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Slept from about 5pm to 130am.

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I’m in a game store. E is working there. I'm there to get an expansion to some game we've been playing. She pulled out a sheet of paper that I thought at first was a job application but wasn't. I got what I needed and left. The journey was... odd and mostly forgotten till I went down some stairs - trying to get back to some people I knew. The bottom of the stairs was blocked off by a bunch of people in chains. Teenagers. Apparently someone threw a party when they were babysitting. Groups of us (people in the area- bad place/time) were sectioned off into different rooms. They had a group of adults come in - looked like bikers - hard people. To scare us? They started a trivia game - a question about taco bell - something that had stuck with taco bell since the founding of the first store. I had first try on this one. I brought up how the founder was rumored to have been big on live sacrifices and asked if that had anything to do with it. He said it did not and I gave up to the next person. It was apparently something that played in the background of a lot of taco bell commercials. A reference to a movie or game or some such that did not exist.

My mate and I were in a car together. He pulled off to the side and someone was.. following him? Trying to get to him. He drove off and up the rode a bit. Made me get out of the car and kept going. I started following him on foot - almost up a hill till I got to a parking garage. I was distressed that he left and worried about him. As I was walking there was a bunch of other people on foot going the same way. One guy had on roller skates - I think he was one of the ones after my mate. I’m in the parking garage - some sort of gathering of people here. I was naked. Grabbed someone's jacket and then she got upset with me so I gave it back. ((Here I think I became briefly aware of my body due to discomfort in the dream and a light sleep - and I thought going to bed sleep deprived would make me sleep deeper)) I tried to imagine clothes on myself because it was silly that I was feeling insecure. It worked - briefly. Something loose and guy like. Comfy. Then it disappeared. I decided I didn't care and wandered down to the stream (down a hill off to the side of the garage). It was very murky, but I got in anyway. I wanted it clear so I visualized this strongly and it cleared. I was giggling joyfully in my new found powers. I swam around a little - enjoying the feel of the water and the trees all around the river. I swam back to the bank near the garage - all of the dream characters that were in there had come down. Clustered near where I jumped in. Someone was afraid of getting a cd out of a cd player. I held my hand out to it and willed them to open one by one (there were several cd trays in a column). The last was a tape, not a CD. It was supposed to be a message to someone (me). I decided to oblige and listen. Instead of putting it back in the player I made it start playing in my hand and used the center piece that turns the tape to turn the volume up. I had another little tehehe moment of playfulness at making this work. There was nothing I could decipher in what came out. Music and gibberish. ((I had felt this dream slipping in several places and brought it back. I loved the sensation and control and didn't want to let it go. There was no real 'ah hah! I'm dreaming!' moment. It was rather gradual. I was aware within the dream that both the lucidity and the body awareness were due to the light sleep. I pushed the body awareness down to barely noticeable so I wouldn't full myself out that way when I was still playing. I felt in the dream that the message must be important if my dream characters were bringing it to me like this, but I think it just wound up being a way to drag me back under. At this point I had a false awakening and started writing all this down. I then 'went back to sleep'))

Dystopian type world – mega corporations. The milk company wants to make cheese. I (head of the cheese corp) deny them the ability to – don’t want the competition.

My mate and I are having sex – like REALLY good sex. We somehow manage to make it to the bathroom (for a shower?) while still going at it. There was some sort of portal in the bedroom. A new friend of ours is in the living room. There is an altercation between her, a different friend of hers (over the phone), and my mate.

I had to get up pretty early today so i couldn't really do much logging. Here's what i got:

-I joined some Japanese militia and had some dramatic events which i can't remember
-My parents moved into a new house, but i wasn't moving into their house so i was stuck with a larger old house on the same piece of land. After they bought the house, we all had a picnic but these random girls stole my darn seat. I then remember being in the house and it flooding so bad that the whole entire house went under water and i almost drowned. At the end of this one, this guy summoned a soldier to fight for him but he got wounded but i was told to revive him anyway even though he might not live.
-I played some trouble in terrorist town.

First dream I've remembered in a while.

Before I slept I made sure that I drank plenty of water, in hope that it would wake me up through the night for a toilet visit (which worked a treat... multiple times through out the night).

Went to sleep at 10pm, woke up at 2am (didnt remember that dream unfortunately, but dozed back off and had an unusual dream (not lucid), In my dream I was in bed half asleep, I could hear an intruder breaking into my house and they quickly made his/her way upstairs, In my dream I was aware of the intruder but I pretended to be asleep until I could hear them walk back downstairs.

I then decided to give chase, only to realize that I was running in slow motion, for some reason I knew the intruder had stolen my car keys, I finally got to my front door and my car was gone. I don't really remember the rest of what happened, but my car did reappear in the end.

I did have a few more dreams that night but unfortunately lost all memory of them before i could write them down.

07/14/13

Witchblade Epic Fail
I am in a strange place, a city I don't recognize. It looks like the place has been falling apart for some time. I wander through the streets for a bit until I spot someone. I approach him carefully, not sure who he is. When I get close enough I recognize Alex Mercer from Prototype. I don't think much about it being a dream, however. I feel drawn to where Alex came out of. I go into where he came out of, a small area of a collapsed building that is still standing. Inside I find Dana Mercer sitting and staring blankly at a computer monitor.

She doesn't seem to be aware of much that is going on around her. I walk over to her and she is startled by my presence, but then she goes back to he blank stare. I ask her what is wrong, as clearly something is bothering her. She says her brother is dead. I look at her strangely, then I say I'm sure he's not... I just saw him leaving the building. Unless she has more than one brother... She says no, she has one brother... or had one brother is more accurate. She says Alex isn't in there anymore. I find myself falling into my dream role without even realizing consciously that I'm dreaming. I tell her I'm sure he's in there somewhere, someone just has to bring him back. She says he's too sick. I tell her for every sickness there is a healer... and I am a soul healer. I will bring her brother back. She looks over at me, and it looks like there might be some hope in her eyes. She asks if I can really do that. I tell her I have done it before, I will do it again. She says she knows where he is going, he is gathering a lot of the infected there. I tell her I'll be back with him as she knows he should be. She describes how to find Alex and then I leave the building, she follows me. I'm not sure how good an idea that is if the city is crawling with zombies and freaks, but I don't say anything since I haven't seen any zombies or freaks since arriving here. She gives me more detailed directions to find Alex. Soon we arrive in what looks like a large parking lot. There are some wrecked cars around, but it is mostly empty. Alex is in the middle of the parking lot, I'm not sure what he's doing. Dana tells me she isn't sure how he's going to react, but I probably want to keep my distance... and definitely don't let him get a hold on me. I tell her I know perfectly well what he can do, and I am prepared. I touch the Witchblade on my wrist, knowing if I need protection from getting consumed or something the Witchblade will provide it. I head out into the parking lot. Alex seems unaware of my presence until I start the healing song. I use the song Devour by Disturbed. The song is nearing its finale when I get right next to Alex, I want to see his eyes... see if this is doing anything. I faintly hear Dana yelling at me that I'm too close, back away! I ignore her warning and get even closer so I can see his eyes, looking deep into them... I'm sure I see a flame rekindling in there. The song is working fine. Just as it should. I am still looking at that when I feel a sudden sharp pain in my abdomen... I look down and see Alex has formed claws on one hand and stabbed me with them.

He has a weird smile on his face. I sit there and look at the hand that is stabbing me, more surprised than hurt... I feel only a sensation of warmth now... I use a telekinetic force wave to push Alex off of me before continuing to complete the last chorus of the healing song. Alex looks disoriented, Dana comes running over to me and asks if I am ok, then repeats that she told me to keep a safe distance. I tap my Witchblade bracelet and tell it to wake the fuck up, this is one of the rare instances where I call the Witchblade a piece of shit. I notice movement around the edges of the parking lot. Zombies... and lots of them. Without stopping to consider the recent failure I summon up a sword from my Witchblade and it forms a sword and armor immediately. I cut into the advancing zombies to the tune Bodies by Drowning Pool. Let the bodies hit the floor, let the bodies hit the floor! Alex seems to have gotten past being disoriented quickly and is also taking out zombies using claws on both hands. We are able to keep them away from Dana, and it doesn't take long to dispatch the mindless hoard of zombies. Witchblade forms back into a bracelet. I look at the injury in my abdomen, then at Witchblade with a scowl. I tell the bracelet in an annoyed tone that he had arrived late. Alex is looking at me strangely, he says it never works that fast… I tell him that it didn't work fast… it worked exceptionally slow, tapping on my Witchblade as one might tap on a broken watch. Dana is asking again if I am ok. I feel no pain at all, just a slight coldness around the injury. Alex says there's something he needs to make sure I know about that... I feel I am about to wake up. I tell him not to worry about it, that is surely a complete non-issue considering some of the things that have happened to me in the past when defenses had failed for one reason or another. He starts again to say something but I never hear what it is before I wake up.

Crazy-ass mental trip, wherein I would be in the kitchen talking on the webchat, only to open my eyes and be in bed. This happened about 5 times, after only an hour of sleeping.

Will type more as I remember.

Seems to have been triggered by malt liquor, of all things. I know I was drinking Colt 45 the day of that lucid.

first dream:

forgot it right now, hopefully it will come back to me

second: really sexual dream. austin's girlfriend is in his bed with some old mexican dude. i am half asleep and half awake. they check on me--"hey joe, hey joe!" but i'm unconscious or making a good performance that i am. i hear them having sex in the dark; there is some hubbub about a condom and whether or not the older dude will even finish. he's a gangster kind of guy, so he's got his ego. it turns out that he can't, so he leaves in a hurry. austin comes back in. "what a joke," and they finish up. i consider asking if they would be down for a threesome. maybe that would be the best way to go after all.

third dream: i am reading, reading, reading, Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance. I'm about halfway through, always about halfway through. The book is worn and bound into sections with different colored scraps of paper. There's a blue section, a yellow section, a red one, and they get smaller and smaller towards the end of the book. The pages are in roman numerals, and they count towards the highest number in the middle, and go back towards zero in the last half, so the pagination is symmetrical. I'm reading, reading, reading in order to write an essay. The book is the main focus. I might have been at a school before, but now we're in the car. Mrs. Fulgham, my english teacher from high school, is driving; we're on a field trip. She drives and drives in a motherly fashion; we're in a big SUV or something with a lot of students inside. The outside world whirs by peacefully, silently. I figure she is doing this to help us concentrate, and it's working. After a while we get to where we need to be, and she drops us off. Parents are called to come and pick up their kids. But mine are gone. I have left my backpack in camarillo (even though geographically it would be towards the back of Thousand Oaks), so I need to be driven back there or picked up there. Everything is amber and green as the sun sets, but the cars whiz on by on the busy roads. I stop and talk with a few parents and older figures that I know as they pick people up, but I can't get a ride back. I start walking, up on a trail, talking to my mom. She seems drunk. "If you can't come get me, it's fine. I'll just walk to Camarillo." I say this BEGRUDGINGLY. This is the alternative I've been given since nobody is there for me. I hang up.

There are a few other people walking, and I follow them. I think Cassidy from work leads the way on this trail, which weaves down through orchards and nurseries, and goes between and under picket fences in the hills. It's magical in a watership down kind of way; I feel like a little kid running around and exploring. There is danger here, but just the PERFECT amount to make it adventurous. I'm not scared at all. One particularly vivid image is me staring out over one fence, a fork in a the road. On the other side is Simi Valley (again, figuratively but not geographically)--I see the ocean and the greenery of the hill. It looks so peaceful, but to get over the fence I have to make maybe a 12 foot drop into the bushes. The ground is much lower on that side. I think to myself: "This is a leap of faith." !!!

I make my way down and end up going through that path anyways, just in passing. And I keep on, weaving and ducking in between the hills and following these hidden paths through the bushes and trees.

Nothing brought up the first dream. Oh well. I'll save this and come back and edit it if I remember today (I suspect that I will).

I just completed a couple of the Tasks of the Month.

The dream starts and ends fuzzy, but I do remember the lucid part in the middle.

I was at my grandparents' home (This home shows up more than any other home in my dreams. I also dream about my childhood house. But I never ever dream about my current home).

I saw a group of girls standing on the neighbors' driveway. I went up to them. One of them recognized me. And smiled and called me to come join them. At the same time I recognized her as my childhood friend Jenny. I don't remember what happened next, but I was suddenly floating for them. I had wanted to show off my ability.

I think lucidity hit me at this point. But I don't remember how I got in the building that I found myself in next when I decided to do the Tasks.

My first thought was that I needed to find a volcano, but seeing that I was in a building, I decided I needed to do one that didn't require a huge change of scenery. I had to think for a moment. I had only read over the tasks once at the beginning of the month and I hadn't thought about them like I normally do at the time I do a WBTB. Then two popped into my head. I needed to hug someone then punch President Obama.

The building I was in was very large and ornate. There were official people walking around me. I looked to see if I could see Obama, but he was no where to be seen. But I had an idea. I would hug the next guy I saw and after I hugged them they would be transformed into the president.


So I did just that. I ran to a random guy and pulled him to me and hugged him. The guy just stood and let me. When I stepped back, sure enough, there was Pres Obama with a completely blank look on his face. Obviously the hug didn't do anything for him. I wondered if a punch in the face would. I have never punched anyone in the face in real life before, but I figured it couldn't be too hard since this was a dream. So I pulled back my fist a bit and swung it right into his face. I was glad that the impact didn't hurt my fist. I was also a little glad that Obama still had that blank look on his face. But then I heard all the security guys coming. I took off flying. The building as a maze. I couldn't find a way out, and everywhere I turned I saw guys with guns.


I was getting nervous. But I knew I was dreaming, so I should have control. An idea came to me. I would just make myself grow and break out of the building. So I did. I got bigger and as I did I pushed through the walls and made a big mess of the building. I finally stepped out and onto the street. I looked back and was a little horrified to see the beautiful building completely destroyed in one corner.


This is where I must have lost lucidty. Because I remember flying around and meeting with this guy that was supposed to be my dad and we were trying to get away from an alien invasion.


Fragments I remember: Reading a letter he had written that had to do with space ships that could help us escape.

Flying up to a building that had a balcony with a pond on it and me landing by the pond and looking in.

Angel Falls!! Finally on the scoreboard for Task of the Year!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #119: Angel Falls

Wife and I are driving in a car through a field. Somehow, we believe that we're experiencing her brother's future and what will become of his life. The mood is relaxed and exploratory -- we're journeying with of a sense of curiosity rather than concern or foreboding.

I veer off on a path that goes to the left. "Not that way! The zoo is this way!" Wife grabs the wheel and yanks it back so that we're going straight once more. We follow this dirt path for a while before emerging onto a suburban street.

Somehow we're now pushing a big lawnmower rather than driving a car. The left side of the street is taken up by an angry-looking giant while the right side is littered with "doggy clean-up bags" that are filled with poop. Wife thinks that we should steer toward the poop bags and I think we should head for the giant because the poop will be too gross on the lawnmower wheels. We're not sure what to do, and as I examine the situation, I realize that this has to be a dream.

I'm slightly unclear on what happens from here, but I know that I was lucid for a good while, flew, found our 4-year-old son "E", and lost lucidity. Much later I'm walking through a train station with E when I remember how recently I was dreaming and realize that I still am. "[E]", I say, "I'm dreaming."

"That's a lucid dream!" he responds, and hops a little bit.

"That's right, buddy," I tell him. "Come with me outside. Remember that you can do everything that I can do." (I'm speaking to E, but mostly trying to remind myself.) I'm holding E's hand, and together we start flying toward the exit. A few DCs glance at us as we fly, but most ignore us. For no reason in particular, my flight momentum cuts out, but I focus on the street outside, thinking, We're out there now.

Now we're moving through the air again. I hear a DC shout "No!" and a hand grabs my ankle. For a moment this slows us down, but I think Bullshit, we're flying just fine... and right away we're moving perfectly again.

We land outside on a peaceful street scene. It's cobblestoned with no cars, just pedestrians. A river runs through the center of the road, running past the obelisk of a town square on our right, flowing toward a bay that's on our left. We follow the river, which grows broader and flows under a bridge before ultimately joining the bay. I decide that this river is perfect. This is the place where Angel Falls will be.

I turn back toward the distant town square and shout to the crowd: "This is Angel Falls! It's right here at the end of this river." And I unironically add, "Watch meee!"

From behind me I hear the thundering of a massive waterfall. Now when I look back toward the bay, everything looks strange. The original river is standing still, almost like time has stopped. But now there's a second, wilder river running right beside it. The bay has dropped completely out of sight, like we're at the top of a mesa. E and I fly over the calm river toward this new river and I can see it -- the top of an enormous waterfall! This is it!



I land close to the waterfall, realize that I'm no longer holding E's hand, and look for him. I want him to come with me, but I won't wait long. I'm too desperate to complete this task! Fortunately he's just behind me. "[E], hurry!" I tell him. "We're going over this waterfall!" He doesn't hesitate, scurrying up to the waterfall and leaping off in a clumsy-looking froggy posture. I plunge over the side, just behind him.

I'm freefalling now, soaked and yelling with excitement. I'm speeding toward a vast, green valley below me. I make no attempt to control my descent, move, or do anything apart from enjoy the sensation of falling through this curtain of water.

Suddenly I hit a pool of water below and instantly enter the void. I can still feel water all around me and for a moment I think about trying to reemerge. But no -- I did what I wanted to do. Time to wake up.

Dream title: Watching Initial D on my dream

Today i dreamt i was watching Initial D on my dream, Bunta was already desperate
to get a more clear victory against takumi. They went to rematch again.
This time on akina. so the cars are lined up, this time bunta is on impreza
and takumi is on 86. So when they get close to the finish, takumi is just a few centimeters
behind bunta, but bunta still win and bunta tells takumi "You are strong now"


Technique used: MILD
Sleep time: 8 hours



Dream title: Humans the strongest creation

Today i dreamt i was watching some humans near a beach, and they see 2 turtles, there are 2 humans that go swim
so fast after the turtles to eat them, they ate it, now they go swim back to land near the beach where all those humans were.
When they get there a guy says: "see? we are the strongest, we swim fast, we are strong on arms, we can climb high mountains."
But suddenly i think by myself: "Yeah but there is an animal you can't defeat, the lion, the king of all animals." so after i think that some
guy said that to all those humans too. So they decide to climb a little mountain that were near them and met with the lion, the king of all animals.
There were like 10 humans against 1 lion. The humans felt the lion was so strong, they ran away. After a while the humans leader decided to make a reunion.
and said to all the other humans: "If there is only a animal who can defeat lion is the eagle".

Technique used: MILD
Sleep time: 8 hours

Legend: Lucid, Real Life, Non-Lucid, Semi-Lucid

Claire

I wake up in my room and Claire is there, I kept on flirting with her until I kissed her. she completely spazed out and she told me that I was disgusting. I told her that I though she liked me but she said she didn't. She was in my house so my parents were all concerned, I just went back to bed like nothing happened. she was screaming REALLY load and she told her dad about it.

Arm Room:

I was in class and the bell for next period rang, but for some odd reason no body left the classroom and I was the only one that left. upon leaving I realsied that we had detention So i tried to find the class again but it was nowhere to be seen, I went on the first floor and the second floor with no luck, proceeding to the third floor was a hassle. There was a HUGE dog just standing in the middle of the hallway and the owners of the dog wouldn't even tell the dog to move..

Calypso!

I'm lucid, standing in the kitchen of my house thinking about my dream goals. I remember the teleporting was one of them. So I decided to the the door trick an open it to a different location. which, unfortunately, did not work. Some random guy comes up to me and asks me if I want to go to calypso and I say yes, so he brings out a clay version of it and I simply start imaging it to be a real life version. I'm here! I'm here i start screaming (lol). As I go up the stairs go a good ride I'm waiting in line so I start thinking about my other lucid dreaming goals (avatar powers). I force the wind to hit some guy that was operating of the the slides. and he moved a little but as if somebody and punched him slightly hard, the dream starts to fade and I wake up.

So I was watching a horror/thriller film. The story was about a man who murdered his girlfriend. Supposedly he had only done so after cheating on her, then shot her with a bow and arrow multiple times to kill her.
About a month later, this man got contacted by a corporation, and invited to a meeting. When he arrived at their corporate headquarters, he learned that the company was actually run by supernatural beings who looked to make humans better as a species.

He got assigned to work with this woman who was for the company. She looked a bit strange, having curly blonde hair, and wearing a TON of makeup so that she looked like a living doll. The woman explained that the company would somehow work to make this man a better person by killing him over and over, and bringing him back to life.
I got to see the man's deaths like a montage. I can remember him being decapitated, suffocated, stabbed, shot, cut apart by lasers, poisoned, etc. All of the deaths took place in unique locations that were fitting with how the man was actually killed. Somehow, all of these unique looking areas fit inside the corporate office building.
The woman, even though she was "evil" in the fact that she was killing this man over and over, decided that for the last death of the day would be quick and painless. She had the man sit down, and cut his head off with a woodcutters axe in one swing.
After the last death was over, the man was really losing it. He told the woman that this was no fair, because he thought that the woman had never experienced quite how horrible it was to die. The woman acknowledged him and said that she had never experienced death. The man made a deal with her, that he would allow her to kill him one more time. Then, the man would get to kill the woman one time. Then, the man's time at the company would be over. The woman agreed to the deal.
The man willingly drove back to the company the next day. The man asked if for his one death he could have his head cut off with the axe again, because it was quick and painless. The woman told him that they got rid of that death from their company because it was too easy on people.
Instead of an actual death, the man would experience what it was like to be a single-celled organism. In order to do this, they hooked the man up to some kind of VR simulator. As soon as I did, the dream lost track of characters, I was suddenly the man who we have been following in this story.
I got to experience being a single celled organism. It was kind-of like being a big green blob drifting on a wind current. Though uncomfortable, it was not necessarily painful in any way. I ran into some other organisms but I couldn't absorb them or anything.
Eventually the simulation ended, and I was back in my own body (not the body of the man from the story, my own body) and the dream took on a whole new story. Now, I was in this very surreal mountian looking area with a massive waterfall and all of these temples on either side of a large canyon, connected by rope bridges.

Spoiler for A very poorly drawn temple valley:

There were a large group of kids all wearing karate uniforms. I was working with some other adults to give the kids a tour of all the temples. Supposedly all of the kids were martial arts students who were supposed to be uncovering ancient wisdom by exploring the temples.
But I had gotten split from my group. When I found out I was with the wrong group, I looked at my belt (I was wearing a karate uniform too) I was a green belt. That meant I was supposed to be with all the other kids who were green belts.
I could see them way in the distance. They were at the last temple that was on a small rock that was actually an island in the river, just before the river went over the waterfall. I began making my way along the rope bridges to the group, but eventually I came across this small mountain on the side of the gorge.
The mountain was entirely frozen over. It it looked almost like water had erupted out of the top of the mountain like a volcano, then the water had frozen. The ice had formed frozen steps, small pools of water that had frozen.
I tenaciously climbed the mountian, and when I reached the top, I was disappointed to find that the ice had a yin-yang symbol under it. The ice was darker in some spots than others, and it made a yin yang.

Anyways, I had much more difficulty climbing down. I tried to use the ice-steps, but they were very slippery. Eventually I made my way down to a small section of pathway where a couple of the rope bridges met.
Then I noticed the woman from the death company was standing there. She started talking about how nobody should try to escape the death company until their punishment was complete.
"We had a deal!" I exclaimed.
("We" as in her and me, because at some point I had gotten mixed up with the young man from the other story. I'm just as confused as you are. )
Then I realized the woman had played a trick. The specific deal was that she could only kill "me" one more time. But in the amoeba simulation, she hadn't killed me. So that was her trick, she was going to simply torture me and never kill me so that our deal would never go through.
But then I remembered, the story with the woman and the death company was just a movie, and if I wanted it to go away, I just had to stop watching the movie. (Even thought the "movie" was "real life" now.) I began saying to myself that the woman and the death company were not real.
I woke up.

(4 fragments with slight memory failure in the 3rd)

-In the top office of a large office building
-late evening
-Zombies creeping they're way up to the top floor
-I used an outer staircase to make it to the bottom
-Found some a co-worker trapped in her car surrounded by zombies
-sneaked into my car, and rammed the zombies out of her way
-instead of a steering wheel playstation controller (Like men in black 2 )
-picked up another straggler being chased by zombies: balding fellow.

-More zombies deeper in a large city
-Most inner city people hadn't heard about zombies yet
-Big fireworks display viewed from the roof of a shorter building
-"they're on their way here now!!"
-gridlocked streets
-Took refuge inside adjacent building: Tall With big bright red advertising (damn coke's subliminal adds )
-Many estranged children in the building
-A splinter group attempted to escape on the roof
-"Can't leave those kids behind"
- Went back to try to help them
-could hear moans of zombies inside stairwell
- led kids to the top floor and tossed anything large I could find down stairs to block the stairs
-pre-awakening stillness.

-exiting prep assembly reunion
- kids stand gasping at exit
-"what more zombies?"
-"No just sports team here on an away game"
- wanted to leave but couldn't because a fleet of buses were blocking the exit
- wandered around the 'rearranged' halls of the prep
-chilled in the courtyard with my old english classmates and jammed to some dubstep
-teacher said that buses had right of way but I snuck out regardless.

-Spanish salsa parade
-watched from inside car as the floats drove passed
-detached 3rd person view of each float. (or as i like to call it "Ghost cam")
-Women in long red flowing dress dancing atop one of the floats.

in the first dream i was in a kind of forest area with a river (i think)? i was reading a poem that was accompanied by victorian-style engravings. i felt that this poem/drawing was incredibly significant. a sense of nostalgia pervaded this segment.

in the second dream i was on a beach bordered by a forest. it was sunny and bright. i was recording a wildlife video with my phone. i recall swimming in the water while two swans followed me. later i was editing the video to add a title and credits. the graphic design was kind of 70s-esque.

when i had finished recording my boyfriend showed up and i showed him the video. soon we were inside of the video. we were both swimming with the swans when my boyfriend noted two penguins in the water. we were surprised that there were penguins here. these penguins had a large yellow crest and a dolphin-like beak. we decided they were emperor penguins. my boyfriend wanted to go closer but i was afraid they would attack us. i had a vision of large, fanglike spines on their undersides, which were arranged in concentric circles. this prompted me to leave the water and watch them from the edge of the beach.

Dream recall from today's nap. A couple of lucids, ultralow awareness though.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was trying to nap but was getting constantly interrupted in one way or another.

Dream 2:

I was in some modern white skyscraper-style building, there were some anime characters i was talking to and then i was going down the stairs and reached some office-like place. Shortly the building started crumbling, i was going further down the stairs while avoiding holes, then the view switched to third person and i was apparently anime character as well, i was about to exit the building but i noticed child Gaara, just standing on stairs and not moving, i told him to go out but he was ignoring me. I (still in third person)walked back up and tried to move him, but he was like glued statue, i even did ended up doing some quick transformation like huge wing for a second, but all useless. I walked out of building and was back to first person view, i got into some red car and was driving on the road. Then it went back to third person and camera rotated around the car, moving further and further away i realized that i am dreaming but it was kinda 'cutscene mode' and i haven't done much in the end. Shortly dream faded out.
I woke up at home and was immediately distracted by family(As always... That would make stable dream sign but it doesn't happen IWL, so...), there was something about going out of home, i agreed at first but then was like 'nope' and got back home.

Dream 3:

I was in some version of Doom 3(According to dream at least, it didn't looked like Doom 3 at all), in editor mode. I opened level that was one of the endgame ones, which was happening in some tall techno-style dark building. I was noclip flying around looking for boss rooms to check scripts and stuff, i got through some boss rooms and soon i was in some different area, metallic with yellow lighting.I realized that i am dreaming because i had feeling of dream and walked around for some time, navigating through some dark passageways with pipe-like structures in walls and grating, soon dream faded out though.
I woke up and(forgot to RC) was in some restaurant place, alot of stuff was colored white and there were various challenges related to food. I selected one challenge in which i had to bring some food to small cylindric container that sucked in all food that was dropped into it, i filled it halfway through and then i...
Wake up at same restaurant place again, though this time SilentEternity is here... and another SilentEternity... and also another one of myself. We start discussing something and then dream ends.

Alright, so I'm done with my break for the challenge. I celebreated a lot with my friends but now they all went to other countries and stuff.

During the last few days I had a lot of time to think about myself. I realized that I shouldn't fight my 'traits' but rather use everything to my advantage. I also thought about my LD-past a lot to figure out why I'm not a natural anymore (There was a period of about a month where I was a natural with LD's daily).

So last night I got a epiphany. I already wrote it in the IOSDP-thread so I'm gonna copy&paste it:

When I went to bed I thought about this 'less is more' theory. I remembered that there was a time, where I used to have DILDs daily without putting any effort in at all other than doing 'something' for about 10 seconds each night. I had forgotten what this 'something' was, but last night I finally figured it out again: Back then, I experimented with Tulpa and created my own Tulpa. He was supposed to make me lucid in each dream. And for some strange reason it worked! I got lucid every night for a period of about 3-4 weeks. After that I went into an emotional crisis and it stopped working forever. I became a victim of my own self-fulfilling prophecy when my Tulpa told me that he will never ever make me lucid again.
So last night I thought about something...

What if it wasn't the Tulpa itself that made me lucid rather than just me needing 'permission' to become lucid?

And then it all made sense. I've always needed 'permission' for everything I did so far. And almost everybody is like this. The human mind always searches for permission to do something. Everything needs to make sense to keep the order in your mind.
And by giving the responsibility to my Tulpa, I kinda bypassed giving me permission.
In a way, it all makes sense (at least for me lol). Even doing RC's isn't for doing the RC's itself, but for being able to tell yourself that you 'earned' the right to lucid dream. You feel like you need permission.
Somehow even this 30-Day challenge is like this. We are 'earning' ourselves the right to be a natural (at least subconsciously). It all comes from this frame of mind we grew up with that you gotta work to achieve something.

But this isn't the point I'm trying to make here. When I realized this whole 'permission' theory, I tried to analyze myself again. Who am I? How do I act in certain situations? How can I become a natural?
What I found out was (I even made a list of my 'traits' and possible solutions) the following:
I'm almost always just observing my dreams, I get doubts if I think about something too long, I'm really good at visualizing things, I'm lazy and in most of my DILDs, I got lucid through some kind of trigger. I've never really done any RC or became aware just like that. I always needed some kind of 'event' to happen in the dream to get myself to do a RC.

For some odd reason I've never realized this before. The solution seems so simple to me now: Instead of bringing myself to do a RC by saying a stupid mantra, I need to manipulate the dream in a way that makes me do a RC.
And in addition to that I need to: set an alarm or do it before going to bed (lazy), I need to do it for about 5-10 seconds (getting doubts) and I need to create many dream signs that make me lucid, maybe even create a whole dream-scene (visualizing).

I really think that this will work for me. I mean, it's created based on my true personality.
Manipulating the dream...sounds kinda nice to me

Sadly I couldn't try this out last night as I was so tired from not sleeping the night before. I went to bed at 7pm and slept till 6am without waking up a single time.

Here are the dreams I remember from last night:

1st: I was playing Arma 2. I don't remember it in much detail because it was early in the night. Apparently me and a couple of other people had to clear out a hideout of some other players. I had a sniper rifle. That's about all I remember.

Interpretation: Again, Arma 2. Also, if I dream about video games I'll never to ADA as I'm not 'IRL'. At least that's my dream logic. Another reason for me to try out this new theory.

2nd: I will call this dream 'The rollercoaster of doom!'. It's pretty short but when I woke up I found it to be really hilarous even though I was scared to death.
The dream was about some kind of movie. The movie was about a rollercoaster that was possessed by a ghost and it killed every passenger. In the dream I was just observing again. I watched how people got on the rollercoaster and the horror began. The rollercoaster started to drive really fast and then it stopped instantly. Through the force of the sudden stop, some passengers were killed already. It looked like they were cut in half by the iron bars that were supposed to protect them...yummy.
Then the rollercoaster started again and it was now above some kind of sea or lake. At first I thought that people were going to drown (I tried to guess what would happen in the movie as I was just observing it) but then nothing happened to build up tension. Somehow I got really scared just by watching this. Now the rollercoaster was in some kind of huge factory. It was above water again but there was something swimming in the water. I got scared as I guess that this was some kind of creature. The rollercoster turned upside down and all the passengers were right above the water with their heads now. Some old lady was like "Hey, there's somebody swimming in the water!" and tried to reach for this 'thing'. I got extremely scared for no reason and woke up from this 'nightmare' just as something was jumping out of the water. When I woke up I was scared to death for some reason. Then I noticed that this is so hilarous and that I got scared from a rollercoaster...crazy how your mind can fuck with you lol.

Interpretation: I got no idea. Just me watching a movie I guess...the rollercoaster reminded me of a rollercoaster I've been to as a child. And the sea/lake looked like something I've seen in TV a while ago.