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13/5/2014
before 3am

I was in my room and leaving when I noticed this nasty bug on the floor. I went into the kitchen to tell my father we needed to call an exterminator, and he replied "it's fine, those are just moths before they become moths". I then watch as one morphs into a cocoon and suddenly there are quite a few cocoons littered across our floor, which I still thought was disgusting. (I think they ended up just disappearing because they werent in the dream anymore)
I then also remember someone pulling up in our yard in a truck that looked half monster truck near my deck, except my deck was either not there or signifcantly smaller. Also we had no fence. someone said "That's joey wilkerson" and he kept on slowly driving by our yard, and then I think he just disappeared. Then my two of my friends came pulling in in a truck but they never came out, I just knew both of them were in it and that it was there truck. The windows were tinted and so I couldn't see in.
Also I noticed the lighting was fairly dim like it was a bit past dawn (like 6-something am)

that's all I remember

I was in my house. It was night time, and I was the only one awake. I make my way to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror. I notice something strange, my eyes were extremely dilated. It was like i had just taken some acid. I had no iris whatsoever as my pupil took over my eye. It was nothing but a pupil. Almost immediately I felt a paranoia creeping up on me. "What if someone sees me? What if someone notices my eyes?". These are the thoughts that cross my brain. I feel strange and time is incredibly slow. I wander about my house, periodically checking my eyes in the mirror. Sometimes they shrink slightly, but for the most part they are gigantic.

I am on this road and there is this crazy, deadly Japanese game show that came to America. I don't remember much from this dream but I remember that there is this arena. It is part of the game show. A guy falls off the edge to his death.

Hi, I'm Marcus. You may remember me from threads such as "2014 Lucid Goals" and "What happened? Post Your WILD Attempts, Good or Bad, Here" (well, probably not).

Thing is, a while back I promised myself to get back into Lucid Dreaming. I gave up initially as I had to focus on exams. Before this, I managed a few fragmented LDs here and there; nothing special.

So, after these exams, I thought "well, now that I have so much free time, it's time to get back into Lucid Dreaming!". The problem was, I was so used to letting time pass by without a thought in the world, of not being aware of the very thisness of the situation, that getting back into it became exhaustive. This, piled on top of the even more demanding life of Sixth Form college, left me pretty much unable to do anything, as I was so focussed on work and that awareness once again fizzled away. The fact is, my second attempt at building awareness and achieving lucidity was worse than my first.

Once again, I find myself craving that ability to do whatever I want without a care in the world. I also believe that I could harness this skill to learn/improve other skills (this is something I want to experiment with). Also, the feeling. Oh god, the feeling. That first moment you realise you're in a dream is something sensational! Your entire perception of reality suddenly doubles over at this point; submitting to the ultimate roundhouse kick to the groin that is your imagination, because you think of all the possibilities. Then it's all over.

Back to the point, I find myself nearing exams once again. I don't feel as though I can begin building over the charred remains that was my self awareness just yet (these metaphors are killing me!). Then there's the excitement of spending my waking hours looking for a suitable University, then starting the proper half of my A-level course, then finishing my A-level course, then preparing for more exams, then finishing those exams and waiting anxiously for the results, then hopefully going to University.... On the plus side, I do have a few weeks holiday soon so I could start then!

I must say, if, over the next few months, I manage to reacquire my relatively limp ability to lucid dream, I will be happy. In the meantime, I may occasionally post some more Journals because a) I find it fun to write and express my feelings towards what is potentially the entire world and b) there may be those of you in a similar position to me, whether it's school, college, work or whatever, you may be finding that daily life detracts from lucid dreaming. So for now my goal is to achieve one Lucid Dream by the end of July. It's not much, it gives me time to finish my exams, but it's a start. If by some ridiculous chance I do achieve one in this time, my goal will double. Is this a world first? An exponential LD goal? Surely not!

Summary (if you want to skip the irrelevant "my life is so occupied, and I'm complaining about it!" crap):

• Have one lucid dream. Case of achieving one in time frame doubles goal

Also, any advice is warmly welcomed! Thanks for reading.

So how the dream starts I'm in a confuse false awaking before I fall asleep then wen I sleep I wake up in a dream yet the clarity an clairvoyance sometimes isn't as powerful as my past sleep states not to say that I know I'm dreaming or not I notice my surrounding a little more crisp than what they usual are as the dream continue on I notice I'm going thru Dream transformation yet I'm not. Human while I sleep I see thru the eye of a blue eye monkey so while I struggle with lucidity to sustain my dream form I have a non-lucid transformation trying to get the clarity of a lucid being if I don't become lucid enough thru the first transformation I then induce a lucid consistent trance where I try an confused my non lucid mind into thinking I'm still trap in a dream state that I could fall in an out of sleep into while strengthen my lucidity with each dream transformation the trance lucid form of myself as a blue eye monkey become stronger an my lucidity also heightens taking. Me thru a new plane of Hi.

Last night, I had my second lucid dream. In it, I became aware my mother, who I had just been talking to, had vanished. This sparked lucidity, and I euphorically ran down a track at a college I live nearby to, shouting in triumph. I nearly lost lucidity, so I calmed down. I've never flown in a dream, so I tried. Nothing happened, even though I knew it was a dream, I knew I was able to fly if I had the expectation present. Disappointed, I saw my sister walking ahead of me, but she was walking funny.. like she was made of melted putty, swinging her arms and legs strangely. She transformed then into a large, sinister character with a monstrous face torn in some parts to reveal his skull, which was slightly on fire, wearing a trench coat. Rorschach meets Ghost Rider, then takes nightmare steroids and grows. He strode quickly toward me, then transformed into an obscure acquaintance. My desire in dreams is to talk to DCs, so I asked him, what do you represent? He answered, you, now. He walked away, gaining a blue toga and a massive bow, like a Greek hero, or Kid Icarus. I looked into the sky, which started to fade to black, then back down to retain my dream awareness. I tried spinning to a new environment to no avail.

Knowing this was a lucid dream, I started looking for some lucid booty, and I am not a pirate. I asked several women I saw to undress, but they vehemently defended their honor as any woman in a street would, making me feel self-conscious and slightly abashed. I walked into a nearby building and couldn't change anything. Nothing, I was in a very low degree control over the dream. I talked with a couple people about making plans to go to another dream, and they were drawing up plans for it (a cruise in a wondrous tropical sea with a boatload of girls), when I walked past a man I knew sitting on a couch. He said, Matt, this will always be a part of you, then proceeded to molest a girl I know who he was next to, who was sniffling and unresponsive. Enraged, I lost sight of creating a tropical paradise and wanted to hit him, though I'm not generally violent. As I moved slightly toward him, I merged with the girl on the couch, who turned into a very close lady friend, and the dream turned sexual.

I woke up feeling angry, ashamed at the disturbing content and thrown off in general. Did I expect to be turned down? Was the amorous ending a reward for trying to attack evil, or did I give into my anger and become the evil itself? Mainly, I see the strangeness of it all as being caused by my inability to control and manipulate my dream environment (not able to fly, create new dream, etc.). If I had been flying, I think I could have escaped the nightmarish elements of it.

The real unanswerable question is, why are the two evil characters in the piece, the fearsome monster hero and the predator, a part of me, and how can I either integrate them into my psyche... or destroy them? Love your enemies despite their wickedness, even if they are within, or are these weeds in me that I should be rooted out and burned?

5/13/14

Last naight bed 12:30am - 8am

DR:
I'm in a Japanese dojo. It's quite large. There is a group of us. I recognize one person from my school. We are suppose to learn some new skills. Right now we are being taught swordfighting.

A sensei in long Japanese garb of dark color is swinging with a very long and curved sword. As he swings, he makes sounds and yells out words in Japanese. (we were talking with mismagius last night about our dreams of Japan).

I'm kinda embarrased to be yelling "hayyyyaaaa" and stuff like that, so I'm kinda not wanting to do it.

When the class is over, I understand that I can't advance, unless I learn the Katana. So I look up some books that I know sensei was learning from, or recommended. I find 2 books. One is called "Marble [art, fighting, or something similar]. I'm flipping pages and there is so many of these yells in japanese, that you have to yell out at specific sword moves. I'm like, wow, this is like a whole script, how am I suppose to learn this, all in Japanese.

Had tons of other dreams, seems like dreaming all night.

5/13/14*! ~1020 150-2:30 NLD recall+wakefulness 4:10wake from LD up til ~5am DJ+windows. ~6:15; More recall, 735 up

Notes: Went to bed a little early and early wake back to bed after only sleeping 3.5 hours but did not do much except think about my recent dream scenario/taking control/being bold DILDs and visualizing it happening again and becoming lucid. Also right before bed I do my simulation of the levitation RC and visualizing moving straight to the task of the month.

I am in a movie theater / restaurant (it was one and then the other) and I head to the bathroom where (on the way) there is a sign that says something like "additional bathrooms to the left with additional amenities!" But I go to the closer one right in front of me am I standing at the urinal when over to the left I see there are a couple of women in another wing of the bathroom taking a peek at me and I let them have a little look but I still don't quite realize I am dreaming yet. I come out and C (wife of A) is in the hall and asked me to wait but I mostly ignore her and I look over into a room down the hall and I think "that looks like M" one of my wife's good friends. I also see M by the same name who is one of my son's friends and that's when I realize this must be a dream to see both of them together in the same odd place (as opposed to a party at my house or something). I say something to that effect and I try to levitate and at first it feels
more like my simulation but then I try again with more intention and confidence and it works. I float up into the air and fly-float around the room. I continue into another room down the hall already thinking about the musical performance task of the month and there is a band already playing and an empty drum set but no drumsticks and there is a crowd gathered set up more like a cocktail lounge with tables throughout and for the most part 2 people at each table, small round tables throughout the room. I tap on the empty drum set with my finger and then turn around and face the audience and start air drumming while imagining the song and while feeling the strong emotion of it: "I can feel it coming in the air tonight" by Phil Collins as planned. The drums start to appear although a little fuzzy and I keep playing and having a blast. Recalling the additional specifics of the task, I look around at the room for the reaction and the crowd seems mostly disinterested, not paying attention. Each table seems to be talking amongst themselves. (Later after the transition in the dream I try to think of another task and I decide against trying the Limerick and I think was it something to do with getting or giving a flower, no there was Sivason's idea of creating a field of flowers but that didn't become one of the tasks, never mind just have some fun. Back to the transition.) I feel the scene fading but I still feel firmly in dreamland and I start spinning and it works again! I think the trick for me now and why I have time to do the spin is that I no longer believe that just because the scene is fading that I have to wake up)! This time I do not think of anything specific but after a short while I start to feel the sensation of floating in water (again) and the sound of the ocean, and again I tell myself I will end up in shallow water and sure enough after what feels like 10-15 seconds later I'm at the foot of the beach and look back at the water. In the
water there are two yellow objects: a small one close by and a large one that looks like an empty raft further out. I decide to go check out the smaller one close by and go back into the water and grab it and it is one of those kid's arm-floaties perhaps another childhood memory. I love smelling those rubber items because they remind me of summer water toys that have that distinct strong chemical smell and remind me of wonderful summers past . I get caught in the tide a little bit but I'm slowly being pushed closer and closer to shore before I decide to just fly / zoom on out of the water and on to the shore. I look back out to the water again and there is a big group of what I assume are natives coming ashore. They seem like a lightly dressed but advanced civilization due to their hover-like boats that they come in to shore on (& later by the way that they talk), each with their own "boat" for the most part, a few with small kids along for the ride. They don't seem to see me at first and just come on to the shore in front of me and start walking over to my right. I call out to them and one man who seems to be the leader of the group comes over to me. I ask if they can bring me two of their most beautiful women. Just behind and next to him is a beautiful woman that looks quite a bit like Natalie Portman and I say she will be perfect. She walks over to me and seems fascinated by my mole as if it is some kind of sign and she kisses me on the lips. The leader guy may be with her and he looks a little jealous and he walks over to me also taking note of the mole and reaches around to the back of my neck and feels the bone protruding at the base of the back of my neck and seems to determine something from that and looks at me like I am strange and not like them. I tell him I come from a different time and place. It seems like a different time because it feels like if it were on earth it would be something similar to an Egyptian civilization but perhaps I'm not even on earth in this dream, thus a different place. This woman is so beautiful and I just hold her standing side by side admiring her body and touching her firm buttocks. She's wearing something like an intricate string bikini with lots of extra strings/straps wrapping around her waist area and connected to the bottom piece and something similar to her top covering but less strings/straps at top. It is beige in color as is the clothing of all of them. She is a great kisser! I start looking for the second woman and there is a younger one on the ground half-naked with no top on and while looking around and all the people I start to fade back to bed and can tell that I am clearly awake now. What an awesome dream! 146

I later had a false awakening where I was writing down my sports dream where the other player cheated in order to score. While reviewing the notes I noticed that what I wrote didn't make sense and I woke up.

I will be brief on these 2 sexual LDs:
5/9: cute woman, see her naked backside at beach and feel bold and recognize that as a dream scenario=DILD, I went over to her and she gave me a very realistic bj, a very good bj that felt like it would be "professional." Another couple came in and the lady was very cute and was right next to me so I tried to reach back and open up her blouse while getting the bj from the original cute woman but the guy with her took her away. The bj portion lasted several minutes at least. 144

5/10 ex's family (talked about her this day) cg peeking at me changing, feeling frisky but don't yet realize I'm dreaming and go to bed in the dream: in dream wild...wow I think, I started dreaming quick!...as soon as my head hit the pillow! I'm dreaming! Same room cg + other women. Put her hands down my pants and go for a while before seeing another beautiful woman and walking over to her putting her hands down my pants feeling her "ahem" moist through her underwear and then we both get naked and I put it in and out slowly and I talk dirty to her and she loves it. Nice lengthy LD. 145

I woke up at 6am and couldn't get back to sleep until after 8am. I began to drift off to sleep and immediately started dreaming that I was standing in a room staring at a painting. I felt confused for a moment, then remembered I was just trying to get back to sleep. Yay dream! So I started walking and thought of the telekinesis task. I felt like my mouth and voice were paralyzed though. So much for the performance task. I tried to speak, and I could make noises but my mouth was locked shut. You know, like when you try to speak without opening your mouth? Really weird.

It wasn't long before I realized that my vision was beginning to get all washed out. Not a very stable lucid at all. So I just stood there for a moment, then this is weird: I felt another set of eyes open, and everything was stable and I could speak. I didn't do anything to 'stabilize' the dream, it was more like I needed to wait out some kind of transition phase. This isn't the first time it has happened to me during a DILD, but it's the first time that I had the understanding that I just need to do nothing and wait it out.

I'm skipping some stuff due to time, but there were a couple things with mirrors. Anyway I decided to lift a cell phone without touching it and I did it. First time for me. Then I started lifting people. One was my store manager and I lifted her, made her to horizontal, and spun her around and around and she was screaming the whole while haha.

Then I thought to try the performance task. Singing wouldn't be an issue but where was I going to get a band and an audience? I went outside and saw an amphitheater with a band at the center! I ran up to them and asked if they wanted to perform some Heart. One guy said sure. I wondered if I could 'lift' people from the horizon with telekinesis. I focused on the horizon and lifted my hands, and a row of maybe 10 people appeared and I dropped them into the audience seats. I did that maybe 3 more times. I started singing a Heart song but forgot how it went, and suddenly the band and I were performing some Barbara Streisand.

I'm running out if time gotta go to work. Ill post more later but I have to say that I got booed really bad for singing Streisand hahaha. I just laughed in the dream and decided to get really obnoxious and sang Magic from Xanadu. A fun dream for me.

I did a proper WBTB - but only after only 2.5 h sleep, because I woke up naturally then, and felt weirdly awake. So I stayed up for half an hour and tried for WILD quite a longish while - maybe even half an hour - but then rolled over and slept and no LD.
So today I do a hypnosis session once more and combine with another, later WBTB.
If that then works - I know, that hypnosis has it's part in it. My latest 2/3 LDs were connected to doing it.

Just to get into journalling again - three fragments/parts of dreams:

I was with friends from work and a woman told me, that there would be a huge charity event, and if I wanted to take part.
Her husband and other doctors were putting on a show to gather money for children in need by -
flatlining themselves!! Bringing their hearts to a stop (medically) and leaving it so for 5 min. before reanimation.
I was horrified and tried to keep them from doing it - told them what all could happen - how mad I find it.
But they did it anyway and nobody died.

Another scene had me in school and a friend from university was there, too - and suddenly she takes out a mirror and a straw and some white powder - again me scampering to prevent her from doing that in the middle of class, whatever it supposedly was. That's a new one - don't think I ever dream of drugs normally - at least I don't remember it, but there's nothing to inspire such anyway - just to make that clear.

Another fragment was me having birthday and coming home with some friends of mine, and my mother had prepared such a food-pyramid-tray - don't know how to call that in English - and it was full of nuts and sweets and for some reason, I can see it clearly and in detail, when I remember it - there are always some picture-impressions, which stick for no obvious reason at all. Then there was a little bit of a festivity in an old childhood room, which was even smaller than it used to be, and we had trouble fitting in. Then we were chatting and eating. Na well.

:sleepysteph:

on a plane and i got off and forgot my back pack. aftwerwards i had struggles in the airport cause a little girl didn't tell me i had left it. so i went to wall greens and the milk specalist helped me find it. i was on a motor cycle later and was trying to listen to head phones. later later my mom wanted to scub dive but i was to worried about sharks so i shut her down and said id chill in the hotel room. then i was on this game show infront of my peers that inolved shrinking down 2 a video game size and beating 2 levels of some game.

THIS was by FAR the BEST dream that I have EVER had.. <3 I love wolves, too.. I always have since I was a kid. Here it goes:



My husband, Jeff, and I were in the woods and we were talking to a bunch of Navajo Native Americans.

*The woods were beautiful.

*I looked around and noticed that there were wolves surrounding us.

*I walked deeper into the woods and three wolves got really close to me.*

I felt fear at first but that quickly went away when they came right up by my side and I started to pet them.

*As I was petting them I felt calm, peaceful, and spiritual. The wolves were so gorgeous.*

I felt so happy. I woke up feeling great, amazing.*

A part of me wonders if the wolf was my spirit guide visiting me in my dreams.

*I love wolves. I have a spiritual connection with them. I always have..

*They are absolutely amazing. I wish I would have this dream again and again. It was the best dream that I have had in my entire life! This dream can also be found in my personal blogger, dream blog..

(/ means my own thoughts on the dream, I write these down simultaneously as I write about my dream)

I woke up in the middle of the night and quickly wrote down what I could recall (I did not know I had done this when I woke up this morning)

When I came home during the day I was eager to see what I had written, because during the day I realized I wrote something down in the middle of the night.
So when I came home I checked my dream journal and this is what I had written:

''A picture of two white dots in a white background.'' /Hard to explain

This sounded like a nrem dream, interesting.
I sat there very surprised, as I could not recall writing this down, then I continued, because I noticed I had made another entry:

''Massacre'' /I wanted to kill for some reason

Erm, this sounded very pshyco-ish to me I'm a bit sad I could not recall the whole dream, because these few words made it sound interesting haha.

-Senju

I had this dream a little while ago. It's almost 5:30am. I've been playing Pokemon Y for the last hour and posted on Pokecommunity.com before that about trading Pokemon on the Global Trading System. Anyway, about the dream.

Dreamt I was being followed and cursed at by angry man. I turned to face him, focused on him, and proceeded to lift him off the ground and launch him into space without raising a finger. First time I've ever defended myself with telekinesis in a dream. It felt semi-lucid...like a reflex.

I'm going back to bed...still tired...

Ok, so this dream was one of the longest, most realistic, and lucid dreams I have ever had. But I will try to make it short, without skipping any detail. So the part where is remember the dream started, was on a bus. Myself and a few other people were going into a jungle (something like the amazon). We were part of a movie, as far as I remember, and before we know it a two men that looked like mayans jumped down from the ceiling of the bus and landed at the front, In front of me and my crew. As soon as they land they start to throw huge sharp knifes towards us, and all of sudden it turns into a sort of game. Of course this is still all too real and I'm still not lucid. The knives fly past me, missing me but slowly by slowly hitting and either injuring or killing my crew. I at this point am shitting myself but at the same time able to dodge all the fast flying machetes. They realise they had killed all of my men and look towards me with hate and despise, because they were unable to hit me. So they both start throwing knives at me and I jump out of the windows of the bus, and watch the two mayans fall to their fate off of a huge cliff. I'm surprised I'm still alive at this point but I continue my journey into the wild to find a huge school, that resembles hogwarts but is 5 times bigger. There are majestic, magical lions tied up like regular pet dogs, colorful red stands where you can but things like hotdogs and different foods, and also there were trailers parted in the field. I head inside to check the castle out.. The first floor is quite, without a sound. People are just walking around in this library like floor, all just doing there business. I got on some magical elevator and found myself on the fifth floor. But when I got out of the elevator I found myself with a girl. Unable to still understand it's a dream the girl and I walk down a floor, as if we were trying to get to the bottom again. But on the third floor it was dark, and cold.. Drops of water would fall from the ceiling and there was a huge beast that came galloping towards, with a murderous roar while at the same time crying. This shit was fucked up. But anyways with the two of my hands I focused on stopping the beast and what do you know.. It worked! I levitated the best and threw hin against the wall. After that point I knew I was dreaming but here is the weird part. Whenever I Know I'm dreaming and turn it into a lucid dream I always get excited. Almost kicking myself out, but this just felt normal. In the dream I said to myself "ok, so it's a lucid one.., "and I carried on. On my way down the second floor, my powers of telekinesis were getting much strong and the dream became all the more vivid. I emobilised many enemies and found myself in a tent full of girls. And with heavy focus I was able to give them a spectacular show with my powers and of course I got laid. I won't go into detail.. All I will say Is the sex was amazing and very very real. I remember when I was a kid and had a wet dream, I wouldn't be able to" stick it "'into anything because it would hurt or I'd wake myself up, but this was just full on" in out in out".. So after that I found myself in my house, which is my real house in the real world. And I do some magic for my mom and her husband, and they just don't understand what's going on. They are absolutely stuttering now.. Then I wake...

.../It's twilight time. No lights outside. I went out home but must get back, I forgot something. 3 guys are walking close in a suspicious attitude. I keep my distance, they don't look too friendly. I don't want to walk in front of them. I see them changing direction in a crossroad. I get to the door, open it and get in. In the corridor, there are 2 doors to get into the apartment. My cousin's wife opens the door which connects to the kitchen, I prefer to use the other one that leads to the living room. I have a bag in my hand, I let it on the floor. There's something about their daughter/...

* That apartment is an old recurrent dreamscape

.../I see a friend of mine from my elementary school times. He's older now and takes part in a sport event with other students from his new school. They are formed in lines wearing sport uniforms in white and light blue. I remember he had a little sister. I remember he was the only one who could help me stop crying when I squeezed my finger with a tree trunk when we were little kids. I think I should say he acted like an angel/...

* From time to time I tend to remember in dreams, people who I don't see since a very long time. I don't know if I'm going to see them again but in dreams.

.../I'm at the bottom of some long stairs. I'm wearing my folk dance custom of a devil. It's the second day of the party. I'm with a DC who is a mixture of my wife and an ex-girlfriend. She helps me to push a mountain bike I'm riding to go up. In the middle of the stairs we meet a friend of mine who greets her with a kiss in each cheek and one in the lips. I pretend to ignore it. He asks me if there was something wrong. I say him I just didn't like that. There's nobody else from the group at the top of the stairs. Apparently we are the first people to get there. We walk around. It's twilight time...

* Alarm clock went off.
* The DC mixture appears from time to time, she didn't like it when I told her it was a dream once.
* I'm still trying to find a proper timing and a structure to fit my daily activity.