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- Bunker (?)
- Getting "along" with an ex
- Going to buy something at a store, realise I don't have money, leaving xD
- Smoking a cigar
- Dreaming about working at a radio station
- Dicking around with the (new irl) neighbours (haven't really seen them yet in wake life though, lol)

What I have down in my physical DJ is, 4:30, mom, death, golf??? Did I think I could remember my dream with just this??? What I do remember is seeing a clock in my dream saying 4:30 then waking up and it was 4:30? WTF is this possible.

guy going around setting houses on fire. My neighbor to the right first. I called 911. all my neighbors are standing in my driveway confused. We wait about 10 minutes and the police never show. I think to myself, "did I give them the wrong address."

eating subway.. that's it

this is what I wrote in my physical journal, remember im still a beginner
playing golf with my best friend, his ball went left and hit a tree. the cart girl drove by.

I was walking down a road and as I turned down a street to my left I was nearly cut off my a couple of motorcycles I got a little to close to them and my hand grazed the back of the last rider. They pulled into there home and as I walked by they removed there helmets and started shouting "why u grabbin at me fagit I'll beat ur ass" I started to run thinking my motorcycle was just around the corner. As they chased me I came apon a scooter I knew was mine but I turned to face the men becouse I dident want to try and get away on a stupid scooter after being called a fag lol. So I turned to them and prepared for a fight one had a pitch fork knife and the other a knife that had a few bends in it. The next cut seen one of the men was on the ground and I watched him literally pull the knife back and then thrust it very hard into his face I was appalled by this visual and turned to his friend we just glanced at each other and looked back at the man. He then said "I did this for u" in my mind he stabbed himself to make it looked like I did it!!!! Wtf

In the night I tried FILD one time with no success.
In the morning I woke up at 6:10 naturally, wrote in my DJ, drank water, went to the bathroom and performed a SSILD about 6:50. I woke up again 8:30 with no LD yet. I changed of position and put my hand in the middle of my knees. I tough "why don't I try the FILD again ?", I started "playing my piano" and in about 15 seconds I felt the SP coming, heard that loud sound on my ears and there I am, inside my 8th LD ;D

Lucid Part:
I'm in a place where everything is drawn. The people is drawn too.
I feel all my dream powers weak here, and everything is a little scary.
I do a "Kame-Hame-Ha" in the sky and open a passage to the "real world".
I fly and pass trough the passage and it leads me to a building. I fly near to some ATMs. I try to go through a wall but I only knock my head on it.
I have to admit that I felt a little of doubt if I was really able to do that.
I try again saying "pass through" and it works.
There are really big rooms in this building and they look like offices, I continue to go through all the walls in the same direction, after 2 or 3 rooms I start to pass near some people.
I realized after waking up that there were only women in that building.
I get near to two women and give one of them a big kiss. I ask how are they doing.
I can't say why everytime in my lucid dreams that I want to greet a woman I kiss her, I'm sure I was still lucid but don't know what I tought there, I only know that it was a great kiss xD
I start to fly again in the same direction. I pass beside to girls and understand that they are choosing place to some friends of mine to work. I speak with them for a while.
While I was speaking with them I seemed to lose some of the lucidity, I was becoming just a character in the story and not the director, but after the talk I said "it is a dream" to myself sometimes again.
I left them there and start to fly again the same direction. I pass through a huge glass window that is in maybe the 30th floor of that building. I can see the city very far from me. I start to fly fast and just appear over my aunt's house in Catuji.
I jump to a wall and from there I see a cousin of mine when he was 5 years old, and near the wall I see Ruck.
I jump to the floor and start to play with him.
Ruck was dog and died some months ago, I knew that during the dream, but felt happy to be able to "play with him a last time".
I hug him a lot. I felt a reaally huge happiness while doing that.
I am going with him to near of my house and I see 2 more "Rucks".
After playing with him I try to get out from there, but ruck does everything to keep me there, some puppies appear and try to keep me there too.
When I say that they were trying to keep me there, it's cause they were running after me, kiding with and that things that our dogs do with us.
I start to run away from there and a black dog appears and tries to stop me, I start to fly. It almost gets me but I get to "escape", but I wake up.

I am only sure that that was a dream when I was doing the FILD because I woke up in the same position that I slept. I never imagined that FILD could be so powerfull

Dream Stats:
Went to sleep: 00:30am
Duration: ~20min (only lucid)
Woke up at: 9:00am

Briefly became lucid during a much-needed nap, but I ended up waking immediately. In hindsight, maybe I should have had lunch before taking my nap, seeing how hungry I was in the dream!

I'm in a room, watching a cabinet member talking to reporters. There's something important I need to ask her, so I hang around and try to look busy by looking at a map. When she's done, she comes over to me and asks, "Was there something that you needed?" For the life of me, I cannot remember the question I needed to ask her.

I head out of the room and down a hallway. There's a stand selling food that looks really good, but there's a long line. I'm salivating as I wait. There's a case with crab legs, and I can't wait to have one. While I'm waiting, I spot Rachel, a friend from college. We talk about making plans for dinner so I can meet her husband and she can meet my boyfriend. She suggests place near Yorktown. For some reason, the name makes me giggle. She asks if it's because my boyfriend is from Yorktown, Virginia. I say yes, but something in the back of my mind keeps nagging me, reminding me that it's not true. I can't seem to remember where my boyfriend is from.

I finally get to the head of the line. But it looks like I'm too late. There's no more crab legs left in the case, but they have raw tilapia. I pick out a filet, but the cashier tells me how expensive it is and asks if I can afford it. I hesitate, not really knowing how much money I have on hand. The cashier tells me that he has a solution to make it affordable. Then he rips off a ridge of fat, puts it on a skewer, and tells me how I'm getting such a "bargain" on this special cut. I think I've lost my taste for seafood, so I move onto another case. There's something that looks like meatloaf muffins, but I pick out something else. I take my food and the next thing I know, I'm at home. I want to sit in front of the TV and eat, but the couch is missing. I see that it's moved off to the side, so I go to drag it into the correct spot. It's much lighter than I expected. Apparently, it's because my couch has become an armchair, and it's upholstered in the same fabric as the couch I threw away years ago. Again, something about the situation is nagging me. I sit down and dig into my take-out container, which has cauliflower and potatoes cooked in some kind of spices and masala. I'm biting into a piece of cauliflower when I realize this is the same meal I had last week. It startles me enough that I immediately wake up.

dream : comments : lucid

13th of June, 2012

There were several smaller dreams last night but I'll just stick with the main one:

Nooks, Acka, my parents and I were visiting the US. The dream became really clear when I was standing out the front of this house looking over the city at sunset. It looked kind of like San Francisco but more... European. It was really pretty with lots of ornate houses huddled together on hils. I tried to take a picture of the scene on my phone coz it was such a nice view but it wouldn't change from the reverse camera so all I could see was my stupid-ass dream face doing that goofy smile it always does.
Anyway. The sun set really quickly after that and then I went back inside and realised after seeing a sign that we were in fact in Ohio and I should go get some Skyline Chili (which is this franchise that only exists in Ohio and I didn't really care for that much when I had it last time I was in the States anyway...)

But find it we must! So Acka and I went on an adventure to find a store which involved walking through schoolyards and this zanily large shopping centre. After being lost in there for what seemed like an eternity, we took an escalator up to a movie theatre lobby. Walking through there my legs suddenly stopped working properly and I told Acka not to worry coz "This happens pretty regularly, but only in dreams..."

I almost missed what I'd just said, but something stirred inside me and it suddenly hit me;I was dreaming!
I played it cool as a cucumber and told Acka to hang on while I did this Reflex Dream Stabilisation I read about yesterday that involved clenching certain muscles to ground you. It definitely worked as the dream became way clearer and more stable but with two drawbacks:
1. It made my legs work even less well somehow;
2. It put me too deeply in the dream and I kinda lost my consciousness a bit

So I did a little Lieutenant Dan style stupid-walk over to an escalator and basically fell down it. That crap continued for a while until I think I woke up. BUT! It's a DILD, so that's what's important.

For the first time in quite a while I could sleep in, which I did to the fullest. Slept for more than 12 hours and my dreams during the last cycles were intense, short, superlong and manymanymany. It has been hard for me to keep track of which dream fits into which and some I have forgotten during the day, even though I wrote down keynotes each time I woke up. Therefore I'm just gonna put 'em all down bulletstyle.

The first dream I'm putting down is the one I think came first; it's about this blogger girl that I've been following for a while. As I love language it is important to me that people use language well and that is excactly what she does. It just so happens that she writes alot about sucking cock. So in my dream she wanted to suck my cock while I wanted to seem intelligent to her (as that is what I percieve her as). The thing is I am not interested in women at the present, so her sucking my cock was completely out of the question. All the while I'm lying in just my underwear and a t-shirt on the floor, she has the same kind of clothing. While this is happening there is a proverbial storm of the century going on outside. The lightning flashes bright and makes everything in the room extremly bright. When it's not flashing there's thunder and the sound of rain growling constantly in the background. The location of this dream is a house I used to live in, except the fact that where this room was there should have been a toilet but in this dream it was kind of a chill out-corner.

The second dream is just an image. I'm moving to a new place soon and there I will build a sleeping loft. I'm going to make totempoles out of the legs to the loft and in this dream that was excactly what I was doing; carving wood.

The third dream I'm with my band in a city upnorth. It just so happens that a girl who contacted me and was very impressed with my writing is from this town. We were supposed to do a gig there, but we got stuck in this room which was supposed to be some sort of backstage-area (but it wasn't, it was the room where I recieved my first kiss (that I found out during waking reflection)). I'm currently off every mindaltering drug, but no one else that I know is. So there was a hunt for drugs in unknown territory, and this girl who likes my writing obviously had some connections and she said she was going to help out in the quest for finding junk. I told her that I'm currently not using and she carresed the fold of my jacket sensually and said "too bad".
That was not the only thing happening. The weather outside was constantly changing, from sunny to total-annihilation-storm. Outside the windows was a female friend of mine, hanging halfway inside kicking with her legs playfully saying she wanted to get stoned. People are running back and forth through the room and the only grounded point in the room was the girl who said she'd help getting drugs.

Fourth dream: nothing remembered except the fact that I'm being chased and I have the mother of my children in my company. I've got the first scene from one of the Bourne-films running through my head as I write this (the one where his girl dies somewhere in the desert, or something to that point).

Lucid Dreams in Blue
NonLucid in Green

So first entry on the computer since I need to for the dream acadamy lessons. I'm not gunna write all my old ones, so im just gunna start with one I had last night.

I woke myself up at 2:00AM in hopes of recalling a dream, because dad always agressively wakes me up in morning.

My dreams starts where im at home and im really bored. I complain to my mom fo help and she tells me shes already invited this girl that I really like over, but we have to pick her up. At first im pissed but then I agree and get my dad to come pick her up with me ( inr I only have my L) we get to her house and find out theres a party there. I go in and see her and she says hi, then runs upstairs saying shes going to get her things. I wait in a room with a bunch of my friends and my old chubby friend talks to me about walnut donuts in a near by freezer( we musta talked for an hour about that donut ) then a really hot girl comes to me and starts talking about how she loves hunting, she starts dry humping and licking this rifle, when I get called by the girl i like saying shes ready. I go to get my dad so we can go when i finally find him passed out sleeping by the mini bar. I decide well just sleep at her house.
Then dream changes to me outside chasing after a motorized DVR tv box waving my arms around and yelling. That dreams really fuzzy.

I guess I could use the motorized DVR coulda been a dream sign

I was in a Red River type place that was actually in Kansas, with Matte and some other people I couldn't identify. We were tornado chasing, although on foot. Mostly it was just a nature hike because it was a clear, sunny day with no clouds whatsoever, much less tornadoes. So we caravaned to a large picnic that was set up for our lunch. It was a nice looong table, shaded by beautiful cloth gazebos in bright colors, which flapped slightly in the wind. I was kinda looking forward to sitting by Matte, because hello, muscles. But he sat down by some people and there were no empty chairs next to him. Bummer. I don't really remember eating, but I remember they were grilling burgers, and I saw the smaller table with burger add-ons, like slices of tomato, and red onion, ketchup and mustard etc. Anyway I was walking a bit past the table into a huge meadow, where the horizon was blocked by huge trees. Suddenly the wind blew alot harder, and I heard thunder and saw lightening. I looked up at the tops of the trees, and a tiny little dark gray cloud appeared, sparkling with little flecks of lightening. It was really cute, if such a thing could be called cute. Then a tiny little gray tornado formed just under the cloud, though it was really high up in the sky, and miles and miles from being close to touching the ground. I screamed "Tornado TORNADO!!!!!" and a group of people rushed toward where I was standing. I immediately did the finger through palm RC, the one I always do when I see a tornado in dreams. Which is gay because it nearly always fails. It failed once more, and I thought to myself, "Well, I guess THIS time it's for real." Then I remembered how I ALWAYS say that, and it's NEVER real. So I just said "You know what, fuck it I MUST be dreaming." And then the fact that I realized this cloud was completely silly, and Matte, a guy from Sweden whom I've never met, was in Kansas with me, hunting tornadoes, confirmed that I was dreaming. I felt like I didn't really care that much. Don't know why. So I didn't really do anything special. I just kept watching the sky with the others. The little cloud sauntered along the sky, all by itself with it's little tornado tail. I said "That thing's too small to reach the ground." Other people muttered "yeah, lame." So we just walked off to continue the day nature hiking instead. As I turned to walk toward the trail, Matte grabbed my hand. So we held hands the rest of the way. Also there was a big hug in there somewhere, but I can't remember if it was before or after the tornado.

I'm laughing as I'm typing this because it's so gay!!

12.06.2012

Random shit that makes no sense (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was with my girlfriend and her sister, and we were I guess grocery shopping. I don't even know how to word this, lol. The grocery store was like a maze, and you had to swerve around corners and shit, and it was like a video game. The little map showed you in a raft floating through water, and if you moved a certain way it was easier to move through the landscape. Every time I moved like this, I thought of "drums" and so did my girlfriend's sister. She shouted, "DRUMS!" lol. it made no sense. that's about all I remember.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

Had bad recall from the 7th. Finally found the time to type this up on June 12th.

I was at my house, with my step dad. We were just observing these strange constellations of the sun and moon. The sun was an orange blob with dots in it and the moon was a contellation of a headless stickman. The sun was out in the front side of the house and the moon at the back. My step dad was watching the sun as is flickered around in the sky then I ran over the back of the house and looked out of the back window. I watched flick around like the sun, but much more stronger and gave out bigger movements. It then transformed into a large rainbow pheonix and flew towards me. Somehow I knew it wouldn't hurt me so I just ran away from it smiling. It eventually went back to it's starting point and flickered aorund again. At this point, the dreamscape turned into a large warehouse with blue shelves filled with stacked cardboard boxes. I gazed at the moon and watched it transform into an axe-weilding soldier. It was also rainbow coloured like the last form. It then ran at me and I escaped happily into a hiding spot behind a nearby box. Again, it went back to the back. I then realised that this "phase" of the moon was ending. I was very upset because I had so much fun with this weird thing. I heard a voice saying I could bring it back by imagining it into an eagle. I did exactly that and I saw a faint black eagle in the night sky. Then I woke up.

I had other dreams that took place in my house, in the exact same location of my house. I just couldn't remember all of them. But this dream is up in my top 10's of this year . Hope you enjoyed as much as I did.

One of the fragments was where me and my step brother were playing with our guitars we bought. Mine was a Dean Razorback DB, which was covered with junk and resting on a bench.

The transition was extra weird. When I felt the vibrations, I felt something or someone push me a few inches into the bed. Then they said something, and put a barrier over the bed and threw me and my mattress into the next room

I was looking at a sunset and the room I was in didn't have a wall. I thought about stabilizing and waiting a moment but it was clear that everything was ready to go. I was gonna head into my room to see who slung me into my dream and said " eh, let's leave it a mystery".

I really had no thoughts of what to do, I started flying off randomly. Each time I would come back near my house but things were different. More water, more random stuff. I went swimming in a newly formed lake and there were all these sea creatures in it. I got out after a few minutes because I had a "watch something tries to kill me and I spend the entire dream owning it" feeling.

Nothing else to do...maybe I'll see what kaomea is up to. I tried making a few portals but they weren't working. some sarcastic girls came up and started asking what I was doing. By this time I had 'she loves me not' out and it really took some restraint it to chop them to bits with it. We went for tic for tack while the sword was materializing, but this time, it didn't fully appear. I think part of it was stuck in another dimension. Anyways, I stuck the sword into the remenants of a portal I tried to make, and the asphalt turned into liquid and gave way to a portal.

I jumped down it and out the corner of my eye I could see The World That Never Was. Damnit, I know I don't have enough time so I continue on down. I arrive at an airport terminal and Kaomea is there waiting on me. She has her arms crossed like she's been waiting for a while. I played it cool and outstretched my arms and she hugged me. She told me that "she was mad at me" when I asked her how she was doing. "Who's mad at you?" I asked. Then she went back to having that grumpy look she had before and said "you should know".

The damn dream snapped (i had no clue that it was going to end and everything dematerialized instantly) and I had a FA. I was reading my DJ and Dreamprofessor replied to my last entry saying that it was too early for me to transition and that's why I never got into the dream. I was figuring out how to say "I know what the hell I'm doing" in the nicest way and when I got out of bed, my boxers were soaked....wet dream soaked. I was looking down and saying "what the fuck....I didn't even do anything". I started thinking about the previous dreams and ran them through my head. Nope, no plan B action what so ever. Well I was really hot, maybe it's just sweat....nah, this ain't sweat....fuck. And I woke up.