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Sometimes waking life just sucks. Family drama means I'm driving around late at night and don't get into bed until about 4am, f^&*ing great. Despite this I remember experiencing a lot of dreams, but most degenerated into just a couple fragments or vanished entirely. Decided just to take a "night off" -- no sleep mask, no earplugs, still slept pretty well. Having no sleep mask definitely affected recall with morning noise and bright light hitting the eyes. I wouldn't mind just running away from it all to a (silent, totally dark at night) hut (with a comfy bed) away from it all so I can get down to some serious dreaming.

+ crazy billiards: in a pool hall selecting a cue stick they're all short thin knarled warped branches, finally find a good-ish one, I think it may be too long, I chalk up the "tip" which is a large flat area like a branding iron, I'm chalking in the pattern of an "X". I line up a shot at the table, I see the stick is warped along its shaft, I rotate it until the warp is aligned with the long axis of the stick and doesn't interfere with the aim, I take the shot and it shoots straight, this is a great pool cue it turns out.

+(f) exploring some house, see laundry machines

+(f) some tense situation, look at (my detective partner?) through a strange device made from multiple lenses, can't really see clearly.

August 03, 2014

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I had a dryspell over the weekend (well, correction: I know I had dreams and I remember having them as soon as I woke up, but kept forgetting to write them down, then fell back asleep and couldn't remember them later)

Anyways, these were from last night.



Eye Candy

I was Police Rin. Basically.



I was Rin from Free (the one with red-hair), and I just happened to be dressed in a police uniform like he is in the ending of the second season (what the shit, all of the videos have the audio muted because of copyright... damn... well this one with YMCA in the background fits way too well to pass up, and you get the gist)....

Anyways. The whole gang was there (MUCH to my pleasure, believe me), though I can't remember what they were all dressed as. All I knew was that we were all basically gigolos for some rich woman. We were technically given the jobs our outfits were for, so I had to figure out how to protect the public. I decided to try to come up with a device that could filter the cigarette smoke/smell out of the air. I had been hoping there was a scientist with us, and I looked around for Rei because I felt like he would be a scientist (my dream-mind knew he was a scientist in the ending), but I couldn't find him, though I did find Haru as a mermaid in a tank of water. I was joining him in the tank when I woke up (I was still Rin) ;D





HyunMeMeLOL

I was at my summer internship, and it turned out that I was at the school one of my favorite students from the summer school went to. I was going to be in his classroom, and I was so excited to see him again.

When I got to the classroom on the first day, he saw me and was so excited and came over to me, trying to show me every single thing in his backpack.

Then, during the introductions and whatnot, all the kids were writing their names on the board and introducing themselves, and instead of writing HyunSung, he wrote "HyunMeMeLOL" on the board, said it, and started giggling like crazy. I said, "Is that your naaame?" all teasing, and he kept nodding and called himself HyunMeMeLOL for the rest of the day.

I started talking to the students and interns about the water cycle haha!

July 31, 2014

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Big Building

I was in a large, dark building. It was really dark. I couldn't see much, but I could hear some creepy noises. Did I mention it was dark?

I was with some people, and we had snuck into the building during the day, and then it closed, and so we had to spend the night. This was all in order to meet a famous person that was supposed to be there the next day.





Disney Weddings

I was on a game-show where everyone was given a gorgeous dress, and went off to get married. The group of women in my game-show were all in Disney princess gowns, but like, super fancy and elegant and beautiful. I was in Belle's dress, which made me happy, since she was always my favorite of the Disney princesses.





I took a nap that day after classes, and had this dream about math:

Pizzas

I was taking the math assessment we had given to the 1st graders, except that instead of all the things we had them do, all we had to do was to do math with manipulatives (think base-ten blocks, beans/beansticks, craft sticks and bundles of ten craft sticks ect).

Except our manipulative was french fries and pizza slices. A French Fry represented 1, and a Piece of Pizza was ten French Fries (10). Ten Pieces of Pizza made a Whole Pizza (100). We had to solve addition problems and trade in the answers to collect enough to make a Whole Pizza, at which point we were done with the test.

All I could think about during it was, "God I thought Tim (my Math Teacher Teacher) said we shouldn't use food in our math problems!"

#352 - WILD - 6:32AM

I don't recall the start maybe it was just a really smooth WILD but I am having lucid sex with my wife. I'm really enjoying myself but at some point I worry that I am making humping motions in bed.

I have an FA where I am doing just that on all fours. To my relief my wife is asleep and only stirs a bit. I lay back down to DEILD and make some really weird moaning noises. Then theres the sound of someone in the bathroom and I know this is all wrong. I quickly realize that I am still dreaming.

I get up quickly making my way into the living-room. I recall my goal to attack the enemy in a pillow fight. I am in my daughter's room now so I take a pillow from the empty bed.The first one that comes to mind is OneUpBoy71. I search the house calling out for him but no one is there. I remember that I heard a noise in the bathroom so I go check that out.

The door is locked so I kick it down. The air is hot and humid and I hear the sound of the shower going. I open the shower to find him standing there naked. I immediately start hitting him in the head with the pillow. He runs away into the next bedroom with a huge grin.

Laughing, and doing my best to not look at his nakedness, I chase after him into the next room. He stops not sure where to go and I whack him in the side of the head. I get curious about my accuracy of DC oneup's appearance and focus on this face. It's too blurry and undefined but he seems to be a teenager with longish hair that changes color from blond, to brown, to black.

Oneup darts into the closet and I decide that I have had enough chasing a naked dude around my house. As I turn to walk away, I laugh and say "Alright dude, get some damn clothes on. Shit."

With pillow still in hand, I decide to look for the next person on team McCoy. StephL comes to mind and I head outside to find her.

When the night time air hits me if feels unseasonably cold. I comment in this as I step into the yard. Its way too dark and I'm not up to fighting for some light. I consider going back in, then stop. No, Ill go ahead and do some dream control. Mass TK... But all I have is this pillow. I throw it up and make hand gestures to make it float around. I flick my wrist and let the pillow fly off into the next two yards and into the next block. I watch the pillow unfurl into a blanket and gently float to the ground. I start go ahead and walk back inside but the dream goes black and I wake up.

#351 - WILD - 5:49AM

I have a smooth WILD from HI. I notice that I am working at my job with my normal coworkers. I take a chance and run forward hoping the dream was deep enough. After a second of running around I feel stable enough to continue. I go ahead and clap for further stabilization but my arms feel weak again. I'm looking for an enemy team member to fight but the more I progress the more the dream start emptying itself of major elements. First all my co-workers vanish and next large equipment and workstations until the plant is mostly empty. The hallways are now covered with blue tarps that drop from the ceiling. I still believe I can make something of this dream but my vision fades and I wake up.

#350 - WILD - 3:44AM

I WILD and enter SP. I spend some time there in the vibrations and make my exit. Its really dark in the house so I try light switches but its no good. I'm beginning to feel some irrational fear with slight panic rising. I swallow it down. I wake up.

DEILD back into SP..

Several trippy things happen here and I'm probably forgetting some parts and order of things.

I pull my galaxy player out to try to test if I can create light. Its not really lighting the room but I have a white screen. I get experimental and try bringing it close to my face. My vision whites out and vibrations increase the closer I move it and decreases the farther away I go.

Suddenly, my galaxy player creates a strobe light effect and the ghost from Occulus appears over me screeching. I have no fear and I calmly dismiss it. I fades away. I hear my wife starting to mumble something so I hit her with the galaxy player. I don't know why but I want to really hit her so I take the GP and hit her even harder. Theres no response. I pull something else out from under the pillow. This time it feels like a plastic clothes hanger. I hit her with that.

My son appears on the bed laying in a strange position on the bed. I say something to him and tickle his feet. I feel like my arms are super heavy and can barely move. My son crawls down from the bed and I hear him stomping away into the bathroom.

I think of my wife again roll over top of her. She doesn't really seem to notice me and continues to sleep soundly. I think of maybe creating some sexy time but decide I wont get many points like this for the competition.

I roll back over and notice the vibrations have stopped. I quickly get up and enter the living room. This time its brightly lit and theres a strange calico cat running around crazily.

I want to nail down my 3 step tasks so the first thing I do is go for number 1, use electronic device. I reach for my cell phone, but first I don't feel it in my pocket. I try to fake it anyway. My hand come up empty. I try again but this time I really believe thinking of how it will feel in my hand. There some strange sensation of my hand bonding to my clothes then I feel the phone. I quickly yank it out and examine it. I am surprised how vivid and realistic it looks. I try to unlock the screen but its like its dead and the screen wont light up. There is glare from the lights and I squint to see. Now it looks like my night mode is on and I can bare see in all this light. I try turning it off but the app will not respond. I catch my reflection in the screen. One eye is a normal blue the other a super light blue. I look back at the first eye and now I notice I strange mechanical pattern in the pupil. My DC self starts making funny faces at me that I not doing; he has a life of his own. I decide Ive completed the task enough and look away.

Now I turn* my attention to task 2, time control. I spot the cat wondering around and with the phone in my hand, try to use it as a remote to pause time. It doesn't work. Now I focus more intensely. I recall my old lucids that were triggered from watching Heroes. Hiro Nakamura was able to control space and time with thought and I was often able to do the same. I clap my hands together Full Metal Alchemist style and focus stopping time. The cat pauses in mid stride but something strange happens. The cat now looks like a hologram;* ghostly and insubstantial. I let out a whoa in surprise as I get on my* hands and knees for a closer look. I try to pet the cat but my hand passes right through. My mind tries to explain this by thinking is some* effect of existing on two overlapping time lines. Whatever. Satisfied,* I move on.

Now its time for task 3, full transformation. I step outside on the front porch and let out a hulk roar into the night. My feel my body grow taller and my muscles bulge to massive proportions. I reach up at the awing of the roof with huge green hands. Still roaring a guttural cry, I crush the wood like its made of thin wafers. I go blind now and decide its time to let the dream go.

Dream 1
I'm walking towards home and pass through the settlement bottle-o area when I see a car drive passed me slowly. It's a female driving and she's having a good look at me and says "hey good lookin". She parks her car not to far away and walks towards the entrance of the settlement. I'm tempted to go talk to her or at least give her my phone number. I miss my opportunity and even think about leaving my number on a piece of paper and put it on her car, but decide to just not worry about it.

Im at my house now and I'm watching a pornographic film, staring the girl I saw at the settlement. She looks pretty thin and is getting rag dolled a little in the film. The couple are now standing while she is riding him. The area around her pussy looks as if it's caved in, looks pretty strange. It's as if she is anorexic.

Dream 2
I'm in a school room which feels like my old primary school. The teacher has made my seating arrangement at the front of the class, next to some girl. The girls seat is vacant for now. As I sit down I notice that a mixed martial arts fight is on the TV. One man is dominating the other in the fight and the ref calls it off due to the other man not being able to intelligently defend himself. Shortly after the ref walks over to the officials who are outside the cage. He talks to them through the cage with his back towards the fighters. The man who won the fight runs over to the still downed opponent and starts to beat him up again, even though the fight is over. It's pretty disgraceful to watch and not a good look for the sport. The man who won pleads his case with the ref on why he attacked the downed fighter. He spoke in broken English and sounded as if he probably spoke Portuguese.

I start to think about how I've changed since being sick and that I needed to mention to a friend on why my personality has changed slightly. It was Chris from work.

Dream 3
I'm playing battlefield 4 on a map called Siege of Shanghai. I'm in the middle of the map underneath where the roof campers usually shoot from. I have a spray bottle in the hand which has a mixture of vinegar and water. I spray the enemies which temporary blinds them. As they run away shielding their eyes I sneak closed to them hoping to get a knife take down on them.

Dream Fragment 1
Rex goes missing and comes home a little wet. Then lose him again.

Dream Fragment 2
In a paddock and my dog is with a couple animals. They have been transported to another area where we're moving to. The house that uses to be built has vanished. It's as if it had been folded up and transported away.

Side Notes:
Not sure if I heard alarm each time it went off. Woke up a few times and recalled dream but fell asleep in the process. Need to repeat mantras more often due to waking up and not reality checking.

1. I was in some kind of house. It was really gloomy and all of the paint on the walls seemed as though it was faded and dull. I was walking around the house with two people in particular, though I do not remember who they were- besides the fact that it was two women.
We walked down an empty, quiet hallway and the women began telling me about how this house was haunted, and how many people had seen ghosts in here before. We came to the end of the hallway and there was a few closet doors. The women, walking carefully behind me, said that they felt scared and that there might be something in the closet. I walked up to the closet door casually. I told the women, "There is no need to be afraid of something that cannot hurt you." I grabbed the door handle and opened it. Inside it was almost pitch black, but I could see a dark black shadow standing about halfway in in this closet. The closet was quite big on the inside. It wasn't wide but it was very long in length. I looked at this figure, whatever it was, and became curious. However, as I turned around to check on the two women I found out that they had disappeared. This is what startled me. I closed the closet door and went downstairs.
The downstairs portion of this house was ALOT more vivid than the upstairs. Everything had a blue tint to it, as though it was almost night time. The next thing I remember was being on the edge of a wall, and it was really high up. I had a small whale like creature in my arms. It had the head of a whale, and its body had the texture of a whale as well, and it had legs. I was trying to get down from this ledge safely without hurting this little guy. I held on to this small whale creature with one hand, and with the other I slowly climbed down. As I did, the whale creature turned into a baby kitten. The kitten held on to my shirt with dear life. As I got off of the ledge, I grabbed onto some sort of brown cabinet with glass windows. I grabbed onto its door knob and jumped to it. Now I was on the side of this cabinet, and only about 2 feet above the ground. I let go of the knob and landed safely on the ground.

2. I was in school, and some old lady(she looked around 70 years old) was teaching the class. I was doing something in the class and it made her mad. Later after the class had ended, and I was just leaving, a cop had showed up and wanted to go into the classroom. The door was already half way open, so we both walked inside. The lights were off and it was getting dark. The officer had told me that he came in to test something, or check on something. He then walked up to the projector in the classroom and tooled around with it, as though he was trying to fix it, or salvage something from it, I was not sure.

3. I was in the mall with my family.(fragment)

4. I was in a restaurant and I noticed drawings on the booth seats.(fragment)

5. I was inside some kind of old, rusty prison. I got the feeling that I was in another country because the guys in charge here were saudi arabian. The guy that had put me in this prison room was also Saudi Arabian. I stood in this big cell, not wondering why I was here, but only how i was going to get out. I tried climbing out through a small pipe, but I couldnt fit inside of it at all. I looked around and noticed this entire room had a rusted texture to it. I looked at these cutted slits in the wall that were supposed to be windows, and could see that it was bright and daylight outside. I walked over to the east side of this room and started trying to escape. I had found something and was starting to tear apart a window, when all of a sudden I heard the prison warden that had put me in here coming to my cell. I stopped doing what I was doing and acted normal and hid my work in progress.

6. It was daytime, and I was riding with my close friends, patrick, dylan, and trey inside of patrick's dad's truck. Patrick's dad was driving, but he looked entirely different, nothing like he does in real life. The inside of this truck was huge, it matched the inside to a huge suburban. It had 3 rows of seats along with the driver and shotgun seat. The truck had a red paint job as well. I was sitting in the very back row with my patrick. I had found a bag of beef jerky on the seat and starting eating it. Patrick took the bag from me and took some beef jerky as well. I took it back again and continued eating. Pretty boring ride. I had no idea where we were going, and at the time I didnt even care to notice that we were just driving for this entire dream. I looked out the truck windows and saw a blue dune buggy just parked outside in the grass, next to what appeared to be a farm.
After that I continued chilling in the back seat, and my friend Trey had moved to the back with us. I moved to the far right position of the row and saw a poster or Ariana Grande. It was a poster of her wearing a pink dress, and in a kind of seducing position. Trey had noticed this as well and told me that he, "wouldn't mind giving her anal." Patrick's dad got mad when he heard this and told patrick to "shut the hell up", even though patrick didn't even say anything. At this point, we all got really quiet for the rest of the ride.

7. I was on a football field with my close friend Dylan and his brother Jordan. We were passing the football around. Whenever I got the ball, I tucked in my side and ran across the field. Dylan ran with me and I told him, "Wouldn't it be nice if the entire stadium was filled and was roaring for us?" He agreed. As I ran with the ball back to where we were originally chilling, I looked at my arms and noticed that my work outs were paying off, my arms were really muscular and I had really nice biceps. Once we made it back to Jordan, I threw the ball to Jordan. He told us that we were about to play a real game.
We started making our way to the 50 yard line and on our way, we came across my old friend from daycare as a kid, Travis Richie. He had gotten a haircut too. I asked, "hey man, its been a long time, whats up?" He said something and then I brought up how the olden days back in day care were good. We got to the 50 yard line and started assigning positions. I wanted to be a Wide Receiver but instead the quarterback wanted me to take his place and be quarterback. Since I hadn't thrown in forever I declined the position. The quarterback really insisted on me taking it, and he really didn't want to be it anyways. He forced me to be quarterback, but I didn't trust my throwing skills yet so I headed to the sideline. As I did, I noticed that more guys had showed up out of no where to play with us, and they were already lined up behind the offensive line as WR's. I decided to stay and play wide receiver anyways, because it was a long walk to the side line. As I faced forward, there was still some arguments going on- all of which were created by the guy who didn't want to be quarterback. I decided to sit out of this conflict until everyone had figured out what was going on. I looked to the side of the field and noticed other guys were doing this as well. I went over where they were and chilled with them.
Once everyone had found out what was what I got back onto the field as a wide receiver. Our new quarterback decided he was going to throw a deep pass. The play started and our QB threw the ball deep. One of our guys had caught it, and I was right next to him guarding him. We almost made a touchdown, but about 15 feet before we reached the end zone, our guy who had the ball tripped and broke something. Me and Dylan had mistaken our teammate who had just fell as his brother Jordan, but Jordan was on the sideline so it wasn't him. We still didn't know who this guy was. Soon, some medic's came over and treated him and told us he wouldn't be able to come back in for the rest of the game.

8. I was in my house, downstairs in the living room. I only had my boxers on and a towel around me. I was about to sit down in our recliner chair when I noticed that it had a picture of Squidward's face from spongebob on it. I looked at it closely and written below his face was a conversation between spongebob and squidward. I remember reading the word "thanks" somewhere in the conversation, but not much else of it. Out of no where I started getting a random erection(WTF). I decided it was time to go back upstairs to my room because I felt uncomfortable, especially since my dad was in the kitchen, and my mom was watching t.v. I looked at the time and it was 1:25 p.m. As I made my way upstairs I noticed that my mom had moved the couch to where it was DIRECTLY in front of the t.v. There was no floor between the couch and the t.v., and my mom was only 6 inches away from the screen. I asked her what she was doing and why she was so close and she said, "Watching t.v. because I dont have my contacts in." I walked upstairs into my room and put my towel down. I also put down a random drink that had gotten in my hands without me noticing. As I put the cup down I noticed that my mirror was gone, but I didn't care. My room was really lit from the sun outside, and I had my bedroom lights off. I remember hearing random music playing as well.
This is were it gets weird, really weird.
I looked down at my junk and freed it from the confinement of my boxers. I noticed that lights were coming out from inside of my junk(wtf). The lights were changing from red to blue to pink and whatever else. This freaked me out alot. I then "remembered" that I had put something in my junk somehow. I tried getting it out by applying pressure to my junk, but it didn't work. Whatever it was was stuck. I thought about how I was going to have to tell my dad, and "what would he think about it", and that I would have to get surgery to get whatever was stuck inside my junk out, and how the surgeons were going to have to rip open my junk, and how it was going to look afterwards. This was a nightmare. Finally I got so terrified that I woke up, and my heart was pounding. Sorry you guys had to read through that, I thought about just leaving it out, but I am really trying to make my recall better. Once again, really sorry and I know that it was really disgusting lol.

I fell asleep around 02:00 and I had to get up at 08:00 so I didn't have much dreaming.

1. London

I'm discussing cities with my dad and he tells me London is the worst of them all. He tells me it's very grey and ugly. Then I have a panoramic view of a city, I see it as London but there's no Big Ben or anything I know from London. I only see a grey Industrial city.

I think I will use StephL's method to bold competition points so that it is easier for me to add them up.

8/3/14** pre-bed lazily ask my subconscious to look out for any of my dreams signs and I guess one dream sign was part of my first LD and quite a few dream signs were part of my second LD. Several theories worked on tonight: startle induced, clenched eyes vibrations telling me how close I am to sleep, sex IWL and LDs, more simple dream sign alertness. / touring a home converted from a funeral home (casket showcase area looked odd converted - like two odd wings near the entrance. we hurry through like Halloween maze. I joke that I saw something move...then there was...was security in few spots. Last room had a line to next section or home maybe 15 people not bad. / price of corn syrup at a big discount (political/economic/health statement?) / ~30 minute wbtb.. DILD#1 someone won a lot of money and gave me a stack of money(money/treasure dream sign). I look the gift horse in the mouth and this seems to be a good thing for catching signs that you are dreaming. I flip through it and see not all big bills like top one. $300 total I seem to determine. I see a $30 bill! (no such thing in US currency) Aha! I'm dreaming. I will explore this. One bill changes the color picture scene (no unlike NZ dollars) on it each time I look at it, very cool (could possibly fit the photoshop TOTM - BUT not specifically thinking of that). One was a mountain scene, another a forest scene, and then a futuristic city scene. Then I look at signatures that show on US currency. Wife's maiden name was part of name, first name Robert I think, not far from her father's name. I look again...completely different name and it is harder to read and in cursive and I wonder for a second if it is one of the actual names that shows on US currency. Very cool, but goal time! But I get an FA where I am crawling to foot of my bed where phone is charging to record dream but then wake for real. / shorter wbtb the 2nd time, back to sleep with mantra. Too long, shorten it to "vivid..... lucid"...lots of old houses try to find right one (that is our home). Armless monkey looked to be hanging from a poll thingy but closer examination reveals wood carved arms and hands and the monkey attached some other way. he bites me kind of hard and is now loose on the ground.. Warn the monkey that I will have to hurt it if it does that again. Also around house is a temperature box that maintains hot or cold either way - 2 pizzas inside..feel heat from it (I used to have a tiny mini-fridge that also doubled as a food warmer, so there is such a thing). / 2 section amusement park. Sit and wait for a group of four to leave so we can enter the other section (done when full/busy). Lady/worker says you can go in now...stuck in crowded midway area. Watch (son) so he doesn't get crushed. He's younger? / D back already? hmm.. crayfish / dild 2: dreams signs: taking wrong turn/driving, vehicle out of control, parking lot, boldness, security or police, on trip. Although I only got two steps of my longer plan done I was able to mix in some other points. I had planned to also get to step 3 and an attempt at a task of the year and my personal goal (those last two are planned to transition smoothly and quickly between) if I had an epic long LD. But pretty darn good and my best night of the competition so far. Hopefully not too late to get going here. Driving with son in a truck. We take a wrong turn and the truck is going fast and a little bit out of control and my son is concerned. I am NOT concerned and I feel as if I'm already semi lucid at this point, possibly due to a couple of dream signs showing up already. The road becomes a parking lot without driving the truck into the parking lot. The road leads incredulously to some stairs into the mall and I am bold and drive right on down the stairs realizing completely that I'm dreaming now. We get to the bottom of the stairs and get out of the truck and there is a security guard or mall cop and I use my trusty pocket watch to freeze time (&step 1 and Lucid challenge) on him. (I have only used it once before to freeze time specifically but I say I "trusty" because I try to use it to stabilize my dream from the beginning and almost always use it at the beginning of my extended RCs in waking life practice.) I examine the guard a little bit and his uniform looks a little cartoonish and unrealistic. My son says what if you get arrested? I say no worries this is my dream I can make sure I do not get caught but then I start thinking that I guess it is possible to get caught in a lucid dream. It could cause some challenges and I would just have to escape. Sure enough handcuffs appeared on my wrists. My hands are out in front of me. I blast my wrists apart from each other in a feat of super strength and I feel exhilarated! I fly up in this mall and decide to do step 2&mass telekinesis. My first attempt moved a few things rolling forward like a good gust of wind pushing them but not impressive. So I reached back and pushed my hands out in a big shoving motion down towards floor and many things(trash can, stroller, unidentified items) and the entire floor were slammed forward revealing dirt below. The scene goes dark and I remain patient like I have been doing lately. I feel myself laying back in bed but it still feels quite dreamlike and I remain still and patient and I hear couple of knocks to the left of my bed. I decide to do the glottal motionless RC. It is not conclusive it sounds kind of like what it would sound like in waking life if I am not doing it properly. I do the one where I clench my eyes, normally to nudge on the vibrations, and the vibrations are strong which I take to indicate that I'm still quite firmly in dreamland. And my wife starts to move but I assume that it is part of my common false awakenings. I roll over and I can feel that I'm still dreaming and fool around with my wife a little bit . I then start to wake up for real at least partially I think. Perhaps mostly awake this time but I do the clenched eyes again and the vibrations are much lighter but still noticeable like I have found many times when I'm starting to wake up or at the early stages of going to sleep. I find this fascinating and feel as if I discovered an important factor within my transition in and out of dreamland. I will have to experiment some more but basically after a while trying to go back into a dream my bladder got the best of me and I had to get up to urinate and when I came back and lay down I couldn't get any light vibrations at all from clenching my eyes softly or mentally, seeming to confirm that this is a way to indicate closeness to sleep along with heavy vibrations indicating fully asleep or at least at the doorstep of REM sleep. I think that I read someone else mentioning something very similar here on DV.

This lucid is from the morning of August 1st.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #226: Bum Steer

I’m driving on a long, tree-lined road when I remember that I was hoping to have a lucid dream. I become lucid and just sit still for a moment, still driving as the dream continues just as it did before. I have this slightly paranoid feeling like the dream is going to “catch me”, but nothing happens.

I settle in to driving for a bit, thinking about what I want to do, feeling pleased with how smoothly the transition to lucidity went. I come to a rightward curve in the road and turn the wheel, but the car refuses to follow my instructions. I crank the steering wheel hard over to the right but nothing is working. The left front tire grinds along the curb for a while, the car shudders, and after a few seconds, I’m thrown into the void.

I rub my hands together and try to move my legs in a walking motion. It sort of works but I’m not feeling proper resistance in my feet and I have the sensation of my legs flailing around. It feels like this is going too long and I recall how Dreamer used flight when her dream went dark. I take to the air and fly around for a bit, the sensation partway between flying and falling. I finally remember that I have had good luck singing when I fly through the dark.

But before I even have to do any singing, I find myself flying high over a city. There are two tall, ruby-red buildings below me that are shaped like stretched out hexagon. As I look at them, an unseen voice gives me some kind of garbled warning about “balls” and the dream ends.

Notes: Given the theme, It’s interesting (well, to me at least) that during the day I was implementing the character-steering code for our video game project. Maybe I’m a little anxious about how well it’s going to work.

I decided to begin with SAT (Sporadic Awareness Technique) which seems to be quiet suited for me as I get these moments when I doubt my surroundings. So far no LDs yet but I still hope for the best. I haven't been waking up that often anymore in between dreams which is kinda dissapointing. Maybe I should look up some auto-suggestion guides.

1. New car

My father bought a new car, I hadn't seen it yet but he told us (my family included) that it wasn't really a good looking car but very practical. Suddenly I see a commercial where they show of the car and I must say it was quiet ugly, both the shape and the colour. The steering wheel wasn't round but more oval and was supposed to be more comfortable for the driver. Suddenly I'm in the back and we're just driving down a road with this car in some city.

2. Flowers

It's a seperate dream from the first but we stop driving at some Industrial zone, we get out and walk around for a bit. It's quiet and we seem to be the only people around here, the roads are old and cracked open through which weeds grow. On both sides of the road I can see factories and parking lots I guess. I see a lot of white flowers around and start gathering them for some reason.

3. Waves

I'm somewhere on a beach, it's a small bay and the waves are quiet wild. I get in the water and I'm being thrown around when suddenly a menu pops up and brings up this raft-design display. First I make a classic looking raft which appears in my hands, I get up but it's quickly destroyed by the waves. My second raft is more modern looking using aluminium and a folding system to absorb the impacts of the waves. It goes good for some while and I make large jumps over the waves but after some time and a rough landing it breaks too. I get blown back to the shore and roll on the beach, infact I role back I think 20 meters and see that over the beach a highway runs. After some looking around I find out this isn't a nice beach surrounded by nature but it's actually in the middle of a harbor. I see my dad in the distance and know his cellphone is ringing because my mother is calling him from somewhere else. When he gets to me I quickly tell him to pick up his Phone, he seemed to not have noticed the calls. When I pick the phone and check the missed calls I see that my mother called 54 times. Then I see my mother walking from behind a screen.

4. Beethoven look

I'm with my family and we're getting a tour throughout a new house, however we begin in the cellar. It's dark, damp and there are several holes in the ceiling above. I quickly leave the group and go exploring on my own, somehow I get my finger stuck the hole of a wooden barrel. I wait for some time and call for some help and after some time the guide appears, he pulls me out. Then I notice an old dusty mirror on the wall, after I look into it I see my hair is very long. Like 15 centimeters, I don't like this look and tell my mother I look like Beethoven or Mozart or something. Then I'm suddenly in my bathroom with my mother who's brushing her hair. I ask her to cut my hair but she doesn't seem to be too interested in me.

I feel like most of the lucidity pegs were in the holes last night . . . not sure what I was missing, really. Maybe my awareness was low. I have been trying to up that a bit today . . . .

(??): I awake with the distinct impression that I had just been lucid! Unfortunately, not a single memory. Not sure what awoke me either--maybe just the autosuggestion I give myself to wake up and remember stuff! I take it as a good omen, though, and go back to sleep . . .

5:44 AM: I am in a movie theater with my wife and mom. Mom asks my wife why I keep pinching my nose (!). My wife explains to her that I'm "testing reality" and then my mom begins to pester me about RCing. I yell at her while walking down the hallways toward the movie. I ask her if she would rather spend the evening alone, and threaten to sit in the car for the rest of the night if she doesn't put a sock in it. She somehow transforms into one of my professors from college. He wanders down the hallway lamenting, "Literature!" as though I had turned my back on it forever.

My wife and I stop in front of a movie poster. It has black and green detail -- similar to night-vision goggles -- and is about lucid dreaming. She asks if I want to see it and I realize I have wanted to see it for some time. I check the run time (134 minutes!) and then check my watch (!). I realize we will not be out until very late. I am suddenly not so keen. Wife wants to stay now, however. She shows me where our theater screen will be. We will not be sitting in the main theater, but out in the hallway. Our screens are in front of us, to the left, and above us, to the left. She indicates them with a laser pointer, and a little smiley face appears where she points it. She tells me "This is a good thing," indicating the seats. Our view is obstructed by other movie goers. I tell her this is not a good thing and that we have terrible seats. We end up staying. Before the movie starts, we are asked to stand and clap our hands and sing to some music. My wife joins in with everyone. I just stand there because I don't want to sing.

(??): I am walking down a sidewalk and I realize I am dreaming. I also can distinctly feel the vagueness of the dream world. This is not a visual-quality issue, but more of a "this is a very unstable experience." Probably due to being fairly awake while trying to LD. I observe the dreamscape and allow the action to move of its own accord. I continue to mosey along, and then enter a shop to my left through a glass door. The shopkeeper or cashier is positioned behind a counter to my right. She sees me and my NL body attempts to walk past her; I choose to smile at her as I pass. As I make it to the back of the shop, I decide to test stability at this point. I feel that if I can just manage some concrete physical action, then the dream will be good to go. I nose pinch. I of course can breathe but this destabilizes the dream and I wake up, breathing deeply. Really a great time to DEILD, but I wasn't able to pull it off. Think REM needs to be a little more strongly asserted to get there!

This dream took place in the mountains. My sister was there even though I haven't seen her in about a year. I was exploring the outside a little bit with her when I found these golden coins hidden in the dirt. They had the names Joshua and Jordan on them. I was putting them into my pocket when I spotted a cotton swab that had been freshly unearthed. My sister's face got all distorted and her eyes widened. She said to me, "Don't disturb that! It is evil O_O...It will be bring bad luck to all women you know". So I covered it back up with dirt and we went back inside. My dad was there with a couple of his mountain buddies. I sat down with them. One guy was telling a really long, boring story when guy #2 interrupted him and started telling his own but with a more animated and charismatic voice. Guy #1 was offended and just kept talking louder, so guy #2 talked even louder. They kept going on in this manner for a couple minutes before I got up and left for my room upstairs.When I got into my room I saw an active blowtorch hanging on a patch of wall that had been charred black. I muttered to myself, "that can't be very safe" so I picked it up and turned it off. Nothing exciting. Woke up

In this dream, I was working for Gordon Ramsay but I realized that he was pure evil and he was cooking evil weapons to control the minds of the public. I remember he had a vortex beneath his kitchen. But I didn't fight him, I just worked on solving these complex physics equations with another chef. I will call this other chef.....John! I had just about solved an equation explaining the seemingly chaotic behavior of neutrons? or neutrinos? I don't know I think it changed between the two a couple of times. But then here comes John with his genius mind telling me that the reason for the anomaly was because there was an opposite particle that wasn't being accounted for. He added these entire other terms to the equation and I was pretty skeptical. He told me that he had won 100$!!!! for submitting this idea and I thought, OKAY you must be right then. Then my dad came out of nowhere and started about Gaussian neutrino distribution and stuff I've never heard of and that these things had been known for a long time and just not accepted because there was no way to prove anything.

Then I noticed my sister! hanging out next to me. I asked her what she was doing here, and she said to me, "I lost my job so I came back early". This made me sad but I was glad to see her.

NEXT DREAM. I only remember being in a hallway, staring out a window, when I realized that I was dreaming. I was about to walk through the window when I woke up.

another dream. This time I was on a navy vessel, traveling to a small country in Asia. I was hanging out with this gay girl and we were having a good time but she was really lonely because she hadn't had a girlfriend in a long time, so I decided to help her find one. We went all over the place talking to different girls until eventually she met eyes with another and the connection was seen. So I left them alone to talk and went over to the stern. We had arrived and there was a dock maybe 30 feet away from us. There were beautiful, naked, bronze women laying out in the sun, enjoying their weekend. I was about to jump off the ship and swim over to them when I noticed these crocodiles everywhere. One of them jumped up and bit off part of my toe somehow. Didn't hurt but I just thought, damn, another scar.

There was also a fragment where I was in an arena throwing fireballs.

Ritual: Went to bed 1am, woke at 2, too early to do anything, woke again at 5:40 with fresh NLD, so forced myself to get up and do a proper WBTB. Returned to bed at 6:15, did hybrid of SSILD and counting, but kept getting disturbed by environmental factors. Hard to sleep, eventually dozed off without awareness, finally woke at 7:20 and declared it a failed attempt. I could still squeeze in another hour of sleep though so I figured I'd just try FILD as a last resort.

After this things get confusing. My best guess is that I did FILD, then fell asleep and into a NLD, then... I woke up, or thought I did (might have been an FA), and did FILD again (possibly in the dream state). Then I noticed that my arm was lying free on the bed rather than tucked under my pillow as usual, so I thought, "Fine, I'll do the stupid nose pinch RC," and what do you know, I could breathe! So I knew I was dreaming, but I was very perplexed. I had just been doing FILD and hadn't observed any kind of transition or even a momentary lapse of awareness in which the transition could have occurred. How could I have fallen asleep and not realized it? In retrospect, I really do think that this started as an FA that I mistook for a real waking, so I did FILD without realizing that I was already dreaming. Hey, whatever works.

So I sat up, and immediately became more perplexed. I was in a bed, but it was not the one I had gone to sleep in, and the bedroom also bore no resemblance to mine in RL. I got up and started looking around, but then I realized that I recognized the place after all: hadn't I been having a non-lucid dream here, just before I woke up and tried that FILD attempt? (This also argues for the FILD-during-FA hypothesis, and it wouldn't be the first time I've had a "WILD" that was initiated from within an ongoing dream—a DIWILD?)

This is hard to confirm because I always have a hard time putting dream events in their proper sequence, but there were events I remembered taking place in this building that don't seem lucid and don't fit into my memory of the lucid episode, so I think that must be what happened. That is, all the previous events took place downstairs, but the entire lucid sequence took place upstairs in what I took to be the same house.

NLD: Earlier when I was downstairs, there had been some complicated narrative I don't recall, but it resulted in me opening the front door several times to let cats into the house. At one point there was a really big one, an orange tabby, both large-bodied and very plump. When I saw him sitting on the doorstep I thought he was the biggest cat I'd ever seen, and I invited him in and closed the door. But there had been two or three other orange tabbies of normal size sitting with him, so I relented and opened the door again to let them in too. "Okay, fine, we'll just let them all in." I knew we didn't have room for them all, but figured it wouldn't be fair to turn them away after I'd already let in others. We could sort it out later.

After this I stood in the entry and watched the extra-big cat ambling away down the hall. Now it was even larger than it had seemed at first, with a lean, bony frame that was not at all cat-like. In fact, I thought I recognized what it was, and said to someone standing nearby, "That cat looks an awful lot like a moose. You know, I think it might actually be just a moose with no horns." Only it was still orange, which seemed a very odd color for a moose.

DIWILD: So apparently this all happened earlier, before the FILD attempt, and afterwards I was convinced I was still in the same house. In the wall facing the end of the bed was a doorway to another room, and when I went inside, I encountered someone that I immediately recognized as the moose-cat from earlier, although now he was a human-looking man with orange hair. I was still curious, so I asked him, "Are you a cat or a moose?"

"I have three types of glands," he answered, and I had the impression he was suggesting that he was both, and something more besides, a protean type of creature.

The two of us sat down on the couch, and for a moment my dream libido took over, and I started making out with him. But as things got more intense I recognized that this was a distraction and would accomplish nothing useful. Didn't I have tasks to do? I remembered that last night I had been on DV looking over the monthly tasks for August, and there had been one that I particularly wanted to try out. This seemed like the perfect opportunity. So I disentangled myself from moose-cat-man's embrace and said firmly, "Tell me a word in a foreign language."

It was hard to make out what he said at first. It sounded like "Arab mormon."

"What?" I wasn't sure if I had heard him correctly.

This time he distinctly just said, "Mormon."

It didn't sound like a word in a foreign language, but whatever. Run with it. "Alright, now tell me what it means."

"A married man."

I wasn't very satisfied with this result and wanted to try again. Another DC was in this room, sitting on another small couch further along the same wall, so I went and sat down next to him. This time I made sure my instructions were more explicit from the start: "I want you to tell me a word in a foreign language, and then tell me what it means."

"Sprenn," he said promptly.

"Spread?" I repeated what I had thought I heard at first.

"Sprenn," he clarified, and helpfully spelled it for me. "S-P-R-E-N-N."

"Okay, what does it mean?"

At this he smiled coyly, as if embarrassed. "I'll... tell you later."

I had the impression it must be a word for something naughty, but I needed to find out. "Please?" I wheedled. He shook his head.

I decided to be more forceful. "Come on, you have to tell me!" I tried to think of how to back this up, and added, "It's my homework assignment."

He tried to explain in a roundabout way: "It has to do with the city of Myrkbalik, and the laws of Garibaldi."

The two names he mentioned sounded complicated, so I wanted to make sure I had heard them correctly. "What was the name of the city? Mrkbalik?" He nodded. "And the second name? Garibaldi? Garifaldo?" This reminded me of a name I had heard in waking life, so I tried to remember, then joked with him, "The laws of Janeane Garofolo?"

He laughed, though it wasn't clear whether or not he recognized the pop culture reference, and repeated the name for me. It still sounded closer to "Garibaldi" than anything, though I had so much to remember at this point that I didn't dare ask him to try to spell it. Already in the back of my mind I was cycling through data points "mormon... married man... sprenn... mrkbalik..." trying to make sure I would be able to preserve them through waking.

Mrkbalik... that's how it sounded, and I didn't ask him to confirm the spelling of that one either. But he had said it was a city name, and to my ears it sounded Russian or Eastern European. I had a sudden insight about this DC, and asked him, "You majored in Slavic studies, didn't you?" He confirmed this.

I felt as though this conversation was winding down, so I got up and crossed the room. Against the opposite wall was a sort of shelving unit, framing square cubbyholes about the size you might put a pair of shoes in, six cubbies high and six wide. It was resting on some elevated base so that the fourth row of cubbies up was equal with my eye level. I looked in this row and saw that a couple of the cubbies were inhabited by small kittens. Could the kittens talk, I wonder? If so, I might even try the task again. But as I was wondering this, the little grey tabby kitten in the cubby I was peering into addressed me first. It had a tiny creaky high-pitched voice, like you might expect of a kitten, and said something about how its eyes were damaged or hurting. I was troubled to hear this and wondered how I might help. Since this was a dream, I figured the most effective way to help the kitten would be to correct its expectations. I smiled and said encouragingly, "No, your eyes are perfectly fine!" We had a few more exchanges like this, where the kitten would say something upsetting and I tried to reassure it. I don't remember anything afterwards so around this time I guess I woke up, although I don't have a distinct sense of the moment when it happened.