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Seriously, Melatonin fucks with your dreams. It's been causing me to have such strange dreams that are constantly changing.

I took one the other day too and had a dream that instead of carving a pumpkin I was carving a cat.

I took one last night:

I was watching the news on TV and the guy had just reported some sad news about a suicide(s) and he was telling viewers to call 1-800-PURPOSE if they felt suicidal. When I woke up, I was surprised that it was actually a valid number, although when I looked it up I think it's actually an electronics company number or something.

I looked down at my hands and had more fingers than normal. I was outside my house I think, but it was jungle-like and covered in grass. I was more excited than usual so I was losing it. I focused on grass, then spun, which helped. I looked around for someone to bite(for the task of the month) but there was no one. I got too excited and woke in a FA and tried to write down my dream in a Sticky Note on my computer but it was all gibberish.

I've been having such short LDs lately, I really need to work on stabilization. But I have been having them every 2-4 nights, which is an improvement.

I was with Brittany and was watching an old home movie recording of her dresser when she was little. "You should save this! It shows the clothes you wore when you were younger." Then, we were IN the home movie, looking through her dresser. I found clothes in there that were actually mine, so I took them back. I realized the sun was setting soon and we were now in a tropical paradise so I wanted to go outside and watch it. So we went outside onto the beach. It was a beautiful sight, a colorful sunset, a red moon on the left of the skyline, and another white moon on the right. I had my feet in the water and noticed outlines of something in the sand under the water. "What are those?" I asked. "Turtles." My sister pulls one out and it's this frog-like turtle creature. She keeps pulling them out and she pulls out a small alligator, then a large alligator, which makes me step away. A trainer appears and prepares to do tricks with the alligator..

Dl1- I still seem to be at last night s festival but there is no cheese :/
I am in charge of one of the music stages in the large stage behind the manor house. It is a large grassed area with a raised wooden stage. Large amounts of people mill about. I am over on a bank at the end that dips down into ? There are ropes and wooded poles here. Mr B comes over to ask me what is happening with the stage and why no one is playing. I say there are no children who want to play. At the very end there is netting...
Dl2 - Arranging to meet up with others at a cinema (cinema seems like in a dream I had years ago). But meet up times are to vague. We are to meet between 7pm and 11pm as say we will probably miss each other.

*Lama Dorjee carries his students on his shoulders but he claims that tai situ does it better.

*I see the rock in the distance want to get a selfie with him to show off on social media. lol

*I group of thai women show me the correct way up the hill.

*I laugh extremely hard at this comedic singing bit a black women did.

*I attempt to choke an old friend on realising he stole money from me.

*Andre was sad on being bullied at work so I defend him with full force.

Morning of November 6, 2015. Friday.

Dream #: 17,854-02. Reading time: 52 sec.



I am walking with Zsuzsanna and our three youngest children. Our middle son is younger in my dream. We walk east on the south side of a street in an unknown area near a field that is implied to be in Northside La Crosse, several blocks west of Loomis Street. Zsuzsanna is pushing our youngest daughter in a baby pram. Our two youngest sons are in pedal cars. We eventually arrive at an intersection.

Our sons ride down the sidewalk ramp into the street, potentially into oncoming traffic, though the cars are moving slowly and have not reached the intersection. I pull them back and advise them not to cross on their own. Eventually, we all rise into the air and slowly fly over the perpendicular street of the intersection, our sons still in their pedal cars.

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In this dream, I use emerging semi-lucid vestibular system correlation to rise into the air to go above the perpendicular street of the intersection to avoid its oncoming traffic. Zsuzsanna and our three youngest children, ahead of me, also cross in this way (under my liminal intent), our sons in pedal cars, our daughter in a baby pram that Zsuzsanna is pushing. I have often used vestibular system correlation to deliberately initiate the waking process and rise out of my dream.

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I haven't been actively trying to get lucid for almost a year, but a few days ago I started reading about lucid dreams again and started doing the nose plug RC in waking life. I had a semi-lucid dream the first night, just doing the nose plug and realizing I was dreaming, but lost lucidity almost a once. But tonight I had a real lucid!

I was standing in my mothers old house. I was in the toilet, only it didn't look like the real toilet - it was more of a public toilet with several doors/booths (that is a really strong dream sign for me). I walked out the door and closed it, but thought to myself "such a toilet would be a common occurrence in a dream, maybe I should go back in and do a RC." So I did. Went back in and did a nose plug. It worked! I could breathe! I almost could not believe it, everything felt so real. I didn't expect it to be a dream! I decided o test gravity and started jumping small jumps into he air. The ceiling was low, so I could not jump high, but I could feel a slight difference in gravity, as I didn't fall down as quickly as I expected. I went out of the toilet, and downstairs. I jumped up and flew in to the living room, staying about mid air. I saw H. sitting on the couch. I tried to remind myself it was a dream by saying it loud to myself. ", It's a dream, it's a dream" Then I remembered I should probably try to stabilize he dream. I remembered a method I'd read about where you should "make out" with the ground. Haha. So I did, I lay down on the floor and started making out with it. I could feel my lips on the wood, and felt my hands rubbing it. I started thinking how it probably wasn't a good idea to be kissing a floor (bacteria, although at the same time I realized it didn't really matter as it was only a dream), I decided the dream was stable enough and got up. I looked around me. H. was still on the couch. I got really excited, and tried remembering what I wanted to do if I got lucid. Nothing, could not remember anything. But wait, suddenly I remembered the task of the month! I should bite H, and see how he reacts! I went to him laughing, bent down and bit his shoulder. I could feel the fabric of his shirt in my mouth, but i wasn't a very hard bite. He started laughing too, and that was the only reaction I got. I thought "what else? What should I do with my lucid?" I was looking in my purse and found a large baguette with chocolate stuffing and frosting. I shared it with H, it tasted delicious! (this was not intentional, but I was still lucid) I asked H if we could go outside, thinking I wanted to do something more with my LD, and he said I could go visit the kitten in the apartment down by the river. Apparently there was a kitten in need of some food and cuddles. Obviously I thought this was a great idea, and went to the kitchen to find some cat food or tuna or something to bring. At this point the dream was taking over the plot, and I lost lucidity.

The dream continued on and I remember something about a kitten, but not much else. I remember a lot of other dream fragments from the night too, but the lucid is the vivid one, and the one I feel is important to write down. So great to have had a lucid again after not thinking about dreams for so long! I have to dust off my LD-abilities and start doing my RC's and WBTB's again.

At the beginning I remember being with my father and he suggested that I should subscribe to a paid news TV station, and out of some reason I thought I would like to do that if I had a TV I could watch in the shower.

Then the scene shifted and I was alone in a hotel. I walked into a hotel room, and there was an elegant business like woman cleaning it, and she suggested this room was not mine but the one next to it was. For some reason the two rooms were connected through the bathroom. I undressed in order to shower. The woman then suggested that I close the bathroom doors and I realized I had undressed in a bathroom with both doors open to both rooms. So I closed them both and took a shower.

When I got out of the shower without putting on my clothes just in a towel, I went into the room that I thought was mine. There I noticed a heated table set up on top of the bed, with some dinner in it - I saw green beans and steak. I thought that's odd it's not dinner time it's morning, and I did not order this. That's when I saw the man wrapped in a blanket on the bed. He did not see me yet, but said "Who is there?" At first I lost my voice and could not answer but when he threatened he would call security. I was able to say that it was a mistake, that I thought this was my room, that I just took a shower. Let me get dressed and get out of hear. Then I feared that I was naked in a strange man's room that he might want to take advantage of this. And so of course he then said something that suggested he wanted to. In my panic I wondered whether I should run out of that room without my clothes. Out of some reason my clothes were all I had.

Before anything else happened I woke up.

summaries for now:

+ holding girl on (water slide?) kiss a bit at the bottom; people see and disapprove; flying, want to go faster, see spiderman?; with a child, I'm severe with it?; in public gathering dissing me, I'm ashamed; escape down magic ladder; dejected and ruined, they pour 40 gallons of runny chocolate pudding on my head, I want to drown in it or cut my wrists and die.

+ in house, room with crying teen girls, my sons, S1 test results via prisoner basketball game; observe player of game in person

+ teaching young female intern the system at work, she knows it already and wants to give it a poor name

+ erotic moment with wife goes bad as she rejects me for not being sexually attractive; motorcycle; gas station, shower (naked), no slippers/floor, pee down to 2nd level of bathroom, get stuck, swing on rope, climb back, "they'll kill you", check out/get phone, see guy get back hurt by worker, call wife she's left message she's furious I answered phone brusquely (it was the gas station guy I say, tell whole story), she doesn't believe me, "prove it" she says

I was in third person point of view. Seeing two men in the air in a constant spiral. After sometime they finally landed on the ground. Judging from what I could see, they were in a large open field with hardly any trees around. That's when the visuals got much closer to them. They were having a conversation since one of the mask if they could use a bigger chair, while the other man explain it was a stool. Around this time I notice the scene change in to the house I am familar with. That's when I had my own body and could see the men still here. One of them left one the rooms I were in while the other stayed. I tried getting up but got hammered on my head by one of the guys punch. Told him to stop and we began to fight but my fist felt like sponge and he could easily lift my weightless body. With in the new blows I realize I had to be dreaming but it didn't matter cause the next jab felt too strong, waking me up. Lucidity Time: 7 seconds

I managed to remember a dream I had the other night.

In the dream, I was a guy. And I was working with my best friend (also a guy) on a particular job, although I don't completely remember what his part in it was.

I was some kind of con man. I was trying to get into some sort of nobleman's quarters, for some reason. I remember he was kind of a shithead.

The architecture of the place was very... Sorr of Tudor... With some fantasy elements thrown in.

I got in... But he returned while I was there. I tried to go hide in another room, which was like a bathroom, but he knew I was there and sent guards after me.

I jumped out the window, and managed to make my way down by jumping from stone window ledge to window ledge. But I got to a point where I couldn't, where it was just a sheer drop to the ground, and I was going to have to jump and hope I landed alright.

I somehow made it, and I was in an area behind the mansion that wasn't quite a backyard. There was a sort of chicken wire fence and high grass. It kind of reminds me of the area behind an apartment complex where a friend used to live when I was little (I got into an argument with her there, in real life, about whether or not you can walk on rainbows. I was heavily in favor of "yes, you can". No rainbow in this dream, though, just me running away from guards.

As for last night, I vaguely recall something about riding the bus. But that's it.

*Kissing my girlfriend as we walk into a pizza shop.
*Chilling with a group that smokes e-cigars. (I have yet to see a e-cigar in real life.)
*Car broke down so I cried on the side of road at the thought of not being able to see my girlfriend.

Dream 1 - Empire war
There's a war going on in the universe. The good guys (the side I'm on) which are the empire I think, and the bad guys (probably another empire). The place I'm at is the central supply station that has all the resources of our army. The head commander is Morpheus (from The Matrix, he has the coat, glasses, stoic look and everything) and he's guided me through my character creation (what?).
It seems like I designed the skill set my character has, which was leadership and a few fighting skills (I think one was the warhammer, another could have been a 'kick' skill?). I seem to be quite low level though. The supply station is set in a desert area with sand for miles all around. It's a round sandstone building with an open round entrance. It's more like a place enclosed by walls that circle around it. There is a tower-like structure in the centre-back of the station too.
Time skip. It's now sunset, with the sky doused in a mellow orange.
We're still stationed at the supply station and disaster has struck. All the allies who work at the station have turned and stolen all the resources to give to the enemy empire. We've lost everything now, and our army is practically non-existent. There's 3 of us left, me, Morpheus, and another guy.
"I can't even say that's a bad strategic output" I say lightheartedly (what's a strategic output?)
"It's over, they've won." Morpheus looks lost as he says this, I can't believe he would give up despite knowing how hopeless the situation is.
I walk towards him and place my hands on his shoulds, "let me say something to you" *SLAP*. "Don't you dare give up". He flinched a bit from the slap but turned his face to look at me, his cool glasses still in place as if they were glued..
"You'll make a fine commander with your capianry, warhammer and kick skills." he says. I start to tear up, my eyes are leaking. I feel like I'm an actor now, doing some dramatic movie moment.
*swish* I turn my head to the side dramatically (in my head I think 'Wow, I'm a bad actor') and release his shoulder. I walk off to the right and sit down sadly, knowing that I would have to lead the future of our people or something. I think Morpheus said "I will guide you" which seemed to conflict with my idea that he was leaving.
There's no time skip but we're outside the station now. It's crumbling away like loose sand in the wind, slowly dissolving and falling to the ground.

Dream 2 - Diving mask
I remember earlier seeing a person put on a diving mask in a room to show us all how it works. It seemed to be a breathing instructor teaching us how to control our breathing or something. Even though we're using diving gear I got the impression it wasn't to learn how to dive.
Some time later in the night I think this dream came back, though now I was the person who was supposed to put the mask on. The room we were in was small and square with side benches for people to sit on. Around me were a bunch of other students, and in front of us was a woman who was our teacher. She asked me to come forward and test the mask out. I sit down on the floor in front of the class and she placed a diving mask on my head. It was a 'full' mask, that went over my entire head, supposedly used for deep sea diving. I hated it. I actually felt like I could have died O_O. It was so realistic. I felt the air flow into my mouth and then back out, though it didn't feel like 'normal' breathing. It was more like the air was coming from a tank and the air had a certain pressure to it. I also felt water enter the mask. What the heck? I panicked a little bit, there shouldn't be any water in here. I remember from the previous dream that the guy who wore the mask (whom I thought was me) had answered the questions of the teacher. I listened for her talking, I couldn't even see out of this thing properly. Her talking was so muffled I couldn't tell what she was saying so I gave a thumbs up in the direction of a blurry figure moving around. Most of my vision was taken up by the metal of mask, there were 2 glass eye windows to see through but they were dirtied and foggy, you couldn't functionally see with them. I panicked a little more, I couldn't talk so I couldn't ask for help. How the hell do I communicate?? I try some hand movements to infer that I wanted the damn thing taken off me, I couldn't do it myself because it's latched on or something. Aaaa just take it off! It really felt like I was about to have a panic attack and I decided I didn't like this feeling and that I wanted to wake up, so I did.
This dream wasn't even that long (like less than a minute).

Dream 1 - seds exam
Me and my friend John are in a car and driving around for part of a field trip related to the sedimentology paper we're studying. I remember being near the coastline and seeing some calm water while we're on a dirt road nearby under the canopy of some pine trees. I think we're pissy about something. We're back in the paleosed lab in our geology department studying for the exam now which is related to the field trip we've just been on. John tells me that the other people studying have placed the 'backshore' zone *here* (he shows me somehow, maybe with a picture). I get annoyed, "dude they're doing it wrong. Look at this" I start illustrating the beach and shoreface zones in their entirety and start teaching him about everything. "Well damn mister sedimontologist huhuhu" he says jokingly (kind of an inside joke where he's saying I'm a smartass ).

Dream 2 - Goddess Nightmare
This dream was a little weird. I remember being on a boat, surrounded by water. I know that in the direction behind me is land somewhere but I can't see it. There are other people on the boat but I don't recall seeing them. There's internal dialogue going on, I'm just.. Thinking?
"The beginning of the world was due to the contact between the gods and goddesses" (this is similar to Greek mythos I think, Oranos the sky father and Gaia the earth mother). I'm in the water now, the boat is non existant and the dream is showing the distance between gods. I represent a god that is wading in the water, while in the distance I know there is another god but she's only just visible and is wading in the water. It's supposed to be impossible to contact one another, but the dream story says that we do and that is how everything begins.

It is now a different time, the 'present'. Mankind has to be careful of the gods and goddesses because they walk among us in disguise. They require constant sacrifices every day. Some seduce their prey and kill them in their houses. I think a hot woman picks me up and we head to her house. She's actually a goddess (surprised?)... I think she goes into another room to get change and tells me to wait here (in the living room I guess). I think I somehow discover she's a goddess as I seem to see her on her bed in a red fishnet body dress thing. She was doing erotic stuff and I was like "oh shit she's going to kill me" so I ran and hid. Another person turns up and she kills him instead. I'm hiding in her closet but it's full of 'skins'. Like body suits she can wear to disguise herself. Behind them all is another door which takes me into another bedroom. She's still after me so I think I bolt out the window and onto the grass outside. I run downhill on the lawn towards the main road and manage to escape but the whole time I was terrified. Like she could get ahead of me somehow and come around some corner with an axe like they do in the horror movies O_O. I decided I wanted to wake up so I did.

I'm sitting on the edge of a bed in a small rented room, wood panel walls, watching a man kneel and lace up the boots he's just given me. I'm thinking that a chase without consequences lacks interest - we've caught each other several times now but neither of us has actually killed the other, which should be the natural conclusion here. Makes me feel tired. I think I'll stop hunting him after today. The boots belonged to a dead Nazi, and I'm wronging people by wearing them; that's the reason he's giving them to me.

Later the same day, we're standing in a very small graveyard on a green hill, and now he's giving me a green hat that I think of as going with the boots, though it doesn't resemble a military uniform. I recognize both it and the boots as part of a costume signifying Ivan, which would make him Koschei. He disagrees with this observation, says he'd rather be the Firebird. I'm thinking that he's greatly misinterpreted our story.

There's a house that I own, or maybe it's owned by my extended family. It's on a lake. Knd of near the corner of a rectangular-ish lake. I'm driving there. Along one side of the lake is where there's a lot of public parking, along a dirt road. A lot of people park there and then go to the lake, swimming and sailing and stuff. I could park at the house, but the public road is a better parking situation. But it's full. I drive back and forth a few times. There are a couple of spots that are kind of like open spots, but they're really small, to the point that it's not clear if it counts as a spot, or just an empty-ish area of a larger place someone else is parked in already. I would have to be kind of intrusive to park in any of them, so I don't.

So I park by the house and go to the house. The house has 2 stories. The bottom story has a little water-driveway where there's a boat parked that can just go out into the lake.

I go inside and greet everyone. My sister-in-law is there. I say something, I don't remember what. I joke around a bit with her, and then say something to the effect that a couple of years ago when would have taken offense at some of the joking around I was doing. But now she is cooler and has a sense of humor.

I suggest to everyone that we go to the lake. But it's really cold in the lake. [end]

First fragment

With group of friends we were wandering the North Pole. We were escaping from a strange group of people. There was a polar station nearby, so we entered it. It was a tight, cluttered building. It served both storage and laboratory purposes. Looking through the windows, we saw that the strange group we saw earlier took a car and drove away.

Second fragment.

Cold Autumn day, it was noon. I was in school, inside IT room. We had a course of working with game engines. A short, obese man in late fifties with moustache was teaching us how to use it. I turned it on, and the networking module launched. I found myself flying in a city. I was immediately connected with a dude from my class. I opened a menu and chosen a weapon. Then we fought.