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This happened to me this night, it was pretty special. That morning I felt a bit weird, unsurprisingly enough. I wonder if I was at the verge of some "good" sleep state. Here goes:

I was sitting at a table in a restaurant (I think), outside together with some other people, don't remember who they were. A woman performing tricks or something (you know, the kind of type that walks up to tables and tries to sell stuff) sold/did something for some of the others. She then came and asked if I wanted to. I'm not sure if I hesitated at first, but then she said that the only thing I had to do in return was to look her in the eyes.

I think she had curly, long hair and freckles in her face. Anyway.. The moment we looked in each other's eyes, her eyes turned black and I got this extreme sensation.. if I could describe it it would be like a huge amount of energy went through your entire body, continuously. I knew that I wanted it, although it was a bit uncontrollable. I was jerked out of sleep (my upper body was jumping up), but the feeling was still not gone, only subsiding. I tried going back to sleep and cultivate the sensation. I managed to increase it a bit once or twice but in the end it got away.

I've experienced that sensation once or twice before, but don't remember when. My question is; could this have been the beginning of an astral projection or something similar? If so, how can I best control it once it's starting?

i've always wanted to go to new york, so this dream as me having mixed emotions. and on top of that, it was clear i was with a man. i can't recall who it was, but it felt like i've known him before. and he was nice to me. he made me laugh and vice versa. he drove and i was in the passenger seat. he waited and didn't say anything when i put on my shoes in the car. it's weird because the shoes i were putting on, actually hurt my feet in real life. (i wore them to a job interview, and by the end of it, my feet were aching), but in my dream. they fit perfectly. and i even asked myself why don't they hurt? we walked side by side, and dropped people off at their destination. this is a dream, so new york was literally across a few streets, bodied by a little water. i screamed joy when i saw the statue of liberty, and even pointed to show him. he didn't get mad. he didn't yell. he followed where my finger was pointing and laughed at my enthusiasm. he loved me, and i loved him too. this was for certain. we parked, and walked around new york streets. i saw a fire truck, with new york firemen perched outside of it, and i told him "i wanna take a picture", and i took out my cell and snapped a few shots. we walked up a few hills. the street signs were similiar to the ones around my neighborhood in los angeles; and i was excited to go back home and tell my grandma about it. prior to that, we were inside a cupcake shop, waiting for something. we were standing around waiting for something. i'm not sure what it was. we were just there.

but, i awoke about a few minutes ago, and i feel a certain way. at one point, i started to cry because i didn't know who the man was. if it was 2 of my exes that i'm in contact with, or just a random, great guy that happens to like me. i know for sure in my dream i wasn't big. my weight was just correct. i have so many answers, but i don't know where to start.

I took a little more melatonin last night and it blew me away. I had up to 6 lucid dreams. I can't remember them all 100% but i do remember alot from each one. There was too much for me to remember. I wish i wbtb so i could write them down after each one, but they were back to back to back.

Interesting note though, in my lucid dreams, i was in a dream. So a dream in a dream. Every once and a while i'd wake up and see i was hanging out with people, do a nose rc and say hey im lucid. Mess around. Wake up with friends. Do nose RC. Hey im lucid yay.

I tried two things during these dreams that were trying to be beneficial. I tried flying to the moon which didn't work again. I flew into space but i couldn't get on the surface of the moon. When i got close the moon shrank into the size of a basketball.

The other thing i tried was time dilation. I tried envisioning a clock and adding numbers to it. But it didn't work. Then i tried the one where there is a D and a A and D=dreaming and A=awake, but it didn't help either. Although it could have helped me overall with the length of all the dreams. So maybe it did help.

A funny note, i saw a couple of dvd cases in my room in one of my dreams. One of them was kickass special edition. Another one said like more tities and women. I love reading movies and watching tv in dreams.

Last week on a date I saw Inception, it was okay. Apart from the fact that is massacres all of the standardized dream lore, and ends in a way that screen writing 101 states never to end a movie... But here is the dream:

I was in a large theater, similar to where the actors and director were interviewed about the film, for those who happened to see some of the promo stuff. I was actually cast in the "movie" Inception. I was extremely excited to be in my first movie, and have it be about dreaming... I remember thinking, "they cut my part down to a small speaking role near the end, but at least I made it into a feature film!"

At some point I had the thought, but how can I be in a movie that is already out? I must be in the sequel is what! (A dream about being in a movie that is in a dream.)

I only have time to record this one dream, but it was amazing, at least in feel.

I've woken up during the transition from one dream to another, slightly anyway. I transition straight into this attic which has a ladder that I am climbing. I'm lucid. The feeling is unbelievable, and not even the lucid part. I feel like I am standing there, and it's real life with a surreal touch. I can smell, feel, touch, and see everything so clearly. It is as if I am ACTUALLY standing there. I have experienced but once before in my dreams. It's unbelievable, as if my body has literally been transported to another world during the night. As I climb the ladder, slowly, I open the door that is on the ceiling. As I do so, sunlight streams in and I fly right up into the sky. I soar above the lands that lie below, and euphoria encompasses me. The realization that I am once again in my dream from a month ago or so hits me. I am amazed that i was able to tap into this feeling and world again. It is the actual continuation of that dream. There is golden sand scattered next to a gleaming, deep azure ocean. There is a castle fortress along with other buildings of a medieval appearance. The most amazing thing is that despite being far into this sky, hovering, I can see every detail of the land below. Off to the side there is a dark section of this land, where presumably the villain lives. She is actually female this time around, and I can feel her presence. But along with hers I can also feel Martinez's, who is trapped along with other people in one of the buildings. I don't see him, but his face flashes in my mind.. I need to get rid of the evil. The dream transitions..

I'm on a bus with a group of students who posses magic, it seems. Or at least they are going off to magic school. I'm sitting next to an older teenage guy, although I don't feel like myself. I'm in someone else's body with their mind. I'm telepathic, and I discover that the guy next to me is as well. I say something to him from my mind, and his face displays shock as he discovers.. It's strangely beautiful, talking to someone simply from one's mind. I share with him my plans about catching the villainness. He agrees to go with me to fight. We escape the bus..and I cannot remember much more save for the fact that I am starring in a novel.

These dreams were dreams of firsts. First time tapping into the same dream from a previous night. Unbelievable.

Me and some other randoms were in a forest place that was rather cliffy and had some kind of canyon. Some savage-ish kids appeared and started to throw rocks on us. They threw quite big ones so dodging was easy since they threw slow. I tried to throw back some fist-sized rocks but somehow I couldn't throw right in a very dream like manner.

We started to run away instead along the canyon which was now a forest stream. I ran through it since I had rubber shoes. I stopped and saw a Physarum Polycephalum (lol) on a mossy branch and I thought "Awesome! Too bad I don't have time for this now... :/" and then I kept running.

After a while we arrived in a place which I can't say if it was outside or inside in a large storage thingy. There was a cliff in there at least. I noticed how the surface of the cliff was loose in a huge chunk. I realised that it could be nice minerals behind it so I bent it over, exposing what was hidden behind. I found like five or six different crystal pieces.

[Now there was a small memory loss but I think the next section still was a part of the same dream somehow]

The place we were at was now a skiing place with tall hills you could ski down from outside. Fred was there. Somehow during a short part of this section I had a discussion with kim on irc while the other stuff happened. I don't recall about what. I was wearing skis and I went out to go down one of those hills and I think I did. Don't remember much of it though. Then we all decided that we wanted to buy some food, so we went to a food store. It was snowy outside.

In the store I was suddenly wearing ice skates. At the checkout, the checkout girl said "Sorry, you aren't allowed to wear those in here" or something. I excused myself and she said that I had to help in the store because of it. She showed me to the shelf were they sold batteries and I was instructed to tidy it up. I said that I know how it is done because I had worked in a store before. I started to line up the batteries nicely on the shelf and removed some empty boxes. Then I saw some half-rotten fries with dressing in the corner of the shelf. I thought "wtf" and started to take pieces of it and throw it away in a garbage can. Under the fries there was salad and some burger.

When I had dug below the fast food, there was some other stuff. I only recall that there was a red deformed potato and a piece of ginger both wrapped in plastic. I continued throwing the stuff away until I saw some human teeth below the stuff. I was disgusted by it and noticed how the teeth was stuck in some strings in a circle or something and in the middle of the circle was two voodoo dolls that someone had hid there below all that stuff.

I was a bit creeped out by it and I didn't want to touch them. The other people who I was with poked them in the face and they were slimy. We discussed a while about them. Then strange things started to happen because they touched them. Some strange nick joined the irc and posted some threatening stuff related to the dolls. I don't know if much else strange than that happened, lol but everything had a "strange things are happening" feeling to it. Fred wanted to go home so he went to get the car (he can't drive irl). I told him I wanted to get a ride home. When following his progress on a map we could see that he got lost.

I think I woke up at this point. It was not a nightmare, but it had a creepy feel to it.

24-08-10 Gonna start from the end, as the beginning seems very blurry, much of the dream could have transpired during my snoozes that happened over an hour. I am talking to Sam about something, the woman from before is interrupting in what might be Norwegian, I seem to understand some of it, but although it sounds strange and makes me a bit suspicions, I write it off as wishful thinking. People are exiting the bus, I am waiting behind as I need to get to the top floor to get my backpack. As we are coming to and end of the journey I continue my conversation with some of the younger guys, I explain how awesome the train policy in Germany is regarding group tickets (missed the train sign), some of the younger guys have asked Sam (a younger Sam Winchester, only in resemblance, residue) if they are really going to Amsterdam. We recently got to Holland and as this comes to my mind, I say it it sounds interesting. This conversation is happening on the top of the pier, a pier I have come to like over the past few days, there are 4 or 5 of us now present. “Sam”, his best friend the younger guys and the outsider, namely me. I am still in awe about what Sam and his friend have just done, the reason we are now sitting atop the pier, that rises very high above the surface of the water. The journey back up to the pier starts in the ocean, I wonder why Sam's friend doesn't swim as it will be quicker, but he seems to prefer walking on water. As I come to the flight of stairs I notice a lot of silver worms in the sand (Residue, you guys should have seen the size of the creatures I saw at work yesterday) I quickly head to the top and await the others. I quickly swim over to Sam's friend and tell him what they just was insane and amazing. They placed themselves in the top of a box stacked upon another, and tilted this from the top of the pier into the sea. Funny enough the boxes actually don't just fall down, but slam into the side of the pier sling shooting Sam and his friend under it, but I somehow know that this is what they intended and both come out OK. Think this is where I first saw the woman who spoke in Norwegian, short blonde girl with a slim face and very very long hair, not all smooth, which sort of goes with the crowd we are hanging out with.
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Oh and here is what I remember from my second dream ! I wake up, I know I have to go to work tomorrow and I know I am only in my first REM stage, I am really tired so I quickly find a post-it block and jog down a few bullets from my first dream, wow that was quite short but amazing. I might as well try to WILD, as I might have to leave the minute my alarm goes off, I lye down, focus on my breath with the intention of going to sleep, I use my breath checking on a lower frequency than before, as I recall how aware and awake I can become if I focus on it too much... I soon drift off and go to sleep...

Date: Aug.23
Time: 10:40am (when I woke up)

Description: This was my first lucid dream that I retained lucidity, and second one total. It starts as a false awakening from a really weird dream that is an adventure in it's own right.

Dream: Immediately after I lost "dream consciousness" in my non lucid dream before this, I see an image of a long doorknob that looks like an I on it's side. It spins really fast as the image appears closer to me, think of the cliche newspaper articles you see spin onto movie screens. The spinning stops and I now look around my room, well it's my childhood room, I immediately become aware of the possibility of another lucid dream. I getup from beneath the blankets I am in, and roll off the bed, landing on my feet I head towards the door and open it. I have the same feeling as my first dream of a different gravity almost. It really feels strange. I walk into my hall and head right towards the living room. I notice Christmas decorations (the ones from when I was a kid.) and look at my living room. I see the T.V. entertainment center with little dolls on top, and decorated lights around it. That is straight ahead of me. Now where I am standing the kitchen is to my left, the door leading outside is to my right about 6 feet. And a couch-side table is 3 to 4 feet in front of me. I see my mother sitting in her usual spot (still hasn't changed lol). A t.v dinner tray in front of her but it is early in the morning she uses it to have items she needs in front of her. The couch-side table is about 1-2 feet high off the ground, the couch is a long green couch. And at the end of the couch to the right is the entertainment center. My mom says "Good you are up, sleeping in will ruin your sleeping schedule." I look at the room and see the clock we have, it looks like a very shorty version of the grandfather clock, it hangs on the wall its brown, has the pendulum swinging thing, the whole thing isn't more than 2 feet tall, but I notice it's position is moved from where it normally is. I look at this already lucid, and see its round face with the numbers is completely pitch black! like its a dark void. I feel the need to do a reality check as this is all to real, my mom hands me the phone to check something, as she normally does in real life, and I use it to do a RC, I can't read the menus or anything. This confirms what I already knew, I was dreaming. I don't get excited and remain calm, to keep the flow of the dream going. I now notice that I am not wearing anything but my shorts (what I usually wear to bed). I tell my mom "Mom, right now I am dreaming, you aren't really there, its just my subconscious representing you!" She didn't believe me (I read dream characters can't be convinced that your dreaming lol) "Your right sweetie!" she says not paying much attention to me, kind of blowing me off. "I still love you though mom." And give her a quick hug. Now the first thing on my mind is to be able to fly, so I head for the door. I open it up, and leave the house. Outside everything is covered in snow, the cement side walk though is all shoveled and the ground seems dry (the cement parts) but the grass is completely covered in snow. I notice an ice patch on the side walk. I run on to the grass and jump up. I fall normally back to earth, disappointed I wonder why, then it dawned on me,I must believe I can fly. So I close my eyes and really think that I can, I start levitating above the ground. Slowly rising. I start noticing other houses covered in snow, i feel the wind blow, but don't feel any cold. As I climb higher and higher I can finally see the neighborhood block. Everything is so real and I start getting butterflies because of the height, but quickly dispel any negative thoughts about my confidence of flight. Now I am way past the tops of the trees around my house and looking around at all the two story houses covered in snow around me. I suddenly stop rising to enjoy the view, I turn around and wonder where to go.......when suddenly I lose "dream consciousness" and I wake up for real, in my bed. I lay there for a minute or two just thinking of what I accomplished. It was a remarkable experience. Actually being there, not just remember it like any other dream, but actually being there, like waiting in line for the dragster at Cedar Point, I was really there, and it was the same for this dream, I was really there, but not at the same time. I can't wait for greater and longer adventures within the realm of my mind.

23.08.2010

Lots o' fragments (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Really bad night. I can wait to finally become stable again with my business. Just fragments from various dreams:

- Sunny.
- Pizzeria.
- Assigning jobs.
- Cutting the pizza.
- Computers.
- Birthday.
- Several DC.
- Dragon Ball
- Goku and Vegeta.
- Picnic.
- Several scenery changes.
- Feeling good.

Missed dream signs:
- Unknown.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Unknown.

The last night I had one of those dreams where you can´t really separate dream/awake even though you most definitly ARE awake. In the dream world I was sitting on a bench waiting for my bus to go home from the city. Right next to me are the children of my dearest friend M.H. She´s not directly visible, but her children really interacts with me. We talk about some strange twig or a drawing they´ve made. Anyhow we find out that we have something in common that I didn't know before.

And here comes the weirdness; During parts of this dream I actually believe that these children and their mother are in my room next to my bed...and that my room in fact is this bus stop! They sort of mix and in my tired head I can't really distinguish between these. So occassionally I actually sit up in my bed looking for the kids in my room, embarassed that I don't have any clothes on me!

The above phenomenon happens a couple of times/month...this time it was during full moon, but I don't know if there´s any connection??

Date: Aug.22/23 Sunday
Time: around 8:40 am

Description: To start off I want to explain something. I had this as my very 1st lucid dream to date that I can remember. I had another more lucid one right after this with more details and events and more control, but I will post that at a future time. Most of this is straight out of my dream journal by my bed. I also apologize if it doesn't seem like there weren't many details, the dream really only lasted about 1 minute.

Dream: The dream starts off with me looking at a stack of ps3 games and on top of them are ps2 games, I can't remember any of the titles but I think the very top ps2 game was NHL 2003. As I look at the stack I rotate them to see their spines. The games are sitting on my wooden brown desk at the center. I am sitting on my knees on the ground, and I notice my nephew on my computer struggling to play the ps2 games (pcsx2 for anyone that knows the program). So I tell him to move over so I can go to set it up. He gives me this look of frustration as he looks at the clock in my room, which I think (he never tells me, but I assume) that he has to go soon, that him and his dad are leaving. I tell him "Chill dude, it takes an hour to setup anyways." As I look at the screen and see some text, the text onscreen seem to shift and shake (that could of been my eyes, kind of like the shaky vision you get from drinking to much alcohol) and strange runic symbols appear. At that precise moment I yell out "HOLY CRAP, I AM DREAMING!" My stomach goes to butterflies and I get really excited. I fall backwards, and the scene starts to zoom out, I get the feeling you get when going down hills on a roller coaster, and now I am in a black void so to speak, I instantly remember the spinning technique that Laberge created. To re stabilize the dream, it works for a moment as I zoom back into the dream, I notice someone was sitting to my right, the lights were off and the glow of the computer screen was the only light source, I don't know who this third person was, my suspect is my nephews younger brother. I don't know. Now I zoom back out as soon as I touch down in the scene again but I kinda of lose consciousness so to speak. Now I imagine myself spinning, now a new seen appears where I am high above a city with lots of buildings, they all have a purple glow about them, I can tell it is night time, cause I see the windows have lights coming from out them. I am above the city, but again lose consciousness again (I mean everything turns pitch black) and I shoot out of my real bed, it takes me a moment to collect myself as this was the most intense thing of my life.

Other details: One extra detail I need to say, is once I went lucid, the feeling of being there was so real, except for it feeling like my body was kind of heavy or light, gravity on me seemed way different.

So there it is, I hope you guys have comments, I am interested in what you have to say about the experience, and it was an experience cause I really was there, it wasn't a memory of a dream, I was there!

Taken straight from my workbook! I had a weird night, I had flashlight troubles and had to replace my flashlight with a new one from the closet...
Without further ado, here was my dream that I recorded:

My dad and I went to the eye doctor. I was very frustrated that we went, Because I hate eye doctors and that whole business and hate having glasses. My dad and I were picking out frames just like the day before. I stopped being able to control myself and stormed off. I saw myself third person walking on a balcony flight of stairs that you would see in a typical building in Kiev. We went home but not by my dad's jeep. By train. As we climbed on top of the train, I looked at a map of a Wisconsin park. It was a big park with a lake in it and a bridge across the lake in the form of an obtuse angle. The first part of it was straight bridge. The second part was a very intricate web of different polyhedrons and through the center were the tracks. The map showed different points around the park, mostly angle vertices of angles found in the park, such as the one on the bridge and the angle that the shore made with itself as it went around the lake. It also showed angle measurements and distances from random points around the park. Then, as I looked up from the map, I saw myself in third person again, sitting atop my train with many other people. I also noticed that there were now three tracks side by side and two more trains pulled up beside us. It was a train race. The train on the left went over the land and grass and the two trains on the right (including mine) went over the bridges and along roads. It was a longer course but it was paved. The offroad course was very short but dangerous. All our rails disappeared. The race started. Our trains went really fast and the two right ones went onto the bridges. The view switched to third person. I remember feeling that this was very fun and exciting. The offroad train tipped, fell on its side, and then vanished. The other train lost its acceleration somehow on the bridge and the caboose unhinged and stopped as the rest of the train sped on. The scenery changed to a western spot and suddenly that train appeared on my left. I saw people from that train jump off, and start pushing the train from behind and very fast. They kept up with our fast train. I had a button that made our caboose go really fast, like a turbo. I pressed it. After a while, we were still tied (with the people still running) so we called it a tie and stopped the race. All the people became mice. Our train stopped at my school. I saw myself in third person once again walking with a few friends from swimming. They don't go to my school. Then, the scenery changed to a hotel. One of thee girls had gossip about what another one of my swimmer friends did at work that was bad. I wanted really badly to know it but she wouldn't tell me. The two girls entered their room. Us three guys entered our room that was opposite theirrs. The hallway was covered in golden paint and other shades of gold and red. It was beautiful.

Missed things:
Going to eye doctor and doing things there (I had just done the same yesterday)
The Kiev style stair thing.
Go home by train
3 track side by side, train race
No train tracks
Scenery shift to Wisconsin from Ukraine
Weird map
Awesome bridge
Fallen train disappearing
Scenery change to Wild West
People pushing train very fast
Button for caboose turbo
Mice people
School turn into hotel
Swim people in my school (they go to a different school)

It is the first day of school. I look into the music room to see if it is my first class. I see Nevin inside but I'm still not convinced that it is the band class. As I walk a bit further down the hallway I see Robert getting out a trombone.
"Robert playing an instrument? What the hell?"
"Fuck off."
I start heading back to the music room because I know it is my class, and on the way I meet Maya.
All of a sudden me, her, and some other person are walking down Trajan's road to my house. Maya looks different and has a different personality, but I still know it's her. When we get to my door she doesn't want to go inside. The other person heads up into my room. I convince her to come inside and then I sit down with my parents to eat dinner (something with pre-grated cheese on it). Maya is acting really strange and goes behind the counter and stands behind my mom while we talk and eat.
There is a volunteer night for sailing but everybody's invited, so me and Maya head down to the basement to pick out some alcohol. We find some Jack Daniel's on the shelf but I notice that there is ice in it. I realize that it must be my father's. Instead we find some hard liquor in a turquoise bottle that is olive flavored and for some reason that sounds like the perfect thing to bring, plus nobody will likely notice that it's gone.
The party is on the same strip of the harbor that the Thunderchild docks at, but there is a bungalow on the water there.

1. I was in a movie theater watching Avatar. My dad and sister were in the row in front of where me and a friend sat.

2. I found out that if I step on a tile on the floor of my classroom, then the corresponding tile in the room next door would light up. I started stepping on all of the tiles in the room to mess with the people in the other classroom.
Days without lucid dream: 9

1. I'm dressing in my room to go to my old high school. I'm indecisive, and wind up taking clothes with me into the school bathroom. I change several times, but the bell rings when I'm in a long-sleve shirt, shorts, and gym shoes with long socks. This is an ugly combination and I have a minor panic attack as I have to go to class.

2. I'm walking the streets of a generic city with my mom. Together we enter a Jamaican-themed hotel, where a steel-drum fronted band is playing a tropical tune. My mom steals the bass and rips off a solo, then throws the bass to me. I miss, and the bass crashes to the floor. We leave and go to eat, and I am rude to her as dinner conversation continues. She reaches a breaking point and tells me tearfully that she's hidden three divorces previous to my dad and my own conception.