how I got there. Did Helen want me to drink? Was I an alcoholic?

Flash forward, I was talking to a friend. I asked him how old I was. It felt like an awful lot of time was passing. I didn't know what to make of these time skips. Was I sleepwalking through them? When I was sleepwalking, was I doing what Helen wanted?

Did Helen want anything? Was Helen just a doll? Had I finally lost it completely?

Flash forward, I had decided to burn Helen.
I tossed Helen into the fire but she refused to burn.
I tore Helen apart.

It was shaped like a mini Avro Vulcan.
Painted a bold and bright red.
It floated across the sky, slow but unimaginably maneuverable.
I knew this was one of the finest aircraft ever built.
It dove in and out of the mountain canyons nearby, then did a long slow pass.
A child waved.
I think the pilot waved back.

I was flying an aircraft now, and we were in battle. But I didn't feel like anything was at stake. I mowed down a line of infantry and was hailed as a hero, but I knew it didn't matter because nobody really died and none of this was really real.

I was walking along a narrow, aging road in an overgrown field. It was cloudy, humid, and still. I understood that the previous day a storm had rolled through, and knocked down many powerlines. I watched my step, as now I saw them collapsed around me. Ahead of me, another post fell.

Despite the danger it was rather beautiful.

And then it became quiet. I heard nothing. No wind. No cars. Nothing.
Nothing but my tinnitus.
I wondered what true silence was like, without such ringing.
If there ever was true silence, it was right here.

An owl swooped by and the sounds of the world returned.

I received a phone call. An old coworker wanted an SD card I took from him back. I instantly remembered this fictitious event and felt ashamed I hadn't returned it.

I found the SD card. It was 109Gb. Weird size. I checked inside a Nintendo Switch in case it was the wrong card. The Switch had an 8Gb card. Logically I would have borrowed the bigger one right? Figured that was the one.

Terrible luck, to be mauled by a jaguar.

But strikingly good luck to have access to a jaguar surgeon! She gently adjusted the angle of my head, remarking on my "giraffe like" features. I knew that all animal injury surgeon specialists were like this, seeing animals in every person they operated on. She was the real deal. I was in good hands.

She walked off for a bit, and out came the jaguar. And wouldn't you know it, she got mauled too. Oh she didn't look so bad, but there was no more jaguar surgeon for me, she needed to find one of her own now.

I didn't remember being mauled by a jaguar, come to think of it. How did that even happen? Why was this jaguar just roaming about the zoo? Did it jump the moat? Aren't jaguars in cages?

I guess it didn't matter, because here I was, bleeding to death. It was an amusing fate honestly. I almost laughed.

Then, a crazy idea.

What if instead of a jaguar surgeon I got a regular surgeon? What was so jaguar specific about this injury anyway!?!

I felt like a genius! I called out for help. I begged some folks nearby to call an ambulance! But they insisted that the jaguar surgeon was out of commission. How was I to be helped without her? I tried to reason with them, but they couldn't understand. This was pointless.

I was inching forward on my stomach now. There was no pain, but I was getting very weak. I dragged myself away, and happened to find my father sitting there on a bench. Surely, my old man would react quickly to save his son!

I begged him, call a surgeon, any surgeon (covered by my insurance, please)! He looked confused. Surely this was a job for the jaguar surgeon?

Truly, this was not a world worth living in. I resigned myself to my death.

I was in some town that looked like it was in New Jersey. It looked like a mix of Lambertville, Princeton, and some other towns. My cousins were all there because they live in NJ. It seemed like it was during the summer. Even some of my cousins from Pennsylvania were there. For some reason, I got in a fight with my cousin that I'm closest with in the dream. But then we were good afterwards lol.

Just another dream that doesn't make any sense whatsoever. I was had a wingsuit gliding through these tall mountains with heavy snowfall. There were tons of these big towers that you see at old factories (I forget what they're called) but I think they were nuclear power plants. There was a catwalk platform on top of all of them but they all differed in shape and size, even though I went on just a few. I landed on some and I think I remember seeing some green glowing light at the bottom of the plants, and I'm pretty sure that's why it was nuclear lol.

I have been having a hard time sleeping since something terrible has happened to me. This is the first I have had a dream in a while. Interestingly, my dreams prior to this happening predicted it... maybe I knew this would happen subconsciously. I don't really believe in coincidences.

...memory dream about one of the hikes I had gone on with my husband in Korea. We had been hiking up the mountain for a while and we took a break to share one of the Kimbap (a seaweed/rice roll with eggs/kimchi/ham/anything in the center) that I had cooked for us. Very happy memory.
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"memory" that could have taken place in another life, or maybe in the future. NSFW but we are poking fun and making jokes about the situation that is happening to me right now (as if it has been over for a long time). He looks slightly different, maybe a bit older or with a different haircut.

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Me and my husband are sitting together watching a little girl in front of us play the flute.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

Some apocalyptic kind of scenario, muddy and populated by dangerous monsters. I encounter Pedro Pascal and while we are hiding and trying to escape some dragon like creature, we start making out. He is wearing a white shirt that is too immaculate for this scenario, I put my hand under it and then towards his pants. It gets serious, but the last thing I remember is me holding his dick before we see a drone outside in the sky, then other lights and again the dragon dark silhouette in the distance. Then dragon comes closer and is surrounded by orbs with lights. I comment how unusual that is and then a bunch of dinosaurs stampedes from nearby towards us, followed by a T-rex.

We (?) were at a grocery store when we heard the sound of planes overhead. everyone at the store suddenly stopped where they were and just gave eachother looks of worry. i looked up toward the cieling and saw the sound of the planes led to it cracking and releasing a bit of debris, but it was still not collapsing. The rumbling got louder until i huddled on the ground and heard a huge explosion. i saw a flash of light and was dead.

I was a student at a large university, but I was a bit of a loser and this was apparently known to everybody on campus. This university was at the forefront of climate change research. The architecture was large-scale and fatalist, but mixed with certain organic additions. The school's president issued a warning that we all needed to make our way to the underground shelter immediately and bring with us any food or water we could find. .... I was running along with my classmates down this ~20ft wide spiral staircase. although the steps were normally sized, the overall structure was very large. my classmates were all taller than me. As we ran, we heard announcements through the loudspeakers telling us to bring water. I entered the shelter (i was one of the last to enter) through a square opeining and was greeted by a straight set of stairs leading downwards into the dark. On the left, there were tables built into the walls as far down as i could see and each sat 2 students looking downwards. each of them had a plate in front of them of brussels sprouts (?) and carrots diced. most of them were obese. the table closest to the opeining was free, but i didnt know if i was allowed to take that seat as it may hve been reserved. I was told by the girls seated below it that the seats were not taken. The school's president was giving a speech about how this meal of brussels sprouts and carrots was all that survived from the cafeteria, and we would not have any more food to eat. I went to sit down and I got the feeling that I would have a revelation.

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I was on a roller coaster. it was going through a tunnel and other roller coasters were coming onto the track from different directions but did not crash.

I had been in this area in prior dreams. escher-esque architecture + maze of pointless rooms; plain light concrete walls + no view of the outdoors. and yet, soft light coming from nowhere.

Me and my husband were going to our room, but some federal agents came out of a disguised opening on the ground. They were wearing dark trenchcoats, sunglasses, and a poker face. the opening was square and incredibly dark to the point where i could barely make out the set of stairs leading downwards. me and my husband went down the opening, but the dream perspective stayed above the surface so idk what went on down there. A federal agent escorted me out of the opening, but my husband stayed inside. The federal agents disguised the opening again and i went off to my room to sleep.i got into my room which was a smallish room with floor, walls, cieling being made of the same light concrete as the rest of the dream structure with a bed on the wall opposite the door i entered from. i began to get suspicious of the agents and the suspicion soon became fear. I ran through another door and kept running through empty rooms. Soon I heard the agents crashing through trying to find me. As i continued running through the maze of rooms, the rooms became darker and more house-like. I got to an empty room with a small door near the floor which when opened revealed an old chimney. I climbed inside the chimney opening and found a crevice where i could hide half of my body. luckily there was a lot of clutter and debris in the chimney, so i covered the part of my body left exposed with the debris. A federal agent opened the door to the chimney opening, but thought that i was just clutter. So i successfully hid from the agents.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

About to ingress at some US university and my mom and a friend are accompanying me. The place is gigantic and it's hard to find the info I need. Finally find the office of supposedly my main teacher/tutor/guide and go there to ask for help, but I am told by some other professors that he is late and no one knows exactly when he'll come. They suggest going to the welcoming area for new students that we totally missed on our way in. They give some directions, we see a place with hundreds or thousands of kids and assume it is it. Turns out most of them are really young kids who are there for some show on ice around an ice rink. But nearby is indeed the welcome booth and a line of maybe ten people. We wait in the line. As we move forward and observe the campus and the people, I confess I am not liking the university so far and miss my old faculty. But I am willing to give it a try and ask them for my schedule so I can attend my first classes.
Then it all becomes stilyzed like a graphic novel and I am just observing it like a film. Some group of extremists arrives on campus, makes some statement against women and says that it will be a good day if they kill at least a third of all the women there. Then a slaughter starts, mostly women and girls but also the occasional male that tries to protect them. It becomes a sea of blood, corpses and skeletons floating in the sea of blood, and women falling into that sea like lemmings jumping over a cliff to their deaths.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

In an african country, can't identify which one. Visiting some family in a village, the kids love me and we are very good friends. They want to take me along to their daily activities. We hit the orange dirt road and I fear we may have to walk many many kms. Luckily the weather is very nice, not hot nor cold, just about right and the walking is very enjoyable. We cross paths with other kids from other villages at a crossroad and I realize this is not the remote area I first thought it was. Soon we arrive at another village and we drop the youngest at their school: then I walk with two oldest sisters to a highschool. There are other white teens there, but I am a new face and they are all very curious about who I might be. We enter their classroom, but before the teacher starts asking me questions, the older sister says bye to her teen sister and grabs me to take me somewhere else. I thought she was staying in this school to, so I ask her about it and she says she quit school and is now working for a circus. They are still training at some empty facilities on the back of a zoo. Looks like some empty barns. She is really happy about her job and she shows me a huge poster that's being painted to announce the coming spectacle, featuring her among others and I feel so proud and happy for her. I then need to go, but as soon as I exit the zoo I realize I don't know where to go. I go around the external wall of the zoo and I find an entrance that gives access to the reception/management of the zoo. The gates open and a fancy car is coming out and I remember that I am actually an heiress to the white family that owns this place. I fear they see me, because of the way I am dressed and dirty. They totally disapprove of my friendship with these girls.