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(This is the first dream that I ever wrote down. I wrote it down because it scared me so much.)

I had a fucking creepy dream. Basically someone made like a robot or something that looked like CYN. It was programmed based on like videos of her to act like she used to. She was dressed in red and yellow. She was in a wheelchair but she could walk. I remember in psych she stood up to go sharpen her pencil and then made fun of CHN for not being able to walk on her way back to her wheelchair. I don't really remember, but I think MO (one of CYN's friends) thought she was real at first. She said something about "so I wasn't talking to my friend?" (like she was surprised). I also had a dream about my physics teacher trying to do musical chairs with CHN and people thinking he was an idiot (because she can't stand up). Before that I dreamed about how food bank people were gonna beat me up for eating their food. Added later: I remember more details even now, but I didn't write them down. The details were that I was trying to outflank someone running trough a field.

A challenge. I was with some people. Two of us were pulled out by some kind of master. His clothing reminds me of Middle East, although he doesn't have a beard and all. He looks quite young, probably early 20s.

We're somewhere near a beach, with tall grasses. He pointed out the gigantic crab claws waving above the tall grasses. We're supposed to fight them. I got scared. I said something like, "You've got to be kidding me!" Then another set of claws appeared.

The master started clicking his fingers to call the giant crabs. I said wait, but started running back at the same time, and clicking my own fingers. I saw a lot of other claws appear. One giant crab finally went out of the grasses, which I assumed was their home. I went after my other companion and snapped its claws against him. Then it went after me. It's red and huge. I waved my arms to drive it away, and it went back to the other guy.

Finally, I used magic to send some sort of water wave against it. I don't know what logic I used, but I guess the crab was weak against it, because it drove it away. Then I started shooting water attacks against the rest of the giant crabs, until they became small (or went so far away as to look small).

Then I sensed a bigger danger. We hid inside and behind rock houses (yes, rock, not stone). We saw a HUGE lizard pass by.

Someone asked the master to stop the lizard, but he said no. It's still part of our training. That's why he timed it today. I think I somehow also knew the lizard would be coming today, which made me hesitant to use my powers earlier.

Somehow, I ended up outside with two others. The lizard was right ahead of us. I thought of summoning a wall, but decided to summon a tower around us. Then we flew up to the top. I saw the lizard down below. I shot it with a lightning spell, and it died.

Then I was in a town or village. A guy (the master?) was pouring soup into a plastic container, but it was so hot it melted it. We had to use an extra one. Had thoughts about salvation, and how our good works would not be enough. Got depressed at the thought. Snow?

My hometown. There was some sort of race. I wanted to join. I went home to get proper clothing. There's a sort of train there. My clothing were in a rectangular box. There were two of them. One contains files and books.

I have 3 dreams to share, happened this past week. Been having a dry-spell til recently (practicing ADA, helps a lot).

The Monastery Date: 6/2/12
I was with two females. I was female myself in this dream. It was dark outside, cloudy, mucky, generally nasty looking. The two females and myself were wearing skin tight suits (not latex or anything, something along the lines of evangelion suits.). We worked with some private company or government of unknown origins. For some reason, our mission was to find some type of artifact in the Monastery (as it looked). It was a dark building with a spire and a few colored windows. While searching through the building, we must have triggered a trap because giant stone guardians we looking to fuck our shit up. We were not equipped with any weapons, thus we split up and hid. I found a nice dark corner behind a wall of glass that had vertical white plastic blinds hanging down them. I knew one was following me and smelling for me. However, on the opposite corner of the room, another one appeared and as it turned its head around, scanning the room, I ran out the nearest door and hid under a large stone table where it was dark. To my surprise, the other two females were there, though they were very battered. We called in two medics to assist us. -End-

Plains of Clouds Date: 6/5/12
Very strange area in my dream. The sky was overcast, yet the clouds were about 10 feet off the ground (~3 meters). I witnessed a strange phenomenon, however. The underside of the clouds were a bright, golden yellow, as if the sun was shining from underneath; the sun could not be see. People had ladders leaned against the clouds and were climbing on top of them. The clouds seemed so dense, you could walk on top of it, as if they were solid.

Star Ocean Battleships Date: 6/6/12
Several others and I were on some raft, like a military raft about to board onto a ship. The ships we were about to board were huge, about twice the size of a U.S. aircraft carrier. I do not know the ship class however (freighter, carrier, frigate, battleship, etc..). The ships were in front of us, one on our left and right. The ship on our right was a silver-blue with strange sails underneath the ship, as its mode of transportation. The ship on our left was red with beige lining and seemed to float like a normal ship. I could not tell whether the ships were fighting each other, or meeting face-to-face. Both seemed to sit there, about 150 meters apart. There were little islands to the north-east of the blue ship. It had small islets that you could walk on and a rocky shallow that was about a couple inches deep that bridged the mini isles. As our raft approached, a "woman of the sea" boarded our raft. I say this because she came out of the water, randomly. No one on the raft seemed to care, and she found a seat next to me. She was naked, yet beautiful. I couldn't make her out in detail because the sky was dark, filled with bright stars. Our craft landed and the crew that was with me seemed to disappear. The woman and I walked across the islands where we passed a cabin that was filled with warm light. We did not enter the cabin, for it was not ours, and we instead walked around it onto a longer stretch of island. We proceeded to have intercourse, though I do not remember what caused this to happen. It was dark and I couldn't see where she was in terms of her position atop of me. As I grabbed my genitals so I could insert into her's, I could feel her, what I presumed to be, vagina against the back of my hand. It felt accurate in detail. Then we proceeded to do what mammals do best, in terms of production.

These dreams were semi-lucid, I could feel parts of the dream yet I had no control over them. I was not even prompted to do the reality checks because they felt natural and real, regardless of the situation. I am practicing ADA to overcome this problem.

1) WILD thinking about finding Katsuno or Atras. Pool area. Lucid. Yell out "Katsuno" to all the people. Same charged energy feeling my body as last time. Young man, brown haired? tells me that Katsuno normally doesn't usually like being outed in public. Introduces himself as KlausTech. Shake his hand. I call myself AnimusMessor149, correct myself. Say that 4 is pretty much the same as 7. He agrees with me and I ask C or K. He looks confused so i clarify that i'm looking for how he spells his name. Says it doesn't matter. Everyone in the pool area has been bound and gagged now, except myself. Klaus disappears. Turn around to find military types in navy blue uniforms. I believe they are armed with hand guns. Two police in gray outfits. I use tk to slash the military people and knock the heads of the police. Pick up a girl out of the water and carry her to solid ground. Start crying. Dead? Old theater teacher comes in (Room now looks like a living room with tv and carpet. She says she's now in mil-crime (military-crime). I giggle and say I like the word, though she seems surprised. Talks about love and how I don't use her as a contact for jobs. I counter by saying that seems exploitive. She talks about Captain Jack Harkness smoking pot.

2) WILD. Street with a bunch of friends. They race apparently to see who is my best friend. One turns around and gives up soon and the other runs on. The one who quit starts talking to me and I tell him to bug someone else. Stone buildings, market district-like street.

3) At a school somewhat like my high school. Outside alley area. Parked my car weirdly and at one end. Friends are around. I am lucid and using powers. Flight and phasing mostly. Being chased. Flight is controlled by the orientation of my head, either bolting straight up in the air, floating back down, or forward. Very serene. Dream skips and we're practicing energy work (One may have left). I see the energy as three motes of light. One's energy is compact while mine is large and unrefined. Get frustrated and stop. A friend's dad picks us up and drives us out. Gate covers an exit and I tell him he can't get past there but it open. My friend tells me I'll have to come drive my car back and get my phone in the morning. FA to me checking that my phone is nearby.

Of course in my dreams I am always with a friend, today I was with my good friend Jonathan. As we strolled down the avenues of Park Merced (old neighborhood where most of my dreams take place), we noticed a familiar face in a crowded group of kids fighting. That familiar face was our good friend Salah. And Salah himself was dressed like he was ready to fight---he wore a long white t-shirt and shorts. Salah wasn't fighting though---he was really just hyping the crowd as the dream figures threw punches at each other---Salah would scream out mum merging words that would hype them up (basically gibberish). All of this Jonathan and I watched from a distance---and then in an instance Simons went off. It was the cops that suddenly aroused the crowd, and everyone started running (of course Jonathan and I were still speculating enjoying the show). It was funny because the first person to take flight and get away was Salah---he ran across a street and there was garage where he made his escape.*

I still remember his hand gestures too! He waved both In the air running away as if he waving good bye constantly (like a cartoon character lol).

The others raced up toward the distance that we were watching from and behind followed the cops in a cop car. As one raced passed me I noticed how familiar---it was an African American boy who went to my elementary, middle, and high school.*

The cops were on their tail, Jonathan and I raced behind to see who would get caught. The cops jumped out of the car and they had the boy from my school cornered. They say him down on this small dirt hill (weird I know) and arrested him

After observing that me and jonathan quickly got bored. Across the street was a building that holds a gym, and a place to play pool---in reality we go her when we are bored and have nothing to do. When entered the place was totally different. It was very futuristic, I remember a neon purple light spread through the whole facility. There were people dancing and they had beverages in there hands. When we went through the doors they slid open by themselves. In one particular room there was a movie going on, and no matter what the purple neon light proceeded in every room.*

Jonathan turns to me and tells me that there is a girl in here that was interested in me. He aid her name is Meeka (that's how I would spell it) and she has noticed me on Facebook. The rest of the dream we were on the look for this girl, whom I never got the chance to see her face*

Then I wake up

Allahu Ekbar

I Had A Lucid Dream Where I Was supermans son and i had the powers he had it was strange and i stopped a villian

So basically let me explain a few things before I start. I am a Brony, a male fan of the My Little Pony Friendship is Magic series on tv. I am 15 years old turning 16 next month. I am also a heterosexual just to clear up any confusion. So here is the dream:

It was a night of fun at my friends Barbeque, until the night became even more magical. Twilight Sparkle from My Little Pony flew from Equestria (when she doesn't even have wings) to my home to meet me and my friend. My friend didn't know I was a brony at the time, so he was insanely confused. I was excited as you might imagine (lol). But basically what happened after that I sadly do not remember.

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Dream #2:

I had been assigned to going to the library during my summer break for insanely low grades. (Not true, this is apart of the dream). So when I had gotten to the library that night, there were people arguing about being there (as always lol) and you know, just the norm. So it's late and I was just texting on my phone. Till something happen where everything went blank and time went forward about 3 hours. So I had to go to a teacher for some information on what just happened. She called my half dressed English teacher from 8th grade from the other room. (I'm a Sophomore by the way haha). So she calls my mother for some reason to pick me up. So I was watching out the window for my mom to come. She finally does, but she parks under a moving semi and calls me out. By the time she was there I was actually on a bus going nowhere. I was complaining to the driver to let me out and he said he has some "unfinished business to do with me". Then that dream ends and I wake up at about 11:00AM.
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I was wanting to dream more so I did my best to force myself to go back to sleep. Here is what happened:

My Uncle was about to move out with my dad. The odd thing about this is, My dad lives with me and my mom and my uncle live all the way down in Tennessee. We live in Indiana. So they do, and so does me and a friend of mine. So apparently, the whole United States has flipped at this time and we move into Michigan, which for some reason, is now located south of Georgia. So we are all good for awhile, until it becomes like a Sims game. Everything falls apart. The dog we got when we moved in died. (Not my real dog lol). and we just decide the next morning: "Hey maybe we should go on a vacation to China". When no one in our family even have Asian roots that we know of. (I do like to study some of Japan's culture though). So basically while we are in China, I don't remember anything. So at this point. We all move back to Indiana and something odd has happened.
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(This is the next dream, after I said something odd has happened the dream ended so I made myself fall asleep again)!

When we get back to Indiana, it turned back into 1999! When I was a measly 3 years old. We lived at my old apartment and everything was as if it REALLY was 1999. My friends that I used to race bikes with multiplied though, as we actually formed some kind of club when I was about 6, me being an avid Nascar fan at the time. (Not really the case anymore though haha). We then got on our bikes and raced for awhile. Now for some reason, the running track at our school was now owned by our neighborhood and was shipped over encased in cement basically. So we race, and even some of my friends from school in 2012 were there at their normal age. (I was perceived as a 6 year old. So I ask my parents if I could check out the house, and we go in. It was as if we lived in the 1300's. We had most of our tables made out of rocks. Our TV was balanced on a rock. The kitchen had a major renovation. Much different from the interior of the old apartment I remember. I had seen my dog which had experienced the time change too and was at a way younger age than she is now. (She is 7 now). So I go out and tell my friends what it's like in the future. (uh-oh). So this changes a lot in just the time I was there. My dad was forgotten by his Ham Radio Club, and it basically ended there.
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So there it is. A single night's worth of dreams. If anyone is interested in learning more about the type of dreams I have, I talk about them a lot on my podcast. I'll link you to it if you send me a PM. I also have a Minecraft server! If anyone wants to join, just PM me and I'll send you the log in information so you can play with me!

So this will be my entry for all or most Dream Cartography related things. Right now I have to figure out my personal way to do this so for now I will put some personal notes here, which are to be expanded upon later:

Frequent Occuring places:
Buildings
Talenta (My first boarding school)
Space (Isn't as frequent as I'd like it to be, but it gets better)

Buildings:
Weird, huge and complex buildings appear frequently in my dreams, it is safe to say that 75% of my dreams at least involve one building and at least 30% of my dreams involve huge or really special buildings.

Space:
ISIM: This is a system I was headed for in one of my recent space dreams. I was getting there through hyperspace by entering a wormhole. I don't know from where I started. Since this one of the few places with a specific name I suppose it might become an important location, otherwise I will try to make it one.

Other Dimensions/Exceptional Places:
Most notable here would be the place of #3 in this post: My craziest night yet

Coon City: Coon city is a forest where people with a few raccoon features live, it seems to be a dangerous place for normal humans. Coon City

Lower levels of consciousness:
Most notable here is this dream: Post apocalypse building with several different high ground floors

A certain city:
This is a place I don't know much about but I feel it popped up more than once. Most recently when I went to a BDSM sex shop due to some absolutely unknown reason (06.06.14). The city looks largely normal but the streets are exceptionally big, creating wide open spaces between buildings. As might be expected the amount of people and cars is really low here.

Update: 06.04.2013
Well the recent months were really bad and essentially nothing now on the field happened, just felt like noting that down because Im still up on this project, I don't get any input.

Update: 06.06.2014
14 months later and nothing much more happened, thanks to my working place, or rather the insane time consumption of work and everyone just generally helping themselves on my reserve of time. Only added the certain city section.

In the dream, I was at school. I was only wearing my underwear and a jacket. I was talking to some people and then one of my English teachers came and said something like "I think you should get dressed" to which I replied with "Yeah, I was just about to go home and do that." However, other people needed my help, so that distracted me. Eventually, I managed to leave to get some clothes, but as I was walking out of school, I looked down at my body only to find I was wearing clothes! I said to myself something like "I guess I must've already gone home and got some clothes on."

I woke up and something was in my eye. But that's not important.

I went back to sleep, and I had another dream about school, maybe a continuation, I don't know. I bought some food and had to go to this room which I had never heard of because my friend, Eric, told me to. I went there, only to find it was exactly the same as the room where I've been spending a lot of my time at school now, just watching films. However, it had new chairs! One of my media studies teachers was in there and I told him a joke about Barack Obama, I can't remember what it was, but I know it wasn't an offensive joke to anyone, probably. But, nonetheless, my teacher got really offended, so I explained the joke to him, and he laughed and walked off. Then the rest is just a blur.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

This was a very odd dream. It seemed to have a bit of each of my dreamsigns in. 2 wierd dreams that morning

The first dream sign was school. I was wlaking around school waiting for my exam to start. There were lots of people crouding round ready to go in. All I was wearing was a jacket type thing and shoes. Nothing else. Finally I went inside, and soon realised I was almost naked. I didn't care and just sat in my seat. The topic of this exam was something VERY odd. Can't remember what though. I was the given a really wired peice of equiptment to use. I don't even think anyone did the exam. We just walked out and went back to normal. I saw the younger people eating from something. Like tribal people. I then went up to a fat kid and said "Don't be a greedy faggot!" and walked off listening to trivium. Then a riff from ashes of the wake came in to the song. Soon my sister walked round the corner.(second dream sign) and told me to follow her. We both walked around a corner and surprisingly I saw a rollercoaster that I had seen in a dream before. The exact same one. On the way up to the rollercoaster, we saw 2 people who looked like fable characters. We then climbed the stairs which were very high in about 3 seconds flat. At the top was my mother instead of my sister. I told her that I did not want to go on this ride, so I went to go down the stairs again, terrified of the height. Before I done that, a guy told me I could take the lift with him down to the bottom, so I walked over to it and went in. It was bigger inside than it was outside. When I was going down, the lift was shaking so violently I could not keep my balance, I was scared shitless D:. At the bottom, it was posh and looked like my drama studio at school. It had brown wooden floors and red wallpaper and mats. I somehow sensed a mammoth run out of the lift (skyrim dream sign) and chase me. I set some minecraft TNT to try and kill it. (Minecraft dream sign). It's health dropped a little but I didn't stop, I just ran out and set more TNT. Which did not go off. I soon sprinted out of the doors and found myself in the same dark field where I met the fable characters. I used a skyrim shout and lost the mammoth behind me. I finally spoke to the fable people and danced with them The dream ended after that.

That's all for today. All of my dream signs in one dream...how odd.

I've been under a lot of stress after moving into the new home, so I can see why I haven't been having any good dreams lately. I finally have access to my computer after the move, so I can put in my dream from the other night. I've been having realistic non lucid dreams lately.

Dream 1:
I was at my parent's house down in the basement. My brother and his gf were there and she had made a seven layer pink cheese cake. My dad was cutting the cake and I remember I asked for a good sized piece. It was pretty tasty. I suddenly said to myself, "this is a dream." and I became lucid. I floated up the stairs and was so happy to have a lucid dream that I could feel myself drifting out of lucidity. I remember reading that I should spin in a circle and for some reason that should work and it did for a bit, but eventually i did wake up. (So I closed my eyes, relaxed and tried to have another lucid dream).

Dream 2:
I fall asleep quick and start dreaming right away...I find myself at my grandparent's house (all my grandparents have passed). In my dream at first my grandpa doesn't look like my grandpa but I know it's him. Hard to explain...anyways as I'm walking into the kitchen I again tell myself, "this is a dream." I get excited and decided to talk to my grandpa. (I had read to talk to the ones you love in your dreams and what not to get answers you are seeking blah blah blah so I thought I would try it out.) I ran up to him and gave him a hug. My grandma wasn't there. I asked him how he was doing and that I miss him. I asked him were grandma was. He said she wasn't here at the moment but he would tell her that I said hello. He smiled at me and said he was proud and said he had to go soon. So I turned around and decided to go out to the garage and think of something to do in my dream. I walked out side and it looked like my grandparent's garage and then as i walked out to the yard the street became an old fashioned location. People were riding buggies and horses around. I decided that it would be fun to ride a horse. I kept asking my dream to give me a horse but nothing happened. I saw a police officer and ran up to him and asked him if he could help me find a horse. He was friendly in my dream and so he waved down this woman riding a horse. She stopped for a second and said she couldn't give me the horse. I noticed I was getting frustrated and I was afraid it would wake me up so I gave up on riding the horse. It began raining and so I walked into a building with the policeman. He was following me around for some reason and I couldn't get him to leave. I looked out the window and I noticed that there was an ocean and it was about to storm. The skies were getting very dark and I noticed I started to feel frightened. I walked outside and asked my dream to make it sunny again. It took my several attempts to get the sun to come out but when it did it was so beautiful. I woke up...

Dream 3:
I was in my car driving home from work. Very realistic, so realistic that it took me awhile to realize if I was dreaming or not. I did become lucid because I realized again I was dreaming. However, I didn't know where I wanted to go and since I was already in the car driving, I found it hard to control the car once lucid. It was too much to handle and so I think that's what woke me up.

I see a cute DC. We play.

Too much conversation.
Some things are going to be phrased incorrectly etc, I tried to patch it up as well as I could.
Usually I use pink and brown to color code female and male DC voices, but there's 2 women this time,
so I'll use pink and green, pink being Yuya.


There's no more messing around.
Going anywhere but Haven feels dangerous.
Whenever I'm on the plane I can feel the Templars scanning for my aura.
It is inevitable that they will find me if I linger for too long.
Haven is one of the only places I feel safe. The barrier prevents them from locating my aura when I'm here.

But I cannot remain here forever.
Not only am I imprisoning myself here until I tackle the Templar issue, I'm doing the same to Yuya.
The Templars are after her as well.
In fact they're probably after everyone, the whole team from back then... back when lucids still came naturally to me.

There is only one solution.
I will fight them.
But not alone; that would be utter suicide.
I will gather the old team, the team with whom I fought the evils of this world back in the days.

I feel like a hero, about to embark on a long and difficult journey.
First I will gather a team capable of surpassing the strength of the Templars.
And then I will have to come up with a plan to beat them.
Because this is what I do. This is what I have always done.
Regardless of how much more powerful my enemy is, regardless of what it takes, I will beat them.
Because I am dragon.

"So... who will we find first?"

It is scary being in company of a serious Yuya.
I'm used to her playful and innocent self.
Not the one capable of carrying the weight of a world.
The whole atmosphere has changed.

"Silver?"
"... No. We will find Silver last. I'm not sure how to convince him to join us yet."
"Will he not want to join us?"
"I'm not sure. Back then he fought with us to pay for his sins. But he has already given back so much to this world."
"True..."
"I will convince him. You know I have my ways with words."
"Yes. If there's anyone who can motivate him it is you. You're the only one he listens to."
"So, if not Silver..."
"Shinave"
"..."
*sigh*
"You're making me meet her again huh?"
"Yes. We will meet with the goddess of ice."
"Alright then... I know where she is. I sure hope you know what you're doing."
"Probably."

I most certainly do not. Why is Yuya somewhat reluctant to meet with her again?
Did we part on bad terms?
Meh, it will come to me eventually.
These memories have a habit of popping up whenever I need them lately.

Yuya opens a rather odd looking portal and it seems to take her quite a considerable amount of energy to do so.
Right... we'll mask our auras. It should buy us enough time for a meeting and to get back before the Templars find us.
We hop through the portal and end in a rather odd looking place.


It's an old temple of sorts. Parts of it are covered with rather beautiful ice crystals, but most of them are broken.
Right. The goddess of ice. Or rather the person who used to be the goddess of ice.
Back then two gods fought together with us.
The goddess of ice: Shinave; and the god of fire: Ifrit
Yeah... there was 6 of us I think.
The 3 gods Shinave, Ifrit, Yuya, and Silver, Selene and myself.
I will reunite all of us... somehow...

We walk through the old temple, searching for Shinave.
I have a feeling that she's here somewhere, even though I cannot sense any aura besides Yuyas and my own at all.
I can feel the Templars scanning the entire plane though.
Their searching pattern reminds me of that of a computer rather than that of a sentient being.
They are perfectly coordinated.
But it will take them hours to track me down with my aura masked.

"You have some guts to show up here after what you've done."
"Indeed..."

The voice coming from behind caught me by surprise, but I'm not showing that I was off guard.
I turn around slowly and full of confidence.
Shinave.


Her eyes look young, but she's clearly older than Yuya or myself.
She has long white hair, deep blue eyes, very similar to Yuya's, and a rather pale skin.
A wise woman, once one of the most well known gods.
But now she lives in a seemingly abandoned temple.
And somehow I get the feeling that it is my fault.

"How are you?"

She answers me with a small hand gesture that's not really saying much.
Is she mad at me? Is she mad at us?
I feel that she is in some way, yet it also feels like the complete opposite.

"And how are you... Yuya?"
"I'm alright... mother."

mo... Mo... I... wait what?
Nonono.
Oh shit.
Fuck my life.
Goddess of ice, goddess of water... yeah. Am I fucking retarded? How did I not remember that.
And I have... with Yuya... oh my god...
Yeah, I might be screwed.

"You haven't talked to me in a long time."
"I have not. Not after you suggested that I shouldn't try to bring Hyu back."
"It was a bad idea."
"Yet here I am."
"Yet here you are."
"I guess I should be impressed that you managed to find your way back after what happened."
"I should also kill you for what you have done."

She approaches me without changing her facial expression.
I'm at a complete loss. I can't tell if she's serious.
Well. She is. But there's something more. Something she isn't telling.
She stands right in front of me and stares into my eyes.
I don't blink.

She hugs me tightly.
What?

"I hate you Hyu. I hate you so much."

She starts crying and grabs more tightly onto me.
I'm getting mixed signals here.
But somehow I understand. She wants to hate me, but she can't. She cannot help but love me for whom I am.
She looks deeply into my eyes again.

"You've sent my daughter towards certain death you know."
"Stop! It's too early."
"No."
"Yes it is! It is too early for him to remember!"
"Maybe. But there's no choice. He must remember."
"And then what? What if he does remember?"
"What if he realizes that he has cheated? Then what? What if he dies if he remembers that?"
"If he abides by the rules then yes, he will die."

... yeah.
I don't like everything I'm hearing, but I do want to know.
And I am so close. I can remember parts on my own. The puzzle is fitting itself together as we speak.
A tiny nudge in the right direction and I'll remember everything.
I look at Yuya and say reassuringly:

"Am I the type who abides by the rules?"

She can't help but smile for an instant, but then quickly puts on a serious face again.

"It's too soon."
"Yes. And bringing him back is impossible, yet here he stands. And yet here you stand."
"..."

I'm beginning to remember on my own.
Because I need to remember.
Because now is the time to remember, even though Yuya suggests otherwise.

"We all fought together. We fought many evils. But there was one we simply could not beat."
"... the Templars."
"13 of them there were, and only 6 of us, but that was not the issue."
"The issue was that one of them was a true immortal, and the 12 others had their lives linked to him."
"All 12 of them were unkillable as long as the 13th was alive. And he had perfected the art of combat."
"He was supposedly unbeatable. And even if he would be killed, due to his immortality he would just resurrect."
"Yes..."
"So I came up with a plan."

"You did come up with a plan."
"You always did, regardless of how hopeless the situation was."
"But this plan I did not like."
"This plan I did not like."
"But it was yours."
"It was mine."
"I didn't choose it because it was a good plan, I chose it because it was the only plan."
"Indeed..."

... what a horrible plan it was.
I have trouble saying the words, but they must be said.

"... Yuya would give her life to allow Silver to cast the ultimate spell."
"I would hold the Templar in place."
"And Silver would kill him with this spell, and the both of us in the process."

...

"This would send the Templars soul to hell. Because that's where immortals go."
"But immortality means you only have to spend a single minute, and then you are reborn."
"And I have the phoenix wings. I can move through the realms. I can go to hell once I am dead."
"Even after dying, my soul should have an afterglow of energy, enough to go there and challenge him."
"One minute to do the impossible. One minute to kill the soul of the only one who ever perfected the art of combat."
"And all of that without any energy left."
"But if I would kill his soul, he would truly die. You cannot be reborn without a soul."

"The plan was ludicrous. All of you would die for certain, for a glimpse of a chance to do the impossible."
"But it would cripple the Templars for years."
"It would... And it has."
"But things did not turn out according to your plan."

"Fortunately they did not. If they did we would be dead."
"So how did you kill him? And how is my daughter still alive. And how are you?"

...

"How I won the fight in hell... I truly do not know."
"I do not believe in miracles. But if they do exist, then this was one."
"We were joined in hell by our swords, and fought for a full minute without any energy."
"A true old-fashioned sword fight."
"I didn't stand a chance of course. He had figured out the perfect technique."
"But for some reason beyond me, as we danced in the fires of hell with our swords clashing..."
"..."
"I stabbed him in his chest."
"He never made a mistake, there was never any opening. I never figured out the perfect technique."
"Yet it happened. Neither one of us did understand. And I released the last bit of energy I had left in me into my blade..."
"And his soul evaporated. He died the true death."

"And then...?"
"And then I died."

...

"But how?"
"If you die you have to pay the price. Unless you are immortal you have to pay your soul."
"That is what dying is."
"But I never had a chance to give my soul."

Shinave's expression changes. She understands.

"The dragon within me. The dragon soul I shared my body with."
"He gave his soul before I had a chance to give mine."
"And with the price paid, I was no longer bound to the world of the dead... so I left... so I came back."
"And then I approached Yuya's lifeless body. And I summoned the true phoenix wings, and I brought back her soul from the dead and resurrected her."

"So you did use your one resurrection."

She sighs.

"So not only is the dragon soul, the one who taught you the ways of the dragon, no longer with you; but you also sacrificed your near infinite source of energy. The phoenix catalyst."
"That is the price the phoenix must pay to perform a resurrection, and the reason why he can perform only one."
"But these were the reasons why you were so strong. The dragon soul and the phoenix catalyst. And now you have none of them."
"A small price to pay."
"A truly huge price to pay."
"Perhaps, but the choice was an obvious one."
"It was not. You could have used the catalyst to destroy the remaining templars."
"And let Yuya be dead?"
"..."
"It would have been the logical choice."

"Pff... logic. Yes, I might have noble goals, some people may even have called me a hero."
"But I truly am a fool and you know it. I do not regret having made that choice."
"And I love you for having made that choice. You saved my daughter."

"We all paid a huge price back then. Selene died. Silver managed to get back for some reason which is beyond me."
"The council of gods was destroyed."
"But the Templar died. And now they are mortal."
"And they are after you."

I shrug.

"And I am after them."
"You're mad."
"I am Hyu."

Yuya has been awfully silent.

"I understand how you were able to come back and revive me."
"Your soul is taken when you die. But for you, 'a' soul was taken, but not yours."
"But still. After that you should never have been able to come back to this world."
"You are supposed to be dead."
"You have tried quite intensely to bring me back though. Surely you must have believed that it would work."
"Maybe... but what now that you know that you are supposed to be dead?"
"Nothing."

"But... what if death comes for you."
"There is only one thing you do if death comes for you."
"... give up... ?"

I give her a disapproving stare and raise my voice.

"You look death straight into its eyes and you say: 'not today'"

Shinave smiles for the first time.

"It is good to know that you are still Hyu. It is good to know that you are still the fool I remember."
"Can he do that... just like that?"
"How would I know? Do I know anyone who has tricked death itself?"
"What I do know is that he is Hyu."
"He is..."

Shinave inspects me from top to bottom.

"You have aged."
"You are weak."
"And you come to me now, which means..."
"I will ask you the impossible."
"After all that has happened, you really dare ask me?"
"Yes."
"And what do you suggest we do if I agree?"
"We will be a dead man walking and 2 gods that are no longer gods up against the Templars."
"How is that going to work?"
"You're forgetting about Silver and Ifrit."
"Ifrit? You are more insane than I thought."
"But even then. That's 2 dead men walking and 3 gods that are no longer gods. My question remains."
"I will come up with a plan of course."
"Because you are Hyu."
"Because I am Hyu."

For the first time in what feels like an eternity I put on a certain smile.
It is a somewhat dark smile. A smile looking forward to a battle that seemingly cannot be won.
A smile that challenges all beliefs. A smile that says that we can do the impossible.

"Will you come with me, oh goddess, and fight with me again?"
"..."
"Of course I will."

She looks at Yuya, then at me, back at Yuya, and back at me, clearly understanding what is going on.
Then she faces me and says:

"Back in the days the gods would have killed your for this."

But she doesn't say it in a serious way. I'm not sure if she approves, but I do know that she does not mind.

"I wonder what Ifrit is going to think about this."

I turn around and start walking towards the portal and shrug.

"I'd rather not."

We laugh, even though it isn't really that funny. He's one of the very old gods. He can never know. He would indeed kill me.
I stop.

"As long as we can still laugh like this, the world isn't lost."

That puts a reassuring smile on Shinave and Yuya's face.
Ha. I still have it in me.
I am still a leader.
And I will do this.
I will end what I have started 15 years ago. I will end the tyranny that is the existence of the Templars.
I just have to figure out how.
Preferably without killing half of us in the process this time.

I'm really motivated to start drawing out my dreams in the near future, especially when I think back on a few and can still remember the actions I did, facial expressions, etc.....maybe when college starts again for me, or some time during this vacation I might find one dream to do some drawings on.

My ultimate goal is to even add music along with the drawings too. I can already tell that would take a lot of time, and I would have to do it gradually because of that, but it should be interesting.

I'll just stop being reserved of what I can do and just use what I can do instead of wasting it each day I don't.

06.06.2012

Dogs (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The environment was kind of confusing to presume what time of day it was, but I assume it was morning because the sky was light gray, and the weather was kind of neutral, so it had to be morning, otherwise there would still be glaring hot rays over here.

Very calm environment, very nice as well, I could even push it a little and say that this would be an ideal environment to take a little stroll.....definitely at my University in this dream.

I believe I'm walking to get to my bicycle at what seems to be College Station in Texas, more specifically, the area where the statue of Sul Ross is located at. Yes, I can see it now......large spacious area in front of me, the statue probably 3-6 feet away from me if I paid attention to it.

I see there's a small chihuahua, light brown fur, and probably wearing a little pink cloth hanging around its neck was barking at me.

The owner was right next to it, and looking at the dog, I thought it was kind of cute for it to bark down on me like that. It looked so fragile that I could've squished on it if I wanted to.

Then when I focus my attention back to walking again, something zooms past me to my left. By the time I turn my head to the left, whatever it is already gone, and I'm still a bit delayed from this.

I'm like "uhhhhh" while still looking to the left and to the ground, and then after a few seconds, I look where the thing was headed that went ahead of me. I see it's a dog.

Okay, no problem, I'm a little slow that it basically looks like a double sized pit-bull, and that the owner trying to stop it, even though her weight alone and her holding on the leash should've been enough to prevent the dog from moving.

When I said her weight should've been enough, she was pretty chunky and short. She looked very young as well, I'd say 15-16 or so based on what I saw from far away.

This dog was obviously not within her control, and I believe it was wearing a dark blue cloth around its neck as well. This reminds me of the group of dogs in Okami that are supposed to be guardians or something.

I'd say the dog looked like the 4th one on the bottom to the right, and wore a blue scarf or cloth like the one 3 squares above it. Oh, and it had the ears of the one 3 square above it as well.

I believe it also has a deformed white oval extending from the bottom of its neck, all the way to its body. I look at it for a while, still being a retard until something clicks in my head.


HO



LY





SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



That dog was this close from freaking tearing my ass into pieces!!! I quickly look at it, it's still a good distance away from me, but if it could go that fast to where it takes a while for me to notice something passed me, the "safe" distance didn't matter.

I'd say it was 20-30 feet away from me, and I saw that the owner was trying her best to stop the dog by pulling the leash very vigorously.

I could've just played it off and ignore the dog, but this thing is too freaking twitchy for me me to be passive all over again. I finally get me legs in synch with the "holy shit" moment I just had, and the dog turns around 180 to see what's behind it.

Something tells me that in that dog's mind, it was saying "Did I get him? Did I get him? Did I get him? Did I get him?"


*sigh*


But enough for instilling a Black stereotype on myself. I was still scared, just a bit, of this dog possibly coming after me. The owner finally had a good grip on him/her/whatever the fuck you want to label that atrocity, but I didn't want to take my chances.

Me and the dog are both looking at each other from a distance, and it seems that it just happened to glance at me while it's looking at other people as well. I didn't want to take my chances, so I ran a little to the left away from it, built up some speed, and then prepared to do a twirl while jumping in the air like I'm some kind of Ice Ballerina.

I actually pull it off with ease, and I think I land perfectly as well, I can feel myself twirling in the air, feeling as if I might fail and fall, but I land majestically, at least from what I experienced.

When I landed, I bumped into one of those La-Z-Boy furniture chairs, so I guess the landing wasn't really perfect. It seemed I just happened to step on the lever that brings the sofa chair back, so I bend down to pull/push the lever to bring it back up.

I can't remember what I did next.

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06.06.2012

Party (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm shirtless throughout most of the this party. It's held inside the house that I'm at in waking life. There seems to be a lot of young people here at first, and I assumed I guess I hosted the party, even though I never hosted on in my life.

I walk around, see a few familiar people, and then I saw her...


Isaura...sigh.

She's not with her boyfriend. Why did she have to be in this dream?

She's wearing a short black jacket that just hands half way to her waste, and I believe she's wearing a striped shirt going horizontally. She's also wearing a really short denim skirt with black stockings underneath and some pretty fancy dark red heels.

Her lips as well are dark red, which makes her more enticing to have a conversation with. But she had a boyfriend in waking life, I'm not going to talk to her at all, even if it is just a dream.

I'm waiting in line to get some food, wait, I have to wait in line if I'm hosting this bloody party?

Wow.


Anyway, while I'm waiting in line, I see some guy that looks like Ivan in real life (guy from High School that I kinda knew in one or two classes).

He's shirtless too, though I don't really pay attention to the details, and I think some guys like myself were either wearing short black sports pants or some weird yellow or black cloth covering our private parts. Ivan asks a stupid question, like he mostly does from what I recall in waking life, and this query of this is wondering how he can alter the color of the cloth he's wearing.

There's supposed to be an island cabinet in the middle of the kitchen (so much for reality checking), but the brown dining table replaces it, and some random person grabs Ivan's cloth, and you know the tiny little gap that shows from tables that can be split in two in order to save space when you don't need them?

Yeah, someone puts the cloth between it, rubs it a little in between, and take it out, and it matches the color of the brown table.

Okay.....don't know exactly why Ivan wants a change in color for his cloth, but not my concern, hell, I think I wanted mine changed too....LOL.

Anyway, as I'm getting closer and closer to the food, I'm still waiting behind Ivan. Then I realize the food in front of me would be gone. Ivan goes around the table to where we're facing each other, and I see there's like 4 pieces of food left, like Hors d'oeuvres type of food.

Sigh.....

I let Ivan take it, and try to look around to see if there's any food, but the only thing I'm seeing are chips and some small packets of what seemed to be red salsa for it. I think there were Fruit Loops cereal as well.

I get a bowl, and I think I put some chips inside, but I also think I put some Fruit Loops inside of it as well. I guess I forgot that I put chips in the bowl.

The dream shifts, and I'm in the same kitchen, and I see bottles of some black stuff. In my mind, I thought they were overloads from Runescape.

To describe what Overload potions are in a nutshell: Basically, you need 96 Herblore to make these things, but you can boost your stats up if you're lucky and get a 5+ bonus from Spicy Stew. When you drink a dose of an Overload potion, your combat stats go WAY up, making it useful for killing things faster, and the effect lasts for 5 minutes.

If you're 99 in all combat stats, you're basically level 125 in Attack, Strength, Defense, Range (I think) and 106 for mage I think? (because having 125 Mage means you're a fucking god). Oh and if you drink potions that drain your stats, as long as you have Overloads and have the effect own, it boosts them back up to max, so it's the perfect potion when you use items like Saradomin Brews that boost your health way up, but drain your stats as tradeoff.

Think of Overloads as Steroids in the game.

Okay back to the dream.

I'm filling out this black substance in different containers starting from as small as a regular bottle with a cap on it, to as large as a oil barrel.

My second thought of what the black substance was is oil as well, the overload thing came into mind after I assumed it was oil. I pour it out in bigger containers, for some odd reason, and then I think I reached the point to where I just pour things out without really giving much thought to it.

I think I drank some stuff from the bottle, then realized I probably took some of the black substance, panicked a little, but it was actually water, not the black substance.

Then someone calls out my name, I turn around, and it's one of older people in their 50s calling me. It's from a group in waking life that basically has parties for anyone's birthday.

Anyway, as I'm listening to her, though I forget what she said specifically, I'm tying up what seems to be a trash bag. I tell her to give me a few seconds to finish tying up the bag, and there were several people sitting near the couches and chairs as well.

The dream shifts again to where the party finally ends. I go outside the garage, and the environment outside is completely mixed up. On my right, I see parts of College Station, Texas, more specifically, areas near the Clock Tower and Texas A&M.

I even see the railroad lane and some oncoming traffic as well, and yet I don't do a reality check for this. I think someone comes in to see if the party is still going, but I'm not sure what I said, but they left eventually. I think I was outside at the garage to get some kind of fairly large blue object, like an over-sized notebook of some sort, and probably went back inside the house.

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06.06.2012

Hypocrite (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I sitting on my bed, it's bright as day from what I see through the blinds and the overall natural lighting of the room I'm in. There are a few kids around, so I presumed I have to babysit them while the adults party it up....-.-

I threw a paper ball at one kid, and quickly changed my facade to where I had no participation in this. He turns around to find out who it was, and he's not completely stupid fortunately.

He's a small kid, probably 6-7 years of age I believe, and resembles one of the twin kids that I sometimes have to make sure behave when they come to this house in waking life. He's wondering where the paper balls are, and they are right next to my left leg. It seems I'm wearing long gym pants.

Before the kid could check the left side, I slowly put my leg on top of the paper balls, and when he goes on the left side, he's wondering what the hell happened to the rest of the paper balls.

Lol, what a bloody idiot. I continue pretending that I didn't do anything by asking him where they could possibly be. I even pulled out some sheets that I probably used to cover myself while sleeping to help him see if there were there.

Nada, still under my legs, he isn't going to find those paper balls.

Idiot.

I guess he gives up eventually because there's a dream shift where I'm talking to another child. I have to bend down on my knees, and slant my back forward just to make eye contact with him.

The kid did something that irritated me, probably something he said to the other kids. He's dark-skinned, resembles another kid who is a little bit more mature than the other twins, probably 9-13 years of age in waking life now.

I tell him he's a hypocrite.

His face is still, I don't think he knows what hypocrite or hypocrisy means. I almost thought he was going to tell on me for calling him one.....LOL...but really, he asks me,

"What's that?"

I gave him what I thought it was at the time with my diluted logic in this dream. I told him that a Hypocrite is a person who tries to proclaim ideals that should be met, and contradicts those intentions by not trying to follow them.

I even give him an example, a horrible example that went a little out of context. I declared something about believing in God, The Bible, Angels, etc., and then contradicting those intentions and ideals by not believing in Angelic symbols.


I'm paraphrasing here, but I know I did a horrible job with telling this kid what it means. Oh well, don't give a crap on what I instill in that kid's head, just wanted to enlighten him so he wouldn't be bothering me, or possibly go up to his parents and declare that I called him a hypocrite.

Boy....that wouldn't be fun.....especially with how my father tries his best to let the adults enjoy and loosen themselves at parties...I might as well fabricate whatever came out of my ass at the time.

Not saying I want to ruin the parties or anything, just that the children can be horrible sometimes with their behavior. Thank goodness for video games or just basic television, because that's the only thing that will shut them up.

Man, I really do hate children huh? Guess I won't be considering marriage for a loooong time.

My friends and I were in a basement living room type place. For some reason it was a time where we had to be reckless with each others lives, the fact that zombies/ monsters were trying to take over humanity probably had something to do with it. One of my friends was shooting/ throwing arrows at the wall recklessly and I think got someone in the arm . A few others were playing a board game where the looser was about to get a drill through his hand :shock:. We had locked ourselves (or tried to) into this house for the night because of the zombies/ monsters or whatever the hell was trying to take over, it seemed like it could be anything, but we also had to watch out for each other. I wanted to get some sleep but I knew I shouldn't put myself in such a vulnerable position, a girl I was talking to said it's hell and almost impossible to sleep here not knowing what you're gonna wake to lol. As a bunch of people and I were sitting on a couch in the basement room talking, we hear the door at the top of the stairs slam open, and obviously it was something huge (it kind of looked like one of those evil things from the movie gremlin but like 7 ft tall and huge). There was a closet I hid in before it could see us. I think it left or something because I found everyone trying to sneak away before I knew what had happened lol. I end up in one of the upstairs rooms late at night watching some staticy station where people were trying to get in touch with each other with radios and talk about the state of their area and what happened to them etc. I turn it off and go down stairs. I'm surprised to see one friend sleeping on the couch who I didn't think was in the house at all. He jumps up at the sound of me with a knife in his hand, but I was more relieved to see him than anything. After he realizes it's me we talk about how we were going to escape from the area, find certain people, and find weapons. Since we were low on food, he suggested that we mix battery acid and banana peels lol. I said we better leave as soon as we can. We end up at a mall type place and find someone he was looking for, I really wanted to find a taser for some reason so we ask her if she knows anywhere we could find them, then I wake up. I kind of wish more monster action went on :?