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NOTES: 100, stay put upon awakening (Yuppie's DEILD technique)

1. M's birthday. I wasn't invited. R was there. M said something harsh to me, but I forgot what. I cried and I left. There were allies who accompanied me. Witches.

2. Train station. Hurry. Bike. But it has four wheels, and two are made of spirals lying flat on the floor. It's a bumpy road. Looked for a CR. I need to change. Clean. It was near a restaurant. Barely recognized because the sign on the door is soooo small. I tried to pee on the urinal, but some guy left his stuff there. I told him to take it. I can't see because of a blinding light. There are a lot of people in the comfort room. The color is sickly yellow. I went inside the toilet room. It's hard to lock. On the left room, I heard some noise, and saw two sets of legs underneath. Ignored them. I stod up and I can see people passing by outside. I saw Iv pass by and called his name. He asked "Which Iv?" I thought probably it's not him. I saw No on the right room. I was outside, walking. The church was hiding the MRT or the mall.

Woke up, DEILD, thought of running. I need to hurry. I'm in my hometown. Planning to take a bus to the crossing area. A feeling of "too late."

I am in the back of what I think is a train car. I am surrounded by some other people, who some I actually know, in ripped clothes and bags full of stuff.

A guy to the left of me begins telling us his story on how he got to where he is now. The conversation continued when L tells his story on how he ran away from his parents and has been a nomad ever since.

The dream skips and now we are tryin to get trash into a little blue trash car a bit of ways away. L throws his bag and it hits the car causing it to spin out of control but the driver gives us a thumbs up saying that he was okay.

I meet this guy who calls himself "Chimpertain" I ask him "Is your brother Chimpertainment" I don't remember the answer unfortunately. He tells me he has a job for me. He takes me to this fancy restaurant. Infront of me is a table of rich people. One of them is a rich lady who is complaining about something stupid. Chimpertain says I should memorize the restaurants name. To my left is a sign that has the name of the restaurant. It is an extremely long name and I only remember one part of it. The first part of the name is "Restauranterleria". I see waiters walking around carrying gigantic dishes of food with them. Chimpertain tells me that he was mistaken and there is no job for me so we leave.

We meet this girl who has a weird spray that removes color from anything. I ask her "How long does it last" she says "6 months" I then tell her to spray it in my hair and she does so. I then rub the substance all over my hair and it causes it to grow very long. Now I am in my mothers room and I show her my long hair. I then decide I don't like the long hair so I decide to cut it. I go into the bathroom but it turns out that my hair has returned to normal. I notice nothing is wrong with my face.

I am now at a place I cannot describe but in this place there is a train, not a real train but it's more like a fun ride you can go on. I see many young couples get on the train but I never get on the train, but it was probably because I didn't have a gf with me which somehow prevented me from coming on to the train.

(This one is from last night, bringing my DJ up to date again.)

Awake, Non-lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

I'm in House #4, which is enormous and elaborate and has lots of rooms [far, far more than in real life]. I go into one room that I had been using as an office/storage room, turn on the lights, and wonder why the lights in the ceiling fan don't turn on when I flip the switches, like they always have. [Arrrrrgh! *facepalm* It's been a while. I completely forgot that this was a dream sign until just now, when I was writing about it!] Then I notice that the room has been completely redecorated and filled with all kinds of objects and belongings. Someone has moved into these rooms. That someone has left a note on a rectangular sheet of yellow paper, attached to the wall, and has signed it with her first name, Emily.

While walking through the house, I pass a seating area with couches and a coffee table in an open area of the second floor, on a sort of landing next to the walkway that leads to the other bedrooms.

I'm in a dining area, sitting at a table, eating a meal with my roommate, LB. We talk about how I have this is my last night in the house, and I have to return to my original home.

I go downstairs and walk out of the house, which is now a small cruise ship sitting at a dock. Someone says something like, “If you don't come back, the ship will leave without you.” And I'll be marooned, I think. Well, Long Beach sure is a great place to be marooned in.

I wander off, along the city streets, heading toward the ocean. I find the frontage road that runs along the edge of the beach, and follow it to the next cross-street that leads inland. [The intersection I came to looked a lot like this intersection here, a place I know well from real life, but that intersection is actually in Santa Barbara, not Long Beach. In the dream, this area looked like that intersection, except grayer, more urban, and more built up - more like Long Beach, in other words.]

I turn right and head up that street that leads inland from the ocean. I come to an enchanted-forest-themed park area, where there is a gently-curving path through a forest of tall trees, and little statues and figurines, including one that plays a chipper, pre-recorded message when you touch a marked panel in front of it. The companion I'm with does so, and I turn around and walk back the way I came along the path, annoyed by the recording.

While retracing our steps, my companion and I come to a section of the pathway where there's a little toy train that runs along a ledge, about three feet off the ground, on one side of the footpath. The train consists of a toy engine, a toy caboose, and a whole bunch of random, small objects in between them. Any object placed in the line of objects between the engine and the caboose levitates a few inches above the ledge, and is pulled along as part of the train. The idea is that you're supposed to stand on the objects and ride the train along the ledge. I take my totem out of my pocket and place it on one of the flat objects in the train, and look at it for a moment. However, I then put it back in my pocket, because I don't want my companion to see that I have it. [Again, how did I not realize I was dreaming? Apparently, in my mind, that totem object is associated with the idea “This is a secret - no one else must know you have this” much more strongly than it is with the ideas “This is a symbol of your membership in the lucid dreaming community, a reminder to do reality checks, and a way to do them.” Great. :/ ]

I don't know if DJ is only about Lucid Dreams or all dreams that i have. Sorry for mistakes in English language because it's not my main language. For my first entry i will write about a dream that wasn't lucid and long.

I was dreaming that i was walking on the house roof tops with my friend at night. I was carying a DVD disc. It fell a lot of my hands and every time i picked it up.
We reached a bridge out of books that was connecting 2 roof tops at fifth or sixth floor. My friend started to cross the bridge and i followed him. Then he crossed to otherside the bridge started to collapse. I hitted the ground on the books (usually i wake up after falling).
After falling I didin't seen anything but i heard a train coming in front of me. I opened my eyes *oh gosh* I was laying on rails and the train was driving to my direction. In my mind I was screaming: Wake up! Wake up! And BAM I got hit by a train.

That's one of my favorite dreams because I think that after the fall I ended up dreaming within a dream and I think I almost became lucid in this dream.

I climbed aboard an old steam train, for a tour. I went ahead of the tour, since I knew my way around already. I made it into a race of some sort, where I went from carriage to carriage looking following where I knew the tour would go, being careful that nobody from the tour could ever be quick enough to see me. I now thought of the train as a retired submarine which had been put inland as a tourist attraction. I hopped off, and started running alongside it (it was very long). Since I wanted to run fast, I went on all fours. Realised it was a dream, but was tricked into thinking that if I went fully lucid I would awake, so I gave up lucidity.

Suddenly I was in the back yard of my parents' house, which was actually the art house from my previous dream. Nikolas was with me, and Gordon the dog was there too, by the back fence. Suddenly, Gordon started to vomit profusely, and I quickly took Nikolas inside away from him. We went in by the laundry door, and up the steps.

August 30

A tall building in a city. A skyscraper. I am looking top down. Cars are going up one side in one line, goes to the top, and then goes down the other side of the building. Night.

Travel. Top-down view. A train. Hometown. Mom. San Carlos. Difficult to travel. Have to take two trains.

NOTE: Just ninja's Sub Audio 1 and Reverse day

August 29, 2012

I am in the LRT or MRT. I am checking Facebook. I'm 35th in rank on Facebook. I think it's because I upload a lot of stuff. I see my latest upload of photos. Three were photos of high school classmates. They're not very clear. They look old. Yellowish color. One of the people there is my high school crush, M. In the photos, he doesn't have any pants, but his shirt was long enough and covers his private areas. He was standing on the right side of the photos, and the others, our high school classmates, are on the left side. I think there were at least three others who are fully clothed. I remember a bluish color shirt. They seem to be making fun of him. I feel that he doesn't mind, and also seems to think it's funny.

I am lying face down on the bed. There is something heavy on my upper left back. I am almost lucid as I become aware of the bed. I look and see a guy. Color theme is white. We talk, but topic is blurry. He looks Asian. He lies on his back after a while. He's skinny. His stomach showed. I bite it gently.

I am looking at my face in the mirror. My hair is shorter, and my mustache and short beard are gone. I think it makes me look fat.

NOTE: M did come to mind when I did LaBerge's Guided Reality Test. Focused on high school as well. I also listened to Dream Lotus and Flame Tech, but not immediately before sleep. No candles nor incense.

I only remember two short, not very detailed dreams from last night. Blah.

DREAM #1:

I’m in a train station. I think I’m trying to figure out what train I’m supposed to be on but I can’t figure it out. Or I miss the train. Something along those lines. This isn’t the first time I’ve had a dream about missing a train, being on the wrong train, etc.

DREAM #2:

I’m at a grocery store, and I’m trying to buy my groceries. I’m trying to use my debit card to pay for my groceries, but I find out I don’t have enough money on it. I have a separate ATM card for my savings account, and for some reason I think I can use that to pay, but I can’t. I feel disappointed and realize I’ll have to put back all the groceries I was going to buy.

I don't remember my first dream from last night too well. I remember playing tennis, though.

In the next dream, I was at Earth Camp, and we were playing some weird game outside. One girl accidentally touched some poison ivy (which actually did look exactly the same as IWL), so I instructed her to go inside, not to touch anything with that hand (for the sake of being careful), and go wash her hands thoroughly with soap and water (if you happen to touch poison ivy, you have roughly ten minutes before it gets absorbed into your skin; you can wash it off before then and not get affected at all).

After waking up in the morning, having plenty of time to sleep in, I soon drifted back to sleep. I saw an image of a landscape (on a computer screen, I think) with hills and mountains. I then looked down at the similar landscape beneath it. I switched my attention from one to the other a few times before realizing the bottom one was actually underwater.

Suddenly, I was there, as a mermaid. I looked around. The scene was breathtaking. Off in the distance, I could see the city of Atlantis. It was amazing!

I kind of followed the other mermaids. During the summer, we could swim around in the ocean wherever we pleased. Winter was coming, though, which meant it was time for us to all return to Atlantis.

Now, I wish I'd become lucid by that point, because that part was probably one of the most amazing dreams I've ever had. Once we started heading back to Atlantis, though, it just got weird.

A dolphin started chasing us, trying to eat us. This soon led to what was almost like a game; I was then trying to get the attention of a nearby shark (which seemed to take no interest in me whatsoever), so I could lure it towards the dolphin and get away.

When I finally got past the dolphin (without the help of the shark), it turned into a video game that I was now playing (2D, 32-bit graphics - think GBA game). There were now a TON of enemies I had to avoid. I did good for awhile, but then one of them got me.

Instead of losing a life or getting a game over, there was dialogue explaining that it was all a dream which was now ending. I don't remember specifically what it said, though I do remember the words, "This is a dream. It is time for you to wake up now." Of course, I interpreted this is that part of the game having been a dream in-game, not even thinking that I could have been dreaming, too.

The next part seemed like more than just "waking up", as it transitioned to an entirely different game. I was now playing Spirit Tracks. I was in Aboda Village, which, for some reason, was in the northwestern corner of the Forest Realm. I only had the engine of the Spirit Train, so I had to go find and collect the other three train cars. Fortunately, they were pretty easy to find; I just had to head east and go in a straight line.

After finding all the train cars, I decided to stop at the nearest station, which happened to be at Castle Town. Unlike Aboda Village, Castle Town was in roughly the correct place. There was a woman there who wanted me to take her somewhere new. That was the last thing I remember before waking up.

I looked at the clock and saw that only around five or ten minutes had passed. This was kind of surprising, as that dream felt like it was AT LEAST a solid half-hour.

I drifted off to sleep again and had a dream in which I was looking at questions on a math exam I had to take. It seemed really easy. I don't remember the questions now, though, except for one: "Count to your favourite number."

After waking up from that and going back to sleep yet again, I had another dream about playing Spirit Tracks. This time, I went to a house that supposedly had no one living there; there were supposedly just cats and puppets. Except... there actually was someone there. He was an Arabic man with a French accent. He asked me various odd questions about someone I'd apparently taken to the Tower of Spirits.

Suddenly, I'd somehow activated some multiplayer feature, which brought up a list of nearby players. The list was ridiculously long - surely there weren't THAT many people playing the SAME game right now, and in wireless range! Well, apparently, there were.

That's when I suddenly remembered two important things. One, I wasn't supposed to be playing any video games, since it was morning and I hadn't become lucid that night (part of my reward system for LDing), and, two, I should type up my latest DJ entry before doing anything fun. With the intention of updating my dream journal, I shut off the game, causing me to abruptly wake up.

8:14 a.m.

1: underwater zoo. Everything's wet. Slide. Animals. Marine life. Friends. Felt homely. "Leave my love alone." Dark. Afternoon.

2: A train station. Dark. Abandoned train station. Walking. A train is about to pass. Crossed. There's another train on the other side. A friend fell. Thought he was stuck. He was not. Relieved. He shouted RUN. We did, but why? He said go upstairs. Why? Won't we be trapped there? Why not down? There seems to be light outside. Upstairs. Dark. There were dolls. Or hanged people. Decoration. Torture chamber? Parallel. I stayed behind. The two went up. The train's light disintegrates flesh. I'm a robot. I am fine. The people in the train asked me what my program was. Stay at home. Look for job. The two upstairs watched from the dark. They're safe.

10:08 a.m.

A fight. Battle. Magic? A river. Time travel. Stood on the river facing my "enemy." I stretched my hands to the side, along or parallel to the river and used magic. Change. It dried up. Turned into modern. A railroad. I jumped off just as the train arrived.

A house. Going around. Raining. Gray tones. The prospect arrived together with someone else. Was gonna do STP but distracted. Writing a story? Marie.

I had a dream last night that my friend Lizz and I were listening to Zelda songs (from the game soundtracks) on my iPod. I was trying to guess the songs, I think. Also, I think we were on a train for some reason. Anyway, one song came on, and I said, "You can skip this; it's from a cutscene." The song was The Revival's Completion from the Spirit Tracks OST (i.e., the part where Malladus is revived). I looked at the iPod and realized that it wasn't anything from Spirit Tracks; it was music from the new Zelda game (not Skyward Sword; it was a Wii remake of the original).

lots of fragments and, apparently, an allegory for the eternal conflict between metal and dubstep/rap/hippetyhop, and all that crap. (I'm accepting of other people's music tastes, but my subconscious, it would seem, isn't.)

***FRAGMENT***

I'm on a rollercoaster, which is initially very tame, and a woman sitting next to me complains that it isn't very exciting. It then speeds up a bit and gets a bit bumpy- hse says that it's a bit better, but not really what she came here for. It then goes extremely fast up a completely vertical incline, before going upside-down, corkscrewing, and generally being the most intense rollercoaster ever. The woman screams and shouts that she didn't want THAT much excitement.

***END***


***FRAGMENT***

I'm riding in a train, and it suddenly stops. Looking out, I can see that there is a fallen tree on the track ahead of us. I get out to help the driver move it, but it's extremely light, and the driver just throws it aside.

***END***


*****MAIN DREAM*****

I'm in a classroom with about 9 or 10 other people. The teacher is playing metal while he teaches- I recognised the band as epica, but recognised none of the songs. A different teacher walks in, complains, and forces us to listen to dubstep and rap. Our teacher shouts for a bit, and punches the dubstep teacher.
He then gets taken to court, and the class is there as his defence. Things get a bit heated, and the judge tells our teacher to watch his language, but rules that all charges should be dropped because the metal teacher was defending real music from the tyranny of rap.

We're then back in the classroom, but the metal teacher isn't there. The dubstep teacher walks in and goes crazy, screaming about "bloodstained t-shirts". He claws at people, and starts trying to rip a girl's blazer off, before the rest of the class, including myself, drag him off, beat him senseless, and bundled him out of the window, where he promptly disappeared. Our teacher then enters, telling us to enjoy our holidays, stay safe, and be wary, for the enemies of metal are everywhere.

*****END*****

Now, I know for a fact that there's a lot more to this dream- and I think the train fragment and the main dream are part of the same dream- but I can't remember anything else clearly enough to mention. I know that some of us stayed on after the class, as there was some extra-curricular project to do over the holiday, and we went out somewhere. There was an email involved at some point. Unfortunately that's all I have, but there was definitely quite a long story being played out.

Also, it's odd that for two nights running my dreams have included something school-related, given that I finished school almost 4 years ago. The first night only included some people I knew from highschool, and this dream included a school as a central theme, but no-one I recognised. Co-incidence or dreamsign?

So, past 2 days have been thinking on the ADA, all day awareness.

First dream
Started with me n my bf just chilling in our room, n.... he started fapping me XD with the door wide open as usual. I told him to stop because i got paranoid his parents might walk back.... n just after I told him to stop, his dad calls him, n steps infront of the door. I guess he got some huge dog or something... XD I just remember (well among a few other things I won't mention XD).... the dog was standing up like the whole time.

This dream went to one of this city or something.... one from aprevious dream. This kind of town on the ocean with waterways inbetween houses/buildings. I remember once I got to the start of the area (area i remember from before) I started floating n started flying around the town. I came upon this black guy (dun rarely see people, let alone of other races :/ ) , n started asking him about these crazy murlock lookin things. He told me how they fought one another n stuff. I can remember looking down n seeing a large fish floating in the water, dead. After he was done talking I took to my floating again for a moment until, I stopped at one end of the city, there was this big tower with a monorail going across the sea. As I got in, my mind reminded me of this hate article on the dangers of rollar coasters... cause when I went to sit in the thing... there was this huge woman sitting in the back.... which made me wonder if I was gonna get crushed when the ride slowed n what not XD.

That ende dup not being the case, on top it was train like, riding on a rail, with a platform undereath the rail, so it felt somewhat safe despite the height. All I can remember is it picked up speed, and was just heading in a downward slope faster and faster.....

Then I was at some recreational center, with polls n stuff, I remember that I was there trying to get my medical card. When the elderly woman was done doing some shit with me I cannot recall, some kind of evaluation, she told me the charge for that day (200$ O.o wtf? for an evaluation n day at the center?) I asked for the year n she said 7000$.... I pretty much said that wasn't gonna be possible to which I looked off to the side disappointed, she then pretty much said i wasn't going to be able to get my card. Need-less to say, I got upset, I was to pay 200$ for the day and wasn't gonna get my card.... I pretty much blew up on her in tears, pretty much explained my week n then said "ya know... fuck you, you don't give a fuck, you just want my money yadda yadda yadda" n went outside... I eventually thought fuck it.... n went inside n sat down just being my sad tear-stained face self ya know.... hoping she'd come to me n tell me that she was sorry and would take care of me.

This dream faded like my dreams generally do. I was with my cousin at my grandma's house and I guess some place we'd burgled in some dream i'm trying to recall, the people were on to us from. I just remember a few moments of being outside in the snow with him talking about it (he strangely had shoulder-length hair), we were back inside n I was dreading about it n such. At one point I was back where we were talking outside.

It wasn't a snowy field anymore, now it was hill, to which I started riding down.... not on a snowboard, but in a snowboard like fasion, i remember hoping up, n using one of they fly-suits like they have in SSX n landing at the bottom. At the bottom there was a bunch of people waiting, some having already finished, that dream became the next with me at a gamestop, same people in the same positions, just the environment having changed.... I looked at a few games.... like this one with marvel super heroes on it, with like Goku and Vegito in the backround smiling, like it was a mix up bash kind of game. After that.... I woke up n just had to get up.

Having finally had plenty of time to rest I was able to get some major dreaming in, and i'm rather impressed by the general intensity it kept and for how long.

Of all of it, I liked going back to that town, gonna try to think on it some more.... it was rather beautiful.