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Morning of January 30, 2014. Thursday.



I am in an unknown theater. There is a repeat of this dream with slightly different orientation but most of the same scenes. My wife is there, but only shows up a bit later on in one version. The unusual nature of this one (which I do not recall having before) is that she asks if the movie is still visible from the seats we end up sitting in. I tell her “yes”, but the really strange part is - I expect to “watch the movie” along the side of the chairs, on the arm of the chairs, to my left, rather than the screen. This makes very little sense, yet seems to be normal within the scenario. Also, a female entity had been present in the row behind us. I do not approach her or speak to her. She almost seems like a different version of my wife in the sense of a “higher” form. (My wife is the only real person - as far as I know - who has ever appeared in dreams in any “higher” way, several times as a “goddess”. The “other” had appeared with the blue flame around her, but usually not in a more powerful sense of actual interaction.)

Later, it does not seem to be a movie we are at but some sort of stage show using advanced optical effects and other tricks. The stage itself seems to show a “miniature giant”, that is - a scene representing a giant interacting with an elf or some such, but with both being normal-sized people being projected (some sort of mirror trick) into the setup from elsewhere. The “giant” is not even a foot tall. I seem to be there to help, but place a part of the stage in the wrong area for a short time so that only part of the people are visible for a time. It is unusual, as the actors seem to actually be there in that small size (but I know it is an optics trick). The “play” had something to do with the old Sinbad movies.

This relates to a sort of childhood nostalgia at a very deep level, a combination of “The Ed Sullivan Show” with Topo Gigio (the mouse puppet) and the introductory scene of the eohippus from “The Valley of Gwangi”. It is an elusive reckoning and “hidden” composite memory - a sort of unraveling of associations. Both represent a small, mythical (although the eohippus existed in prehistory) creature (seemingly) tentatively coming out to be with the “giant” humans. A sort of subtle magic mixing reality with altered form and movement. Both also had their own very little “house” that they lived in when they were not a spectacle for the humans. On a very subtle but meticulous note, there was a vague link to a new drink I tried in real life called “Shasta Fiesta Punch” (this is the first time I have seen Shasta available in Australia - at least in this region). Shasta is the character from “The Horse and His Boy” (relating to the eohippus) and there is also “La Fiesta del Topo Gigio” (the mouse). This rather vague synchronicity is near-invisible, but it is there. However, it still begs the “Which came first?” question. Did I select that particular Shasta flavor because of some vague hidden memory, or was the dream already formed for the evening for the most part? No way of really knowing - but I do know my “stunned” childlike enjoyment of the eohippus scene probably manifested from my unaware association with Topo Gigio. In fact, doing research, I have seen the male observers at one point, were in the exact same stance, leaning slightly to the left with right fist on hip.

The other dream involved being a teenager living in Cubitis yet again. My brother Jim (deceased) is there. He seems cheerful. I am cleaning my room and putting furniture exactly in its place and putting things in order, but somehow the room seems much bigger, although in after-thought, it was actually the correct size (as in reality).

I note that the grass, for about five feet from the highway (there is no traffic), is completely dead and even waxy as if supposedly (by whatever implied “science” this dream is using) from some sort of extreme heat and curling about in complex patterns (yet seems longer and somehow more “vibrant” than the rest of the lawn). The rest of the lawn is also dead and brown and yellow, but without the ominous waxy sheen and a bit shorter. This seems to imply that the Earth has gotten too close to the sun. I notice that all of the houses on the opposite side of the road (from the one just south of the S family house) are gone and with no trace of human habitation or presence. I get a vague impression that we should not be living there, but we decide to risk it. This is likely from something I have read a few times about how a lot of areas people presently live will be uninhabitable. It really is not that logical, though. Why get rid of cement-block shelters in such conditions even if people did not actually live there?

In one other longer, convoluted dream, there is not much of a plot, I do not think. I know there was something about a rope “ring” or something in the middle of a large but open “room” (relating to a support post, possibly) in or near a different building, seemingly west of the home of a heavy-set man with a large family (including a lot of older relatives). There is some talk about this “ring”, which may be used to tie horses to, or perhaps something else - there is talk about its length and such. It does seem to be a composite area, borrowing from a room from my sister’s house but shifting it into a neighbor’s backyard somewhat. I know there was also a scene where I was carrying a matte-black revolver around (but not snub-nosed). I am fairly sure it was a Smith & Wesson 17-8 .22 which I have never owned or handled to my memory.

1. [Non-Lucid]
I'm holding onto a tree trunk/wooden post (unsure), I'm pretty high up, randomly got excited and ends in...sigh...a sticky mess.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I'm watching a guy play a pinball game on a rather small tablet (I can see perfectly what hes playing), and he has zoomed in so he can barely see much of what's going on.
I comment saying that I play Pinball FX and that he should try it as it should fit nicely on his tablet, I said I play it on PC and I turn my monitor sideways to play it in portrait mode (I think I even made a rotation gesture with my hands).

Fragments:
Were now both in bed or something.

I'm standing at the bottom of my Grandma's driveway with my little sister and a few others that I feel but cannot see. I'm wearing a brightly colored dress that reaches above my knees. It's orange with white lace. I'm barefoot and swaying in place. Someone who I cannot see tells me that my niece needs my dress. I can feel that it's really important so I immediately take off my dress and hand it over to someone. I'm left standing there in nothing but a pair of white panties. I know that I'm naked but for some reason I don't really feel embarrassed about it. I noticed everyone starts walking up the driveway, so I cover my chest with my hands and walk up with everyone. I walk slowly. Once I reach the top, I walk into the little fenced area in front of Grandma's house and I see that my older sister, my little sister and my niece are standing there and looking at me. I then have the dress put back into my hands. I guess it's okay to put it back on now.

1.29.14 Wednesday

Getting up around 8am. Nap around 3;15. Was falling asleep, but something woke me up. Second attempt around 3:45 - 5-45 Phone woke me up.

DR:

I'm at work. We got a new boss (true in WL). She called me into her office. It's almost full of boxes and i try to squeeze by on the left side. She directs me to come over on the right side. There are some others in the office.

Me and a group of people are at this restaurant. They're talking way too loud, all the people are giving us dirty looks. I shush them but that pisses them off. We never really sit down all at the same time. Some of them stand while others sit. Then some change to sitting and the sitting people stand up. Then the two women waitresses come over and say that if we find this phrase on the paper on each page we can win a prize. First this little 6 year old girl tries but she is failing so I take it from her and finish it easily, and then everyone celebrates and the waitresses lets me choose between clear purple, clear white or clear blue glue sticks. I chose the clear blue glue stick and the waitress gives the other two to the two girls who kinda helped. Then I bopped everyone with my glue stick and they all shut up and sat down.

barely remember a fragment of this dream

dream fragment: Something about me at my grandmas house, and I'm sitting at the dinner table, and a boy is sitting the opposite side of me. He stares at me the whole time. My grandma serves us soup or something and the boy keeps denying any food offered to him, and me and my grandma are just perplexed by it.

I enter this unregulated fun house with shit that is too dangerous for anyone, like rusty fucking metal wall shards hanging out of the walls. I go in and these two boys go in after me, and they gang up together and decide to chase/beat me at racing through this thing for some reason. And this fun house didn't lead through it to an exit, you had to find your way. I see kids and old people who've been stuck in here for I'd say a long time. They're skinny and weak looking and dirty and begging me for something but they're to weak to tell me so they just reach their hands out to me. I have no choice but to run because I hear those two boys catching up. I run and duck under things and jump over this rusty fence, and then crawl into this tube that leads a story up. and I hear them climb into the tube a few seconds later. Then I drop off the side of a tube crack instead of continuing forward, and they don't hear me, I continue to run while ducking and I hear them bickering to each other about where I went. Then I ran down this clear glass tube that's going down at a slope, and then I begin to walk through water getting deeper and deeper, this leads to a glass tank that's surrounded by the ocean depths. The water is so deep now that I'm swimming under water, and the tube had opened up into a square tank filled with fish and eels, there's no air pocket at the top, I'd have to go back up the sloped glass tunnel that lead me in here. I look out of the glass tank at the dark ocean and see this huge great white swim fast as fuck towards the tank I'm in and it slams into it and it shakes. It scared the fuck out of me so I swim back the way I cam as fast as I can. Then I see those two boys swimming into the tank but they don't see me swimming above them so I keep going. Then run out once I surface enough. I keep to this lowest floor and see a exit to the night outside, and I see carnival lights but the exit is squished by upper level tubes and I just make it out and the worker from the beginning give me a dirty look and the scummy people he was chatting with give me dirty looks like they were hoping I fail.

In a dream fragment:

I was walking backstage in my church's auditorium where I saw to guys i know, one was working on a computer the other not doing much. I ask the guy who wasn't doing much a question (I don't know what question I asked him) and he said "uhhhh, no" in a way I've heard him say in real life. And then my dream fades out

Later I the day when I'm awake I walk backstage to look for something, I look and see the two guys. The weird thing is, almost all the details of my dream (he was wearing the same shirt same everything). And I ask him if he'd seen the thing I'd been looking for and he said "uhhhh, no"

Slightly weird in my opinion

In a dream fragment:

I was walking backstage in my church's auditorium where I saw to guys i know, one was working on a computer the other not doing much. I ask the guy who wasn't doing much a question (I don't know what question I asked him) and he said "uhhhh, no" in a way I've heard him say in real life. And then my dream fades out

Later I the day when I'm awake I walk backstage to look for something, I look and see the two guys. The weird thing is, almost all the details of my dream (he was wearing the same shirt same everything). And I ask him if he'd seen the thing I'd been looking for and he said "uhhhh, no"

Slightly weird in my opinion

When I was younger like 8-9 i got jumped in an alley and I'm new to this and this is a true story and I was walking home had 40 bucks in my pocket and I was in an alley and i noticed a group of guys 3 of them older than i was by two yrs probably and i turned around to ask y they were following me and they chased me and I ran but not fast enough and I was caught and thrown at a dumpster and was kicked and hit and beaten and I couldn't do anything no one was around so i went home with nothing but my clothes and a broken book bag thats it no shoes a bloody nose and a black eye and a busted lip bruises all over me my mom freaked and there was nothing we could do so the next day i had to go through the same alley and they waited on me and I figured i was going to get beat up again so this time i actually fought back and one person from there side hit me one good time and i paused look at them ran at the one who punched me my vision made everything slow and a little red and I could see and feel my eyes beating like my heart was in my eye sockets and i was crying in tears and I brarely remember wat happened becuz i was mad and vision was improved and strength was improved well all my senses and my body was hot and I was red all over and I went for the guy who hit me and I ran so fast and with every blink i felt like i was teleporting but I was running so fast and I grabbed a hold of him and choked him held him wih one hand around the neck and squeezed has hard as I could and nearly killed him as his feet were half way off the ground and his friends were yelling at me to let him go and i blink and let go and realized that his friends were pulling me off and it was over i let go and flew back as a blue faced kid fell and I was pushed back when they couldn't get me back when I was in this thing i was in and they said " wats wrong with u " and I grabbed my bag and left and I went home with a smile on my face and never seen them in that alley and one of them became my friend and I was young and stupid to allow that to happen and i wanna know can someone please tell what that is and I'm 14 now and ever since I have been searching for wat that was i have been convinced its a blessing says some people and some say its a curse and every day i live a remember that and this is a true story a memory that remains in my head for forever and I feel it or wat ever it is inside building up and ready to burst but I've been holding it in becuz the next time it takes control i could probably kill someone with this curse and thats my story and i wanna know wat it is please give me some ideas of wat it is i wanna know and I am actually scared of it or scared of wat i can do it probably one of those hidden abilities people have like women lifting cars and stuff like that

I'm sitting on the couch. My half sister walks over and sits too close to me. I'm annoyed, she starts trying to talk to me about how in high school she had this girlfriend named Jenny and then she begins to talk about what they'd do IN the bathroom while ditching and I interrupt her because I don't want to hear it, I'm grossed out. I start to walk away and she keeps talking about I'm a prude about and she gets louder so I throw a purple clunk of plastic that was on this table at her head, but it doesn't effect her at all, she just continues to stare at me she didn't even blink, and she's still talking about stuff, so I yell "bla bla bla bla bla" louder then her talking and that goes on for a good 5 minutes.

Me and my sister are walking through door after door after door endlessly, and we're fucking thirsty, like when we were children. One of the doors we walk through my mom is in sitting on a chair, she gets up and takes us by the hand and runs us through the doors faster. Each door we go through leads to a different room or scene. Some lead out to a desert, then a door into a dark purple and green fly infested room, then the next door into a basketball court. Finally we go through a door that has two water bottle filled with distilled water but only half way full me and my sister try to grab it before our mom shove us out the door, we do and we drink it all but it didn't quench our thirst at all. We keep telling her to stop and that we are dehydrated, and exhausted, but she ignores us and makes us keep going.

I am walking aimlessly around this room that seems to be an below the surface room on a ship. Someone is sitting in a chair in the corner passed out snoring. I'm looking at all the shit in here and know that it's a DC's room who will be here any minute. All of a sudden the DC's computer turns on and some guy is on the other end of a web cam, and he gets all excited to see me, and I wonder why, but I block the camera with something because I find it weird, and the guy looks all pervy. Then I look again and he's still there and he yells OMG Miley Cyrus. Then I realize I'm Miley Cyrus, and freak out, the the DC comes in and yells at me for fucking with his webcam, so I run around his bed and sit down and he forgets I'm there. (p.s. I'm not a miley fan, so)

Journal Entry Lucid #5 Dream, Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
Background: One thing I have changed in my routines lately is my meditation. I have been doing love and kindness meditation. I enjoyed it very much. When I woke up around 2:40 am, I studied for my exam and didn't expect to become lucid since I didn't read anything to do with LD. Before going to sleep I accepted that I can have a LD, and it doesn't matter what day it is. While going to sleep, finding a comfortable position, I said to myself," next time I am dreaming I will realize that I am dreaming" I said this a couple of times. I didn't let it stress me out though.

Dream fragment 1 from 4:40am-6:01am"": I was in a class room about to do some test. I asked people do we have a test they told me yes. I got mad and complained about not having enough time. I then got really upset towards the teacher.

Dream 1 from 4:40am-6:01am"Genie ": I found myself on the computer. I got up and realized that the time passed for me to go to school to do my quize. It still looked like night time though. I got upset and was running back and forth for some reason. I ran to my parents room and my dad was sleeping. I thought that is strange he can't be home this early if he took my mom to work. I heard a horrible piano player in my garage. Usually if anything suspicious happen in waking life, I would excuse it by some explanation but since I have started doing RC, if a weird or bizarre thing has occurred I would assume it is a dream and do a RC. I still hear that annoying piano player.I thought this is a dream.

I woke up in my room and I thought hmm, let me do a RC. My body was out of sync with my mind and was already doing an action of it's own. I ran to my room door and I saw my shadow run in front of me. That was when it clicked.

I said this is definitely a dream. This time the dream didn't try and disintegrate itself so I didn't bother rubbing my hands. I walked over to my living room and was about to go outside using the front door. I walked half way and saw to my left a dark pathway to the front door, and to my right I saw my backyard with some light on. I stopped and thought if I go to my left I might wake up, the right (backyard) does seem reasonable. I went outside and hoped over the fence to my neighbors yard. I made up the scene. I went into their "house" and came out to where they put the trash. I thought let me try and meditate. I jumped into the air and put my legs into meditative pose, hopping to fly like I did in another LD. I fell right away. It felt painful for a slight second. I started concentrating, but I didn't close my eyes because dream might change. I saw my legs start to float above me, while legs crossed in meditation posture. My legs fell when I stopped concentrating on the breath. I tried again, I told myself to feel the breath and it's lightness. This time my whole body flew up.

I saw this little genie like spirit, when I mean spirit it was blueish and it was kind of see through. It was not an actual spirit. It appeared and I thought the most natural thing to do was to follow it. I started to fly with it. We kept flying around for quite some time. I saw some houses, but the dream was starting to loss it's details. This should have been the time I did the hand rubbing thing and reminded myself that it was a dream, but I was too interested in flying more. My father appeared and he was trying to tell me advice. I didn't want to hear him so I flew with the genie, some how he followed us. He kept saying, "you should not LD all the time", and he said that in the most automated voice I could think of. He then said, " you can trust this genie because Buddhists don't believe in demons". I got fed up with his constant phrases so I said to him at first with anger," Shut up! I know what I am doing". He looked very sad and I didn't want to create a negative outcome in the dream so I said, "sorry, dad, I didn't mean to yell at you, but I know what I am doing, I love you". I hugged him, even though he was a DC.

As we were flying by I saw this plant rising from the floor next to some ladies. I wanted to test control so I landed and imagined the plants rising up like an explosion, with the concrete on the floor destroyed, you know something epic. I then lifted my hands up. "Whoop" nothing, I thought, "I need to work on control." I flew away following the genie and the genie took me to a well. My dad followed us their again. I saw these plants and they looked beautiful. They had this little opening on the top of them, like a rose. My dad was either going to get some water from the well or he was going to touch the rose. I stopped him when I notice that the rose shot a little dart and it gushed out poison. After I did that their was no genie. I woke up. I wanted to go to sleep. The position I woke up in was not bad but realized that it was 6:00 and I had an alarm set up for 6:10 to get prepared for the exam.

Journal Entry non-lucid #21 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:
Dream fragment 1 from 8:30am-2:10am" Self Preception": I was inside a store and I was shopping for cloth. I got a little bio of the guy, apparently he used to work in a store before he went with his intuition and created his own. He walked up to me and he told me not to burn my old cloth before looking at their cloth. I said you think I am crazy. Then I looked at my self, I am not sure if it was a mirror but I saw my image or the image I think of myself. My hair was unevenly cut and my beard was all over the place.

Other dream fragment(not enough details)
-Trying to find some sort of good healthy food to eat from. I went with my sister some where.
-Was doing some math problems with, my friend TO. Some endless problem.