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12/02/12

Millennium Puzzle
I am at the home of my ex boyfriend James. His apartment doesn't look like I remember it, but I don't pay much attention to that. I see James sitting on his bed trying to assemble a 3d puzzle. When I get closer I realize it is the Millennium Puzzle off of the YuGiOh anime / manga series. He seems to be having some difficulty with the puzzle, and has become quite frustrated. He is trying to cram a piece into a spot where it clearly doesn’t fit. I ask what he is doing. He says if he can just finish the puzzle then he will have control of the spirit that lives within it. I think that would be extraordinarily bad. I am not sure why, but I don't want that to happen. I look at him trying to cram one of the pieces into place. He finally gets one of the pieces right. I think it won't be much longer before he gets all of the pieces. He resumes trying to force a piece to fit where it doesn't belong. I tell him to quit that, he has it all wrong. He says I shouldn't talk unless I can do better. I say maybe I can. Let me give it a shot. He says he doesn't want me to finish the puzzle. It's his puzzle. I ask how about if I finish it except for one piece. He says I can do that. I tell him I'll take the puzzle home and take care of it. He repeats to leave one piece out of the puzzle so he can finish it. I take the puzzle from the room and get in my car to go home. I realize I have no idea where I am, so I pull over and start working on the puzzle. It is easier than I expected. I finish the puzzle and slide the final piece into place. Now James can't finish it. I wonder if there is any reason I should have refrained from finishing… oh, well. It's too late now. I wonder how I am going to get home when I wake up

I've had 1 lucid dream so far and I'm trying everything I can to have another one.

I went to sleep using DreamZ which is supposed to play a voice recording when I enter REM sleep. It worked okay as the voice recording went off in the middle of a dream, but unfortunately, I began to wake up in the middle of the recording. Even though I failed to stay asleep, I recognized that I was waking up and remembered to stay completely still when I did so that I could try out DEILD. I did a great job of not moving and without a few seconds, I could feel myself go into sleep paralysis.

It was a lot more intense that I expected though. You know the feeling of having a foot wake up from being asleep? Well it felt like that in reverse all over my body (minus the sharp painful sensations that you get when you aggravate a sleep limb). It was combined with a vibration all over my body, and it freaked me the heck out. I tried to stay calm and picture a dream, but I was worried that I was going to be so paralyzed that I couldn't breath. My heart started racing, and the sleep paralysis ended. I tried to breath through a closed nose just to make sure I didn't have a false awakening, but I unfortunately not in a dream.

Later that night (or morning by then...) I was dreaming and saw a bus floating in the sky as if it had driven off a cliff, but in slow motion. I immediately thought, that's weird, I wonder if it's a dream. I tried to breath through a closed nose, and was amazed that I could. It was strange though because part of me felt like I could and part felt like I couldn't. It was like my dream was trying to stick with physics and prevent me from breathing but I could breath anyway. Either way, I knew that this must be what it feels like to try to breath through a closed nose in a dream. Unfortunately, I closed my eyes during this process and when I opened them, I was awake in my bed.

I learned some valuable lessons though, and I got to experience a couple sensations that I had never felt before (sleep paralysis and breathing through a closed nose in a dream).

[Sunday, December 2nd, 2012]
(I'm going to start recording again.)
Me and Alex were walking around at dark somewhere.
Two bright white discs appeared in the sky and began to vaporize the area with razor-like lasers.
Me and Alex ran... and my recollection of the dream stops there.

[fragments scribbled down in the middle of the night]

Waiting for Joker

w/ rocket launcher in sewers
Inside the door he says: [nothing else written]

12-01-12. Last night was an intense night for me, in my dreams. It started out as me tied to a chair in a sort of vomit-green colored room and there was someone else tied to a chair next to me plus two men standing in front of me, one with a ski mask on and the other just a random person. The man with the ski mask was pointing a gun at my head and i was trying to reason with him but nothing was working. Then in the dream i thought to myself "i'd never be able to keep cool in a situation like this" and right after that the man with the ski mask shot me in the face. The first and second bullets i felt go into my face (it stung) and i was still seeing normally as i was getting shot. I could feel the bullets getting lodged into my brain. Then the blood came and got in my eyes making it so that i could not see. after the second bullet hit me i felt a separation from my body and i could see myself fall over dead and i fell to the ground still strapped to the chair. Then i started floating up away from my dead body and i jumped awake. The same dream happened later that night again i just dont remember it as well.

It's been a while since I've had a vivid dream like this one, but that's only part of the reason that this dream was so asonishing. Well, maybe astonishing is not the word, but it certainly surprised me to wake up and realize that it wasn't real.
I really can't remember the plot of this one that well, but there was one main point that really sticks out to me. A girl that I know from school, whom I don't that well, kept insisting on giving me a blowjob. Now, it being a dream, one would assume that I would take her up on her offer, but I wasn't lucid. Instead, I treated it very seriously, since I thought it was all real anyway.
So what did I do? I couldn't really decide what to do, so I kept dodging her, but I was always sure to never completely say 'no.' I was really torn. Part of me really wanted her to do it. Let's face it, I'm horny and that sounded great.
However, another part of me thought that it wasn't that great of an idea. I was surprisingly logical about the situation. I knew that I don't love her, and I didn't really want her to be the one I would lose my virginity to. I also wouldn't want anyone to find out, should we actually do the deed.
By the time I woke up, she never did blow me. Oh well, I guess it's nice to know that I have morals, even in the dream world. It really does make me wonder though. Had I been lucid, would I have taken her up on the offer?

By far, this is one of the strangest dreams I think I've had. I'm 16 and I've only had a playground crush here and there, and never been in a serious relationship with anyone.

I can remember riding on a bus or train or something. There were a bunch of people riding on the bus, all of them seeming like oddly familiar people, I couldn't put names to faces, but I felt like I had known them before.
Then notice that this girl is getting taunted by everyone else. I didn't really say anything to her, but eventually she sat down next to me, the only open seat. And I think we fell in love at this point. I can't really remember the details but we were talking very openly and kissing alot.

I am in a large room, like a warehouse or gym, with a busty Black lady in her late 50's. She's a friend of mine, and is telling me something about the event we are attending. I am led to sit at a table with a tablecloth and centerpiece. A Black man in his 40's with some white in his hair seems to be vaguely hitting on me.
[I]I am confused. What the hell is this? Some kind of speed dating? This guy is obviously deep in the closet, so why? WTF?
Maybe I can help him admit his gayness. Ah, fuck it. That's his own path[/I].

I awake

I made it snow in this LD, but much earlier in the dream than I'd intended! I'd like to try this one again.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #35: The Blizzard

My friend J is showing off the contents of a huge wall safe to me and a couple of other people. The safe is about 5 feet tall and features not only a combination lock but also the dual-key system you usually find in safe deposit boxes. Each shelf is stacked with interesting little boxes. There's something dreamlike about all of this to me and I become lucid.

I ask J, "Have you got anything really cool in there?" He motions for me to move closer. "Oh yeah. Check this out." He hands me a small piece of paper with cursive printing on it. The top of it reads: "Receipt for Money Laundering". This amuses me, but I decide not to get too stuck trying to read the rest of it. The Task of the Month (making it snow) is on my mind now and I head for some automatic doors.

Fortunately, the automatic doors work perfectly well this time (unlike a few dreams back), and I walk through a two sets of them, repeating over and over to myself, "I'm having a lucid dream and I'm going to make it snow."

The next room is a post office filled with dream characters waiting in line. Hell if I'm going to spend a lucid dream hanging around in the post office, so I start running. Still repeating my mantra, I go through another automatic door into a quiet, windowed reception area.

Through the window I see that it's night outside and a fierce blizzard is swirling outside. There's a road outside and the headlights of passing cars illuminate twisting snow eddies. An 18-wheeler roars by and blows its horn for no apparent reason. The snowfall is so thick that the truck disappears quickly after passing.

I try to head for the building's exit, but it's extremely hard to move. Even though I can't feel the cold winds outside, somehow they're affecting things inside the reception area. I lean into "wind" that I can't even feel, trying to push forward outside into the actual blizzard. It occurs to me that I'm trying to get better at flowing with adversity in lucid dreams, especially adversity in the form of wind. My brute force progress is slow, but I make it close to the exit. Before I make it out, though, I wake up.

Dream #1: I was helping my dad build a giant cross bow, i mean this thing was like 20 feet long. He wanted me to hold the entire bottom part up by myself while he connected the string. I couldn't hold it for more than a second because it was heavy. My dad got pissed and started yelling at me and I said he was being a dick and to f**k off. That got him more pissed and he chased after me so I ran into the garage and got a ladder and climbed to the top. I was bouncing on it like a pogo stick and hoped away into the woods.

Dream #2: Me and my friends Tim and Jake were in Walmart just screwing around. I had a bottle of vodka and was hiding it inside the snuggie I was wearing. We were going to someones house to drink it. While we were at the cash register I gave to bottle to Jake for him to look at and he just held it up in the air and was looking at it, but so was everyone else (we're all underage). So I put the shot glass down and took it from him and poured myself a drink. I didn't feel any on the burning sensation like you normally would. So i set the shot glass on the ground and we went outside. Tim and Jake came together And I drove by myself. We didn't have cars but they were like these big wheel wooden things. I remember just bursting out laughing when I saw them. They got in theres' and I got mine, but I remembered I left the Shot glass in Walmart and I wanted to get it so I ran Back in. When I got back outside I got in my car and we were getting ready to leave. They were in front of me so I floored it and slammed into them while making a maniacal laugh. So While the dream was ending we were just slamming into each other with these big ass wooden cars. When I woke up I was literally laughing. That dream was so funny to me.

Dream #3: I haven't played Runescape in years but I dreamed I was playing it, that's all i remember......

I am in a car lot of some sort. All of a sudden the cars come on and head right to me! A big white car comes to me, I jump on it's hood then up and over the car. Then after awhile the scene changes to a reddish, dark, gigantic room. These square stone slabs come alive and float above our heads There were other people in this dream with me.

When they are directly on top of us they then slam down to try and crush us. I make sure this didn't happen. I jumped very high and smash those stone slabs before they get the chance to land on my friends. Once this was over we had to go to space to retrieve the yellow pearl. So somehow we teleport to space but I am the only one there. I am following some sort of path, that looks like its the great wall of china..but in space. As go along this path I am attacked by many enemies. I shoot these bright orbs of light from my hands at them, Certain hand movements I make change how powerful the orbs of light can become. If I tighten my hand into a fist the orb of light starts to glow brightly, then when I quickly expand my hand it becomes even brighter and more powerful than before.

Using my energy manipulation skills, I destroy many enemies at once as I go along this path. I finally make it to the end and I become an observer. The character that I was got the yellow orb. Then a space ship attacks and destroys our ship, now we cannot go back on board. I see a bunch of people on this staircase in the middle of space and they seem stranded.

-DEILD

Only like the second or third lucid where I didnt WILD/ go through vibrations. Just randomly became aware I was dreaming while in my bedroom. (possibly during a false awakening.) I did a nose plug reality check. And grabbed a metal shelf to try to anchor myself in the dream. I walked straight to my front door and hovered down to my lawn. It was very late night, and pouring rain. I started flapping my wings as I usually do to start flying but something awesome happened. I kind of imagined my arms as owl wings. And with each flap I could feel my arms becoming bigger and bigger and more wing like. I then had huge owl wings and I could fly soooo good. I couldnt believe how real it felt to give myself a birds wings. I could feel every raindrop on my feathers and feel all the weird wing muscles contracting and pulling myself up against gravity. It was absolute magic. I landed infront of a neighbors house. Now my wings were gone, and instead I was holding a piece of paper in each hand. The pieces of paper were now my wings haha. they didnt work very good but I managed flap my arms and take off even though I would only be able to go a couple stories high, then I would glide down because the paper didnt make strong enough wings. There was an old asian lady across the street sitting on her balcony. She kept screaming at me in a really bad chinese accent. She was like " how are you flying like that?? thats impossible!!!" And she kept yelling stuff like that at me the whole time I was flying away. Then I came to a random street in the middle of a big city. It was completely deserted and empty. Out of nowhere a whole bunch of people came flying down from the sky/ from behind buildings. They were all holding pieces of paper like me. They were also wearing white and black striped clothes like they just escaped from jail or something. I started flying away from them up to the roof of a nearby building but I woke up.

I wake up in a comfortable position to DEILD so I roll out to enter the dream. I land on my feet. I purposely fall back and close my eyes because I heard this increases lucidity. I reappear in the same dream scape.
I go to the bathroom and I look into the mirror. I see myself as a normal person. I put my hand up to the mirror and try to go through it. I don't go through it but it did felt strange. I push it and it bends a little, like it is made out of some cheap plastic. I then get a pointy object and poke a hole into the mirror. A strange multi colored substance oozes out of the mirror. I dip my finger on it. The substance then started to spread over my finger slowly. I thought it might take over my body or something but didn't get scared.

Even thought the bathroom door is closed a part of it is made out of glass. I see a shadowy figure quickly moved past the bathroom door. I then look out and I see some random guy just staring at me so I come out. I asked "who are you and what do you represent" And I couldn't remember.

He vanishes. Ahead of the bathroom is the living room and I see the window. It was a cloudy morning in this world. I then remembered my goal to practice psi in the dream world. My intention manifested in a book about psi appearing on a nearby table. I am impatient and didn't want to read a book, instead I wanted to summon some sort of master to teach me instead. There was another book on the table about programming in C# but I didn't even pick that up. I tried to summon the master of psi but pretending he's there but I wake up soon after.

It was a very short dream and i only remember this 4 hours after i wake up

We were talking with someone for how i should do my haircut i suggested that i make it short mohawk and he
always said "no man", "nah"

DJ Log: December 2, 2012 – 6:15AM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

I am standing in a garage talking with a couple other guys about car stuff. Suddenly, a couple strikes of lightning flash nearby. A brief moment later, lightning strikes the church steeple across a field behind the garage a few times. After a short pause, the lightning strikes repeatedly for about 10 seconds. It sounds like a machine gun firing as it is striking repeatedly and rapidly. Then, it stops just as quick as it started.

The other guys in the garage don't seem impressed, but I'm a bit wired because that was the some of the wildest lightning I have ever seen. They are just acting like it happens every day. I just roll my eyes and go back to talking about car stuff. One of the guys asks me to help him put on a seat cover. I get in the back seat and he gets in the front. He takes off the head rest and starts to slide a cover over the back of the seat. I pull it down from the back and fasten Velcro straps at the bottom.

Suddenly, lightning begins another rapid sequence of striking. It strikes the smoke coming from a smoke stack on a factory to the side of the garage. I quickly retrieve a small Flip camera, then I turn it on and begin recording. I hold the camera slightly out the window and can see the lightning arc travel from the sky and strike the smoke coming out of the stack. The lightning is striking repeatedly and so fast that it is nearly a constant arc. I can see the name Bondhaus on one of the stacks.

As I hold the camera, some of the lightning strikes closer and hits the power lines beside the garage. I ask the guy in the front seat to wind up the window. He just gives me a funny look then continues to adjust the seat cover, ignoring me and the lightning. Suddenly, lightning strikes the camera. I look at the screen and it is still recording. There is another really bright flash, and I suddenly wake up.